#BUT WE'RE NEVER TOO OLD TO HURT. || STARTER CALL;

[uselesslexbian]

the tortured poets department sentence starters.

i was supposed to be sent away, but they forgot to come and get me.

i love you, it's ruining my life.

my husband is cheating. i wanna kill him.

thought of calling you, but you won't pick up.

who's gonna hold you like me?

who's gonna know you, if not me?

sometimes i wonder if you're gonna screw this up with me.

everyone we know understands why it's meant to be. 'cause we're crazy.

who else is gonna know me?

i should've known it was a matter of time.

we could've played for keeps this time.

once i fix me, he's gonna miss me.

he told me i'm better off, but i'm not.

fuck it if i can't have him.

i might just die, it would make no difference.

fuck it if i can't have us.

'cause fuck it, i was in love.

i stopped trying to make him laugh.

how much sad did you think i had in me?

you say i abandoned the ship, but i was going down with it.

just how low did you think i'd go before i'd self-implode?

you swore you love me, but where were the clues?

i'm just mad as hell 'cause i loved this place.

i forget if this was ever fun.

no, i'm not coming to my sense.

i know he's crazy, but he's the one i want.

i'd rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning.

i'll tell you something about my good name - it's mine alone to disgrace.

you ain't gotta pray for me.

no, you can't come to the wedding.

it's gonna be alright, i did my time.

i will never lose my baby again.

ain't no way i'm gonna screw up now that i know what's at stake.

they said i was a cheat. i guess it must be true.

yes, i'm haunted, but i'm feeling just fine.

tell me i'm dispicable, say it's unforgivable.

am i allowed to cry?

i keep recalling things we never did.

someone told me there's no such thing as bad thoughts.

if it's make-believe, why does it feel like a vow we'll both uphold somehow?

they're gonna crucify me anyway.

what if the way you hold me is actually what's holy?

you don't get to tell me about "sad."

if you wanted me dead, you should've just said.

who's afraid of little old me?

at all costs, keep your good name.

you don't get to tell me you feel bad.

so tell me everything is not about me, but what if it is?

say they didn't do it to hurt me, but what if they did?

i'm always drunk on my own tears, isn't that what they all said?

i'm fearsome, and i'm wretched, and i'm wrong.

you caged me, and then you called me crazy.

i am what i am 'cause you trained me.

i can fix him. no really, i can.

come close, i'll show you heaven.

trust me, i can handle me a dangerous man.

you said i'm the love of your life.

well, you took me to hell, too.

what we thought was for all time was momentary.

are they second-hand embarrassed that i can't get out of bed 'cause something counterfeit's dead?

you're the loss of my life.

i can handle my shit.

he said he'd love me all his life, but that life was too short.

i can do it with a broken heart.

i'm so obsessed with him, but he avoids me like the plague.

i cry a lot, but i am so productive. it's an art.

you know you're good when you can even do it with a broken heart.

i'm sure i can pass this test.

they said, "babe, you gotta fake it 'til you make it" and i did.

'cause i'm miserable! and nobody even knows!

was any of it true?

who the fuck was that guy?

they just ghosted you. now you know what it feels like.

i don't even want you back.

you didn't measure up in any measure of a man.

were you sent by someone who wanted me dead?

'cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden.

i would've died for your sins. instead i just died inside.

i'll forget you, but i'll never forgive.

i haven't come around in so long, but i'm making a comeback to where i belong.

this town is fake, but you're the real thing.

the crown is stained, but you're the real queen.

you're the new god we're worshipping.

it's hell on earth to be heavenly.

[ruinmemes]

NATURAL BORN LOSERS / SENTENCE STARTERS 

track 01. poacher's pride.

❝  let it bleed.  ❞

❝  i know one day hell will catch up to me.  ❞

❝ when it's done there wont be anything left.  ❞

❝  i did not cry.  ❞

track 02. mean.

❝  you are the way you always were.  ❞

❝ you like your cruel games.  ❞

❝  i like it when it hurts like hell.  ❞

❝  there's nothing you can do to me i wouldn't do to myself.  ❞

❝  i'll be bound to you in leather and chains  ❞

track 03. white trashing.

❝ show no remorse.  ❞

❝  all that glitters is not gold.  ❞

❝ carved your name into my leg.  ❞

❝  inherited your dad's crazy eyes.  ❞

❝ yeah, this place gets old.  ❞

❝  it's really hard.  ❞

track 04. swan.

❝ you can't forgive me.  ❞

❝ if i had the gun i'd choose to shoot again.  ❞

❝ he taught me to be a good shot.  ❞

❝  you love the sound of sorry.  ❞

❝ you still pretend you don't know.  ❞

track 05. in the land.

❝ hell has a name.  ❞

❝ got the tape recorder in.  ❞

❝ spread apart her legs and pull her soul out of the body that it's in.  ❞

❝  a starving animal will always feed.  ❞

❝ never grow old.  ❞

❝ give it up for the milk carton angel.  ❞

❝ she'll never grow old.  ❞

track 06. alligator blood.

❝ i'm a sucker for the love of the flesh.  ❞

❝ it still gets to me.  ❞

❝ he held my head and made me watch.  ❞

❝  grow up weak or grow up tough.  ❞

❝ he'd always hold my head under the water a little too long.  ❞

❝ be all guts, no glory.  ❞

❝ all survivor, no guilt.  ❞

❝ he calls me his crocodile tears.  ❞

track 07. executioner.

❝ baby, you have to pay in this way or another.  ❞

❝ for as long as we've known each other you've been playing this game with death...  ❞

❝  unprepared to meet your god.  ❞

❝  they think that you emit the light, but you only take it in.  ❞

❝ you'll scream out for your father.  ❞

❝ you'll scream out for your father and in darkness, i pray you will never find him again.  ❞

track 08. american tradition.

❝ he wants to be just like his father.  ❞

❝ if i bleed to death, it doesn't matter.  ❞

❝  my baby, he's still the winner.  ❞

❝  things don't go like they should.  ❞

❝ it's no good.  ❞

track 09. angels of porn ii.

❝ it's harder to be good in here.  ❞

❝ i try to stir my conscience, it was never really there.  ❞

❝  everything is fine in heaven.  ❞

❝  soak all my clothes in holy water.  ❞

track 10. a marvellous persona.

❝ i think i'm dying.  ❞

❝ you tried, ____, we all did.  ❞

❝  shut up! shut up, will ya? don't quit...  ❞

❝  we have to go now.  ❞

track 11. you're so cool.

❝ you're so cool, you're so cool.  ❞

❝ wild eyes, they're black like magic eight balls.  ❞

❝  when i'm good i'm very good, but when i'm bad i'm better.  ❞

❝  i'm yours forever.  ❞

❝  they wanna break your heart.  ❞

❝ you carry all that suffering.  ❞

❝  i can see the future and there's no death.  ❞

❝ you and i, we're angels.  ❞

[yandere-fics]

Skylar Anderson

♡ "Heya! I'm really glad you've moved here! Huh? Oh for not reason in particular, it's just... it's been awhile since the place next door has been occupied! I hope your stay is wonderful." ♡

Skye is a shy yandere at first, not really even aware of her own feelings and intentions. Unlikely to make a move unless something pushes her over the edge and even if her actions are sinister in nature, she can always justify anything she does in the name of romance. After all even the leads in romance movies often push the boundaries. If you say her actions are bad then you simply don't know what you're talking about, as long as she never does anything worse than what her sister Sophie would do, she feels justified. Skye is the perfect sister and so there can never be any flaws with her actions. She is the perfect person and you are her perfect darling. Just please avoid disrupting her perfect image of herself. Always humble but secretly full of herself and the image she has crafted.

