#Also it’s only 5 words and yet it’s also the end of chapter cliffhanger bc I jumped around to the end last time I was writing

[jamietwat]

Tagged by @catalogercas

Rules: post the last sentence you wrote (fic/ original/etc) and tag as many people as there are words in the sentence.

Sentence: “What are you doing here?”

I have no idea who has and hasn’t been tagged so far, but that’s 5 so I’ll go with @lunar-years @fanficfanattic @lemoncupcake @antitheticallyargumentative @may-be-magic

[tryhardgwen]

hi gwen!

tysm for writing and posting, I really love all of your work!

quick question just for fun: if someone could only read five of your fics and no more, and you got to pick which ones, which five would you want them to read? you can include wips if you want

happy writing and i can’t wait for your next update!

anon i am so sorry for the late reply, i just. had to think about this a LOT. then i may or may not have forgot about it. oops. but thank you so much for the submission and for enjoying my fics!!

ok we are NOT including wips because that would make this answer infinitely harder. also because i can’t really judge them because… they’re not… done. im also not counting i want your violence, since it's not finished. i AM including kim suhwan vs. the world, however, because it's essentially finished. so i'm picking out of my 25 fics. that being said, here is my list of my 5 fics i would want people to read:

kim suhwan vs. the world

all my love

the mouth of the wolf, the eyes of the lamb

and all of my dreams, they’re growing lucid (i mean, can we do two here? just the whole busan boy series. this and the beach.)

don’t blame me

pour one out for the fakenuts sure, but i havent written one im incredibly proud of yet. if the one im working on turns out good, then well… 😶‍🌫️ but thats neither here nor there since it is NOT FINISHED and i dont wanna torture myself with choosing.. really op i have 26 published fics and ur making me choose FIVE of 25. ok, i will delve into my reasoning under here.

ahem. so, to start with... kim suhwan vs. the world. i feel like this one is a little self-explanatory, if only because it's my most recent fic. i do think it's one of my best written (my older fics are definitely lacking in skill, i didn't get good at writing until late 2023 i'd say) and i just... love the plot. so writing quality is great, concept also great! description amazing, dialogue amazing. my best work so far... i guess that makes sense, since im improving in skill as i write and grow more. i love peyz. i love writing fics about love and growing up and coming of age, and okay i DID project a bit onto peyz because i too have an unrequited crush and uh... i struggle with my emotions being a "lot" a lot. especially as of late, ive been "feeling" a lot. i get angry, i get sad. i mean my dad died lol! (i do sort of separate my fics nowadays as pre-dad death and post) but this story is just so special to me. you can see my growth as a person and a writer in comparison to my first fics. i mean, its been two years, pretty much. suhwan here is so special to me, and so is jihoon, honestly. wangho is too, and... god i do love geng 2023 so much. AGH. i know chapter 5 isn't out yet, but it will be tonight, or tomorrow! before t1 geng semis, at least. i hope.

next, all my love. also self-explanatory i think. it's my most popular fic, and even though i don't even really like onerzeus, i love this story and i love my iteration of them. i really badly wanted to write a second chance homecoming story (fun fact, aml was almost a bengifaker instead of onerzeus!) and i ended up doing that. i chose onerzeus since i thought they fit it. and then the fic sorta snowballed. i initially wanted 3 chapters, 10k each, 30k total word count. hoo boy that didn't happen LOL. EVERYTHING snowballed. i started putting all my favorite music in it, and putting cars and stick shifts in, and making the almost-family have an auto shop. i put jojopyun in bc i fucking love the guy so, so much. i put many bits of myself and my dad into it (i look back on this fic with a tad bit of sentimentality because it has so much of him in it. i did write that fic before he died). but i put just.. things i wanted to put in. it was SO self indulgent! gumakeria marriage, jojopyun, music, and cars... i remember working super hard on this fic in particular, and i think it paid off. all the "surprises"/cliffhanger type-things were something i put a lot work into. i think the writing quality of this fic is... halfway decent/pretty good... description was almost amazing, and dialogue was pretty good. conceptually, one of my best. this fic will always be special to me.

next would (maybe surprisingly?) be the mouth of the wolf, the eyes of the lamb. conceptually, i believe this is my best fic conceptually, which is why i chose it. i really don't think this shows my best writing at all (not even top 5 best writing) but i think i execute the CONCEPT well regardless! i did write it in pretty much one sitting because i was in the midst of burnout and i just got the idea and knew i had to get it out, so that's my excuse on the sub-par writing quality and possibly choppy plotline. it has pretty okay description, not bad dialogue. i definitely could've made it smoother. but in general, i just love the "lck mid holy trinity" of faker, showmaker, and chovy. i love lck midlaners so much. the idea of showmaker and chovy being kindred and faker the grey man descended upon me like a blessing from the gods. BY GOD DID I COOK. i didn't write a ton of au fics prior to this fic (ntm any fantasy aus), but i really should more. i love it so much, and i love the ending (which i wrote at like 4 am in the morning in a haze because i randomly thought of it half asleep!) i'm super proud of this conceptually and i need to write more lck mid fics in general (this time with scout too!?)

