#Also 10 YEARS of RAM 😭

[luxe-pauvre]

MAY 2023

Read:

The curse of sliced bread

Notes apps are where ideas go to die. And that’s good.

How To Waste Time Properly

The turbulent brain

Kali and Feminine Rage

What’s So Hard About Understanding Consciousness?

We’re Killing Ourselves with Work

Everybody Has a “Stack” Now

Where Does Childhood Wonder Come From - And Why Does it End?

What the world would look like if we taught girls to rage

Meghan O’Rourke on the Self-Dissolving Difficulty of Chronic Illness

The All: In praise of generalism

The science of placebos is fuelling quackery

The Nature of Art

Why Are So Many Men Still Resistant to Reading Women?

Metaphysical Animals: How Four Women Brought Philosophy Back to Life by Clare Mac Cumhaill & Rachel Wiseman

I Fear My Pain Interests You by Stephanie LaCava

Watched:

Tár

Succession (S4)

Listened To:

Supercut by Lorde

Daft Punk’s Random Access Memories (10th Anniversary Edition)

Went To:

Alastair Campbell: Why Politics Has Gone So Wrong, and How You Can Help Fix It

[bree-cheesy]

Another Schlatt piece??? From me??? Who woulda thought??? Not me…

Just in honor of him posting again and his birthday, I’ll bless you guys with my subpar smut writing skills

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You were one of Schlatt’s old friends from New York. You knew him all through school and until he left for Austin. You weren’t best friends, but you guys were friends. You two went to Prom 3 years in a row together as a joke because neither of you could get a date.

You were definitely disappointed when he left New York. You understood his reasons, but after he left, you were kind of just left alone. He kind of became the only person you ever hung out with.

One night, you were in an extremely horny mood and decided to send a video of you playing with yourself to a person you met on a dating app. Unfortunately, it was late and you were a little tired so you accidentally sent it to the wrong person. That person happened to be Schlatt. The very same Schlatt who was visiting his family for the holidays.

You didn’t even realize it until you heard a knock on your front door. Confused on who would be at your house this late at night, you answered it and saw Schlatt standing there, his jaw clenched and his phone in his hand.

Rubbing your eyes, you didn’t even get a word in before he shoved his way inside and showed the video to you. It was like everything in the world stopped.

“Fuck.”

“What the hell is this?”

He looked genuinely angry and you felt your heart sink down to your toes. It was an accident! But, was he really gonna listen to you when you told him that?

“I-It was an accident, Jay, I swear! I meant to send it to someone else!”

A new look formed in his eyes. A look of pure jealousy. He started walking towards you, backing you up against the wall.

“You meant to send it to someone else, huh?”

You nodded, not trusting words to come out of your mouth right. His hand rested on the wall above your head and he looked down at you.

“I feel like that’s a lie.” His voice was ice cold and rough.

You gulped nervously, suddenly enjoying now close he was to you. You never denied that you were attracted to him, but you never acted on it.

Maybe it wasn’t such a bad thing you sent the video to him. He leaned down closer to you and you felt his breath on your lips.

“You like that I got the video, don’t you?”

You nodded and he grinned. Not even a second went by before his lips were on yours. You let out a moan and kissed him back, pulling his hat off so you could tangle your fingers in his hair.

In what felt like seconds (was really like 10 minutes) you were ass up on your bed, his cock plowing in and out of you. His hand pulling your head back so he could kiss you while he fucks hard into your sensitive hole.

Flipping over to ride him, reveling in the little whines he’s letting out, finally having some sense of control over him. Not that it lasted for long, given his hand was around your neck in seconds and he was ramming up into you, hitting that perfect spot inside you.

Ending up with you sitting on his face, moaning and whining as his tongue took you to places beyond Earth. Your mouth around the tip of cock, hand wrapped around the base while massaging his balls with your other hand. Both of you cumming at the same time, him making you a shaking quivering mess on top of him.

Ending with soft kisses from him, and a very effective clean up. He even raided your kitchen for some snacks and drinks when you both went back to the living room to watch a movie.

— Bree <3

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Also, I’m begging y’all to ask me to write stuff 😭 I’m running out of ideas here

[natures-marvel]

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Woah, woah woah! 😳

Someone's trying to know too much about me, huh?! 😳

Okay, so :

What is your nickname?

One of them is the one I use here. Kal.

When is your birthday?

15th Feb 😊

What was your longest relationship?

None, lmao 😂 #singleaf💪🏽

What is your favorite book?

A lot of them, omg! 😭

I cant pick a fav! 😭

What is something you're insecure about?

Its Classified 😊

5 Male celebrity crushes

Rodrigo de la Serna (oh la la 👀)

Siddharth Malhotra

Pedro Alonso

Tom Hiddleston

Ram Charan (hes very handsome, okay??)

5 Female celebrity crushes

Alba Flores (step on me, please!)

Shraddha Kapoor (shes so pretty 😍)

Cate Blanchett

What is your dream job?

I am doing exactly what I love!

What do you consider your biggest accomplishment?