♡ "My full name is Skylar Anderson but everyone just calls me Skye so you can too! Oh no, we're not related to those Andersons. It's just a common last name I guess." ♡

The Anderson family is a very prominent religious family within the region although they never come to the seaside anymore after discovering their eldest daughter decided to move to a small coastal town. Most people would be unaware that Skylar is even alive since the current rumor is that most of the Anderson sisters died when the reality is that most of them simply ran away from home. Skylar left home after running from an arranged marriage, and since then has been receiving a monthly check in order to never reveal her relation to her parents. She mostly accepts the checks though because she believes if she stopped her parents would freak out and send someone to kill her instead.

♡ "I am... uhm... 24! Yup, 24. Sorry, I just never really think about it that often. Yeah I know 24 is a bit old for someone who just finished my college degree, but what can I say? I got a bit of a late start! Haha!" ♡

Skylar was not allowed to attend college due to her parents wishing to raise an obedient wife that they could sell off. She ran away at the age of 20 and took community college to get an english degree all on her own. This has only served to raise her own ego and self importance although you'd never known based on the look on her face. She was never taught anything formally, all her knowledge was stolen from the books the children in the neighboring estates were allowed to read. Despite this the college was extremely impressed by her test scores and after a much needed bribe, she was allowed in.

♡ "I- what? Huh? Oh! You're asking if I'm into women? Well the answer is yes. Quite a bit of a forward question though. You startled me just a bit." ♡

She is a lesbian, and she's lying about being embarrassed to answer, she's fucking delighted that you want to know who she's attracted to.

♡ "I'm a librarian, actually I would be pleased if you'd come visit me at my work sometimes, since it's such a small town the library doesn't see many people every day. While I do appreciate the silence, it wouldn't hurt to have some company. Especially from someone as sweet as yourself." ♡

She doesn't need to work as a librarian but she enjoys getting out of the house and it's a nice cover for why she has so much money to spend. Most of her money goes back into the library though to make sure her work environment stays nice and perfect. As a librarian she's actually pretty harsh, even scolding children for not preserving their books as well as possible.

♡ "Hmm? What do I enjoy? Well for starters, I really enjoy your company, you've been very nice to have around and I wouldn't mind spending more time with you. It's so hard to choose since I like so many things." ♡

That is a blatant lie, she really only likes you and her sisters. Everything else is far beneath her but a perfect pretty girl would never be so cruel as to remind people they are beneath her since those maggots already likely know that she's much better. She likes how small the town is, otherwise her and her sisters would not be able to blend in there. Her favorite sister is Darla, but that's to be given since most of the sisters love Darla dearly. She also really enjoys tarot although she might be a bit biased when it comes to reading the cards since everything is always interpreted to be in her favor even if it's not.

♡ "I'm not very picky when it comes to things so there's not much I don't like. Hmm, you'll have to give me some time to come up with an answer, it looks like we'll be hanging out for awhile while I try to think, haha. Why don't you get yourself situated with one of the blankets in our cabinet while I think?" ♡

There are a lot of things she dislikes, but the thing she hates most is feeling vulnerable. You can't be vulnerable if you're just playing a character though, as a character she is flawless and can do no wrong, as a person she is fundamentally broken and prone to fits of rage. She hates letting her facade crack, but not to worry, even if her facade cracks and she momentarily flies into a rage where she, let's say kidnaps you, she will always find some way to glue her facade back together. She also really hates her parents.

♡ "Hmm, well there's not a whole lot that I'm super good at but if I had to answer then it would be reading. I am good at this one other thing but I'll have to show you that another day." ♡

She's good at maintaining the persona of being a perfect, humble, little librarian when really deep down she's a ball of rage who is ready to fly off the handle at the smallest of slights. She is very talented at reading too though. She's also a phenomenal kisser since she's had loads of practice but she'd never let you know, she'd likely try to let you take the lead unless you say otherwise.

♡ "Well it's starting to get late so as much as I would adore if you could stay some more, I sadly must send you home. Please come back anytime. You're always welcome here!" ♡

[joprompts]

the great gatsby (2023 musical) starters. part one. *starters from the musical. slightly edited for rp purposes. adjust as necessary.

each night we're shooting for the moon.

you fight and return only to learn that you have lost her.

impossible, old sport.

i thought you disappeared, thought you were gone. buried you in my heart but as i moved on, i had this feeling as i was falling, the sound across the bay was the sound of you calling.

where's the party and can you take me there?

you're like the eyes of god.

she is late so i'm off to go scream in a jar!

run, runaway, let's drive until morning!

i am not okay.

we so-and-so's are so sophisticated!

though, i'm not showing, the baby's growing.

we'll go back to that kiss.

drown me in the bay!

soon, she'll walk through my door so what's an hour more? she wants to make me wait? well, dammit, i can wait!

how can she be gone? she's still everywhere.

he'll love this baby as his own.

all the years that we missed will blow away in the breeze.

save me, too.

for better or worse. for rich or for poor. my husband has delivered on the rich part, but the better, i'm not sure.

you know that there is no forgetting her.

soon, we three will be a million miles away.

only heaven knows what i might do. if i save you, will you save me too?

everybody is a tiny bit shady.

you know that i love you, did i saw i love you? i love you!

can you stop for a moment and just take in the view? no, darling, i'm looking at you!

you remind me of an absolute rose.

one mile down with seven to go.

soon, this will all be done. two lives will turn into one. we have a date with fate.

for better or worse, my vows have been made.

it was under a willow tree, i kissed the nicest girl i've met and time stood still.

it's so simple, that it's funny!

do you know what i did when my baby was born? you don't because no one was there.

i learned it is not what feels the best, it is what will hurt the least.

now you know why it's time to leave the valley of ashes.

no one understands how she can save me.

a lot of married men can't be trusted.

they say you can't relieve the past, but you know what i see? finally the past is catching up to me.

let's go before i change my mind!

where is my share of the heavens? my sliver of the silver sky?

i've been domesticated.

i should go right now!

so certain my soldier had been lost and with him half my heart.

i went to war for her. braved foreign shore for her.

will she see i've made my world in the image of her dreams?

you're a lighthouse.

"it's a girl," the nurse said and i broke.

come one-way road, no matter what!

the best thing a girl can be in this world is a beautiful, little fool.

once again, trouble in paradise.

do you know what i did when my baby was born?

the light's still green and we've only begun!

is this the latest thing, the latest thrill?

you have the eyes of god. who's gonna be his hands?

i have waited five years and today is the day.

someday soon, i'll have us all related.

no, you make a fool of me!

let my girl be a fool to whom it won't occur but the choices she makes in this life are never hers.

i kissed her and knew i'd ever stray.

we'll drive through the night, back to [location] and i'll marry you there, on your father's front lawn.

he wore a secondhand suit on our wedding day!

the reason i'm brave and the reason i'm broke.

had a past to rectify, made that nickel multiply.

it's a blessing and a curse.

forgive me for being his end.

[dancersmirrorball]

Taylor Swift Midnights Sentence Starters

Tracks 1-4

"You don't really read into my melancholia."

"I've been under scrutiny, you handle it beautifully."

"I'm damned if I do give a damn what people say."

"They're bringing up my history, but you weren't even listening."

"Talk your talk and go viral, I just need this love spiral."

"Get it off your chest, get it off my desk."

"We lost track of time again."

"How'd we end up on the floor anyway?"

"I see you every day now."

"The lips I used to call home, so scarlet it was maroon."

"Ain't that the way, shit always ends?"

"I wake with your memory over me, that's a real fucking legacy to leave."

"All of the people, I've ghosted stand there in the room."

"I end up in crisis, tale as old as time."

"I wake up screaming from dreaming."

"I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror."

"One day I'll watch as you're leaving, and life will lose all of it's meaning."

"She's/he's/they're laughing up at us from hell."

"I saw flecks of what could've been lights, but it might just have been you passing by unbeknownst to me."