okay, i really wish i could count the busan boy series as one. but i cannot, so i am choosing and all of my dreams, they're growing lucid. despite it ill be talking about both fics in this section. i think this is my best work slash series of canon-compliant gumakeria i've written thus far--(i haven't written a ton since it came out, if at all, honestly). i feel like i really perfected their characterization here, over writing so much gumakeria. the reason i pick aaomdtgl over the beach is probably writing quality/skill. busan boy is by far my "favorite" of the two concepts, but it's lacking in execution, and it's noticeable especially in comparison to its sequel. the beach has okay writing, pretty decent description, and amazing concept. and all of my dreams has great writing, great description, and great concept. i was always grumpy the beach got so much less attention than and all of my dreams, but... i guess it's for a reason, lol (also bc its um. SAD! they LOSE!). (please go read the beach if you haven't though... i do love that fic so, so much.) also stream niki and the neighbourhood... read! my first songfics i guess, i just love those two albums. also i was a tad bit insane for these two fics--i wrote the beach because i was like, worlds in Korea? lets win. time to write losing in Korea fic first to set up for it. then i wrote a large percentage of and all of my dreams before t1 even won worlds because i was so sure of it. 2023 gwen was insane.

lastly is don't blame me. this is largely because of concept, because the writing is ass. don't blame me was my second published fic, so that's my excuse. the writing IS bad, i was waltzing along lacking in skill... yeah. the prose is so short and empty and fucking hell i could nitpick all day. i guess it sort of fits the fic?? (no im lying to myself lol it just sucks.) the description is meh, the dialogue gets the point across. but CONCEPTUALLY... the fic eats! it slays! demon keria yes pls! good job 2023 gwen! you did slay! my au fics do slay, and i had so much fun with this. i really fell into the rabbithole of league lore... god i love it so much. it's just so fun to write. and the ending! i love the ending a lot and i just like the tone and mood of the fic. i mean, its chilly, a little haunting... im not sure. dbm still has unwritten sequels LMAO i may or may not choose to write... i want to, but it's been a long time... i guess only time will tell.

so... yeah! that'd be my list. if you're interested in hearing why i DIDNT include some (one) fic, keep reading :] (wjnstt was the only one i wanted to address.)

now i think the main question to myself when choosing was... do i include we just need some time together or not? i know its a rather popular fic of mine, but i nixed it in favor of dbm i guess because i prefer dbm. and in terms of canon compliant gumakeria, busan boy clears it and does it a whole lot better in everything (characterization, writing quality, dynamic, everything). i don't... like wjnstt, not really. i mean, i haven't read it in a long while, so i couldn't tell u if that's 100% accurate of a conclusion, but. it was the first fic i ever started writing, and you can TELL. hoo boy writing quality be IN THE GUTTER. oh my GOD. to be fair, again, i haven't read it in a while so my judgment is probably a bit skewed/i could be misremembering. but i haven't reread it because IM SCARED OF IT. IM GOING TO GET SO MUCH SECONDHAND EMBARASSMENT AND CRINGE AT MYSELF OH GOD. ITS SO ASS. FUCKING HELL. my characterization is kinda ass (all of the characters), my writing quality/skill is unpolished... so many things. my description is okay... meh... i guess. my dialogue is probably the best part of the fic, and that's only halfway decent. but at the same time, i remember pouring my heart into this fic. i really do. conceptually, i think it was okay, and i remember it meaning a lot to me. i guess i just... sort of grew up and out of it. i mean, its been two years, pretty much. i wrote it in the midst of a bad depression slump, and i was younger, and... a lot changed since then, bascially. okay maybe i should reread it. fuck. we'll see i guess. i have a love hate relationship with this fic, that's all ill say for now. it'd probably make... top 6 or top 7. yeah. not sure. not top 5 though, sorry.

anyway, thank you so much for the question again op, and i'm so sorry for the late reply! and for yapping. i yapped a lot. hopefully you liked reading it though. much love, hope you have an amazing day, and let's gear up for worlds semis this weekend!!

[kamiversee]

OKKK SOOO I read the new chapter about two times now. First one was a for funsies then the 2nd was to figure out more shit😭 soooo with my last comment. I feel like I'm not too far from the idea. Again with Geto, at the end it turns out he planned this. Or at least the conversation topic. But another thing that I noticed was, how, in the beginning, Geto didn't really see how we had a connection with Choso until everything clicked to him. Yet he still decided to taunt the living shit outta us. Which in turn, caused the outcome of the chapter. And you can't really say that Geto showed up at the Cafe on purpose because he was surprised to see us too. Another thing, which showed up a few times in the chapter. Was the word "yesterday" idk I feel like it probably doesn't have anything to do with the fic, or the chapter. But it was repeated multiple times. The ending is a big cliffhanger too😭 another thing was with Sukuna, we learn that of course, he treats women really shitty, and I was wondering why he was so sweet with us? I remember he how he gained a small bit of respect for us, but that was abt it. Also, maybe Sukuna does have something to do with this. One thing that I keep thinking about was when after we slept with him, he went to his phone and was messaging someone, or checking his phone. Idk. But a little while after, we get money from Gojo. So maybe he messaged Gojo about it? Bc how else could Gojo have known? HELP I WROTE SO MUCH. BYE LMAOOA I LOVE THIS THOUGH. IT MAKES ME THINK. KEEP UP WITH THE WORK💕💕

Insert Kami yap session:

1. Okay so the date of what took place in the fic is early February on a Monday! Ik sometimes it’s hard to keep track of but yeah, in their university I kinda explained before tht their winter break was roughly two months and a half so they wouldn’t return back to school until mid febuary!

You mentioning the use of the word yesterday just made me wanna clear tht up for some reason😭 Yesterday in her case would be a Sunday and as the story goes, nothing important happened on that day so she just kept using it to emphasize that what was done was quite some time ago and not recent!!