Atm, its smth I am not sharing here but know that it was a dream come true for me when it happened.

What is a fact about you that nobody would believe?

Uh....idt i have anything like that. 😅

What were your highs and lows for this last month?

Where is somewhere you'd like to visit?

Oh man, so many places!

How do you de-stress?

By hassling my moots. Atm, my fav victim is @h0bg0blin-meat 😈

So, mostly I listen to music but sometimes my mind is too very active so i do yoga to calm it down.

What are your favorite apps besides tumblr?

Youtube, then all of my game apps and Photo Editor

Describe yourself in one sentence.

Wow, kay.

I am strong-willed, optimistic, hardworking, kind but also mischievious sometimes.

What do you think makes you attractive?

Idk, tbh 😂

If someone else has an answer, please do lemme know 😂

What is something you're really good at?

Time Management and hardwork.

What is something you're really bad at?

Bad at? Well, ig striking up a convo with people because i am very introverted

A time that you told a lie.

Okay, so this one is actually pretty funny :

When i was 8, my mum made a (pudina) chutney cheese sandwiched toast and i didnt want anyone else to take a bite of it.

So I lied to my classmates who were hanging out with me that day (cause of those sandwiches 😒) that the chutney was prawns chutney 🤣

Predictably, they scampered off. 🤣🤣🤣

What's a totally random and useless fact that you know?

Male crows and female crows are very easily differenciable.

Who knows you the best?

My mom. 🙃.

What is your most prized possession?

Something that adorns the walls of my living room.

What is your longest friendship?

If @delirious-and-slightly-murderous shows up anytime soon and before June, it will be 3 years with that. Otherwise @wedgeantill holds the current record for 2.5 years

[granitenotgranted]

I'm gonna need ur reaction and thoughts about the RaM finale once you've watched it

I only watched it yesterday so im not gonna have any hot and spicy new takes for yall but ya girl DID have some thoughts lets go (obviously spoiler warning)

thank you SO SO much for asking!! I’m honored that you want my takes<33

Listen I hate to say it but I KNEW IT WAS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!! GOD!!! 😭😭😭

I just need to come out here and say this but first of all I dont think Rick replacing himself was really a bad thing,,,, like at all LMAO especially knowing that it was Rick who made him I mean it was more than just a replacement he was made to be the grandpa he wants for morty but he just knows he can’t be right now.

I can fully understand how it would absolutely feel like a betrayal to Morty but looking at it as a viewer I mean Rick was fully spiraling, to me his intentions were completely pure. Also I thik im just grateful they gave us a time stamp for when the swap was made so we didnt have to wonder forever how much of Rick this season was Rick. He still did piss master, he still kept Jerry blissfully ignorant just out of good will, he STILL WILLINGLY WENT TO THERAPY. All these wouldve been out the window if theyd overlooked that detail. 

Him recognizing that he was starting to go off the deep end again and not only removing himself but having his familys best interest in mind ( “Im no good to anyone until I resolve this” ) while doing so AND literally while mad at Morty is still INSANE character growth from where we started but this way is REALISTIC character growth. It was WEIRD how black and white the difference between literally yhe last two episodes and even just the rest of the season (which has famously been Rick in his peak good grandpa career) was. At some points it felt like I was reading fanfiction.

(Why do his knees look like that oh my god) Rick is fully capable of recognizing where he can be better, he always has been, he is not stupid *however* he is CLUTCHING onto the idea of being more logical than sentimental by the fucking neck rn. Men will literally build an anatomically flawless ai to be the perfectly calculated percentage nicer to their grandson and to be the man they wish they were before just going back to therapy.

Someone else mentioned this but ill also point out how much I appreciated just seeing Rick working? Like just in his space completely focused building shit with his brain and hands that hit the fucking spot. 9/10 times we only get the finished product and idk if its just me but I love when we SEE Rick living up to the Rick Sanchez tm reputation.

And Morty... my sweet summer child. It is not at all a shiny new take to say oh he’s so done with ricks shit we all know that but I really really want to point out something that I’m not really sure what point I’m trying to make with but have we noticed almost a switch morty flips when on adventures? He cried because Christmas was ruined like not even a full 6 hours before he was fully ready to kill a man while looking him in the eyes. Maybe the two were cause and effect idk bht I think that’s definitely something present in other episodes too this sorta “just get it done” attitude.

Also how much he sounded like rick this ep? That whole “don’t be too flattered he’s been actively trying to die” sounded EXACTLY like a Rick line I literally had to play it again. And the complete apathy for robo rick wanting to die until he ACTUALLY lunged himself into the void was also just textbook rick bullshit. Like grandfather like goddamn grandson.

The ending to me was a little disappointing tbh I think I was hoping for a more,,, structured? Cliffhanger? Like we dk what’s gonna happen in this storyline instead of the introduction to a new storyline yk? MAYBEEE I’m just salty we have to wait another year for more you can’t prove anything.

