#BROTHER IM GONNA BE WORKING ON FINISHING THIS FUCKING PAPER ALL DAY I DONT HAVE TIME FOR THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[infizero]

oh my god secret life is tomorrow.

[sxfik]

I have an idea!

Ok so we all know that Hanseo is abused by his big brother, and if i remember correctly, the jipuragi trio found out about it from the guillotine file for the first time.

Now hear me out, what if the jipuragi trio found out about the abuse from Hanseo himself, not from the guillotine file??

After failing to burn down geumga plaza, Hanseok threw that object at Hanseo, telling him not to dodge it, and it left a scar on his forehead. When Hanseo visited jipuragi, he seemed proud of that scar, right?? Because thats what he got from saving geumga plaza, and he hoped that the scar would show them that he wants to be on their side.

BUT lets forget about all those stuff for a moment.

Hanseok loves to strangle, threaten, and hit Hanseo with the hockey stick. It certainly happens more than once, so i figured that there must be a bunch of scars and bruises on his body right?? What if the jipuragi trio noticed one of his scars/bruises?? I know Hanseo always wear long-sleeved stuff, so its not exactly visible, but what if someone caught a glimpse of it??? Perhaps the scar/bruise was on his arm???

Maybe when Hanseo visits jipuragi, Vincenzo asks him to wash some coffee mugs, and as Hanseo is rolling up his sleeves...

"yo whats that on your arm??"

And maybe Hanseo is like "thats a bruise..? Do you not know what a bruise is??"

Okay, idk. I have no idea how he's gonna react if that happens. I just feel like Hanseo wouldnt be proud of his scars if he didnt get them from trying to save geumga/jipuragi people.

And now im just wondering, what do you think? How would Hanseo react, in your opinion? If the jipuragi trio really did find out about the abuse from Hanseo himself, how would that affect their relationship? Im really curious about what you think

Hhhhhhhh sorry if its too long. I just thought that this might be a good way for Hanseo and jipuragi to kinda get closer with each other...

han seo headcanons (part one)

helloooo, thank you for sending an ask in :D

SORRY this answer is super long and for some reason my phone isn't allowing me to add a keep reading cut thingy, apologies in advance to the amount scrolling you have to do

tw: abuse

i've been thinking so much about this ask and just how han-seo would react to them finding out, and honestly i never really took note of how many long sleeved shirts he wears. i believe han-seok has switched a lot more into emotional manipulation and abuse than physical abuse but he has a lot of anger issues. i'd honestly imagine him using han seo as a punching bag for any and every inconvinence that happens to him, even as an intern.

i also agree with you, han seo is someone who is a very bright personality who tends to hide his hurt and emotions, and he's very very good at it as he has been living under a psychopath his whole life. he's good at hiding his anger (although it definetly bubbles over in smaller outbursts) and especially his hurt (i.e. the scene that han seok throws that candle holder at him and he just smiles back). han seo has a lot of anger at himself for not speaking back or being able to act like himself. like in that scene in the office, you can tell as he curls his fist that he wanted to speak back so badly. even when he finally snaps against han seok, he said "i'm getting tired of being afraid of you." i feel like he'd be embarrassed that even after years, he hasn't been able to escape his abuse

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i feel like this scene and their dynamic would play out something similar to this:

han seo joined the team and has been working with vincenzo and cha-young for around a month. at this point han seo isn't walking on eggshells with both of them, he's a lot more comfortable and visiting their office regularly without choi/han/han seok finding out.

sometimes it's vincenzo and cha-young providing him books to study economics from, maybe even giving some brotherly/sisterly advice to him. every couple weeks, vin and cha-young give him quizzes and slowly, he's getting better and better

over time, he even got closer to the plaza residents (even though the residents were definetly cold to him in the beginning, miri scaring the shit out of him by doing her ghost thing, the lady with the lipstick from bye bye balloon staring him down, snack bar lady refusing to serve him, larry also scaring the shit out of him by doing his zombie routine)

but despite this, they adopt him into their family, han seo doing small errands for the residents, him buying the best coffee, food and getting camera equipment for the snack bar lady's son. han seo gifting the pawnshop couple with cute baby items etc.

(obviously he buys the most expensive shit bc he's still a rich boy, but they dont have to know)

(side note: he'd be fucking adorable with a baby, imagine him being the babies "uncle han seo" who gets them the best gifts !!)

even though he was comfortable with all of them, every once in a while his facade would slip.

every once in a while, someone would make a sharp movement towards him and he'd flinch. or if someone makes a quick step towards him, he'd back up and stiffen up on instinct

even if it was someone patting his back or just making a quick movement, he'd react on instinct from the years of abuse from han seok. but no one ever said anything about it if they noticed.

one afternoon after lunch, they were washing dishes, han seo on washing duty and cha-young drying and placing them back. and han seo was in his full sleeves and cha-young notices his sleeves getting wet

"yah, roll your sleeves back, by the end of this your whole sleeve will be wet! you know how uncomfortable those sleeves would be?"

"ahaha, it's alright noona, i'll be fine"

han seo tries to laugh it off, grining at her with one of his wide grins but there's something off about this one. but cha-young gives one of her patented glares and he rolls them up carefully, shielding his arms from her view, and continues washing the rest.

cha-young doesn't take note of his bruises at first, but noted the care he went through to shield his arms from her. his arms were posed almost awkwardly and he was on high alert

it wasn't until after they both finished and he was drying his hands that cha-young saw the massive bruises he had, climbing up his forearms and under the sleeves

he stiffens when he sees her stare, and quickly tries to cover them but she grabs them before he could hide it

she's completely quiet while she stares at his arms. after a moment, he speaks up

"oh i accidentally banged these against my doorway, they're just small bruises. it's go away in a couple days" he smiles at her again but she could tell from the way his shoulders were frozen and the wavering of his voice that it wasn't the truth

"did he do these?" she asked him, her face completely neutral and her voice barely a whisper. she's still looking at his forearms, her fingers ghosting over the bruises.

han seo just looks down and the silence is enough of an answer for cha-young. he walks away, embarrassed that she found out about it, even though his years of therapy told him that it wasn't never his fault, he still felt the shame and anger of not being able to break free.

he's quiet for the rest of the time, feigning tiredness and finding an excuse to leave the plaza

that night, it was just vincenzo and her working at the office late, in preparation for babel. cha-young's mind was still on what she saw that afternoon. abruptly, she stands up, her hand gripping the pen in her hand as she turned to vincenzo sitting at the other desk.

"did you know that bastard hurt him? he's been abusing han seo this whole time?" she asked vincenzo, her voice seething with anger

"i know."

"you know??? why didn't you ever say anything?"

vincenzo looks up at her from his stack of papers, setting his pen down.

"it wasn't my place. i picked up on it when he flinched when mr. tak reached toward him to place a hand on his shoulder."

cha-young sat back down then, her lips pressed together, and vin went back to his paperwork

"we should get him out of there. who knows what han seok would do in one of his rages?"

"couple nights ago, we went to drink makgeolli and i offered him a way out. i told him if he ever needs to leave, and if he's ready to leave, he has a place at the plaza."

"and is he? leaving that is?"

"no. he thanked me, but said that he needed to stay until his brother and his group crumbles to the ground."

cha-young let out a sigh, biting her lip, the worry on her face all too evident

"hong cha-young byeonosa-nim, we shouldn't baby him. jang han seo deserves revenge against his brother just like we do and the choice is ultimately up to him."

"i know. i just worry."

they stayed quiet for the rest of the night, working late but the topic never leaves cha-young or vincenzo's minds

the next day, han seo avoided her like the plague, not wanting to talk about what she saw yesterday

but while he was studying, she approached him, a glass of juice and a snack in hand, setting it next to him. she checked over his work quietly as he took a break and glanced at his arms, doing a once over just to make sure he didn't get any new ones.

"well done, han seo, you're doing well" she smiled at him and ruffled his hair and han seo let out a breath of relief and gratefulness that she hadn't treated him any different

from then, cha-young and vin only got fonder of han seo and han seo was pretty much adopted by them. after the battle and han seok is in jail permanently, he moves out of his apartment, and gets one closer to the plaza.

mr. nam would show him how the organization worked at jipuragi and put him to work, the paralegal grateful to have an extra hand around the office

eventually, even han seo grows an affection to the instant coffee and buys more for himself and his apartment

vin would take him shopping for suits, both rich boys obsessed with their sleek looks. they take cha-young with them once but she manages to sleep off at every shop they go to.

vincenzo also plays hockey with him regularly and the plaza invites him to plaza game nights. they get up to all kinds of mischief,

han seo loves spicy food, just like cha-young so they make it their mission to go to try every restaurant and compete to see just how much spice they can handle. obviously vincenzo doesn't even make it past the first round of the spice competitions but cha-young and han seo have the same competitive streak that keeps them going

han seo is also dropping hints to both of cha-young and vincenzo that they should get married. constantly teasing vincenzo about cha-young in the way only younger brothers do

obviously on one of cha-young and han seo’s days out, han seo drops hints CONSTANTLY, trying to get her to admit cha young likes vincenzo

and OBVIOUSLY she slips up, and han seo doesn’t let go of it

he does the whole younger brother teasing every single time he catches cha-young glancing at vincenzo at the firm

“cha-young noona and vin hyung, sitting in a tree. K I S S I N—” “HAN SEO!!!”

obviously chayenzo eventually get together but decide to keep it a secret (and of course, they were awful at it)

eventually when they reveal it to the office, mr. nam and han seo react like that one scene in suspicious partner (“quick, act surprised” “*gasp* you guys are together??????? we had no idea!!”)

han seo is basically adopted as a younger brother to both cha-young and vincenzo and even the plaza loves his presence and he gets to have a peaceful existence for the rest of his life

anyways han seo deserves a happy ending with a good family. he deserves a second chance with a family that LOVES AND CARES FOR HIM AND GIVES HIM CHOICES AND ALLOWS HIM TO BE HIMSELF. (and yes this covered more than just one scene but I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS ON HIM) as always feel free to add on :D

[katsukisbimbo]

Kuroo x Volleyball Player! Reader

Kuroo Tetsurou x Volleyball Player! Reader

wordcount: 3,087

genre: strangers-to-lovers au with fluff, crack and a little bit of smut :)))

summary: meeting kuroo tetsurou might be the best thing that has ever happened to you

first of all

kuroo pissed you off to no end

absolutely pissed you off

the first time you met him was when you were a first year

your brother keishin has asked you to come with them for the practice match they had with nekoma

the moment you got to school you had to DASH to go to the washroom because you had to pEee

gosh

curse your tiny bladder

when you went out everyone was already on the bus

sigh

you were gonna have to sit with someone you don’t know

because FOR SURE

your stupid brother keishin would be sitting next to takeda-sensei

the moment you hopped on the bus

everyone suddenly became quiet

0.0

everyone was jus like

uh

who’s this cutie

is she lost

she’s from shiratorizawa what’s she doing here

huh

and noya and tanaka are just screaming at this point

“wHO IS THIS GODDESS WHO DECIDED TO BLESS US WITH HER PRESENCE?!?!? I LOVE YOU PLEASE SIT NEXT TO ME RYU GET OUT NO I DONT CARE GET OUT”

cue tanaka landing on the floor

“nOYA-SAN WHY”

and you’re just like

lmao what

and literally all the seats are taken except for the guy who literally yeeted his bald friend into the next dimension

sigh

i guess you had to sit next to the cutie huh

you look at your brother pleading for help

but he just ignores you and talks to sensei

sIGH

your brother was so thirsty that he didn’t even CARE if these boys ate you alive

gosh

it’s okay

it be like that

f in the chat for y/n

oKAY enough self pitying

you reluctantly sit beside the really loud guy

“hi my names ukai y/n! what’s your name?”

“m-my name is n-nishinoya yuu”

cue noya looking like a literal tomato

“nice to meet you!! i’m excited to work with you nishinoya-san! if i may ask, what year are you in?”

“iM in sEcond yEar”

gosh noya’s so proud

“oH you’re my senpai then!! it’s really nice to meet you senpai!! i hope we have a good trip”

GAHSJDJSHS

you called him senpai

without him asking you to

GOSH

could you be any more perfect

“agHjsjdhsjajszjJAK”

“those aren’t words...”

“...”

“...”

and at that point noya was brain fried so you just put on your earphones and chilled

...

...

*gagging*

“hINATAAGAHAJSKSHS”

what

what was going on

you turned your head

and you saw this orange haired babie throwing up on the bald guy who got yeeted

and suddenly

chaos ensued

everyone was screaming because of the stench

you were gagging so hard that you felt your breakfast coming back up

but your seat buddy was having the time of his life laughing at his two friends who were having a dilemma

gosh

today was gonna be crazy

finally you guys had finally arrived at nekoma and honestly that’s as the most chaotic car ride you’ve ever experienced

but luckily on the way you’ve made yourself familiar with everyone on the team

especially the third year cuties

and no you did not say that to their faces because you’re shy :((

you guys finally get out of the bus and you see

a god

with crazy looking hair

“well if it isn’t the crows” “did you have a good ride here you country bumpkins?”

and daichi’s bout to lose it

“kuroo-san nice to see you again”

and you can definitely feel the tension in the air

was it just you or is it hot in here

kuroo suddenly turned to look at you and honestly you’ve never been more intimidated in your life because wow

he’s beautiful

“who’s the pretty girl daichi-san? is she your girlfriend?”

“no no she’s our couch’s sister”

“hi i’m ukai y/n, nice to meet you”

and you shake his hand and you’re SHOCKED

“kuroo tetsurou, likewise”

his hand is so warm n rough oh god

you suddenly wonder what it would feel like to have his hands slowly wrap around your throat as he starts to thru-

NO

nO DIrtY ThOuGhTs

bad

bad y/n

you’ve been so caught up in your day dream that you didn’t realize that you were still hold kuroos hand

and you look up to see kuroo looking like a smug little shit as if he was saying

‘are you ever gonna let go or?’

and it really made you wanna hit him

really badly

you wanted to punch his mouth

with your mouth

GAHSJDGA

stOp

okay anyways

you snatch your hands away from kuroo and he just smirks at you like a smug little bastard

“what’s wrong kitten? didn’t wanna let go of my hand?”

at this point you’re too flustered to even talk so you take it as the time to back off and just let kuroo be a little fuckhead

but suddenly you’re snatched by tanaka and noya

you somehow end up bumping into kiyoko and you’re just like “omg i’m so sorry kiyoko-san i didn’t mea-“

“don’t worry about it y/n-chan, accidents happen”

and wow

wow

a goddess

now you see what tanaka and noya see

she’s beautiful

maybe you do want the best of both worlds.....

...

...

ANYWAYS

tanaka and noya end up showing you off to their equally as weird friend taketora and of course like the normal person you are you greet him and introduce yourself

but before he even gets the chance to talk kiyoko’s already pulling you away telling you that she needed some help with setting up some of their gear

and of course like the puppy you are you follow her because yes you’re in love with her

i mean

who isn’t

lesbi honest

everyone’s a simp for kiyoko

moving on

finally they’ve started to play a match

and you’re very impressed

especially by hinata and kageyama because wow their skill was amazing

and hinata’s jumps were crazy

obviously you played volleyball yourself being ukai’s grand daughter

and you weren’t that bad

considering the fact that you play for japan’s u19 team with ushijima

who was a very close senpai to you

so close to the point where you’d call him your older brother

rip keishin

back to the game

everyone in karasuno was very promising and you were getting excited with the ideas that were flooding into your head

but nekomas not too bad either

they were pretty solid with their defence and some people might think that it’s all about the attacks but

your attack doesn’t mean anything if the ball doesn’t touch the floor in the court

you were very impressed with the bedhead’s receives a n d blocking

every time he managed a good save or blocked anyone he would always glance in your direction

and it may or may not have made you feel nervous because who doesn’t get nervous when an attractive person looks at you

sadly

the game finished rather quickly

at this point everyone was already cleaning up and of course you decided to help

you thought that you would be able to play just a little bit but your brother just wanted you to familiarize yourself with the teams before you went on the week long training camp with them

which was in two weeks

:)

you were trying to take the volleyball net down until a tall figure comes up behind you and takes the net from you

you turn around and guess who it is

kuroo frocking tetsurou

what a surprise

“don’t worry about it peaches i got it”

wha

did this man just call you PEACHES

peaches as in the scary girl who goes to famous peoples houses?

i think NOT sir

“pEACHES? what is that supposed to mean??! huh?!?”