2. Also, Geto was going to be there regardless because he’s the friend Yuki was there to meet ^.^

3. Next, Gojo has once mentioned that Sukuna would like the reader because she’s cute so it’s honestly okay for one to assume that there are certain women Sukuna favors more than others.

Not only that, even when Sukuna and the reader meet, although he danced with her, it was mentioned how she was always intimidated by him & for a woman such as herself, if u notice, intimidation in this fic is always the first emotion felt before fear ^.^

4. While yes Gojo sent money not too long after Sukuna sent some kinda message, it’s also said that Gojo knew she was supposed to be with Sukuna that day & he could’ve simply assumed she did what was needed to be done!

5. TYSM FOR THE LONG MESSAGE I LOVE THEM SMM <3

[clefairymuke]

eloquent | eight

pairing: levi x reader

word count: 2187

tw: swearing, graphic descriptions of sex, alcohol use, cheating

themes: modern au, college (grad school) au, enemies to lovers, slow burn (smut is immediate but feelings aren’t), professor levi, authority kink, extremely smutty, i should be ashamed, teasing & edging, pining so hard it’s embarrassing, dom levi/sub reader

+ lots of platonic levihan in this chapter bc i love

tags: @number-0-iz @propertyoftoru @commanderawkward @thenamesholly | reply to be added!!

note: last levi pov chapter for now & finally ending the chapter 5 cliffhanger :) a new bonus chapter, 8.5, should be out tomorrow. it'll be levi's pov of the scene from 5 ;) i hope you guys enjoy it!

LEVI

When the door finally clicks shut behind you, Levi exhales the largest breath he thinks he’s ever held in his now-aching lungs. Then, he calls Hange.

It only rings once before he hears their chirping voice at the other end of the line. “Hey, Levi!” He frowns. This is no time for cheerfulness. Before he can even reply, Hange starts up again. “I was literally about to click on your contact to call you. I wanted to ask if I could take off on Fr—“

“Where are you? How quickly can you get here?” Levi demands, snatching the white pair of panties out of his chest pocket and sighing deeply. He yanks the bottom drawer of his desk open and throws them in before slamming it shut and laying his head in one hand. For the first time, he considers that he is just as incredibly, painfully stupid as the rest of the human population.

“I can be there in ten. What’s going on?” Hange questions, concern evident in the tone of their voice.

“Just fucking get here,” Levi pauses for a moment, gathering himself, before adding, “Please.” After another half-second of internal deliberation, he continues yet again. “You can have Friday off. If you bring my chamomile tea from the house, you can take my credit card with you Friday, too.” With that, he pulls the phone away from his ear and punches the circular red button with his thumb. After only a moment of staring at his home screen, he has another thought. Within a minute, the line is ringing again.

“Yes, my liege?” His assistant responds, the sound of their vehicle already present in the background.

Levi pinches the bridge of his nose, squinting his eyes shut and bracing himself as if the words he’s preparing to utter will fall down on him like an anvil. “Email the brat my phone number,” he says curtly before hanging up the phone once again.

And now he must wait. Ten minutes may as well be a lifetime — alone with his thoughts, nonetheless. His mind is screaming at him, telling him a hundred things at once; it’s hard for him to decide who to believe. One thing Levi is certain of, however, is that he is not a very big fan of that fucking Reiner kid. He lays his phone on the desk and puts both hands over his face, leaning back in the plush chair. He can watch it in his head like a film. Again, one of the blond’s hands comes to rest at the small of your back, and he’s extending the other in introduction as if he lays some claim to you. Again, Levi tastes bile.

He will be the first to admit that he is often rash. Although he’s generally perceived as some sort of sociopath for whatever reason, Levi believes he wears his emotions on his sleeve. He is quite literally known for emotional outbursts. “One hell of a fucking emotional outburst,” he mutters to himself, kicking his chair away from his desk with one foot.

He runs one hand through his hair and leans forward so that his forearms rest on his knees, before eyeing the bottom desk drawer. Levi is too guilty at the moment to admit it, but he’s also very pleased with himself. He saves the smile creeping up on him for later.

A loud, alarming buzz sounds through the room, nearly making him flinch. He peers at his now bright phone screen, chest tight in anxiety. The message is from a number he doesnt recognize. “hey, dr. ackerman, i got your email. is there any way we can meet sooner than tuesday?”

If speaking to him is anything like reading a text message, he suddenly empathizes with everyone who has ever complained about his alleged tone problem. What the fuck is that even supposed to mean? Are you angry? Why are you being cryptic? He can’t make this decision on his own. Levi stands from his chair, coming around his desk to pace in front of it while he awaits his assistant’s arrival. All of his clothes suddenly feel very uncomfortable, and his shoes feel stiff around his feet. His hair tickles his cheekbones, just not quite the right length. The room is stuffy and hot instead of temperate and relaxing.

After walking three lengths across the front of the room, Levi unlocks his phone again. The new message thread with you is still open, and he clicks to reply. The cursor appears to mock him, but his synapses are firing faster than light right now. His thumbs are firing even faster.

No. See you Tuesday. Delete.

Yes, we can meet tomorrow if you are available. Delete.

Of course. Would you like to meet over dinner tonight? Delete.

Can you call me? Levi lets the cursor blinks a few times, his finger hovering over the send button, but he ends up deleting that one, too.

