#Armin's hands I am speechless –

[mimiwrites2000]

Anna you took my breath away 🥹🥹🥹

Far from the crowd

[xinmin-exe]

Attack On Titan characters as Parents

Note: I haven't really watched attack on titan in years, so I'm sure all of these characters are gonna be OOC ALSO i am making it so everyone survived in the end and they all got their happy ending because these babies deserve it

WARNINGS: fem!reader, brief mentions of past trauma, mentions of miscarriage, very brief mention of the birthing process,

Eren

Eren was so traumatized after what his father did, he almost had a break down when you told him you were pregnant. It took him a couple weeks, and many, many late night talks with Armin until he was willing to try to be there for you. Eren was so nervous and worried he was going to be just like his father but the moment he saw his kid, everything just clicked. He was so gentle with them and always made time to talk and play with them during the day. As they got older, their bond grew even closer as Daddy and Aunt Mikasa took them out hunting every couple of weeks. Eren is an amazing father who despite everything he went through, made damn sure to do better for his child.

Armin

Armin never imagined having children, it just wasn't something he saw in his future. that was, until you came into his life and changed everything. When your little bundle of joy was born, Armin was in tears. He couldn't help but admire them and want to give them everything. Since then, Armin has done everything to nurture their ideas and passions. He even took them to the sea and let them play around. He wanted them to grow up with everything he couldn't have (aka, parents) so he did everything he could to stick around. Armin turned down multiple high government positions just to stay close to you and his child. Armin is the parent we all need in our lives.

Mikasa

When you approached Mikasa with the idea of wanting to adopt, she was speechless. Ever since her parents were killed, she never thought about having children. However, she loved you so much that she wanted to at least try. After all, she wasn't exactly motherly (at least that's what she will tell people) When Hange introduced you two to a young child (maybe 5 or 6) from the underground Mikasa's heart melted. She saw herself in this child so much that her protective instincts kicked in. She was so protective of this child, no one, and i mean no one besides you could be left alone with them. Even if it was armin or Eren, Mikasa was always in the room, one second away from glaring the other person into the next century. Mikasa really warmed up to the idea of being a parent and fit into the role well.

Jean

Jean was the one of the only in the group who wanted to still have kids. He knew what he wanted from life and was damned if some suicidal maniac was going to stop him. So when you were giving birth, Jean made sure he was right next to you, holding your hand and encouraging you the entire time. Even though you did scream at him "this is your fault! If i live through this i am going to KILL you Kirstein!" (the nurses thought that it was funny) But once your child was here, nothing else mattered. Once you were able to leave the hospital and go home, all Jean did was take your kid around and show off. Constantly saying "look at what i did" or "aren't they just gorgeous like their mom?" He always had something to brag about (even if the thing wasn't brag worthy), to Jean, anything your child did was amazing. Jean is very much the parent to scream at the back of the room while their kid is performing and embarrass the shit out of them.

Connie

Connie hadn't given having kids much thought. Afterall, he didn't even know if he'd be surviving long enough to be given that option. But once you told him you were pregnant, he was over the moon! Connie didn't let you move a muscle, ever. You need something from the top shelf? He's getting the stepstool. You want some food? He's already getting the ingredients out. And when you went into labor, he was right by your side. He let you squeeze his hand as hard as you needed to, and he made sure you were given everything possible to make birth as comfortable as it could be. Connie was so overwhelmed with love once he laid eyes on your child, the only time he let you hold them was when they needed to be fed. Connie got up to soothe them during the night, claiming it was the least he could do since you went though the pain of giving birth. Connie was there at every single milestone for their life, and he was never, ever going to stop being there for them; or for you.

Sasha

Oh boy, Sasha is the cool mom. When you two first adopted your child, she was admittedly a little awkward around them. But, after many late night snacks and a few bad cooking experiences, Sasha blossomed into a wonderful mom. She made sure they were eating properly and always had snacks on her. Your kids friends know that they will eat good when Sasha is around, and you two have become THE family. Sasha does tend to spoil them and say "yes" practically every time they ask for something, but they never try to manipulate that. You and Sasha both make sure your kid is kind and humble and thoughtful. With Sasha at your side, nothing is impossible and raising a child together was the best decision you two ever made.

Levi

Levi initially turned down the idea of having kids. Claiming that he was not fit to be a father, but fate wasn't having it. When you found out you were pregnant, you were worried to tell Levi. You knew he didn't want kids and you had grown to be content with that. What would he say when he found out? Would he leave you? Those thoughts sent you spiraling when Hange eventually let the cat out of the bag. Levi was silent but you could see in his eyes that was he happy. Even though he didn't want kids, he knew he wanted you. If that meant having to raise another brat then so be it. At first, he did the basics, changed their diapers, fed them, etc. But he never truly bonded with them until they were older and confided to Levi that they felt like an outsider looking in. He listened and did his best to offer advice and words of wisdom that might help. From then on, Levi was so much more involved and made sure that they were getting the life they deserved.

Erwin

Erwin was possibly the most excited to be a father. After everything, when things began settling down he approached you with the idea of trying for kids. At first you were the hesitating one, but Erwin was able to convince you to at least think about it. After a while, you were on board and baby, he got to work. It was along road, you had a miscarriage and that was demoralizing. Erwin made sure to support you the entire time. He understood that you may not want to try again and he was okay with that. It took you a year or so after for you to want to try again. But eventually, with enough effort and support, you gave birth to a beautiful baby. Erwin was in love with your child the moment he laid eyes on them. He spoiled them as much as he could, whenever he could. He was a dotting husband, and even more dotting father.

Hange

Oh boy, Hange is.. enthusiastic to say the least. They see it as a new experiment, at first. Hange takes your pulse every day, they measure how much you eat as well as your weight. When you gave birth, they were overwhelmed. There was a beautiful little bundle wrapped up in your arms and all Hange wanted was to hold them. Hange was so careful that you almost had to do a double-take. They held your child so gently, like glass. From then on, it was like the whole world vanished for them. They prioritized being there and being a parent over anything. Hange recorded all the milestones (first steps, first word, first tooth, etc) but they also recorded every other moment (like when they babbled for the first time, or when they first rolled over). But to Hange, they were all important moments.

[arlerts-angel]

when you can't sleep at night ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆

NSFW! 18+ !! minors do not interact!!

cw: armin x fem reader, use of names (pretty girl, angel, babygirl) slight coercion?, oral sex (m&f receiving), fingering, penetrative sex, unprotected sex

a/n: GOOOD MORNING IT'S 11:30 AM SO HERE'S SOME SOME SMUT FOR YA 🩵

🔞 NSFW BELOW THE CUT 🔞

you've been laying in bed restlessly for what feels like hours listening to your sweet boyfriend's light snores. he always falls asleep first, and fast, too. you always wonder how in the world he falls asleep so easily. his blonde hair falls across his face as his head sinks into his pillow. he looks so content. you almost decide to leave him alone, but his voice echoes in your mind: "wake me up if you can't sleep, okay?"

"armin..." you whisper, softly shaking him.

"hmph?" he replies groggily, he's definitely still sleeping.

you think to yourself: "maybe i should just let him sleep..."

he starts shifting, slowly sitting up. sleep is very much still on his face, but he looks as dreamy as always.

"can't sleep?" he asks softly, rubbing his eyes.

"yeah... sorry for waking you. i feel bad." you whisper back.

"don't worry about it, i'm up now." he brushes a strand of hair out of your face. you smile softly at him.

"nothing better to wake up to than you, pretty girl."

you blush profusely. everytime he calls you that it makes you feel some type of way. many ways, in truth, but the sound of his sleepy voice just made your heart flutter. you laugh softly and start to feel your skin grow warm. he often leaves you speechless, which he finds adorable.

"you know..." he started.

oh, armin and his knowledge of many, random things. you have absolutely no idea what he's about to say next, until you feel his warm hand gently stroking your thigh.

"some research shows that having sex before bed may help you sleep better."

you scoff and roll your eyes playfully, thinking he's making that up for sure. he chuckles, obviously aware of your disbelief. he now has an objective in mind: to make you fall asleep.

"what?" he leans in closer, whispering in your ear. "don't believe me?" he gently takes your earlobe between his teeth, biting softly. the feeling sends a chill throughout your body. you let out a soft sigh and close your eyes as he plants soft kisses down your neck.

"there's no harm in trying, right?" he asks quietly as his fingertips softly stroke your inner thigh, eliciting a small moan from you. he smirks at the sound. he gently cups your face with his other hand and kisses your lips softly. you feel yourself getting wet as his fingertips travel closer to your core. there's no mistaking that he can get you going easily. he knows it, too. before you know it, he's hovering above you, your faces just inches apart, his fingertips tracing where your panties hug your hips.

he looks you in your eyes as he moves his fingers painfully slowly inside your underwear, rubbing your slit vertically, collecting your slick on his middle finger. he smirks once more, knowing (and loving) exactly how to make you putty in his hands. he removes his hand away from your slit, holding up his slender, wet finger. "look at that, my pretty girl is so wet already..." he pops the finger in his mouth, savoring the taste of you as he looks in your eyes.

"mmmh..." you moan softly, wiggling underneath him. "not yet, pretty..." he groans, palming his cock through his boxers. you watch him, getting increasingly impatient.

"please, 'min..." you whine. your hand makes it's way under his boxers, slowly stroking his shaft. he lets out a low grunt and thrusts. he loves the feeling of your soft hands around his dick. you sit up and slowly slide his boxers down his muscular thighs. the sound of his cock slapping his torso echoes through the otherwise quiet room. you lick your lips and look up at him as you take the tip of his dick between your soft lips.

"fuck, angel..." he groans as he looks at you teasing the his tip. you smirk and swirl your tongue around, never breaking eye contact. he groans again and grabs his dick, slapping it on your tongue. you slowly take his length between your lips, sucking on it like candy. he throws his head back and groans, thrusting his cock ever so slightly in your mouth.

"you look so pretty with my dick in your mouth..." he says softly, smirking down at you. this only encourages you to suck him off a little more, bobbing your head up and down all of his length and softly cupping his balls between your fingers. he inhales sharply at the sensation.

"my god, angel..." he whines, tossing his head back once more in pure pleasure. you hum against his cock, sending a chill throughout his body. this nearly sends him over the edge, enough to make him pull away from your mouth completely. he bends down to kiss you, starting at your lips and leaving a trail down your neck, chest, and torso, stopping just above your panties. he looks up and you and smirks.

"please, armin–" you sigh, desperate for him to touch you in any way. he kisses your vulva gently over your panties before sliding them down your legs. he kisses your inner thighs, slowly making his way back to your slit. you let out soft whimpers as he gets closer to your heat. he softly laps his tongue against your swollen clit. you gently grab his hair and moan.

"oh my fucking god–" you whisper, feeling his tongue glide up and down your pussy. he loves the way you react to his tongue and would stay between your legs for hours if you'd let him. he moans as he takes your clit gently between his teeth, sucking lightly on it.

he's so good at eating you out. he may even enjoy it more than you. he absolutely worships your pussy, mouthing away like he's starving. he pulls away for a moment, only long enough to tell you how good and sweet you taste. his tongue returns to your bud, licking at such a perfect pace you can't hardly stand it. you place a hand gently on the back of his head, pressing his face into your cunt a little harder, gripping his hair. he smirks and insers a slender finger into your dripping wet core, pumping in and out slowly.

"oh fuck, armin–" you moan, back arching and bucking your hips against his finger. it doesn't take long for him to add another finger, his tongue never shifting away from your clit. he fingers you faster and harder, hitting a rougher patch of your walls that sends you over the edge.

you let out a sinful moan. "gonna cum, gonna cum." but you don't. he stops everything and smirks. he rises and kisses your lips, making you taste yourself. "not yet, angel. want you to cum on my dick." he says in a low voice. you groan but you know it won't take too long for both of you to finish.

he slaps the tip of his cock against your clit, eliciting soft moans from you. he pushes it ever so slightly against your clit before guiding it down to your entrance. he slowly pushes into you, no need for lubricant because your cunt is soaked. he groans as he feels you stretch around him. "so fucking tight, angel. you take my dick so well." his thrusts start off slow and sensual. a couple of thrusts later his middle finger finds your clit and rubs little patterns on it. "so good, 'min." is all you can muster. his pace quickens and so does his breathing. he's too focused to say anything; too busy pounding balls deep in your pussy.

you were already so close to your orgasm that it certainly doesn't take much more to push you over the edge. you feel him hitting that sweet spot in your walls thst makes you writhe and contort underneath him. you can't even offer an announcement because you're cumming here and now and there's no stopping it. your pussy tightens around his cock as he slams into you, making a pornographic moan slip from his throat. "fuck yeah babygirl... cum all over my dick. just like that."

he slows his thrusts down so not to cum right away. "where do you want this cum, princess?" he asks through grunts and gritted teeth. he's so polite to ask, but there's only one answer right now. "inside me." you say breathily. a devilish grin spreads across his face and he starts thrusting is cock into you a little harder now that he knows where to cum.

"beg for it, angel. tell me how badly you want me to cum inside your pussy." yes sir! he's so fucking close and you know exactly what to say to get him there. "please 'min, my pussy is soaking and ready for your cum. i need my cunt to be filled with your cum." your begs and pleads earn a curse from under his breath. his eyes roll and his head leans backwards as his dick twitches, his cum spurting deep inside your pussy.

he eventually pulls out to lay beside you, softly stroking your hair. he's beaming at you, so very in love with you. "how you feeling, angel? think you can sleep now?" he asks sweetly. you smile and nod. "yeah, i think so." you cuddle him close, laying your head on his chest. he continues to run his fingers through your hair as he watches your eyes slowly blink shut. he places a soft kiss on your forehead and whispers: "sweet dreams, mon ange."

[ackermans-freedom-inc]

sorry if this is lame buttt a puzzle date with armin? or maybe just a bunch of different puzzle stuff Like word search, or crosswords and stuff maybe we get a little competitive and what not Sorry if this is too lame tho yikes

Y'ALL. *toots horn* I just wanna say that I have a special guest who VERY VERY kindly wrote this prompt! I hope the original requester doesn't mind! You are in for a TREAT bc @anlian-aishang is a genius with a very wrinkly brain. I on the other hand, am HORRIBLE at puzzles bc I am too impatient @@ so I apologize for failing you, dear anon who requested this date. BUT WTHOUT FURTHER ADO. Please enjoy.

tags: Armin x reader, fluff, food mention, modern AU!

Written by @anlian-aishang <3

Puzzle my Heart

Two busy students you both were. Study jams this night. Extracurriculars that night. Lives that were overtaken by school - and you supposed it made perfect sense - that college was where you found each other. Midterms brought you both to the library, to that same fated table where only textbooks separated you. Ever since then, as your grades thrived, your relationship did as well. A campus made the background to your love story.

But it was now winter break. And suddenly, the grind had screeched to a halt - not in your relationship, but in activity. Staying in pajamas all day, no need to leave the house, television droning on until nightfall when you would go to bed and do it all again. At first, the reprieve was nice, but after this many days - it was almost boring?

Armin strove to change that today. Leather knapsack slung over his shoulder, box of chocolates in one hand, knocking on your door with the other. Jolted up from your nap, you ran to the door, flannel pants ruffled with your jog, slippers sifting on the wooden floor.

“A-Armin!?” You stammered, “You - You...? What are you doing here?”

At your frenzy, he chuckled. “Nice to see you too.” Stepping into your place, knocking his shoes of snow, his gaze kindred, “Sorry for showing up unannounced, I just realized, it’s been far too long since we’ve had a date.”

“B-But, you were over yesterday?” We watched reruns and ordered delivery, didn’t we? Err… Was that yesterday?

“Yeah, well…” Armin brought his hand to his nape and displayed a bashful grin, “I was thinking about it, and I think that - to qualify as a date - I am required to change out of my sweats and run a comb through my hair at least.”

A hand on your hip, brows knit, you teased, “And you didn’t think to text me?”

Armin gave a mild, knowing smile, “There was no need.”

Lips parted but speechless. Hands curled to your old wrinkled t-shirt and looked to him, embarrassed, Does that mean I need to change out of my sweats and run a comb through my hair?

Blue eyes glimmered. Like I said, “No need.”

You did anyways.

And it was only your apartment, only a random Sunday, but he had been right: for the first time in a long time, you were on a date again. Chocolates and crosswords. Record player and word searches. Not only doing your best to make a good time, but an added level of competition as you also aimed to beat the other. Using your minds as actively as you had for all the previous semesters you spent together.

Just like your brain felt that familiar feeling, you realized your heart did too. Golden locks shimmering in the sun. Slender fingers and a particular hold of his pencil. Eyes narrowed and attention deliberate on the puzzles in front of him, every so often, they would sneak a peek at you.

And just like you, he felt his heart aflutter, its pace racing again. The rapid descent of your gaze down the page, curiosity brimming. The love of learning. The thrill of studying a page. He felt it within - how he had really found someone who saw the world the way he did. Finally, there was someone that enjoyed his company as much as he did theirs. At last, found someone who could make the hours pass like minutes.

“We should do this again!” You snapped your gaze to him, enthusiasm sparkling in your eyes, “Armin! What do you think? Tomorrow?”

Armin nodded, gleaming, Today and tomorrow and forever after that.

[folklorelise]

It is now Levi’s turn to turn into a baby!

MASTERLIST

Three different ideas I had to write!

-          Levi as a teen (physically, after Kenny) but still with his adult mind

Levi had to work late as usual, so it was not uncommon for you to go to bed alone. What was more unusual for you was to wake up alone. You dressed up and looked around Levi’s office, but he was not there. Someone knocked on the door and the door opened on Erwin.

“Hey,” Erwin greeted you, “mh, we got a little issue over there, in my office.”

You followed the commander back to his office and found Hange there with a little boy.

“Who’s that?” you asked Erwin.

“You can turn around you know.” Erwin said to that boy.

You could only gasp when you saw him – he looked just like Levi.

“Is that…?” you whispered to Erwin.

“Yes.”

“I can hear you.” Levi said.

“How did that happen?” you wondered.

“We don’t know, probably my fault though.” Hange admitted.

“What now? What do we do?” Levi asked. “I can’t work like this. Why are you smiling like this?” Levi glared at you.

“You’re so adorable.” you cheered, “I’ll take care of your work don’t worry.”

“Maybe you should stay with Y/N, you know until you go back to normal.” Erwin suggested.

Once the both of you were back in his office, you sat at his desk with Levi on his desk.

“Don’t mess my paperwork.”

“You know,” you started, “it is really difficult to take you seriously like this.”

“Start working instead of staring at me like this.”

You were working on his paperwork while he was checking your work in case you were making any mistakes. When it was time to eat, Levi refused to go to the mess hall because he did not want anyone to see him like this.

“You could bring the food here. I’ll wait for you, now go.”

In the mess hall you took two trays and put food on it, but you were obviously struggling to take he both with you.

“Squad Leader Y/N?” Jean asked, “do you need help?” he proposed happily.

“Yes, just help me bring these to the captain’s door please.”

Jean took one of the trays and you both walked to Levi’s office.

“I’ll take this,” you took Levi’s tray in your other hand, “can you just open the door please?”

Jean nodded and opened the door for you and gasped loudly – he saw Levi, a mini version of the captain. Before Levi could say anything, Jean run away apologising for intruding.

“I told you to come alone!” Levi complained

“Eat your food, I’m sure he didn’t see anything. I mean… you’re just as shor–.”

“Don’t even dare to finish that.” Levi cut you.

Jean on the other side never run that fast. He found his friends, out of breath.

“What happened?” Armin asked.