“woah woah calm down babe, it’s just a nickname. i call you peaches cuz you smell like peaches”

ohhh

okay

that’s fine

“i’ve been wondering though, if you smell like peaches then would you taste like peaches??”

wHAT

wHATSGFSZHSJ

rip y/n’s remaining brain cells

“how about it doll? are you gonna give little old me a taste?”

and he’s suddenly pushing himself closer to you

and you close your eyes because it really looks like he’s about to kiss you and omg it’s like your first kiss hELP

but instead of a kiss

he just laughs at you

this man is literally bent over and CACKLING his lungs out

“you’re so cute doll, i wouldn’t kiss you without your permission. plus i gotta take you out first. wanna go on a date with me some time?”

and you’re just so caught off guard

that you can’t even manage a verbal response

like you just nod your head and then he’s ruffling you’re hair and walking away with the volleyball net

what the hell just happened

did you just score yourself a date

yes

yes you did

you go girl

sadly

it’s time for you and your babies to go

and kuroo being the good person he is

walks you guys out

but before you can get on the bus

kuroo pulls you to the side and bends down to your height to whisper in your ear

“text me sometime peaches”

and you suddenly feel him putting a piece of paper in your back pocket

then he’s pushing you onto the bus and you’re just dumbfounded

did he just touch your bum

could he not just hand it to you

not that you were complaining,,, but now you just wanna know what it would feel like if he just grabbed your bum with both of his hands while you sit on his la-

nO

BAD

BAD

BAD

gosh you have it bad for this boy

the moment you got him you debated whether to text him or not

i mean

you didn’t even look at the piece of paper yet

so you go into you back pocket and open the paper

‘xxx-xxx-xxxx text me when you get home peaches, i already miss your pretty face -kuroo’

WHY IS HE SO CUTE

you get up and start looking for your phone

and you spend like 6 minutes trying to think of what to say

but you finally settled with

hi :)

hopefully that was normal enough

and not even 1 minute later you already got a reply

hey cutie :) did you get home safe

wHY IS HE SO DARN CUTE

and your conversation goes from there

you guys literally talk about everything

from his favourite colour to the time when your leg fell in a hole and you slammed your whole body on the ground causing your ribs to shift and now whenever somebody touches the top of your chest they can feel the top of your ribs

(that was actually a true story and yes it happened to me and yes my ribs are very very fucked up but i’m still alive soooo)

by the time you were back in tokyo

you and kuroo were basically best friends

you guys texted, called, and facetimed every day

you stepped out of the bus and low and behold

it was kuroo waiting for you

“tETSUU”

you run to him and jump in his arms

and he catches you and swings you around a few times

everyone was just like

o.o

‘when did they get so close’

and your older brothers just like

>:(

this is n o t good shaggy

and kuroo introduces you to everyone

especially his buddies bokutou, akaashi, and kenma

and bokutou’s bombarding you with questions

and he asks why you’re wearing a shiratorizawa sweater

and you’re just like ‘i go to school there..’

and he’s just like

“oH YOU KNOW USHIJIMA? IM IN THE TOP 5 ACES RANKING WITH HIM IM SO COOL RIGHT”

“bokuto-san i think you’re scaring her”

“aKAAASHGHSI YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO SAY ‘bokuto-san you’re so cool’”

and you and kuroo are just laughing your asses off

while kenma’s playing with his psp

pspspspspsppss

“bokuto-san you’re so cool”

“aKAAASHUDID YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO SAY IT EARLIER”

at that point you and kuroo have already walked away

and he brings you to your room

and helps you settle down your things

gosh he’s such a gentleman

y/n was ready to risk it all for this man

“peaches you okay?”

“oH i’m fine yes yes i’m fine tetsu”

“okaaaayyyy if you say so peaches” and kuroos just going through your bag checking if you have snacks

“tetsu i don’t have any snacks in there for you”

“really? what do you mean? you do have a snack for me tho”

and you’re jus like lol no i don’t

and he’s slowly walking towards you and you highkey feel intimidated but fuck that you’re not a bussy

at this point kuroo’s sitting on your legs while his arms are slowly creeping up your sides

and in your head

you’re just like

‘ahh this is it i’m gonna have a heart attack’

and suddenly

kuroo’s tickling you and you’re crying on the floor because HSJDJH

TICKLES

“tETSU PLEASE I CANT BREATHEEHHHD”

“what’s that peach? i cant hear you”

“tETSU YOU DIPSHIT PLEASE STOPFDISHS”

“hmm i don’t know, i think i’ll stop if you say ‘nya’ for me”

“gO TO HELLSKDIS”

“come on pretty, say it for me”

you’re blushing sO HARD

“n-nya”

and kuroo just freezes up because he didn’t think that you’d actually do it

“tetsu? u ok?”

“...”

“...”

“...”

“tetsu”

“o-oH yeah i’m fine silly i was just thinking”

“what were you thinking about neko-chan?”

“you.”

GAHSJDJSHSGS

he was going to be the death of you

you, kuroo, bokutou, akaashi, hinata, and tsukishima suddenly ended up at an empty gym

and you guys wanted to play a match so

why not

it was you, kuroo, and tsukki

versus bokutou, hinata, and akaashi

it was a very intense but fun game

akaashi set to bokutou and bokutou did a cross shot

which wasn’t properly blocked by tsukishima

but luckily you were there to pick it up

and kuroo set to you and you slammed it down before they could even block you

the whole gym was silent

wha

how did-

hUH

“peach what”

“what tetsu”

“since when were you so good at volleyball”

“tetsu i play for japan’s u19 team, why did you think i was here in the first place? i’m here to help you guys”

and hinata’s just yelling

“y/n-cHAN I DIDNT KNOW YOU PLAYED NO WONDER WHY YOU LOOKED SO FAMILLIAR OMGJDSI”

after you got exposed

it was only you and tetsu left in the gym

after everything was cleaned up

kuroo pulled you aside before you could leave the gym

“t-tetsu what’re you doing? the gym lights are already of-“

“shut up for one second”

o.o

ogey then

“peaches i really like you. i know that we haven’t known each other long but it feels like i’ve known you since forever. will please let me take you out”

what

...

did he just

yes he did

“t-tetsu,,, i really like you too, and i would love it if we could go out on a date sometime”

and at that moment tetsu just

“HELL YEAHHH”

and he’s getting close to you again

to the point where he’s pressing you against the wall

he cups your cheek and leans closer to your face

“peaches,, can i please kiss you right now”

“yeah”

you close your eyes as you feel tetsu’s hot breath hovering other your soft lips

gosh

this was it

your were gonna kiss tetsu

your crush

until

...

...

...

...

“gET YOUR HANDS OFF MY SISTER BRAT”

and kuroos just like

wHAT THE FUCK

it’s your brother

keishin

“nII-SAN WHY”

“gET OVER HERE RIGHT NOW Y/N”

and you sadly look up at tetsu

and he just smiles at you and gestures for you to go

until you get up on your tippy toes and kiss tetsu full on the mouth

you catch him by surprise but he quickly kisses you back

you wrap your arms around his neck and slowly work your way up into his hair until you’ve got a good grip on him

kuroos hands weren’t staying still either

his hands were slowly creeping down your sides until he grabs the back of your thighs and pulls you up and holds you against him

his hands end up on your bum

and then

he squeezes

“THAT IS IT Y/N STOP SUCKING FACE AND GET OVER HERE”

oops

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Ocean Eyes - Part 4

I sat across from Chris at the small kitchen table in an awkward silence, picking at the label on the ketchup bottle.

"How could you keep this from me? Did you hate me that much?" Chris suddenly asked making me look up at him.

"It wasn't like that Chris, you broke my heart but i.... i never stopped loving you"

"If you loved me you would have told me!"

"I tried to tell you! My god i tried for months to contact you but you would never take my calls! I left you voicemails begging you to call me back....." i told him feeling my eyes start to tear up "i even tried to see you...." i shrugged remembering back to the day i decided to go back to the apartment i shared with him briefly "do you remember that day? I begged you to hear me out.... do you remember what you said to me?"

Chris's head dropped as he shook it, he actually looked ashamed of himself.

"You remember??"

"Yes"

"You told me i needed to stop being so desperate, that i needed to accept the fact we were over.... you told me our relationship was a mistake"

"I was an asshole i know that! But i was gonna be a dad and you kept that from me for nearly... what, 7 years??"

"Okay answer me this, would the you back then have given a shit?? Because i honestly don't think it would have changed a god damn thing because you were a selfish prick!" I whisper yelled at him so Mason wouldn't hear "you say you've changed now and that your not that guy anymore and i pray to god thats true, but....."

"I swear to god i've changed Y/N, i grew up. I realised that the fame didn't mean as much to me as my family"

"Good for you"

"You dont believe a word im saying do you?" He shook his head "i know that look you can't lie to me" he mumbled rubbing his hands over his face.

"Its not that i dont believe youve changed Chris, its that even then you never once reached out to me. Even before i was your wife, as brief as it was.... i was your best friend. It was so easy for you to cut me out of your life"

"I missed you everyday Y/N.... i just, i couldn't face you after what i did"

"Until you needed those divorce papers signed huh? Then you faced me".

Chris just looked down avoiding eye contact, he didn't know what to say.

"Look, if you wanna get to know Mason i won't try and stop you" i said quickly before i lost my nerve.

"Of course i do!"

"if you do this you need to be in 100%, i wont have you breaking his heart when you get bored of playing daddy. Because i swear to god Chris, if you hurt my son i will fucking kill you"

"I promise, i'm in 110%"

"Okay....." i nodded taking a deep breath "we've got pizza coming, did you wanna stay for dinner.... meet your son?"

"Id love that" he smiled wiping a tear quickly from his face "did you ever tell him about me? I mean does he know who i am at all?"

"His seen old photo's of you before your Captain America days, knows your name... thats it"

"Where does he think i've been? He must have asked where i was?"

"Its only been the last year his really asked about it, when he started preschool and the other kids had dads picking them up..... guess he wanted to know why he didn't have one. I told him he did have one but you were away working"

"He must hate me"

"Chris his 5 and a half he doesn't know how to hate".

We were all sat around the coffee table in the living room, the two pizza boxes spread out between us. I had just finished explaining to Mason that Chris was the same man in the photo he had in his bedroom, that Chris was his dad. Mason stared at Chris for a while before taking a bite of his pizza.

"You look funny...." Mason casually said and i nearly choked on my mouthful of pizza.

"I guess i do look a little different" Chris smiled at him "what photo do you have?"

"I'll go get it!" He jumped up and run upstairs excitedly.

"Its just a photo of us when we were younger" i said casually looking at my slice of pizza like it was the most fascinating thing in the world "it was the only one i had...."

"What do you mean? You had loads of photos...."

"I did until i burnt them all"

"You burnt them?!" He asked wide eyed.

"I was mad at you" i shrugged "i didn't want to look at them anymore".

I was so full of shit, i had kept them all, stored away in the back of my closet where i tried to forget them. The only reason i gave Mason the older photo was because it was from a time when Chris and I were happy, before he left me.

Mason came running back in and gave Chris the photo, a smile spread across his face when he saw it was a photo of us taken at Disney on one of our trips to Florida.

"God i remember this day, it was a good day" he looked up and smiled.

"It was " i nodded wiping off my hands before getting up and going to the kitchen, i needed some space. As much as i tried to convince myself that i hated Chris, part of me couldn't help but love him and being in the same room with him after all this time was tough. I was getting a glass of water when i heard Mason ask Chris a question that broke me.

"Dad? Can you read me a story before bed? Mama always reads to me but you never have"

"Sure bud, if thats okay with your mom?" I heard him reply happily.

I couldn't help but cry silently.... my hand over my mouth to muffle any sound, i just couldn't hold it in anymore.

"Mom?" Mason was suddenly standing behind me "can dad stay to read me a story?"

I quickly wiped my eyes and turned to face him with a forced smile.

"Sure baby"

"Yes!" He shouted happily running back out "she said yes!".

I stood outside Mason's room listening to Chris read 'If You Give A Dog A Donut', Mason giggling along and making little comments here and there which would then make Chris laugh before carrying on. After a couple of minutes i left them to it and went downstairs to tidy up.

10 minutes or so passed before Chris reappeared, it felt awkward between us again now Mason wasn't here.

"Thank you for letting me do that Y/N"

"Mason wanted you to read to him, i find it hard to say no to that kid" i shrugged.

"I bet. His a great kid, you've done a good job with him"

"Thank you"

"I can't believe i've missed so much of his life..... you have no idea how much i hate myself"

Probably not as much as i've hated you! I said to myself but at the same time deciding there was something i could give him.

"Wait here a minute, i need to go get something" i mumbled passing him and going up to my room. I went to my closet and dug around in the back until i found the black leather storage box i was looking for.

When i got back downstairs i handed the box to Chris who looked confused.

"Its a thing i used to do when i found out i was pregnant, letters, photos and stuff" i said feeling my cheeks burn from embarrassment of how stupid i had been....I just couldn't really let him go.

"Its only stuff from during the pregnancy and maybe the first 1/2 years but you might wanna see" i shrugged folding my arms to stop them shaking.

"Thank you Y/N....."

"Sure, well its getting late you should probably be going...."

"Of course" he nodded quickly "can i give you a hug?...."

"No. We're not at the hugging stage Chris"

"Okay" he said sadly as we made our way to the front door "when can i see Mason again?"

"Whenever you want i just need a heads up"

"Tomorrow?"

"Sure"

"Why don't you see if Scott wants to come too?? I need to talk to that brother of yours"

"Don't be mad at him, he didn't tell me Mason was my son... just that you had a kid"

"Your telling me he wasn't the one to tell you to come see me again??"

He was silent and looking around nervously.... Scott told him to come see me!

"You forget i know you two too well"

"I wanted to see you again i did, i just.... i was being a fucking chicken shit. I knew you hated me"

"Can you blame me?"

"Not for a second"

"Okay.... im gonna go inside, we'll see you tomorrow?"

"I'll be here. Goodnight Y/N"

"Goodnight Chris" i said quietly before shutting the door and taking a deep breath to try and control my emotions, i was so sick of crying over fucking Chris Evans! I thought those days were over.

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[schoolchaos]

So, for ELA, we had to do a writing baseline thingy. Basically just write a lot so that the teacher, Ms. KindaDecent knows where we're at in writing. We had to write at least 3 paragraphs. Worst part? It had to be a 3 paragraphs long narrative about an important milestone in our lives that helped us grow and it doesn't go towards our grade.

To be clear, I'm not the only one who found this prompt... Difficult (cough cough, stupid, cough cough). The kid in front of me said "Ive never grown!" The kid behind me said "I don't have any milestones!" So the teacher decides to give them a helping hand by saying,

"Think of stuff like going to high school, graduating high school, getting married, blah blah."

And I'm just like, "okay, but can you give me examples that I may have actually experienced?" We're in the damn 8th grade we aint know shit about what those examples mean.

Anyway, we got two or three periods to work on it in school and one day at home.

And on the second school day, I muster up the courage to go talk to Ms. KindaDecent and tell her "I don't have 3 paragraphs worth of memorable milestones." Her response at first wasn't bad. She just asked me questions like "you like drawing, right? Have you ever had a problem or something blah blah?" And im like "not 3 paragraphs worth, no." She asked me another question i think, but I dont really remember it. When I basically said no to all her questions, she left to another student and left me with the words,

"I'm sure you'll think of something!"

I think that was supposed to be inspiring, but it really wasn't.

Anyway, I had to take it home and write 3 paragraphs about something I just could not and did not want to think about. I took the entire day thinking, I asked my brother, I asked my dad, I asked my friends, but all I got was nothing.

The baseline wasn't gonna be apart of my grade so I didn't really care.

Is what I tried to tell myself, but I had to do it, for some unexplainable reason, I would not just throw out this looseleaf paper and go to sleep.

So, it's about 1:00 am, and I tell myself "fuck it. Im gonna do it." What was it? No, it wasn't go to sleep, you idiot! It was "write about why this prompt is... Difficult *cough cough, stupid, cough cough* the day before it's due at 1 am."

Long story, short: I wrote 3 paragraphs about why the prompt sucked. I started at 1am and finished at 2am. I got a 3.5/4 and my friends said I did amazing.

