#BUT I FEEL LIKE AN ASSHOLE ASKING IN YHE FIRST PLACE

[saetoru]

i feel bad going to artists with reference photos of desi wedding dresses for comms bc they’re so detailed it seems like a pain to draw so i feel guilty but like 😭 idk my guy

[andrews-lovr]

Congratulations on 100 followers gurl ❤❤❤....... Keep going, so proud of you 😍🤩❤ !!!!!!!!!!!

For the ask - ❤ with Andrew Garfield 😍🤩❤ !!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you @mcugeekposts you've been here from the beginning and I absolutely adore you!! Thank you for always being here❣here you go:

Summary: andrews been away filming for weeks, what happens when a touched starved andrew comes home after filming.

Warnings: smutty!!! This ones a bit pong but I love it! Unedited. 18+ only <33

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It was always the most difficult part of the relationship, having to be apart from andrew for such long amounts of time.

Although you both hated it, being apart for that long always brought you guys even closer.

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You were counting down the hours till andrew would be in your arms again, you missed him immensely.

So much so you were snuggled up in his spot of the couch in nothing but his oversized t-shirt, doing anything that would get your off him till he was home.

You favourite show splayed on yhe TV, and your favourite calming mint tea warming your hands.

You knew you only had to wait till tomorrow to see him, but you were so touched deprived you nearly hugged the mail man this morning.

*ring ring*

Andrews name splayed across your phone screen immediately administering a toothy grin from you.

"Hey baby" Andrews voice soothing across the phone.

"Hey Andy, im missing you so so much right now. Would do anything to see that gorgeous face of yours." You weaped through the phone.

"Well, that's actually why I called."

"Well then you shouldve put it on facetime?" You taunted.

"No thats not what I... just look out the window for me." You jumped from your spot racing toward the closest window.

Thats when you saw him, standing outside the gate. A small bundle of camellias in one hand, his face was beaming with joy.

The phone slid out of your hand landing with a loud thud right at your foot, you could see andrew laughing from the window but you didn't care.

You raced toward the door nearly tripping on your own feet. The front door almost falling off its hinges as you pushed it open.

You never thought you'd run faster in your life than right now, bounding at your husband at a ridiculous pace.

You leapt up into his open arms, the all to comforting and familiar smell of him taking over your senses. His heat radiating off him like a warm childhood memory. He was so so comforting like a hot chocolate on a rainy day.

You missed your love, your light.

"Woah dovey, I know, I know I missed you too sweetie. So fucking much." He whispered pulling you so close to him.

He walked you back toward the house, knowing you wouldn't let go of him. Forever glued to him, legs wrapped around his hips.

"I'm never letting you go again andy, never." You weaped shoving your face in his neck and hands in his soft locks.

"Hey look at me angel, im always here, always. Im never letting you go. Never, because im a stubborn little asshole, so you're gonna have to put up with me till im old and smell bad." He said nuzzling your nose with his.

"You'll never smell bad andy" you chuckled looking into his eyes deeply.

Andrew finally broke the barrier first leaning in ever so gently on your lips, so gently it was as though you were precious china.

His lips perfectly molded into yours, every piece of you craving him so deeply.

It was like every I miss you was placed upon his lips with each kiss.

You could feel the way you craved eachother in each kiss, the way he tugged at the nape of your neck and the way you squeezed your arms around his neck making no room left between eachother.

The kiss slowly became desperate and sloppy. Lust laced upon his tongue and lips.

A low guttural moan spurring from somewhere inside him you couldn't help but whimper at.

"Shall we take this to the room?" You asked even though you knew th answer.

"Dont have to ask me twice" Andrew carried you bridal style toward the shared queen bed.

He would normally just drop you onto the bed but tonight you knew he wanted to take care of his precious little dove. He placed you down so softly as though you would were glass.

"How was i so lucky to end up with you dovey? Out of the 7 billion people on this earth, im the luckiest man alive."