“I- I think the captain and squad leader Y/N,” Jean stuttered, “I think they have a secret child together!”

“What?” Eren questioned him.

“I just saw the captain’s replica in their office. A mini captain! It has to be their child.” Jean explained.

They spent the whole afternoon trying to catch a glimpse of secret child, but none of you left the office.

“Maybe we could climb that big tree over there,” Eren pointed a tree not too far from Levi’s office, “and try to see them from their window.”

They all climbed on the tree but neither of you were in Levi’s office.

“Where are they?” Reiner wondered.

“Oh look!” Eren shouted, “they’re here!”

“Ooh.” they all said at the same time when they saw the captain.

“I can’t believe it.” Mikasa voiced speechless.

Very soon, the whole survey corps knew about that supposedly child. Rumours were flying as fast as Levi when he spots a titan. For dinner, Levi told you to eat with Hange and to bring him food once you were coming back to which you agreed to. Hange and you walked together to the mess hall.

“Did you hear what they’re all saying?” Hange asked.

“Who? About what?”

“Riight, you spent the whole day with Levi. I don’t know why but they’re all saying that tiny Levi is your secret child with the captain.”

“WHAT! Oh no! Wh– No, no, no!” you cried, “this is a nightmare. Although, it is just a rumour, right? No one actually saw Le–,” you paused, “Oh noo, Jean did. “

“What now?” Hange asked you.

“I don’t know. Hange, what do I do?”

“It’s just a silly rumour. One person saw him and the rest of them did not. It’s fine.” Hange reassured you.

When you walked in the mess hall, everyone was staring at you. Hange had to push you to your table because you were just standing there.

“Y/N,” Erwin said, “I can say something if you feel uncomfortable.”

“I– it’s mh… I don’t know.” you responded staring at them. Hearing all of them whispering between them.

Erwin stood up and everyone, naturally, stopped talking. Erwin wanted to tell them that what they heard was not true, but he did not know how. Hange stoop up and looked at Erwin with a look that said, ‘I got this��.

“Y/N does not have a secret child with the captain!” Hange simply said before going back to eat their meal.

That made them stop talking for the night, but they were not convinced by it. They wanted it to be true because who does not like drama. When you went back to Levi, you told him what was happening.

“A secret child?” Levi asked astonished.

“What do we do?”

“What do you want to do?”

“Tell them that you’re actually the captain, not our child. It’s not like this never happened before, and I’m sure this won’t be the last time either.”

“Fine.” Levi agreed after seeing you all panicked about this. “I didn’t know having a child with me was such a repulsive idea.” Levi said before leaving for his room.

“What? No!” you protested, flowing him. “It’s not! I just didn’t want you to feel uncomfortable about this.”

“Right.”

“It’s going to be weird to say this to a kid, but I love you Levi!” you smiled. “Don’t even think about me not liking the idea of having a child with you. Now let’s continue this conversation once you grew back because this is getting uncomfortable.”

-          Levi as a baby before his mother’s death

The next day, you went to Levi’s room expecting an adult Levi, but you only found an even tinier silhouette than before. He woke up confused and stared at you.

“Hey,” you said, “do you know who I am?���

He shook his head no and rolled up in the blanket. You slowly walked up to him and smiled.

“What’s your name?”

“Levi.” he answered, “you?”

“I’m Y/N.” you smiled.

“Where’s my mom?”

“Oh. She is… she is working. I’ll take care of you in the meantime.”

“Ok.” Levi smiled a little before rolling himself up in the blanket even more.

“Are you cold? Or hungry?”

He did not answer you and just stared at you.

“Mom said we don’t have enough money for food. Where am I?” Levi looked around suddenly scared. “I don’t have any money. Please.” he then started to cry.

“Hey, it’s fine, you’re safe here.” you told Levi. “I know your mother.” but Levi continued to sob, “Her name Kuchel right? She– She has black hair like you and she’s beautiful, just like you.”

Levi stopped crying and stared at you, wiping his tears away with his shirt. He was in his adult size tee-shirt.

“I’m hungry. Does my mom have to pay for it later?” Levi asked you shyly.

“No, it’s free here.” you picked him up and hugged him tightly, “let’s go grab some food okay?”

He nodded and put his arms around your neck and rested his head on yours. Everyone already finished eating by the time you arrived, so you directly went to the kitchen. You took a piece of bread and gave it to him.

“I’m going to prepare some soup for you okay?” you put him down and he sat down eating his bread. “Do you want some water?” you offered once the soup was cooking.

You gave him a glass of water and he smiled at you.

“Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.”

He ate his soup.

“You should eat slower; you’re spilling the soup everywhere.”

“Sorry.”

“It’s fine.”

“WHO’S THAT!” Hange yelled.

Levi run under the table and hugged your leg scared.

“It’s Levi.” you told Hange.

“Hi!” Hanged greeted Levi smiling which only made him hug you tighter.

“You’re scaring him.” you said.

“Oh. Well, I’m leaving, just wanted to check up on you.”

“Finish your soup now.” You told Levi once Hange left. “Come here.”

You took Levi and put him on your leg and started to feed him. Once he finished his food, you went to his office. You started to work on some of his paperwork and Levi would just sit beside you silently. You wondered what he used to do during the day.

“Levi.”

“Mh?”

“What do you want do? What do you usually do?”

“I help my mom clean sometimes.”

“Do you want to clean?”

“No.”

That was a first coming from Levi. For the whole day Levi just sat there silently. At some point his head rested on your leg because he fell asleep. You took him and put him on the couch with a blanket. You sat beside him and started to work again. Levi was peacefully sleeping with his head resting on your thigh. At night, Erwin went by because Hange told him what happened to Levi.

“He’s adorable.” Erwin said once he saw Levi sleeping.

“I know right!” you said cheerfully.

Levi woke up because you moved. He stared at Erwin smiling and pointed a finger at him.

“Big.” Levi said smiling.

“Yes I am.” Erwin said picking him up. “Let’s all go eat alright?”

Cadets were constantly coming to your table to hug Levi. No one knew it was their captain and no one knew where he came from, but they were all smitten by him. Levi did not mind the attention and smiled at everyone.

Levi was getting tired of talking to people, so he came to you and put his arms around you.

“I want to go home to mommy please.” Levi told you.

“Okay.” you whispered. “Let’s go home.”

You grabbed your coat and took Levi with you and left the survey corps headquarters. You walked around a bit outside until Levi fell asleep again. Then you went back home with him. You put him to bed and lay down with him.

-          Levi as a baby after his mother’s death (before Kenny)

Once you woke up, no one was around you. You got up and found Levi sitting in a corner of the room, curled up on himself. He was skinnier than before, and his hair was longer too. You did not know what to do.

“Levi?”

He looked up at you and hold himself closer than before.

“Do you remember me?” you asked him cautiously. You did not know how his mind was working after all these changes, so you wanted to make sure.

“Y/N?”

“Yes, that’s me.”

“My mom. She’s dead.”

“Oh.” you did not know what else to say. “Mh– I’m sorry.”

Levi then stood up and went straight where you were and hugged you. You had no idea what Levi went through, you knew he used to live in the underground and that his mom died when he was younger. But you had no idea how little food he had to be this skinny. You remembered when he still remembered who he was, he had so many cuts and injuries everywhere.

“Why are you crying?” Levi asked you.

“I– I’m not.” you said wiping your tears away. “Let’s go found you some decent clothes and then we’ll find Hange okay?”

You gave him some of his clothes that were too big for him, but he did not protest. Then you went directly to Hange’s office and opened the door.

“What do we have to do to bring adult Levi back?” you asked your friend.

“I don’t know, I don’t even know why it happened in the first place. I’m sorry.” Hange explained. “Are you okay?”

“Yeah, well I guess I’ll let you get back to work then.”

“No stay! Levi can help if he wants.”

You looked at him, but he stayed close to you still holding your hand. He shook his head and reached out his arms so you would pick him up.

“Aren’t you too old for this?” Hange asked which made Levi blush.

“Hange!” you scolded them.

“Sorry! What I meant was… mh – I’ll get back to work now.”

You started to help Hange working while Levi just stood there looking at you both working. He tried not to move too much because he did not want to bother you. He sat on a chair and waited for you to be over so you would bring him to eat something. But neither Hange nor you seemed to be hungry. After a few hours of doing nothing, Levi started to get bored and wandered around Hange’s office/lab. Without doing it on purpose, he stumbled across a box and fell over a cupboard.

“Levi! Are you okay?” you ran towards him worried.

He hit his hard so hard that he passed out.

“I’m bringing him to the infirmary.” you told Hange.

The nurse told you to get him some rest and if he had any more problems once he woke up, then you should come back. You took him to bed and left to work in his office. You went to eat when you noticed that it was already dark outside. You ate at your usual table with Erwin, Hange and Mike with their respective squads. You did not forget to get some food for Levi and went back to his office. When you opened the door, Levi was at his desk, back to normal.

“You’re back.” you said with a smile.

“Yeah, what happened? I vaguely remember turning into a teen but then–” he was interrupted by you throwing yourself at him.

“I’m so glad you’re back,” you cried in his arms, “I saw how you–”

“It’s okay,” Levi whispered, “I’m here now.”

“You were a kid and then you kept changing and then – your mother died, and you were – you looked so tiny and fragile, it just broke my heart!” you whimpered.

“Thank you for taking care of me then.” Levi said smiling at you. “I love you.”

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meet me at our spot (2)

☞ eren jaeger x reader [fem bodied] [chapter word count: 2k]

☞ sfw, fluff, mild angst, modern au, short fic, other characters present

fic plot: before high school, you and eren were best friends. after high school, you and eren are strangers still grasping at those same past threads.

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2. something’s got ahold of me

a once-off conversation is just that - once-off. so you try to convince yourself there’s no point in dwelling on seeing eren yesterday, or dwelling on how he helped you sit back up, or how he smiled at you before he left. there’s no point. it was just a coincidence, a fluke.

eren has an entire group of friends. armin and mikasa, who you’ve shared a couple classes with and known since they were young. jean kirstein, who’s guts eren swore he hated back in the first couple days of freshman year. connie and sasha, who you know of course because of the commotion that always seems to follow them. he sees them everyday, and he only said he’d see you around as a courtesy.

you repeat this as a mantra over and over in your head, trying to distract yourself from looking up every few seconds the wind causes the leaves outside the treehouse to rustle and the small voice in your head that hopes it’s eren.

you sit cross-legged on the floorboards, pulling out more weird trinkets and drawings from years ago and placing them in a plastic bag to the side. now you know there’s not really any chance of being interrupted by eren again, of being rendered speechless when you’re just trying to get your shit and go (so why does your chest keep sinking whenever you swear that you can hear someone come up the ladder only to be met with an empty doorway?)

at some point you start to get sick of yourself, keeping your head focused on the box in your lap and shoving whatever even seems remotely yours into the plastic bag. so when you hear what distantly sounds like footsteps again, you don’t look up.

“hey,” a voice speaks, and your head lurches up from your hunched over position. it’s eren, hand on the frame of the doorway and peering into the wooden room.

“hi,” you practically squeak out. eren steps in.

“you back again?”

“yeah,” you say, “i still have…some stuff.”

you wonder if knows that’s as soon as he left yesterday you got out of here.

eren leans down and picks up the photo album from yesterday off of the floor, “you want this?”

“oh, you can keep it if you want.”

eren walks closer to you and sits down next to you. he doesn’t seem to notice you watching him carefully, “nah, i remember it was your idea, right?”

“yeah,” you hesitantly confirm, “but theyre our photographs.”

you notice eren freeze and you regret saying that because now he’s looking at you in a way…in a way that makes you feel like he only ever looks at you like that.

“this is one weird custody battle,” eren jokes before putting the photo album back down and grabbing the box in your lap.

“hey!” you exclaim, shoving his arm, “i was literally looking through that.”

“yeah,” eren offers you a shit-eating grin, “and now i am.”

“how are you still so annoying?”

“and how are you still so easy to annoy?” eren moves his face closer to yours.

you feel blood rush to your face and mumble sheepishly, “shut up.”

and with that, eren seems satisfied enough to let you balance the box halfway on his lap and the other half on yours, both of you rummaging through clutter silently as an excuse to sit for a little longer.

you hear an engine rev after eren does and only when you look at him do you realise hes stood up and is practically hanging out of the treehouse in an attempt to peer down at his drive way.

“oh,” he says, and you wonder if it’s more so to himself than to you, “it’s reiner.” it seems dumb, but you only realise he’s speaking to you when he turns back to you like he’s waiting for a response. you’re not really used to all this talking with him. like…talking personally to you and not the you that walks past him every once in a while.

“right.”

“him and a few of the others are coming over to hangout.”

“right,” you start anticipating him bidding you goodbye and climbing back down the ladder, but the goodbye never comes and he still stands over you like he’s deep in thought.

“do you…wanna come?” eren sounds out, like he’s testing out how the syllables feel on his lips.

“…what?” what the hell is he talking about?

“to hang out,” eren says carefully, eyes flicking back and forth between yours, “with us.” he adds.

with eren’s friends? you don’t want to be possessive or weirdly resentful but the first thought you have is that he’s inviting you to sit with the people that he prefers. you have to mentally slap yourself to remember that drifting away is normal, and they’re all probably really nice. and it was four fucking years ago. and you don’t stay friends with the people you knew when you were 8.

“oh…are you sure?” you ask. eren shifts from one foot to the other before taking another step towards you. the box in your lap feels like it’s slipping from your grasp.

“yeah, why not?” he says, and he must notice how he doesn’t sound very convinced of himself either when he watches your eyes droop because he’s quickly interjecting before you can say anything back, “it’ll be fun. come on.”

his hand extends out to you. you want to slap his hand away and tease him, say you don’t need his help, that you’re not an old lady, but your palm is already meeting his and you can already feel calloused fingers over your skin and him pulling you up to stand in front of him.

the short journey between the treehouse to eren’s kitchen is a blur, and saying hi to reiner and who he brought with him (bertolt, you think. as well as connie and jean) is even blurrier, because all of a sudden you find yourself seated on one of the stools in eren’s kitchen and absentmindedly listening to whatever the hell they’re talking about.

you appreciate how eren spares you a glance every once in a while, offering you a close mouthed smile like you haven’t not been in this house since you were 14.

“hey, eren,” reiners voice bellows from the front of the house and you hear him unlock the front door. the look you and eren are sharing is cut short by reiner, “armin, mikasa and sasha are here.”

“‘kay,” eren responds even though the three new visitors are already waltzing into the living room. you’re still frozen in place. you don’t even remember the last thing you said.

“guys, this is my - sasha get out of the fridge - my neigh–” eren tries to start, but sasha is suddenly barreling towards your seat at the kitchen island.

“hi! you’re in my bio class, right?!” sasha excitedly asks you, practically jumping on the spot.

“you mean she was, sasha. we’re not in high school anymore,” connie calls out from behind her. sasha rolls her eyes.

“it’s so nice to see you!”

“thanks…it’s nice to see you too.”

“you’re scaring the girl, sasha,” jean comments before deciding to grab something from the fridge himself. sasha immediately follows after him. you lock eyes with eren again and you realise he had already been watching you.

“hi,” a soft voice greets you, and suddenly mikasa is standing by your seat, “nice to see you again.”

“yeah, it’s been forever,” armin adds from beside her.

“you guys know each other too?” reiner asks from across the room, leaning on one of the kitchen counters next to eren.

“from when we were kids,” you say, flitting your eyes to eren only to find that he’s looking at you again. you want him to stop so you don’t have to focus so hard on speaking anymore, but you want him to keep doing it because it’s nice to know that he’s still knows you’re here. which sounds pathetic but, eren’s got such a big group of friends that sometimes you think it was kind of inevitable that he slowly drifted away from you.

“we all kinda knew each other before high school, reiner,” armin explains, sparing you another smile.

“you and bertolt literally transferred in halfway through freshman year, how do you not know this?” jean calls over to reiner.

“just slipped my mind i guess.”

“he was too busy trying not to be mistaken for a senior,” connie jokes. the room laughs. you try to.

“don’t you mean a security guard?” jean adds. everyone laughs again. you didn’t really spend that much time looking at the two boys when they had transferred, so the joke is kind of lost on you, but you smile along anyways.

“ha-ha, very funny,” reiner sarcastically retorts, “don’t know why you’re laughing, bertolt. think someone mistook you for someone’s dad once.” another eruption of laughter.

you really don’t wanna start feeling out of place (well, more out of place than you did before) but when everyone starts shooting jokes and comments across the room at each other, it gets harder and harder to stretch out a smile over your face at each one. and it gets harder and harder to look up and eren, to watch him laugh along with everyone or have him lock eyes with you again, until you’re all together just staring at your lap.

you think…you think it’s time for you to go.

eren stands at the corner of his kitchen, still leaning against his counter, so you carefully slip out of the stool and make your way towards him, wanting to try your utmost best to make this exchange as short as possible before you go back home.

“i think i’m gonna go,” you say to him quietly, awkwardly staring anywhere other than his face.

“hm?” eren is cut out of the lively conversation with his friends and is looking back at you, lips parted momentarily as his tries to figure out what you said. he takes a step closer towards you and your heart skips a beat, “wait–“

you cut him off, trying to get out of there before you’re reminded even more of how you just faded away from eren’s life, “thanks for inviting me.”

you quickly whisk yourself away to the front door before eren can say anything more, not trying to deal with any more of what always seems like general politeness to you. just as you’re about to step out of the front door, a hand wraps around your wrist when you let go of the door handle and you turn around to be met with eren behind you, looking just as shocked with himself are you are.

“uh…” eren’s gaze shifts between your eyes repeatedly, “is everything okay?”

you look down at his hand around your wrist and back up at him, “yeah. just tired.” you feel his grip loosen but he still doesn’t let go, and a part of you isn’t ready for him to.

“see you around?” he echoes what seems to be his catchphrase. you nod your head in a way that you know isn’t as enthusiastic as what he might like to see. he’s just being polite. today was another coincidence, another fluke, and he isn’t actually going to want to make any effort to see you again. even if you’re just next door. he hasn’t for the past four years.

“yeah,” you quietly respond, slipping your wrist out of his grasp. you can still faintly hear chatter from inside the house. eren watches as you trod down the front steps to his house and make your way back over to your own, the back of your head never turning even just for a second to look back at him.

eren doesn’t like regrets. he doesn’t like wasting time on them, he doesn’t like how they make him feel like he should be in a rush to do something that he’s not even sure of (that he can’t even take back). but as he watches you leave his house, he thinks that if there’s one thing he’d let himself regret, it’d be not realizing he’d fallen away from you before it was too late.

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edelweiss — levi ackerman.

— levi ackerman x female reader

— warnings: spoilers for season 4 and the good old aot canon-typical violence.

— summary: you pour your unsaid thoughts to levi, only to break a promise that costs you your heart.

— word count: 4.5k

The sea holds so many promises with its sea-green hue that it spreads a chilling wave through your body like the first breath of winter’s snow. The first time you had ever set eyes on such a majestic view, there was still momentary happiness lingering as your comrades splashed each other with its blue waters. It was a symbol of hope and yet it remained a mystery that prevents all of you from knowing what was beyond this thing called the horizon. You remember how you laughed in delight when Hange presented a bizarre creature on their hands, beckoning you to move closer and focus your entire attention on the small unknown thing lying on your best friend’s palms. You remember glorying under the Sun’s ever singing rays, watching them glitter against every small jostle of water at your feet. You remember turning around to face your lover with a bright smile that might have rendered him speechless — fumbling for words when the two of you face each other.

Those moments were timeless.