Thankfully, the door bursts open, Hange’s frazzled expression prominent as they hurry in and shut the door behind them, a thermos in hand. Levi clicks his phone off and tosses it on the desk without replying to you. They trudge past him without a word, setting down the thermos and pulling their bag from over their shoulder. They remove what looks like a folded sock, pulling back two wooly black layers to expose a dainty and undamaged teacup from one of his kitchen cupboards.

Breathing out a sigh of relief, Levi crouches to the ground, shifting to sit with his legs crossed underneath him. He watches as Hange uncaps the thermos and pours the steaming tea into the cup, before returning the lid to its place and taking the cup by the handle. They turn around carefully, holding their hand underneath the cup and bringing it to the brooding man unscathed. Once it’s secure in his grip, they sit across from him on the carpet, drawing their knees into their chest. As he takes a sip, they ask, “So what’s going on?”

“Do you remember how I told you that the girl I’m advising has a boyfriend?” he asks, stalling while he tries to figure out how to tell his friend what has just happened. Hange nods curiously, awaiting his next words. Levi clears his throat. “He came with her today. And it made me. . .” he trails off, trying to put it to words. He’s never been quite as good with speaking words as he has with writing them. “Upset,” he finishes, shooting a glance up at Hange before looking down into his tea again.

Their eyes widen a bit, but they don’t say anything. They just wait. He can’t really take offense to the silence, but he still looks at them expectantly for a moment too long. Drinking from his teacup again, Levi still can’t figure out exactly how to word it. He can’t recall a time he’s ever shared such intimate details with Hange. He’s not particularly excited to start now, either.

After a minute of the two just staring at one another like this, Hange decides to speak up. “How bad is the thing you’re preparing to tell me?” they ask. “Is it as bad as when you told the First Lady to fuck off?”

Levi snorts despite himself. He shrugs his shoulders, watching as Hange whistles the sound of a cartoon character falling off of a cliff. Another sip of his tea, and he is relaxed enough to speak. After deliberating within himself since his assistant first walked in the door, he decides to just rip off the bandaid. To take on the consequences of his actions head on. Realistically — his friend was in too deep to hate him now. He draws in a breath, then speaks: “Seeing her boyfriend made me angry, because he’s the worst. I wish you could’ve seen it. She looked like she wanted to die right there.” He had planned to keep going, but he’s blank again now. This is more difficult than he thought it would be.

Hange leans down to lay on their stomach, propping their chin on their hands and laying their legs out flat. “Do you want a drink?” they ask, digging in their purse and pulling free a metal flask. They shake it. Without taking a moment to hesitate or check the clock to see that it’s only 10:42 A.M., Levi holds out his half empty teacup. It’s quickly full once again. He turns it back, gulping it down despite the burn without even stopping to think about what kind of liquor it is. It’s brown, and that’s all that matters. He holds it out again and takes another shot before passing the teacup over to his well-prepared employee.

He’s a bit more relaxed now. More lilt is evident in his voice than usual, — and usual is zero — but he doesn’t mind. “I felt possessive, for whatever reason. It’s stupid, and I know that.” Levi pauses and takes a breath, looking Hange in the eye. “Hange, what would you call our relationship?“ he asks, holding his hand out for another shot.

“Guardian/Dependent,” they say flatly. “With you, of course, being the dependent who just happens to be conveniently wealthy.” They laugh at their own joke while Levi drinks. “Seriously, though, I would call you my friend. Best friend, maybe, when you’re being nice.”

Two more shots down, and Levi is not anxious anymore. He’s overcome with knowing he doesn’t want to tell Hange what he’s about to tell them, but there’s nothing holding his tongue anymore. He takes a deep breath. “Promise me that you’ll forget this unless I explicitly bring it up — and I probably fucking won’t. Ever.”

Hange draws a cross over their heart with their finger, and Levi has nothing left to stall with. “I was jealous of him. And I was absolutely certain that she was interested in me. And things got heated.” He hates talking about his feelings, but he can’t hold all of this in any longer. He watches as his friend wiggles their eyebrows, and he wants to laugh. Another shot, and it’s funny.

“I basically asked her if I could fuck her, more or less,” he spills, his words a little more fluid now. Levi turns 180° and lays back on the carpet, turning his head so that he can look at Hange, and coming to terms with the fact that he’s drunk in his office before noon. He feels the corner of his mouth turn up. “She wasn’t opposed to it.”

“You slept with her?” Hange asks, suddenly whispering even though there’s no one else around to listen. Their eyebrows are so high on their forehead, Levi laughs at the idea of them flying right off.

“Not technically,” he defends himself. “I stayed dressed.” He folds his arms under his head and thinks back to the meeting again, not so sure why it brought him so much stress before. Remembering it now, it seems like a very, very good meeting.

“And the boyfriend was waiting for her?” Hange questions, a giggle bubbling at their throat. They finish out the flask before tossing it a foot away, landing with a muted clang on the rough, dense carpet.

Levi leans his head back and glances at the wall beside the door, where he’d had you pinned an hour before. He raises one arm and points at it, Hange’s gaze following its lead. “He was sitting on the couch on the other side of that wall.” He looks back, and his friend’s mouth drops open. Eyes veering toward the wall again, he’s feeling oddly open to sharing. “So I had her up against it. With her ear pressed to it.”

Booming laughter fills the room, contagious enough for even a drunken Levi to join in. After a moment, Hange calms enough to speak. “You’re fucking cruel,” they wheeze out, putting the flask to their lips before realizing it’s empty again and tossing it away. “Then it sounds like it went well. What’s the issue?”

Suddenly Levi remembers the end of the story, but it’s a little funny now. He thinks that surely you’ll think the same. “Do you want details?”

