#BUT EPISODE 7 CUT MY FUCKING HEART STRINGS MAN EPISODE 7 BROKE ME

[devils-little-sista]

Mike Fucking Flanagan. Midnight Club. Episode 7. You Monster. You Know What You Did. I’m coming to your house Mike. And when I get there. What I’m gonna do to your face. Is not gonna be pretty.

[stvlti]

11 Questions

i was tagged by @privatekururugi, @espiadimonis, and @transguynoriaki a while ago. each gave me a set of 11 questions to answer, so i will answer these 33 questions. i’m not gonna tag anyone in particular, but if you see this do feel free to have a go at any or all of these sets of 11q’s.

from @privatekururugi:

1) Do you have any specific diet you go by? (Vegan, Gluten-Free, Paleo, etc.) i used to be pescetarian, but then the deficiencies it gave me caused some pretty bad dental / gum problems, so i started eating a bit of lean chicken and pork on the side again... (yeah i know supplements exist, but even my nutrition major of a friend thought a pescetarian diet won’t yield deficiencies, and also supplements are fairly expensive. get off my case)

2&3) Do you have any siblings? If so, how close are you? nope, i’m an only child

4&5) What’s your favourite book and why? (I might want to read it lol) hmm. i still really like 1984, it was the first dystopian classic i read and the concept of Newspeak, tampering with historical authenticity on such grand scales, etc. just blew my mind. so even though i still dislike its weakass character-writing (p much anyone besides Winston has no personality, no distinct personal motives, etc), it’s got a soft spot in my heart. next to that i also liked A Clockwork Orange for the philosophical discussion of the nature of right and wrong (although in hindsight the story is a bit didactic); To Live by Yu Hua (the ill-fated episodes and tragic ends are made all the more absurd by the subtle and simply narration style, but it really is a humbling and informative experience for us readers of a different era and socioeconomic background); and of course, my favourite fable, A Little Prince.

6) Would you describe your personality as dominate or submissive overall? what the fuck kind of question is this. well i’m opinionated as heck, so i’m not submissive “personality-wise”. and that’s all i’ll say on the matter because i’m p sex-indifferent lol, if that’s what this question was trying to get at.

7) What are your dreams usually like at night? oh man. i usually don’t dream normal dreams; as in, most dreams i have is either one big adventure / story, or some bizarre situation that would have been questionable at best, fucked up at worst, in real life context. when i start dreaming about mundane everyday life problems or situations, like failing a test or being stuck with a friend i’ve cut off from my life years ago, that’s usually when i’ve got some kind of stress going on in my life.

(i’ve been trying to restart my dream journal tag actually, but i got stuck on my second entry trying to recall the specifics lol. maybe i should release entry #3 from the drafts first.)

8) Is there anything you’re currently anxious about? well, yeah. my future. my job prospects. being homeless once my parents decide to sell their house off for retirement because the housing prices are through the roof here. pick one.

9&10) Are you looking forward to Thanksgiving? Will you be contributing anything? we don’t celebrate Thanksgiving!

11) Whose your favourite Death Note character (if you have one)?  Light Yagami, even though he’s a slimy fox.

from @transguynoriaki:

1. What kind of music do you listen to?

hmm, i only listen to really slow music or something dark or rock-ish, nothing in between!! muahahaha!! 

okay that’s generalising it; i do love The Honey Trees and The Novembers, which are on opposite ends of the “slow” spectrum (one’s dream pop, the other’s infused with shoegaze and other distortions + some screamy vocals and loud noises at times), with Lana Del Rey and her decadent sounds smack in the middle lol. but yeah i certainly have a taste for the more atmospheric stuff, so aside from the fuzzy feelings of The Novembers’ stuff and the grandness of Lana’s string instrumentals i also like the darker chill vibes you get from The Neighbourhood, some of The Weeknd’s older stuff, etc. 

and I also really enjoy MCR, Muse and the like - i.e. dramatic sounds, that’s the good shit to me haha.

i also like more conventional pop acts like Lorde... and my fave local singer, Ivana Wong, of course!

2. Do you prefer to keep your living space neat and tidy or do you like a certain amount of mess?

i do prefer order and routine in my life, sadly if i can’t do that on a structural level you think i can do that with my desk?! lol. in an alternate universe, maybe.

