#And its sad

[the-solitary-child]

Kipperlily Copperkettle analysis, this is a long one so click read more to read all of it.

Kipperlily Copperkettle. Halfling Rogue. 

The Model Minority.

Her parents work good jobs, respectable jobs. One of them is a realtor, they are charismatic and good with words and they work hard. Hard for their family, hard to keep things in order. The other works in bastion city, away from home and with the council of chosen. A noble job, one that is met with praise and awards. It is a good job, a respectable job for the greater good.

Her family is good. Her family is picture perfect, with two parents and a kid and a white picket fence.

She must be perfect, for her sake, for her parents sake. Halflings are kind. Halflings are sweet. They get along with everyone. They are peacemakers, so much so that humans and elves could come and take solace from them. Years of bloody history and violence brews in her veins, and she is supposed to be complicit and smile and act kind. She does so for her parents sake, with a slicked back ponytail and a perfect uniform and a smile too big, too unnerving.

I’m sure people tried to dissuade her, telling her that she wouldn't find more comfort in something different? Maybe a job as a clerk or a secretary, or an artificer so she could help build things for people. She has her mind set though, with her nails digging into her palms to control the bitter rage that boils in her as she is only ever underestimated. 

High school starts and it's supposed to be a new beginning. She will find her party, and she will make friends. And she does, sort of. The High Five heroes she calls them, setting herself up as the leader. She has to take control of everything. They don't really listen to her though. Oisin and Ivy are immediately their own little duo, as are Ruben and Lucy, although Lucy has made a point to include Kipperlily too, and Mary Ann just acts uninterested in everything thus far. She has to make sure everything is perfect. A fight happens during the first day of school. It results in two students death, and makes the principle commit murder suicide on both himself and the counselor in order to bring two students back. Maybe that's where it started, the jealousy and the burning hatred and the obsession. Maybe it started a little earlier that day, when Riz handed out his business cards, and Kipperlily took it. Saw his name, maybe even wanted to be friends at first. Maybe he was too busy with the case of missing penny luckstone, maybe he was too busy with the friends that seemed to care about him. Maybe Kipperlily was jealous that his party actually cared about him, whilst hers only tolerated her at best.

I think that's where it started. The jealousy, the obsession. Her anger got worse, nails digging into skin and drawing blood. She is just so angry. She has always been angry, rage and spite boiling in her blood. Her parents said she came into the world not crying but screaming, like existing in this very world hurt her. She studied him. She learnt everything about him as the year went on and she felt shame. Burning, red shame. She started seeing the new counselor in hopes of getting help. She knew this wasn't normal. She was just so angry and had nothing to do with all this rage and fury. So she talked about it, how she was jealous of him. How he got the perfect adventurers story, a dead dad and a party full of people who cared. Her parents were normal. They were perfect, blended in perfectly. They were kind and sweet and polite and possibly never home because they have busy jobs. Busy respectable jobs. They were respectable people and nothing more because the world would never allow them to be anything more.

One way or another, Porter hears of a halfling rogue with rage in her veins. One way or another he approaches her, tells her that he will help her. He sees her potential, he sees just how great she can be. Kipperlily believes him. She trains with him, learning from him, hooked on to every word of praise he gives her. She is special, she is meant for something great, this school is just unfair and hands out blatant favoritism and she has to stop it. 

Kipperlily takes the rage star, lets it fall into her chest and every petty grudge, jealousy and dislike simply turns to wrath and hatred. She gets her party to join her too, leveling them up with the help of porter and jace. She kills them. She stands over their bodies as rage stars are forced onto their chests. As their corpses are violated and they are brought back just as angry as she has always been. Kipperlily feels no guilt, this is what she is meant to do Porter tells her. She is meant to bring greatness.

Lucy is the only one who doesn't come back. That hurts her, in a way different to anything she has ever felt. Lucy always had her back, always had her side when the party was ganging up on her. Lucy was the only one who understood what it was like to be put down and underestimated. But..she stayed dead. She decided being dead was better than being with her. 

Kipperlily tries to move on but sorrow and rage just burn deep within her.

The rest is history. But one thing is clear, rage has always festered in the heart of Kipperlily, and when she tried to get help, when shame burned in her veins at how childish her rage and jealousy was, she was failed by the people she was supposed to trust. Her rage was used as a weapon, both against her and against others. She was told she would do great things, that she is special and her spite and jealousy was used in order to get her to do things had her teachers not failed her, maybe she wouldn't have done.