“Desperately.”

He chuckles, although a bit of embarrassment is slipping through his whiskey shield. “She was begging to cum, and I pulled her skirt back down and sent her back out there with her boyfriend.”

Hange just scoffs before laughing yet again. “You’re a literal nutcase,” they tell him, and he agrees.

Levi reaches into his pocket and pulls out his phone, staring at the text you sent him. Maybe he’s drunk, but the answer seems so clear now. He reads over the draft a hundred times, even though he’s dead set on sending it. Reading it just once more, he stamps the send button with purpose before tossing his phone to the other side of the room, far from where he can worry about it.

“I really need to see you tomorrow.”

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[stonerbughead]

writing tag game

finally getting around to this! thanks to @acenancy @thetaoofbetty @iconic-ponytail @imreallyloveleee and @satelliteinasupernova for the tags!

How many works do you have on AO3?

19! when did that happen?

What’s your total AO3 word count?

555,869 holy yep

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

on AO3, only 2–riverdale + my one nancy drew cw nace fic! however back in the ~day on FF.net I wrote for Harry Potter and I def wrote a Zoey 101 fic too L O L

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Exhale (stoner bughead college AU with demi jug)

if it feels like a home (canon divergent bughead getting back together fic with a SEVEN YEAR TIME JUMP I DID IT FIRST @ RVD WRITERS)

betty, it’s legitimately cold outside (snowed in bughead christmas oneshot. aww this was my first holiday bughead fic)

do you like or like like me? (my class of ‘12 high school bughead field hockey AU)

love in the time of coronavirus (the omg they were quarantined fic I wrote from march-june 2020)

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

yesss! comments make my heart soar, and i love to reply to them and especially to take the time to respond in depth to longer comments. also, as a comment-leaver i like seeing replies when people get around to it! which leads me to my next point...often it takes me forever to reply but i always get there eventually!

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

i don't do angsty endings bc i personally am writing fanfic for happy endings tbh but i WILL say the biggest angsty cliffhanger i've ever left my readers on was the end of ch 3 in do you like or like like me? i intended to go only a week between ch 3 and 4 but then didn't...so that's probably the angstiest i've ever left bughead if that makes sense lol

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

hmm, i feel like all my stories have happy endings! but maaaaaybe a merry little retail christmas, since they end up with their own bookstore and jughead proposing to a very surprised betty in said bookstore as he reveals they own it?

Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

does my riverdale O.C. AU count as a crossover? bc if so then yes. also i really want to do a nace/bughead crossover at some point. @heartunsettledsoul and i have discussed this a tiiiiny bit but nothing specific.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not hate exactly, but i have gotten people kind of bluntly asking me to include particular characters in a fic that are either a) already in the tags or b) not in the tags for a reason, and that's not...my favorite thing, ngl.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

yes, yes i do! i guess i'm usually solidly in the M side of things rather than the E side, and it's typically equal parts horny and fluffy since it's always between characters who are ~in loooove! i did write a kink week oneshot entirely as an ode to the Satisfyer, a sex toy i highly recommend to anyone who owns a clit.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of! so god i hope not!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

nah

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope

What’s your all time favorite ship?

bughead, for sure. see the 18 fics / thousands on thousands of words i've written about them. and the podcast (@bodysuitsforbughead) i put their name in the title of!

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

eek okay so it's ~possible~ i'll never finish love in the time of coronavirus bc idk if i want to/am capable of going back to that headspace of early pandemic but A L S O i maybe will? chapter 8, the only unfinished chapter, is supposed to be a time jump epilogue so you never know, an idea might inspire me to write it at some point in the future! maybe it's meant to be written at a point in the future that's ~actually post pandemic, you know? we shall see.

What’s your writing strengths?

oh god, this is a hard one. i feel like i'm good at dialogue? it's hard to self evaluate!

What’s your writing weaknesses?

describing people!!! why am i so bad at it? i'll never know. however i do think it's part of the appeal of fanfic for me, bc everyone kinda already knows what characters look like so you can get away with the least amount of physical character description more so than original fic.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I don't really know any other languages besides English besides some rudimentary/faded italian and the amount of spanish you get in middle school, but if the character calls for it, like a stray Lodge family "mija" and such, i do that? but i think it's super cool when others who are bilingual, multilingual, etc. incorporate other languages!

What’s the first fandom you wrote for?

WAIT lmao @iconic-ponytail my answer is identical to yours: Harry Potter on fanfiction.net. For me, which is apparently unpopular in our fandom, it was all about Romione.

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

hands down, do you like or like like me? it just captured a lot of things i've always wanted for high school bughead in that fic AND the process allowed me to get out a lot of angst and nostalgia about my high school years, which was super cathartic. and the fact that i seem to have produced something that a lot of people could relate to as former nerdy teen girls makes me really happy. Exhale is a close second favorite, and probably mainly because i have a lot of anxiety attached to Exhale bc i never update it as fast as ppl want me to.

i'm late to the party so idk who has or hasn't done this yet, but i guess i'll tag some writer friends who *didn't* tag me? lmao @heartunsettledsoul @literatiruinedme @bugheadsextape @sullypants @fallout-mars @go-ldy