3. What was the first ship you remember really shipping?

hmm probably TerraxBeast Boy from CN’s Teen Titans. i was lukewarm / indifferent to other canon pairings i’ve seen in media up until that point; but i guess i was more persuaded by the storyline than their characterisations as looking back there are glaring trust issues in their relationship (and that’s an understatement)

4. Do you have a certain show or book series that holds a lot of nostalgic value for you? If so, what was it?

hmm, i guess Courage the Cowardly Dog? (i was a weird kid but shush) and Teen Titans of course. as for books, hmm... ASoUE is definitely one of the ones that just takes me back to middle school. i even bought the Beatrice letters files thingy. tbf the whole Lemony Snicket universe did teach me a lot about cryptography, which i guess if me or a friend of mine were to do an L rp and solve cases it would help a lot (*cough* not saying that’s what’s happening right now because i’ve got other stuff i’m investing my time into. i guess my friend’s gonna make themselves scarce as well hahaha *cue Mariah Carey’s i can’t read gif except it’s L*)

5. What is your favorite type of food?

Italian and Japanese are my fave cuisines! i guess that means i love richly-flavoured foods and creamy stuff. ooh, love those sauces.

6. Was there ever a fad or activity from your childhood that you could never understand or get into?

i wasn’t a gamer at all. we didn’t own a single console and i wasn’t allowed to get a handheld. the most i had was a Tamagotchi. so i guess it’s not so much i never got that ‘fad’, just that i was never given the opportunity to discover the really good games. i’ve only ever played a bit of Mario Kart or Cooking Mama on my cousin’s NDS so yeah. didn’t see the appeal in the more light-hearted games like that.

(now that i’ve played Undertale i’m kinda wanting to explore more PC games though. i heard Papers Please is good, and PJ (@kickthepj)’s been recommending Hyper Light Drifter a lot, and the art looks amazing, so yeah... too broke to get them though... and even if i had the money and time to play them i’d be allocating it towards other stuff you know?)

7. What’s your favorite time of day?

well i got 2 fave time periods. the first one’s the witching hours between midnight and early morning, when the world is quiet and you could do anything and nobody would know. the other one is early morning, just after sunrise, and the air is clear and slightly chilly, and it’s also really quiet but you can just hear the birds tweeting somewhere.

i’m more likely to be awake for the first time period described here though... ._.

8. What’s your favorite type flower and why?

hmm i'm not really a flower person. i’m just gonna steal Luke’s answer and say cactus flowers haha (well i do like cacti, they’re some of my favourite plants; i even named my IG/Twitter and Pokemon Go usernames after the plant; also some of you might remember that i had a pet cactus for 8 months)

9. What’s your favorite cliché/trope in fiction?

lovers running out of time...

10. Did/do you do any extracurricular activities when you were in school and what were they?

(wow Luke that’s a lot on your resume!)

i did bits and bobs throughout school, but perhaps my longest commitment was my Clarinet lessons. started when i was in Year 2, carried on until i obtained a Pass in Grade 8 ABRSM certificate in Year 10. i had to quit and give up on a diploma there because i was starting the IB diploma programme in Year 11...

this commitment is only rivalled by the dance classes i took. i did ballet from a young age until i was about 12~13, quitting just before en pointe shoes were introduced; i had also been in Chinese dance lessons from Year 1, so after quitting ballet i just focused on that until Year 10 as well (again, quitting to focus on my full-time diploma).

i also did Taekwondo as a child and obtained a black belt qualification by age 12. i quit once i did though, because again i couldn’t afford to juggle so many commitments the older i got and the more demanding my studies became.

perhaps the proudest extracurricular i’ve done is in my senior years of high school: i started and chaired the student committee as the editor in-chief for the school’s first student-ran and seasonal (now monthly) publication. it’s not student-ran either anymore because i guess the kids that came after the classes of 2014, 2015, and 2016 just dgaf about slightly more demanding extracurriculars that require organisation as long as they can earn their credits elsewhere (yes i’m salty, i’m allowed to be okay, it was my brainchild but apparently kids these days don’t care about having their voices heard if it means having to negotiate diplomacy with the adults in charge. god, how do they expect to survive in uni or in a workplace?)

11. What’s your favorite piece of work that you’ve ever created and what about it do you love so much?

hmm. i think for sure the prose poem i wrote about Light’s death in the anime. idk, the flow and the imagery is just a good concentrated example of what i could be capable of given the right tone and context. (of course, i’ve been trying hard to branch out in genres and forms, so that sort of language isn’t always applicable. but yeah, it remains my fave as a showcase of my best writing abilities ^_^)

and from @espiadimonis​:

1.If you could have one piece of death note merchandise of any kind, what would it be?

oh man! i’ve been pining after the Hot Topic official DN poker card deck for quite some time! i’ve checked Blue Banana while i was in the UK, but it’s not available there, and it’s not at Tokyo Toys either (they do sell a DN playing card deck, but it’s a lot cheaper in design :/)

2.What’s your favourite 3D animated movie?

does Lego Batman count? if not, then i guess Zootopia.

