#And I refuse to accept that it's my fault
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*Not sure this discussion belongs under this post but...*
Tony doesn't sacrifice anything in CACW... He's a billionaire with zero consequences at the start of the movie, and he is still that at the end of the movie.
gif 1: 'justice for the voiceless'
🤣 Mr Hyperverbal! Tony's whole MO is talking over and more than everyone else; he literally interrupts others advocating for themselves (because they're not capitulating to him) just to tell them to shut up. The only time he doesn't do that is because he can't out emotionally-blackmail a dead son's mother.
And why are all these 'people' voiceless, I wonder? Could it be because they are... mysteriously dead, somehow? I wonder how that happened. Does 'justice' look like somebody being jailed and put out of business, losing his precious money? No...? Funny that!
(I'm sure them being a billionaire has nothing to do with it though!)
Tony would sit in a room with a woman whose entire family and country have been destroyed by his weapons, and mansplain collateral damage to them (which suddenly matters because an American was hurt, right? Fuck them illegal immigrant kids, right?)
(Defining characteristic of the Stark family: take only credit, never blame. If you are personally to blame for something, describe that something as a collective fault; if someone else did something great, steal it and/or take all the credit for yourself!)
And the fact that it was always Steve, Nat, Clint, Wanda, etc. down on the ground at street level helping civilians... well, Tony never noticed that of course. As his own bodyguard said, Tony wouldn't remember someone unless they were a blonde with a big rack... Steve may be a blonde with a big rack, but he's not the right sex! 😂
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gif 2: Tony claims he stopped making weapons.
'Once I discovered my leopards-eating-peoples-faces company was causing peoples faces to be eaten by leopards, I stopped that!' -- Says Man who still runs a leopards-eating-peoples-faces company and never stopped. 🤦♀️
You have to wonder just what Tony thought weapons were for, exactly, if he thought his weapons weren't doing any harm before?
(Which he only suddenly deigned to notice because the person getting their chest blown open was- gasp! -an American!)
He decides his weapons were only bad because they were in the 'wrong hands.' 🙄 Implying that the 'right hands' exist, ie. his own. An American billionaire's hands. But then he criticises Steve for saying the Avengers' hands are the safest hands for world-saving?
(Which is true, in this universe, because the WSC's solution for world-saving was to drop a nuke on Manhattan. The Avengers already tried government oversight and it was Hydra, Ross's Hulk project, AIM, dropping nukes, etc etc. Bad writing alert!
Why the fuck would Tony of all people be in favour of that? He told Congress to go fuck themselves when it came to them controlling the Iron Man suits! Then the Vice POTUS turned out to be AIM, who had Pepper abducted and experimented on -- made into an enhanced person against her will! -- but suddenly Tony trusts governments to handle enhanced people? And he's fine with people talking shit about Bruce?? Since when?! Make it make sense!)
The Iron Man movies, Avengers, Cap and Spiderman movies, all feature brand new weapons Tony designed, built, and gave away... after claiming he wasn't in the weapons making industry any more.
Even IM3, when he temporarily lost his armour, had Tony personally making weapons, and handing a weapon off to a kid -- to use on other kids, at his urging!
This idea that Tony ever gave up being an arms dealer is just part of his own Iron Man mythology he's made up in his head.
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gif 4: Tony has never sacrificed any personal freedoms, nor accepted any limitations on himself.
(Despite sneering at ordinary people who refuse to sacrifice their personal freedoms in favour of authoritarianism. That 'for the greater good' line up there could have come straight out of Project 2025! 🤢)
Tony makes a mockery of Ross and the Accords, despite pushing for them. He never had any intention of doing as he was told, and that's one of his trademarks as a character.
Steve in CACW is anti- corrupt governments (which his films have given him good reason for; Tony's films ought to have given him the same ideology, too... but this is a Disney movie.)
Tony is pro / arguing in favour of handing over control to a potentially corrupt government. Specifically, handing over policing of a minority -- enhanced people -- who aren't like Tony... but he pretends he's in the same boat as them, when he isn't.
He even said government having an agenda is a good thing!
Yeah, how's that working out for you, America?
Subheading of the Accords document: 'The Registration of enhanced people.'