"Life is emotionally abusive."

"My flight was awful, thanks for asking."

"You wanting me tonight feels impossible."

"It's fine to fake it 'til you make it."

"I can't speak, afraid to jinx it."

Tracks 5-8"

"I play it cool with the best of them."

"It's ok we're the best of friends."

"You're on your own kid, you always have been."

"I gave my blood, sweat and tears for this."

"Everything you lose is a step you take."

"You've got no reason to be afraid."

"My town was a wasteland."

"But for some it was paradise."

"he/she/they wanted it comfortable, I wanted that pain."

"I was making my own name, chasing that fame."

"All of me changed like midnight rain."

"I guess sometimes we all get some kind of haunted."

"Big city, wrong choices."

"You painted all my nights, a color I have searched for since."

"Can I ask you a question?"

"Did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room?"

"It was one drink, after another."

"That's nice I'm sure, that's what's suitable and right but tonight."

"Draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man."

"You did some bad things, but I'm the worst of them."

"They say looks can kill, and I might try."

"Lately I've been dressing for revenge."

"Picture me thick as thieves with your ex wife/husband/spouse."

"I'm on my vigilante shit again.

Tracks 9-12

"Didn't notice you walking all over my peace of mind, in the shoes I gave you as a present."

"Putting someone first only works, when you're in their top five."

"By the way, I'm going out tonight."

"I can still make the whole place shimmer."

"Sadness became my whole sky."

"A diamond's gotta shine."

"It only hurts this much right now."

"Breathe in, breathe deep, breathe through, breathe out."

"I'll be getting over you, my whole life."

"Oh no, I'm falling in love again."

"Lost in the labyrinth of my mind."

"You would break your back to make me break a smile."

"You're talking shit, for the hell of it."

"You're terrified to look down."

"It's coming back around."

"I keep my side of the street clean, you wouldn't know what I mean."

"Ask me what I've learned from all those years, ask me what I've earned from all those tears."

"Ask me why so many fade, but I'm still here."

"We almost forgot it."

"They said the end is coming, everyone's up to something."

"All that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing."

"On the way home, I wrote a poem."

"You should be doing more."

"I'm just too soft for all of it."

Tracks 13-17

"You and I ended up in the same room, at the same time."

"Checkmate, I couldn't lose."

"What if I told you none of it was accidental?"

"If you fail to plan, you plan to fail."

"No-one wanted to play with me as a little kid, so I've been scheming like a criminal ever since."

"This is the first time I've felt the need to confess."

"Spineless in my tomb of silence."

"Maybe it was egos swinging, maybe it was her/him/them."

"I vowed not to cry anymore."

"You said I have to trust more freely."

"Maybe it's the past that's talking, screaming from the crypt."

"It turned into something bigger, somewhere in the haze, got a sense I'd been betrayed."

"No words appear before me in the aftermath."

"Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness."

"Cause it's all over now, all out to sea."

"You were bigger than the whole sky."

"I've got a lot to live without."

"So I'll say words I don't believe."

"And all the outfits were terrible, 2003 unbearable."

"Did you see the photos?"

"No I didn't, but thanks though."

"I'm so in love that I might stop breathing."

"Like we were somewhere else."

"I wanna brainwash you into loving me forever."

"I didn't know you were keeping count."

"Put on your records and regret me."

"I bent the truth too far tonight."

"Do you really wanna know where I was April 29th?"

"Seemed like the right thing at the time."

"There's many different ways that you could kill the one you love, the slowest way is never loving them enough."

Tracks 18-20 + Hits Different & You're Losing Me

"We were supposed to be just friends."

"You don't live in my part of town, but maybe I'll see you out some weekend."

"I think there's been a glitch."

"Nights are so starry, blood moonlit."

"Must be counterfeit."

"I thought we had no chance, and that's romance."

"All I used to do was pray."

"And I damn sure never would have danced with the devil."

"The god's honest truth is that the pain was heaven."

"Memories feel like weapons."

"God rest my soul, I miss who I used to be."

"If clarity's in death then why won't this die?"

"If it feels like a trap, you're already in one."

"If you don't recognize yourself, that means you did it right."

"Never take advice from someone who's falling apart."

"When you aim at the devil, make sure you don't miss."

"So I wander through these nights, I prefer hiding in plain sight."

"You should find another guiding light."

"You made a mess of me."

Each bar plays our song, nothing has ever felt so wrong."

"Oh my, love is a lie; shit my friends say to get me by."

"Moving on was always easy for me to do."

"My sadness is contagious."

"Is it okay? Is it you? Or have they come to take me away?"

"We thought a cure would come through in time, now I fear it won't."

"Now I just sit in the dark and wonder if it's time."

"I'm getting tired even for a phoenix."

"I know my pain is such an imposition."

"I wouldn't marry me either, a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her/him/them."

"I've got nothing to believe, unless you're choosing me."

[medjedrpresources]

Random Song Lyric Starters

I put one of my music playlists on shuffle and picked lyrics from the first 10 songs that came up. cw; infrequent profanity, drug references

"I try not to remember. No memories."

"I feel good in my loneliness."

"I'm looking for a new dimension, new life to live."

"If you're coming back to find me, you'd better have good aim."

"I need you in the picture, that's why I'm calling you."

"I don't want this isolation. See the state I'm in now?"

"If I pick it up when I know that it's broken, do I put it back?"

"Do I head out on to the lonesome trail and let you down?"

"They say I'll get hurt if I'm not like ice."

"I know I've got friends, I still get so lonely."

"If I look in your eyes, I'll want you to hold me."

"I over communicate and feel too much."

"Sick and tried of acting all tough."

"I'm hooked on all these feelings."

"This love asylum, like an island, just me and you."

"Caught up inside, both happy and lonely."

"Keep telling me lies, they're killing me slowly."

"I get too attached, they don't even know me."

"Why can't I relax? Why can't I relax!?"

"I'm sorry that I care."

"I think you know that tonight I just wanted to dance."

"I didn't wanna fight."

"Thought we could make it right."

"I saw that look on your face, like you were tired and bored."

"I don't wanna be turned away again."

"You've been stuck on the wall like a wallflower"

"Are you feeling afraid? 'Cause you look terrified."

"Nobody cares if you slip up and fall on your face."

"I see you watching me like you wanna be taking me home."

"I'm not waiting around for you to make a move."

"I'm waking up to fantasy."

"Times that are broken can often be one again."

"You're out of touch."

"I'm out of time."

"I'm out of my head when you're not around."

"Smoking guns hot to the touch would cool down if we didn't use them so much."

"I saw in you what life was missing."

"I'm not one for reminiscing but I'd trade it all for your sweet embrace."

"A thing of beauty will never fade away."

"I see your eyes, I know you see me."

"You're like a ghost how you're everywhere."

"Somehow I'll find a way."

"We'll never fade away."

"You won't take the sting out of these words before I say 'em."

"I don't give a damn what you think, I'm doing this for me."

"I'm not afraid to take a stand."

"But I think I'm still tying to figure this crap out."

"This fucking black cloud still follows me around."

"It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me."

"I'd shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazing up at the stars."

"I get the same old dreams, same time every night."

"You can't know what you mean to me."

"Just goes to show you don't give a damn."

"Baby, you know you'll never do wrong."

"I knew right from the beginning that you would end up winning."

"I knew right from the start you'd put an arrow through my heart."

"With love we'll find a way, just give it time."

"We're gonna prove it tonight."

"Can you look at yourself now?"

"You can't win this fight."

"We all have emptiness inside."

"We all have answers to find."

"What's with the violent aggression?"

"Hey! Why won't you listen?"

"I need to warn you that there is no way to rationalize."

"So have you figured it out now?"

"I see you're a king who's been dethroned."

"Stand down. Place your weapon by your side."