Minutes spent wading in the sea was the only time you had peace.

You let out a shuddering breath as you brushed your fingers against the gold band decorating your left ring finger. This is no time to be vulnerable. You were a captain for years, for heaven’s sake, even before Levi joined the Survey Corps. The younger soldiers would feel nervous if they see your unnecessary tears. Hastily wiping them from your cheeks, you turned away from the railing separating you from the dreadful vastness of blue that placed you in such a mood and placed a tentative hand on one of the rooms housing your injured husband.

Entering the small room was more stifling than the situation happening around the continent. It would mean seeing Levi in such a state that would always accumulate unshed tears in your eyes. The bandages wrapping his figure only worsened your melancholy and with every step, you pray that he wouldn’t wake up from the cringing creak of the wood paneling of the floor. The room only had one single bed and a convenient chair on the opposite side of the lone furniture. You wasted no time in lifting the chair to place it beside Levi’s bed, seating yourself with pursed lips and clenched fists. The more time you surveyed his battered body, the more your throat burned with the urge to pour out your feelings in the small confines of the room.

With the Rumbling purging the continents beyond Paradis, this was no time to be relishing in old memories. 

Yet living in those memories you shared with Levi kept you solid.

Your life wasn’t guaranteed in this last mission. There will always be a possibility that you won’t come home with the rest of the people fighting against the Rumbling and you had to make do of the short amount of time you had with Levi. But a part of you was saying that you had to survive no matter what, to make that dream of opening a tea shop in a small village possible — to give your child the freedom and childhood you had never experienced. That little ray of sunshine that came to both you and Levi in times of hopelessness a year after taking back the lost territory of the Walls. He looked like Levi that it was so hard for you to say goodbye, even if it were only missions for weeks on an unknown land. This time, you didn’t utter a single closure to your son, regret started bubbling in the abyss of your mind and stomach.

And now, you don’t know if you could ever meet with your son again.

Taking Levi’s hand as gently as possible, you took a deep breath.

“If time really was against us, I promise I wouldn’t cry. I promise I wouldn’t wait for you because I know you’ll still be the strongest soldier I have ever known. I am a mere mortal compared to you, Levi, and I fear that this dream of ours will have its last breath.”

A bitter chuckle came out of you as your grip on his hand tightened. The memories were now more vivid than usual — the time you introduced yourself to him and his friends from the Underground, the respect that blossomed between you when he knew you will be his new squad leader, the way he looked after you as your second-in-command, you recommending him in the vacant Captain spot of the Survey Corps, and you giving him a welcoming gift in his new office. Then, the images shifted to when he finally kissed you under the canopy of stars, to when he whispered words of reassurance as your bodies erased every space between you, to when you screamed in Shiganshina that you were pregnant with his child, and to when you started carrying his discovered last name along with the birth of your first son.

“The reason these thoughts tend to cloud my head at this moment was that the memories simply flashed in my mind as I stared at the ocean that I always longed for. Memories we shared that might have been fleeting yet they carry a thousand-fold of emotions coursing through every fiber of my being. Funny how every time we went out on an expedition all those years ago, you always told me to keep safe and come back with a heart that’s still beating for you. As if I would ever stop loving you and set my sights romanticizing the Titans as Hange does. I had realized that you never once accepted that my life could abruptly end with a constant war on our hands.

“Until your tired breath from lack of sleep gradually diminishes, this time, I will be the one to protect you and fight until I will let go of my own heart to sing a song worthy of you.”

“Was that a speech of farewell just now?”

Your eyes flew from your joined hands to the dulled gray irises of the keeper of your heart. Before you know it, tears continuously flowed a stream on your cheeks, your shoulders hunched as sobs racked your body. “I don’t know what came over me, must be the tension brought by the possibility of dying when we haven’t even stopped the Rumbling from erasing the rest of humanity.”

“Hey, look at me,” Levi uttered your name so softly as if he was afraid it would sadden you even more. Placing his left hand on your cheek, he wiped the cascading tear that glistened under the mellow glow of the lantern beside his bed. “You’re not going anywhere. Not when I am still alive with limbs fully intact. Well, except for the fact that I lost two of my fingers.” From that, more tears appeared in his view, flustering him in the slightest. “The point is that I will protect you. This dream with our small family will be forever ingrained in our future. You will always have me looking out for you.”

“But I’m supposed to be the one protecting you now.”

“Are you underestimating me?”

You shook your head, covering his hand with both of yours. You placed a tender kiss that you hoped radiated the unsaid thoughts that could ruin the moment you share with him right now. You wanted him to be a part of humanity’s victory against whatever crazy plan Eren has set his mind on.

“Our little boy is waiting for us to come home,” Levi reminded you after a few minutes of silence (with your occasional sniffles here and there). “Isn’t that enough reason for us to come home alive? Imagining him losing one of us was the one thing I don’t want to happen right now. Promise me.” You love the sound of your name when he says it. Akin to the flowers that seem like they hold all the jewels at the center of their petals. “Come home with me safe and sound.”

“I’m not one to keep promises, Levi, you know that.”

“Just this once,” he pleaded. “All I wanted was to have a happy ending with you, my edelweiss.”

With new tears blossoming in your eyes like flowers in spring, you gave Levi a promise that will desperately cling as long as the two of you are alive.

And he regretted making you say those words.

The battle with the Nine Titans of the past proved to be tormenting. With forces so small, the group who allied two countries at constant war with each other fought with bated breath, all eager to get out of the situation alive like no other. As hollow as your chest became after witnessing Hange sacrifice their life to let all of you escape, you steeled yourself and momentarily forgot the emptiness you felt as you landed on top of Eren’s back. You fought back a gag of disgust when you realized that the humungous creature shared similarities with those insects you loathe. However, Armin was captured by a Titan out of nowhere and everything went to absolute shit. Maneuvering in the air was perfect for the remaining members of the Survey Corps as they assessed the onslaught and ongoing appearance of their intelligent enemies on Eren’s back but their numbers continued pouring in. Two thousand years of Titan history right in front of your eyes. Everybody, Mikasa especially, was starting to feel agitated that one of their comrades was hauled away with a good number of Titans to prevent them from saving him.

“Even if I was in perfect shape,” Levi told them while they stayed perched a good kilometers away from Death, “I would still not choose to make a charge there. So calm down. Mikasa, don’t rush. Wait until I distract them.”

You glanced at him from the corner of your eyes. “Levi, don’t overexert yourself. We don’t want to lose you.”

“The feeling’s mutual. Don’t die on me.”

The rush of adrenaline started when Pieck initiated the charge, along with the thought that she had never known Eren unlike the rest of the people behind her. You screamed for her to retreat but they were futile when the Warhammer Titan materialized behind the Shifter and pierced a weapon made of hardened Titan skin through the torso of the woman’s Cart Titan. Gritting your teeth, you followed your comrades in a route specifically to rescue the new commander of the Survey Corps. Thunderspears were released every minute, maneuvers were done in utmost accuracy, and sliced napes gradually increased as your small group evaded every death-defying moment. As you were about to set your sights on one Titan in particular as well as avoid the Colossal Titan, Connie descended when the fifty-meter mass of burning flesh threw Reiner’s inert Titan at the rest of the squad, shaking the entirety of the spine you were carefully standing on. 

“Levi!” you called out desperately when you saw him cough up blood. He was only a few meters away from you and you had to take him away from there fast. However, the sudden motion of a jumping Titan made you rethink your decision, latching your hooks at somewhere near Connie and blinding the creature’s eyes with an angered shout that might have startled it. The horrible creature tried snapping at your form but you were quick enough to evade its jaws with a hiss from your ODM gear, turning in midair to slice the Titan’s nape and rendering it lifeless. Looking down for a moment to check on your blades, you saw the lone pair sitting inside either sheath of the gear. “Fuck. My gas canisters and supply are not cooperating with the situation right now.”

Looking around, you suddenly realized with a hollow chest that everything was hopeless at this point. There was no escape as every intelligent Titan known to mankind swarmed your squad, their shadows a foreboding omen on your death.

Feeling a prickling sensation at the back of your neck, you turned around and saw that the Warhammer Titan was starting to make another one of its weapons, this time, a needle-like spear forming from the hardened material at the bottom of its foot. Shouting at the top of your lungs for your friends to flee, the message only registered to them when you pushed Mikasa, who was dangling in the middle of the trajectory with a determined face, oblivious to the weapon hurtling towards your squad’s direction.

Pain was something you always described as a chain of a chemical reaction. From all the books you read while trying to keep up with the latest idea Hange had, you always marveled at how a small prick of a needle would soon creep the sensation to your entire finger. To prevent yourself from being affected by the pain, you always likened the creeping pain to a blooming blossom in your and Hange’s favorite season. It promised something anew that would grow from the initial pain that racked your body. The dizziness was another story entirely. You never had issues with iron deficiency while growing up. You were a force to be reckoned with — battle scars lining up your legs and knees from all the running and climbing you did as a part of your childhood. These dents on your body grew in numbers as the years passed by until you were granted a position in the military regiment of flying wings and anxiety-ridden adventures. You wore these battle scars proudly like any other soldier.

Then, the promise of being alive rang across your head like a beacon.

That spear caused the entire left side of your torso to be gone.

The shouts of terror and agony from your squad fell on deaf ears as you slowly plummeted to your death. Ah, so that was why you were having flashbacks of your life from gazing at the ocean a final time. Glassy eyes stared lifelessly at the steaming sky as a single voice screamed your name nearly made you smile. You can finally let go of those long, never-ending days now. There won’t be nightmares plaguing you every other night as you finally succumbed to your last sleep. Selfish as it may, you were at peace once again.

“[Name]!”

And when you opened your eyes, a familiar face appeared to greet you and everything felt like a dream you just experienced from a drunken daze.

“Hi, I hope that wasn’t a bad dream.”

You blinked away the drowsiness that fell upon your eyelids, staring at a familiar landscape you only saw in daydreams. The clean air reminded you of the good old days, of summers left uncherished and autumn with its red leaves and yellow treats. There weren’t any Titans looming at every corner of the space and you slightly felt relieved at the thought until a single tear ran down your cheek like a chill in the winter air. 

“Don’t cry.” A slightly panicked tone that only deepened the cut you felt in your chest. “You’re safe here.”

Those words only fuelled your cries. Palms covering your mouth, you uttered the name of the person who would pull you from the inner workings of your mind and bring you back to the surface. You never knew how much you missed them until you wrapped your arms around their shoulders, pulling them in an embrace that you should’ve done before they said their farewells, face taut with determination to stop Eren.

"Hange.”

They smelled like home. Of baked bread during late-night trysts in the kitchens to make them eat after a week of slaving inside their laboratory, of hot chocolate from the marketplace, of scented shampoo from the baths you had to force them. Your grip tightened when you felt their gentle hands reciprocate the hug you showered on them.

“I can’t believe you’re here waiting for me.”

“You did well.” A call of your name snapped you from reuniting with your best friend.

“Erwin?”

A warm smile lifted the said man’s lips as he kneeled beside you and Hange, who was now trying so hard not to cry. “You fought beautifully, [Name], and I’m so glad to see your smile again.”

The overwhelming emotions made you laugh brilliantly in the vast meadow where the veterans once had their picnic. Then, an image of a man with ebony locks and loving steel eyes and a toddler with an uncanny similarity as him made you stop breathing. The tea shop you promised your husband would have. The perfect childhood your son would’ve enjoyed. “What about Caelum? Levi?”

Erwin placed a firm hand on your shoulder. There you realized your torso was still intact. “You will see them as many times as you want. Come,” he took your hand and pulled you up, “the others are waiting. It’s your time to tell your story now.”

“I bet it was interesting since I never got to see it,” Hange interjected, wrapping a nostalgic arm around your shoulders. “That blasted Eren! I will haunt him in his sleep if he survived that massacre he started!”

-

Sleep was never Levi’s friend growing up. It was a realm that he chose not to venture at certain nights, afraid of the demons lurking at every corner of his tunnel vision. There was a time that sleep was kind to him. It took the form of a beautiful sprite with gentle fingers; coaxing him, tugging affectionately on his black locks, and humming lullabies that will guarantee him a good night’s sleep after a tiring day of having responsibilities. Only there was no fairy to lull him to sleep this time around. The nightmare was always the same — it started as any other random memory stored in the kept jar inside his chest, turning the whole scenario in a crescendo until he saw the limp body of his wife dropping lifelessly, the wire of her gear snapping from the impact of a white spear. His wife had the same face as the fairy who he held every night while being in the Survey Corps. The wife who gave him the light of his life, who was sleeping soundly beside him on the bed; black hair tousled, puffy cheeks blabbering drowsy nonsense, and chubby fists clenching on the thick sheets.

Glancing at the child on the bed, Levi ran an agitated hand through his hair, tugging at the roots as hard as he could. His mind flittered to the dream he just had, shocked that no blood and corpses were waiting at the end. Levi doesn’t know if he should be grateful or spooked at the sudden change of his unconscious.

“Guess you won’t be calling me ‘Captain’ anymore, huh, Levi?”

A playful jab colored Levi’s new office. It was a new change from that stuffy bedroom he got back when he was still the second-in-command of the woman standing in the middle of his office as if it was a new wonderland fit for admiring. The room was nothing much. It was an old storage room, which ticked Levi off to many tomorrows, spending every free time polishing the wooden cabinets and bookshelves until they reflected his face. There was an adjoining door to the right of his desk, showing his new sleeping quarters — equipped with a bed, housing double the pillows he got a while back and a soft mattress that his spine was grateful for. Now, the black-haired man observed how [Name]’s face lit up when their eyes met, igniting a foreign feeling inside his stomach and chest.

“So what’s second on the agenda, Captain Levi? I deduced that cleaning is the first one and you finished that without a hitch. You should’ve told me you needed help, I can always spare a few minutes taking a break from paperwork.”

Levi snorted at how smooth the title and his name sounded with the woman’s voice. “Finding brats to place on my squad.” As he fidgeted with the stacks of papers on top of his desk, his gray gaze kept glancing at [Name], who was now sidling up on his bookshelf, occasionally commenting that they pay a visit to the marketplace downtown for some good books to add in his collection. (“Your taste is bland, Levi, spice them up, for fuck’s sake,” to which the man brushed off.) “Uh, if you don’t mind, you can help me with finding some good soldiers for my squad.”

[Eye color] irises immediately snapped to meet his, causing Levi to clear his throat to ease the nervousness that started to chill his spine. It was as if he didn’t spend the past year under her leadership, which amounted to more moments spent with just the two of them. This, however, the nervousness he felt, was uncalled for. The cause being the woman with the unbound hair, curling at the bottom from the hours she pinned it in a bun, and a resolve that rivaled that of a stoked fire shining through her eyes. Truly worthy of the title ‘Humanity’s Beacon’, being one of the few women to ever prove themselves by slaying titans and conditioning their bodies and mind to achieve such an accomplishment. Levi found himself continuously staring at [Name] with the most blatant awe his stoic face could muster. He realized something that might have crossed his mind a couple of times they were together.

[Name] [Last Name] was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.

“Finding good soldiers?” [Name] hummed, oblivious at the fact that she took the black-haired man’s breath away with a glance. “I think I have some cadets in mind.” Then, she clapped her hands. “But before that, I would like to give you your welcoming present!”

“Welcoming,” Levi trailed off, “present?”

[Name] nodded, turning around to the long couch pushed against the wall. So that’s what that poor excuse of wrapping paper was for, Levi thought. Like a little kid presenting the parent their shitty drawing, [Name] placed the gift in the middle of his desk with a clang. Wait, clang? “I hope I didn’t break it,” the female captain murmured, scratching her head sheepishly. “You can open it now.”

Levi tentatively unwrapped the brown paper around the supposed gift the woman gave him. Upon seeing what was nestled inside the papers, gray eyes met the most tantalizing [eye color] as he slightly gaped in disbelief. “You bought me a,” an eager nod could be seen from the woman in his peripheral vision, “a tea set. And a new jar of tea leaves as well. [Name], I-I couldn’t accept this, this must cost a lot. You know I have plans of buying my own tea set and tea leaves once I have a solid paycheck. These are even made from the highest quality, both of these, how—?”

Laughter bubbled from [Name] as she endearingly stared at the flustered state of her friend, abruptly stopping his chatter. “You’re rambling, Levi. Don’t worry about the lost money, we will be getting our paychecks next month anyway. I don’t have anything to splurge the rest of my savings on, except for a few books and quills. Besides,” she paused to give Levi a brilliant smile that once again rendered him speechless, “I guess giving you these are worth every single penny. Congratulations on being captain, Levi.”

Clearing his throat, he looked away. “Tch, you’re the one who recommended me to Erwin, stop with the congratulations as if you don’t know the promotion.”

“Still stingy, I see. So about those cadets you wanted to recruit. Here, I recommend these people.”

A small weight knocked Levi out of his stupor, silver-gray matching his stare with worried eyes. Small hands plopped on either side of the man’s face, squishing his cheeks as the hunched smaller figure on his lap pouted with furrowed eyebrows. “Dad, did you have a nightmare?” Letting out a sigh, Levi took his son’s hands from his face and proceeded to hug him close. The little boy sensed that his father was in a sad mood because of the man’s tense shoulders so he determinedly patted Levi’s head. “There, there, Dad. It’s more than okay to forget that dream.”

“You know I wouldn’t dare forget your Mom, kid,” Levi murmured, leaning back to look at Caelum with a raised eyebrow.

“You were dreaming about Mom?”

“Yeah.”

Great, his kid inherited his insomniac tendencies. If [Name] would see him now, there would be no doubt she will initiate a late-night tea party with Caelum. The kid also inherited his love for tea (Levi lets him drink fruit teas in the meantime) which is more than fine.

Caelum ducked down, pouting while fiddling with his father’s shirt. “I miss Mom.”

A sad smile pulled on Levi’s lips. “Me, too, kid. Me, too.” He brushed his lips on Caelum’s forehead (which lead to a small whine from the toddler, saying that he’s a big boy and he doesn’t want kisses from his dad) before lying down on the bed, with his son on top of his chest. “Deal with the kisses. Let’s sleep, yeah? Are you sleepy, kid?”

The little boy yawned and rubbed his eye. “Nope.”

Levi snorted. “Well, no shit.”

“That’s a bad word. Mom wouldn’t like you saying it.” Silence enveloped the two until, “Hey, Dad, can you tell me stories about Mom?”

“Go to sleep, brat.” A pause. “She is—,” Levi sighed, “quite a handful, even when she was a captain.”

Caelum huffed. “I already know that. You always complain about it.”

“Well, did I tell you about that time she stood on top of a Titan we were planning to capture, leading it like a horse to our trap?”

The dark-haired boy shook his head adorably. “Did Mom get hurt?”

“That idiot did.”

“That’s not a very nice thing to say about Mom!”

“Setting that aside, your Mom…”

Telling stories of [Name] always proved to be quite a time-consuming thing as the toddler fought against his drooping eyelids. Levi fondly stared at the only memory his wife left behind, his hand soothingly rubbed the boy’s back as their breaths turned into a rhythmic melody synced with each other. “I love you, kid. I know your mom will be proud of you. We’ll always be here for you, our edelweiss.”

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To you, glowing with the suns,

There was no one alive to tell the tale of how the world almost came to an end, how earthquakes rumbled, how hopes were extinguished. There was no one alive to tell the story of how much I dedicate my heart to you. If I’d known it would be this way; I would have written thousands of paragraphs with the way I looked at you as if you were the sea, I would have written the ending with words that rivaled the infinite stars in the cosmos, and I would have finished it off with happiness that we (you) deserve. 