Tony is advocating for the exact same things that ICE and the Trump Administration are doing to immigrants in America right now, because it doesn't and won't ever affect Tony personally. The leopards were never going to be eating his face!
(It reminds me of what Magneto said about mutants working for the US in X-Men: First Class:
"Identification, that's how it starts. And ends with being rounded up, experimented on, eliminated."
Could have come straight out of Steve's mouth!)
The Raft (as Sam correctly clocks) is Guantanamo Bay for Enhanced People, and Tony idiotically argues in favour of that, and is then all shocked pikachu face when that is in fact precisely what they get. (Channelling Trump voters now crying about the conses quencing.)
He's an ignorant sheltered idiot who calls himself a genius but has no idea what life is like for non-billionaires, because he doesn't care to know. (Not surprising given that Musk was the inspo for Tony, as set out by RDJ himself, Jon Favreau, and the guy who wrote IM1).
Steve -- the one who actually goes to the Raft to break the innocents out, unlike Tony! --- is anti-authoritarianism... anti-ICE-for-enhanced-people. And he's been breaking out prisoners of authoritarians since CATFA!
So Tony does not embody what Steve stands for, and never could, because what Steve stands for is Antifa -- Tony embodies what Steve has always stood against.
(And, since never learning a lesson or taking blame for anything is Tony's trademark, he is back to nonsense Hydra monologuing and blaming the Snap on everyone else, in EG. 🤦♀️)
Steve isn't throwing away his persona in CACW, he's living up to it.
Being anti-authoritarian and protecting innocents from authoritarian bullies, deploying the 'I can do this all day' battlecry -- suffering personally in order to achieve the right thing -- is exactly what Steve would do even if he never knew Bucky at all.
(That he gets to do one good thing, and save Bucky (another good thing), is just a perk; it's the narrative's way of condoning Steve's moral stance.)
Tony Stark in CA:CW + the values of Captain America
#antitony#using the word 'humility' to describe...TONY STARK? THE SELF-CONFESSED NARCISSIST? TONY STARK?? OF ALL PEOPLE?? 🤣#just once I wish someone had got to tell that little gremlin to stfu... one slap across the face!#cacw meta#mcu salt#mcu critical#I feel like they manufactured an authoritarian stance for tony to have that doesn't make sense with his backstory...#just so they could put him on the 'opposite' side from steve and make the action figures fight#to be IC tony should be more geared towards american exceptionalism than authoritarianism#if steve is the guy telling the government to go fuck themselves for ideological reasons#tony is the guy telling the government to go fuck themselves because he's a contrarian manchild who accepts no rules for himself#they are on the same side by accident; like if superman and lex luthor had to join forces to repel an alien invasion of earth!#because tony should have learned from his mistakes... if the writers were doing their jobs properly#he should have given up on hydra-esque shit#that silly 'but the torment nexus would've been great!' stuff should have died with ultron instead of keeping it going up til EG#but tony stans are in such a rush to brown nose WHATEVER he does...#...that they've rendered themselves incapable of recognising that what he's doing is... logically OOC?#putting themselves in the ridiculous position ...#of having to argue that authoritarianism simply CAN'T be authoritarian cuz it's their blorbo speaking in favour of it 🤦♀️
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Posting one Murder Drones meme a day until Episode 5 drops, Day Eight.
#Murder Drones#Liam Vickers Animation#Glitch Productions#Uzi Doorman#Murder Drones Uzi#Solver Uzi#Serial Designation J#Murder Drones J#Murder Drones Tessa#Leaked Uzi VS. Tessa fight scene 100% real not clickbait#Finally figured how to remove the link things from pictures#So if you need me I'll be going through all my older posts and doing that#In other news apparently I've had the date wrong this entire time#I thought E5 was coming out on the 6th when it's actually the 9th#IDK how I got it mixed up but I'm so upset that I did#And I refuse to accept that it's my fault#So I'm gonna blame the Australians and their stupid day/month/year thing instead /lh#On the bright side tho it means I get to post more memes#Straight From the Dragon's Mouth
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truest thing gabriel everrr said was that adrien had emilie's flair for the dramatics
#<-girl who makes up things to say to herself about miraculous ladybug#but tbh I think gabe was just speaking his truth there. rare moment of unbiased honesty#their dramatics being: dying#adrien watching his mother dive headfirst into death and serve looks while doing it: I can learn from this#gabe excluding himself from that statement is where he had his blinders on though.#king you set the bar for drama in that household#gave your only son the silent treatment while you refused to accept the death of your wife which was entirely your & your wife's fault#and proceeded to make it EVERYONE'S problem forever#someone get these worms out of my brain#ml#anna rambles#thirteen
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KILL!!!!!!!!!