Rick being borderline manic ab RP at the end was my favorite it’s nice to see him just rant ab anything really and like not make some bullshit elaborate Halloween house to take his anger out but just legit vent ab what this guys been doing to him for the past fucking 40 years. I didn’t even notice the ep was over when the credits rolled in my mind we were only like 10 minutes in and I lost my MIND when mr poopy butthole pulled up again good to see he’s thriving (kinda)

On a final note when he called him Rick prime please let me know if I’m off but is that not an internet term for him? Like the fandom came up with it? Rick and morty writers are tumblerinas confirmed question mark?

And lastly: Neurotypical. Cooties.

[quaranmine]

Do you know the write speed of your work laptops hard drive? Because that could be part of the reason it's slower than your personal.

So I can look at write speed in task manager and it fluctuates all the time, but they look like they're fluctuating within the same range. Like it goes 0 kb/s > 70-80 kb/s > 120 - 135 kb/s > 200/300/400 kb/s > 1.4 mb/s and then repeats. Actually my personal laptop seems to hit 600-700 kb/s more often than the work laptop. You may be able to tell from this answer that this means nothing to me cause idk what write speed means LOL

Let me just list my specs lmao

Personal Laptop

Dell Inspiron 14 5410 (i'm never buying dell again i have had nothing but bad experiences in the last 3 years with multiple laptops lol)

Processor: 11th Gen Intel(R) Core(TM) i7-11370H @ 3.30GHz 3.00 GHz

Installed RAM: 16 GB

OS: Windows 11 Home (had the issue on Win 10 as well, clean installs were performed, did not fix)

Network Adapter: Intel(R) Wi-Fi 6 AX201 160MHz

Wifi protocol: Wi-Fi 5 (802.11ac)

Link speed: 58/30 Mbps

Network band and network channel: 5 GHz / 44

Work Laptop

Dell Latitude 5320 (dont let this post fool you this laptop sucks too, i know like a dozen people at work including myself who had to have our "brand new" laptops replaced within a year)

Processor: 11th Gen Intel(R) Core(TM) i7-1185G7 @ 3.00 GHz 1.80 GHz

Installed RAM: 16 GB

OS: Windows 11 Enterprise

Network Adapter: Intel(R) Wi-Fi 6 AX201 160MHz

Wifi protocol: Wi-Fi 5 (802.11ac)

Link speed: 1560/1560 mbps (this is the only major difference I can see between the two of them? why is it so much higher?)

Network band and network channel: 5 GHz / 44

It also has a much higher signlat strength in general when I look at it.

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help a girlie out i did environmental science not IT and i've been barely able to play games or be in discord calls for like two years now and it's painful 😭😭😭😭

A note: I do not have an ethernet connection and currently no way to put one in. I understand that wireless connections are inherently slower but it should be THIS slow if our internet package has up to 300 mbps (iirc)? I am in a room far from the router, but as aforementioned, it's pretty slow even by the router and I would assume all devices would struggle if it was Only the distance that was the problem. I had multiple Dell support people stumped with this laptop before and the wifi card was replaced once already.

[kinnbig]

tagged by @kissporsche and @aikinn thank you ✨

fave colour: yellow or pastel pink 💛🌸

currently reading: omgg technically less by andrew sean greer but i started it in august before the dissertation dread kicked in and still haven’t finished it :( which sucks cause it’s good

last song: lil nas x tales of dominica (one of my favourites from this album! also one of my favourites in general)

last series: the eclipse finale! it was pretty good!

last movie: i genuinely don’t remember the last time i watched a movie lol

currently working on: my gd dissertation… i don’t even want a masters any more at this point i’m so done 😭 this shit is never ending.

…perhaps it would be ending faster if i wasn’t also actively working on multiple fanfics lol:

huuge fic lovingly working-titled ‘the Big-centric pain and sadness compilation’ - canon-compliant Big and Ken backstory spanning from several years pre-canon up to the events of episode 10. ft lots of pining and manipulation and kind of fucked up smut (rated E, 10+ chapters, first chapter nearly ready to post (and multiple completely random chapters complete… why was chapter 7 the first one I wrote?!))

multi-chapter third part to my RamKing series ‘silence and patience’ which is just gonna be several chapters of early relationship fluff and smut and is also basically a KingRam manifesto (rated E, 5 chapters(?), first chapter probably 80% complete)

anOther RamKing fic set in early canon, where bisexual icon King takes his friends to a gay bar and sees Ram flirting with some guy. he can’t believe Ram would give a stranger so much attention but ignore him most of the time and decides the solution is to scare the guy away and aggressively flirt with Ram himself. i’m sure u can guess where it’s going. (rated E, oneshot, 40% complete)

also on the back burner:

BigKen friends with benefits fic (E, oneshot)

some very pre-canon KinnBig smut (E, oneshot)

Porsche and Chay 5+1 - 18-year-old Porsche realises 13-year-old Chay is gay but hasn’t talked to Porsche about it. 5 times where, over the years, Porsche goes out of his way to be the ultimate most supportive ally ever to make sure Chay knows he can tell him, and 1 time Porsche talks to Chay about his own bisexuality. (T, oneshot)

