Etho's reaction to his Man Cave building being apart of the elevator prank in MCC 33 on team Cyan Coyotes will forever be one of my top moments from this MCC [Noxcrew, you guys are the goats].
Madonna has been pictured out for the first time since announcing she will be rescheduling her world tour dates, after suffering a serious health battle stemming from a bacterial infection.
I got tipsy with half a glass of cider. My friend said I have an evil laugh like I’m planning to take over the world. Saw a really cute boy(!!). Climbed up a huge mountain to look at the pretty views. Had some bomb ass nachos.
What more is left? The mugs, already wrapped in newspaper? The answering machine you keep forgetting to turn off?
He might have called again last night. But that's okay, he doesn't need to know you're leaving. The landlord will be by tomorrow, to do a final walk through and pick up the keys.
And then it's open road, your brother in the U-Haul truck behind you. Maybe you'll listen to all of the messages he's left.
Or maybe you'll just throw the tape away, like every other memory you'd rather lose to time, somewhere an interstate away, with autumn fading dull into the frost.
oo relazird i haven’t made a journal post in a bit
1) work was crazy i had to give a blood transfusion every single night i worked. nasty GI bleeds abound. they smell so fucking bad it’s so so bad
2)my mom is home for the month!! i’m excited i’ve missed her
3)my dad opened the cosmere box (mine will be here tomorrow!!) and because mine will be here tomorrow i’m gonna practice my packing for ireland lol
4)my parents had a game night it was fun watching them play games with their best friends. it’s always stupid and i get to here the same stories again lol (they also made a lot of good food cause it was my aunt&uncles anniversary)
5)my grandma is still staying with us—she invited herself to stay this entire month which kinda sucks because now she can take care of herself etc after the surgery it’s just that she’s still getting wound care for the month but whatever
6)i think my nephew will be born this month and when he is i’m going to make an email for him that i can send things to and give to him when he’s 18–i had told my mom that i was going to do this as a gift for him and she told my sister about it and they wanted to be in control of the email—and like. i kinda figure i won’t be apart of this kids life as much as i want to be. so i just wanna do this on my own too. idk
7) i emailed the mortgage lady and i know what papers i need to get in order so i’ll do that tomorrow and call her to set up an appointment. she had an opening for tomorrow but i needed more time to search for the papers i need —i did see that they recommended not opening a credit card but idk i’m not planning on buying a house so soon and i was thinking of getting a travel card that doesn’t have international fees
And what it really boils down to is my staunch belief that if I have all these options available to me and simply Refuse To Do Any or make any meaningful changes to my life, than how can I complain that I continue to feel like shit and no one will see me for what I am or want to be? There's no excuses. If I wont put in the effort for it, then I deserve to feel every bit as fucked up and shitty and unlovable and anxious as I do now, because it's my own damn fault I have those feelings in the first place and I could make them go away at any point but TANGIBLY CHOOSE NOT TO. I don't deserve to feel better if I wont put in the wori. If I reject all the solutions, i deserve what i get. Which is a fucking horrible life that pretends to be fine.