#my post#this is so mean. why did i make this#but also....... the gun is in your hands now#i'll admit that it's my fault for putting the gun in your hand... however i've no say in what you choose to do with it#will you pull the trigger and accept whatever happens from now on? will you give yourself into the role forced upon you?#no one will know anything if you don't say anything. there will be no consequences or repercussions to this choice#but you will know. and you will need to live with that knowledge for the rest of your life#a gun not fired is like an itch not stratched#in the end i have no control over what you do... but free will is a funny thing#the brain is very susceptible to suggestion... everything we see and experience will remain with us in some way#if that's the case then how much control do we really have in our lives? how do we separate what we really want vs what we're told to want?#things like hunger... desire... they're all things the body asks for. but are they things that we truly want?#or are they merely a mechanism built into us for the sake of survival?#everything blends into everything. your past actions will inform your current actions. you're the only one who's ever lived your life#you're the only one who will ever live your life#little variables and experiences we all share... but the order varies greatly from person to person. everything is just a series of events#the way i see the world is different than the way you see it regardless of how similar they are#what choice will you make now? and how does it differ from the choice you would've made a week ago? a month? a year? does it differ at all?#does free will truly exist? i think it does... but not in the way most people think it exists#you and i... we might differ on that thought. or we might not.#regardless of whatever i've been rambling about right now... refusing to make a choice is still a choice you make. life is ironic like that#does one of them really have to go? that's for you to decide now#i've merely chosen to put the gun in your hand. to make you aware of the possibilities#so i hope you realize what power your choices have#dca fandom#daycare attendant#yeah sometimes i just say things that i think are deep but they're really not#i hope the choices i make have an effect on others. even if it's just one person...#if i can make even just one person think about something they wouldn't have normally thought about then isn't that a win?#life is a series of choices... ''it'd be great if you could see a figure of light by the time you die'' ♡
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need my dads support with something but hes way busy with grandparents and it really does make me feel like a burden. cus like i do kinda view my grandma as a burden and im doing the same shit shes doing. but what does that say about how i view disabled people. wough
#grandma refuses to accept help but we're not gonna let her rot away so we have to help anyway. she just makes it difficult#whereas im asking for help but i dont know what i need and no one has time to figure it out. just feels shit#i know that i believe disabled people whos disabilities are their own fault still deserve support. i know this#its just really hard to apply it to my own grandma who i have my own complicated feelings about#universal compassion should be easyyyy. i hate feeling like this
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#but really I am sad bc yeah I’m gonna always pick me but omg I’m fucking tired#I actually kind of mean the arranged marriage thing bc I really hate dating disappointment#and I’m never going to sit there and beg anyone for anything. not even an ego or pride thing but a self awareness thing like#come to me w self awareness and emotional intelligence so you can recognize your own faults and we can talk through it#but fleeing like that just shows me you have hella work to do in therapy and you’re not ready and neither are you what I need atm#but ya it hurts especially when I’ve done a lot to not be so black and white in a situation and the person still got in their own way#maybe I just need to not date anymore. like I really am ok if I end up single forever and I’m also just tired and sad but#I really am ok w being single and doing my own thing bc I refuse to lower my standards and accept anything less than what I know I deserve#so anyways I think I’ve just solved my problems#me
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I wish I believed they were going to be brave instead of trying to pull a soulless cash-grab. Because if they were brave, I honestly believe they could do something awesome with this.
I'm serious, hear me out.
These are apex predators, and they are not mammalian. They should be scary lizards that trigger an instinctual fear response if it weren't for marketing pressures.
More importantly, I think the message of radical acceptance, of both the self and others, could actually be strengthened by the dragons not looking cute or approachable.
