#BUT his traitor theory is still yummy :3

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[ohimesama]

10.5.22 Wednesday

12:48 am

I still have the windblow trap.... Uncle Jun is now sleeping... This is not my ideal life... I wanna leave the hometown... I need money and self-fulfillment... I wanna see people,that I wanna see...Unfair cult of Manalo... I hate being smash down by this people in Cavite.

I feel hurt,this is serious... I can't meet upper men/friends,my situation is very tight.. I wanna spread my wings,I hope I have "wind beneath my wings"...I have complex not my ideal life.

8:14 am

I just woke-up with bitterness and Uncle Jun went out going to his baranggay task...

Will have my kohi/coffee....The food allowance is last day today and I'm having a hard time balancing if Uncle DD can't give the 2500 weekly,imagine even some soaps and dishwashing will be pulled from that allowance...

I still, wanna leave the hometown... I feel envious and jealous hating their friendship that they didn't want me from the start since 2007 that cult here in Cavite! NOT MY IDEAL LIFE!

I'm self-pitying....Wanna see young JP and Mitch coz of this crazy situation,most specially young JP....Wanna see old friends on the upper bracket, a genuine old friends...

I hate the cult of Manalo!!! I hate them so much!!! Globally the cult of Manalo!!!

8:34 am

Lemme just share a thing day after day until I turn 41 this month....I was raised by my adoptive parent's in the church of christ of Manalo since I was 13 here in Cavite... They told me to humble the heart coz I was able to buy things that I want that other people couldn't have...

I was able to shop weekly buying skechers,imagine spending 3k to 5k pesoses weekly... Remember,angels? Aside from my "hello kitty stuff" in actual Sanrio Shop, I spent another 3k for bags and some pins and my bag buying weekly...Plus,my original derma shop at "Dermclinic" Doctor Pineda... The reason I cried on Mayee coz during the time that we worked in Cebu Pacific Air, I couldn't afford coz of our downfall after college...

I was a choir member and was able to perfect the main 27 basics doctrine of church of christ of Manalo... But it is not healthy coz my mind wasn't awakened... In this life you have to balance your spirituality, the material world and the needs of your body... For me those 3 are important...

10:58

Loving Netflix....But I need personal progress...

11 am

Still,wanna leave the hometown...I feel self-pity and bitterish...

11:53 am

Uncle Jun is here for his lunch break, for the record... He said we need to cook the mushroom asap coz it will lose its taste...

12:38 noon

I just used olive oil coz no butter available....Sauteed it wow! Yummy! Juicy!

I observed it is "Fresh Oyster Mushroom" ...

2:01 pm

Let's go to the darker side hahaha These are my crazy biological parent's... They were artist kind...

3:20 pm

I still have the windblow trap... My personal case I still wanna leave the hometown... I feel bitter and I feel self-pity...

I have destroyers coming from the cult of Manalo,hating them so much for flattening me unfairly... I hate being their supporters and planning to cage me to be their supporter only. I want personal growth now that I feel so fat and ugly here in Cavite...

Theory & Trivia:

I'm a college graduate but some members of the family are linking with that fucking cult of Manalo just to remove my college diploma... Or perhaps some traitor coming from church of christ and mixed people that they recruited...

Some people, probably assuming that they know me so well but the real thing they are monsters who are envious of me...

4:21 pm

Text of Uncle DD...

This is Uncle DD...

8:01 pm

We went out awhile ago me and my bebeh-John still the same,reacting on street dogs... But there is one street dog, that I want John to threaten coz his tail is up... Whew!

Still,I want John to enter K9... I need money and money....I hate the cult of Cavite!

I feel bitter,I feel low here.. I feel bitter so bitter in Cavite/ recruited of Manalo cult!!! I need money! I want self-fulfillment... I want my moment,it's been 15 years!

8:32 pm

Theory:

Hmm... Mommy Peachy needs to find a good friend just like young JP,for the K9 schooling of bebeh John... Being a friend to me must be a mutual thingy... He must love John as his own bebeh... John is a special dog...

But one thing for sure if someone will kill me,my bebeh-dog will know... He is special, in a way... God gave him a second spirit of an angel... Believe or not...

Reality:

I need a job away from here and I feel bitter and self-pity... I wanna buy stuff and wanna go back to gym and wanna do whitening injection and vagina clearing...

Everything is in God's time... I want my individuality... My self-esteem is zero... I feel irritated and super bitter!

9:23 pm

I'm supposed to be a Queen but this country is not a muslim... Some cases are applicable... I was pampered! Then,this windblow trap caged me for 15 years,to erase us and erase me!

I was spoiled in a good way... I feel bitter when I have to go down here in Cavite! I feel stupid for 15 years!

They made me their strength when they know that we are poor now and I'm poor...

I'm not bragging or anything... I donated money to my alma mater in Immaculate Conception Academy coz of "friendship"... Big amount of money coz of "friendship"!!!

[ohimesama]

10.4.22 Tuesday

7:21 am

Uncle Jun already up and went outside probably will feed Neko...

Me? I'm up now,drinking my kohi/coffee and still having this windblow trap... My personal case,wanna leave the hometown...

Theory:

A family or a circle of friends will never be successful if there is traitor inside the so called "group".

There is a so called "group" but all of the members only have their own personal agenda. Or there are people who joined but to spy on the agenda but will never be real on the main goal... A sad kingdom.... or there is "conspiracy" coming from old friends or from the family... A sad kingdom... is it???

9:14 am

Uncle Jun is doing his tik-tokings in the kitchen,now...