[grlfriends]

revolutionary girl utena review

ep 1-5

the plot is actually kinda different from what I thought ?? in my mind the plot was: utena was a girl in a princess school who each and every princess would be "conquered" (for a lack of better words rn) in a ceremonial duel by a prince who fancied them, maybe she didnt wanna wanna marry anyone or she liked Anthy already but anyway in my mind utena showed up in the ceremony with duel clothing and then, in a very brave tm like-scene, she would openly declare she refused to be conquered by anyone and tbh I'm not even sure how Anthy would come into the plot... but back into what actually happened in the episodes everything so far is very introductory and just showing what mechanics will be explored further down the line I think?? the op is really good too

also every boy so far reminds me so much of knights of the zodiac?? maybe it's just the design I guess...) and nanami can get these hands, jealousy is a disease and she's the sickest person on earth for all I know

dont ask me why bit I just feel like room of mirrors - gfriend has a very well fitting vibe for it but I'm not exactly sure why hm.... 🤔🤔

ep 6-12

ok so why does this school just have random animals around 😐 I could understand the horse but a bull and a kangaroo?? what ...

touga just says the most random dramatic things and then just casually says anyone who believes in friendship is a fool ?? the guy wouldnt last a day in the naruto universe tbh, he kinda irks me in some way but I'm not sure why so I'll live with this strange feeling for a while I guess

↳ okay so watching ep 10 made me especially kinda creeped out, I know I've watched only 10 eps so far but like can he fall downstairs and break a neck or something already ...

also haha what if I watched that bet on it fmv and gave myself a bunch of spoilers would that be funny or what 😍 this is why i cant have nice things yall.... hope my memory goes to shit when sleep so I dont remember about it this week while I finish it

I feel like the main thing on the episodes are parallels, one way or another I always feel like they're setting up parallels and giving me clues for a bigger picture and a deeper plot arc that is still to come and the bet on it fmv just made this impression stronger, also I wanna say it's done in a good way, one that is both mysterious (??) and "honey you've got a big storm coming" at the same time 🤔🤔 much to think about honestly

↳ just saw ep 11 and even though I already knew this was coming sooner or later it still felt like crap seeing utena lose to dick head, at the end of the episode when he says anthy was always just reflecting utena's own wishes for himemiya (in another way bc I dont remenber the exact words) it felt like 😐 bc yes I knew that (the way she was working her thoughts was simply a copy and paste of what utena was saying) at all time I kept those essays about anthy in my head, I dont think theyll be truly relatable to what I'm seeing rn but yeah anthy rights (even though I know you betray/cheat on utena down the line bc of the bet on it fmv but I'm sure you had your own motivation)

↳ saw ep 12 bc I just couldnt handle being in a cliffhanger and yeah it happened what I absolutely thought it would lmao not that it was that difficult to foresee but yeah, I kinda liked how utena did it for her instead of being like "oh I wanna save anthy from touga" and treating her like a damsel in distress (I know that's kinda her position as the rose bride for what I've been told so far and that this is a subject spoken about in many many essays on tumblr but yeah) bc so far she's been treated as a trophy and a way to get something else, for the green haired guy it was a way to see something eternal, for miki it was a way to hold on into his "shining thing" and for touga it seems (so far) like a way to manipulate (just like he does with nanami) and just mark his position as above everyone else as he seems to view himself?? man I might be saying random stuff rn but it kinda does makes sense in my mind with the information I've had to this point

ep 13-25

honestly 😐😐 through 9 whole episodes I felt like they were trying to make the side characters deeper and show their hidden face and motivations but it felt so shallow...... not even actually shallow, just not deep enough that it would make me care about these characters and the fact there was no actual build to showing us why we're getting to know these characters backgrounds was just kinda meh too, didnt really help that all episodes had all the same formula and the same timing just for the developers made in those episodes be forgotten at the end and also just that pink haired guy could be like "ah failure again", it felt like watching the same episode over and over again, it was really tiring and like?? girl help I do not care about these characters at all, I feel like it could have been done well (like the keiko ep in comparison to the furuba chapter that deals with the yuki appreciation (??) club president graduating.... the way this ep was done and setup didn't really bring me any emotions) overall not to my taste and tbh I feel like I could have skipped all those episodes except for maybe the miki and juri one so 😑

all nanami focused episodes are the worst so far, she's so boring and I cant stand now annoying she is, the diary episode?? the cow episode?? the episode when tsuwabiki fuels with utena?? honestly I know they're trying to show me a better and different side of her but it just doesnt!! work!! bc i feel no sympathy for her, my biggest wish rn is her and touga just disappearing and no more filler episodes🗣🗣

I thought akio was utena's prince?? but apparently he's just anthy's brother and like.. I'm do done with his little talks with utena and yadda yadda, I just wanna see their duel is that too much to ask I'm dying over here (if this lenga lenga continues until ep 25 i will be so mad bc why were so many episodes wasted on such boring and and not necessary side characters backstories?? idc about them at all man aaaaaaaaaa)

↳ ep 25 was good finally we got what we deserve boys 😭😭😭😭😭 can utena just beat up akio already I'm tired of his ass, he exhales both "I'm a feminist I even take women studies classes #herstory" and "if she breathes she's a thot" energy also he has 0 style that mullet is simply horrible I bet there's a hairstylist community who considers him a criminal bc like 😐 it is simply so bad (q bit less when it's tied up but when it's all lose jesus Christ)

also touga thinks he's suuuuch a genius, sooo smart like king, I do not care about you at all can you shut the fuck up please and can we tall about the pink haired guy episode?? wack. honestly thought it would be more emotional or something, I binge watched 12 episodes with his ugly haircut face and did not even feel a thing he can choke I guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ANTHY TAKING A SWORD OUT OF UTENA'S CHEST??? OSCAR WORTHY KINGS❗❗❗and then her lame ass brother being like "oh ho ho idk idk" shut up no one cares no one cares I swear to you no one cares shut uuuuup

ep 25-39

first of all, ep 25 was good but kinda reminded me of the nine episodes (13 until 21) where absolutely nothing interesting happened so I hope I'm wrong also can I just say just seeing the preview of the next episode made me roll my eyes so bad I almsot saw my brain?? bc yeah I'm fucking tired of nanami fosuced episodes she's so annoying oh my god nobody cares about a goddamn egg and much less one coming from her let her die or something pls she's so annoying there's nothing I've learned about her that was not against my own will I'm basically rotting over here 🤒

