#BUT I HAVE schoooollll

[sophsicle]

[idrawgaystffs]

4 days till I explode, haha

(Starting college semester)

[astrangeghost]

Ouuugghh. I don't wanna do anything tomorrow

[clownnstuff]

i need to wriiiiiiite but i'm tirrreeeeddd. and i'm busssssyyyyy, and hihndfjniajnkjnfef. i need energy so badddddd. i need to finish cryptid sightttttinggggsss but i cant keeeeeppp my eyes opennn :( and i cant find my 3ds chargerrrr. i have a 6 hour road trip afterr schoooollll. i cant wait but imm tiiirreedddd

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[floramau]

I almost never draw Nancy but i GOTTA do it more,,,

[owlpajamas-archived-blog]

u kno @ my brain that a teacher joking around about some people forgetting to turn in a small homework assignment before break should really Not make you freak out and have a breakdown, like, cmon, this is just unreasonable,

[mandyxjapan]

This has been long overdue

Hi it’s Mandy. I know, it’s been months. I’ve been in Japan for 5 months now and thought wow I need to update even if no one has been waiting. I just want to give an honest report about my exchange so far and it’s not going to be what was expected.

So I went into this exchange very positive. My first choice was South Korea and I thought I’d for sure go there and didn’t but it was okay because I received my second choice. Coming to Japan was hard and stressful because the week before I didn’t even have my visa! So I was glad to finally make it in Japan. Japan itself is amazing and has been amazing up till now. But I’ve just had some issues with my experience so far.

Basically, not to put a bad name on rotary (rotary is AMAZING), but in my district in Japan, we do absolutely nothing. And I mean nothing. I haven’t traveled once with rotary. No sightseeing no having time with the other 4 (four) exchange students in the entire district like it’s been like I haven’t been in rotary. But I’ve been able to cope with that. My biggest issue is school.

Okay so schoooollll oh mannn.

I think my school is amazing in itself. An amazing program with their exchanges with Geelong Australia and Seattle USA. It’s a very good school that prides themselves with their international programs. But of course just because the school is good doesn’t mean you’ll have a good experience there. My friendships have been limited to none. I suppose yeah there is a translation problem. My Japanese isn’t 100%. I understand that completely. But I’ve been here for 5 months and students still don’t talk to me on their own nor want to spend time with me. Now recently I feel like some students do but it’s still up to me (and only me) to make friends. Everyone I get advice from says “just speak first!” Okay so I do. I say “おはよう！“ then get deeper with a “~~どうでしたか？“ but they seem totally uninterested with me. I keep trying to find out what I should do personally to communicate with them. Even teachers and sorta kinda English speakers say to me that ALL my classmates want to talk to me because they are nervous to speak English... It has been 5 months and they are still nervous to use English? Also do they not realize I understand Japanese now? I mean I have been here 5 months. So it really irks me that they are still on that. But I surely know that when the students from Seattle come, they will be speaking all types of English! Overall in my opinion I think they just do not like me and do not want to be involved with me and that’s okay but it hurts a little.

And lastly racial issues...

I thought in Japan this wouldn’t happen to me. I mean I hear stories but you’re just like “nah wouldn’t happen to me” let me explain.

I changed host family’s in the end of December. Before then school had ended. One day I was walking home and suddenly from the school I hear this student yell “n***a” So I’m like HUH. Now I’m not saying that he did. I’m saying that’s what I heard. Now with being a black student in a majority Japanese country, you have to make sure what you heard was right before you start making assumptions. Now when I heard that I put my earbuds in and kept walking because I felt too embarrassed to say something because I wasn’t ready for such an argument especially if I don’t speak Japanese. You have to think “is he talking to me? Is that Japanese? Is he joking (still not good) did he even say that?” But it was my first time in that situation so I froze. Next was when I went out to eat with my host mother. Now this time I felt very vulnerable because it was a very very small restaurant. So I’m eating and my moms on the phone and I see these 2 guys staring at me (one a worker) and suddenly I hear him say “n***a, my n***a” now this is a situation where you have to question if you heard it to not make a complete fool out of yourself for saying something. I came to the conclusion that he definitely said it because it’s one of those words that you just know. How he said it was just obvious and on top of that they were looking at me. After eating my host mom explained it to the workers and this woman is going to say “I didn’t say that word. I don’t know that word. I didn’t know it was a bad word” find the problems in that sentence 😪

She said she didn’t. Okay, I didn’t say you did. She said she didn’t know the word and didn’t know it was bad.... ok. So I just accepted that they didn’t say it and left. But I know for a fact that man said it and it hurt at the time. It hurt very badly.

There was then another incident at school where I thought I heard it but wasn’t sure. And after the restaurant incident, I’m way to nervous to say something if I hear it because I don’t know if they are or not anymore. So those are my issues there racially besides the fact that Japanese people apparently don’t like the smell of Cantu.

So that’s my check in post

NOTE: I do NOT think Rotary is a bad program. I think either my exchange is just bad for me or I’m just a lacking exchange student. I’m not sure. If you’re a student wanting to join Rotary and go to Japan, DO IT!! Besides the school and race issues, my exchange has been beautiful! You just have to find stuff that’s right for you to do! Find something you enjoy :) in Wakayama I enjoy going to Wakayama station. I also love looking at the mountains and going to Evergreen. Find what’s right for you if you have issues. Not once have I wanted to go home I just want school life to be better. Hopefully it changes soon.

Thank you for reading 💕 - Mandy

[autumnalfelix]

Best reaction to the alt vers of my hyungwon piece.

[thruceislifealloflife]

I have schoooollll!!!!!!!!!

[ashedtree689]

I hare schoooollll, WHY DO I HAVE TO DO IT ENGLISH?????? •• • •• • (I honestly succ at english)

[terrifiesthem]

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[lemonyellowlogic]

i dont think my parents understand that when i say “every single one of my classes next semester are a building apart from one another and i have less than five minutes to get to each one”, it does not mean 

“wow im gonna get in a bunch of cardio!”

it means “goddamnit kill me now i don't want to go through this bullshit again”

[hazzaisagoober]

no joke, tumblr just said that i have been flagged for sexual content (AGAIN HERE WE GO) and it was that amazon prime interview with michael vlamis and tyler blackburn lmao

they gotta be kidding me, this brings me back to my days in catholic high  school when we would say shut up and an angry nun would appear saying to watch our language......... hiiiighhhh schoooollll.....