"In the end, we'll surely lose but that's alright."

"You're not invited, so step aside."

[judasrpc]

I LOVE YOU, I'M TRYING (2023 ALBUM) STARTERS

add context & change gendered language to your needs !! contains explicit / graphic content pertaining to suicide, violence, drugs, and similar potentially upsetting themes !! if multi, please specify which muse(s) !!

" A promise was spoken. Now you're gone and I'm broken. "

" And I hope that you grow old with me, and we turn up 'til we're seventy. "

" And I made a best friend out of the skeleton in the closet. "

" Baby, I know that I've been actin' strange lately. "

" But back in her day, oh, she had a bad tempter. "

" But I'm a phony, I'm a psycho. My ego follows me wherever I go. "

" But it's too late for me, I should've learned earlier. "

" Do I exist if I don't exist on the internet? "

" Don't know how I'm gonna take much more. "

" Don't like who I'm becomin'. "

" Dropped the disguise, because who am I kiddin'? "

" Every day the headline seems worse, we're goin' down. "

" Everybody knows somebody with something to hide. "

" Everybody's fake and they won't quit talkin'. "

" Everything's fine, I like this. "

" God, don't let me grow up quick. "

" Good luck ran out, I can't help it. "

" Gotta find a way to get the fuck out my head. "

" Gotta find a way to get the fuck outta bed. "

" Growin' up ain't like how I pictured it. "

" Guess I gotta die to get my celebration. "

" Guess I'm on my own now. "

" Hang up quick because I hate goodbye. "

" He's more young, he's more handsome. "

" How can I relax? The end is imminent. "

" How many last chances will I get? "

" How many times can I let you down with regret? "

" How much can I ask for 'til you walk out that door? "

" How the hell is everyone on autopilot? "

" Hurt me one more time. "

" I became a version of myself I don't like. "

" I can't face that I've come undone. "

" I can't promise I won't think it again. "

" I contemplated suicide in that Days Inn. "

" I could barely pay the rent singin' to an empty room. "

" I could explode. "

" I don't have a problem. "

" I don't know why I'm running away. "

" I feel fuckin' awesome. "

" I get mad, I throw tantrums. "

" I gotta be the man, you see. "

" I just wanna be a rockstar with a million people followin'. "

" I keep letting you down. "

" I know I need help, but instead I'm … "

" I need a savior, but if not me, who? "

" I need to switch up the life I'm livin'. "

" I said it gets better. We both know I'm lying. "

" I swear, I never wanna let them down. "

" I swore to the downfall of the darkness inside me. "

" I think about death, I don't fear that shit. "

" I wanna feel alive. "

" I wanna unload all of these shotgun shells. "

" I was flirting with surrender evermore. "

" I was getting high in the bathroom. "

" I was the man last week. "

" I was thinkin' about that day last summer. "

" I wish I got to save you. "

" I wish I knew it was goodbye. "

" I wouldn't be here without you. "

" I'd rather be the one that faded. "

" I'll close my eyes, 'cause I know that this won't end. "

" I'm in dismay! I'm not alright. Hate to say it, but … "

" I'm isolated and overstimulated at the same time. "

" I'm not sure that anything matters at all. "

" I'ma give him hell, kill him and kill myself. "

" I've come too far to give in, now, and I don't wanna hit the ground. "

" I've got sunshine when you're near. All my problems disappear. "

" If I had one call, would you pick up? "

" If I never get to say this: I'm proud of you. "

" If I spoke too loud that my voice might crack. "

" If you wake up and I'm gone, I just hope you sing along to the eulogy. "

" If not now, when? "

" If you ever need anything, and I don't pick up, well, you still got a friend in me. "

" Imagination is all I got now. "

" It was a midsummer's day, rainin' steadily when they came to reclaim the disgraced celebrity. "

" It's about time for a quarter-life crisis. "

" It's more fun to be unaware. "

" It's sad to reflect on the lack of respect that I have for the things I have. "

" Keep it in the family for today. "

" Know I should face it, but I'm runnin'. "

" Life is cruel and unforgiving. "

" Look at how we've all grown up fast. "

" Made this bed, I guess that we lie in it. "

" Maybe someday this will all make sense. "

" My life's fallin' apart, but I love it. "

" Need you to like me, so I keep bottling bad thoughts. Swallowing pills; wallowing thrills. "

" Never been better, life's priceless. "

" Never got to thank you. "

" No, I don't wanna beat the habit. "

" Now I'm barely holdin' on. "

" Oh, hey, maybe just ignore it, it'll go away. "

" Oh, I wish there was someone else I could be. I would do it, but I am stuck here with me. "

" Only one thing that takes care of me: Self-sabotage [is] the only way to find clarity. "

" Or so he thought. "

" Ready to give up, deep down [I] started to doubt that. "

" Rest in peace to my positivity, all it's given me is false hope. "

" Shit, I don't even know if I'm still myself. "

" Shout into the void, and the void shouts back. "

" Some even thought that he was still alive. "

" Strugglin' to make sense of these thoughts trapped in my mind. "

" Tell me one good lie so I can sleep at night. "

" Tell me why I can't understand. "

" Tell me, what's the point of living in a world so unforgiving? "

" That attention, he got high for it. To live forever, he had to die for it. "

" The closer I get, the closer I feel like I could scream and start a riot. "

" They make it so easy. "

" This is a trap, I know that shit. "

" Tried medication. Tried therapy. They only seemed to help temporarily. "

" Trust the feelin' and I still get burned. "

" Want it so bad, it takes all control of me. "

" We are not alone. Can you keep a secret? "

" We ignored his cries and pleas until we posted his RIP's. It's ironic. "

" Well, I'm sick of bein' underrated. "

" What's a dead end to a dead man walkin'? "

" What's the point of living without you? "

" Why am I here without you? "

" And now that I'm here without you, the words have no meanin'. "

" I made you cry. "

" I will be here when you're ready to wake up. "

[daintyduck99]

Sorry if this is too much but "i invited them over." "shut up, you did not." for peterpatterlina?

You can never send too many prompts! ❤️ They may not always inspire me but I always like to get them!

"Julieeeee…"

Flynn knocks more insistently. Julie just groans, throwing her blanket over her head, still wishing she could disappear.

"Go away!"

"Okay." There's a mischievous note in Flynn's voice, and it makes Julie's stomach drop. "But you won't have long before the cute guys from across the hall are here. I invited them over."

Dios mio no. Her life would be over.

She flings the blanket off and the door open in the same beat, heart pounding as she does her best to scowl at Flynn.

"Shut up, you did not."

Flynn smirks. "Oh, but I did, babe."

Julie looks down at her tattered old oversized shirt and boxers in dismay.

"Flynn!" she whines. "They won't want anything to do with me now, if either of them ever even would've in the first place. I can't embarrass myself more, not today."

"Come on, Jules, you didn't embarrass yourself that badly. If you don't get back on the horse right away, you never will! Show these guys how bold you can be! Get right back out there and redeem yourself!"

Julie scoffs, turning her back on Flynn and marching over to her closet. The hangers screech as she shoves them apart one by one.

"I don't think I can. They saw me like this! After I locked myself out! They definitely think I'm a weirdo or a dork or some kind of pervert and—I'd rather just move."

Flynn taps her on the shoulder. She's holding out a cute lavender sweater, and Julie begrudgingly snatches it.

"Babe, if it really bothered them, they wouldn't have agreed to come over. They were just as flustered as you in the "oh no, they're hot" kinda way. Here."

She throws Julie a pair of plaid pants, and she has to admit that they go perfectly with the top she's holding. Julie sighs.

"What did you even say to them?"

"Oh, they're actually super easy to talk to—"

"Maybe when you're not half naked!"

Flynn flaps her hand. She's started rifling through Julie's drawers.