Kipperlily will forever have the blood of her friends, of her party members, on her hands. She will never get rid of that shame, it will stain her hands, it will stain her legacy. She is nothing more than a villain in the history books now, when in reality she was a teenage girl who was failed over, and over again. She was a teenage girl who felt rage, and felt ashamed of her rage because she was told she needed to be kind, complicit. A sweet halfling girl, something she never was and never will be. 

[pzyii]

Santanas that definitely for sure aren’t totally self Indulgent….. closeups under cut

Santana also gets to dress up as Chappel roan (I don’t remeber specifically when she wore this outfit but it felt fitting) also just . The guy.

(Comphet) Lesbian catchphrase tm (or that’s what I call it ) plus another example of. The guy

Hmmm alt Santana, yall will get more of her (I have experimented with a lot of dif hairstyles traditionally, I just had the idea of this with this one so yeah)

[bookishfeylin]

At any rate, I need y'all to explain how, exactly, Feyre destroying the Spring Court was meant as punishment for Tamlin if his people weren't hurt/suffering from it in some way. It's reiterated in every book that he despises being a High Lord, so it's not like losing his position and power was what bothered him so much. So what was Feyre hoping would bother him???

She talks about painting the walls of Rosehall red... what did y'all think that meant??? Feyre tells Lucien that she didn't want to kill Tamlin because she thought his court falling apart around him was a better punishment... And Tamlin was explicitly was upset at the High Lord's meeting because of the state of his people, mentioning their villages being nothing but ashes now.

Feyre wanted to use innocent people's suffering to punish their leader. Rather than like, kill Tamlin or something else reasonable, she took her anger out on innocent people. She wanted to use their death and displacement, their pain and suffering, to punish him. And as much as I love Feyre, and as much as I believe it'd be better if Feyre had killed him or something in ACOWAR, it's wholly sadistic to do that innocent people. It's the white woman syndrome all over again.

[tiny-chubby-bird]

i've probably said this before but oH MY GOD i want more video games where you can be the monster SO BAD!!! i'm so fucking tired of being a normal guy with a dumb gun shooting things that are so fucking cool and scary looking, i want to BE THAT THING. i want claws and fangs and a badass long tail with a fucking scorpion sting thingy at the end. i want to stalk prey in a story mode, NOT MULTIPLAYER. i've got mad social anxiety when it comes to pvp games and i don't have enough friends to play with. make some motherfucking singleplayer games, like carrion, but like with cool graphics or a very cool/beautiful and unique style at least, first person or third person idc. carrion is super awesome but the 2d style didn't give me what i wanted exactly. but i cannot fucking believe that we've reached 2025 and there's maybe only a handful of games where you can be the villain/monster?? i'm still hoping for a remake of the prototype games because those were awesome and stupidly gorey, or at least games LIKE prototype to be released. but all we get is more "be a human survivor/soldier shooting all the monsters" and it'S SO BORING. I'M SO BORED OF THIS CONCEPT. it's been done so many times now!!! let me rip and tear AS A CREATURE. i don't want to be human, and if i DO look human, let me be like alex mercer and have some motherfucking cool powers!! instead of a survival horror/action where you're a pathetic human trying to avoid the xenomorph, let me BE the xenomorph, like in the AvP games. let me be the xeno queen, even!! she's so cool!

don't get me wrong, there's a lot of great games out there, i'm not saying they're shit, i'm just saying there's a very specific genre that i'm craving which just, barely exists at all and should be explored more. and i'm sorry, while i love older games like prototype (i've also heard good things about the darkness), i just wish they had todays graphics. i am spoiled, yes, but i just want the game to look good. i want my monster protagonist to look awesome and i want the world around me to be fun to explore and look at.

just... let me be the villain. or let me go up against a really shitty group of humans that are easy to hate so we have a valid reason to wanna rip them to shreds. COME ON, please.

[phlox238]

OH MYGOD. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO EVEN DO NOW

[dev1lm4n]

i need father figure joel to soothe me bcs god damn am i sad

[aeaeaexxzd]

im glad they are giving connor his season. alan ruck must be glad bc he always said he wanted to be able to go more in depth with connor and wow he really did in the last episode. good for her.