(there’s a reason these 2 are listed in my bio fandoms list like...)

3.What superpower would you like to have?

i used to always choose levitation / flying, but lately i’m not so sure. i’ve heard a lot of compelling arguments for other powers haha.

you know what, i’d trade for something as simple as better control of my own brain. i don’t care about mind control over others; i just want to be able to harness the best parts of my lightning fast thought processes and out-of-the-box thinking on my best days without being constantly tripped up by executive dysfunction like that on a metacognitive level.

4.Favourite piece of clothing?

my soft furry hoodie, which i’m wearing right now! <3

5.Who’s your favourite Sailor Scout?

i don’t have one, sorry! i was 4 when it aired on TV, so i don’t remember much from those years except the Sailor Moon t shirt i got courtesy of my aunt because it was all the rage back then... i’m sorry, but i have more vivid memories of Pretty Cure and Sugar Sugar Rune!

6.Do you prefer potato chips chocolate?

it is a good combo for sure! we are talking about Royce’s chocolate potato chips, right? (if you haven’t tried it get some next time you or a friend/family goes to Japan! we can buy it locally from like Citysuper or something, but i doubt they export it to any countries beyond East Asia haha)

7.What song makes you feel melancholic?

oh, Six Billion did last week. it left me feeling cold all over. an effect from the combination of the layered vocals and the instrumentals i guess. (is it in minor key? i’m sorry i can’t tell anymore, it’s been far too long since i’ve had any musical training. but if it’s in minor key it would explain why.)

there’s also some of the stuff off The Novembers’ catalogue... mostly 終わらない境界 from To (melt into), which was my daily commuting soundtrack at a time when i had brainfog on a regular basis, so yeah, anxiety and all that fun stuff :/

8.Which dn character would you invite to Spaceland(the amusement park)?

Sayu or Matsuda? they deserve a lot more than the hand canon dealt them. hmm maybe Rem too? but she wouldn’t be able to interact with a lot of the stuff there :/

9.What’s the funniest movie you ever watched?

i guess The Lego Batman Movie? i’m sorry i know i keep bringing this film up, but it’s comedic genius for a “kid’s movie”.

10.You can only choose one pokémon! Which one do you choose?

Blissey was gonna be my go to answer. she’s a tank, have you seen her? but is she really my fave mon? debatable. idk man. i really liked Vulpix/Ninetales as a kid... but dark and ghost types though!! okay i can’t choose, next question 

11.What made you happy recently?

i went to another poetry event last night and i met up with a friend i haven’t seen since September :P

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I just watched some of your video concerning 22 veterans die daily from suicide. I’ve never heard of it before but I was very impressed with what I saw, I sure would enjoy if you entertained yourself with watching unchainthetree.com

OK! For the life of me I don’t know why this is highlighted, standby a second will you God bless.

OK so let’s go!

Ok! Is anybody listening to this man? Does anybody really know this man’s name? I think you should work for our financial government. Hey Trump. Poops! President Trump, are you listening? Support active heroes.

50% higher than what. And you know I was concerned about this number 22, 22, veteran suicides per day?

I believe that this number is extremely misleading. However it took me a lot of research to get to this point. But we’re really going to have to look at this: “statistics are these numbers that they throw at us”.

Holy!

So he said “continually support our veterans, continued support of our cause?”

PULLING ON OUR HEART STRINGS………….

The propaganda that we have to watch out for is extremely volatile. Think about this, why is this coming forward now?

I almost bought into this bullshit. 22 veterans a day commit suicide. And don’t you know that there are a variety of different agencies who suddenly jump on board to ask for money’s, to help their cause.

Cocktail break.

There are a lot of reasons that many of the veterans that they have identified are committing suicide. Some woman left him, my wife she left me she cheated on me, I’m an alcoholic, I was in Iraq, I was in Vietnam, come on. Period?

Come on?

They can never get their lives back. Their social lives, may never come back to them. So! What is to be done?

One of the best partners I ever had on the highway patrol, was a man I’ll just name well, Steve.

I don’t specifically recall, the discussion that Steve and I were having, but I know for a fact that it had something to do with suicide.

No I don’t know, but the conversation was brought up because of the suicide on or in our family, that of the California patrol and personal family as well. But the conversation turned up to suicide.

Steve said to me! ():,;…,

Steve said; “Baker, I’m not saying that suicide is not a viable out, it’s just not a viable out for me”.