I have thoughts, so I'll put those below the cut for anyone interested.
If they were brave, they could acknowledge that a lot of the fans of the first movie are adults now, and that they don't have to make the dragons less threatening to avoid scaring the intended audience of young children. I would love to see them really play up the terror angle instead. They could make the dragons not just dangerous, but unsettling, disturbing, the exact opposite of cuddly/approachable. Essentially, you should want to hit them with a shovel at first. Especially since most of them are being controlled, and none of them have learned any of the body language to communicate with humans yet; they should feel other, and that should feel dangerous, at least at first.
If they did that, and added a couple of tweaks throughout the rest of the story, all of a sudden Hiccup's empathy would carry a lot more weight; he's not just befriending what is obviously just a special dog with scales, he's truly looking beyond his deep- and socially reinforced- fear response to empathize.
It would take some extra dialogue tweaks as well, but I think the seeds are all there already in the original script. Honestly, I think it's true to the ideas the original movie script was presenting. The whole message was radical acceptance of the self *and* of others as they are. It's easy to see that message in Hiccup, and how his empathy was the answer even though it was looked down on by everyone around him. It's even present in pretty much all the human characters, with them being comfortable in their own skins, and that contributing to them having or finding a place for themselves. I mean, consider, Stoick isn't framed as wrong for his desire to protect his village, or for using his strength and leadership skills to do so. No, he's framed as wrong for not accepting Hiccup, or the truth about the dragons, and his continued refusal to do so even when it will harm the things he wants to protect. Crucially, it's his acceptance of both his son and Toothless for who they are that acts as both the turning point for the story, and the redemption of his character.
More to my point though, I think that same message of acceptance, including self acceptance, is also present with respect to the dragons. I just think it's easier to take it for granted when it comes to the dragons.
There's lots of little examples, but I think the best one is the dragons' instinctual inability to disobey the Red Death (the queen). It's the mechanism behind the conflict of the first movie. It's not their fault, sure, but it is at the heart of the problem even if it's not the root cause. And it's not like it goes away either since it's also behind the villain in the second movie in basically the same way.
The instinct is not framed as wrong though, and that's key. Acknowledging the instinct is a key step in fixing the root of the problem twisting it towards destruction in the first movie, and in the second movie just acknowledging it and trying to overcome it wasn't quite enough. Toothless couldn't win by overcoming the instinct to obey an alpha, he had to fully accept that part of himself, and that it could coexist alongside the more human bits he'd chosen to incorporate into himself, to achieve self-actualization as an alpha. And Hiccup instantly accepted that part of Toothless, further reinforcing the underlying message that no one is inherently wrong because of who or what they are.
But I digress from my rambling. I think leaning into the dragons looking reptilian and predatory could absolutely work if they were brave about it. If they made them look truly scary, and actively framed that as ok, as not inherently wrong, just inherently different, I think that could slot right into the message at the heart of the story and add nuance, depth, IMPACT to it. If they do that they would earn my praise, even if it doesn't quite end up landing. I just wish I believed, at all, that the people making the decisions were brave enough to do so.
But hey, maybe I'll be proven wrong the same way I was with Wicked. I'll be ecstatic if that ends up being the case.