[midnight-stormm]

Alot of these CCs need to understand that they have to stop going by hear say and rumors and get the correct information from the source.

You see rumors spreading around about a certain cc and the first thing you do is believe it instead of messaging the person privately, especially if they are a friend.

"Hey, I'm curious, is it true you did XYZ?" or

"Hey, I'm curious, have you heard about XYZ going on about you?"

All these unnecessary drama is just adding more fuel to the fire and its petty. Too much backstabbing going on, starting unnecessary drama, making fun of people that you once consider a friend. Not picking up your phone to talk to them about any issues you have because there clearly is one.

It's like they perfer negative attention over positive ones.

[f1-disaster-bi]

Did I start writing that lyric inspired Lando fic for superhero au? Yes yes I did

[br1ghtestlight]

its like i WANT to be actually good and talented at something to the point people look @ me and say wow ur really good but i know that im not and i never will be. i like writing and i love art but im not GOOD at them in any real way like im not anybodys favorite. i mostly create things for myself but its also sad to realize yknow

[anotherpapercut]

I don't really think it's fair to dismiss the idea that that guy might have been framed for killing the CEO as like an unfounded conspiracy theory when NYPD has a proven history of planting/fabricating evidence on people. in 2011 there was a massive investigation of the NYPD and hundreds of cases against people were dismissed after a former police officer testified that they literally have a name for planting evidence on people: flaking. you cannot be out here acting like considering the possibility that cops who do this shit under normal circumstances might possibly also do it when they're under intense global pressure and scrutiny is the same as republicans thinking democrats run a secret pedophile ring in the basement of a pizza restaurant

[trekkerac]

The start Sadly can't have ghost fun without dying 😢 RIP Stanley

2 seconds before

[gentil-minou]

Everytime I see posts like this I get filled with such profound sadness

Cause you know who has the same brainrot as you? The same unhinged feelings as you after you've read the fic? The person who always wants to scream about the fic with you?

THE PERSON WHO WROTE IT

I never used to leave comments but since I got into the habit of commenting on everything i enjoy it's been incredible. Especially when the author gets back to me about it and we get to have a discussion of what other ideas they had. One writer replied to my comment with a 5 paragraph essay detailing the Floorplan of the building the characters lived in and it was incredible

Anyways this is all to say that if you find a fic that just makes you want to scream from the rooftops, leave a comment saying that to the author and maybe they will join you and you can scream incoherently together

[kuuhaiyu]

i really can't emphasize how heartbreaking it is that the recent harassment campaign against @/90-ghost (among others; see: 1, 2, 3) has led to well-meaning people telling others not to listen to him. he is one of the most visible survivors of the genocide here on tumblr. his entire journey of escape is so well documented! and yet, it only took a few people confidently pointing fingers to create an entire witch hunt accusing him and other palestinians of being disreputable scammers and liars.

i can't help but feel like the reason why people were SO eager to believe those accusations, is because it was uncomfortable to see posts from palestinians every day asking for our time, attention, money, and support; so when someone presented the perfect excuse to ignore all those posts and asks while also taking the high ground, people just LEAPED onto it. they wanted to believe it, because it would be more comfortable.

honestly, i understand feeling overwhelmed by bad news, by the number of asks and messages in your inbox, and so on and so forth. i understand needing to set boundaries for yourself so you don't get burned out. i think this is really when you have to have a set of principles to fall back on, even when you're tired, uncomfortable, angry, and/or sad. so here's the one i suggest, which has been working for me best: don't make your discomfort with this situation into someone else's problem, and for god's sake don't make it a public problem.

if you hate seeing fundraiser posts or news about gaza, i can't emphasize this enough, JUST MOVE ON. KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT AND SCROLL PAST! all you have to do is absolutely nothing. which is what you were doing anyway, so it shouldn't be hard. if you don't have the heart to read, or reblog, or share, or donate, or support in other ways, at the very least, don't obstruct the efforts of people who ARE trying to make a difference. this is, quite literally, the least you can do.

[kylejsugarman]

only thing i know for certain is that if "breaking bad" took place during modern times, jesse would've used his cash to buy a drone and there would've been a sick ass sequence filmed from drone perspective and one episode cold open would've been all scary and sinister and it would end with an ominous shot of the drone laying all crushed and fucked up on the floor to imply harm done to jesse. and it would be really sad

[eydilily]

would you bite the hand that feeds you?