#Also for the random notifs you’ll are going to get just felt an overwhelming urge to share this update with the ppl who gave the recs

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starting taskmaster series 7!!! (It’s off to a great start)

thanks for the rec @jonathan-harks @doveonthemoon

[theempathbeauty]

Deep Connections. Deep Confessions.

June 12, 2017

For those that don't know, I’m an empath/sensitive. It can be a blessing and a curse at times. While others struggle to find balance, I tend to focus on more of the positive... Through practice, learning, balance, grounding, and focus. Plus, a lot of music, singing, and alone time, to recharge myself. 

There are days were where being an empath/sensitive drives me crazy. I’m a very passionate person, and when you’re an empath/sensitive, with different senses, those “bad days” really can be an emotional pain in the ass. I get a feeling, and then suddenly, you’re overwhelmed. The powerful urge to cry... The heaviness...  It’s like someone spiritually dropped a piano on you, and you're not sure why.

You’re a sponge, because you absorb. 

You’re a magnet, because you attract. 

You’re a filter, because you transmit energy. 

You’re a healer, because you care, you love, you nurture, and you feel... You feel everything! 

Also, being an empath/sensitive is something that isn’t easily explained. More so, it’s something that’s felt. I’ve been doing a little research, and thanks to a few close friends, and the “hints” from universe, I believe I’m also a claircognizance.

It’s the ability for a person to acquire psychic knowledge without knowing how or why he or she knew it. The user can gain information about a person, object, place, or event through intrinsic knowledge, as in it just "comes to" the user's mind.

It’s crazy. 

Not to say, I thought I was crazy. But the last thing I wanted, was to be labeled as, “insane”. Growing up, you're taught to just “blend in”, and just follow the heard of sheep. I always knew I was a little different. But honestly, I just kept things to myself. Either because I just rolled with life, or I didn’t really question it. I’m still new to the whole “mystical senses” thing. Evidently, we have 4, and/or there’s 4 altogether: 

clairvoyant (clear seeing). 

clairaudient (clear hearing).

clairsentient (clear feeling).

claircognizant (clear knowing). 

In my opinion, I believe we have them all, and just like our physical senses, some might be stronger than others. It all depends on how well we’re in-tuned to those senses. I have personally experienced all 4. It’s honestly been a learning experience. Especially with embracing myself, and also being open about it. Mainly because I didn’t want to sound like I was batshit crazy. It’s part of the reasons why I started this blog. It’s also like a diary, or my personal, spiritual journal.  

I am spiritually awakened. 

So, let’s talk about his picture.  

It all started about two or so years ago: I recently became spiritually awakened. I discovered I was an empath. I was learning about who I was, discovering my abilities, and how to strengthen them. It was out of the blue, when it happened. Especially the feeling, the energy, and what had followed... Something had sparked, and I felt it in my core. It’s the first time anything like this had happened to me: To look at a picture, and “just know” by a feeling. 

It’s one of my first major experiences, and I had nothing to compare the feeling to. The ability to “just know” yet, not knowing really anything, other than his name, and what he did. 

Something, a feeling... A need... Told me to look at that picture. Then the words that followed: “It’s him”. I heard them... I felt them. They were intense, powerful, loud, and moving. Then I take a moment to process. 

“Oh my God... Did this seriously, JUST happen? This is crazy!” I thought.

I’m a very logical person. My friends come to me for advice, or even just to vent. I’m a expert at making people feel better. Hell, strangers will talk to me, like they’ve know them for years! (Which, all are common empath traits.) I’m very open minded... Yet, I just couldn’t explain what was happening... Much less, at the time, I didn’t know what claircognizance even meant.

Still looking away from his picture, I continued to pause. Thinking to myself, “Yeah, that’s a fat chance in hell! I must be crazy...” 

Then I (spiritually) ask:

“Ok, so... How the hell is THAT going to happen?” 