You are my prologue, my epilogue, and every chapter and page in between.

From a tired soldier who loves you until we become ancient,

Your Levi

[connieslover]

the librarian and the princess

༄ؘ fem! princess reader, librarian armin

༄ؘ royal au, fluff

(play this song for the best ~ vibes ~) also if this does well ill consider doing an eren ver tehee

✧˖*°࿐ in which you are a princess and armin is head over heels for you. 

armin was your average librarian (with way above average looks). he was a male with short blonde hair and bangs that reached his eyebrows. his large ocean blue eyes and small pointed nose made up his young boyish features.

ever since he was a child, he had a fascination with the ocean and the world. this curiosity lead to him becoming interested in books. before he knew it, he was in love with the world of reading. it was his getaway from reality. 

the woody earthy smell enveloped armin as he entered the library with a small smile on his face. he made his way over to the counter and looked through the list of books that were borrowed. 

after greeting a few regular visitors, helping some children to look for a book and dusting the shelves, he remembered the large pile of returned books. he sighed before deciding to go organise them back into their spots.

as he slid a book into a shelf, the bell of the library rang, indicating that someone has entered. 

“welcome!” he greeted, eyes moving from the book in his hands and towards the figure at the entrance of the library.

the figure wore a dainty plain coloured dress that fitted her nicely. a few locks of her hair peeked out of the green cloak she was wearing. her fingers pulled down her hood, revealing her face. her reddish lips were slightly open as her dazzling eyes gazed upon the library with such astonishment until it paused at him.

with fluster, the books in armin’s free hand slid out, causing them to fall onto the floor with many thumps. his cheeks reddened in embarrassment and he quickly bent down to pick them up. as he clumsily picked up the books, his and the figure’s hands grazed upon each other. he looked up and felt like his breath was taken away for the second time.

his eyes was met with her e/c orbs.

“oh! here,” she quickly grabbed the book and handed it over to armin who simply nodded as a thanks. she stood up from the ground and patted her hands on her dress.

armin was still speechless.

“this library... it’s very astonishing...wait no! it’s enchanting,” she marvelled, looking around.

“t-thank you,” armin sheepishly thanked. 

the book that armin held caught her sight. 

“i love that book!” she beamed, “the little mermaid was my favourite story when i was a child. well it was one of my favourites but anyways isn’t it romantic how ariel traded her legs for the prince? it was kind of stupid of her to do so but it was still romantic,” she rambled, her eyes gleaming as she did so. armin could only give a small giggle.

“i’m y/n by the way. what about you?” she introduced herself, reaching a hand out to the male. armin’s eyes darted towards her and her hand.

‘y/n? that name sounds...familiar,’

“armin arlert. i take care of the library,” he introduced himself, shaking her smaller hands.

you gave him a smile, “nice to meet you, armin. perhaps you could show me around the library?”

armin nodded almost too enthusiastically. you giggled at the way he almost dropped the books in his hands in excitement.  

as armin continued to give a tour of the library he loved dearly, you asked him a few questions regarding the library and the books. armin admired your interest and how your eyes sparkled whenever you spoke about the books. it was the first time he felt so excited to talk to someone who had the same interest as he did.

“where i live, my library books are all just about history, politics and more lame stuff. whereas here...there’s so much more genres that i can explore! it’s so fascinating,” you gleamed, your hands outstretching as you speak. 

“w-well you can borrow as many books as you want,” spoke armin, fiddling with his fingers.

your eyes grew wider, “really? thank you so much armin!”

after picking up a few interesting looking books, you gazed at the clock on the wall and gasped. 

“oh my, i have to go back soon. but i’ll make sure to come back here tomorrow!” you wore your hood again and gave a thankful smile to armin who returned it.

“i’ll see you tomorrow then,”

the male couldn’t sleep that night. he was spent all night thinking about the beautiful stranger he befriended.

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and so, a week passed by. a week of you visiting the library, exchanging conversations with armin about your day or the most random things or about the books you’ve read. 

and a week of armin slowly falling in love with you.

armin constantly looked at the clock, feet tapping against the wooden floor. once he heard the bell ring, a delighted smile made its way on his lips. 

“hi armin! i finished the book you recommended to me yesterday. i didn’t expect the plot twist at all. jane’s character development was something else. this might be one of my favourite books now. oh! not to mention the part where mark-” your cheeks turned pink, feeling embarrassed that you were rambling for too long.

“i-uh sorry for rambling. but i really loved the book!” 

“it’s fine. i like listening to your rambling,” armin chuckled. and he wasn’t lying. he really did like listening to your rambling. something about the way your eyes would light up, the way your hands would move animatedly as you spoke and the little sound effects you’d make to add depth into your story was all utterly adorable to him. 

you placed your elbow onto the counter and leaned against your palm, letting out a sigh,

“i wish i could stay here the whole day. this library...is the only place i can escape reality. it’s so calm and comforting,”

armin nodded to your words, agreeing. before he could speak you stood up straight again.

“well, i’ll be searching for more books now,” you did a twirl and excitedly skipped towards the many rows of books, humming delightfully.

armin looked at you with such fondness with his eyes that he didn’t even hear the bell ring.

“could that be the lady you are so in love with?” startled, armin let out a squeal, dropping the pen he had in his hand. his cheeks flushed red as he picked it up.

“e-eren, mikasa, when did you guys come?” he squeaked, hiding his reddened face behind a book.

“just now. but you were too busy staring at the girl,” the pale black haired female responded.

“soooo aren’t you going to introduce us to her?” eren raised a brow, staring at the female who was looking through the books on the shelves.

“fine,” 

as you were reading the blurb of a book, you felt a tap on your shoulder. you turned your head around, greeted with armin and two figures behind him. at the sight of your face, eren gasped loudly,

“p-princess y/n?” 

armin’s eyes nearly bulged out of its sockets.

that explained why you had such a short curfew. why you always wore the green cape. why you were very cautious and why you had this some sort of royal elegance radiating from you.

eren and mikasa had their heads bowed, startled, armin followed suit before jumping to his feet.

“oh my goodness forgive me! i didn’t know that you were a princess y-your majesty,” armin fretted, bowing once again. 

the tips of your ears grew pink in embarrassment and you ushered armin to stand straight.

“i’m sorry for not telling you...this is the only place where i really feel like myself you know? and you...you’re my first friend outside of the castle. i didn’t want you to treat me like i’m...a royal,” you apologised, fiddling with your fingers.

“it’s alright. i should’ve known you were royalty when you introduced yourself, your highness,”

you gave out a laugh, “you don’t have to call me your highness. that counts for the two of you too. y/n is fine. anyways, you were introducing me to your friends?”

"this is eren,” armin introduced a brunette male who was the opposite of armin. he had a more mature face, accompanied with a muscular build. his brunette hair reached past his ears and down onto his neck. he was quite attractive.

“and she is mikasa,” the pale skinned woman with enchanting grey eyes and short black hair simply nodded at you.

“nice to meet you, y/n.” eren stepped forward and took your hand, kissing it lightly. he straightened his back, “armin has told us a lot about you,”

a rosy pink covered his cheeks and nose.

you simple giggled, raising a brow to armin, “oh really?”

"you shouldn’t tease him eren,” scolded the female.

your eyes glanced at the clock, realising it was your curfew. 

“it was nice meeting you, eren and mikasa. i hope we can meet again! i have to go soon,” you placed your hood back on and before you stepped out the library, you turned your heel, waving the book in your hand, “i’ll be borrowing this book! thanks armin,”

“so, whats your plan on charming the princess?”

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you didn’t come the next day.

or the next.

and the next.

hundreds of questions ran through armin’s mind. he was worried that your parents had discovered that you were sneaking out of the caslte when you weren’t supposed to. asides from feeling worried, he felt gloomy. gloomy that your bright and cheerful presence wasn’t here to make his day better.

“what am i thinking? she probably won’t visit the library ever again...i should’ve told her i liked her...no...she probably doesn’t even like me that way. besides, a princess like her...deserves someone whose worth more than a librarian.” muttered the boy to himself as he dusted the shelves.

the bell rang.

“welcome,” he greeted, already knowing that the person he was looking forward to wasn’t the one standing by the door.

well, that was what he thought. 

the blonde male turned around and to his surprise you were there. you had a smile on your face, your upper body leaning towards him. the close proximity startled the poor boy, making him fall onto the floor.

his mumbled an ow as you chuckled, a hand reaching out to help him out from the ground. 

“w-where did you go? did your parents find out? are you okay?” blurted armin, his doe eyes blinking rapidly.

“i’m fine armin. sorry for not visiting the library for the past few days. something important came up,” you explained. 

armin gave a sigh of relief, knowing that you weren’t in any sort of trouble.

“speaking of the something important...princess historia, my sister, is hosting a ball tomorrow as it’s her birthday. i was wondering if you’d like to come? oh and eren and mikasa too!” 

armin’s mouth flew open.

“y-you don’t have to force yourself to come. i just thought that it would be nice if-”

“i’d be delighted to come,” he sputtered.

your eyes twinkled and you could barely hold your excitement. you placed your hands onto armin’s shoulders,“oh my goodness thank you! i was worried for a second that you didn’t want to come. i could show you around the royal library! and introduce you to my cat. oh! i could introduce you to jean, connie, sasha and ymir too! that would be so much fun and-”

armin’s head tilted at your pause.

embarrassed that you were rambling once again you let go of his shoulders, “s-sorry. i got carried away again,”

“it’s alright, y/n. i’d love to finally see the castle,” 

“i’m sorry but i have to go back early. historia wants opinions for her dress tomorrow...make sure to be there by 8! and tell the guards that princess y/n personally invited you,” you wore your hood and waved goodbye to armin before skipping away. armin stared at your figure until it disappeared.

his heart was beating rapidly.

“d-did i just get invited to a royal ball?”

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“woah look at the ball room! it’s so...huge. and there, isn’t that captain levi? and erwin smith? holy crap!” eren loudly whispered to erenn and mikasa, pointing at a tall blonde male who was stand next to a shorter yet intimidating looking male.

but eren was right. the ball room was huge. royal and exquisite.

the walls were white, with sparkling chandeliers hanging down from it. there were carvings on the walls which resembled beautiful flowers and greek gods and goddesses. 

armin could only feel anxious.

“where’s y/n? shouldn’t she be here?” wondered mikasa, adjusting the red scarf around her neck. armin looked around the ball room, eyes searching for you.

“there you guys are! i was looking everywhere for the three of you,” the three heads turned towards you.

armin felt like the air was knocked out of his lungs. this was the first time that he saw you truly dress like a princess.

you were wearing a dazzling simple ball gown that ended right at your ankles. the colour complimented your skin beautifully. your shoulder and collarbones were on full display. not to mention your hair, was let loose with slight waves at the end. your makeup was fairly simple, making your gorgeous features more prominent. the silver tiara that laid on your head pulled together the look. 

“h-hello?” you waved your hands in front of the trio.

“y/n, thank you for inviting us,” mikasa thanked, giving you a gracious bow.

“thank you, princess,” eren followed mikasa and bowed, winking at you. your cheeks turned the slightest shade of pink.

before eren could say more, mikasa had dragged him away, leaving you and armin alone. 

“you-” the both of you spoke at the same time. 

“you go first,”

you chuckled before speaking, “you look nice,”

and of course, you weren’t lying. instead of the messy blonde bangs armin usually had, it was slicked back (except for a few strands that stuck out). his undercut was even more prominent than before. he wore a dark blue attire which complimented his bright blue eyes nicely.

“you too, y/n,” a blush seared through his milky cheeks. 

“come on, i’ll give you a tour of the castle!” you grabbed armin’s wrist, thrilled to show him around the castle. especially the library.

once you were done showcasing armin the castle and the library, and introducing to him your close friends, the two of you ended up in the balcony of the ballroom. the music from the orchestra played while the two of you leaned against the railing of the balcony, looking into the dark and starry night.

“this has been the most fun i’ve had in a while,” you breathed.

armin turned his head to observe you. admiring your profile as you looked into the sky. he then turned his attention to the ball room where people were already dancing.

“would you like to dance, y/n?” he asked offering his palm to you. 

“yes, prince armin. it would be an honour,” you teased. you placed your hands on his shoulders while his hands were gently holding your waist. 

with the light from the moon, it made armin more handsome than usual. his eyebrows had a slight furrow as he was concentrated in following your rhythm as you both swayed. his concentration broke off when he accidentally stepped onto your foot.

“i’m so sorry!” he apologised, his cheeks turning red in embarrassment.

you simply laughed at him.

“thank you, armin,”

“for what?” he asked, slightly puzzled.

“for recommending books from the library and for you know...being my friend. when i’m with you, i feel like i can be myself. not a princess nor a royal but me,” you smiled, making armin’s heart skip a beat.

“i should be the one thanking you,”

“m-me?” you tilted your head.

“for making my days better. for being the reason i get excited to wake up in the morning and for teaching me what falling in love is like,” your cheeks were suddenly kissed pink, like a rose. you turned your head to the side to avert armin’s gaze, flustered and shy.

you felt him gently pull you closer by the waist. your chests against one another. you turned to face armin again. the blooming pink colour of his blush was adorable against his milky skin.

you moved a blonde strand of hair away from his forehead, placing a hand on his cheek. with affection reflecting into each others eyes, the two of you slowly closed your eyelids, sharing your first sweet kiss under the moon. 

[m111nho]

What a shame

What if after you joined the scouts in order to help Eren get through his Titan experiments with the special operations squad you start getting close to the captain whom you've been bickering with all along?

(A/N) I thought about this while listening to "what a shame" by leyla blue so enjoy,,,I'll probably do sum parts lol.So I'm 4'11 irl,I didn't do it so Levi would be taller.

swearing,kind of violence, insinuated smut, agegap

around 4.8k words<3

(F/N)'s POV

It's now been twenty four hours after the stupid trial they held for Eren and we are about to set off for the old scouts' quarters where Eren will be going under a number of experiments.Now don't get me wrong I love Eren but requesting me to join him with the special operations squad to help him get through it? Couldn't he have asked Mikasa or Armin instead?Well I know they chose me because I was the only one of age,still though at eighteen Mikasa is still stronger than me so I don't see a problem with her replacing me.Yesterday's still fresh in my mind,after the trial Commander Erwin and Captain Levi approached me while I was sitting with Sasha.

"Cadet (L/N) can you join us in my office?"I heard a voice behind me say,I turned around and I was shocked.Commander Erwin with Captain Levi were asking me to join them to Commander's office.Oh shit what did I do?

"Yes sir."I saluted and looked him in the eyes feeling intimidated,I didn't even look at Captain,hell he even scared me from what he did to Eren about an hour ago.He beat the shit out of him infront of everyone for god's sake!

I followed behind them through hallways taking a few turns to Commander's office.I was the last one to enter and I closed the door behind me bracing myself for what's to come.

"Please take a seat (F/N)."Said the commander and I awkwardly sat down in front of them.Then I took the courage to look at Captain only to find steely gray eyes looking back at me,however I kept looking at him while I felt my face getting hot.Now that I've taken a better look at him I don't understand why people don't find him attractive,his face is symmetrical with a straight nose and he has a killer jawline.His hair is pitch black and styled nicely and overall he has a good physique even though he is indeed short,he is taller than me by a few inches though.Of course I've heard the stories of humanity's strongest soldier and how incredible he is but to be honest after today I think that he's nothing more than an entitled ass.A very attractive entitled ass.

I turned my head around to face commander and before I could speak he started talking.

"Don't worry cadet you're not in trouble." I let out a breath I didn't know I held. "What we want from you,is kind of a command." he continued.

"Oh." I said and he probably noticed the glimmer of confusion in my (e/c) eyes.

"Well Eren Jaeger will be brought to the old quarters of the Survey Corps under the supervision of the special operations squad led by Captain Levi,"he motioned to the raven haired man who stood still with an expressionless face."And since Eren will be experimenting all the time I thought that it would be good for him to see familiar faces,so we handpicked you to join him."he finished and I was left speechless.

"Sir,I'm sure Eren would prefer for either cadet Ackerman or cadet Arlert to join him,they're all very close."I said and looked up to the intimidating commander.

"Nonesense the reason we picked you is because you're of age and on top of your class." he replied.

"It's actually cadet Ackerman who's on top,I come in second but okay.I will be joining Jaeger and the special operations squad if that's your command."I slumped down my shoulders.

He nodded and started filling me in on what I would be doing there for the rest of the month.

I sighed turning back to see Petra who was talking with Eld.Oluo was talking about something irrelevant with Eren while Gunther was just waiting for Captain's order for departure.I learned all their names yesterday at dinner since we'll spend quite some time together.Eld and Gunther were more quiet and laid back,Oluo was the one trying to imitate the captain so he talked a lot about past missions and himself.Petra was sweet and I could see she admired captain a lot.Maybe a bit too much but that wasn't for me to judge,she was a few years older than me so we clicked.

"Oi"we heard from the very front of our formation,"We're leaving,follow my lead."Captain Levi said with a stone cold face.

A couple of ''yes sir's" were thrown and we started our journey on our horses.By noon we could see the White castle nestled in between the green of the forest.I was chatting with Petra about her Father,he seemed very sweet like her,when captain spoke.

"So when we arrive we'll be cleaning the whole place,got it?" he said looking at me and Eren.

Both of us nodded frantically but I sighed internally.I never really liked cleaning,I found it boring but I always kept my body and clothing clean,I hated the feeling of filth on me it reminded me of the streets.

We continued galloping until we reached the gates of the castle,it was massive.Oh hell no we'd spend the whole day and night cleaning it,the place looked dirty and in no way shape or form fit for residence.

It was now starting to get dark, it's been a few hours since we arrived and we've been cleaning non-stop.Captain ordered me and Eren to clean the whole the left wing.Eren wouldn't stop talking and all I could do is mentally block him out of my head to keep going with the cleaning.A knock was heard from the door of the room we're now cleaning, a second later captain Levi opened the door and I had to compose myself so I wouldn't laugh.He wore a white bandana over his hair and a fucking mask.Both me and Eren saluted.

"Are you done here?"he asked eyeing the room.

"Not yet captain,we still have a room left but we'll get right to it."said Eren before I could speak,I was still trying to hold my laughter in.

"Eren go start the other room and leave (F/N) to finish this, you'll get it over with more quickly,she will join you when she's done."he ordered and Eren agreed,running off to the next room.

I picked up the rug I was working with on the window and started scrubbing, painfully aware of captain's steely eyes on me.

"I don't know why Erwin picked you to join us."a quiet voice said behind me.

"In all honesty captain neither do I."I said not loosing my temper or turning around,I was familiar with his rude remarks,having heard a lot of soldiers complain about it over the years.I didn't hear anything apart from the door behind me close,leaving me alone.

In what felt years later we were done and heading down to the kitchen to grab some food.I caught Petra by the stairs and we walked down to the kitchen meeting an already seated captain.Petra practically run to the table and I flinched at the noise her shoes made sliding on the rocky floor.

"Captain would you like me to make you some tea?"she asked while I sat two seats away from the head of the table.

"No thank you Petra,I am already aware that you know how to make tea.Cadet (L/N) will make some for all of us."he said looking at me and I returned his gaze slightly nodding.Standing up I made my way to the kettle that was already filled with water,placing it on the stove.A yellow light filled the room and I took the tray with the cups,placing it on the table infront of the captain.When I heard the water bubbling I walked over to the kettle,taking it off the stove and throwing three teabags in it,swirling it around and letting it steep.Minutes later I took the teabags out and held the kettle in my hands.Now back at the table I started with the captain,taking a cup off the tray and placing it near his hand.I could smell his hair from where I was standing,which by the way was kind of behind him and a bit on the left side while pouring tea in his cup.I looked down to him and found him starring sight back to me.