His words dazed your mind and you couldn't help but melt at the way he was watching you so attentively.

"I missed you, every single piece of you. It was so difficult for me to be away that long, you know how desperate I was to just fly back here. Nearly did it a few times, especially when I was alone at night." He truthfully spoke.

You loved the way he would just tell you what was on his mind, he was so truthful.

He started kissing up your body, each kiss a symbol of the amount of adoration he had for you.

"I like my shirt on you dovey, you look so hot."

"I love this beard on you baby, you look so pretty andy." You repeated back.

You slowly peeled andrews clothing from his body as he did the same for you, gently tugging at the loose hanging fabrics until you were both lying against eachother naked.

"I missed these lips" he said tasting your lips again.

"And I missed these tits." He spoke taking one in his mouth whilst the other wa seeing moulded by his hand.

"Missed your cute lil stomach." He whispered sucking kissing on your stomach, knowing you'd be marked up in the morning.

"And I missed this pussy." He said finally kissing you once and looking back up into your eyes.

"Andy please." You pleaded watching his every move from between you thighs.

He crawled back up your body, getting real close to your ear.

"Please what dovey." He whispered shallowly.

"Please... please fuck me. I missed that cock so so much andy." You whispered, looking up to see a smug grin take over his features.

"Not yet, wanna eat you out first"

"No another time Andy, I just wanna feel you dick, missed the way it felt so much." You pleaded, he couldn't help but gush at the way you were praising him.

"If that's want you want dove, but consider this an IOU because I wanna feel you fall apart on my tongue and beard hmm?" He spoke taking his painfully hard cock between his hands.

He aligned himself at your entrance, not wanting to rush.

He ever so slowly pushed into you, every inch stretching you out deliciously just how you remembered. He kept going until he was bottomed out. You looked up at his face, his mouth agape and slow pants leaving his gorgeous redenned lips.

"Mmm forgot you felt like heaven dove. This pussy really was made for me wasn't it?" He asked dragging back till his tip remained inside right before slamming back into you. You couldn't help the loud moan that tore through you.

His hips rolled into you over and over, you all blissed out around his cock.

"I said, this pussy was made for me wasn't it." Andrew said with a particularly rough thrust at the end.

"Yes baby, its all yours"

"Mmm yes, no one elses." He drawled out.

Andrew picked up his pace, a delicious rhythm worked up as he pounded into you. You wrapped you legs around his waist pulling him in deeper, if that was even possible.

He sucked and kissed down your neck and collarbone, groaning in your ear in between kisses as his climax was surely approaching.

You groped his back, knowing there would be marks there in the morning. His paced picked up as he was chasing both your high, his dick hitting that soft spongy spot repeatedly.

"F-fuck.... mmm baby im so so close. Your pretty pussy gonna come around my cock hmm?"

"I'm so close too andy, dont stop please."

"Would never stop dovey. Your gripping me so tight, holy shit."

His pace became sloppy as he reached dhis hand between your bodys to start rubbing at your clit.

"Come on baby, cum with me." He spoke drawing fast circles with his thumb.

He gave one last hard thrust into you as your walls fluttered around him, his seed spilling into you. He rolled his hips a few more times working his way through you highs, before pulling out.

He layed down beside you instantly pulling you into his chest.

"I'm never leaving again." He chuckled stroking at your hair.

"I wouldn't want that for the world." You said holding him close.

[itsl]

Long time no see. I've been wanting to write this for a while, but I've been... scared? It's about my relationship. It's not ab*sive (at least in the physcial sense), but I've had about as much as I can take.

I'll start this by saying I've only been in three relationships in my life, none of which were healthy for me. I've been gaslight, shamed and more. And again, it's never been physical. But as I've come to learn, it doesn't have to be physical to seriously affect you.