 The feeling was still there. I couldn’t deny it... I couldn’t explain it. Then I looked at his picture again. I get a response: 

“Just roll with it. You’ll see” 

 Even though I wasn't aware of what it all meant (and still in a bit of shock) I agreed. Solely based on the feeling, and only the feeling. Letting the feeling guide me. I trusted the feeling, and I still do today. Honestly, I would of NEVER imagined things turning out like they have, and I know this is only the beginning. 

As for the feeling, it gets stronger everyday. 

The Connection.

There’s another moment, that had happened, earlier this year. Only this time, it was a live video, on Instagram. Again, I know it’s going to sound crazy... And I really didn’t know how to explain the feeling either. Because, again with this man, (and only this man) is when an experience like this, just happens. There’s also no denying what I felt either. 

It began with the feeling of “he’s going to be on tonight”. I missed him from the night before. Funny thing is, days/weeks prior, he stated how much he liked going on Instagram Live, and/or well it works. It was becoming more frequent. Like, it was this crazy, “destiny-in-the-making”. 

Those feelings, and “just knowing” can happen at any given, random, moment. I can’t control what information I receive, or who it’s about. I can’t control how, or when it’s given to me, and I can’t control where/why I receive it, or the time it happens. It’s crazy. 

Sure enough, I get the notification he's on. 

He usually gets bombarded with people, as a result of what he does, and what he's known for, but I engaged in the conversation. It was casual, fun, and I even made him laugh. But it wasn’t until soon after, something happened. Suddenly, it’s like were on the same wavelength. I felt like out of all those thousands of people, it was as if him and I, were the only ones in the room. Time cease to exist, and I was deep in the moment. Almost like a spiritual floating, or levitation. I wouldn’t call it an out of body experience, per se, but it’s like my body just disappeared, and it was just two souls, saying “hello” to each other.

It happened so quickly, so randomly, and it felt intense! I was deep in the moment, I didn’t realize what was happening, because it felt so natural, and organic. But then I realized something IS happening... We were connecting, but in a deep, spiritual way. Then once I realized it, I looked at him, in his eyes, wondering if he felt it too. 

Then his demeanor changed. Suddenly, he was quiet, still, and I felt like his eyes were looking into my soul, and touching it. I felt love. It’s almost like our heartbeats were in-sync of each other. Our souls connected. That’s when I knew he felt it too. 

Then he quickly ends the live session.

He hasn’t had another live session since. Which, is understandable. He’s a very busy man... He escapes in his work. He’s also very spontaneous. I also believe he has a much stronger sense in his abilities than I do. Also, given his painful history with relationships, and the fact that he’s VERY guarded with his heart,  it’s also possible the connection might of spooked him. 

Of course, I can’t speak for him. Hell, there’s even a chance he didn’t feel what I felt. And JUST to make this clear, I’m not claiming to be his “girlfriend” in any way, shape, or form. I’m only sharing what I felt, and what I experienced: A deep connection. Energy doesn’t lie.

So what does it mean? 

Well, one theory is, it’s a “Twin Flame/Mirror Soul” connection. I googled the signs, and it’s pretty damn close... It’s almost scary! But again, that’s just a theory. It’s still in the making. All I really know is, it was something I’ve never experienced before. The feeing... The deep connection... To me, it was real. Also, hearing/feeling those words of “it’s him”... As crazy as it sounds, all reasoning has gone out the door. I’m also a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. It’s all connected, somehow, in some way.

So why him? 

Not that I’m complaining. It’s just really hard to wrap my mind around something that's so spiritually mind-blowing. But I think about it constantly, if not, everyday. It’s like song that calling to me.. It lures me. I’m curious, eager, and I want to learn more. It’s truly a rare, one-of-a-kind experience. One that I’ll never forget.

That’s why I’m also waiting. I can’t ignore that feeling, or what had happened. But I’m not forcing it either. I’m rolling with it. I know when the time is right, it’ll happen, and it will all connect. Everything happens for a reason.

In the mean time, I’m having fun, enjoying life, and my spiritual journey. 

I am love, I am light.