"Do you take it with sugar or milk sir?"I asked keeping the eye contact.He raised his eyebrows.

"No,thank you."I nodded and walked around the table pouring tea to every single one of the special operations squad,Eren and then myself.I could see from the corner of my eye captain holding his cup in a peculiar way,instead of holding it from the handle like a normal fucking person,he holded it from the rim,his palm over the opening.Pouring the last bit of tea to my cup as I sat down I looked at Eren who was talking with Eld,Eld was sitting both on my left and captain's while Oluo was sat at captain's right with Petra next to him on his right .Next to me was Gunter at my right and at the far end of the table was Eren.I drifted off looking down at my cup on the table,my hand wrapped around it when a noise was heard from the kitchen's entrance.It was section commander Hange Zoë.They were supposed to come in tomorrow but I guess they were too excited.

"I was examining two titans we caught alive in the city,I would love for you to help me with tommorrow's experiments.I came here to ask for you permission." they said to Eren.

"An experiment?What am I going to do exactl-" Hange cut him off before he could finish.

"What else except of the amazing thing you already do?"

"Well I can't give you the permission, you see someone else in charge for me."he replied and Hange turned to captain.

"Levi does Eren have to do something tommorrow?"they asked and Captain seemed displeased.

"He has to clean the garden."his reply was short.

"Fine then it's settled!Eren tommorrow we're going to collaborate!"they said taking his hand in theirs.Eren looked overwhelmed.

"Yes."he stuttered."But what kind of experiments to you do with titans?"he asked and their face lit up.

"Uhm,what exactly are this experiments?"he asked once again.Then Oluo spoke.

"Hey stop.Don't ask them this."he said and I looked back at Hange.

"Ah I knew it,your expression have away your desire for knowledge!"the captain suddenly sat up along with everyone else and I did the same.I waved Eren goodbye mouthing <<goodnight>>.I felt kinda bad leaving him there all alone with Hange but he asked for it.As I turned to the left where my assigned room was I was stopped from the captain.

"Since Eren will be accompanying Hange, you'll be cleaning the garden.Understood?"he motioned down infront of the window where an overgrown carden was.I sighed, tommorrow was my day off and I really didn't want to spend it this way.

"I'm sorry captain I'm afraid I can't, tommorrow's my day off."I said respectfully and his jaw clenched.

"I see Erwin hasn't informed you about this,that bastard always leaves the hard work to me."he whispered the last part,almost to himself."Cadet while you're with us here,you will not be having days off."he stated sternly.What?

"What?I never agreed to this."

"You don't need to,these are orders cadet."

"Then I don't want to follow orders."I am not loosing my long awaited day off for this shit.

"You see (F/N), you really don't have a choice so go to sleep and be up at dawn or there'll be consequences, besides it's almost curfew."he swiftly turned around and walked on the opposite direction.Great.

As if his orders were engraved in my mind I really did wake up at dawn.Groaning I dragged myself out of bed and in the bathroom,I doubt anyone will be awake at this time so I didn't bother to change off my nightclothes which consisted of a long white tank top,I noticed that the awaited morning cold had hardened my nipples,and a pair of loose fitting pants.I actually stole these from Reiner,he was about to throw them away anyway because of a rip on the left knee.I sewed it up and now it was my favourite piece of clothing I owned.The cold water run down my body and it waked me up instantly,grabbing the soap bar I scrubbed my hair thoroughly.It smelled like lavender.Finishing up cleansing my body,I run the cold water once a gain to rinse off.I reached for the towel and wrapped it around my body,with my left hand I clenched on the material in order to secure it on my body and on the other hand I had my nightclothes.Walkind down the corridor I shivered,I almost dropped my towel when a dark figure appeared infront of me whilst I made a turn.

"By the walls captain you scared the shit out of me!"I cursed forgetting the ultimately embarrassing situation I was in for a moment.But that moment didn't last long when I remebered my appearance.I felt captain's body tense up under the back of my hand.I was practically stuck on his front so I took a couple of steps back,my face now red from the embarrassment of my captain seeing me like this.I heard him clear his throat and he most probably regained his composure.

"Uh change,have breakfast and go start with the garden.I'll be joining you shortly after I make sure four-eyes doesn't kill Jaeger."he said and I nodded sprinting to my room.Unaware of the pair of bright brown eyes that just saw my entire encounter with captain.

Quickly I pulled on my chest wrappings,underpants and a white shirt with my military trousers.I didn't have to wear the harnesses today so I ditched them in the chair near my bed and I laced up my leather boots.I combed my wet hair with my fingers,they fell just bellow my shoulders in a middle part.The kitchen was empty but it looks like someone has already brewed some tea and there's porridge on the stove.I ate quickly,drinking my tea in a hurry and I left the kitchen.The garden was peaceful but also chaotic.It was so overgrown with weeds and it desperately needed organisation,the stone path was also cover in moss.I picked up the water/vinegar solution and a scrubber.I started working on the stone pavement,getting the moss off.

Some time later it was finally finished,the sun now brightly above my head.A few drops of sweat run down my forehead,my hand willing them off in an instant.

"Oi cadet!How is it going?"captain's voice said.

"So now you join me? It's been surely hours!"just breathe (F/N) don't let your anger take over you.He seemed to catch on my anger even though I tried my best to cover it.I felt a harsh grip on my chin,tilting it up where I met his cold eyes.I was still on my knees and his force hold didn't help.

"Why are you complaining cadet?I already told you I'd be joining you when it was possible."

"Couldn't you have joined me earlier,it surely wouldn't take you more than a few minutes to ensure Eren's safety."I spat at him.

"Now brat even if I didn't join you,you still would have to finish this garden.It's orders."he said releasing my chin from his grasp.My eyes shot daggers at him,only if he weren't my boss..."Anyways I'll help you finish so we can start training."he finished.Training?

"Training?Why?"I asked

"Because." he replied and began to pull on weeds from the garden.What an asshole.Having no other option I did too and almost an hour later we were done.

"Four-eyes must have finished now,I'll get the others,you though should wear your gear."

Truly in about a quarter of a clock we were standing all together for training.Apparently Eren didn't have any progress in transforming,now with a bangdaged hand.

"Warm up, we're doing hand to hand combat today.I'm pretty sure you know it isn't as important with titans but as a soldier you won't have to face only those.Hand to hand combat is something you should rely on when times get tough."said captain."Petra you're with Eren,Gunther you're with Oluo and (F/N) you're with me,I want to test your abilities."he finished,I suppose Eld was helping Hange with something.

Everyone got in a line,captain in front of me.I made sure to keep my ground while he was just there waiting for me to do something.I could hear everyone else grunting while they fought with eachother,yet me and Captain we're not rushing ourselves, circling around each other.

"Aren't you going to make a move on me captain?Afraid aren't we?"I said with a smirk and he scoffed.

"It's not my fucking skills that are being tested (F/N) so just start."he did have a point so with all my strength I went in with my right fist straight to his face,I already knew he'd avoid it so the moment he did I tripped him using my leg.He did however notice and he wasn't about to fall down,at least without me.His right hand grabbed my waist and I fell on top of him with a whelp.In my state of surprise he took both of my wrists,rolling over on my body pinning them over my head.I grunted,his smug face inches from my own,he really did have beautiful eyes.It looked as if I was defeated but I had another trick up my sleeve.Due to my years spent in the streets I had to learn how to adapt so I learnt how to slide over stuff,making me very flexible.Carefully, without him noticing I lifted my right foot from under him and brought it over his left side,me now rolling over him,in his now surprised state his grip on my hands loosened.I retrieved full control of my wrists so I yanked them off his palms completely.I grabbed each one of his hands and pinned them to his sides,now sitting on top of his waist.

"Shorty has lost finally!" a voice said,Hange.

"Tsk,you win cadet,now get off me."I did exactly as he said.He walked back into the castle after dismissing us.

"Oh my god (F/N)!Captain hasn't lost in hand to hand combat,like never!"Petra walked over to me.

"Really?"woah."Well there's a first for everyone,now let's go to eat I'm fucking starving."

After I showered and changed again,fucking Levi had to choose hand to hand combat the day I showered,I went to the kitchen to eat with the others,everyone was already in there eating.I joined in the conversation with Oluo about how wall Rose has little to no supplies left while eating.It wasn't so bad here after all...

Since Hange was joining us we had to add an other chair,with us moving around I ended up to the captain's left,a bit closer than I would have liked.I looked at Oluo across from me and flashed him small smile.After we finished I joined Hange to their laboratory,them explaining me what happened today,Eren and the others will experiment more in the evening.They asked me if I wanted to join them but I said no,I wanted to relax for the rest of the day,maybe read some more pages of my book.It was about a girl who was helplessly in love with someone she couldn't have,it was more of a diary to be honest.It tugged painfully on the strings of my heart for a reason.

"(F/N) I'm going to need your help in the library once four-eyes is gone."captain said opening the door of my room and I screeched.

"Captain what are you doing?I could have been bare!"who even does that?

"Nothing I haven't seen before now in about an hour I need you in the library, we're going to organise the books in alphabetical order and dust the shelves."I groaned but hid it with a cough.

"Yes captain."he nodded and left,as soon as he did I fell on my bed cursing at him.

It is now almost night,me and Levi have took out all the books off the selves.We are dusting the inside of the selves but I can't quite reach the top.Being 4'11 at eighteen isn't enjoyable,even the military's shorty is taller than you.

"What's wrong?"he asked,he must have saw me struggling to reach the top shelf on my tiptoes.

"It's nothing sir, it's just that I can't reach the top shelf don't worry though I'll just get on top of a chair."shrugging it off I started walking towards the end of the room where a stack of chairs was placed.

"Don't you dare step on a clean chair with your shoes.I'll just lift you."he said gabbing my waist with both hands and placing me on his right shoulder so easily,as if I weighted nothing.God how was he able to do it? Military training,the guy's probably shredded.No don't think about his body right now what the fuck.

"Uh alright,can you go to the left and as I clean move to the right?"I felt his head nod on the outside of my left thigh and I started moving.When I finished I felt the weight under me gone and in a matter of seconds I was on the ground with a big thud.

"What the fuck captain why'd you do that?"I said while getting up.

"Revenge for this morning."he walked off and towards the door.

"Asshole..."I said quietly to myself,or I thought so.

"What did you say?"fuck fuck fuck.

"Nothing sir."I replied my face getting red.

"Look cadet I don't know who you think you are but addressing your superiors like this is unacceptable."his words came off aggressively but his face stayed stone cold.

"Well I'm sorry but what am I supposed to say to someone who won't accept their defeat because they think they're so damn unbeatable?"I snapped and in seconds I was pinned to the wall next to the selves.

"This is the last time I'll go easy on you brat, I'm your captain and I demand respect."venom dripping from his words,his hands tugging hardly on my jaw.

"I only show respect when I know it'll be returned and with all honesty sir you've been quite an asshole to me today." I smirked and I felt a hand slap my cheek,not hard but enough to make me angry.

"What the fuck did you just say?"his eyes burning into mine.

"What the did you just do?"I bit back wiggling my way off his grasp,pushing him down with all my strength.I was on top of him now just like in training this morning.

He reached out to turn me around with his hands but I took them both and locked them behind my back.I knew I'd regret this later,but I was so damn mad.

"Cadet get off me right now and I'm willing to forget what happened today."he said scowling.

"There's no way in hell I'm doing that until you apologize for being an asshole."I replied smugly.He must've not liked that because next thing I knew I was under him,his nose grazing mine.I could feel his laboured breathing on my lips and a thought flashed in my mind.As soon as it did I pushed it away.

"Let me go!"my voice trembled from both fear and fury.His hand had clutched both my wrists in a tight grip,his other hand under my chin tilting it up so I wouldn't miss his eyes.I felt the steely gaze piercing through my (e/c) one.Without thinking I subconsciously looked down on his panting lips and returned my gaze back to his.His eyebrows slightly raised,his eyes now we're traveling down to my panting lips.I knew what was bound to happen any second right now.He slightly shifted, softening his grip on my wrists,his straight nose moved on top of mine,a ghost of a kiss lingered millimeters above my mouth.I closed my eyes waiting for him to lock our lips but that moment never came,on the contrary I heard a sound of steps nearing the door.Captain quickly rose to his feet,pulling me up with him.

"(F/N)! Captain!"Eren exclaimed.He seemed quite disappointed,I wondered if he failed again.

"Jaeger help (L/N) finish organising the books."he ordered and left the room.

Putting the books back in the shelves a realisation came upon me.He wanted to kiss me,and I was to kiss him back.

Dinner approached and everyone was in the kitchen eating except captain.

"Hey Petra do you know where captain is?"Gunther asked and she shrugged.

"He seemed angry so I don't know,he might not want to eat tonight."

"Why would he be angry though?"

"I don't know but (F/N) you were with him right?Did you guys fight?" Eren interrupted and I wanted to throw my spoon at him.We were great friends but he just doesn't know when to shut the fuck up.All eyes on me now.

"Well we did kind of have a disagreement." I said looking at my plate."It's okay I, I'll get him some tea and apologize."they all seemed content with my reply.

The tray wobbled in my hands,I reached his temporary office.Knocking twice I heard a voice behind the door say <<come in>> and so I did.

His gaze didn't falter when I stepped in,walking in a straight line after closing the door,I placed the tray on the desk before him.

"Sir,I would like to apologize for today's incident,I shouldn't have been disrespectful to you and I definitely do not want to be the reason you don't get to enjoy this evening with your comrades."I said and the bastard laughed.He laughed.I've never seen him laugh.That's when I noticed a bottle of dark liquid on the corner of the window behind him.

"Cut the bullshit (F/N) we both know you don't feel sorry for anything that happened today."he said,now I understand,his laugh was a mocking one.I mean he wasn't wrong,I only said that to avoid punishment.He sighed and motioned for me to get to the left side behind the desk so I did.Standing up from his seat,his palm cupped the side of my neck,bringing us closer.He didn't get to do anything else though because I took his face between my hands and pressed our lips together.I sighed into the kiss.He kissed me back,forcefully,teeth grazing my lips.Bevuase of my surprised state of teeth on my lips he took the opportunity to lift me up from my waist,sitting me on top of the desk and slipped his tongue in my mouth.He grunted when my hands left his face and went straight on his hair,running my fingertips over his undercut and tugging at the longer hair on top of it.Humming I slowly tore my lips from his,placing small kissed from his chin to his jaw where I traveled down to his neck,leaving opened mouthed kisses all around until I reached the collar of his shirt.My hands trembled while I unbuttoned the first three buttons off his shirt,moving the collar out of the way I attached my lips on the base of his neck,where it connected with his torso and sucked on the skin,slightly biting it.I was no strangers to lovebites.He sucked in a breathe.

"Fuuuuck." a throaty moan came out of him.I smiled to myself and continued with my work,leaving a few more marks to spots I knew his clothing would cover up.As I pulled away from his torso,I looked up at him.His eyes were full of lust,just like mine.I smiled devilishly at him,kissing him once again.We left the office discreetly and he led me to his room locking the door,pinning me against it.

"After all I don't think you mind discipline."Oh boy.

Streaks of blinding gold twinkled over my eyes the following morning.My face twisted,turning around I let my hand touch the bedding but instead it hooked over a hard surface.Then it hit me.Shit,shit,shit.Last night me...and captain...my eyes widened.Red faced me looked up,captain was sleeping with his hands under my waist.Moments of yesterday's interaction flew through my mind when I heard a groan leave his red lips.His hands tightened around my waist bringing me on top of him.That's when his eyes opened up and found my head in the crook of his neck.The muscles of his stomach tensed up.I rose up using the sheet to cover my chest.

"Uh goodmorning captain?"I said unsure of what to say.He grabbed my nape and forced me on his hard chest once more.

"Shut the fuck up."so he didn't want to talk about yesterday,okay he's saving me the embarrassment.His fingers combed through my hair and I hummed kissing the surface of his chest.He tilted my head up by my hair,I felt something harden against my thigh.Morning sex?Count me in.

When I was about to make a move someone knocked on captain's door.Panicking I pulled away and covered myself in the sheets leaving him naked.

"Captain it's almost nine in the morning,how come you haven't gotten up yet?"Petra.

"I have a headache Petra,I'll come down once the painkiller (L/N) gave me starts working."he replied.

"Oh,I'm sorry to hear that sir.I'll go and make you some tea."her steps became less and less loud until they were completely gone.

I covered him with the sheets and started putting on my clothes.After everything was on I turned to the captain.

"I better get going,see you later captain."I smiled and he nodded.Opening the door and making sure no one was around I returned to my room.Now what the fuck was all this?

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My My I Could Never Let You Go

Summary: Sasha Zoe just wants her dad to walk her down the aisle. There is only one problem: she doesn't know who her dad is! Sasha invites 3 men in hopes of finding out which one is her father. What could possibly go wrong?

Pairings: Levi x Hange, Sasha x Niccolo, and other background relationships

Disclaimer: This is a Levihan Mamma Mia au. This fanfic is inspired by Mamma Mia which is directed by Phyllida Loyd, written by Catherine Johnson, and uses music from the pop group ABBA. Attack on Titan is a manga/anime series written by Hajime Isayama and published by Kondasha

A/N: Is it too late to say that Sasha’s wedding takes place in the first week of August? (edit: I realized my mistake and I fixed it) Tbh this chapter is short and just filler BUT it does set up what will happen in the next few chapters. You could say it helps with the subplot. I did make a few edits to the fic, especially last chapter because I’m nit-picky like that. 

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Ch 8: Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy

2 months before the wedding

It was a beautiful, sunny day in Kalokairi, and Hanami could not agree more as she sips her coffee in front of the Swell Cafe Bar.

The smell from her coffee was wafting her nose, the warm sunlight on her sun-kissed skin, the beautiful view, and the slight breeze that moved her sundress a bit were perfect for her. 

She tapped her foot to the music playing in the background. The owners were playing an old 80's jazz song. Hanami wasn't familiar with it, but she liked listening to the beat. She also noticed the waiter shyly glancing at her every now and then as he worked. 

Aw, she thought. It seems like he's too shy to walk up to her. He kept subtly glancing at her since she sat down. 

Hanami looks in the man's direction and gives him a bright smile and a small wave, causing the guy to blush and look away with embarrassment for getting caught. 

Hanami chuckles to herself. She considered winking at him, but she didn't want the poor guy to blush much. 

She rests her head on her palm, and her gaze returns back to the sea. She reflects on what has happened in the past few months.

2 months ago, during Easter break, Jean approached her with a plan to win over Mikasa. At the time, Hanami was unsure if he would be able to pull it off. Everyone knows how much Mikasa likes (is that even the right word?) Eren. Yet, everyone knows about Jean’s huge crush on Mikasa. 

She only agreed after Jean offered to pay for everything during their "meet-ups" (she insisted that they take turns instead and Jean agreed), assist her with her Maid of Honor duties for the wedding when she had to go back to college (Hanami did her best to exclude him from anything related to Sasha’s dads), and do any other favors for a year. Hanami knew Jean was serious after the conditions. 

You see, Hanami used to not like Jean back in high school. He was cocky, arrogant, and annoying (at least to her and (not)surprisingly, Eren). Hanami made sure to express her dislike for him. However, Jean changed after an incident when Marco broke his right leg and Jean was too late to stop it. He became more mature and considerate of his friends. As a result, both he and Hanami decided they could be friends, and everything went from there. 

And so, Hanami agreed with one condition: Jean must teach her how to dance. 