So my boyfriend (x) and I have been together for nearly 3. I've been with him through a lot. And when I say a lot, I mean through me finding womens nudes on his phone to porn in his youtube history to going behind my back and talking shit about me to someone who put me in a very emotionally dangerous situation. And while the whole time, I've convinced myself that he cares about me, I've come to the conclusion that he doesn't. He's so selfish. He only cares about himself.

X has recent applied for apartment viewings in the capital. I wasn't part of this decision. We've been living together with my mum for maybe 2 years (?). I thought it was just me being petty when he told me he was going to move out. I was upset because I'm not ready, I'm dealing with a lot in the sense of mental health right now, and I thought it was kind of a dick move for him to be thinking about yhe next stage of 'our' life without me. I mustered up the courage to tell him I'm not coming when he moves out, and I even went as far as to explain myself. I said that I wasn't part of the decision, I'm not comfortable making a big move while in therapy and I cant afford to move out (as I haven't had a job for just over a year - thanks covid). He said okay and I assumed that that meant he wasn't going to move out. I was wrong. He told me again a couple of days ago that he was still moving out because he wanted to. I went about telling him how he was leaving me behind (litrrally) and that he was self sabotaging a relationship he had previously told me he didn't want to loose. So now I'm stuck thinking "hey, you work 5/6 days a week and you're going to be living in the capital, an hour of so away. Im gonna see you twice a week, if I'm lucky."

Recently I have been standing up for myself against him too. Whenever he's been interrupting me I've told him I'm not done talking and if he was rudely interrupting me, I'd tell him to shut up. In fact, I just did now, and he snapped his head round and growled at me saying "you shut up". I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little scared of him. He's so aggressive. He's so rude. It has to be his way all the time, and I'm sick of it. Now that I've started to stand up for myself, we've been growing apart. I can't remember the last time he hugged me or kissed me. And thats not me being dramatic, he genuinely does not show me any form of physcial affection unless I ask for it. And obviously I haven't been asking for it recently because I shouldn't have to. It's sad and I feel like a bit of a place holder (?) in his life. He talks about how he's ready to be a dad, but I don't think he gives two shits if its with me or not. He makes it apparent that he isn't sharing his life -if that makes sense. He's shown me very clearly that it doesn't matter which woman is on his arm, he'll do what he wants.

I got my covid shot a few days ago, and if you've had it or know someone that has, you may know that it can cause you to get a little sick for a few days. I have a weak immune system and a few health issues (which is why I got my shot early) and the vaccine made me so weak and achy. I didnt eat the day after my vaccine and just slept mostly, but I asked X to make me some noodles (the instant ramen) to which he replied "I dont know how to make noodles". This fucking incompetent asshole seriously said he can't boil water and put noodles in it. So, struggling to walk, achy and with the chills (the painful kind that shakes your bones), I went and spent maybe 30 minutes making a 10 (if that) minute meal. To say I was angry would be an understatement. Even my mum thought that was ridiculous. It got me thinking as well. If I WAS to move out with him, and I got sick or I was really ill, who would take care of me? If I couldn't move for some reason or I broke a bone or was bed ridden for a bit, who would take care of me? That asshole wouldn't, I'll tell you that. Not only would he not take care of me, he wouldn't even TRY to. True love my fucking ass. Even tiny little things like asking him to close the bedroom door and turn of the light in the hallway (because he was the last to come in) to which he replies "you do it" while loading up a game on his PS4.

Oh my... not to mention I haven't been given anything for our first valentines day. Yes. Our first. He usually goes away with his family, but this year he was with me. What did I get? Nothing. I got excuses "(he) ordered it, its on its way", "(he) doesn't know why its taking so long". I showed how petty I was by even reminding him when it had been a month after valentines day.

Urggg...

There's so much I want to talk about, I might have to write this in two entries. I get a little sad writing this all. I pretend I don't care, but emotional neglect does actually take a huge toll on a person believe it or not. So I'm sad.

*Part 1 of 2*

♡ L

Saturday March 20