"But anyway, they were really keen to hear that we're musicians. Apparently they're guitarists in a band, so I invited them to come meet us properly and maybe swap some songs."

Of course they're cute musicians. Picturing either of them with a guitar makes her warm all over, and she bites her lip. Flynn sends her a knowing look in the mirror, holding up one of her cutest bras.

"You should wear this, too. So the sweater sits right. But also to project confidence."

Julie sighs. "If you're trying to hook me up with them—"

"Not entirely! But it wouldn't hurt. Trust me, babe. Have I ever steered you wrong?"

She opens her mouth to remind Flynn of the Christmas flour bomb fiasco, for starters, but Flynn interrupts her.

"Okay, don't answer that. But I'm right when it counts! So what if these guys think you're a dork? They also seem like huge music dorks. They're our kind of people."

Julie looks down at the cute clothes she's clutching to her chest. What little hope had been swelling in her rib cage had rightfully deflated a few hours ago. She sighs again.

"I don't know, Flynn. I could hardly hold a conversation with them before. You really think we can move past this?"

Flynn wraps her in a hug. "Oh, Jules. I'll be here. I won't let it get awkward. Also, I'm telling you, just focus on the music. I already know you guys will click so fast."

"Okay." Julie presses her forehead to Flynn's. "But you're still on thin ice."

"Fair." Flynn bumps her nose against Julie's, smiling impishly. "You'll be thanking me, though. You'll owe me someday."

She presses the bra and a matching pair of underwear into Julie's hands, and she huffs a laugh as Flynn shows herself out.

From the kitchen, she calls, "You've got about ten minutes!"

"Only ten—Flynn!"

They go by in a blur.

As she's looking at herself in the mirror, wrapped in soft colors and a simple, equally soft makeup look, hair falling free but mildly tamed with a comb, she has to admit that there's some degree of truth to Flynn's confidence projecting thing.

It all evaporates, along with every thought in her head, as soon as she's face to face with the cute guys again.

They brought their guitars, a teal blue electric guitar that makes the guy holding it seem even more tan and his eyes pop and a cherry red bass that matches the color of its owner's cheeks. They're quick to introduce themselves as Luke and Reggie, and when they grasp her hands, they both hold on for a beat too long. Her body hums like a live wire under their touch, their scrutiny as they look her up and down.

She's not sure if it's the novelty of seeing her clothed or the lack of an instrument that they're gauging. Possibly both.

"Julie," she finally remembers to say, "I'm Julie. My keyboard is in the living room."

Reggie brightens. "You play piano, too?"

Everything snaps into place after that, and Julie will gladly concede that she owes Flynn for being right about all of the things that count, down to the cute underwear.

[coolstorysister]

LYRIC STARTERS 2

Same old story, time again.

Got so close but then you lost it.

Should've listened to your friends.

Let's get coffee.

Let's meet up.

Stop feeling sorry!

You know what I mean.

You know what you need.

She showed me things I didn't know.

She did it right there out on the deck.

I'm in the hallway waiting for you.

I just want you to make a move.

Slow down!

Sit down.

It's new.

I just wanna get to know you.

Guess I didn't quite think it through.

Baby, why don't you come over?

I like what you like.

That's my type.

I will cause I really want to.

Let's get freaky.

I know you wanted me to stay.

I'm having wicked dreams.

I swear it's calling me.

It's gonna cause a scene.

I know she's gonna scream.

God, what have you done?

I'm just having fun.

It's where I belong.

You've been too good to me.

You're always on my mind.

I'm gonna keep on dancing.

I really don't mind the rain.

The smile can hide all the pain.

There's hours I can't recall.

It must be you and me forever, baby.

It's gotta be you and me.

Are we crazy?

You came in like a fire, burned all I ever knew.

All that I want is you.

Can we run away and get crazy?

Are we falling in love?

Let us not fall apart.

It's been a long time since we've seen this place.

I guess I never thought we'd be back again.

Even if we could, I wouldn't change a thing.

You know this is the first time in a long time that I've felt like this.

I remember each whispered word.

We knew that we could never stay.

We carry on.

No time to cry when there's mountains left to climb.

Where are we now?

I play those days in my head, round and round, and how it hurt so bad.

We had to move ahead.

I looked around and I saw that you weren't there.

I tried to love you.

I've been waiting.

Don't wanna waste it.

We're all alone now.

How far will we take it?

You didn't say it but I know that you felt the same.

I tried to save you.

I can see it in your eyes.

You're not afraid to die.

Can I walk by your side?

Why tell a lie?

I feel so alive.

I wouldn't try to fight the flames.

I've been losing sleep without you next to me.

The time moves slowly.

I should be somewhere far away.

Please, I can't take it no more!

I need shelter from the storm.

Only God knows what for.

It's getting late.

Have you seen my mates?

I wanna rock!

She don't care.

We had it with your discipline!

They're with me.

Heartache is a lonely road.

Tell me lies.

I don't mind.

I ain't the hurting kind.

That's what I'm talking about.

It's so delicious.

Are you obsessed with me?

You know you're not invited.

I know you can't see the light right now.

Look how far you've come.

You've been running far too long.

What goes up comes back down.

Cry a little longer if it helps.

You can't choose the place you're born.

You did that on your own.

Catch your breath.

I promise someday it'll all make sense.

We talk to much.

I'll pick you up.

Is it too early to call this love?

I'll never ever get enough.

I lied when I said I'm fine.

We should've known better.

I cry every time our song comes on.

It breaks my heart.

We went our separate ways.

Time stopped moving the minute I saw you.

We were young till we weren't.

It was fun till it hurt.

I'm terrified that I'll never find love like yours.

Those were the golden years.

Our love, it was real.

lonely road

[fuckinorangecat]

diary 25/09/2023

HELLO again. I have to write about the rest of last week so lemme do that real quick.

I was instantly invited to eat out for dinner on wednesday after my escapades in Osaka. Glad to know people appreciate my wonderful self as much as I do (For all purposes this is a joke). It was scheduled to happen on the wednesday. But with a great stroke of luck, I got sick the day before on the tuesday!!! Great news. It was very strange at least, everything just hurt. I'm pretty sure it was some form of covid or influenza because there was an outbreak at school. On the day of beckoning it got 500 times worse, tuesday was just the starter. Idk how I survived that day but I'm pretty sure I had some lessons which required my most genki self but I managed. I still went to the dinner too, it was a pleasant taiwanese in my town so it was local. Although by the end of the night I'm pretty sure I died. I got straight home and the muscle pain got way worse, I slept at 8pm and woke up in cold sweat at midnight to the weirdest phenomenon. I physically couldn't get up. I had the craziest headache and heaviness that I can't even begin to describe. It was like an invisible weight made up of all my stress and fears. Genuinely one of the worst feelings I've ever suffered. It got much better the next day and I was able to do my lessons fine. Kids always ask what shampoo I use or my hair routine. I love them as this validates my being immensely. On the weekend I got invited out by the geography teacher in my school. We get along cause we're both around the same age, I'm 24, he's 25. Although interestingly, he didn't speak any English and I no Japanese. We used google translate all night and drank forever lol. We first went to a izakaya with an open grill. Dude in front cooked all our food in front of us, was cool as hell. I had cartilage for the first time, like in yakitori form. Opinion? Try it once, never again. It wasn't even bad, just anything and everything is better. Oh yeah, on the way to the Izakaya I was spotted by some cute students who showed me from a distance that they were holding hands. I was like WOAAAH Couple!!! So fuckin' cute. YOUTH. I told the geography teacher and he explained there was a growth in student couples because of sports day. DOUBLE CUTE. Love the kids. After eating and drinking a bunch we went to a american styled bar. Super cool, apparently it opened in the 80s so it's fucking old. We ate pizza, fish and chips and carbonara. Strangely great bar food, well not the pizza it just kept falling apart. "Master" as the japanese call the bar's owner and I spoke the whole night. Of course they always ask about ex-girlfriends. He shared with me his escapades in America, of course including his sex stories with american women. Amazing. I told him my age and he instantly showed me his daughter who was the same age. The pictures he chose were interesting because she had about two pieces of clothing on, wonderfully liberal I suppose. More than I expected in the Japanese countryside. BUT ANYWAY We finish up the night, drunken say goodbye to my geography teacher, and walked home where i instantly fell asleep. oh yeah we exchanged instagram with the fuckin bar master lol, amazing.