Share 10 different favourite characters from ten different pieces of media in no particular order, then tag 10 people 🎥🎬📺:

Big (KinnPorsche)

Ram (the RamKing show/My Engineer)

Shiv Roy (Succession)

Zuko (Avatar: the Last Airbender)

Klaus Hargreeves (The Umbrella Academy)

Michelle Mallon (Derry Girls)

Sayid Jarrah (Lost)

Paula Proctor (Crazy Ex Girlfriend)

Eric Effiong (Sex Education)

Ianto Jones (Torchwood) (a throwback to one of my earliest blorbos lmao)

tell me why i immediately forgot every piece of media i’ve ever enjoyed in my life…

i’m doing this quite late (sorry) so i’m not sure who has already done this/been tagged so! If you see this and want to do it then consider yourself tagged

😎✌️

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

10 Fe bru ar y 2023 Friday 11:18 am pdt

kinyoubi? Britney Spears

dancing 💃 can be athletic? I heard football 🏈 players take ballet 🩰? Dancing with the stars & competitors make it look athletic. Britney Spears is a good dancer? Dancer 💃 11:23 am pdt I need to rewatch music videos (I like drive me crazy I also saw that movie 🎥 & the making of music video video). 11:25 am pdt

1:18 pmpdt burped after a big heart ♥️ pain. 😤🥵😤🥵😤🥵😖😭😞😫 felt detrimental. 1:20 pmpdt thank you, thank you 🙏 incubus 4 applying burning 🔥 acid to my brain 🧠 so I know that the whole my being your wife is a joke from a heartless guy. Maybe 🤔 it runs in the family “fall face” was in autocorrect I did fall on my face a lot t the only time I went snowboarding 🏂 I fell multiple times on my face on hard icy 🥶 snow ❄️ In an effort to stop 🛑 myself from colliding with other people. Multiple times. 1:24 pmpdt

1:25 pmpdt bye jerk! 1:26 pmpdt

1:52 pmpdt incubus has been making me bleeed blood 🩸 a lot today & probably yesterday but having difficulty remembering. He’s heating my back again. He did it all last year & forced me to stay down in bed 🛌 in an awkward position & I didn’t know Until after he’s did it for many months straight that he intentionally was making it into an “absurd” shape. He did it all year last year. 1:56 pmpdt I bleed a lot. Bloody 🩸 vag, bloody 🩸 ass, bloody 🩸 nose 👃, bloody 🩸 skin oozing body fluid. If I was a bathtub 🛁 I guess all my pipes would pour out blood instead of water 💦. 1:59 pmpdt

2pmpdt also incubus rammed my head into multiple hard things several times. Broken wrist. Broke all my bones 🦴. There was another hung I was going to type but forgot. Oh multiple bruises from being clumsy my knees elbows other parts into sharp wood 🪵 corners all my life. 2:02 pmpdt black eye 👁 from a softball ���. 2:03 pmpdt

2:06 pmpdt you got me blinded- Saint Lucia???? - baby 👶 hit me one more time 🎶🎼🎵🎤 2:08 pmpdt incubus keeps making me too hot 🥵 searing !!!! Hot 🥵 back digging into flesh & bone 🦴 in my back. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ who is going to see. Sometimes when I go to the hospital 🏥 they don’t want to do specific things bcz probably the incubus telling them not to or to do which means incubus is doctors’ 🥼 god. Rapist murderer wife beater god is also doctors’ god. 2:12 pmpdt also rapist prostitution pimp god. He makes it happen bcz Nick is my tester. That’s how I know. 2:14 pmpdt

Tester = what I meant was he was testing me. Maybe 🤔 I didn’t use the correct word? “With wife” came up in autocorrect say hello 👋 to sumner for me then if incubus is with his wife now. My body is too hot 🥵 & absurd & damaged for me to think I ever had a loving husband. Mmm bye 👋 2:18 pmpdt

2:20 pmpdt I have a feeling incubus interferes with X-ray pictures so I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ when I will know the truth. He also interfered w/ car batteries 🔋 & make many drain one after the other. 2:22 pmpdt he plans stuff out so he can interfere. 2:23 pmpdt

2:24 pmpdt feels like he is devouring my back muscles 💪 w/ heat & probably acid. 2:25 pmpdt w/o me would incubus look truly 100% 💯 incubus 2:26 pmpdt

2:27 pmpdt the whites of my eyeballs 👀 have started turning black weeks ago from all the abuse. 2:28 pmpdt incubus looks like he has a dirty d*ck. 2:29 pmpdt wives of incubus: Kelly, Jane page Herman, Candace Bailey, Anne Vyalitsna?, Behati Prinsloo, sumner stroh, mvrykv_, love looks like it’s being spread super thin 2:31 pmpdt kept playing live (love 2:44 pmpdt autocorrect keeps changing it. Autocorrect said “lord love” himself? 2:45 pmpdt) like it was a game pretending to feel the same turn around & leave again boo 👻 doo boo 👻 playa... 😱 player ... played = plaid? Platypus.... 2:33 pmpdt