The reason being is Hanami’s Austrian friends invited her to one of the many balls held during ball season in Austria. Everyone in Hanami’s friend group knows she cannot dance, especially in heels. 

Luckily for her, Jean was the only available guy with a decent enough dance experience to teach her. 

(All the guys agreed that Jean was the best dancer of all of them. Eren is a close second.)

The two would sometimes bicker, but they had each other's backs. They define their friendship as comfortable, per se; they were comfortable enough to actually kiss each other to get out of a sticky situation.

Hanami could remember an incident a few days ago when Sasha decided that the two, plus her and Niccolo, to take a trip to Skiathos to take a break from all the wedding plans. They had settled for a party at a local beach bar at night. Skiathos is known as a party island after all. Niccolo and Sasha had separated from the group to swim in the sea, so Jean offered to buy Hanami a drink since they were alone. 

About 10 minutes had passed since and Jean did not return, so Hanami went out to find him. She did not expect to find him at a table near the bar surrounded by girls without holding any drinks. Despite how cocky Jean looks, he cares about personal space and making sure his friends are ok. He would hate it if someone decided to harass Hanami while he was gone. 

The girls were getting a bit too close to him, so Hanami decided to step in. She strutted to his side while ignoring the other girls and proclaimed how much she missed him. She then grabs his hand and subtly squeezes it, to which he squeezes it back, giving her permission to do what she was about to do. 

Jean had turned to face Hanami, wrapped his arms around her waist, and pulled her close to his body. Hanami looks up at him and grabs the collar of his shirt with both hands. She pulls him down for a kiss while ignoring the other girls who were still present. She wrapped her arms around her neck, while Jean's hands played with the hem of her cover-up. It was nothing sweet and cute like what normal couples do. Their kiss was more heated and was enough for the other girls to leave them alone. 

They never brought it up again just for their own sakes. Jean and Hanami made an agreement to help each other by acting as if they were dating as practice for Mikasa. Hence why they kissed during the party. The two even agreed to squeeze each other’s hands as a sign if they were comfortable to proceed. Jean had no experience with dating, and Hanami had one boyfriend back in high school. She had more experience with dating than him. 

(Hanami only mentioned that Jean had improved on his kissing skills and left it at that).

Hanami continues looking at the view as she waits for Jean. Apparently, he requested that they meet up one more time, and this is very important. Hanami questioned why this meeting was important. Did they not cover everything in the plan? Is there a plot hole they might have missed? She does not turn her head when she hears the man of the hour heading in her direction.

“You’re late. If you came any later, then I would go on a date with the waiter instead,” she teases and turns around to fully face him. He wore a white long-sleeve button-up shirt that he rolled up the sleeves. He also had on slacks and a pair of dress shoes. She found it strange that he decided to dress nicely when it was only 10 am. Usually, he dresses in casual clothes. She eyes the camera in his hands.

Jean sits in the chair across from her and places the camera on the table. “This is not a date, Hanami.” He dismissed with no hint of a laugh anywhere. “I’ve-” he hesitates for a second. “-been thinking about something lately.” 

“Oh,” Hanami says and leans forward a bit. She noticed his hesitation and folded her hands on top of the table. She gestures to the camera on the table, “What’s with the camera?” 

"I’m just practicing for school. I need to take a picture of something I admire and paint it for the school's art exhibit."

Hanami chuckles. "Too bad Mikasa is not here. She is the perfect subject for your painting."

Jean shifts around in his seat uncomfortably. Hanami notices but does not ask about it out loud. Why did he look uncomfortable? She thought he would at least agree with her. 

"About that..the plan with Mikasa..." He trails off, sounding almost uncertain and confused. 

"What’s up?." Hanami asks and raises an eyebrow. She was taken aback. Did Jean notice a hole in their plan? She sits up and stares at him intensely. She's getting the answer one way or another.

“Did we miss something with the plan?”

Hanami knew that Mikasa would not arrive at Kalokairi until days before or maybe the day before the wedding. Jean’s plan was a long shot. Who knows if Mikasa would fall for him in such a short amount of time. Then again, they have been friends for a while now.

“No...It’s nothing,” He says dismissively. Hanami raises an eyebrow. Jean was never this jumpy during their past meet-ups. She is not one to pry, but something is clearly on Jean’s mind and he was the one who insisted on meeting up today. Looks like she might have to play a secret weapon.

“Ohhhkayyy,” she says, holding out the word. She slumps in her seat, feigning disappointment. 

“Don’t tell me you’re backing out of the plan? It would be a shame to put all that time to waste.” Suddenly, she smiles a wicked smile.

 “Don’t you agree, Jeanbo?”

Jean breaks out of his trance and looks at Hanami with shock. He was speechless. Jean could name only two people from his friend group who knew his childhood nickname. Marco, for obvious reasons, and Armin. Armin found out on accident and promised Jean not to tell anyone.  How did she know? 

Checkmate.

“How do you know that?” Jean asks with a hint of fear. 

Hanami places her elbows on the table and rests her hands on her head. “How did I know?” She smiles slyly and raises her eyebrows.

“I met your mother last summer when Sasha and I were visiting Annie in Paris. Sasha wanted to take a road trip around France, and we ended up in Strasbourg as a stop for some sightseeing. You should’ve seen how shocked we were to find your mom in town. She was even shocked when we mentioned that we knew you! It’s a good thing we recognized her from the various letters she sent and the old photos.”

Hanami looks at Jean, who is still speechless. She continues her story.

“You were on your trip in Spain with Marco at the time, so the girls and your mom wanted to keep it a secret. Don't want to ruin the surprise, you know?"

Hanami chuckles to herself.

"Although she did ask if one of us was your girlfriend though. I think she wants grandchildren soon, Jeanbo.”

Hanami laughs at her little joke. Jean was too busy blushing to even laugh at her joke. Doesn’t his mom know that he is too young for that?! He decided to take note to never bring any of his female friends back home. 

“Anyways, she even made us her famous omelets, which were the best I ever had! You have to make me someday, Jean. Don't even try to back out of it. Your mom said you could make it." She looks at him  

She even showed us your baby pictures! You look so adorable!" she gushes. 

Meanwhile, Jean has not said a word. He was too shocked to even talk. 

"It's too bad you changed…" Hanami trails off and glances into Jean's golden-brown eyes. Suddenly, she stands up from her seat and leans forward. One of her hands rested on the table for support, and the other was reaching out to Jean's face. 

Jean only watches as Hanami gently grabs his chin. He was too flustered to make any move to stop her. Her thumb was in the front, and the rest of her fingers were in the back. He doesn't make a move to stop her. He only blushes instead. 

"You just had to grow a beard and your hair out into a mullet. You know, most guys can’t work it, yet here you are. Congrats, I guess."

She tilts his head left and right as if she was examining him. She leans closer to his face that Jean can feel her breaths fan his face. 

"You also got taller and muscular too." She tsks with slight annoyance. "I wonder why no other girls on the island haven't jumped you yet, huh, lover-boy?." She laughs while referring to the fact that Jean harbors a crush on Mikasa for years now. 

Her hand trailed up from his chin to cup his cheek. Jean stays still and continues to watch by looking into Hanami's espresso brown eyes behind her glasses. He hoped she could not see him short-circuiting with how close she was. 

He feels her shift the hand on his cheek to pinch him. Hard.

"Ow! What the hell, Hanami?"

"You just had to lose all that baby fat and get a sharp jawline instead! I’m going to miss the pinchable cheeks I never actually got to see!"

Jean breaks out of his trance and raises his hands up to stop Hanami. 

Two can play this game. What was the best thing to do in this situation? Grab both her cheeks as retaliation.

"You hypocrite! You're the one with chubbier cheeks than me!" 

The two continue pulling at each other’s cheeks and throwing insults at one another. They completely ignored that they were in a public area and people nearby can see them. There was an elderly couple nearby who watched the scene unfold. They couldn’t help but laugh to themselves because it reminded them of when they were young. The waiter from earlier was starting to doubt his impression of Hanami. Who knew she was also childish?

Hanami and Jean’s bickering went on for a few minutes until Hanami gave in.

“Ok. Ok. You win, Jean!” she says after sitting back down in her seat. She rubs her now sore cheek. Yeesh, that guy has a grip.

She looks up at Jean’s face. It looks more relaxed and not as tense as before as a result of earlier. 

Hanami mentally high-fived herself because her plan of getting Jean out of his whatever he was going through was a success. Now it was time to get serious.

“Jean. I can tell something is on your mind.” She reaches forward to place one hand on top of his on the table. She does not make any motion to hold it.  

“It’s fine if you don’t want to tell me specifically. However, just know that I am here for you, and I am happy to listen. I promise not to say anything.” She finishes with a smile.

Jean gulps and takes his hand away to tug on the collar of his shirt. Hanami just watches him patiently. 

“It’s about the plan with Mikasa...I think we need to change tactics.”

Hanami crosses her arms and raises an eyebrow. “How so?”

“We...need to get Mikasa jealous.” 

Hanami chuckles a bit. She has never seen Mikasa jealous in all of her years knowing her. Unless you consider that one instance with Annie training him, but Hanami thinks Annie didn’t view Eren that way. Hanami could not help but wonder how they can get Mikasa to feel jealous of a random girl with Jean in a short amount of time. Again, it depends on when Mikasa and Historia arrive.

“How do you plan on achieving that, Jean?” Hanami asks and takes a sip of her coffee. Things are starting to get interesting now.

“How are things with the bachelorette party?” Jeans suddenly ask, changing the topic. Hanami places her cup down on the table and looks at him suspiciously.

“Well, it is definitely going to be at the hotel plaza. Sasha had requested it there. Oh! Hange and her band are going to perform too. Hange wants to relive her glory days, or so she says. Why do you ask?”

Jean presses his lips in a thin line as if he was contemplating what to say next. 

“I need your help with something for the bachelorette party.”

Hanami’s suspicious look never left her face. She takes some time to think about what Jean just said. 

Suddenly, it all clicked in her head. She points an accusatory finger at him and glares at Jean.

“Don’t tell me you plan on inviting male strippers to the bachelorette party?!” Hamani yells and startles Jean as well as some passersby. 

“No! Do you want me to get killed by practically this whole island?!” Jean exclaims, leaning forward in his seat to cover Hanami’s mouth. He keeps it there for a minute before leaning back to take a deep breath. Of course, Hanami would quickly jump to conclusions.

“No.” He says again calmly. “I need your help setting me up with-” He glances around him, looking slightly unsure. “-Rico when she arrives.”

Hanami looks at him dumbfounded. “Come again?”

Jean sighs and looks at Hanami with a serious face. “You heard me. I want you to set me up with Rico.”

“Rico? As in Rico Brzenska, the three-time divorcee? You do realize she is old enough to be your mom, right?”

“Of course I know that! It’s all part of getting Mikasa jealous!”.

Hanami nods her head, trying to understand whatever just came out of Jean’s mouth. To her, it sounded as if he must have gone mad or something. “Uh-huh. Do you plan on going after Pieck next?”

“No! She’s married!” He exclaims while blushing.

Hanami smirks and crosses her arms in front of her chest with triumph. “Exactly.” 

Jean rubs his temples and looks at Hanami with a serious face. “Look, Niccolo came up with an idea about crashing the bachelorette party. Of course, we will make sure to let you have your fun before the guys come in.”

Hanami nods along, showing Jean she is following the story. “So you want me to help you get close enough to “seduce” her (she uses air quotes on the word seduce) that you end up dancing with her at the party and hope that Mikasa notices? Let me guess, you plan on adding more attempts right before the wedding and maybe at the reception?”

“Exactly. You can even try to put in a good word for me when Mikasa comes.”

Hanami nods again in understanding. “Ok, but I won’t do it for every interaction, ok? Only if it is just us two. I don’t want the other girls to raise suspicions if I start complimenting you randomly. Also-” She clamps her hands together. “-I won’t gatekeep Mikasa from Eren. If they want to talk, then I will let them talk. I don’t want to raise any suspicions between the two if that makes sense.”

Jean nods in agreement. “Ok. That sounds like a deal. You will help put in a good word for me to Mikasa, I can try talking to Rico before the party, we will work together to get me close to Rico. You also can't tell Mikasa about my old nickname. It's embarrassing enough that more people know it.” He holds his hand out for Hanami to shake.

Hanami laughs at how serious Jean was. She thought it was kind of funny to see how dedicated he was to this plan. She shakes his hand to seal the agreement. “I promise not to tell Mikasa, Jean. I do have some doubts about the Rico part. I don't mind saying ‘I told you so’ if things go south.”

She places her hand back down on the table and looks at Jean. She smiles, and it even catches him off guard. “You put a lot of effort into this, Jean. You deserve to be happy with Mikasa.” 

“Y-y-yeah. You’re right.” Jean rubs the back of his head nervously, causing Hanami to laugh again. 

Hanami continues smiling as she stands up and grabs Jean’s hand. “C’mon! I paid last time, so it’s your turn to pay for the food and I’m very hungry! I’m craving some walnut pie with ice cream!”

Jean never questioned her request. That woman had a sweet tooth second to Annie’s. He sighs as Hanami lets go of his hand to call over a waiter and start ordering a whole list of food.

This woman is going to be the death of him.

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I know this is a filler chapter, but I am currently working on ch 9 right now. It is a good way to look at Hanami’s character though.

Updates may take a while because the semester is about to end

I chose Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy because I can see it fitting Jean and the many Nicosasha Tiktoks I used to get with this song. 

The timing in this fic might be weird because I try to make it somewhat accurate with the research I find.

Speaking of research, this fic is basically a list of places I want to go to in the future. Too bad I can’t go now 😭

[my-fancy-hat]

Snk ending: first impressions with tons of salt.

Please don't read this if you liked the ending. And if you wanna fight don't read it either because I won't answer shit.

Before I move on from this hellhole, I want to elaborate a simple opinion post (it took longer than I expected lol mb), my first thoughts and rambling as I read the chapter. I been a fan of this series since 2013 tho I never done this before. Be hold.

"It was all to push us away from you, and make us into heroes who saved humanity" So this is the so called Lelouch ending? I’ve never watched Code Geass so I don't have idea. Sounds fair tho.

EIGHTY PERCENT?!?!??? JESUS. Honey this is not okey, there's no room for a redemption at this point, 80% of the wolrd died by your hand how can you ever atone your sins— anyways let's take a walk Armin! there's more to talk about than the almost humanity extintion!

I'm happy that Eren got to see the landscapes they promised to explore one day with Armin, even in this tricky way. About that, everything can be explained by P A T H S, right? even this fake scenearios? Anyways, let's keep walking Armin.

Aha, people came to roast me because I said that maybe Ymir had Stockholm syndrome with Karl Fritz. I was right. This is awful, tragic and degrading as fuck. How is this a parallel to Eren and Mikasa’s relationship? are they trying to romantize a SA and pedo? Hmmmm whatever

You have to excuse me but I laughed out loud bc of this. HOW— HOW HIS ASS KNOWS THAT?? I'm sorry but I would like know this first hand, Ymir has a lot to explain to us, please. Mikasa saved her by showing her selfless-true love to Eren? I get it, but how that does shit to all the massacre and hell site we been reading this past months? One's true love resolves... the circle of hatred and the eldian vs marley issue?! 

Eren knew that Mikasa would kill him at the end? That's fucked up.

"My head's gotten all messed up" I feel for him, for the first time he's showing how emotional and psychologically affected the Attack Titan's powers to his mind. I’m happy with this crumbs.

OKAY THIS IS HARD. I'M SHITTING MY PANTS AND I AM ON THE FLOOR RIGHT NOW. THIS. DOES. NOT. MAKE. ANY. SENSE. The dumbest and most unnecessary plot twist of the whole show. "Isayama... why" the only thing I can think about this, I'm out of words. And then Eren has the audacity to guilt trip Reiner lmfao.

And how the fuck Armin can be like "what did you say? oh, that's rough budd" ? uh? h...he..hello?? Ok, you know what, even Armin takes it like nothing, so I will. What the fuck, you can drop a bomb like that and then yeah let's keep walking Armin/Eren my dearest friend! there a loooooooot of more important things to talk about. 

Seems like even Isayama can't explain his own character. GUYS c'mon— who cares if Eren manipulated his own predecessors memories, if he's the one who orquestated his parents death, if he killed the royal family and mass murdered his compatriots in Liberio just to use his half-brother for his plan! or if he almost extinted the whole humanity w his friends in between!!!!!!!!!! or if he commited war crimes in all forms and countries at once!! everyone has a day like that?? whatever man take it easy.

I know now why they said that Isayama killed Eren's character, I truly don't get it, my dissapointment is immeasurable, second time the chapter got me speechless for its dumb shit. The champion of the world comedy: Eren "I forgot" Yeager.

Haha! Armin get his ass! I never expect the ending to be this funny.

... it's a bad sigh that your finale feels out of tone like this?

Fr Isayama spend several pages to show Eren being sad horny about Mikasa after dropping TWO BOMBS like nothing? we’ve been here years reading a story about the moral in war, themes as complex as freedom, free will and destiny, for the last chapter taking into the spotlight this; after all that, Mikasa’s love was the most important thing of the story and no one noticed. Listen, I'm okey with Eren being a crybaby he never been this fanon chad, he's still 19, HE'S HUMAN, and like everyone else has his own selfish wishes too and this reaction is in character I know, but this moment feel out of place, not something you should put on your finale.

This is Isayama's logic:

Eren's feelings for Mikasa >>>>>>>>>>>>> Ymir's decision and POV > Eren killing his mother > 80% humanity's extintion.

Showing Armin more concerned about Mikasa than the whole fucking world and Carla's death plot twist is surreal I swear.

It’s getting hard to keep reading this shit bruh.

"I didn't expect something that pathetic" Yeah the "10 years, at least" this is pathetic as fuck.

Hey guys! there it is! the final panel with Eren holding his child with Historia— oh nvm, is just Grisha and Eren, how could we tell this outcome. Damn you Yams, you tricked us!

For real Armin is apologizing Eren's mass murder ass? Thrice this chapter got me speechless. I do not understand, I hope I could, maybe I'm just being hurtful, uhhh... it just got me by surprise. Anyways, I am just gonna drop this here and leave.

"Humanity will be saved by you, Armin" uhm, yeah. Make Erwin’s death worth it Armin.

So the power of the titans dissapeared once Mikasa killed Eren/The Founder, and the hallucigenia is now vanishing as well, ehhh... I guess? I guess it makes sense bc it was some kind of parasyte and its host (the founder) is already dead so, yeah.

What will happen with the Path Realm tho

I knew the crew wouldn't fuck up at the end, and now they're free of the 13 years course! Finally, Reiner can commit suicide without those annoying regenerative abilities.

So Eren created a mini-world/vision/memory for every person who was important to him? as a way to say them goodbye? ouch. I cried hard bout this. Still kinda hard to comprehend if you don’t have a close hold of the storytelling and chronological events.

I'm happy to confirm that Annie was dear to him as well. I knew it.

Even Eren confirmed that Connie's mom turned back into human! Aw, oh my god... Annie and Connie's panel caught me flying low. I'm so glad.

Sasha’s last goodbye to Jean and Connie? man.

Speaking about hugs, look at them!! My little wiwis, they're well and safe. Falco's hug was so powerful full of emotion and terderness that Gabi couldn't stand in two feet. Beautiful, I am so happy for them plus Connie and Jean's hug in the background, gives me 10+ years of lifespan.

The veterans got the best clousure of the entire cast, without doubt. Levi's conclusion is really satisfactory, even when I had my issues with his role post-timeskip. I'm okey with it, 50/50.