I then spent my sunday bingeing sex education (it's good), which made me depressed and think about a certain someone I won't ever share with another human soul and then I went to sleep. I was depressed today because of it but then I magically became better? I attributed it initially to covid/influenza but I then read something that just made me feel better. I refuse to elaborate.

Goodnight.

Love

[double-knots-archive]

anyway like this for a small thing from one of my owl house muses ? 

[stark-illerbase]

Listen Here and Listen Well, Wally

(Mini Fusehound Fic, in which Maggie gives surprsingly good advice during a Game) SFW !!

Read below OR Now on AO3:

The game could not have started off worse. Fuse was assigned to a squad with Mirage and Maggie- and Elliot was Jumpmaster. The kid decided to hot drop them right into the center of two other teams got himself eliminated within the first 30 seconds. Leaving Walter and Maggie a long road ahead of them to make it to zone.

His head and his heart hurt, thinking about his earlier conversation with Hound...If it could even be called that. There wasn't many words exhanged between them since Vantage had put them on the spot. Walter knew that they needed time and he was willing to give them all the time in the world if they asked...but it was hard.

It was hard not knowing where they stood, not to mention awkward. He had stumbled over calling them 'mate' several times because that's just what he called EVERYONE but now it had a different meaning, and it left a bad taste in his mouth to think he could ever make Houndy uncomfortable.

It was hard to dial back the smug flirtations. Keeping his mouth shut was never something he was good at... and most of it started off as jokes- it was so easy to flow into that kind of banter with Hound, they had been friends for so long now it felt like Fuse had known them for years, like they were kids back on Salvo together....like he and Mags used to be.

"Oi! Wally!"

His squadmate's voice cut through his thoughts.

"You gonna stand there staring at the clouds all day? Or are you gonna put those frags to good use?"

Fuse stopped walking to glare at her. "I could think of a few good uses for em' actually."

The Salvo women laughed, loud and obnoxious and clapped her former friend on the shoulder, rougher than most would find appropriate.

"There's the Walter I know."

"Piss off-"

"Well! Whats got YOU all up in a tizzy?" Maggie snickered. "Things go south with your little pup?"

When Fuse didn't respond Maggie's smirk grew, but was quickly replaced by a look of faux sympathy.

"I thought you two seemed less snuggley than usual last match. Poor Fusey It's not fun when your best mate gets tired of ya is it?"

"That's NOT-" Fuse erupted only to cut himself off and hold the bridge of his nose. He wouldn't let her rile him up like this. Not here. Not now in front of the all the cameras.

"Its none of your buisness what goes on between me and Houndy. You lost that right years ago."

"Oooh. Struck a nerve did I? Ol' Maggie can see right through ya. Just like old times. You scrunch up your nose when you're down in the dumps"

"I do not!"

"Do too" She echoed childlishly

"Mags-" Fuse began, his good eye twitching with bubbling annoyance. "We have better things to worry about."

"Oh Rubbish. Theres seven squaddies still here! Let them duke it out while you blubber about your crumbling love life"

Walter took a deep breath. He hated that Maggie was the genuinely best option he had to open up to. Maybe Chey would listen over a drink after the game. She'd probably have pretty sound advice too but... they weren’t mates like that.

"For starters-" He flopped down against the rock they were using for cover. "Houndy isn't-...We're not-"

"Not shagging in the drop ship when nobody's around eh?"

"Bloody Hell Mags- No!" Fuse could feel his cheeks flush at her obvious teasing. "I've barely ever seen them without their mask- We've never-" He shook his head, red as a beet.

"So if you're not swapping spit-" She paused when Walter glared again. "Not... seeing each other 'IntIMaTely"

"The other day that new Vantage pup showed up while Houndy and I were packing things... said Witt had sent her on a quest for friendship and she wanted advice"

"She went to the wrong place for that" Maggie snarked, but Fuse continued.

"She made a point to say that she wanted PLATONIC advice, not... 'Whatever me and Hound had going on' "

"-Get to the point Wally."

"Houndy got all jumpy- Swearing up and down that we were 'just' What the hell does "just" Mean?"

Fuse felt all the panic of that moment come flooding back, he ran his mechanical hand through his hair then down his face.

"I thought we really had something...If Houndy doesn't see it like that-"

"Well did you ask them about it? You bloody Walnut." Maggie yelled with a dramatic wave of her arms.

"I tried! They told me...told me they needed more time."

"Thats it?"

"Thats it. I know they're still figuring things out after their last partner and thats all well and good but-"

"But nothing-" Maggie turned and gripped both of his shoulders tightly. "Listen you big idiot. They didn't say NO. They said not yet. And don't you do what you always do and run in bombs blasting and screw the pooch you hear me?"

"I-...what?" He genuinely wasn't expecting her to have such a strong reaction- or to offer any sort of legitimate help either.

"If what you said is true? That pup has a lot to sort out before they are ready to let someone else in again. Between their own feelings and everything Hammond's been doing to Talos they've got it twenty times worse than your sorry sack"

"Mags..." Fuse spoke gently then shook her arms off and punched her just as hard as she had done before "Now who's going soft?"

The Salvonian woman's expression turned to a snarl and she lunged forward pushing Fuse into the dust. She wrestled herself to her feet and stood over him threateningly, her boot on his chest. "You listen to me Walter Fitzroy and you listen bloody well- If i hear you do that pup the way you done me I'll rip your tongue out your head and hang you by it myself. They don't deserve that."

"Maggie..." Walter stared up at her with his eyes getting wet. "I'm sorry-"

She shifted her boot higher to shut him up. "And if you ever call me soft again. I'll add your other arm to my collection."

Then she stepped off of him and stuck her hand out to him as the ring timer went off a second time. The automated announcement sounded above them signaling 4 squads remaining and Fuse couldn't help but chuckle.

"I believe you."

[andysbubba]

𝗽𝗿𝗼𝘁𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗼𝗿 - 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗴𝘂𝗲

-> you're used to freedom. but now you have to live with a bodyguard and have him follow you everywhere. well, at least he's pretty nice to look at, right?

pairing | bodyguard! ransom x reader

a/n | no ransom in this little prologue yet, it's just a little intro/starter to this series before I start getting a little deeper.

warnings | bucky and steve are good bros (and they're man-whores) . protective family (not in a bad way)

---

You clicked your tongue, unwilling to accept papa's decision even though it was supposed to be for your own safety. You'd agree to anything, and you'd trust him with everything.

Literally anything but hiring a bodyguard.

There's just something about it that makes you feel vulnerable. And it'll only make people think that you're just a stuck-up spoiled, rich kid who uses Daddy's money and can't even take care of herself.

As if you don't already face enough of that negativity.

"Papa-"

The old man was quick to stop your train of thoughts, knowing his daughter well enough to know what's going on in your mind.

"I need to know that you're always safe, little one." Papa leans back against his office chair, a soft smile forming on his face. One that's reserved for the people he cares about the most. "Let your old man have a peace of mind, will you?"

You've always had a hard time saying no to him. Or anyone in the family. Even if you said no to papa, it'll only take some time before mama or one of your brothers came knocking on your door to convince you otherwise.