[nightmaretyrantvantas]

So I’m finally getting around to writing out a bunch of info about my Sander Sides au so I hope youre all ready--(its like 1 am im so sorry for any spelling mistakes and missed tags)

So its 1 am on a work night and I cant sleep and I’ve had lots of ideas and canon things for this au bouncing around my head for days and now TONIGHTS THE NIGHT ITS HAPPENING IM DELIVERING YOU ALL THE DETAILS AND EVERYTHING I CAN THINK OF AND TYPE 

Also please feel free to ask about this! I know I got a few new followers from all my recent sander sides art and also thanks to @sugarglider9603 reblogging some art I made of their au I got the biggest flood of exposure and attention on my art ive ever had and I have so much to thank them for, for all recent exposure ive gotten the past couple days( theyre so sweet and lovely and easy to talk to sugar deserves all the love--) and its given me a huge surge of motivation and confidence to post this. And please, my inbox is always open to talk about my aus or my art! Ask questions, send requests, send headcanons or ideas, send fluff angst im open to anything and I try to do all requests sent to me(sooner or later)

Oh oh! and please id you catch any and all the little inspirations or anything let me know

And finally this au is a LAMP au with Remile and Demus on the side

Ahem ahem anyway onto the au!!!

More under the cut so I dont flood your screen too bad!

Ok so! 

This Au was originally inspired by @residentanchor‘s amazing fanfic A Lesson in Practicality and also a little bit by @prettyinaccurate‘s fanged virgil au( I’ll get more into that further down) 

So it takes place in a (currently) unnamed bigger city I based off San Francisco and Sacramento( because I live in Cali and those are the two major cities ive really visited ya know?) The boys are all in various stages of their twenties when they move into a four bedroom apartment together: Patton Foster is the oldest of the roomies at 27, then Logan Masters at 26, Roman Prince at 24, and finally Virgil Collins at 22. They move in together because it all works out for them really, the apartment is in a good distance to all their current jobs, whether by bus or even in Pat’s case in walking distance and with all four of them it was well affordable and was pretty nice. I mean hey it even came with a little communal balcony ( since theyre on third floor of the building) 

Things are understandably a little rocky at first , i mean isnt it always though?

Virgil has alot of anxiety and so he tends not to talk really at all at the beginning unless he ABSOLUTELY had to, mostly communicating in noncomittal noises and soft grumbles, and he was fresh out of collage and barely two years into his job and out on his own for the first time and he wasnt really ready for it either like christ too many people

Patton was bright bubbly and caring. This wasnt his first rodeo with roomies, I mean cmon, hes been sharing a room with his older brother Damian(deceit) on and off almost all his freakin life, nor was it his first time living on his own with strangers(hes lived in two different parts of two when he was job hopping before he settled down in his current part time job)

Roman was extroverted loud and exciteable, he too was used to sharing his living space( he had TWO siblings after all) and before he had moved into the apartment he had tried living on his own and with other roommates while he attended collage, but those just didnt work out well ( he ended up staying with his older brother Remy in his studio apartment across the city while he finished out that semester and searched for a job to keep an income.

Logan was serious minded stern toned and confident, he had a minor degree in teaching that he was slowly repursueing and had been out on his own for awhile before he had moved in. And though cold at first he soon found his group of housemates...enjoyable.

Its about a month into them living together that they learn exactly why despite slowly getting close and getting to know each other Virgil still kept a wide distance: He had entirely sharp teeth.

“ I dunno....I was born with them..theyve always been a sharp pain in my ass...” - virgil, about his teeth

Of course just having sharp teeth wasnt bad enough oh no. You see a few years back when he was about 18 he was young and dumb and made horrifically stupid and reckless decisions under peer pressure and ended up doing something that not only pointedly (haha oh god im not funny) chipped his front teeth but it fucked up his teeth pretty majorly, he went from having a normal overbite to almost having a goddamn underbite and crooked all his teeth, and the only way to fix it( because somehow miraculous for all the damage done it turned out to be mostly reversable aside from the chipping) was getting braces to realign his teeth. So he’s had pretty purple braces over his fangs since he was 18 and they werent expected to come off until he was AT LEAST 25 and he was insecure about them. ( he got mocked for them through his two and a half years of junior collage)

Once the gang finds out they are understanding and helpful and dont make a big deal about it( though virgil gains a significant amount of more vampire related nicknames from roman)

Once they get close and comfortable around each other the apartment is pretty warm and lively! 

Virgil works at the art store as an assistant manager and head stocker( a bit of a dream come true since he was an art student)

Roman works as a part time waiter at a family resturant as well as working at a nearby theater( he was of course a lovely theater major) 

Patton worked at a nearby cafe and bakery as a bit of everything! He helped wait tables, serve behind the counter, and helped in the back in the kitchen( the owners were family friends and he’d been working there almost four to five years at that point, boi knows how to do everything) 

Logan worked at a big name bookstore, and also provided tutoring sessions for highschool students on the side by commision

More FACTS~~

Family ages for the big families go as follows:

Fosters: Damian(28), Patton(27)

Prince: Remy(26), Roman(24, older twin by 10 minutes), Remus(24, younger twin)

Emile is 27 and is a licensed therapist and works as a counselor for young adults that volunteers at the nearby library to ready to children

Remy works as a coffee barista in Emile’s building

Remus does alot of odd jobs, kinda working as an independent for hire and gets a surprising steady flow of work and pay. Hes still a trash man though, but hes a successful trash man( partly thanks to Damian calling in favors with connections)

Damian works at a law firm slowly moving into the position of prosecutor

Virgil doesnt really get along with his family and at some point Emile offers to take virgil in as his adopted brother, with Damian assuring him if he wanted concrete legal papers to start changing his last name, cutting ties with his family, anything needed for it he’d see to it that they’d be providing(something our boi really appreciates)

Remy visits Emile on his breaks since hes literally just...two hallways down and vice versa

Damian and Remus live together in the next, slightly smaller city over because Damian’s work transferred him to a different office in order for him to keep moving up in the ranks so to speak. 

Hes also good at what he does.

Family nights happen whenever they can

Patton got to teach them how to cook alot of complicatied dishes from scratch, a bonding time he adores

Roman got Virgil an Espeon hoodie after they all start dating and virgil loves it and wears it alot around the house because its a thicker hoodie and warm( though he tries to ignore the big ears and the obnovious tail

Virgil also loves visiting Roman’s work on what Ro likes to refer to as “ hellish days” AKA kids day which means goofy kid friendly theme days. His favorite was probably alice in wonderland day when Roman was Tweedle Dee

Roman played J.D at the local theater and likes to hum some of the his songs to switch up the Disney

The balcony is covered in houseplants and and a corner of old blankets and pillows to sit and chill on

Once a month Logan and Patton have what is affectionately referred to as the Cat Discourse

After any particularly rough days at work Patton tends to massage Logan’s shoulders and back to make sure Lo doesnt get any really bad stress knots

in return when Logan sees Patton’s head a hard day he makes Patton’s favorite drink and pulls him into a hug and let the older man fall asleep in his arms while they watch movies

Pat and roman sense each other’s bad days and order in some cliche diner food and hole up in pattons room with Pattons computer and relax the shittiness away with comedy specials and movies 

Likewise Virgil has a knack of picking up Roman’s bad days and always grabs a couple glasses and a bottle kinda cheap wine and they end up curling up together on Romans bed marathoning Disney movies on Virgil’s laptop 

and when Virgil closes himself off more than normal Logan manages to lure him out of his room and they end up sitting out on the balcony quietly talking and stargazing

so loving and fond and soft with each other

you hurt one of them you gonna get BEAT by the others. 

Speaking of getting beat, never EVER mess with Roman or Remus in Remy’s proximity

Remy Andrew Prince can and WILL fuck you right up if you hurt his little brothers. He’s protective.

and where Remy will rearrange your face Damian will ruin you mentally and legally if you so much as mistreat a single freckle on his little brother’s face, despite knowing that Patton is fully capable of taking care of himself. 

Everyone protects Virgil, dont mess with or hurt virgil or you have the pack coming for ya throat

aaaaaaaaaaaaaand thats all I have for right now! Of course more will be added but now its almost three in the morning and I have work at 1:30pm and im sleepy finally! But I hope you guys like this! And please, feel free to talk to me about it, my inbox is always open!!

Taglist: @phantommoonpeople @sweetsweetemo @loganberrysanders

[katedoesfics]

Shadows of the Yiga | Chapter 9

“He lives.” Sera had a cup of coffee in hand and she paused beside Link’s desk. She sipped at it, regarding Link over the mug, and smiled. “Thought maybe you had run off to fight some bad guys.” She shrugged. “That’s what I told Wally, anyway.”

“It’s Walt!” Walt shouted from somewhere in the office.

Sera rolled her eyes and grinned.

Link, however, had his attention on his phone at the group text he had apparently been dragged into. He spent most of the morning watching the messages silently, offering no input. Though they had all moved out of the city over the last five years and were now in various locations across Hyrule, Revali had managed to convince them to come home for a couple of weeks so they could all get together. He wasn’t quite sure why Revali would be around and simply assumed he was probably brought to the city for some sort of work related thing (though he never actually knew what kind of work Revali did). But Urbosa confirmed she could get some time off to come back, mentioning that she was due for a visit with her mother and Riju, and Daruk had no boxing matchings any time soon, freeing up his schedule as well.

Mipha had hardly said much throughout the text, but when she did respond, she confirmed what she had told Link earlier - that she would be moving back home to begin a residency in the city. When it was all settled that they would each be around, they tried to make plans, but still, Link did not weigh in, and Mipha was not any more present in the conversation than he was. Revali did not hesitate to vocalizing his annoyance with them in the group messaging, stating outright that they should ‘get the fuck over shit.’ This brought Urbosa to their defences briefly, but not without an attempt at making them both feel guilty since they hadn’t all been together in quite some time.

“Trouble in paradise?” Sera inquired.

“Mipha’s moving back,” Link said simply.

Sera raised a brow. “Oh? Why?”

“Got a job.”

“Ah.” Sera smiled. “That’s nice.”

Link narrowed his gaze on her. “No, it’s not,” he said stubbornly. “She could work anywhere she wants, but she gave up all her offers to come here.”

“To be with you!”

Link pulled his gaze away, fuming quietly. “It’s stupid,” he muttered.

“You’re such a child,” Sera said with a sigh. “You two need to get together and talk things out.”

“I don’t think so,” Link said.

“Typical man.” Sera rolled her eyes. She sipped her coffee, winking at him over the brim, then left him alone at his desk.

Link turned his gaze back to his phone as more messages popped up. He dismissed them, then unlocked his phone and opened a new message, selecting one of his contacts.

drinks tonight?

It took awhile for the response to come through, but when it did, he smiled.

oh, hey. im good. thanks for asking.

miss you too.

:) i guess it has been a while. how about 8?

*****

Link found a chance to sneak out of work early and he took it without hesitation, even getting home before Aryll, though he was sure she would be home soon after him. According to her earlier text to him, she was staying after to play catch up on the one measly day she missed. Despite her apparent rebellious stage, she was still eager to be a better student than Link was. He was relieved about that. Her good grades would help - hopefully - help land her a decent scholarship and at least give her a slight chance at being able to go to college, because there was no way in hell he would be able to help her get there.

Despite everything he had done over the years, he always knew it would never be enough to get her further in life after high school. It wasn’t enough that he had been able to keep a roof over her head and keep the pizza in constant supply. He wanted more for her. More than what he ever had. But the overdue bills, the unpaid mortgage - all the opened envelopes with the red warning ink across their pages reminded him that there was nothing more he could possibly do for her.

Link didn't look up when Aryll came through the door, though she greeted him cheerfully. Torn envelopes and unfolded pieces of paper were scattered across the table, and Link had his chin in his hand, staring at them. Aryll sat in the empty chair across from him and put her own chin in her hands, her head cocked to the side slightly. Her eyes moved from the bills, to her brother, and she frowned.

“Is something wrong?”

Link gathered the papers up quickly and shook his head. He leaned back in his seat and offered her a smile. “How was school?”

Aryll rolled her eyes. “Same as it is every day.”

Link nodded his head once. “Cool.”

“You don't have to worry,” she said with a smirk. “I get much better grades than you did.”

Link stood, taking the papers with him. “Good.”

Aryll's lips twisted to the side. “Want to get pizza for dinner?”

“I was thinking Ramen.”

Aryll slunk back against the chair. “Ramen is what poor college kids eat.”

“Good practice for your future.” He tossed the bills onto the counter where he hoped he could ignore them for a little longer and turned to the fridge.

“I get to go to college?”

Link stared into the fridge longer than necessary. His first instinct was to grab a beer, but he was supposed to be going to the bar in a couple hours. “Not likely.”

Aryll bit her thumb nail for a moment. “That's okay,” she said. “I can just work with you on the ranch. I like the animals.” She paused in thought for a moment. “I could be a vet.”

“Not without a college degree,” Link commented, still staring into the fridge.

“Right.” She pinched her lips together. “That's okay. Why spend money on school when I can just go right to work?”

“You want to shovel shit for a living?”

“Well, when you put it that way.” Aryll sighed. She stood up, hesitating as she tried to think of another conversation to have with her brother. “I heard Mipha is home.”

“Hm. Yeah.”

“You never told me. Are you guys going to get together?”

Link shrugged. “Probably not.”

Aryll frowned. “Your face is going to freeze, Moron.”

Link grabbed a beer anyway and straightened, closing the door. “We could only hope.”

Aryll watched as her brother opened it and leaned against the counter. A dozen or so empties were scattered through the kitchen and living room, not yet disposed of. She sighed. “Okay. Well. I have to get started on my homework. I'll come out and make Ramen later.”

Link lifted his beer towards her. “Have fun. I’m going out.”

Aryll was not surprised by this, and her frown deepened. She had hoped after their day off together, things would be different, but she saw now that that was a foolish wish. Nothing would change. Certainly not overnight.

“Alright,” she said simply, her lips twisting to the side. “See ya later.” She turned and made her way into her bedroom, pulling out her phone and falling backwards onto her bed. She tapped on the awaiting text message from Mipha.

idk, she had said in response to Aryll’s request that she come over. i dont think its a good idea.

Aryll typed back. he wont be home. hes going out.

out? came Mipha’s reply.

hes hardly ever home. he goes to the bar a lot.

what do u do?

eat ramen.

ill bring pizza.

Aryll smiled. She was glad that, despite the strained relationship between Mipha and Link, Mipha still talked to her, even looked out for her. And she missed Mipha. She missed all of them.

*****

It was earlier then eight when Link got to the bar. After Aryll had disappeared into her room, Link felt overwhelmingly alone, and he couldn’t stand to be in the house a second longer than necessary. He found comfort in Kit’s bar, in his usual seat in the corner, watching as Kit busied himself with his patrons while occasionally stopping by to chat casually with Link. It was promptly eight when his guest arrived, punctual as she had always been, and this brought a smile to his face as she slid into the empty seat beside him.

“You know, I can’t exactly be seen getting drunk at a bar.” Zelda said.

Link glanced over at her and grinned. She was wearing a pair of jeans with rips at the knee that she likely bought like that. A loose, plaid shirt hung over her delicate frame, and her blonde hair was in a ponytail which was pulled through a snap back and pulled low over her forehead, as if in an attempt to cover part of her face and keep her from being recognized.

“That’s cute,” he said. “Is that the new royal fashion?”

“Shut up,” she muttered.

“You didn’t have to come out,” he said with a shrug, and he took a sip of his beer.

“I kinda did,” she said. She nodded her head in greeting when Kit met her gaze. “It’s not like you have any other friends around to drink with.”

“I don’t need friends to drink,” Link said. “In fact, I am proficient at drinking alone.”

“Well, well, well,” Kit said as he approached their corner of the bar. He slid a beer over to Zelda. “Slumming it with the rest of us, Your Highness?”

“Hello, Kit,” Zelda said with a sigh.

“It’s been a while,” he said with a grin. “Last time you came by, you were still just a wee little princess.”

“I didn’t miss you,” she said dryly.

“Oh, come on, yes you did.” He took Link’s empty glass and replaced it. “How’s life as the supreme ruler?”

“Am I a Marvel villain, now?”

Kit rolled his eyes and left them alone to tend to other patrons.

“What do you see in that guy?” she said.

Link shrugged. “He gives me beer.”

“Sounds like a pretty solid friendship,” Zelda said with a nod.

“I think so.”