2:37 pmpdt good luck finding a self sacrificing woman 👩🏻 who will fall to the earth 🌍 to kiss 💋 your feet 🦶 incubus 2:38 pmpdt buh bye 👋 2:38 pmpdt

2:49 pmpdt last year I recalled an article I read probably w/in last 5 years. Incubus is probably yelling “no!” Whatever he probably hurt all of my organs already. Whatever. 2:50 pmpdt incubus likes to deprive me of oxygen. I don’t really think I can believe in him at all. 2:51 pmpdt world with out end. Never ending story. Nothing matters. Bcz he makes it impossible. Why does rape murder wife beating exist today? Bcz incubus. 2:52 pmpdt they have no intentions of changing anything in to a peaceful world without pain like a lot of people anticipate from the Bible apocalypse. It’s a run around lie. 2:54 pmpdt

3:54 pmpdt the 4th guy I did it w/doesn’t believe in soulmates. He thinks that people imagine it/coincidence stuff probably. 3:55 pmpdt

3:55 pmpdt Scott had letters his parents wrote to each other as pen pals on his wall w/ a picture of each parent writing ✍️. He said he wanted “something like that.” No further elaboration. When we ran into each other at Santana row when I was going to have dinner 🍽 w/ my sister & her then boyfriend he said “I know you!” But I was unprepared to run into him & to respond at all. So I looked away & then looked back & I think I said hi maybe. & then he left w/ a big smile on his face. Later that night after dinner 🍽 & got home 🏠 I got heartburn for the first time & I think 🤔 it lasted a week???? My sister’s boyfriend said I’m supposed to wait it out & naturally let it go away but it didn’t. Then I went to the doctor 👩‍⚕️ & she prescribed me something. I tried asking her multiple times what’s the natural way to make it go away & she wouldn’t tell me but she growled at me. I think that maybe was 2006. Maybe it was karma for the tricycle thing. Even though I really don’t recall pedaling fast. Incubus is trying hard to completely change my memory & make me doubt myself & feel like I’m lying. I remember having thoughts 💭 interrupted after each time I pedaled, so if that happened how do I go very fast? Maybe it was a tiny bit fast ? I hit my hip bones 🦴 many times into 🚪 doorknobs & kitchen counter tops before 2006 & I jumped off the stairs & it hurt a lot & I think it shortened my legs 🦵. It took me a while to figure out, it was a few days ago I realized that the incubus toyed w/ my self esteem to make me jump off the stairs to shorten my legs 🦵 to make me doubt my memories of clumsily colliding my hip bones 🦴 into sharp porcelain? Kitchen counter tops? I barely remember that but it was so painful it really left it’s mark in my memory, & door 🚪 knobs that usually was I think painted a gold metallic color? Was it? It hurt a lot. It had to have been metal. I fear he’s going to destroy more brain cellls to rid my mind of the memory like he destroyed the memory recently of other pain. Bcz he doesn’t want to owe me anything. Like my cousin said b4 she left this apartment & hasn’t come back since. Even though she punched 🤛 me in the head & if I reported her she probably could have been sent to juvenile detention???? 4:12 pmpdt

J free- huh? What’s this? Accidentally typed 4:12 pmpdt trying to save. Bar Abbas yeshua???? 4:13 pmpdt

4:14 pmpdt my point in bringing up 🆙 “I know you!” From Scott ? I know you I’ve walked with you once upon a dream 😴 toying with me. 🧸 destiny? Fate? Sleeping beauty prince 🤴 Phillip , aurora briar rose 🥀. He has an older sister he probably watched it. 4:17 pmpdt spurts of blood 🩸 after changing a full load 😞 I think 2xs today. 4:18 pmpdt b4 he kissed 💋 me in 2007 he said he thought 💭 “the Bible is interesting” then he asked if he could kiss 💋 me than he stopped me from verbally responding which I was hoping to actually refuse him bcz my heart wasn’t in it . He said “I feel that you want to kiss me” then he went in for it. I think he might have even held up his hand 🤚 to stop 🛑 me from saying anything. In 2010 he told me he was hanging out with my sister’s friend’s family & getting into shoreline free???? I think 🤔 that is what he said. It wasn’t until last year (can’t breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ exhaling 🥵 hot air been feeling a lot of hip bone 🦴 pain this week & today. I think he’s really going to take it away from me.) that I found something online that Cain? Kane? Cane? Not came.