Weed break.

Well OK

Now I just returned, and saw a episode by Lewis Black. Louis said that and I’m sorry if I get this incorrect but semi “a Republican stands up in Congress and says I have a great idea, and a Democrat stands up and says and I will make it more fucked up “”

He said; “so the federal government decided to make this money up, to have a $350 million tax cut OK and by federal government I mean you know Republicans and “fucking Democrats only thing dumber than a republican and a Democrat is when these pricks work together. Good bread idea

I found that course, it’s not my fault, the target at 8 o’clock in the morning and I am really? After I’ve flown the first two days I have the professor but his throat and eyes why are you teaching this shit at this ungodly hour.

$350 billion tax cut all the cities are broke, and you’re going to cut taxes you got to cut services, in many places the cut policeman because why in the fuck needs it. Or Furman, it’s much more fun watching should burn down.

In New York they could enter oh, if you’re going to cut after school progress in his thing to do is give one of those get the knife, they could wiggle and sell their crafts at the fair God

But if you’re a parent hold onto your hats!

God! Don’t you just hate spellcheck

Moving on I’m not gonna fucking reject the shit not my fault it’s coming out that way.

OK before I start moving on! I just want to say that I totally agree with Louis black when it concerns building a wall. We should build a wall across the entire border of Canada, because that’s where the cold weather comes from.

Come on

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I just watched some of your video concerning 22 veterans die daily from suicide. I’ve never heard of it before but I was very impressed with what I saw, I sure would enjoy if you entertained yourself with watching unchainthetree.com

OK! For the life of me I don’t know why this is highlighted, standby a second will you God bless.

OK so let’s go!

Ok! Is anybody listening to this man? Does anybody really know this man’s name? I think you should work for our financial government. Hey Trump. Poops! President Trump, are you listening? Support active heroes.

50% higher than what. And you know I was concerned about this number 22, 22, veteran suicides per day?

I believe that this number is extremely misleading. However it took me a lot of research to get to this point. But we’re really going to have to look at this: “statistics are these numbers that they throw at us”.

Holy!

So he said “continually support our veterans, continued support of our cause?”

PULLING ON OUR HEART STRINGS………….

The propaganda that we have to watch out for is extremely volatile. Think about this, why is this coming forward now?

I almost bought into this bullshit. 22 veterans a day commit suicide. And don’t you know that there are a variety of different agencies who suddenly jump on board to ask for money’s, to help their cause.

Cocktail break.

There are a lot of reasons that many of the veterans that they have identified are committing suicide. Some woman left him, my wife she left me she cheated on me, I’m an alcoholic, I was in Iraq, I was in Vietnam, come on. Period?

Come on?

They can never get their lives back. Their social lives, may never come back to them. So! What is to be done?

One of the best partners I ever had on the highway patrol, was a man I’ll just name well, Steve.

I don’t specifically recall, the discussion that Steve and I were having, but I know for a fact that it had something to do with suicide.

No I don’t know, but the conversation was brought up because of the suicide on or in our family, that of the California patrol and personal family as well. But the conversation turned up to suicide.

Steve said to me! ():,;…,

Steve said; “Baker, I’m not saying that suicide is not a viable out, it’s just not a viable out for me”.

Weed break.

Well OK

Now I just returned, and saw a episode by Lewis Black. Louis said that and I’m sorry if I get this incorrect but semi “a Republican stands up in Congress and says I have a great idea, and a Democrat stands up and says and I will make it more fucked up “”

He said; “so the federal government decided to make this money up, to have a $350 million tax cut OK and by federal government I mean you know Republicans and “fucking Democrats only thing dumber than a republican and a Democrat is when these pricks work together. Good bread idea

I found that course, it’s not my fault, the target at 8 o’clock in the morning and I am really? After I’ve flown the first two days I have the professor but his throat and eyes why are you teaching this shit at this ungodly hour.

$350 billion tax cut all the cities are broke, and you’re going to cut taxes you got to cut services, in many places the cut policeman because why in the fuck needs it. Or Furman, it’s much more fun watching should burn down.

In New York they could enter oh, if you’re going to cut after school progress in his thing to do is give one of those get the knife, they could wiggle and sell their crafts at the fair God

But if you’re a parent hold onto your hats!

God! Don’t you just hate spellcheck

Moving on I’m not gonna fucking reject the shit not my fault it’s coming out that way.

OK before I start moving on! I just want to say that I totally agree with Louis black when it concerns building a wall. We should build a wall across the entire border of Canada, because that’s where the cold weather comes from.

Come on

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