"Will Buck and Stevie get guards too?" You knew the answer to the question, but it still didn't hurt to ask.

Papa chuckles, pushing his chair back and standing up. "You know my answer, sweetheart. I'm more protective when it comes to you." He walks over to you and rests a hand on your shoulder. "Steve and James are more than capable of defending themselves."

Before you could even open your mouth to speak, papa only shakes his head and holds a hand up to stop you.

"Even your mother wanted you to have a bodyguard. It was either this, or you move in with your brothers." He arches a brow, as if daring you to go against him.

You visibly shivered at the thought of moving in with Bucky and Steve. The memories of slutty moans and your brothers' obviously pleasure-filled grunts are way too traumatising. It was torture and you never want to live through that again.

It's a fight you'll lose if you even considered fighting. It's four to one, and you're on the losing side.

"This won't be permanent, right?" You mutter out as you and papa walked out of his study to head downstairs for breakfast.

"Just till the situation gets better, little one."

---

You mentally thanked your brothers in your head. If you were going to spend 24/7 with a bodyguard that you reluctantly agreed to hire, you'd appreciate if he at least looks good in a suit and tie. Bucky and Steve interviewed the potential candidates and somehow, they picked someone who looks almost too good in the uniform.

He's extremely handsome, and muscular. But he seems a little too uptight. And you know that there's gonna be lots of problems trying to bend the rules and get away from him.

"Hugh Drysdale, Miss. You can call me Ransom." He offers you his hand.

The grim look on his face makes you wonder why he's even here in the first place. There's a shit ton of jobs out there and he really decided to risk his life for a big company's heir. And he doesn't even look like he wants to be here in the first place.

"Where did Ransom come from?"

"It's my middle name, Miss."

You nod, taking his offered hand and shook it. "Y/n Barnes. And drop the formalities, please. We're gonna live together after all."

"I'd rather keep things professional, Miss."

You almost winced at the title. God, it makes you sound so stuck-up.

You flash him a kind smile. "Very well, Hugh."

Ransom almost grimaced at the name. He knows right then and there that it'll be tough working with you. His job isn't even that tough. Just keep you safe and follow you around.

At least the pay was good.

---

an | TELL ME WHAT YA THINK LOL. i'm actually scared to continue writing thisbz hdbzhsjs. anyways uhm slide into my taglist if you wanna be notified for future chapters!

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[pavo-ocell-me]

*poke* ok, ok cutie i see you

you can flame me for taking 90 yrs to read your rules later T^T

hmm i would like to order aaaaa diluc x reader a side of super fluffy hcs where the reader works with the KoF and goes on special requests (like where enemies are too strong for regular members so she gets deployed) and diluc just worries tons so when she does come home, he always checks to see if she's injured and stuff! Oh! And a medium lemonade! Thank you <3

(reader can be gn if you'd like buuut im a girl so i want girl reader)

- an anon you know (you better know me or we're fighting)

Hey hey hey! Welcome to the library, so happy to have you!

I sent Lisa to grab your lemonade, she never does much in the library anyways and needs the sunlight. Enjoy your read!

Warnings: injury mention, blood mention

You're an Outrider with the Knights

Supervisor to Amber's faction

Collaborations with the Adventurer's Guild are common as they have more boots on the ground across Mond to report any incidents

You regularly deal with Ruin Guards and Eye of the Storms, and sometimes the occasional Abyss Herald near hidden ruins

Diluc normally wouldn't be involved with a Knight, but you were more a member of the Guild than anything and you'd proven yourself more capable than most when his first encounter with you was you swooping in and quickly dispatching an Eye of the Storm before he could get a hit in

You gave your home to Amber when you moved in with Diluc at the winery

Ficlet under the cut ♡

The maids were used to this by now. Seeing ever-composed Diluc pace about the main hall was a shock at first, but you'd been with him a while now and the workforce had since adapted to his anxiety.

"Master Diluc," Adelinde called, "please take a seat. I'm sure they will be here soon, they said they shouldn't take more than a day."

"I'm well aware, Adelinde, and as I'm sure you are aware, night fell an hour ago," he deadpanned, but sat by the fireplace despite his apprehension.

The head maid set a fresh cup of tea next to him and left quietly, not wanting to add to his stress or be on the receiving end of a blowup.

》▪︎《

Another hour had passed before you slowly opened the winery door. Gently, you removed your gear and placed it by the door, wincing at every cling of your scarce armor. Your foot touched the first step, soon you'd be in bed with your lover—

"Finally back, I see."

Busted.

"Hello, Luc! My rose. My darling. My sweet flaming flower."

"Give it up. You're late," he said, finger tracing the rim of his empty teacup.

"I know, I'm so sorry. It looks like people avoiding Old Mondstadt was a bigger issue than anticipated since no one was able to report the buildup of monsters. I really don't mean to worry you, Diluc."

His hardened expression dropped all at once. "Love," he sighed, "I know you can handle yourself, but please bring me with you every now and then. Coming home late only makes me more concerned than I already am. Come, let's get you freshened up and into bed. I have lost time to make up for."

The stupid grin on your face was enough to fluster him.

He moved his hand to your waist to usher you upstairs— wait. Why did your shirt feel stiff there? He spun you in place, ignoring your surprised yelp.

You were hurt. You'd never come back with more than a scratch before, but this was a deep cut. It was no longer than two inches but the amount of dried blood on and around the area was a testament to how bad the wound actually was.

"Barbatos, how did you not notice this!" He manhandled you into his arms and shot upstairs, placing you on the edge of the tub before diving into the cabinets to look for his vigilante starter kit with wound care galore.

"Wow, must have been the adrenaline. I knew my side felt a little funny on the way back." Your carefree attitude pissed him off, but the lack of a smile scared him. No, no, no, you couldn't go into shock now. Sure, it wasn't life-threatening, but he knew your pain tolerance wasn't the highest. He prepared the kit with one hand while he heated his other with his vision and warmed your back and side, trying to keep you grounded.

"Hey, lovely, take off that shirt for me." Maybe giving you a task would help, but archons did he miss your gutter mind.

He whispered gentle assurances as he cleaned, stitched, and bandaged the injury, pressing kisses behind your ear and to the back of your neck every time you winced.

It was over as soon as it began. He sat in front of you and kissed away the tears at the corners of your eyes, thumbs rubbing your tense shoulders.

"Come on, my love. I'll have a word with Jean about Stormterror's Lair tomorrow morning, let's get some rest."

He carried you to bed, movements soft but purposeful. The lamps were snuffed out.

"I love you," he whispered.

"And I you, Diluc."

[dancersmirrorball]

Taylor Swift Evermore Sentence Starters

Tracks 1-4

"I'm like the water when your ship rolled in that night."

"Lost in your currant like a priceless wine."

"Wherever you stray, I follow."

"Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind."

"They count me out, time and time again."

"But I come back stronger than a nineties trend."

"Your heart was glass, I dropped it."

"I couldn't give a reason."

"Your midas touch on the chevy door, November flush and your flannel cure."

"And soon they'll have the nerve to deck the halls that we once walked through."

"One for the money, two for the show, I never was ready so I watch you go."

"You'll find the real thing instead she'll/he'll/they'll patch up the tapestry that I shred."

"Eyes like sinking ships on waters, so inviting I almost jump in."

"I don't like that falling feels like flying 'til the bone crush."

"Everybody wants you, but I don't like a gold rush."

"What must it be like to grow up that beautiful? With your hair falling into place like dominoes."

"My mind turns your life into folklore, I can't dare to dream about you anymore."

"And the coastal town we never found, will never see a love as pure as it."

"There's an ache in you put there by the ache in me."

"We could call it even, you could call me babe for the weekend."

"I'm staying at my parents house, and the road not taken looks real good now."

"And it always leads to you and my hometown."

"Sleep in half the day, just for old's time sake."