4:24 pmpdt the thing keeps jumping done ✅ down not done ✅ don’t came up 🆙. I’m not allowed 🚫 to say it even though it is true? And a lot of people probably knew b4 me???!! Knew a million times over? How is it he got 1000 views in a day on his newest reel on YouTube? 4:26 pmpdt I think 🤔 he thinks pain left eyeball 👁 scrape 4:27 pmpdt it’s in the Bible land of nod. Makes me think that means nod = yes. Meaning I probably don’t have a choice. He’s special. He gets whatever he wants. So even though I didn’t know that back in 2007, he already probably knew it which is why he stopped me from saying anything verbally. His kissses were really good in 2007. And he told me I was a good kisser w/ surprise & enthusiasm. & it was hard to stop 🛑. My previous boyfriend told me I was a bad kisser. I figured out lips 👄 were a good fit. All the other lips 👄 I guess were different? 4:31 pmpdt I think I might have resumed kissing him in 2010, it might have been after he bit me. He seemed to have bit me after I tried to tell him I liked someone else & that I couldn’t see him anymore bcz of the overwhelming emotions I had. 4:32 pmpdt. But he didn’t want to hear it I guess so he bit me as soon as I said “I like josh.” 4:33 pmpdt stupidly while sitting on his lap. 4:33 pmpdt

4:34 pmpdt also I flew over the bicycle 🚴🏼 when I was ≈11/12/13/14 years old? Memory is getting bad. & I went down a hill in a park in San Francisco it was very steep & scary & I hurt my heel, hip, & butt that day in 2009, trying to break on a razor scooter 🛴. Karma got me back. I don’t remember giving anyone heart ♥️ burn 🔥 intentionally. 4:36 pmpdt 4:37 pmpdt reminder: incubus will make things hurt more w/ his magic 🪄 when it shouldn’t. For example a comb falling on your leg 🦵. Makes me think 🤔 that incubus maybe 🤔 hurt the kid more than I did when I was on the tricycle. I wonder 💭. If I were a rich man 👨 deedle deedle deedle dum autocorrect “dumb dumped” me? Ok 👌 4:40 pmpdt

cane’s children’s name enos? Enoch? 4:40 pmpdt you have been warned. Expect to give him everything he wants. 4:41 pmpdt

5:19 pmpdt 5:20 pmpdt also a thought 💭 that occurred to me days ago & now (pain right foot 🦶 left side clawing 5:21 pmpdt) the anatomy of a tricycle. Trying to recall what part might have hit him? Was it the handle bar ? Was it the pedal? Was it the front of the wheel???? 😞 pain also I went to I think Santa Cruz w/ Q & I followed every one to the bumper cars 🚗. My bumper car was defective & a little blonde 👱 haired boy had it out for me. I was an easy target 🎯. Never met him b4 that I could recall but he hit me repeatedly the whole time. Probably hurt. Jarring? Maybe? Why I cannot remember.. I don’t think I had a fond memory of it. I think I couldn’t wait for it to be over. 5:26 pmpdt karma again ? 5:26 pmpdt hanging out with Q is usually expensive. 5:27 pmpdt

I guess I will say it again, if I were a billionaire? Or had a lot of money 💰 I would give him some. But I never was a genius. I did well in algebra & geometry 📐 & I thought I did well in algebra 2 but I got a lower grade than I anticipated. The first half of algebra 2 though I was still talking to “Brendan.” 5:30 🕠 pmpdt I easily burned out after studying 📖 I guess. 5:31 pmpdt

5:32 pmpdt I tried Java class & it was probably the first run for my school offering it. The teacher who taught it didn’t fit my learning style. I think 🤔 I wonder if he didn’t think he was a good teacher? (My mom’s whole body is in pain. She’s really aching like me now it seems. 😞😖😭5:34 pmpdt) he gave me an “A” even though I wasn’t good at it. The only thing that came to me easy were applets = essentially “Paint” by coordinates? Something like rgb x,y ? I was too burned out feeling from other classes, head trauma, track. I think I took it junior year? Unfortunately Nick was in that class, too. I always felt too disabled in some way to read the books. 5:39 pmpdt all I remember was trying to make a pendulum, & the teacher sat down with me. & he told me most of the lines to add to complete the “internet devil sun” autocorrect.... Java problem/exercise. & then he said something like there don’t you feel better you did it ... & then I replied “I didn’t. You did it.” lol 😂 & I think 🤔 everyone heard me in the class. & Nick, & thrasher? & I think 🤔 was there a third guy? Came to sit next to me one by one to look 👀 at my computer. Computer 👩🏻‍💻 desktop 🖥. 5:44 pmpdt I was like yeah yeah whatever you can look. Awkward to say no? 5:44 pmpdt why do you do what you do to me baby shaking my confidence Driving me crazy. Krystle came in to take attendance sheets & then walked to Nick to flirt with him. I don’t think she knew about me... I wonder 💭 now though if she knew. 5:47 pmpdt can’t you just pretend to be nice? 😰 I sang that in that class .. Nick probably heard. Should’ve not sang. 5:49 pmpdt

5:55 pmpdt I looked at my transcript last year & noticed he gave me an A? I think 🤔 he forgot he gave me the answers which now I’m thinking 🤔 in retrospect that that’s weird. I probably should have got an F. I didn’t continue w/Java or any other computer languages in school 🏫. I tried Java (teeth pain 5:58 pmpdt) bcz my dad suggested computer engineering? & w/o much thought 💭 I was like “okay.” So I tried it sorta. If I excelled would I be a millionaire now? 6:01 pmpdt