“So, is this what we’re doing tonight?” she asked. “Getting trashed?”

“Isn’t it what we do best?”

Zelda smiled. “It’s been a long time since I sat here getting drunk with you.”

“Good times.”

“It’s dangerous,” she said.

Link regarded her at the corner of his eye. “I live for danger.”

She smiled down at her beer. Before she could speak, Kit returned to them.

“So,” he started. “Is this going to be one of those nights where I call you a cab and send you on your way?”

“Why not?” Zelda said. “I came here to drink, and I’m gonna do it right.” She lifted her bottle at Kit in toast, then quickly finished it and set it on the counter, tapping with her fingers.

Kit grinned. “I don’t get it,” he said. “What sad life does the queen of Hyrule have to drink away?”

“Beer,” she said simply. When Kit returned with her drink, she continued. “Wouldn’t you like to know?”

“Yes,” Kit said frankly. “Yes, I would. I am the bartender, after all. I’m a cheap therapist for you sad sacks.” He cleaned a glass absentmindedly. “I know all Link’s problems.”

“I’m sure you don’t know them all,” Zelda said. She wiggled her eyebrows at him.

“Oh, I sense secrets,” he said, leaning in closer to them. “Spill.”

“There are no secrets,” Link said in an annoyed tone.

Kit frowned. “But I wanna know,” he whined.

“There’s not enough alcohol in the world,” Zelda said.

Kit straightened and grinned. “Challenge accepted.” He moved across the bar, tending to a couple more patrons, and returned shortly after with four more bottles of beer. “Drink up!”

Zelda narrowed her eyes at him for a moment, then shrugged. “Well, that’s what we came to do,” she said.

As the night wore on, Kit continued to provide the beer, and from time to time, he brought over three shots, and the three of them toasted to whatever ridiculous ideas came to mind before taking their respected shots.

“Yer not a very good bahtendah,” Zelda said as she almost slammed the shot glass down onto the counter. “Drinkin’ ya own s-s-supply.”

“Hey,” Kit said, pointing a finger at her. “That’s how the best bartenders do it.”

Zelda snorted, then broke out into laughter.

“How you think ‘e stays in… in, uh, in store?” Link asked.

“In business?” Kit said with a raised brow.

Link pointed at him. “Aye. Yeah. This guy’s got it.”

Kit rolled his eyes. “So, do I get secrets, now?” Kit said, leaning in eagerly.

Zelda sighed and nodded. “Ahright,” she said. “I’ll tell ya.”

“This better be good,” Kit said.

Link nodded. “So good.”

Zelda put her palm down on the table. “Onccce upon a time.” She paused to burp, then giggled. Her expression turned serious after a moment and she continued. “There was a beautiful Goddess -”

“I don’t want the PBS special,” Kit said. “Get to the good stuff.”

“But,” Zelda started with a frown. “You gotta understand the back story!”

Kit sighed. “Fine. Hit me.”

“The Goddess Hylia,” Zelda continued. She lowered her voice for a moment. “She was so pretty.” She hiccuped, then continued. “She had to like, you know, you know Hylia, right? She had to save the world.”

Kit nodded. “Uh huh, yup. Hylia and her Chosen Hero. A classic love story.”

Zelda giggled. “It’ss true,” she said. “They so wanna bang.”

“I’m sure they did,” Kit said. “Thrilling.”

“But,” Zelda said, holding a finger in the air. “Like. We.” Her finger moved to gesture between her and Link. “We’re like. Them. You know?” She pointed to her chest. “I am, like, a descendant of Hylia. Her power is, like, inside of me. She is in me.”

“That’s what she said,” Kit said with a grin.

Zelda pointed to her head. “No, for real. She’s like. Totally in there.” She then pointed at Link’s head. “And like, the spirit of her lover boy, is in there.” She moved her finger to poke at Link’s nose. Link rolled his eyes at her, but said nothing.

“That sounds pretty gay,” Kit said. “He’s inside you right now, isn’t he, Link?”

“You’re stupid,” Zelda hissed at Kit. “They’re totally in love with each other.”

Kit raised a brow. “They are? Or you two are?”

Zelda snorted and rolled her eyes. “Goddess, no, Kit. Duh. Ew. Ugh.”

“I’m flattered,” Link said. “That’s the kindest thing she’s ever said about me.”

“So, what?” Kit continued. “What’s the secret?”

Zelda shrugged. “They love each other. And sometimes.” She paused.

“Sometimes you feel warm and fuzzy for Link?” Kit grinned.

“Link smells,” Zelda said, crossing her arms. She leaned in closer to Kit. “He has cooties.”

“With all due respect, Your Highness,” Kit said. “You are a complete child.”

Zelda grinned.

“So, you come here to drink and silence your love for each other?”

Zelda raised her empty beer bottle at kit. “I feel warm and fuzzy. Make it stop.”

Link put his head down on the counter. It felt cool against his skin. “Me too.”

Kit shook his head. “You guys are so weird.” But he turned to fetch them more beer. When he returned, he leaned against the counter, patting Link’s head for a moment. “Silence those demons, you two crazy kids.”

[lexiy-dreyar]

suprise vist

chpt-3 warning this is a bit messy so if you get confused tell me oki? oki!

“Hey gem how’s things going” Obara asked as he walked into the room “not any better I managed to get rid of the internal bleeding star mostly helped with that but something stills blocking it also I’m low on my so I can’t do anything to counter it” gem sighed “can’t void cancel out spells?” He asked “oh yeah he can..is he wake?” She asked “no he’s still sleeping if anything happens call me ok?”

He left the room and walked around ‘I have a strong feeling I know who did that to him but I need to make sure’ he thought. Then the doorbell rang “huh who could that be” star mumbled before opening the door “HEEEE LLLLLLLL OOOOOOOOOOOO dear shooting star!!” Someone shouted and hugged the life out of star. Then everyone paled ‘nkitas brother!!’ They thought at the same time.

“H-hey what are you doing here” lex said nervously with a nervous smile  on here face “i came to see my baby boi! Why else!?” he shouted. “U-um i thought you were coming next month…” star said out of breath “yeah i was planning to but...I COULDN'T HELP IT!” he shouted hugging star tighter “heya frosghen you’ve really grown heh and you finally have a chest too!” he chuckled “YOUR ON THIN FUCKING ICE YOU PIECE OF SHIT” frosghen shouted upset, she huffed and looked to the side “whats the real reason you came here?” she asked looking down “well...i had a bad feeling I decided to act fast...when nikta didn't answer my calls I started to worry..considering the last time i brushed off a bad feeling he got badly hurt..” he looks down “oi buddy my eyes are up here”star glares still trying to escape his grip “oh sorry forgot I was holding you” he smiles slightly “tch how can you forget someone in your arms!!” star wiggles around more.

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There's a knock at her door “oi chara” a voice called “come in,” she said in a calm tone as she finishes signing something “were back from are job” a cheerful voice chimed in “and?” she asked “not much happens with them there pretty much normal same thing with the other two” “Butt eheh butt” the cheerful voice giggled “oi nalle focus” “r-right sorry anyway they all have there own form of straight here I wrote them down” she hands her a paper “i'm surprised you took notes” “oh shut up erii” she growled at her teammates

 ‘hmmm Nalle Sworea, age 34 yet she looks like she’s 20, her orange eyes and bright hair makes her stand out..which is why she’s mostly under freshens orders, but considering there on vacation she's under my orders, her power body puppet allows her to take control of multiple targets at once and control them like puppets just like the name says, this also allows her to take over their body which means she best for stealth missions but freshens division is more biased on being forward and aggressive without thinking much. Although she prefers carrying a giant sword around that looks like a knife...hmm’ 

she reads in side her head then looks back up ‘then there's erii drwin, age 28 yet he look 24, blue eyes and purple hair is hard to come by now-a-day’s his uniqueness also makes him stand out..but yet he’s undetected whenever he goes on jobs..which is why he’s under gems orders, gems team is more of a strategy based team where they both work on stealth and knowledge, like every good team they don't look the part of stealthers which makes it better for them to not be suspected when something happens, his power temperature. As if it wasn't clear enough by the name, this allows him to change temperature however it’s only around someone or something to ridiculous heights or freezing cold, his targets body will go into shock with the sudden increase in heat/ the drop of heat. This gives him a chance to sneak up and kill them with ease….however this powers a weakness when it comes to people immune to temperature changes.he’ a gun user which means he has a slientser’ 

she reads of his incomplete page. “Hmm” she looks at them to hear them arguing “mmmmm…..” she deadpans “oh well I didn't decide to stay in that abandoned house!” “whatever were lucky she jumped out the window before she got to her” he glared “yes we are otherwise lex would have been on are tails” nalle sighed “what do you mean she was here?” chara glared jumping out of her chair “yeah she said she was gonna stay around for awhile before are big attack” nalle coward a bit at the nomad demon “tch we can't attack with her around she’ll do too much damage..” she sighed as she sits back on her chair…”you are dismissed” “yes ma’am!” they bowed and left the room “hmmm so your here...guardian demon...huh...so I'm assuming you're here to bother lex and try and distort her to become like you hmmm. A fallen guardian…ehehe i must say i'm amused so what will your next move be” she takes a sip of her tea and looks at a picture “i assume you got and easy death nkita~” she smiles evilly.

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“Oh...so he’s dead” the brother looked down with tears slowly filling his eyes “hey dont worry im sure gem can revive him! Shes the best shot we got!”void said patting his back “yeah...i hope so..” that made void from ‘like dude im tryna keep you in high hopes tf?’ he thinks then he looks at lex “hey there's something we need to check out” he bluntly “huh…” she looks at him confused as he gets up and puts on his shoes “just come on” he grabbed her hand dragging her out of the house.

“O-oi void let go!!” Lex make chopped his hand “ow!” he screamed holding his arm “the hells you deal i told you we need to be quick” “n-no..no you didnt “ she deadpanned “oh i should have told you sorry” he chuckled “.....” she backed up a bit from him “hmm something wrong?” he asked “since when the hell did you say ‘sorry’” she says looking at him suspiciously.

[the-goddess-of-change]

