#And if that contract WAS a test do you think Illario got a similar contract?
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I think about that last part a lot. Does Illario know? Because this is what he says in The Wigmaker Job with regards to the possibility of Lucanis failing the contract:
Does Illario not know that Lucanis has forfeited contracts before? Is it just that this is a bigger (higher paying) contract than the ones Lucanis mentions to Davrin? Or does it just not cross Illario's mind here because he's worried in the way he would be if it was his contract? For all his messing around in this story, Illario is the one who's more focused on the job and the job alone. Illario knows very well that he can't afford to fail a contract. Does he know Lucanis can?
I honestly don't think lucanis would have gotten much gentler training than most of the other crows -- if anything I expect he got more direct and intensely focused/constant attention on and control exerted over him than most of them might, since caterina has so much bound up in him both emotionally, politically and (ultimately, as the case always is with the crows lol) financially. she does not seem the type to as it were risk spoiling the sole viable heir by sparing the rod (derogatory). she has too much on the line here leave stuff like that to chance. where the 'first talon's favourite kid' privileges DO likely enter into it for me is that he can every so often make the move to spare a target based in nothing but his own conscience and not be killed for it himself.
which also has me wondering like... did caterina know she was sending him to kill a child, with that one target he mentions to davrin? or was it a surprise to her too? from what he says, she is the one who picks the contracts for him. was that contract how she realized there are things she could ask him to do, uses she could try to put him to, that would just break him (which would be such a waste at this point she's invested so many years and so much of herself in this knife that rests perfectly in her hand)? was it a test?? did it turn into a test both ways??? did lucanis know she wouldn't have him killed for refusing to do it, or is that one of the few times he came back and looked her in the eye to see what she would do, as the closest he's ever gotten to actually telling her 'no'???? 'you have every right to kill me for it, but this is one thing I can't do for you' with his hands not dripping with blood... and for whatever reason or set of reasons you might choose to believe, she doesn't kill him. what an absolutely nuts relationship this is
(how does illario feel watching that go down. knowing lucanis can gamble on love or sunk cost logic or whatever it is that stays her hand to hold on to having a soul, while illario could surrender his whole soul unquestioningly every time to her and still not have the love.)
#I doubt Illario has ever tried. Between his focus on finishing the job and this line and a couple other lines it seems like#Illario is not one to push rules in that way. He'll mess around during the job and spend his free time on debauchery and fun but#He never gets close to that line of disobedience that Lucanis does.#Lucanis will always follow his heart and deal with the consequences later. Illario doesn't. (Can't?)#Is it because Illario is more afraid of the consequences? Or because he knows his consequences would be worse?#Lucanis is probably pretty sure Caterina won't kill him. (And he'd probably rather have died than kill a child since he's so passively suic#But Illario? I doubt he has that same confidence. He's the spare. He's expendable. He knows that.#And if that contract WAS a test do you think Illario got a similar contract?#Because I don't think Illario would dare come home with a contract not fulfilled.#And for all Illario is portrayed as (and portrays himself as) a selfish man with no morals there's no way this kind of thing would have#no affect on him growing up#He's the way he is BECAUSE he was never allowed to develop empathy for others not the other way around#He feels empathy. He just only feels it for his family. He's not incapable of it. He's just... turned it off for everyone else.#Because unlike Lucanis he didn't have a choice.#(I'm not saying Caterina would actually have killed him for it. I don't think she would. I'm just saying Illario 100% believed she would.)
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