10:40 am

Uncle Jun went out going to baranggay...

Theory:

You can't give smile to a person that you don't even know their intestine.... That's the truth!

Theory:

You can't take a vow on protecting someone if you can't do it alone,first....You wanna be a protector but you let the baby grow old and you are putting the baby in the incubator for so long....The baby is already dead!!! No goal... No aim... Only jealousy and personal agenda! No success!!!

12:15 noon

Done,eating lunch with my bebeh-John....Thank God!

Trivia:

We presently have 1 aspin,her name is Lalah... This aspin is originally owned by my Uncle Jun and I just heard accidentally that Lalah is the legendary aspin in Cavite coz she is loved by a human being... She is treated with genuine love and care... The first aspin who is accepted in Cavite to have equal rights in a way,not to be abandoned on the street...

12:23 noon

Trivia:

I posted here that I was originally a cat lover... Our old living room,as you can see it used to be carpeted... We used to have 4 ac's... Whew!

12:57 noon

Trivia & Theory & Memory: On friendship!

It is just weird that I have a strange feeling on Mitch that she is somewhere,that I know that she is already married and happy perhaps and a doctor... We lost touch for so many years... Probably,my heart is longing for a good friend...

People will compare but 100% not coming from De La Salle University,coz people in De La Salle knew etiquette in life...

I just probably miss Mitch coz imagine for 3 1/2 years we were together,almost everyday from 7 am to 5pm or beyond... Mitch or Dra. San Juan she was part of yoga group coz of her scoliosis, she needs that and she was a mountaineer...

I remember she invited me to do yoga but I declined coz I enjoyed losing weight on taekwondo since I was still innocent and just enjoying...

2:26 pm

Theory:

A true friend will never back-stabbed you or tell stories that can cause your stage to shake,in- front of other people... A genuine friend will never open a negative thing about you even the intention is simply a joke...

An enemy will kick you, sometimes they will make it indirectly or in a way that is difficult for you to see...

My personal case,I feel self-pity...I have this windblow trap cult of Manalo! I feel bitter and bullshit!! Wanna leave the hometown... I feel fat and ugly...I need money and wanna express myself and I hate being caged unfairly... I need money and wanna do whitening injection and wanna a job away from here...

Theory:

A fake minister will never advice you to masturbate...They don't have the right to put a verdict on anyone most specially, for 15 years!

5:46 pm

I still have the windblow trap and I feel heavy from the past days... Hmm... Probably, coz of my sciatic pelvic pain... I still have the windblow trap and I feel self-pity and I need money and I feel bitter... I wanna leave the hometown...

I feel super self-pity... They took away my life since 2007!

5:57 pm

Uncle Jun went home and brought a cassava and mushroom flower, according to him Marvin, Old Ibias and him went to "Mushroom Burger" in Tagaytay...

In a lil while,I'm gonna share here something about that yummy "Mushroom Burger"...

6:47 pm

Oh! About this "Mushroom Burger" me and Mitch went there coz it was and still famous coz of the mushroom burger itself! Healthy and really,really yummy... Pricey for an ordinary earner around the cheapest is 2 to 3$ and beyond...

So, we went there, simply hanging out for a couple of times... Then,one day we need to decide our thesis topic... Then,one day again while we were eating,it suddenly pop-up in our head,to make a thesis about mushroom...

And I remember saying "oh! not bad at all!" Ohkay... Let's just think where we can have it for our thesis...

Then, we came up to a title of "Edible Mushroom of Basidiomycetes" as far as I can remember... Then, we asked Nick our old-aged classmate and in a way friend who lived in Laguna....We went to one of the falls there named " Buntot Palos of Laguna" or Tail of Palos Laguna... with Uncle Jun and his daughter,my cousin Janet as our supporters...

Hahaha Nick I remember Nick... He was our classmate and that time he was already on his 30's and we were both teenagers... Nick got a good family and nice house in Laguna....I remember he said my mother is crying,she didn't want me to leave the house or our family until I can give her my college diploma... That's why though I'm older than you guys and already I'm on my 30's,I have to finish my college and bring her my college diploma...

Those were the words of Nick,as far as I can remember...

Trivia:

A college diploma is a shield or a weapon when time comes that people around you is pushing you down and removing your dignity as an individual but still you have your shield...

That's my ID as a lifetime college graduate of De La Salle University...

7:36 pm

I have complex and I feel so ugly...I wanna be myself and spread my wings... I wanna see people that I wanna see... I need money, a straight talk... I need a friend who can be mutually compatible with my request and favour...Probably, an old friend like young JP... An upper friend....Time to grow....

I wanna leave the hometown,I wanna see donkey and camel...Whew!

And text of Uncle DD... I or we need money these days... I hate it we can't open the AC! I feel bitter and self-pity...

9:51 pm

I still have the windblow trap... Done,doing my stretching exercise on my sciatic pelvic pain but I think I need to see the chiropractor to fix this pain and to align whatever it is... I'm out of fundings... I can move but there is weird pain like an electricity running on my left pelvic, down to my left leg....

I feel self-pity and this weird cult of Manalo hating them so much for making me stupid for 15 years...

I need money... I have zero self-esteem for 15 years... I need a job for me... I'm losing my individuality and my rights as a woman and human being...

Wanna see people,that I wanna see... I hate being always on the 2nd choice...

Trivia:

Sex is a human nature....Sex is relevant to a human being with decency and respect and good linking of relationship with someone that you like or having a mutual understanding...