''Please you got to come over...im sick and i need your help...please, you're my brother Nick'' Nick sighs and answers her back ''fine ill be there in 30 min sis...anything you need on the way ?'' ''No no, im fine, thank you brother'' ''okay, see you soon then sis'' 30 min later Nick looks at his sis who is lying on the sofa wrapped in a towel ''So..whats wrong with you ?'' Nick asks standing a decent distance away from her ''i dont know..my head hurts...my body hurts...im sick...'' ''Sounds like the flu....im not going near you Maya'' ''Can you at least get me something to drink ?'' ''that i can do, what do you want ?'' ''Water please and can you put some ice in it as well ?'' Nick nods and casually walks over to the kitchen and gets her a glass of water and some ice from the fridge and puts in the glass ''Here you go'' Nick puts the glass on the table and slowly pushes it over to Maya ''Thanks Brother'' ''So...was that all ? or is there something else ?'' ''You're being awfully rude right now. im sick and i need your help'' ''i was just messing around, what do you need ?'' Maya looks at Nick and sits up and takes a sip of her drink ''well...i got a huge meeting tomorrow at my job...but i cant make it...and i cant call in sick since this meeting is very important and can decide my future in the company'' ''Okay...and you get sick the day before ? that is not ironic at all but what can i do about that ?'' Maya looks at him and sighs ''i dont know...but i cant miss it but i cant go there...if i make them sick or just show up sick im going to get fired on the spot...they are very strict about that'' ''Cant you just reschedule it ?'' ''No...i cant, the men coming in are very powerful and they barely have enough time as it is...i was lucky to even get this chance to begin with...'' ''hmm....that is a shame....but maybe this is just the universe telling you no ?'' ''This isnt funny Nick! its my job, my life and my future here!'' ''Well then, tell me what you gonna do ?'' Maya cuddles up in the blanket and looks down at the floor ''i dont know....i dont know...''she starts to gently sob as Nick walks over and comforts her ''im sorry sis...you know im bad with this kinda stuff...i just dont deal well with...these harsh reality things..'' Maya wipes her eyes and looks at Nick ''i...its fine..you're here for me...'' ''im your big brother...im supposed to be there for you'' Nick smiles Maya smiles at Nick as he smiles back at her ''i can at least keep you company'' ''Thanks...there is some wine in the fridge if you want'' ''Red or white ?'' ''White wine...i get to tipsy from red'' Nick nods and walks over the fridge and gets out a glass of wine and pours himself a glass and walks back to the living room and sits down on the chair next to the sofa Nick picks up the remote and flips trough channels and takes a few sips of the drink ''S-stop...i wanna watch that'' Maya smiles as Nick puts down the remote as they both just look at the tv while Nick keeps pouring himself more wine Nick looks over at Maya who is just cuddling herself in the blanket watching TV while he's starting to feel the effects of the wine Nick Yawns and pours himself another glass then another and then another as Maya just keeps watching the TV ''Ah...damn...'' Nick slowly gets up from the chair and walks over to the bathroom and splashes some water on his face ''Fuck...damn that wine was good...'' staggers back to the living room and sits back down and finishes the bottle and looks over at Maya ''H-hey...i'm going to lie down in your bed a bit...call me if you need anything...30 min max'' Maya just smiles and nods as Nick walks over to Maya's bedroom and lies down on the bed After just a couple of minutes Nick has fallen asleep as Maya walks over and quietly opens the door and sneaks over to the bed and looks down at Nick just lying there ''I'm sorry Brother but...i need this...and you're the only one who can do it'' Maya coughs weakly and pours something down Nick's mouth Nick swallows it in his sleep and rolls around to the other side of the bed as Maya sneaks back out of the room and closes the door behind her While in deep sleep Nick is unaware of what Maya just did and just keeps going on dozing off While in a deep sleep Nick's body starts to change unbeknownst to him and while his body is going trough a change so does his mind and dreams Nick finds himself in in a what looks like to be a meeting room complete with a long table, some chairs and a large tv in the back of the room ''Huh ? okay...'' Nick looks around the room as it feels somewhat familiar for some reason ''oh right...this is where...Maya has her staff meetings...i remember meeting her one time'' Nick walks a bit around the room and moves a bit on the chair and looks at the tv where he can see a faint reflection of himself and notices some strange things looking back at him For one his short black hair looks longer and has a bit browner tone to the color Nick shrugs and just images its his dreams being weird due to the alcohol affecting his mind ''but why is there no people here ? if im here...it should be someone else as well'' Nick shrugs as a woman walks past the room and walks inside ''Hey ''....'' can you meet me in my office in 5 min?'' she says and walks away ''wait what...why did she just...stop talking while her mouth moved and just came back...'' Nick shrugs yet again and walks out of the room and walks over to the woman's office ''Okay so i need some help with a few things'' Nick nods and looks at her and scratches his hair and notices his nails looks more slim and like they'd just been filed ''So i need to you to hand these documents to Kevin then come back here'' ''Y-yes...okay'' Nick takes the documents from the woman and walks around looking for this Kevin's office as he remembers its one floor above Nick walks up the stairs and knocks on the door but no one replies inside so he slowly opens it and finds an empty office and just put the documents on the table and heads back down to the office he was just in ''i delivered them but he wasn't there'' Nick looks at the woman who just nods at him and motions him to sit down ''okay so you know what we've been talking about right ?'' Nick looks at her trying to remember something that never happened or he's just imagining ''Yeah...i do...i think'' ''Your future here, you've done great and this is your chance to make it big here so let us go over the questions you will be asked, okay?'' Nick nods at the woman who picks up a piece of paper and looks trough then over at Nick ''Okay, first, can you see yourself still working here even after your promotion ?'' ''That is kinda weird...why would i quit after getting an promotion ?'' The woman just smiles and nods at him ''True but this is just the questions on the paper and we gotta go trough them'' ''okay next Question...this promotion will increase your workload by quite a bit, will you still be able to work under pressure, Maya ?'' ''Yeah...wait ? Maya?'' The woman smiles and nods at Nick ''Yeah, that is your name yes ?'' ''No...i'm Nick'' The woman giggles at Nick ''i love the fact that even someone like you has a sense of humor Maya'' Nick just looks at her weirdly as he notices his arms are void of any hair and looks slimmer and more...feminine ''Next question is...why should we hire you ?'' ''Because im hard working...i put my job above all else and i put all my effort into the tasks set up for me'' Nick kinda stops after saying that and looks down at his hands ''Did i just say that?'' he tells himself in his head and looks back at the woman ''Great, next question, Are you planning on having children?'' ''Not...at the moment'' The woman smiles and writes it down ''okay, this was a great little mock-up test but why dont you go back to your office and work on your papers a bit ? the meeting is in three hours so better get prepared right ?'' Nick nods and gets up from the chair and notices something rather strange, he feels smaller than before Looking down he notices his legs are showing and are clean shaven as well as a pair of black high heels wrapped around his feet ''great, now then off you go, and good luck Maya'' she smiles at Nick as Nick just looks at her then nods slowly Nick then walks around trying to make sense of this strange almost real dream ''This is weird...but dreams are dreams...'' Nick says to himself and looks for the office but just find one named Maya and just walks in because why not There is a chair, a window behind the chair, a desk in front of the chair, a couple of bookcases and other office looking things around Nick walks over to the window as he passes by a mirror on the wall and takes a look at his reflection without noticing he does notice his jeans are now gentle deep blue color skirt and his sweater is a blazer in the same color with a white top underneath ''Wait what ? How ?'' Nick runs his hand trough the clothes but dont really feel anything since nothing here is real ''This is my sister's outfit...why am i wearing it...but wait...?'' ''i'm at work so it makes sense i guess'' Nick says to himself and walks over to the chair and sits down on it and turns it to look out the window looking down out over the city ''this view is amazing...'' Nick says and looks out over the city and the bustling city life, cars stuck in traffic, people running around trying to make meetings or rushing to get home A few people are eating food outside and some people are just walking around As nick looks around there is a knock on the door and a man walks inside and looks at her ''oh thank god you're here, im sorry to intrude Maya but the meeting has been rescheduled and is in thirty minutes so get ready! gotta run!'' The man vanishes as soon as he walked inside ''thirty minutes for the meeting ? that is quite the...rush...but i can do this!'' Nick takes a few deep breaths and stands up from the chair and walks by the mirror again and notices something else His face...he now looks completely like his sister and her proportions...as well But for some reason Nick thinks nothing of it and gets a glass of water and passes the time by going trough some of the questions til its five minutes left and heads to the meeting As soon as he walks inside the world turns white and the sound of an alarm can be heard ''Huh ?'' nick looks around the room as it all vanishes and then he opens his eyes and finds himself back in the bedroom of Maya ''What a dream...'' Nick says to himself and rubs his eyes and yawns as he notices Maya standing by the door with a look of shock and intrigue ''good morning...Maya'' she says and giggles as Nick sits up in the bed and notices something soft pressing against his chest He looks down and notices his breasts ''H...h...Holy....'' ''please calm down....it..i did it...i had to...for the meeting i have, if i cant be there, you have to take my place as me...'' Nick looks over at Maya and wraps a blanket around herself and walks out of the bed ''You turned me into you ? how?'' ''does it matter...? it wont change the fact you're me now and by tomorrow you should have my memories as well to help you trough the meeting...i would have asked but i knew you would have said no...so that is why i got you drunk and did it while you slept...'' Maya looks over at Nick as Nick is still trying to make sense of this ''So then the dream...it all happened in real life as well and now i'm you...?'' ''Mhm...but please dont be mad...i had no choice'' Nick looks at her angrily as he notices some clothes next to the bed, some black underwear, a white top and just some pajama pants ''i put some clothes there...its not late but we should both head to bed for real in a few hours but get dressed in the meantime...i'll help you with the bra'' Maya smiles as Nick looks at her with the same angry look but reluctantly gets dressed ''There we go, all dressed so come with me'' Maya leads him to the living room as they both sit down on the sofa ''Aren't you still sick though?'' ''yeah but...its fine...if you get smitten it wont affect you til after a few days'' ''....im starting to a see a new side of you Sis'' Maya smiles at Nick ''So, okay for tomorrow, my memories should be intact in you with your old ones and you should be able to act like me'' ''wait...i get your memories ?'' ''Well you have to...'' ''But...that is kinda...'' Nick looks down as Maya just giggles at him ''you get to remember my first kiss...my puberty and my life, everything i remember you will as well'' ''There is a line of how much i should know about you'' Maya just giggles and starts poking Nick's breasts ''But its kinda fun right ? you're me...we're kinda like twins'' ''We already are twins! i'm just one minute older than you'' ''you know what i mean'' Maya sighs and just keeps poking ''And stop that..'' ''Awww dont like it or do you like it ?'' ''i dont like my new boobs getting poked at by my sister which i also am right now'' ''so specific but okay silly'' Maya smiles and stops Nick sighs and looks down at his top and starts poking his breasts himself ''...hmmm...feels so heavy...'' ''you get used to it...as a woman you dont really have that much choice'' ''I guess so...'' ''Anyway...we should get some sleep...you can take the guest room while i take my room okay?'' Nick nods at her as they both head to bed and as Nick lies there in the bed looking up at the ceiling and slowly falls asleep The next morning Nick is woken up by Maya as she pokes him awake ''Wake up, we gotta get ready!'' Nick yawns and sits up in the bed as Maya puts his clothes down on the bed ''Get dressed and meet me in the bathroom'' Nick yawns again and slowly gets dressed putting on the blue skirt the white top then the blazer and heads into the bathroom where he find Maya smiling at him ''okay sit down here'' she points at a chair as Nick does as told and she starts doing his hair ''Sooo...feeling anything...new?'' Nick looks at her reflection in the mirror and blushes as he can remember going trough school as Maya, her first kiss, her first...experience and so on ''Yeah...it feels...weird but oddly familiar'' ''that's good i want you to be on your game for the meeting this is very important'' she smiles and starts applying make-up on him ''Feeling closer to me ?'' Nick nods at her ''i never...believed you had it this hard at work...the men there are pigs...'' Maya looks at him and nods slowly ''...that is work life for many women...'' They both kinda stop talking for a bit as Maya just applies the make-up and sprays some soft perfume on him ''Well...all done'' Nick gets up and looks at his reflection ''i look cute...and i feel so professional'' Maya smiles and hugs Nick tightly ''Thank you...and good luck...you're me now...you know what to say and do...right ?'' Nick nods at her and takes a deep breath as he gets her purse and keys and takes one final glance at her as he leaves and heads to the office Nick heads inside and water some of the plants there as the woman from his dreams walks inside ''Maya, the meeting will be in fifteen minutes...'' she walks over and smiles at Maya ''i really hope you get it...but im going to miss you...'' Nick smiles at her and hugs her ''im going to miss you as well Catherine but we will still be friends and hang out when we can'' Catherine smiles happily and nods as they chat for a while then Nick heads to the meeting and sit down as three men and a woman walks inside the room and sits down on their chairs ''Okay then...let us get this started'' the man in the chair at the end of the table looks at Maya ''Yes Mr Stevens thank you so much for setting your time off for this'' Mr Stevens just nods and gets out some paper and start reading trough it ''i see here you have been working here for....seven years and everyone writes positive about you and you have taken steps to reduce costs and make money'' Nick nods at him ''Yes sir'' ''Okay then, this position will require you to move a bit around the world and going to several meetings and manage contracts and the likes but i can see here you're not afraid of challenges and the obstacles it might cause but before that let me ask you three questions'' ''Yes sir'' ''okay first. what do you think the company could do better?'' ''Well...a new web page would help a lot since we get a lot of questions there and maybe make it more streamlined and easier to use for the users and us working here'' ''i would also maybe cut some of the staff...we could cut three people just here and still make just as much money and increase productivity'' ''Ahuh yes'' mr Stevens nods and writes it down ''Second question...how would your colleagues describe you?'' ''Well...i cant directly answer for them but they all say i'm hardworking...on time and never take unnecessary breaks'' ''Excellent...now last question, if you were to get this job...what would you do?'' ''I dont totally understand the question but...i would do as im told, do my projects on time. make sure those around me see me as their boss but still someone they can talk to if they need help...and give a 110%'' ''I see...well from the reports here and your answers i do think you have a bright future here but i will discuss it with the board and we will give you an answer within an hour so please if you might leave us alone while we discuss it'' Nick nods and gets up from the chair and looks at them ''thank you so much'' Nick then walks back to the office and takes a glass of water and slowly sips it while looking out the window After about an hour there is a knock on the door and Mr Stevens walks inside ''Ah, hello Again Maya, we have come to the decision that we want you to take the position, you might start next week once you get there, head to the receptionist and ask for me and i will come help you get set up'' Maya walks over to Mr Stevens and smiles ''thank you very much sir, i promise you, you wont regret this'' Mr Stevens just smiles and nods at her ''i've never been wrong about people before so i'm sure you wont disappoint and besides...it will be nice to have something good to look at as well'' He laughs it off as a joke while Nick kinda feels a bit hurt by the statement but acts professional and smiles at him ''Well then, why dont you start cleaning up here and head home and i will see you Monday'' ''Yes sir'' Nick smiles as Mr Stevens walks out of the office Nick sighs and walks over to the chair and sits down ''i..i did it...i got the job! i did it!!!'' Nick smiles happily and quickly starts packing up the stuff and quickly drives back home Once back home, he finds Maya lying on the sofa looking at Nick with wide eyes as he enters the room ''.....I got the job! i mean...we got the job! i mean...you got the job!!!'' ''oh my god...R-really ? you did it ?'' Nick nods as Maya rushes up from the sofa and hugs Nick ''Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!'' Nick smiles at Maya who smiles happily back at him ''i cant thank you enough for doing this for me, you are the best and i cant thank you enough...'' ''Its fine Sis...i know how much it meant to you and i was happy i could help you...'' Maya smiles and hugs Nick again ''we need to celebrate let me get some good wine just sit down on the sofa and i will be right over, okay ?'' Nick smiles and nods at her and walks over to the sofa and sits down as Maya walks into the kitchen and pours them both a glass of wine and opens up a cupboard and gets out a small bottle ''I'm sorry Nick...but im going to be working a lot more now and i just need your help now more than ever...i hope you wont be mad at me and i will change you back....someday but for right now i just need someone that takes care of the place...'' Maya smiles and turns the bottle and reads the label on it ''This is the...Maid one...no bodily changes but you will...take pleasure in cleaning...cooking and making my life easier as i will be your....Boss...im sorry Nick'' She pours the potion into Nicks drink and heads into the living room and hands Nick the glass of wine ''To us...Right ?'' Nick nods ''To us sister, thanks for letting me help and see things a bit from your side but...when can i turn back?'' ''oh...it should be over in 2 days'' Maya smiles as Nick drinks from the glass ''Okay then'' Nick smiles After drinking for a little bit and watching some TV Nick gets up from the chair and looks around ''Something wrong Nick?'' ''N-No my lady...i just forgot to prepare your meal'' ''O-oh...it's...its...its okay...'' Maya smiles and sits back down in the sofa and looks at Nick ''But since this worked quite fast i think i should get you an outfit and so on'' ''Worked so fast my lady ? i dont quite understand ?'' ''Well...i'm going to be working a lot now...i need someone to take care of the place just til everything settles down...I'm sorry Nick...'' ''....I...i understand my lady, i will...i will clean for you...make dinner for you...make your life easy is after all...a maids job'' ''Not just a maids job....you might act like one but you are still my brother...'' ''My lady...i appreciate it but as your maid it wont be right...for now til the time comes call me Tanya and i will be your maid only...that is my duty'' Maya looks over at Tanya and nods slowly and mutters lowly to herself ''Thank you...Thank you...and goodbye...Brother...'

[flamboyant-king]

I just woke up from a sort of nightmare amd my eyes are sill adjusting so sorry for all the spelling mistskes i am still half asleep but i gotta writie it cause i dont wanna go back to aleep

For context, i just saved all the fab fairies in miitopia.

So the start of the dream starts with me as eli and the fairies going shopping for snacks to prepare for the adventure. Outta nowhere we get a hint of whats to come in the game in the shopping cart. (Since we cant read in our dreams apparently ill write what i vaguely remember)

“All is fine

But soon change will come

True selves will begin to show

But they cant help it

You can

By your left and your right hands

You can come together and shake them to their senses”

So we had a miitopia style fight in a Meijers. So one by one the fairies eyes turned black with red pupils like what happens in the game when youre turned mean. The caption even showed “their heart waves and their true self shows” in my party were the three fairies, and three random miis. One on the left one on the right. Eli couldnt do much damage but the two on thesides could. So i just let them do their thing until the fkairies were weaker.

I dont remmeber what happened but all four miis on my team fused steven universe style and maade like a terrifying flower creature who made computer noises. (I think the point of view of the fight was my ds screen cause the sound came out shitty pfff) so this big fusion takes out the first two fairies and on the last one only took out one point at a time for dramatic effect

When all the fab fairies got back to normal the doors of the meijers unlocked and we finished paying for our snacks.

I walk out and im myself again.i go to the car and all my friends in high schoolare in the van. We go to a gas station first. Apparently, were going on a road trip to our filipino friends cottage...so the auntie is in the car too. I go into the gas station and suddenly its a kroger with a cafeteria inside but still a gast station. I look around for morr snacks. I come across a bin full of anime plushies. Attack on titan plushies, video game plushies, and eli? There were a bunch of mii eli plushies in that bin. I didnt know if i should be grateful plushie eli exists or horrified because plush eli exists. THis either meant i made eli famous enough for factories to create plushies, or eli already existed without my knowing and is actually quite famous.

One of my friends comes up to me and asks me whats up. I tell her this eli plushie is of a character i have that saveed the world. And she had a glazed look in her eye and told me that she “was there.”  Iwas like “okaaay” and made my wzy to the kroger cafeteria and each of my friends suddenly sorked therr but each store served only one kind of food. I went to the milk, bread stcik, and spaghetti statio nand only got like one fourth of a portion hoping to get a discount. Ezch fried i talked to at the stand got glazed looks in their eyes when i brough up eli and how we saved the world together. They all said they wree there.

I went to go sit at a table but i ended up at a dining room table at what is supposed ot be my friendd house. We were preparing for a road trip but they had to set up their computers, all six of them. There were two left and it had Photoshop open. We were trying to edit johnny onto a flower to look like miitopia johnny pff. I somehow fucked up and everythi was turning into gifs and black and red. My friend shoved me out of the way saying “this was the problem i was trying to fix. Get out i need some alone time with this”

I backed off and went outside. Outside was a tennis court. I dont know what happened but i walked up to one of the players and it was my bully, he became a tennis tutor to stay off drugs again. We started talking about wages, jobs, and keeping clean. Also talked about how long its been and i almost said that i missed him.

Suddenly my brother and his family are behind us. I turn to look at them and the scene transitioned to in a garage read to go on a road trip. They were preparing the truck. They talked to me about wages and how much money people make money these days and they said there is a solution for that.

Out road trip took our entire family to springfield...kinda. We went to a simpsoons museum. Stuff happened and we unleashed a great force from the museum. Simpsons hitler and anime elsa were released from within and they took over the government in mere seconds.

Their first order of business was to cut down on jobs to raise the wages. So they started a somewhat purge. We had ten minutes to run before the people with guns have at it. I was with my parents but somehow my mom could run. She couldnt keep up with me so i prayed for her. I ran super fast and was somewhat agile in my dream. When we got to a big jump i just thought to myself “im sorry mom i cant help you. I love you.” I kept running until i reache d ahotel. I saw that my parents kept up. I was surprised and relieved.

Since mom was big i had to find a good hiding place for her. We ran to near the top floors of this luxury casino and hotel. We werent the only ones there. I tried closets and hotel rooms to look for a place for her to hide. We just needed to hide until the first wave of massacre was done. All the rooms in this place were dumb. The rooms were narrow hallways with two doors on both sides. Thats no good for hiding what a terrible idea. I kept running aroudn the 8th floor looking for something but i hear people screaming.

A blonde woman makes it up the stairs from the casino. Everyone didnt have a good hiding okace so they hid behind the couch,but they peeked out from behind them to see . The woman announced,

“Im the only one taking care of this area. My contract says i should kill 116 of you for this hotel to strive. I already took out most of it so consider a lot of you lucky.” After she finished, a couple of dudes in large scary masks came out of nowhere and ahe headshot them. She told us that we were all very lucky. I see near her are my parents still waiting. I run stealthily towards them. I was just thinking, “maybe with my usual adhd abilities i can distracr the bad guys like i usually do in my dreams” i run over unseen and slide by my dad dramatically. The lady turns around and points a gun at dad.

He shits himself. Oh sorry. He diarrheas himself.