the live action httyd movie is an insult to us all and should never have been made. how is this slop better than beautiful stylized animation
I want to hit it with a shovel
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but also literally the fact that jack manhattan stands up the hotel gift shop like right after/before she gets mad at liv. Paula baby be an adult. I love to watch them all spiral but i really do hope we get a liv confrontation moment
miss paula "slams screens down laptop style the moment she sees something she doesn't like to confront on them" donvaldson we can one day get there together I believe in you
#not art#ngl I also hope she never gets a win I hope if she and liv comes to a head liv wins soundly#I know thats not how emotional conflicts work but I just think liv should get this one. shoplifting from walgreens is epic#I get the impression before her time at the mall paula's life is very like. uneventful. like she finds it great overall but like every othe#adult of that generation I've seen straight married she was glossing over some fault lines to get to be a ''normal upstanding citizen''#and the fault lines get deeper and things fall apart and she refuses to confront that it's something long in the making#it's instead this disaster that came upon her and her family out of nowhere and thus the Worst Thing On Earth#her life's irrevocably upended when she's already a decent streak of perceived stability into it. and now she loves order and justice#or not! I'll admit on sight I'm not as familiar with the Midwest Gothic and adjacent genre as much as uhh#East/SEAsian Parent Who Is One Child Out Of The House Away From Joining A Cult genre#maybe thats why paula fascinates me lmao#I say she should keep losing bc I think an arc of accepting that life is chaos and people are more important than rules would be#great for her. esp with her being in her late 50s. but also just bc she's SO good when she's cringefail. Im so sorry women#she Should explode at liv and she Should be so wrong. she's spiritually my cody for nsbu. I love her. lets get u some initiative ma'am#nsbu spoilers
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🫶 thanks for responding back! i appreciate all the hard work you’ve planned out for us 🎉 i can’t wait to see more of the darker themes fleshed out at the end of the first part, i will be waiting patiently LOL 👍 in terms of yandere, how bad do you think it will be? what do you have planned in that department?
also i hope you get better soon 😅 please take breaks and certainly take your time!
well ive said that its very mild on the yandere side even later on in the slowburn. its barely yandere more, like... obsession??... at least for the first while. the yandere part is more just there as a warning because I don't want to shock people with the small bit of dark content there will be. i really don't like yanderes that hurt reader (they just don't make sense to me. yandere to me is about having too much love, and you wouldn't hurt someone you loved??) and like,,,, spoiler cut here but like, these are all things that are in the tags/warnings/just information around
i need happy endings. i cant handle even the slightest bit bitter ending it hurts me physically. i am writing a happy ending. it will take grovelling, compromise, and probably fixing the universe but idc. i will uncritically romanticise toxic relationships. i can fix him he can fix me we will fix ourselves for each other. THATS ROMANCE BABEY!!! ITS BEING YOUR BEST SELF BECAUSE YOU LOVE SOMEONE!!! AND YANDERE IS ABOUT LOVE. ITS ABOUT LOVE!!!! ALWAYS LVOE!!!!
#sophie speaks#sophie answers#series:www#i know people want darker content#and like totes respect to that but I'm going to ride the line#we WILL have a happy ending and we WILL have reverse harem ending and I REFUSE TO ACCEPT ANYTHING LESS#YES they will kidnap you NO i don't consider that a dealbreaker. just let me out and say sorry and its fine#i wasnt even sure if id share the fic when I first started writing it#didnt think anyone would like it or its weird jokey/dark/overly sappy/also the weird dynamic all at the same time tone#this is a story about all the parts of life#the good and the bad and the parts you probably shouldn't laugh at but will anyway#im in a bit of a weird place mentally atm. I'm healing and I'm also reverting and I've never experienced dissociation in this form and its.#its confusing. this fic is just meant to be confusing but hopeful. because I'm confused but I'm never not hopeful :)#whatever man if i cant think properly i dont think its really my fault if my silly little fanfiction is too long and wordy and insane#im insane it leaks out#if that wasnt obvious...m
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Strange thinking about the ways people have hurt you that they never apologized for when it's been like eons since those moments happened. Like should I still be angry about it or should I just let it go. Thoughts with Peg at 1 am. I need to sleep.
#I also just generally have issues with telling people when they hurt me#I'm trying to be better about it but#Man. The curse of complacency and people pleasing#And the forever fear that if I attempt to bring these issues up it's just gonna blow up in my face#That people will refuse to take accountability and I'll just be forced to leave#Because in all my 17 years of being alive no one ever wants to acknowledge that they've hurt my feelings#It's always my fault somehow#Type shit that happens when you make friends with several people over many years that cannot handle communication#Or accepting that they did something wrong#ANYWAY HARRY OSBORN AM I RIGHT GUYS
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My Atsushi design actually makes me wanna bash my head into a wall then explode into a million itty bitty pieces. HES SO SCRUNKLY. HES SO BLORBO BUT ALSO MIPY MOO!!!!!! I HAVEN’T POSTED IT AT ALL YET BUT WHEN I TELL U HE IS MICROWAVABLE. I HOPE HE BITES AN ELECTRICAL CORD AND DIES!!!!!