"And the heart I know I'm breaking is my own, to leave the warmest bed I've ever known."

Tracks 5-8

"I sit and watch you reading with your head low."

"You're so much older and wiser."

"If it's all in my head tell me now, tell me I've got it wrong somehow."

"I know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it."

"I made you my temple, my mural, my sky, now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life."

"Took this dagger in me and removed it, gain the weight of you, then lose it; believe me I could do it."

"We meet up every Tuesday night for dinner and a glass of wine."

"That ain't my merlot on his/her/their mouth, that ain't my jewelry on our joint account."

"I think he/she/they did it but I just can't prove it."

"no body no crime, but I ain't letting up until the day I die."

"Good thing my daddy made me get a boating license when I was fifteen."

"And I've cleaned enough houses to know how to cover up a scene."

"All the years I've given, is just shit we're dividing up."

"Showed you all of my hiding spots, I was dancing when the music stopped."

"Beyond the terror in the nightfall, haunted by the look in my eyes."

"When did all our lessons start to look like weapons pointed at my deepest hurt?"

"There is a glorious sunrise, dappled with the flickers of light; from the dress I wore at midnight, leave it all behind."

"I can't make it go away by making you a villain, I guess it's the price I pay for seven years in heaven."

"You got shiny friends since you left town, a tiny screen's the only place I see you now."

"This place is the same as it ever was."

"From you, I'd buy anything."

"It's never too late to come back to my side."

"You know, you'll always know me."

"Are you still the same soul I met under the bleachers?"

Tracks 9-12

"If I can't relate to you anymore, then who am I related to?"

"Did I close my fist around something delicate? Did I shatter you?"

"Sorry for not making you my centerfold."

"What's a lifetime of achievement? If I pushed you to the edge, but you were too polite to leave me."

"'Cause we were like the mall before the Internet, it was the one place to be."

"And when I got into the accident, the sight that flashed before me was your face."

"I'd meet you where the spirit meets the bones, in a faith forgotten land.

"And the old widow goes to the stone every day."

"Oh goddamn, my pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand."

"Oh I can't, stop you putting roots in my dream land."

"My house of stone, your ivy grows; now I'm covered in you."

"Crescent moon, coast is clear; spring breaks loose, but so does fear."

"How's one to know? I'd live and die for moments that we stole, on begged and borrowed time."

"It's a goddamn blaze in the dark, and you started it."

"Dancing is a dangerous game."

"I'm never gonna love again."

"I've got some tricks up my sleeve."

"And the skeletons in both our closets, plotted hard to fuck this up."

"Now you hang from my lips, like the Gardens of Babylon."

"With your boots beneath my bed, forever is the sweetest con."

"Fatefully, I tried to pick my battles; 'til the battle picked me."

"And you passed right by, I was in the alley surrounded on all sides."

"If the shoe fits, walk in it 'til your high heels break."

"And I fell from the pedestal, right down the rabbit hole."

"Long story short, it was a bad time."

"Pushed from the precipice, clung to the nearest lips."

"No more keeping score, now I just keep you warm."

"Long story short it was a bad time, long story short I survived."

Tracks 13-15 + bonus tracks

"Never be so kind, you forget to be clever."

"The autumn chill that wakes me up, you loved the amber skies so much."

"It's been a long time, and seeing the shape of your name; still spells out pain."

"It wasn't right, the way it all went down; looks like you know that now."

"I know that it's over, I don't need your closure."

"Don't treat me like some situation that needs to be handled."

"I know I'm just a wrinkle in your new life."

"Guilty, reaching out across the sea, that you put between you and me."

"Grey November, I've been down since July."

"I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone, trying to find the one where I went wrong."

"Writing letters, addressed to the fire."

"And I couldn't be sure, I had a feeling so peculiar; that this pain would be for evermore."

"Oh can we just get a pause, to be certain we'll be tall again."

"And when I was shipwrecked, I thought of you."

"Trends change, rumors fly through new skies; but I'm right where you left me."

"Help, I'm still at the restaurant, still sitting in a corner I haunt."

"I swear you could hear a hairpin drop, right when I felt the moment stop."

"Break-ups happen every day, you don't have to lose it."

"If our love died young, I can't bear witness."

"And it's been so long, but if you ever think you got it wrong."

"When the dinner is cold and the chatter gets old, you ask for the tab."

"That old familiar body ache, the snaps from the same little breaks in your soul; you know when it's time to go."

"Sometimes, giving up is the strong thing."

"Fifteen years, fifteen million tears; begging 'til my knees bled."

"I gave it my all, he/she/they gave me nothing at all; then wondered why I left."

"he's/she's/they've got my past frozen behind glass, but I've got me."

[perspectivestarters]

Perspective's Sentence Starters; Evermore (Part II)

NO BODY, NO CRIME

"He did it."

"Her husband's actin' different."

"It smells like infidelity."

"That ain't my Merlot on his mouth."

"That ain't my jewelry on our joint account."

"I think I'm gonna call him out."

"I think he did it, but I just can't prove it."

"No body, no crime."

"I ain't lettin' up until the day I die."

"I noticed when I passed his house."

"His mistress moved in."

"Sleeps in (name)'s bed and everything."

"Somebody's gotta catch him out."

"Good thing my daddy made me get a boating license when I was fifteen."

"I've cleaned enough houses to know how to cover up a scene."

"Good thing (name)'s sister's gonna swear she was with me."

"She was with me, dude."

"They think she did it, but they just can't prove it."

"She thinks I did it, but she just can't prove it."

"I wasn't lettin' up until the day he died."

HAPPINESS

"I see this for what it is."

"All the years I've given is just shit we're dividin' up."

"Showed you all of my hiding spots."

"In the disbelief, I can't face reinvention."

"I haven't met the new me yet."

"There'll be happiness after you."

"There was happiness because of you."

"Haunted by the look in my eyes that would've loved you for a lifetime."

"Leave it all behind and there is happiness."

"When did your winning smile begin to look like a smirk?"

"When did all our lessons start to look like weapons pointed at my deepest hurt?"

"I hope she'll be a beautiful fool who takes my spot next to you."

"No, I didn't mean that."

"Sorry, I can't see facts through all of my fury."

"You haven't met the new me yet."

"There is happiness in our history."

"I can't make it go away by making you a villain."

"I guess it's the price I paid for seven years in Heaven."

"I pulled your body into mine every goddamn night."

"No one teaches you what to do when a good man hurts you."

"You know you hurt him too."

"After giving you the best I had, tell me what to give after that."

"I think she'll give you that."

DOROTHEA

"Do you ever stop and think about me?"

"You got shiny friends since you left town."

"A tiny screen's the only place I see you now."

"I got nothing but well wishes for ya."

"This place is the same as it ever was."

"It's never too late to come back to my side."

"The stars in your eyes shined brighter in Tupelo."

"You know that you'll always know me."

"You'rе a queen sellin' dreams, sellin' makeup and magazines."

"From you, I'd buy anything."

"They all wanna be ya."

"Are you still the same soul I met under the bleachers?"

"I guess I'll never know."

CONEY ISLAND

"Break my soul in two looking for you."

"If I can't relate to you anymore, then who am I related to?"

"How'd we get here so soon?"

"Did I close my fist around something delicate?"

"Did I shatter you?"

"Sorry for not making you my centerfold."

"The question pounds my head."

"What's a lifetime of achievement if I pushed you to the edge?"

"Do you miss the rogue who coaxed you into paradise and left you there?"

"Will you forgive my soul when you're too wise to trust me and too old to care?"

"It was the one place to be."

"Sorry for not winning you an arcade ring."

"Were you waiting at our old spot?"

"Did I leave you hanging every single day?"

"Did I paint your bluest skies the darkest grey?"

"When I got into the accident, the sight that flashed before me was your face."