The woman lowers the gun and starts laughing. I laugh along because maybe this will let us off. She tells dad hes a funny man and points the gun at mom. Im shaken but mom works her motherly magic and touches a chord in the lady’s heart. (I wasnt listening but mom talked to the woman for a while and the woman started crying and laid in her lap)

the woman gets something from the clipboard shes holding and hands it to dad. It was a piece of paper. A sort of doctors note. It says:

“This letter excuses the receiver and their family from the purge. Allow them towards the safe zone.”

There was also a riddle that takes up the whole bottom of the page. Apparently we have to go through a troll den or something and read them this riddle. The blonde woman waves us off and proceeds to shoot people.

So my parents and i are outside the hotel and its empty. We walk towards nothing and i decided “this is gonna take too long of a journey sooooo”

I woke up...at 5 am..there was still much adventure to have but i guess dream self was too exhausted pfff

[the-plxce-to-be-archived-blog]

I See The Light

John had been planning this date for months. Every day and night for months, he’d stay up late writing, text Frances throughout the day, fret and get nervous when talking to his boyfriends as they questioned why. He’d always stammer some response about work or art and drop the subject.

But really, he was terrified. He’d think about his plans for a week, two at most, then text Frances again, maybe I should change this? Maybe they’d like that instead? And she’d always tell him it was perfect, but let him think up some idea he’d figure would be better regardless.

It took so long for her to get him to settle on one firm idea. Plain and simple. A big, open park late at night when no one would be there. Star gazing. She’d come along to record it under the ruse that it was a double date with Aaron whom was in on it too.

[Text From; reina de la flor] u need to chill. they’ll love whatever you do jack, try and relax for once

[Text From; me but weaker] chill??? dont know her

[Text From; reina de la flor] just try and get some rest tonight for once. tomorrow’s the day. don’t pass out in the middle of it

[Text From; me but weaker] fuck u im gonna sleep til 5 pm, then chug ten five hour energys and never sleep again

In reality though, John was bouncing off the walls enough as it was due to anxiety and excitement. One am had John ready to climb into bed with his boyfriends, but he paused at the side of the bed, gazing nervously at them. What if they hated it? What if they didn’t want this like he did? What if it just wasn’t time?

He paced for another hour outside of the room before going and gently shaking Hercules’ shoulder. If he was gonna wake them up by climbing into bed, he may as well wake Hercules up and see if he could manage without waking Lafayette and Alexander. It wasn’t too difficult to silently crawl over Hercules and cuddle into his chest with a hand entwined with Alexander’s, and he felt like maybe he could get some rest as Hercules whispered, “love you,” before falling right back asleep.

John was still awake a bit longer. It was two thirty, he was tired, in so many ways. But maybe he could relax now. It’d be over soon. He’d have his answer. With that in mind, he let himself drift off.

The next day, Alexander, Lafayette and Hercules didn’t see him much. He’d awoken late just as he said he would, but he didn’t follow those silly plans. No, he went straight to the park to prepare. To have Frances’s help to make paper hearts of colorful paper all taped together, string them along some of the trees in the perfect spot, to ensure Frances had the three rings in their respective boxes, a letter written on each one in permanent marker; A, H, L, so as to not mix them up.

When it was finally time, they all went. It was wonderful. For a full hour, the six of them all laid out under the stars after admiring the hearts, pointing out constellations, finding new ones or making up their own, soft laughs and jokes among each other and John felt himself at ease as he laid between Alexander and Hercules. 

Fran ran back to her car, came back and presented to them a picnic basket she’d packed with all sorts of food, laying out a blanket she had within the car and setting it up. They all ate, joked, laughed. A little food was thrown, teases to each other and food shared before they packed it up.

It was time. John’s heart was racing as the three sat down to watch the stars again. John didn’t. He almost lost his nerve until Frances was at one side with a hand on his shoulder, Aaron doing the same on his other. No words were said. The reassurance was enough. Aaron and Frances stood off to the side, starting to film with her phone as John loudly cleared his throat.

Alexander, Lafayette and Hercules gave him curious looks for standing there behind them, but he almost looked in tears and their curious expressions faded to concern as all three of them got up, ready to find out why their John was so ready to cry before he held a hand up, clearing his throat.

“Um... Sit. Please.” He said quietly, and hesitantly, they listened. Stayed silent as they all watched him. All eyes on him. You can do this, John.

“Words... Aren’t my forte like Alex... I-I can’t hand craft stuff like Herc or like, make you swoon and all like Laf. I’m not that romantic. I can’t cook. I... Some days, I can’t do much of anything.” Their mouths opened to protest, even Frances, but John held up both hands, palm up. A silent request to remain silent. They did.

“But... I-I can put ideas together. I can draw. I can talk. I can... I can sing. Sometimes I can find words and even if it’s not flowery like Alexander’s, it’s... It’s me. It’s all me.”

Then he hit one knee and their eyes collectively widened. But instead of speaking, John’s eyes slid shut and he began to sing so softly, a slight hint of his accent in his soothing tone. “All those days watching from the windows, all those years outside looking in. All that time, never even knowing just how blind I’ve been...”

Even Frances was tearing up, eyes wide as she watched her brother. She wasn’t warned he would do this. She had no idea. It almost seemed like improvisation. Even so, he got up as he sang, pacing a little as the words rolled off his tongue, “Now I’m here blinking in the starlight. Now I’m here, suddenly I see. Standing here, it’s all so clear, I’m where I’m meant to be...”

Then his gaze drew to them, and his breath caught in his throat to see those tears forming in Hercules and Lafayette’s eyes, the tears already pouring down Alexander’s cheeks as they stared at him, speechless. They couldn’t form their own words even if they wanted to. “And at last I see the light and it’s like the fog has lifted, and at last I see the light and it’s like the sky is new...” He stepped over slowly, crouching in front of the three and smiling oh so sweetly at them as tears rolled down his own cheeks to match his three boyfriends. “And it’s warm and real and bright and the world has somehow... Shifted... All at once, everything looks different now that I see you...”

Then he got up, hesitating to step away from them, but he walked over to Frances who fumbled before offering him her bag to pull out those three thin boxes. He held them up, watching the three men’s eyes follow the movement before a little sob escaped Alexander, caught in his throat as Lafayette and Hercules each wound an arm around him, kept their eyes on John.

“All those days chasing down a daydream, all those years living in a blur. All that time, never truly seeing things the way they were... Now they’re here, shining in the starlight. Now they’re here, suddenly I know. If they’re here, it’s crystal clear, I’m where I’m meant to go.”

He didn’t expect to be yanked down to them when he stepped over again, but it pulled a sob out of John’s chest as well as the three hung so tightly onto him, and with a cracking voice, John carried on, “And at last I see the light, and it’s like the fog is lifted and at last I see the light and it’s like the sky is new. And it’s warm and real and bright and the world has somehow shifted...”

it took ten minutes for the four of them to calm down enough to do anything other than cry and cling to each other. When they finally calm, John leans back enough to beam at them as tears drip down his freckled cheeks and Lafayette gently wipes some of them away, smiles on everyone’s faces. “All at once, everything looks different now that I see you. Now that I see you..” He finished the song quietly, hiccuping and shaking his head before holding up the three boxes with one hand.

“So... Will you three marry me?” He asked quietly, tried to keep in mind what he was there to do, and it certainly wasn’t to just sing and cry.

It felt so surreal as he watched each of them put their rings on, limp and crying harder as they pulled him tight in a hug, each of them pressing kisses to his face, hair, head, shoulders, neck, anywhere they could reach as he bawled, too happy and tired and full of so much emotion to contain it anymore. It was too much to hold onto, and he let it out then and there, aware he was being filmed, not caring one bit.

He was so out of it when he ran out of tears, Frances offered to drive him home, but they refused. “He’s coming home with us.” Hercules said gently, Laf smiling kindly at her. “Merci, but he must spend the night with us.” He agreed from Hercules’ words whereas Alexander simply wound his arms tight around John’s waist, held him close and refused to let go as the freckled man clung tightly right back.

Hours later, they were all cuddled up in bed, all close and clinging. Hercules and Lafayette laying so relaxed with Alex and John laying on them, fingers entwined.

John must have laid there for hours. No one said anything, they didn’t need to. Finally, John broke the silence and whispered, “If they’re here it’s crystal clear I’m where I’m meant to go.” He breathed. No more singing. The words held so much meaning for him. He felt Lafayette’s arms tighten around him. They didn’t speak, they didn’t need to. John felt that love and care in the way Lafayette’s grip tightened, Alexander’s hand squeezed his tight for a moment, Hercules’ lips pressed to his forehead for a minute.

That was all he’d ever need. All he ever wanted was them and for once, John got exactly what he both wanted and needed. Nothing could be better.

[backtojuno]

yoooo ive been really inactive lately, ive been going through a lot of shit. under the readmore is a bunch of stuff i need to get off my chest/make sense of. just be warned, its really long

you can read it if you want but its mostly complaining and cursing

riiiiight so about 2 months ago shit hit the fucking fan. Ive had problems with my neck thats caused very, very bad headaches for maybe 5/6 years or so. mostly i wasnt able to get anything done about it, being dependent on 2 parents who are both very pull-yourself-up-by-the-bootstraps kind of people.in june though, i started working extra shifts at my job so i could pay for a chiropractor. and it worked, i had no headaches... for about a month. for a month after that the headaches came back, even though i was still seeing the chiropractor. AND FUCKING THEN

i was at work, my last weekend before i went on a 2-week trip to see my mom up in ohio! i was super excited. but also in a lot of pain too. most of the way through my shift i cracked my neck, a little bit too hard. all of a sudden i was floating about a foot over my head, i was getting hot flashes, and the left side of my throat went numb. of course, i panicked, told my manager and called my dad. my dad called his doctor and he said that since my hands/feet/anything werent tingling or anything like that I was alright, but i should still see a doctor. dad decided not to take me to the ER, but I was still goddamn scared. I still am, honestly. of course, this got more complicated. it was a saturday, so doctors offices were closed and wouldnt be open til monday, the day that id leave for ohio. it was a really hard decision but if i didnt get on the plane to ohio, i wouldve had to forfeit the trip entirely. so, i went to ohio and my mom set an appointment for thursday for a doctor.

i waited, we went, and i told my story to the doctor. she didnt do any tests on me, didnt even touch me. just said i had probably hit a nerve and that i was fine, and offered to prescribe medicine which i didnt want. EXCEPT. FOR FUCKS SAKE. the day after i went to the doctor i started feeling this pressure on the side of my throat,right in that fleshy part just underneath the back of your jaw.i thought and hoped it would go away. it fucking didnt. some days were better than others but on some days id be sightseeing with my family and id be silent, standing in a museum looking at The Plane that The Wright Brothers Themselves built, and trying not to panic bc the pressure in my throat was bad and it felt like i couldnt get enough air in. when i told my mom she told me to calm down. that did not help, at all. anyways, the rest of the trip passed and i flew home. EXCEPT. JESUS CHRIST. while i was on the plane, i was having a hard time popping my ear. I didnt have any gum (and i hate gum anyways bc of misophonia) so i ended up spending the entire plane ride moving my jaw to try and pressurize my ear. that, of course, ended up with me doing something to the right side of my jaw that makes it crackle and sometimes pop when i move it. it also hurts sometimes, which is weird bc the only jaw pain ive ever had was when i had all 4 of my wisdom teeth taken out at once. with the pressure in my throat though, it was kind of an afterthought at the time

anyways. since doctor #1 really hadnt done anything and i didnt have a primary doctor, i decided to go to the primary doctor my mom and sister went to when they still lived down here with me. its probably a good time to mention that that side of the family is the one im close to and im stuck here in florida for another year while i finish college. anyways. getting to him was a long wait but i got there and told him my story and he ordered some x rays of my neck and bloodwork, and prescribed me medicine. i waited for the tests and waited more for the follow up. looked at everything and told me everything was peachy keen, perfect except for a little bit of degeneration in my spinal vertebrae. it looked like things were kinda (really) out of his area of expertise, so he prescribed me a different medicine and a few sessions of physical therapy and recommended a nose & throat specialist to go to if the throat pressure didnt go away. i am goddamn lucky my dad offered to pay for my medical expenses. Doctor #3 was more or less useless.

on to doctor #3! he’s a neck specialist. i managed to get an appointment pretty quickly with him so i waited to see him. i didnt see him on the day of the appointment, but rather his assistant. she listened to my story (except that i forgot to tell her about the throat pressure thing. i s2g i go featherbrained around doctors) and then tested my arm and leg strength/mobility/general usefulness/whatever. then she ordered an mri of my neck. i waited for the mri, then waited again for the follow up. She, of course, said there was nothing wrong and when i remembered to tell her about the throat thing (which had still not gone away, 2 months later) she just looked kinda confused. she, like doctor #2, prescribed me a different medicine and a month of physical therapy. i think somewhere along the timeline of seeing doctor #3 my jaw started acting up again? i dont remember the exact timing of that but it hurt, and it sucked. my throat also started getting pretty uncomfortable when i talked, like i had to work harder to speak at a normal level. that also sucks when you work in a customer service job

so i managed to rule out that the throat thing wasnt bc of my neck and that my vertebrae werent gonna spontaneously combust or anything, i booked an apointment with the nose & throat specialist, which was on tuesday. by this time i was a damn mess. i still felt at times that i was having a hard time breathing and i really couldnt even think about it without going on the verge of a panic attack. 2 months and NO answers other than “huh, that’s weird” (the physical therapist literally told me that to my face). i had started to do research on my own for lack of anything better. that led me to eagle syndrome! which described exactly what i was feeling! (http://www.livingwitheagle.org/t/es-information-common-symptoms-and-possible-explanations-for-them/1389) and from what i read, there’s no cure! just analgesics and surgery, really. that really, really did not help- if you cant do anything then whats the point, right?

EX-FUCKING-CEPT. right around the time that i figured that out, i started having pain in my chest. i didnt know why it was happening (i later figured out that its bc when i sleep on my side i put too much pressure on my chest and it hurts me where my ribs and my sternum meet. it just decided to act up then). still though, i didnt know that at the time and let me tell you, when your chest starts hurting after youve been having whats more or less a 2-month-long constant panic attack, its goddamn TERRIFYING. i had lost my appetite a couple days before and had not been eating much, so i was weak and my heart was beating weirdly. i asked my dad what to do. he told me to call my primary, and they told me to go to the ER. i asked my dad to take me to the ER. his answer? “no, we’re going to an urgent care clinic”. the urgent care clinic, of course, couldnt do anything, while i sat there crying. (the doctor there, doctor #4, literally told me to just wait to see the nose & throat guy and that “i should try to be more composed when i see him”) meanwhile, when trying to talk about what ive been feeling to my parents, aka several mentions that i feel like im choking, i was just told to calm down. as if everything wasnt crumbling and going wrong.

so i waited until the appointment on tuesday. actually, no i didnt, i went into depression mode(TM), getting nothing done, and ended up in the doctors office an hour and a half before the appointment on the verge of tears. since it was uncomfortable to talk and something just outside of my throat had started hurting a week before, i had typed up my story (named “The Big Clusterfuck” on my computer). doctor #5 did some tests and mentioned eagle syndrome, even though i had only described it in the paper and not named it, and TMJ. he gave me prednisone for a week and told me to come back in a week. i feel bad for the man, i cried a lot.

ive managed to get my appetite back and have started eating again, and spent all of yesterday evacuating florida. i really, really hope the prednisone works. i dont know what im gonna do if it doesnt. if youre religious or do witchy stuff or whatever floats your boat, please send along a prayer or a spell or something. im not as bad as i was last week but im still Not Okay

[dicaxasinus]

all the questions for sophia and peter

can u hear me screaming about having to answer 90 questions at once from canada. can u cel. can u.

Sophia Cervantes

1. Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

sophias got 2 siblings, an older sister named abigail and a younger brother named felix, but shes closer to felix than abigail bc 1) hes more fun and 2) hes in school to be a doctor and is willing to help her sometimes when superhero-ing goes less than well

2. What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

it was okay? like her mom was encouraging about anything she wanted to do and she was the one to actually try to help sophia whenever her daydreams started manifesting as illusions but she didnt do a lot to stop her dad whenever he got on the ‘you need to do better’ train.

3. What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

her dad was always trying to push an intense sibling rivalry onto his kids and up until college he succeeded. but saying stuff like ‘you got an A- on this test? [sibling] got an A+ on theirs, and you can do better than them’ just kinda fostered a lot of bitterness towards him for all of his kids so its not really the best relationship.

4. Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

i dont know about fundamentally but she probably saw something happen on the news and thought ‘... i could do something about that’ and then started superhero-ing. itd probably be when chime came into the picture that she started stepping up her game so that she could like. actually fight physically her powers arent exactly combat oriented.

5. On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

pocket lint and her trusty kazoo and thats all thatll fit womens pockets are stupid

6. Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

not that i can think of?

7. Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

nah dont think so

8. Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

shes not a gun person she doesnt fight to kill she fights to arrest and bring to trial

9. Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

she grew up pretty well-off and thats why she and her siblings were pushed so hard to succeed and she and felix at least are probably still financially dependent on their dad so? probably not? she trying to break away from that but shes still in law school so its Tough to do that

10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

she goes for practicality and comfort so it really all depends on the weather. she doesnt like crop tops or anything like that tho so definitely not less clothing.

11. In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

either the first time she confronted chime and was woefully unprepared or the time that she and chime had to work together to fight somebody Worse and it all went to hell both were pretty frightening

12. In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

probably when shes alone in her room and she can just let her daydreams go and take her wherever her imagination can create (guest starring daydream construct lenore sometimes but that just makes sophia embarrassed even though she knows nobody else is there to see any of it)

13. Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

shes not bothered if its like bloody nose blood but if its like someone is bleeding out on the sidewalk blood then shes bothered, she doesnt like seeing it in huge amounts, it makes her feel nauseous bc she cant do anything to help that she doesnt know how

14. Does your character remember names or faces easier?

names, she cant always recognize someone on their face alone, if she could shed probably be able to figure out who chime is more easily.

15. Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

shes probably never had to think about it tbh so not really

16. Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

its kinda ingrained in her since childhood to equate success with happiness so thanks dad

17. What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

she saw the spongebob episode with the imagination box and took it to heart

18. Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

i wanna say wisdom but given how hard shes been pushed since forever shes probably going to look down a little on people who dont have any ambition whatsoever

19. What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

shes not great at talking about important issues, whether its something she feels or something that she thinks the other person might feel. she just kinda tries to laugh it all off and hope it goes away eventually.

20. In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

probably both. shes probably like ‘yeS i did better than abigail on this thing fuck yeah’ but then also like ‘i placed third in the class on this thing im clearly a failure’ everythings pass/fail and the only acceptable place is the Top

21. If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

shes quick to blame others if it seems reasonable. like say there was some fire. shed probably think ‘i could have saved more people if i had gone a little faster’ but shes not going to blame herself for the place burning down, thats the fault of the arsonist, u feel?

22. What does your character like in other people?

she likes when people can debate with her and not just agree. like dont get me wrong she loves being right but she likes being able to prove it even more and when someones debating with her it means theyre listening and not just tuning her out and nodding vacantly.

23. What does your character dislike in other people?

she doesnt like when people have 0 sense of humor like when she does something stupid for laughs (eg: the kazoo) if someones looking at her like shes the dumbest person alive for it then shes gonna get irritated and never want to be around them ever again.

24. How quick is your character to trust someone else?

with all her secrets? almost never youll have to kill her first or find out on your own. to be friends? talk to her for 10 minutes and youre friends

25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

if she sees someone acting shifty shes going to suspect them of something even if shes not sure what and keep a closer eye on them. if shes close with that person and is looking at them through the rose-colored lenses (lenore) she might not notice as quickly.

26. How does your character behave around children?

she acts pretty silly and will play games and stuff with them. one time she taught all the younger cousins on her dads side of the family to play the kazoo. she told felix she felt like the pied piper of kazoos as they all paraded around the family reunion annoying the shit out of e v e r y o n e

27. How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

sophias thought process: will words work? yes? use them. no? how about illusions? yes? use them. no? Fists

28. How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

as quick as necessary but its not usually her first choice

29. What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

she decided pretty young that she wanted to help fix things in the world so law was the goal bc in her mind it combined justice and success

30. What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

she hates having her hands & hair feel gross if one of them does then she needs to wash it immediately no questions. it doesnt matter if she just got licked by a puppy that hand needs to be washed now

31. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

shes in her room. the door is closed, the only light comes from two nightlights on opposite sides of the room. shes under all of her blankets in the comfy pjs and her pillow is delightfully cool. she lets her mind wander from all the tests papers and responsibilities she has and watches a movie of her minds creation play out not in her head but actually in front of her eyes. shes warm, happy, and calm.

32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

shes out as phantasm, just finished a job, and now the press is there. theyre asking so many questions. shes tired and wants to leave but theyre a mob. shes gotta figure out a way to escape without leading someone back home.

ALTERNATIVELY

shes at a family reunion, just finished a semester, and now her aunts are there. theyre asking so many questions. shes tired and wants to leave but thats rude. then tia asks, ‘when are you going to get a boyfriend?’ shes gotta figure out a way to escape without letting her whole extended family know shes Super Gay

33. In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

defensive but willing to improve, shes had Experiences being criticized before but shes always willing to improve anyway

34. Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

probably try something different, even if its just slight differences like ‘this part is what didnt work if i just change it a little then it should work this time.’

35. How does your character behave around people they like?

shes gonna try to make them laugh. people like to laugh so if she makes them laugh then she Wins bc that probably means they like her. then she can try to impress them in other ways and make them like her more

36. How does your character behave around people they dislike?

37. Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

im gonna say honor tho i dont really know how applicable it is? what status does she have

38. Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

remove the problem/threat definitely if shes not the target then someone else might be and she Wont Have That

39. Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

she got bit by a dog once but it didnt really have much effect it happened when she was old enough to know that she probably did something it didnt like the owner of the dog apologized immediately so she doesnt have a lasting fear of dogs or anything

40. How does your character treat people in service jobs?

she treats them with respect shes not a barbarian

41. Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

shes gotta earn it and shes gonna Fight for what she wants

42. Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

nah

43. Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

nah

44. How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

she doesnt usually say it cause she doesnt have anyone to say it to other than family but she sure does think it a lot when she does have someone to think it about. and shes def not gonna say it if she doesnt mean it

45. What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

she doesnt really know whats gonna happen and thats the scary part. the not knowing. also the fact that shes probably gonna leave some things unfinished and she doesnt want that. thats what scares her.

Peter Brennan

1. Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

theyve got some cousins that are around their age but nobody particularly close.

2. What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

their mom is supportive of their endeavors in sports and in academics but hopes that their being nonbinary is just a phase and forgets a lot so thats. something

3. What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

their dad loves going to peters track meets and cheers The Loudest no matter what happens peter could lose and hed be like ‘youll get em next time sport’ 

4. Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

like before idk if this is ‘fundamentally’ but when they were little they were reading some comic book about The Flash and it was storming outside and they saw a tree get struck by lightning and thought it was the coolest shit ever so they decided ‘i wanna be like the flash’ and thats how they got started with track and science together

5. On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

their phone, a coin for decision making, and at least 1 pen

6. Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

they dream about flying a lot

7. Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

nah

8. Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

theyre a kid they have not fired a gun ever

9. Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

 theyre still growing up

10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

more usually, its basketball shorts and hoodies for this kid

11. In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

any time jessie drags them into a haunted house at 3am and makes spooky ghost sounds then claims ‘it wasnt me dude’

12. In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

theyre in a car and its raining and the sound of it is just nice to hear

13. Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

only in the sense that it means somebody is hurt usually

14. Does your character remember names or faces easier?

it takes peter like at least 3 interactions with somebody to remember them unless it was something crazy

15. Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

not really cause again they probably didnt have to think about it too much

16. Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

happiness definitely

17. What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

they were big into webkinz their fav was the mini golden retriever

18. Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

ambition bc that ambition can be like ‘im going to find bigfoot’ and thats way more fun than wisdom

19. What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

theyre like 14 they havent had a relationship but probably just immaturity would be their biggest flaw at this point

20. In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

validation i think

21. If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

if its their fault/their idea theyll take responsibility and theyll only take the blame for someone else if theres some kinda Bigger Consequence if it was the other persons fault but otherwise? theyre gonna blame someone else

22. What does your character like in other people?

the ability to have a Good Time

23. What does your character dislike in other people?

when theyre unable to keep up with them in any sense of the word whether thats intellectually or 

24. How quick is your character to trust someone else?

pretty quick if they made a good impression

25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

theyre not too suspicious in general tbh so regardless of whether theyre close or not theyre not gonna suspect people too much

26. How does your character behave around children?

they dont

27. How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

‘hey man can you maybe relax a little’

28. How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

theyre not violent theyre just speedy so theyd probably run away first

29. What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

theyre still dreaming of going into science and theyre Making It Happen

30. What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

thick layers of dust on things so like in a room that hasnt been used or touched in a year and theres like an inch of dust on every flat surface and theres cobwebs everywhere theyre just Disgusted

31. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

theyre in front of a camera with their best friend talking about science and whats happening in whatever it is theyre doing and then seeing what happens

32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

someones flirting with them. thats it. they dont know how to react so they just kinda laugh uncomfortably and try to bail

33. In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

always willing to improve

34. Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

depends if its an actual problem that needs solving or if its just an experiment theyll try something else if its an actual problem but if its an experiment theyll keep trying the original method so that they can gather data

35. How does your character behave around people they like?

extremely clingy and boisterous needing a break after interacting with them is probable

36. How does your character behave around people they dislike?

peters gonna act like normal but kinda pointedly exclude the people they dislike and hope they Get The Hint

37. Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

uh the school has an honor code for a reason? its gonna be respected no cheating in this house

38. Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

remove themselves but the threat is usually a chance for ghosts and like fuck peters gonna try to move a ghost

39. Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

not bitten but they got scratched by a cat when they were little and now they dont like them very much and then their dog also got scratched by a dog once so when theyre out running and they see a cat theyll make a pretty wide berth to Stay Away

40. How does your character treat people in service jobs?

with pleases and thank yous their lives are hard enough dammit

41. Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

earn they train and study hard all the time they deserve to treat themself for that

42. Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

nah

43. Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

nah

44. How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

they tell their dog that they love him every day and they mean every word of it

45. What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

if they die theyre coming back as a ghost and haunting the shit out of jessie bc they probably got killed by another ghost in some haunted house that he dragged them to

[breezles]

New employee update: It’s a good one I swear

I finally told my boss exactly how I felt about this new employee. I said that I have a gut feeling and suspicion that she’s sneaky. I don’t trust her and can’t shake the feeling of her being a shady person. She asks intrusive questions etc etc. My boss is awesome, she said give it this week and she’ll have her moved around and since I’m next in seniority get to choose my days that’s left and everything will be okay, that she respects my feelings and wants everyone to be comfortable with working. 

So I also found out she told another employee that she doesn’t like working with me because I get frustrated with her too easily. I had apologized the one time ONE TIME I did because we were incredibly busy, she kept making mistakes (which of course is a given totally understandable) but she also kept forgetting to get parts of customers orders. I was making sandwiches wraps and pizzas while she did register (because she told me she wants to get used to that first but technically you’re supposed to get used to our food stuff first) so I had to keep stopping the food process to finish people’s orders. Several people got the wrong sandwiches because she wasn’t putting names on the order papers like I asked 4 times. I’ve been trying to get her the benefit of the doubt but I can’t get past the point when I feel I can’t trust someone, in the sense that I can confide information to her. Every time I show up to work she asks me a. If I got enough sleep b. how was your weekend 3. how are you. In a tone that gives me the impression she’s just asking it to ask it emotionless almost like she honestly doesn’t give a fuck. 

But above all ABOVE FUCKING ALL IS THAT SHES TRYING TO PROFILE ME WITH HER OWN FUCKING ASSUMPTIONS AND i CANNOT FUCKIN STAND THAT BULLSHIT!!! IM STILL SO FUCKIN SALTY. When I am doing something or ask something or say something at all she will assume something else entirely because of something else. 

Example #whatever I was at: Today she was talking to me about going out with a Josh guy out of the blue while I was trying to work. I ask her “well who’s josh?” and shes all. “Oh you know Josh!” I instantly cringed. “Actually I don’t know who Josh is??” So shes like “Oh yeah you do! Your brother knows him!!” And I wanted to absolutely fucking lose it on her because its always this kind of shit. I told her “Actually I don’t know who Josh is, I know only a few of my brothers friends who have come by and most don’t and aren’t allowed in the house. So no I dont know who Josh is” and I told her the other day after she told me she thinks I get annoyed at her that the thing that bothers me is when she asks me personal questions and assumes shit based on random ass shiT!!! 

Am I over exaggerating on her? Am I being too defensive??? Because I’ve been around F&B and Retail long enough to have seen plenty of new people and know when and who’s not going to be around long. So I don’t invest my time or personal information with people who don’t need to know or who shouldnt know what goes on in my life?? Like where I live what school I go to what I drive LIKE I’VE WORKED WITH HER FOR 4 DAYS!!! I know some people are gonna say “Oh she’s just trying to get to know you!! Give her time” How would you like it if within hours someone you have never met nor seen comes up to you and says .”So you live in so and so.” Not a question, stating fiction. “Oh I thought you did because of your brother!!” No I dont know what would make you assume we live there not once did I ever mention where I lived “So you went to River Valley” No I didn’t go to River Valley I dont know what would make you assume I did because I don’t even live in the district its in!!! It’s all because she found out that my brother knows her brother. Little does she know (but shes full of those assumptions) that I do not involve myself in my brothers life. I know 2 of his life long close friends I consider little brothers, her brother who is a shady fucking asshole comes around once in a great fucking blue moon has not once stepped foot in our house and only looks at my brothers car with him; I dont know at all. I don’t know anything else about any of his other friends and what he does outside this house except his car meets. I do know he doesn’t talk about me to his friends because he has other shit to talk about like HEY HIS CARS!!! 

Point to all this: This bitch thinks she knows me, is trying to peg me with false assumptions, goes around acting like she knows what shes doing but ends up falling behind or messing it up, instead of listening to those who try to teach her aka me whenever I try fucking explaining something to her. Goes around saying she hope she doesnt get hurt or burn herself because shes oh so “accident prone” like..from a professional stand point you don’t admit to that. You’re a liability, if something happens because you think you’re careless and take it as a joke, instead of taking extra care not to injure yourself, you’re disrupting work and making it more difficult on fellow employees because they have to pick up where you left off, since you had to go and report that injury to security. 

I’m really hoping after this week she’s put on day shift instead of swing shift with me and the 2 employees I consider friends that she’s already talked shit on one only to catch herself and say something nice the next day. Like you ain’t slick dont talk shit about my swing shift. I told my boss that if I could close Monday and Tuesdays by myself I’ll gladly take it if it means I dont have to work with her. I already can’t hardly look her in the face without getting irritated lmao man im a salty ass bitch 

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Ocean Eyes - Part 2

It was an unusually hot day, so i pulled out Mason's kiddy pool and filled it for him to cool off in. I was sat on one of the sun loungers close by reading my book where i could still keep an eye on him.

"Mom?"

"Yeah babe?"

"Is auntie Hannah coming round soon with Lucas? Im bored"

"They should be here soon buddy" i smiled over at him.

"Okay.... im hungry"

"Fine.... i'll go get you something but you have to come out the water while i'm inside...."

"Oh mom i dont wanna get out...."

"Mace come on now...." i rolled my eyes putting my book down.

"Knock knock" i heard a very familiar voice call out from behind, i turned and stared wide eyed at none other than Scott Evans!!

"Scott.... what... what are you doing here?" I asked standing up and walking over to the back gate to let him in.

"Chris told me where you were, i had to come see you! I've missed you! You stopped replying to my messages and wouldn't take my calls...."

"Yeah i'm sorry Scott, that was a dick move" i nodded, I had been friends with the Evan's since we were kids.... best friends with Chris and Scott "i was dealing with some stuff.... guess i didn't handle it well"

"I can see that" he said looking over at Mason who was sat in the pool with his back to us as he crashed some toys around "he yours?"

"He is, thats Mason"

"Well you gonna introduce me properly??" He asked being his usual sassy self!

"Sure, come on over" i led the way over to where Mason was playing feeling my heart racing, i hadn't been this nervous in forever!

"Hey Mace? I want you to meet a friend of mine...."

Mason turned to face us and i heard Scott audibly gasp.

"This is my friend Scott"

"Hi" he said shyly looking Scott over.