#all I will say is edgy emo atsushi is my everything#u can’t tell me he isn’t a messy eyeliner abuser#ALSO CAT EAR HAIR TUFTS!!!#but only after he’s accepted the tiger as who he is#I like to think Junichiro gave him his old earbuds and ever since then it’s been OVER.#atsu loves evanescence and its yosanos fault#also probably has some music taste overlap with Akutagawa but aku is a massive music gatekeeper and refuses to accept it#bsd
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i've got stuff to do tonight but i am thinking about how it absolutely fucking pains me to see the joy and energy and love of living sapped from constantine's spirit over the initial run of hellblazer. like he goes from this spirited, wisecracking, life-loving, bully-punching, fastidious little guy to a man so disintegrated by decades of grief and being used and never being good enough for anyone that he was willing to be buried alive to serve a cause he didn't even care about. thank god they gave him back some friendly connections and some semblance of hope by the end of "red right hand", because that late-hellblazer constantine was utterly unrecognizable and it broke my heart.
#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#now let's be real: this shift was 90% that shitbird azzarello's fault#because that loser could not BEGIN to fathom the radical kindness and open queerness of early hellblazer and he didn't even fucking try#and his writing stained the character for YEARS because so many after him continued with that Macho Quasi-Devil image#and there is a LOT of his run that i categorically refuse to take as text#but from an in-universe perspective? seeing constantine crumble over time like that? fucking Oof#the beast of eden + rosacarnis + the gift/cheryl dying were really a turning point for him. they were his last straw#and i always like to read 'red right hand' with the grieving process close to mind because that's his depression + acceptance stage#the point where he finally finds something to live for again and starts to climb back out of his spiral#anyway shoutout to si spurrier for bringing some of john's love of the little things in life back to his run bc FUCK was it some fresh air#acknowledging all his trauma and all he's lost while still giving him moments of levity? Bless#idk does any of this make sense? i've been on a reread and losing my mind as always
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yknow that feeling where everything that's going wrong in your life isn't directly your fault but it's all connected to you so its indirectly your fault and you're just caught in the middle of it all in order to not upset everyone even more. Yeah. that's how im felling right now
#my parents are in a fight and it's been building up all week but tonight was the crux of it#because we're getting a new bathroom fitted because i can't use our current one anymore and my dads upset about it but won't admit it#and he can't accept that i need a wheelchair now and was upset about me using one on Saturday to go to pride#not upset at me direct but the whole situation and it made him really snappy#and then it rained and a taxi refused us cause of the chair#and my mum accidentally told me that he was upset about the wheelchair and couldn't accept it when i didn't know that#amd now i feel like everything thats going wrong right now is my fault and it's causing a flare up and my painkillers arent fucking helping#me#so now idk what to do#im just upset#but at least i get to see some drag kings on Thursday. Small mercies. i love drag kings. i met one and literally went weak at the knees.#he was so cool
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Love characterising nishikiyama as a booze hound drug hound meth addict high every day body mass 75% alcohol hands constantly shaking literally spacing out while driving fifty over the speed limit using elderly folk as speedbumps one hand on the wheel and one hand free to do more drugs and coming into work while functionally deaf and blind and he is still leagues more competent at his job than kiryu
#Yakuza loveblog#i dont talk about nishikiyama enough because im kazamapilled and hate him a little bit but im also kiryupilled and love him so much so you#see my problem? like i adore when nishiki is just. better in every way than kiryu and nobody ever sees that because theyre all too busy#sucking kiryus cock like okay nishiki had the rest of his life planned out when he was twenty and he was an extremely successful criminal#and getting himself noticed in many many circles then kiryu steps outside and gets into a street fight immediately and the entire tojo clan#surrounds him to throw cash at him like nishiki was actually doing so well for himself before his life was ruined. nothing is his fault#like i love just accepting that nishiki has one hell of a substance abuse problem and nobody cares enough about him to talk to him about it#and kiryu thinks its normal because hes the only one who can see that nishikis doing some great work out there so he must be doing#everything right. inconceivable that nishiki has any sort of ‘problem’ hes the real screwup and kiryu knows he makes life harder for himself#but he refuses to change because hes convinced that thats the only thing hes good at. like i believe that nishiki has a coke snorting#mechanic in game like harry db