↳ ep 30 has me thinking Akio has a foot fetish or something 😐 bruh leave utena aloooooone I already know your plans and schemes you're not fooling anyone that's embarrassing for u and also... utena you're not very bright are you.... you start seeing every duelist you face with the same exact car and then when you see akio has the same car you didnt even stop to think about it that 1+1 equals 2 ... girl help yourself 😐

↳ yet again another nanami focused ep 😐😐😐😐😐 even though I do understand her better now I still don't find her particularly enjoyable to watch, call me a woman hater but like. idk she's still a bit annoying to me (but touga is straight up evil and is manipulating her so I feel bad for feeling like that tho.....)

↳ ok last 2 eps to go but listen. I thought the akio duel would have happened much sooner, maybe on ep 33 max but well didn't this age well lmao ngl, it did seem a bit too slow paced for my personal taste but also I feel like there's a certain level of drama that comes with slowing the pace down....

↳ aaaaaa yall I'm kinda 😢😭 over the ending omg........... even though it took the best of me to keep going in some parts I still enjoyed the ending aaaaa I thought i wouldnt really like it bc I just usually dont enjoy this type of ending but stil 😢😢😢😢 wait for me utena 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 girl I cried and then anthy walking in the end god utena and anthy holding hands 😭😭😭😭 akio can suck my dick

there's obviously many things I've missed or that I kinda didnt really pay attendance to so please dont take this serious, I was just writing as I watched the episodes so it's more like a thought compilation than anything, still I can see why there's many essays written about it and why it is held as a masterpiece by so many people

[talkbykhalid]

WRITING QUIZ ༉‧₊˚✧

( aka: take a shot every time i mention tatbilb or anything about it 😗✌️)

tagged by @dearncityy thank u mi asawa for tagging me 💕 i had lots of fun doing this ✨

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꒰ 🐚 ꒱ what is your ideal setting for focusing on your writing?

hu h... this is kinda hard. bc i can never focus on sth for that long but uhm ig when im working against due date? i can focus a lot better?? like i work on it at the last minute but yk. i dont require a specific setting as long as my ass is comfortable on where im sitting and my back is leaning on sth, just the usual stuffs.

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ what is your favourite genre to write?

aH so im not all that experienced in writing yet, but i have been writing lots of angst(?) as of late and a little bit of fluff, but i doubt they’re actually “good” good. also ill be throwing smut in here bc im semi-satisfied with my latest work 🤩 (yeah self promo right here)

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ do you prefer to write on paper, or digitally?

i have shit hand writing so its digitally. and its always on my laptop bc i cant focus on when i write on my phone. it just doesn’t feel right, yugeme? idk typing on a physical keyboard (difock is that?) gives me a more professional feel.

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ it’s the middle of the night and you suddenly wake up with an idea. what do you do?

sleep 🤩 and i’ll deal with it the next day. if i forget then i’ll be mad @ myself but does that stop me from doing it again? no ❤️

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ who is your favourite person to write about?

huh... so i really like to write abt yunho bc... reasons. but i feel like san’s easier to write about, because idk his personality just seems like sth im comfortable with and it generally suits the vibe of what i write.

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ do you like making your own characters, or do you usually write about real people?

i go for both. uhm uhh i have a few characters of my own and their own backstories yk that shit. but i also like to write abt real ppl bc i have a template for their personalities and actions bc i have a tendency to manipulate charas as i write, so if the character lacks personality (example: tatbilb granny) they just become a flat character that idk what to do with so i do anything to make them slightly interesting, but it just makes them inconsistent.

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ have you ever written a book, or a story with more than 15 chapters (100k words)?

aH so i just started writing seriously, and for now i only have abt 60k words(?) in my current work, but i dont doubt that it’ll reach 100k bc i have quite a lot in store. so idk, check that out ig?

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ how often do you get ideas?

i used to get no ideas for a full month, and that’s just sad. omg. but recently my mind’s been on overdrive. and i have @cyanister to thank for that. ah hah hah.

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ do you ever get an idea that you really like, but just can’t seem to finish?

YES!1!! i have this one thing in my drafts. its been here even b4 my tatbilb series and i have the intro, the rising action, the climax and the ending, but i dont have a falling action nor do i know how to smoothly tie those ideas into one.

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ what is your least favourite plot?

idk what this means really??? but uhh i dont like uhm predictable things? (like my own works 🤩) uhh i dont like when the ending is very obvious and there’s just no emotional manipulation done that can help emphasize the endings bc i like it when they’re satisfying. OH i also have this love hate relationship with cliffhangers (i dont think this is a plot???) ugH they frustrate me so much. gGrR

꒰ 🐚 ꒱ tag 5 or more people

i have no friends... i make no tag... sorry. if any of u stumble upon this and wants to do this, just go ahead and say that uve been tagged by me.