"Hey bud, its nice to meet you...." Scott smiled at Mason before turning his attention to me with wide eyes as Mason carried on playing as if we wasn't there.

"Is there something you need to tell me Y/N?....."

I looked away from Scott keeping my eyes on my son, i shook my head in disbelief..... i did not expect to be having this conversation today!

"You know his a spitting image...."

"I know Scott! Im not blind" i snapped.

"But how?? I mean i know how! But...."

"Hey! Its just us...." i heard Hannah call from inside, she always let herself in.

"Hey.... oh shit"

"Hey Hannah, good to see you" Scott smiled with a little wave.

"Scott..... what a surprise..."

"Han, can you watch Mason while i go inside and talk to Scott?" I asked as i shifted nervously on the spot.

"Sure".

"Hi auntie Y/N!" Lucas said loudly as he ran past me heading to Mason.

"Hey buddy" i smiled at him as i led the way into the house with Scott following close behind.

"Okay so spill it" Scott said breaking the awkward silence between us as he pulled out a chair and sat down at the kitchen table.

"What do you already know? What did Chris tell you about us?...." i asked avoiding eye contact with him.

"Well obviously i know the two of you used to hook up occasionally.... he said he just lost contact with you when you left town"

"Wow....." i scoffed shaking my head "is your brother still an asshole?"

"Why are you calling him an asshole? I thought you guys were friends??"

"We were. Then we were more.....or at least i thought so"

"You two were serious?"

"I guess not"

"He never said anything...."

"Before he made it 'big' with the whole Captain America thing we were serious"

"How serious?"

"Serious enough to get married....."

"Im sorry WHAT???!!"

"Yep"

"How did i not know about this??? when did this happen??" he stared at me with wide eyes and his mouth hanging open as he tried to process the information.

"You remember the weekend in Vegas for my birthday, before he started filming Winter Soldier?....that one night you got food poisoning and stayed in bed..."

"You got married in Vegas?! were you both drunk??"

"Nope, stone cold sober" i shrugged "god i loved him Scott.... he was telling me he loved me and talking about starting a family..... we walked past a chapel and he asked me to marry him. Promised we'd do it properly when we got home...."

"My god...... so what happened?"

"Chris wanted to wait until he finished filming to tell everyone.... or so he said. When he came home once he was done filming he told me we had made a mistake. His career was taking off and he wouldn't have time for a wife..... he was getting a lot of attention from women, he didn't want to be tied down with me did he?"

"Did he say that?!"

"He didn't have to, he was pictured with different women all the time" i shrugged.

"What an asshole!" Scott spat sounding pissed at his brother "how could he do that to you of all people??"

I shook my head as i thought back on the time i was heartbroken.... pining for my best friend... my husband, and he had so easily forgotten about me, i quickly wiped a stray tear away before Scott could see.

"I found out i was pregnant two weeks later. I tried calling him but he never answered or returned my messages..... so i made a choice. I decided to pack up and leave, start somewhere new where i could raise my baby. I received divorce papers shortly after which i signed and returned, i didnt want anything to do with him"

"You should have called me! I wouldve talked some sense into him!"

"He didn't want me Scott let alone a baby.... he made his choice and i made mine" i smiled looking out the window at my beautiful boy "i dont regret it for a second, Mason is my world. He's my perfect little boy.... even if he does look like a spitting image of his father. Thats the hardest part.... its the eyes.... he has his eyes".

Scott was suddenly beside me pulling me into his arms and holding me tight.

"Im so sorry sweetie"

"Its fine.... it was a long time ago.... when Chris showed up here yesterday i nearly had a heart attack!" I mumbled against Scotts chest.

"I bet.... why was he here?"

"Apparently we're still married! That jackass never filed the papers! But now he's seeing someone and its getting serious he wants the option of marrying her"

"You should tell him about Mason....."

"I can't Scott, he'd hate me.... what if he tried to take Mason from me?"

"He wouldn't do that, he might want a chance to get to know his son but he wouldn't hurt you like that....."

"Can you be sure? 100% sure that he wouldn't want to take Mason?? I've seen some of his interviews about wanting kids...."

"Don't you want Mason to know his father?"

"Of course! You dont think i wanted my son to have a dad? I tried to tell him Scott but he ghosted me!"

"Look i love my brother you know that, i know what he was like a few years back, he went through a phase of being an absolute douche bag..... but his different now"

"I'll think about it okay?"

"Okay..... i'll be there for you through it all i promise"

"Thank you Scotty, god I've missed you" i smiled giving him another hug "you staying for lunch? Mason's hungry"

"Id love to".

Scotts POV

Y/N stood at the front door waving me off with Mason, my NEPHEW! I still couldn't believe it.... Chris was a Father!!

I waved to them both as i pulled away and started my drive home. 20 minutes into my journey my cell started to ring, i looked down to see it was Chris calling.

"Hey"

"Hey, what you up to?"

"Just on my way home, i went to go see Y/N"

"Oh.... h..how was she?"

"Surprised to see me, but she was good"

"Good, thats good. What did she tell you?" He sounded worried, nervous even.

"I know everything...." i huffed out a breath "how could you be so fucking stupid Chris?? you married our best friend.... our oldest friend and then left her!"

"I was such an asshole back then.... i know, but i can't change that now can i?"

"No i guess not"

"It was so good seeing her yesterday man, made me realise how much I've missed her. I was hoping we could work things out, be friends at least but.... Scott she fucking hates me!"

"Can't say i blame her....."

"Im not that guy anymore Scott" he said sadly and i knew that, id seen the change in my brother over the years.

"Try and talk to her again, maybe she just needed to get over the shock of seeing you"

"You think she'd wanna see me?"

"I have no clue, but if you want to sort things out with her your going to have to make an effort with her. Let her see your not the same asshole that left her"

"Maybe i should just leave her alone, she's been fine without me...."

"Chris..... i wasn't going to say anything but theres something you should know...."

Everything taglist: @jesseswartzwelder @dumblani @barnesandrogersworld @patzammit @rynabarnesrogers-reading

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[datingadviceonreddit]

This is gonna be a long story and may not be as full of thrill as you might expect, but I would really appriciate any advice or insight I could get, so bear with me, if you can.Tldr: Manipulative ex gf thanked me for getting her through school and family isssues for 8 years by screwing her coworker and letting me find the used panties.Since there´s a lot of talk about abuse in relationships I´ve come to think about my last relationship and whether my (27m) ex-gf (25f) emotionally abused me. This is in no form a talk of physical abuse, but coming out of the bubble I was in, when I was still with her, I think that some things she did to me would be considered insane, if a guy did that to his girl.For background: I met my ex-gf when I was 18. She was 16 and seemed like the sweetest girl in the world. She was exactly my type, sweet, caring and came from a shitty family background, which I absolutely do not. Not only did I fell madly in love with her, I also wanted to help her overcome all the losses and insecurities she had dealt with. Her father was a women hating alcoholic pos that died when she was 13 and most likely killed himself. He had told her literally since the day she was born that she was trash, because she was a girl. When the nurse said he had become father to a wonderful daughter he replied with "well the dumb ones loose their cock". So that´s the kind of guy that had indoctrinated her to think she was worthless and would end up like her mother. Her mum was kind, but also one of the dumbest and most ignorant people I have ever met. During the 8 years of our relationship I have met so many new "step dads" for my ex, that I´m pretty sure I must have forgotten some.For the first two years our relationship was seemingly fine. I showed her that she could become anything she wanted, helped her with school, with bullies, her idiotic mother, her ignorant brother and so much stuff, my life basically consisted of nothing more than making sure she was alright. She had depression, an eating disorder and on top of that she had a habit of taking care of any animal she could get her hands on. When we first met, she had three cats, two bunnies and a horse. When we split it was still three cats, a dog, the horse and a pony. Financing almost everything about them alone and taking care of them 24/7 while doing school or working. This has made up a huge part of our live and tbh - I miss this so much it breaks my heart.I admired her for caring for all of them and over the years I got so involved I took care of the animals like they were my own. I have spent nights and days at our barn making sure the horses were fine and raised our dog for 7 years with her. Loosing the dog was the worst part for me honestly.Anyways during the first two years she kinda looked up to me I guess. I helped her through school, getting a job and eventually to become a nurse. I accompanied her to exams, even pretty much wrote a major paper for her (I know) and what not.I cant really tell at what point the dynamic shifted but I guess it was somewhere around our third year together. She always had a temper and when she got mad, it was like all she could see was red and the things she sometimes said to me were so humiliating and mean that today I would walk out the second the first thing came out of anyones mouth.It got worse and worse and to give you a bigger picture I will list some things out of the last two years:- She twisted anything I said all the time. Sometimes she raged all of a sudden over a thing I had allegedly said the day before. She made up entire conversations that had never happened and when I called out this bs she came up with things like "so youre calling me a liar" and the fight continued from there on- she constantly accused me of cheating even though I was carrying her on my hands like a princess, caring for her and her pets 24/7 and if I got mad, she got even more mad, insisting that I had no right to get mad over the accusation, because that would be a sign they were true. I had caught her texting at least two guys she lied to me about in a semi explicit way, but of course when I caught her it was my fault.- She called me names, yelled at me, told me to fuck off and when I left she said if I would leave we´d be done.It was like that at least once every two weeks, probably more often.Im sorry if this is a little confusing to follow. It is hard to grasp being humiliated and manipulated over a course of years and put it into sentences.Still, here is something that really stuck with me.I was going on walks with her horses and her at least four times a week. It was hard work, and she constantly told me how bad I was at handling the horses and what not, even though pressuring me and punishing me if I did not come along, because she had more work to do then. When we went on walks we would bring large garbage bags and gloves to pick up the horse sht. We were walking through neighborhoods and streets and didnt want to leave it jus there. That one day she told me to get the bags so we could go. I went into your shed, grabbed them from the usual chair they were on and put them into my pocket. These are regualy folded trash bags from a role like you probably use every other day. So at some point the horse does its duty and I hand my ex-gf the bag, she unfolds it and sees it has a giant hole at the bottom which was not visible before. It was a fabrication mistake which you could only see once you really wanted to use it. She then screamed at me on a street in full daylight with people around how dumb I was to not see this before, if I could do anything right and tbh, it was the ususal talk for me. I told her there was no way of knowing for me and that I had just taken them from the usual place. She then told me that she had already known that apparently the whole role had been like this but she did not throw them away. So she knew I would grab these and it would play out like this or just didnt think about it herself. She literally screamed at me and still insisted I was too stupid to do basic tasks and here comes the part that was really bad for me.Apparently she had also forgotten to bring the gloves we use to pick the shit up and since it was my fault the bag was broken I would have to pick the shit up with my bare hands. I really dont find horse shit gross compared to dog or whatever shit but it still is what it is and it was a lot. There was screaming at me not to be a little bitch and pick up the shit and find a way the bag will hold it. The worst thing for me about this that I was actually on my knees, over the pile and I was so close to pick it up, it makes me sick thinking about it. Eventually I told her Im not doing it, she just walked away silently and told me once we´re back at the barn I could leave.Now you wonder, why I didnt leave. Its simple. I loved her more than anything. She had a habit to apologize so sincerely a day after her usual tantrums, I just believed her. She would come a day later and tell me that she would just get consumed by rage and couldnt help but talking like while at the same time not meaning anything of it sincerely. Shed tell me shed love me, be nothing without me, love the way I treat her and her animals and that I should believe her that nothing of what she says in rage mode is what she actually feels. I always believed that. For 8 damn years I believed this shit.The last year was one of the best and still the worst. We moved in together after she had finished becoming a nurse and me almost finishing law school. We had fixed her relationship with her mother, her brother, got her her dream job and I dont want to be an asshole but I had guided her through all of it. Her family was a full on nightmare when it came to communication and I had always felt like the only sane person at the table being with them. The reason this is important is, I always excused her irrational behaviour with the trouble and stress that was always constant in her life. Her horse had also been sick for years and for the first time we could sleep without fearing it would be dead on the grass the next morning.So the foundation was good. At least thats what I thought. I remember two weeks before the relationship ended, she asked me whether I was still planning to marry her. I looked at her as honestly as I could and said yes and I meant it with all my heart. You shouldve seen the look on her face. She was the happiest girl in the world and I was sure this would be a turning point.Then she had a christmas party from work. I drove her there so she could drink. Told her to enjoy herself, she had deserved it after all the stress and I would pick her up till 3 in the morning because Id have to feed the horses at 7 and needed at least a bit of sleep.She did not react to my messages once and came home at around 5:30. Told me she had danced a lot with a coworker that had hit on her prior and I was pissed, but trusted her and did not want to ruin her one night out right after it ended. That was on a friday. The next morning, saturday, everything was fine. I had taken out the horses and we went on a 3 hour walk with them in the afternoon and I had to study after that for the rest of the day. She was sweet to me but kinda hung on her phone a lot and always made sure to take it with her everytime she left the room, which was kind of suspicious to me but I thought Id just be paranoid.So far everything still was fine. On sunday it all changed. She got up in the morning and was pissed right away. We had plans for the day and she canceled them because of light rain which usually never bothered us. She acted pissed until early afternoon and suddenly told me shed go see the horses. I wanted to join her but she wanted to go alone and walk there. That was a thirty minute walk in rain and by the time shed have walked back once she was done there it wouldve been dark outside and people got robbed a lot where we had to walk. I let her go and once it was time to feed the horses I got in my car to suprise her, so she wouldnt have to walk home in the dark. When I arrived all hell broke loose. Suddenly she told me that ever sinced I moved in with her she had no real home anymore. That I was just a dog to her, not a real man and that I was taking the air she breathed from her. She said shed go to bed early cause thats the only time she could spent without me. Just to note this here, she had yelled at me numerous times because I couldnt go to bed with her because I had to study.The idiot I was I still offered her to ride her home and then go to my brothers place so she could get some peace and we had a chance to talk at night or in the morning. Well she did not have any of that and told me to fuck off. I drove to my brother, she walked home and we only talked the next morning when she broke up with me and kicked me out.Two days later she called me to tell me something. Of course we couldnt meet at a neutral place, I had to come to her and we talked were our (her) horses stood with my australian shepherd I had raised for 7 years and never saw again after that day. She told me she had fucked her coworker. I dont know what happened at the christmas party but I guess they did not fuck there, but made out or something. Then the day after she kicked me out she went over while his gf was at work so they could screw. Not 24hours later after she had broken up with me, who had taken care of her for so long. She did not tell me this to rub it into my face. She wanted to come clean I guess. But the worst thing about this was what she told me after that confession. She said she knows how bad she treated me over all these years, the things she said to me, the manipulation and all of that and that she had come to the realization, everything she ever told me while she was raging and then took back was what she truly thought of me. That I was no man for her, just a dog following her orders. She had no reason at all to tell me this, I dont know why she did it, but even tough this was 1,5years ago I still think about this every day.I left and wanted to hug my dog one last time. That little thing was so shaken, she wouldnt leave my ex-gfs side, leaving my last interaction with her, her backing away from me and completely refusing to let me touch her. Thinking of this makes me die a little inside. The next day I went over to our flat to get my stuff. I had to go through the laundry basket to get the last of my unwashed clothes out of there and right on top was the thong completely covered in jizz she wore when he fucked her. The nicest present she could have made me to get the hell out of there. Did I mention that the day after she fucked him she actually called me, panicking and asking me whether Id remember the last times she had taken her pill. I had no idea of the other guy at that point and assured her the last time we had sex was a while ago so it woulnt matter.Guess she panicked after he nutted raw in her.The funny thing about this is that this and her cheating was one of the things that kept me from suicide. It was a really close call in all honesty, but even though I was in such a bad shape that I lost 60 pounds in 8 weeks because I could not eat or sleep the last bit of pride kept me alive. I did not want to go out because of some bitch that rather fucked some other cheater than keeping the one that loved her more than himself.Hats off if you made it this far. I will end this on a positive note. Im taken again. Shes wonderful. I have grown as a person so much, I think Im nowhere near the same guy and never will be again. The day my ex saw me updating my relationship status on facebook, she stalked my gf and since you could see the bar shes a waitress at, she was there the very next day checking her out. Accompanied by her coworker of course, who is still with his gf that he cheated on.My ex messaged me lately because covid, wishing me and my family the best after I had not heard from her in about a year. I replied with "thanks, you too." I want to be a good person. Im glad I made it out of this abusive (?) relationship. Will put a tldr at the top and fix typos later.God I miss my dog. via /r/dating_advice