How in the fuck Mikasa gonna arrive to Paradis if the rumbling flattened all the cities and land transport? when she get there Eren's head will already got eaten by worms.

They paralled Trost arc — Armin's speech to the garrison officer. You could at least been more original, refrito.

Armin is gonna proclaim himself Eren's death? when in fact it was a woman who did it?? Hmmm if it means protecting Mikasa’s safety I can do that.

Historia's pregnancy subplot didn't make any sense more than the opportunity to keep Zeke alive. This feels so out of character, the audacity of the woman celebrating in the same day the wolrd almost ended the birthday of her daughter like nothing. The fact that she's holding her child right now is proof she was an accomplice of this genocide, idk how she can even... live with that, after knowing that she could have prevented this, but she chose to shut tf up and put that gloomy ass face of hers in the damn rocking chair this whole time. This portion of the story only served to rot the fanbase into ship wars and be a coccun of hidden neo-nazis. I don’t want to be part of that. 

At least Historia got a good malewife, that's very girlboss of her.

I hope his daughter is named Ymir, let me headcannon (cope) in peace.

Look at those ugly ass uniforms. Floch would have loved them.

RICO??!!

I hope Sasha's family + Niccolo are packing out of Paradis, I would refuse to share the same air with yeagerist rambling and screaming imperialism nonesense.

Kiyomi is living in Paradis now? Good! Now Mikasa has more relatives to be with than Eren's severed head.

Isayama, are you fr? this is how you put at end of your favorite character's arc? with a lame ass joke? AGAIN, are you fr? cmon, the last chapters Reiner was shown as a feral fighting 20 titan shifters at once, to end up sniffing Historia's letter, what is this. I hope this is part of the treatment for his PTSD. Reiner, my beloved, you deserve better.

Eren, now Reiner, basically the entire cast except for... maybe Annie, Gabi, Falso, Jean and Connie, to the trashcan.

Not Annie’s karen new haircut...

Connie looking good with long hair!

So Levi is living in the continent now, nice! the wheelchair pushed by teen!Falco and Gabi warms my heart.

Falco is a cuter version of Colt. I wanna kiss his forehead.

Onyanko looking fresh as always, king. Btw his homeland got caught by the rumbling???

Then Isayama said: Mikasa's life ended with Eren's life, bc it seems that since Eren died she's been all ALONE, WITHOUT THE COMPANY OF HER FRIENDS. IS IT NECESSARY TO LEAVE HER LIKE THAT FOR THREE YEARS AND WHO KNOWS MANY MORE? Why should Mikasa be alone, separated from the rest of the world who are also important to her? I hope that she has contact with Kiyomi at least! Mikasa deserves a life too, ugh. Love female characters in shonen manga, they represent us 300% accurately.

I hate to see it, her crying without no ones emotional support, no one is there for her. What the fuck.

COPPING REALLY HARD HERE but, I love the symbolism that Eren, the kid who dreamed to be the most free person in the world, is now a bird who flies free for the sky. You're free now. Tho the symbolism was already too in the face to reinforce it with Mikasa’s “Eren, thank you blahblah”. Anyways.

And the place where all started with Eren and Mikasa, this story ended. Sobbing.

Conclusions:

This finale does not answer shit. I ended up more confused than anything.

The series ended for me in ch 123. Then when Zeke died.

I laughed way more than I expected. Laughing for not crying.

Years of "Eren is the best anime protagonist of all time" jinxed it. Thanks.

Mikasa has depression now. She needs her friends to be with her more than ever. As you wanted Eren! she's definitely not thinking bout you every second of her life! 10 years AT-LEAST!

Armin has functional brain cells when its only convenient for the moment.

Reiner sniffing Historia's letter killed my grandma.

The world is still fucked up but they all trying their best.

I really loved Ymir's quality panels this last chapter. She, the founder, the person who made this universe possible, getting to see her complex and fundamental POV and decisions who lead us to this point? amazing. I hope she's doing good wherever she is rn... what happened with the path realm? oh, who cares.

Gabi, Falco and Connie are the only ones with a good/satisfactory ending.

Armin’s behavior toward Eren’s doings and Carla’s death plot-twist were my last straw. 

Levi 👍

[niccoloswifey]

Reiner x Eren's Sister!Reader

Type: IDK

Reader: Eren's Sister

Title: I'm Gonna Kill You

!SPOILERS!

1/31/21

Reiner's POV

I know I'm supposed to be undercover for Marley... They're all bad people... I have to kill them all... but I can't... because they aren't bad people... Jean although he's cocky, he really cared for Marco... I killed Marco.... Sasha is always stealing food... but every now and again she'll share with us.... Crysta is literally a princess.... but I think she's with Ymir.... Ymir is honestly a bitch... but she makes Crysta happy... Connie is really stupid... but he's always making us laugh... Armin although he's a pussy... he's highly intelligent.... Mikasa is a bad bitch... but she's totally in love with her brother... Eren who is the current owner of the founding titan.... aka what we need to retrieve... is really just a guy who wants revenge for his mother... and Y/n... I could never kill her... She's always been so nice to me.... even when I was a dick... she'll probably hate me when I tell her I'm the armored titan

"Reiner"

I'm one of the reasons her mom is dead...

"Reiner?"

I killed her mom...

"REINER!" I hear someone yell. I snap out of my thoughts and turn to see Y/n looking at me with her E/c eyes.

"Oh hey Y/n" I say.

"I thought you were ignoring me" She says smiling.

"Sorry I was caught up in my thoughts" I say.

Y/n's POV

"What were you thinking about?" I asked as I stood right beside him.

"I'm the Armored Titan" He says.

What?

"I'm sorry I don't think I heard you correctly.." I say.

"I said I'm the Armored Titan" He says.

No...

I think back to when I watched my mom die... I back up and before I could run he grabs my hand

"Please listen" He says. I stop and turn to him with tears in my eyes.

"I'm listening" I say trying not to cry.

"I come from a place called Marley... We Eldians... are oppressed and looked at us scum... We have to wear these armbands that basically say we're Eldian... Eldians are people who can turn into titans... Eren. Bertheholdt, and Annie are also Eldians... We were sent here to take back the founding Titan.... They told us you were all devils.... We were taught to despise the people who lived within these walls... So when we originally broke the walls... We felt no remorse, because we were told you were bad people... but as I continued to live here and then met all of you... I realized how wrong I was... After we killed Marco... I didn't know what to do... I want to stop it all and stay here.... but if Marley comes here... then they'll kill us too..." He says. I'm speechless.

"I-I don't know what to say" I say.

"You don't have to say anything... I just wanted to make sure you knew everything before you never talked to me again... If you tell everyone... I understand... They'll kill me and I will have paid for my sins" He says. I hug him.

"I know you killed my mother... but hearing a different perspective of it all... I won't tell anyone... especially not Eren.... He'll kill you... and I don't want you to die..." I say.

"Why would I kill Reiner?" I hear Eren say. We both freeze.

Think of a lie quick

"Well because..." I begin. Reiner looks at me wide eyed.

"Me and Reiner are um... dating" I say as I look to the ground. I look back up and I see Eren glaring at Reiner.

"I AM GONNA KILL YOU!!" Eren yells before chasing after Reiner. Reiner kisses my cheek and then sprints off. I touch my cheek and smile...

(630 Words)

[ultimaa]

TRUTH

Eren & Mikasa / 1992 words / Canonverse.

Truth is always simple, but we usually get there by the most complicated path.

George Sand.

Shigansina was chaos, a rumble, the first victim of the apocalypse. Eren Jaeger had sworn to end the world, and in his words there was as much anger as determination.

"That bastard has condemned us," were Jean's words.

They had taken cover, but the noise was such that they barely got to hear each other. The walls had fallen and the colossals walked the earth, like a walking chaos, like death incarnate.

"It's worse than that day," Mikasa thought, and she put a discreet hand on her head. Armin looked at her sideways, worried, but he said nothing.

"We'll talk to Eren," Arlet decided.

"Are you crazy, Armin? That dude no longer attends to reasons," Connie seemed to have abandoned her hope. Maybe he lost it with Sasha. He simply dropped to the ground, downcast. "It's the end. Commander Hanji and Captain Levi aren’t here. Everything is lost. How could we think... that everything would end well, that we would achieve peace? We are destined to die. Since Bertolt and Reiner appeared ten years ago, from that moment, I had to imagine that it was only a matter of time," And the tears gathered in his eyes. "Sasha's death was useless."

Armin wanted to tell him something, encourage him, slap him gently on the back and assure him everything would work out. However, hope was beginning to fade from his blue eyes. Eren was on their side, he was the protector of Paradise Island, but what was the price? If Eren devastated everything beyond the sea, they would become the devils that the world repudiated. No man could stand up to a situation like this, so Armin simply clenched his fists and thought of the old Eren, his good friend, and he wondered where that child was, that impetuous young man, but excellent in friendship.

To everyone's surprise, Jean Kirstein's face was tinged with an inexplicable anger. He approached Connie and lifted him, grabbing him tightly by the shoulders.

"What the hell are you doing! How can you say that!" the man relaxed a little, but remained serious. "You're a soldier, Connie, damn it! We can not give up. We know that suicide bastard and, in addition, it turns out that he has now gone mad and unpredictable. He has gotten into my head, the moron. Every time he got into trouble, we had to save his ass. We are used to it. We've done it before and we'll do it now, because that bastard…” He looked at Armin, and then stared at Mikasa," he has many things to say."

"What do you want us to do?" Connie sipped her nose. "Approaching him is very dangerous and we don't know if he wants to talk. God, Jean, the last time he spoke with Mikasa and Armin he behaved like a bastard, with his lifelong friends! What makes you think that now it will be different?"

"Mikasa," Jean called, "what did Eren tell you?"

The woman squeezed her lips.

"He hates me... he hates me since we were children. He has always hated me. I am nothing but a slave, my Ackerman blood chained me to him."

Kirstein let out a sardonic laugh and released Connie.

"I'm gonna have to talk to him about women's hearts, who would say it," then he turned to Armin. "Let's do it. Armin, you and Mikasa will approach him while Connie and I distract the Titans. We will clear the way. Make him right, hit him if necessary. You know him more than we do, I'm sure he will listen to you."

Jean drew his swords. Connie, after wiping the tears away from his face, did the same. Both men stared at each other, as those who will face the last and toughest battle.

"Are we gonna die, Jean?"

"I don't know, nobody knows. I have spent all these years fearing my body ended up burning in a pyre, like Marco. That's why I should have joined the Police, but I didn't. Eren convinced me not to. If I had, I would probably have finished drinking the poisoned wine, becoming a titan like all those miserables. That would be unfortunate. I joined Legion and I’m proud. If I have to die today... at least it will be fighting," he smiled slyly. "And if we die today, Connie, lots of women will mourn our death, the death of two heroes."

Mikasa put a hand on Kirstein's shoulder. He tensed for a moment.

"Don't die, Jean," the woman asked. "You neither, Connie."

And then they threw themselves into the jaws of chaos. The Marleyans fled in terror. As Mikasa moved forward, her mind was lost in the past, on that trip to Marley, and it was as if a lightning struck her. What am I to you? Why hadn't she been honest? She was not even with herself. No…

"Mikasa!" Armin shouted.

When she left her thoughts, a large hand hovered over her body. Mikasa dodged it, but she rushed into the desolate streets of the city which saw her grow. When she came to realize, she was getting up from the paving, stunned by the blow. A giant was approaching her, slow, smiling, as it was five years ago, in Trost. Why did she keep fighting? Why Eren? What part of Eren had she seen? Was it his true face, or just an illusion? She tilted the head and saw Louise lying across the street. The young girl was dead. She approached her with slow steps, feeling the presence of the criature on her back, and removed the red scarf from the neck of Louise, who was a girl so many years ago. She fell to her knees, the garment in her lap, and touched her cold face.

"I'm so sorry," she whispered. "I could not save you."

Then, like lightning, Jean cut the hams of the titan that stalked her. Again, she was saved from imminent death.

"Come on, Mikasa!" Jean cried.

The woman, making a cyclopean effort, stood up and put the scarf around her neck. She rose again, like a wounded bird, and headed like an arrow towards that hulk of bones that Eren had created, that monstrosity which encompassed wherever the sight would go. Armin watched the scene from a roof, speechless.

"Where is Eren?"

Smoke and dust did not allow to see clearly. Mikasa, without thinking too much, went into that maelstrom. Surprised, Armin went after her. The woman discerned a loud roar between the screams and followed it. There were heavy blows, and a new growl, more pitiful than the last. Mikasa could barely discern the silhouette of Reiner’s titan being subjected to something much larger, a much taller and more bulky titan, but easily recognizable to her. It was Eren. That huge creature crushed Reiner without any difficulty. Braun fell so as not to rise again. Mikasa moved on, ignoring Armin's voice, and stood before Eren. The recognition shone in his eyes.

"Eren!"

Armin confronted him.

"Stop this, things don't have to be that way! Eren, listen to me!"

But Eren did not listen, so Mikasa fired her hooks and climbed him up to hang on his mop of hair. The big green eyes looked at her furiously.

"Eren, please..."

Don’t do this to yourself.

In a deliberate act, the titan shook and Mikasa held on tight, trying not to fall. She wouldn't let him go until they achieved their goal. Jean and Connie were giving their lives for it. For this man, whose good part seemed to have disappeared, lost in chaos, subjugated by the cruelty of the world. From the beginning, it was always the world. What had it turned them into? Mikasa knew: there was still some of the Eren she knew, the real Eren. The immense creature shook its neck again and roared, and did not stop until it got rid of Mikasa, throwing her with an unusual force. She heard Armin's stark scream, but she still hadn't given up. So she clenched her teeth, wielded her swords and, with burning tears running down her face, she responded with a shout from the depths of her guts.

Fight! You have to fight! If you don't win, you will die! You can't win if you don't fight! Fight!

My head is going to explode.

She descended like divine justice and laid a kilometer slash on the titan's back. The blades barely sliced the skin and Armin's thunder spears didn't inflict great damage either. The blond gave up and considered the possibility of transforming, but Mikasa continued in her private dance against Eren, who simply dodged her and regenerated the few wounds she made in a matter of seconds. The power of the Founder ran through his veins; He was invincible, Mikasa knew it, but she didn't want to beat him. She wanted to talk.

"Eren, I know you can listen to me! You have to stop all this! Remember when we went to Marley! There are innocent people all over the world, we can't blame them all... for the evil of a few!"

For the first time in a long time, Mikasa Ackerman was filled with an animal fury because of Eren's indifference. The screams, the gigantic steps that moved away in the distance, Armin's voice, Jean's words, Sasha's death, Reiner's fall. All that surpassed her, and in her movements was engraved an agility that exceeded human capacity, something that had only been seen in the missing Levi Ackerman. It was hard for Eren to dodge her, and, finally, Mikasa gave him an accurate cut in the right eye. The pulsations of her heart touched a dangerous limit; every muscle in her body burned and howled in pain, but she had perfect coordination. Move on. Up and down. Attack, protect. However, it was a matter of time before that state was over. Fatigue, like her strength, was monstrous.

"Mikasa," Armin shouted. "Take cover, I will transform!"

I can not anymore.

The woman hung on Eren's hair, at the nape. The shattered blades fell to a vacuum of more than twenty-five meters. Mikasa stood there, hanging, feeling her hand slide slowly due to sweat. She was soaked in blood, in dust and dirt. She was the vivid image of who had already given all of herself. Only the word remained; even if they were the words of a slave, Eren would have to listen to them. He would have to listen to them while he captained the catastrophe. Inside the titan, in the entrails, he took refuge, calm, with the look of a man whose life has become an unhappy existence. A man who had condemned his soul.

"I understand you don't want to hear someone you hate," she began, dragging each syllable heavily. "It's fine. I've always... been selfish. I wanted to be by your side, protect you, but I wasn’t able to... I wasn’t able to see what was happening to you. You were suffering, and you still do. I wish I had realized before because I would have tried anything, I would have done whatever it took to avoid all this, I would have given everything for you to stay with us, with me."

Mikasa remembered the good times before the invasion of Marley, the parties with the guys. She could die with that in mind.

“You gave me a family when I lost mine, you reminded me that the world is not only a cold and hostile place, but it can also be beautiful. It was thanks to you. Thanks for showing it to me. This world is cruel, but undoubtedly beautiful," she closed her eyes and her consciousness fade little by little. "I am a liar; I couldn’t be honest even with me. You... aren’t my family. My family died a long time ago, but... I would like to start my own family with you, because the truth is I... have always loved you."

[thedyingmoon]

💚 See Me Now 💚

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XXV. Truth

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For three days, Levi was still watching over the unconscious form of the girl who saved him.

Sometimes, he would go out of the room either to get something to eat and drink or to train. His body, since his second awakening, went back to its original state. And by that, it meant that his reflexes and senses went back to being sharper. His eating habits went back to normal, and his healing ability became fast once more. All of the wounds he suffered during his tribulation healed, not instantly, though, but quick enough. The bruises that were evident all over his body a few days ago almost miraculously vanished, like the torture never happened, at all.

And yet, despite all that, (F/N)'s state remained the same.

Unmoving, battered,...

Almost lifeless.

For three days, some of (F/N)'s friends visited her. Nifa provided fresh, white roses for the little white vase that Mikasa placed on the bed - side table. Eren would sometimes touch her cheeks, arms and forehead, wanting so much to pass on some of his boundless energy to her limp frame to give her vivacity. Armin would read her some of his favorite books in hopes that she'll wake up and respond to his soothing voice. Mike and Nanaba also visited her, looking exactly like some parents who were very upset on the pitiful condition of a daughter. Hange talked to her, a lot. She spoke (F/N)'s name lots of times while holding her hand, hoping that the girl would flutter her eyelids open and tell her that she's fine. Erwin never visited (F/N), at all.

And while all of these occurred, Levi observed them quietly from the other side of the room. He couldn't help but be totally ashamed of his presence there whenever someone asked him what he was doing there, being the Captain who openly disliked her in the past. His eyes gradually became even more tired watching over (F/N) and making sure that her visitors were well - mannered. His conscience continuously scratched guilty pleas at him whenever someone cried in front of her.

Why? Levi thought to himself. Why is she lying there on that cold bed instead of me?

On the second day, the clueless nurses and the frightened doctor ( who was still traumatized after hearing Levi scream that night and begging him to bring her back ) removed the bandage on her head, revealing eight ugly stitches on one side of her forehead where he smashed his teacup three nights ago. They also noted the remnants of the once large bruise that was caused by a strong palm that connected to that delicate and young skin a month ago. He couldn't help but wince, seeing her facial features deformed like that.

And it was all because of him.

When he wasn't eating or training, he would drag the chair close to the bed. He would sit down and quietly observe her features. At one time, he had the courage to touch the side of her cheek where her large bruise once was. As he glided his calloused hand on the surface of her smooth skin, he couldn't help but remember the things that the people from the Scouting Legion said regarding the injury. Sometimes, the words were just silly, like clumsiness and stupidity. Sometimes, they were downright dead - on, correctly saying that violence and abuse were both involved.

But, they didn't really know who committed the abuse in the first place.

And if they did, what will they say?

If they find out the reason, what would they think of him?

Levi's eyes snapped rapidly away from her cheek because of that sudden realization that hit his stomach like bricks, making his sight land on her closed eyes.

Right then and there, he wondered: were those things that Hange said about her features true?

Does she really have those kind - looking (E/C) eyes that melts when she smiles?

I don't know, I never looked directly at her eyes.

Does she always have a radiant skin?

Right now, no. She looks so pale.