6:47 pmpdt fine. I’m scumbag. I’m slime. I deserve to be destroyed. Happy? Btwn 6 & now felt acid pain in whole throat & more gurgling & searing destructive heat. I think I understand the system now. Bcz I’m a hypocrite, the none hypocrites? Get to do whatever they want w/o consequences & I get very big consequences b4 & after I do something. Hence the reflux & burning 🔥 me to death ☠️ bcz I’m going to do it in the future???????? 🤔😰 I don’t want to do that to anyone. I don’t want to desire it. Please don’t make me feel that way. 6:53 pmpdt

[filtercoffeeonsteroids]

Why I love desi tumblr:

1. Every other person is expressing their love for chai

2. Moodboards for the most obscure and wonderful things, that I can't seem to live without now

3. SO MUCH INDIAN MYTHOLOGY. I can find anything from krishna-subhadra to panchali-arjun to bheem-duryodhana. It's fantastic. I'm in love.

4. The vibes. The VIBES >>>> . I feel like I'm sitting in front of a window, and it's raining and I'm having chai and pakoras whenever I open my tumblr and it's the best feeling ever.

5. Love the fact that people rant about their exams on here. Especially CBSE. I'm in college now, so it gives me immense and a somewhat twisted joy in laughing about the torture CBSE is putting them through, because, well, my time with that wretched institution is done.

6. The correlations between the supposed western world with indian mythology have my heart. I love how this generation of desis finds similarities in real life to what is written in the epics. For instance, I read a note on krishna and subhadra arguing over the TV remote!!

7. I just witnessed the circulation of Mahabharata memes and desis hating on yudhishthir (and rightfully so, he was an idiot who thought that keeping his wife as a prize in a fucking ludo game was wise) and I have never felt more content.

8. Just had an indepth argument/conversation/whatever we do on tumblr about how a golgappa's rightful name is gol gappa and not panipuri Or phuchka. I feel obligated to let you know that I have crowned myself the winner of this debate.

9. Just found out that draupadi invented golgappa. I owe this discovery to point no. 8. We, as a nation, owe her everything.

10. Found a really nice krishna-balram-subhadra appreciation post a few days back and I love how it was so eloquently written <3

11. SO MANY RRR FANFICS. I absolutely love the ram x bheem love stories ohmygod. I've also come across some smutty ones on tumblr and I've got to say- we have an active imagination 😏

12. All my mutuals loved the latest dad joke I posted- it's getting so much attention, I love it 😌

13. All of desi tumblr us freaking out about the indian origin candidates for the position of Britain's prime minister and I love the irony of how the country that colonised us for 200 years will maybe have an Indian origin prime minister 😌

14. I recently posted about how chicken tikka masala was Britain's national dish and I LOVED the responses xD

15. Adopting recent Instagram trends into indian mythology!! I just saw the "she's a 10" Trend being adapted to Indian Gods and Goddesses 😭💓

16. The shayari on the moon by desis is the reason I live.

(I'll be editing this whenever I find more reasons, but please add to the list!!!)

[brw]

does hank. have games on his phone. also if u had to assign daemons to ur top five characters what animals would u give them

i don't know which Hank u mean so answering both!! hank mccoy only plays candy crush bc he's a 80 year old grandmother trapped in the body of a blue bodybuilder covered in fur. he's one of the top 10 worldwide or some shit. if he's not doing science, committing war crimes or eating some wonder man ass he's playing candy crush.

hank pym has like 5 diff games and he plays maybe one of them, the rest r ones one of his kids downloaded at different times. he plays like... online sudoku puzzles n his kids have shit like subway surfers or that merge dragons shit. clash of clans. u know the ones. just hands them his phone if they're bored during a bus ride.

AND OH MAN. I HAD AN ENTIRE AU I NEVER ACTUALLY WROTE FOR THIS. okay so hercules i obviously have a lionness her name is berenike n i can't remember what it translates to properly but its glory or bravery or.... something. wanda i gave just a straight up dragon. but it's not very large, like lockheed size, n spends it's time pretending to be her cloak with its wings n her name is sinfi. pietro has a peregrine falcon named kezia. hank pym has a queen ant obviously named kathleen, and is probably a carpenter ant. janet van dyne has a giant asian hornet who's name is judd/ jordan :) vision obviously doesn't have one but is very whole as a person despite this, which is part of why they feel so separate from everyone else. simon's died for real during the initial 15 years of death and she was a chameleon named melanie. hank mccoy has a maine coon cat named Debbie :0 reed richards has an albino rat named cynthia, n sue has a ram named jacob.

the funniest part abt this au for me was gamora, who's dæmon was just rocket 😭😭

[danny-chase]

Can we assume Dick has performance pokémon? His starter being Popplio, but he also has a Fletchling. After that, you can pick ones like Kadabra (magician), Machoke (strong man/pro wrestler), and so on. Actually, now that I think about it, evil teams could cause Crises. (Since Cyrus kinda did.) Hey! Pariah could have an Absol!