and without his coke buff he cant do as much damage like with it his output is on par with kiryus whos just#been blessed since birth by the violence gods. anyway kiryu is the only person in the world who thinks that nishiki is great do you get it#nishiki has lived his entire life in kiryus shadow and he doesnt care that kiryu has a natural charisma that he will never have. he has to#get out there every single day networking and socialising and hustling and nonstop landing interviews with cool magazines to get his name#out in the world while kazama takes kiryu out and drags him by the elbow to meet people like this is my son kiryu who has every disease and#everyone claps and cheers like i cannot stress enough how on top of the game nishiki is compared to kiryu. he has a car. kiryu doesnt even#have his own lighter. they are not on the same playing field and yet nishikis always trailing behind him because opportunity is always#knocking at kiryus doorstep whether he likes it or not and nishiki gets fed scraps and nothing else and hes the one with ambition he wants#the view on top and most importantly he wanted his brother there with him but nobody ... likes him ... nobody likes nishiki nobodys in his#corner he onky had kiryu and when he lost him it was quite literally him against the world. it always made me laugh how at the end of yk1#harukas paying her respects at nishikis grave when the only time he ever cared about her was because he wanted her little pendant and he#(actually fucked how alone nishiki was he didnt even have his own fucking men to rely on he was basically working alone with someone he knew#was using him like ??? he was fucking desperate) anyway i really love to think that kiryu being nishikis only friend and the last person in#the world who thought kindly of him (barring like ... kashiwagi) was grieving terribly over his death and haruka being a sensitive and#sweet little girl took the initiative to ask about nishiki and i think kiryu would tell her stories every night of the kind of stuff he and#nishikiyama would get up to when they were her age. he would tell her how amazing nishiki was and how he always looked out for him how he#took care of his sister and how he would always be the one to remind them of impending birthdays and the like. nishiki cared about the#little things .. and he made kiryu want to care about them too but theres just something different between them because nishikis always#been a better person than him .. and he would tell haruka in a voice that sounded like he was begging her to understand that nishiki wasnt a#bad person.. though he did bad things he was a good man and he still wishes with all his heart that he could have done more to save him ...
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There's some great Elden Ring lore videos but where's my two hour long queer reading of Elden Ring you cowards !!
#am i gonna have to do it myself#i assume it is out there it just hasn't come up in my recommendations#like I'm just buzzing thinking about mohg and morgott as the two ends of the queer child spectrum#both born wrong in a way that means they cannot continue the bloodline and are rejected by their parents#Morgott responds by becoming closeted as the veiled monarch and devotes himself entirely to protecting his parents and their legacy#and yet never receives the love and respect he craves#like the assimilationist queers of the past few decades#no matter how much you try to fit in you will never be accepted like your normal peers#and so mohg has the opposite reaction#if they're going to reject him then he's going to leave#but instead of rejecting the hierarchal structure that forced him out he's trying to recreate it but just with him at the top#he's obsessed with family and love and bloodlines that were denied to him#and his refusal to let that go means he tries to recreate it in horrible and misguided ways#kidnapping miquella to be his consort#surrounding himself with the bloody fingers who “love” him but who are really in love with the bloodlust and excuse to do violence#and no matter how terrible their actions are you know it's mostly the fault of their parents for not accepting them as they are#anyway#I'm rotating them in my mind#elden ring posting#personal post
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i wanted to yell about how evil trying to get into college is but i just genuinely do not have the words for how dismal this is
#i used to be able to console myself with like. at least its Over after this december but like#it will not be over because i will still have to apply next year because im not getting accepted anywhere this year.#all my personal writing stuff sucks and its not going to get better nd even if it was flawless the max words u can use is like twenty words#okay actually one thing tho. im gonna lose my mind if anyones like wow. u shouldve tried harder to get in...#like. well its a bit difficult to get it taken care of when no ones helping me. i dont have a lack of initiative#its just that im back in eigth grade social studies#and the teacher is still walking away from me while im in the middle of asking her a question#like.im going to do very bad because people cannot play games they dont know the rules of and u are refusing to tell me. ??#not my fault. :thumbs up:
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