Does she really curl her lips when she's thinking?

The only time I saw her curl her lip was when I said awful things to her.

Does her (H/L), (H/S) (H/C) hair smell nice?

There is only one thing I smell on her hair, which is both blood and medicine.

Is she really beautiful?

I don't know. I never admitted it, because the only person I considered beautiful was Petra.

The hell with Petra. She may be beautiful, but her heart's as ugly as her broken personality.

Does she really have a kind heart?

Yes.

So beautiful.

Enough to save someone like me.

Enough to love someone like me.

And, I don't deserve her.

Is she weak?

No, she's not.

Is she timid?

Yes, in a way, because her feelings were suppressed because of me.

Is she very shy and lacking in self - confidence?

No, because I personally think that she was very confident and lively.

If things were different, will we get to know each other more? Will she smile when I tell her the things about me? Will she frown if I tell her the things about me? Will she like it if I ask her out? What will she think of Isabel and Farlan? Of Kenny or Kuchel? What will she say if I made her lunch or dinner? Will she laugh at me when she finds out that I can imitate the mannerisms of many of the Scouting Legion members?

Will she look at me the way I look at her now?

Will she take my eyes off me?

Will she love me and only me?

I do.

I can't take my eyes off her.

I couldn't get my heart off her.

These things played in Levi's mind that whole day.

On the next day, he was surprised when he opened the door to the infirmary.

Right there, standing beside her bed, was none other than Keith Shadis, himself. He was looking gloomily down at her.

He closed the door, careful not to disturb him.

However, as he heard the door closed, he looked away from her and glanced at him like he was expecting him there.

"Levi." Keith uttered.

"You came. What brings you here?" Levi whispered back at him.

"I have come to visit my best student. It seems that,... she has fulfilled her purpose for joining the Legion."

Levi's eyebrows slightly shut upwards. He went closer to him and looked at him, wanting him to verify what he just heard from him.

"What did you say?"

"From the looks of it, you don't know anything about her."

"No. Erwin never told me anything."

"Erwin, huh?"

Keith sat on a chair, looking at the unmoving form on the bed. He ran his hand on top of his head and sighed deeply.

"There's no use hiding it from you now. After all, I think (F/N) won't last very long. I might as well tell you, myself."

Levi remained silent, waiting for the man to finally reveal to him the reason why (F/N) joined the Legion.

"Weak, timid, and not aggressive enough. That was the official evaluation I gave her before she graduated. It was written in the documents I gave Erwin. That was just for formality's sake."

Keith took his eyes off (F/N) for a while and stared into Levi's dull, blue ones.

"She is, in fact, far from weak or timid. If I were to write her evaluation form right now, I'd say, She prioritized others over her own safety. Her skills on the 3dmg are not half bad, and could be improved with proper guidance. Her stamina and endurance outlast those around her, which would be perfect for long campaigns and expeditions outside the walls. She had a sharp mind, and could possibly bring down several Titans should she focus on the task. She had far greater insight, judgment, and mental skills compared to others who only use them to get to the Military Police as a requirement. With proper guidance of a worthy mentor, she could be qualified as the next Commander of the Scouting Legion."

Levi's eyes were wide open in disbelief. "Commander? Of the Scouting Legion?" he stuttered.

"You heard it." Keith's eyes went back to (F/N). "Erwin is planning on retiring. He is planning to pass it onto you, Hange or Mike, but, should things go differently to what he initially predicted, the unfortunate position would go directly to (F/N). No questions asked. The documents are already signed."

"You're lying,..."

For a while, Levi was speechless.

But, then again, why would Shadis lie about something like this?

"Yes. It is the truth."

"She was bullied when she was still a Trainee, right? How could she prioritize those people over her own safety?"

"That's just how she was. She saves them first. She thinks of others' well - being before her. That trait of hers matched the qualities needed to be a Commander."

Levi almost whined. Almost. Shadis was right. (F/N) puts others' safety before hers.

"You said, with proper guidance of a worthy mentor. What exactly do you mean by that?"

"I meant, not you."

"Pardon?"

"You heard me." Keith looked at Levi once more. "You are not worthy to be her mentor. I was thinking of Mike or Nanaba. They would easily find out her greatest attributes without me telling them firsthand. You, on the other hand, thought only about yourself or those who are only important or useful to you."

"I'm sorry? Why do you judge me like that? I'am nothing like what you said!"

"Is that so? You only believed that because you wanted to, when in fact, you don't give a damn on anyone who is not beneficial to you or any of your causes. You even threaten any person to get what you want or to just have your point clear and taken seriously. I dare you to tell me that I'm wrong, Soldier."

Levi couldn't say anything. Shadis read him like he was an open book, verbatim. He knew him all too well.

"The first time I met you, Levi, I saw arrogance. Although the things that you went through as both Soldier and leader of the Scouting Legion changed a bit of your personality, the things about you that led those two poor souls to their demise are still present in you, am I correct?"

"What poor souls?"

"You know exactly who I meant."

Isabel and Farlan,...

It was his fault that they died six years ago.

On that particularly rainy day.

"I see you understand what I meant. I decided you are not worthy to be (F/N)'s mentor. You would only see the things that are negative in her, like those bullies and cowards who enlisted in the Garrison Regiment. Because of your preoccupation with other things, you would never see the good in her. Even your personal feelings would prevent you from realizing her true purpose for joining the Legion. Those things would not be very beneficial to her improvement and would, instead, drag her down and destroy her. But, damn happens. Erwin chose you over her. And we, instead, sacrificed her to get you back as the people's savior. I couldn't do anything about it."

"I'm not their savior!"

"But, they think you are."

"You said something about her purpose for joining the Legion. Wasn't it because she wanted to be the next Commander?"

"No. We never told her anything about that. She wasn't even the one who signed her promotion documents. That was just me, Erwin Smith and Darius Zackly."

"What is her reason, then?"

"Levi, I bet you already know that she has feelings for you. Other than that, she wanted to repay you for saving her all those years ago. And finally, she wanted to be with her sister once more."

"Petra's not her sister. She betrayed her. She was the cause of all her sufferings when she was still a Trainee."

"It's true. But, we'll never know why Ms. Ral did it to her." Keith stood up and went towards the door. "We'll never get to see her as the next Commander. Erwin will have to wait longer for the next candidate. You will never see her again."

And with that, Shadis closed the door, leaving Levi behind.

Later that evening after curfew hours, Hange saw Levi sitting at the far corner of the mess hall, drinking liquor all by himself. The light of a single candle illuminated his tired form.

"Why didn't you invite me, Shorty?"

Levi just looked at her with a blank expression on his face instead of lashing back at her with an insult of his own.

"Hange." he simply said.

The bespectacled woman took this is an invitation and sat in front of him. She threw today's newspaper in front of Levi and took a bottle, opening it quickly and drinking from it like it was water.

Levi noticed the papers and took it. With glassy eyes he read the headlines regarding the annual migration and the latest bits on the cult.

"They finally granted us our long awaited expedition. And you and Erwin were, once again, the stars of that issue. Berg really loves your name. Isn't that great?"

Levi just shrugged. He examined the article and noticed some names that Berg revealed. They were the ones who infiltrated the Legion to spy on him and Erwin. He read the names.

Adam Bright, Lucian Featherweights, Nicolai Pendergast, Harrold Summers,...

Rodrick Pauls

For a space of a few seconds, he stared at the name. He was thinking very hard. Where did I hear that name before?

That's when it struck him.

Rodrick Pauls

"That's him."

"Sorry?" Hange choked a bit on her liquor and stared at Levi, surprised at what he just said.

Levi looked at her and gave her a very creepy smile, the one he rarely displayed in front of anyone. And it honestly unnerved her.

"He got close to Petra to spy on me. He was ordered to infiltrate the Legion to kill me. The Female Titan killed him on the 57th Expedition, so that perverted, old coot had to inject me with that serum as a last resort. Petra loved him so much that she failed to see through his true actions. What a stupid bitch!"

"What,... are you talking about, Levi?" Hange nervously asked him, as his facial expressions turned quickly from creepy to downright maniacal.

Then, something happened that made Hange consider hitting Levi with a metal bar on the head. He started laughing. So creepily, that she thought that she'd have nightmares.

"S-stupid, fucking,... bitch!" he stuttered through his uncontrolled laughter.

"Err, Levi, are you okay?" Hange asked him, while inching bit by bit away from him.

"Fine, fine. Good, as I'll ever be." Levi said, a creepy smile still evident on his face.

"Whatever you say." Hange said and suddenly remembered something. "Hey, Levi?"

"What is it, four - eyes?" he answered while opening another bottle and downing it like an expert.

"You said that (F/N) accidentally made you drink poison that day. Do you still remember that?"

"Hmm." Levi just hummed.

"Well, how could you be just fine? You might be dead by now!"

"Not really. Lately, I'm just feeling a bit constipated. Black tea helps. No worries."

"O-okay,..."

"You know what else I'm feeling right now?"

"What?"

Levi looked at her straight in the eye.

"I could no longer get drunk." he whispered to her, making the feeling of uneasiness go back to Hange's stressed senses. "That's a good thing. The last time I did, I gave (F/N) a hickey."

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~ @levi4mikasa , @yepps , @clovemcpandas , @shewolfofficial , @unhappysap , @super-peace-fangirl , @fangurl-ontgeside , @shortbty14 , and @emilyackerman78 . 💚

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[karaliswrites]

Hero

This is terrible and has spoilers

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When emerald eyes meet ocean blue, Eren knows he wants to talk.  There’s a solemn, perhaps even stern, look on his face and he gulps nervously.  So much has happened to them in the span of so little minutes that Eren is surprised at how much his stomach churns.  He supposes it’s the fact that he can sense Armin’s anger, the spark of fire in his eyes that he’s only seen on a few occasions.  But he still doesn’t think it’s something to be as afraid of as he pathetically and selfishly is.

It’s after Heichou’s plan to make Historia the queen that they have a second to themselves.  And almost as soon as the conversation is over, Armin’s gripping him by the sleeve and pulling him around the corner and out of sight from the others.  Once they’re alone in the dark, secluded alleyway, he’s being thrown forwards a bit more roughly than he’d like.  Though given the fact that any form of malignancy from Armin is enough to make his heart ache, he supposes it doesn’t really matter.  He stumbles as he tries to catch himself and once he does, he turns to see his eyes downcast.  “What the hell, Eren?” he says with a cool shakiness that makes him swallow despite himself.  “Armin.”

He rushes forward, giving him a curt shove.  “What the hell?!”

“Armin, I —” he tries, but soon his tongue is tripping over itself and no words are able to form on his lips.  “What were you thinking?!�� he yells, his fists taking half-hearted swings at Eren’s shoulders.  “What was that about sacrificing yourself?!  That saving humanity shit?!  I can’t believe you!”

“Armin, calm down!” he says, trying to cease the attack on his chest.  He manages to take hold of Armin’s wrists and hold him steady despite his struggles against his grip.  He eventually stops and catches his breath, his fists no longer trembling in resistance.  “Why . . . ?” he mutters, and his voice sounds broken.  “Why did you . . . ?”

“Armin . . . look at me . . . .”

He raises his head, however hesitantly, and when emerald meet ocean, he feels his heart shatter.  Tears flood from sapphire pools and roll hotly down his cheeks.  The sheer agony in his eyes only adds to the exponential hatred he has for himself.  Everything is his fault.  It always was.  “I’m not the hero everyone thinks I am.  They think with my powers, I can save humanity, but they’re wrong.  If . . . if I let Rod Reiss eat me . . . if I restored the power to its rightful place, maybe humanity would actually stand a chance.”

“Eren, those were just things Reiss said to get through to Historia.  He needed her completely on his side and if she saw him as a victim in all this, she would be.  You can still save humanity without their bloodline.”

“How can you be so sure?!” he snaps without thinking.  He sees him flinch, but only slightly.  It still makes his stomach drop.  “For all we know, he could’ve been right about all that!  And even if he’s not, what chance do I have of saving us?!  If anyone should be the hero, it should be Levi or Mikasa — anyone who’s strong enough to be there when they’re needed most!  All I ever do is fuck things up even more than they already have been!”

“Are you even listening to yourself right now?!” he shouts, taking fistfuls of the front of his shirt and Eren’s listening now.  “Do you know how much you’ve done for us?!  How much faith humanity has in you?!”

He hangs his head and mumbles, “How much faith I have in you . . . ?”

Eren feels his lungs constrict in his chest, rendering him completely helpless as he struggles to get enough oxygen.  “You’re not a mistake, Eren,” he says and he’s left speechless at the fact that he’s seemingly telepathic.  The exact thoughts flashing through his mind had somehow become clear to Armin and Eren wonders why it’s always been that way.  But deep inside him, he thinks he knows.  He just doesn’t want to.  “I know how hard it is to think you’re useless.  To think that everyone around you is so much more capable and to wonder why you even deserve to be here.  I’ve felt it all before and I completely understand.”

Armin’s fingers loosen their grip on the fabric of his shirt slightly.  “My entire life, I’ve felt like a burden.  To Mikasa, to the corps, to everyone.  But especially to you.”

He looks up with a sad smile, tears still steady as they run past his lashes and down his cheeks.  “I always thought you were the key humanity needed to survive.  To eradicate the titans.  You had bravery and strength while I had nothing.  I thought . . . you hated me.”

Eren wants to tell him that isn’t true — that it never was and never would be.  But his mouth isn’t moving and besides, he thinks Armin already knows.  “But I realized something.”

He blinks, letting another tear fall across his skin.  “It didn’t matter what I thought of myself as long as you still had faith in me.”

His stomach flips, but this time it isn’t out of fear.  “No matter what happened, you were always willing to entrust your life to me and that was all I needed.  Even if I felt like I didn’t matter to anyone, I always remembered the times you showed me that I did to you.”

He takes a step closer into Eren’s personal space and his breath hitches.  “So even if it doesn’t mean anything to you, I . . . .  You’ve always been a hero in my eyes.  You always have been and probably always will be.  And no matter what comes our way, no matter what obstacles we might face, just know that you’re a hero.  You’re my hero.”

He can’t restrain his tears as they slip from his eyes and he’s suddenly pulling Armin into an embrace he thinks he needed.  The blond’s arms wrap instinctively around him and he buries his nose in golden hair, taking in his scent and feeling himself relax a little.  “Armin . . . ,” he mutters, holding the embrace a bit longer before pulling away.  He brings his hand to press against his cheek, wiping away his stray tears.  “Thank you,” he says sincerely.  Armin smiles and before he knows what he’s doing, he’s leaning forwards and pressing their lips together.  He kisses him back tenderly, wrapping his arms around Eren’s neck like a lifeline.  Their lips slide together like they were meant for each other, prefect and everlasting.  There’s a hint of serendipity Eren thinks, but it isn’t necessarily that.  Nothing about the way their hands pull each other closer, all their passion and grief melting away in one glorious kiss, is anywhere near serendipity.  It’s more like destiny — like a rope that’s tied them together from the start that they’ve now discovered had them connected.  A revelation, an epiphany, a realization that things had always been this way and they were either too young or too dumb to notice.  Perhaps a little of both.

But despite how long they’ve waited for this moment, it has to come to an unfortunate end and they both take a moment to catch their breath.  But then Armin pokes a finger to Eren’s chest and says, “So next time you think about sacrificing yourself, you should consider other people’s feelings.”

“Oh?  And how do other people feel?” he finds himself asking with a grin and he’s amazed at how the conversation went from serious to playful because of a kiss.  “Other people think you’d be stupid to do something like that and if for some reason it went wrong, they’d be drowning in misery.”

“That seems a bit intense, doesn’t it?”

“You know there are people who love you right?”

“Are there?” he asks with mock innocence and the blond rolls his eyes fondly, his fingers toying with the hair at his nape.  “Yes, in fact, there are.”

“Does one of them happen to think of me as their hero?”

“Shut up,” he laughs, giving Eren’s lips another peck.  “You aren’t allowed to use that against me.”

“So you love me, eh?” he avoids the question and giggles at the pout Armin gives him.  He kisses his frown before pulling away to bring him into another hug.  “Of course I do,” he mutters eventually and Eren can’t help smiling into his hair.  “I love you too,” he says and it’s like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders.  And now that years of unspoken words have finally been said, everything seems a little less impossible.

[hazbin-nova]

Attack on Titan - Levi x Reader

Song - Thousand Years by Christina Perrie

The day we met, Frozen I held my breath Right from the start I knew that I'd found a home for my heart beats fast

Breath in Y/N, Breath out, you can do this Y/N

Here I am getting ready to walk down the altar, to the most amazing man in front of the man I first found out what love truly means.

Levi Ackerman.

Colors and promises How to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall But watching you stand alone? All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow  

Flashback

I'm now battling the Female Titan, with some of my friends involving a titan shifter Eren.

We are both moving so fast through the trees, colors becoming a blur. I suddenly feel myself getting pulled back and I can see the female titan pulling on my  ODM gear. I feel myself now starting to freak out, I'm not feeling very brave right now, I feel like I'm about to die.

That's when it happened I was suddenly falling, my ODM gear now not attached to me, well if this is how I'm going to die I'll be happy as long as it isn't by a titan. I then close my eyes ready for my fate

Then out of now where someone catches me, I quickly open my eyes and see the one who has saved me.

Levi Ackerman

One step closer I have died every day waiting for you Darling don't be afraid I have loved you For a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more

Back to the present*

"Y/N you ready?" I hear a voice cutting out my thoughts I turn around and I see my best friend Eren

"Yeah, I am, let's go," I say to him

He then walks up to me and takes my hand and wraps to get me ready to walk me down the aisle. I then quickly get a glance at everyone in there.

I see my 2 gorgeous bride maids, Hanji and Mikasa and Levi's groomsmen, Erwin and Armin.

The music started and I knew that right now it's my time to shine.

Time stands still Beauty in all she is I will be brave I will not let anything take away What's standing in front of me Every breath Every hour has come to this

I walk down the aisle, walking past all Levi's and my friends.

Levi POV

Wow, I see her walk with Eren down the ile and it feels like I am the only person here. he/she/they look so beautiful, I swear I am the luckiest guy in the whole universe, he/she/they brave, strong, a great cleaner, will take no sh*t from anyone. I can still remember the day she taught me that lesson.

Flashback*

"Corporal Levi" I hear someone call my name I turn around and see one of my cadets Y/N.

"Corporal Ackerman" he/she/they stand in front of me.

" Clean up, Jeager's mess" I order her/him/them.

" I'm sorry Corporal Ackerman, but you stated that Eren was your responsibility, you will have to clean the mess" Y/N responds.

I speechless, it feels like its just us in the room.

Before I called Erwin called her over, damn that fool.

But, dammn, I'm going to make her mine.

 One step closer I have died every day waiting for you Darling don't be afraid I have loved you For a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more  

But now here she/he/they are/is walking down the ile in that beautiful/handsome/dashing in their dress/suit. I finally have my wish come true. I am finally being able to make her/him/them mine.

Every day when we lost someone when we went out on an expedition, she would always comfort me no matter how much I tried to push her away she/he/they would manage to come right back in. I felt like she/he/they are the one and I would die every day if I could be in her life everytime I would come back to earth, I would hope I will find her/him/them again. A thousand times if I have to.

And all along I believed I would find you Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand moreI'll love you for a thousand more Ohh

One step closer I have died every day waiting for you Darling don't be afraid I have loved you For a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more

3rd Person View

Y/N and Levi both said their vows and said I love you at the exact same time it was really cute.

I hope they stay together forever as they both deserve and need each other, to help the other one.

Fate, you can't fight it no matter how hard to try.