[literaphobe]

I think of so many ideas to create my own writing about Jake and Amy while I'm commuting to my college. I've never written any thing till now. Last time I tried writing, I forgot so many things that I thought of them while commuting. But still I tried and ended up creating a terrible thing bc I got distracted and the story went completely on random lines. I want tips on how to create and set borderline and how to remain with same flow and consistency to write. I love your content on A03!!!

Okay if you keep forgetting your ideas I would suggest you start writing them down— HAHA JK I don’t really have time for that the only thing I wrote down stuff for is drama club AU and even for that I just wrote vague stuff I’m on Plan #5 for drama club AU now and even then I haven’t exactly referred to it much it’s just an outline to make sure I’m on track

What you need to ask yourself when you start a fic is “why am I writing this fic?” And I don’t mean that in a “oh I just want to bring joy to people and show my love for this pairing :’)” way no I mean “what exactly is the appeal of this idea? what particular angle to this fic makes it striking to me, so much so that it has to be written?”

E.g. if you’re writing a college AU, it can’t JUST be about a college AU. If you’re drawing from personal experiences or concepts inspired from your life, you need to extract what the core of the idea is and focus on it. Like, how exactly do jake and Amy meet? What’s so important about it? OR, if you’re starting the story after they meet, then what particular incident is driving this story?

Imma use drama club AU as a case study, because it’s the biggest fic I have and I threw everything into it. See, for drama club AU it starts many years after Jake and Amy have already met. The important event that jumpstarts this story is the fact that they have to kiss on stage (I mean… duh doi that’s the literal description of the fic). An important thing to note is how whatever element you’re introducing (character A meeting character B, character A and B experiencing something new) changes things, how the equation is altered etc etc, what new situations they’re put into because of this

Try to start NOT by planning the plot, but by planning big events or tiny moments that you know you just HAVE to include in the story. Like, let’s say you’re writing a fic where two actors have to kiss on stage, and because they’re so weirdly good the first time they try it they start making out on a regular basis, whilst pretending that they’re just practicing kissing. A big event could be “them getting caught during a kissing practice”, or “them kissing in a public place for X reason and getting their picture taken”

lmao look at me straight up talking about drama club AU whilst pretending I’m not talking about drama club AU ANYWAY, after you’ve come up with the core events of your story, what you have to do is figure out how they get from point A to point B, then C, D, E, and so on.

A problem you might run into when thinking of ideas is being too generic. It is really important to ensure that your story has a unique angle to it so you can generate a plot. I’m not saying that that’s the case for whatever ideas you’re having, but you need to focus on something specific, or you’ll find your cup running dry. Thrust your characters into specific situations if you wanna get anywhere.

Also, since you’ve mentioned that you keep getting distracted, I suppose you probably face a problem that plagues many writers: having idea A in mind but as you’re writing it it turns to B and that somehow messes things up? Or some other variation of that. Anyway, my suggestion is that when you sit down and start writing, you should always have an end in mind. I.e. “A will challenge B to an arm wrestling match and that’s the cliffhanger of this chapter!” When you write, constantly keep in mind that THAT is where you need them to end up. However, let’s say, you make a spur of the moment decision to have characters A and B to leave the bar they’re at and start dancing in the snow. “Oh no! Now they can’t arm wrestle! This is a travesty!” - this is a very strange example of what could happen when you write, I often call it “writing myself into a corner” which is probably a normal way to say that I don’t know why I put inverted commas around that

A better example of this is: let’s say, you have this really angsty thing planned for your characters. Let’s say it’s all going great and character A and character B are very much in love. But then character B gets spooked because of event C and decides to break up with A. This is supposed to start a lot of angst because character A still loves B and is completely heartbroken. Anyway, you’re trying to get A to hate B yet still succumb to physical pleasures with B. But then oops! You get an idea for a joke and you write it in. Suddenly, A is a lot more nice to B and they’re joking around a lot more than you INTENDED. You no longer feel in control, how can you do this angst stuff if they’re being so fluffy??????

Should you stop? Should you backspace everything? This all depends. You need to think of your priorities, for the tone of the story at that point in time of the plot. Sometimes, whatever you wrote on a whim is ACTUALLY what would happen and is more in character than what you planned. Other times, you jumped the gun, and it’s much too early for character A and B to be interacting like this.

If you’re really adamant that character A and B MUST go through a certain interaction in a certain manner, you could always repurpose it for a future chapter and tweak it. It’ll all work out in the end, but sometimes certain ideas just won’t work with a certain fic, and there’s nothing you can do except to write another fic lol

I don’t even know what I’m saying at this point, I think this is bad advice, but the best and most important advice I can give you is to READ, and keep writing. Literally!! Like don’t stop!! Once you start writing, you might start to get more observant regarding the way other authors structure their stories, the way they play out certain events. You’ll absorb different styles and create your own style the more you study and PRACTICE. Not everyone starts out the same. Some people are actually super good at writing from the moment they start, they get a fantastic idea early on and BOOM BOOM BOOM they’re just a fantastic writer after their very first attempt! Woo hoo! Sadly, that’s hardly the case. Most writers SUCK when they first start. I did!! I truly look at old words and feel the urge to THROW UP

I used to use ~ as an actual form of punctuation, okay??? That’s BAD, and yet there were still people that liked my writing. But even if people hate your writing, that’s no reason to give up. YOU’LL hate your writing, but you will get better I promise you!!! We all improve at different rates, and the only way to write good stories is to start by writing a few truly horrendous ones first.

You got this!!!!!!!!!!