We talked a bunch about it on discord! I personally hc poplio as his first pokemon and having a phanpy from his family. He could def have more from the circus but I think he would end up meeting a lot as Robin, and we talked a bit about having him as Robin adopt a lot of smaller/derpy looking pokemon that evolve into ones that like terraform landscapes when he's Nightwing. Basically:

Robin!Dick: Bruce, please can we take him with us he just looks so sad 🥺😭

Bruce, who's manor is already overflowing with pokemon: No-

Dick: I will scream and give away our position

Bruce: Fine

*10 years later*

Penguin: I heard that first Robin's back in town-

*rumbling commences*

Basically pokemon like spheal, aron, bagon (who's pokedex entry states that he literally just rams his head into the wall), slakoth, and the like 😂

[rasnak2]

ok but rasnak, a '96 rambheem au?? ram is ram and bheem is janaki. they fall in love while studying in a smalltown school and then ram moves away and bheem marries jenny and settles abroad. (because this is same-sex love and the school story is set in the 90s, internalized homophobia and societal pressure can also be reasons for their separation). bheem comes back for the reunion and realizes he's still in love with ram and it's the same for ram 💔💔💔

or

bheem is ram and ram is janaki and sita is ram's wife (lol i know, the names) and she's super understanding and patient with him just like janaki's husband in the film. bheem is a wildlife photographer and meets ram after years and sparks fly. oh and let's not forget that famous scene from the film. bheem travelling all the way from his city on his bike to ram's college only for a misunderstanding to get in the way of their meeting 😭😭😭😭 and he also attends ram's wedding but doesn't have the courage to stop it cuz he thinks ram hates him ahhhh god let me go and weep in a corner

(a kadhale kadhale songfic 🥺🥺)

Damn dude! Did you just read my mind????? Cuz I was just rewatching the movie and like are you seriously reading my mind with that first idea?? That tiny misunderstanding and the subsequent heartbreak for Ram or Bheem? Ooooffff. School lovers separating and reuniting after a hella long time in a reunion? Adding fuel to the fire, along with the homophobia and the society, the duo also try to run away from home but gets caught by their parents. And they are living in the 90s. Someone, please gimme this!

And Bheem riding a bike for such a long distance just for heartbreak breaks my heart and makes me want to read it all the more! And Damn if Ram didn't notice Bheem in his wedding and all that! I am sure Ram noticed but he decides to stay silent as Bheem walks away before he could say anything. My god the angst angst... Like wow! And adding more fuel to the fire, the second AU can also contain SitaJenny who are separated under similar circumstances :3

On a side note, WILDLIFE PHOTOGRAPHER BHEEM!!!!!!!!! Tbh when I first read that statement I was immediately transported to Maddy and his wildlife photography in 3 Idiots and which later on made me remember the time I had shipped Farhan and Rancho and-

Ok I know I am going off course but Rambheem with Ram as Rancho and Bheem as Farhan. Ram moves away after getting his degree and Bheem is heartbroken and gets to meet Ram after 10 years only he has been festering in the hope that he'll be able to propose to Ram someday cuz they had been in a relationship before Ram just vanished in thin air.

... or we can have a mash-up of 96 and 3 Idiots where Rambheem are school lovers, misunderstanding happens, meet back up in college, rekindle the relationship only for Ram to disappear and meet up back again at the school/college reunion.

As for the songfic, Idk if I would be able to make one but if I do, you'll find it in your asks *looks at the exam timetable that starts on Monday and I haven't even touched the book yet* Yeah...

[trashexplorer]

BLCD Review: Therapy Game 1 & 2

Title: Therapy Game 1 & 2 ( セラピーゲーム１・２)

Release Date: 2020/03/13 & 2020/04/10

Author/Artist: Hinohara Meguru

Cast: 

Shingaki Tarusuke x Ono Yuuki

Hirakawa Daisuke x Shimono Hiro

Kagura Hiroyuki

Yanagita Junichi

Nakae Mitsuki

Date Tadanori

Iwasawa Toshiki

Synopsis: Recently dumped and very straight, Shizuma tries to drink his sorrow away, only to wake up being spooned by a man! When he explains to Minato, his drunken fling, that he doesn’t remember a thing about their night together, Minato secretly vows to seduce him again—and then dump him as revenge! But even the best-laid plans can go awry when Cupid has his way.

Review Proper

I thought that I could put this and Love Nest off for longer, but I’ve officially run out of BLCDs to listen to. I’ve had them both for quite a while now, but I couldn’t and can’t (because I’m typing this review out very slowly so I can put off Love Nest more) bring myself to listen to these two particular ones for obvious reasons. If y’all didn’t know, I’m painful sequel with get you a goddamn man trash and KD, NBN, Love Nest, Kanawanu, and Therapy Game were released all at the same year! Man, 2018 was the shit. 

However, one of the reasons why I keep putting Therapy Game off is actually my fear of Shingaki Tarusuke failing. I usually put my log favorite until the very last, and I definitely love Therapy Game more than Love Nest, but if it this turns out to be another Kanawanu Koi, I would be completely devastated.  

BUT I WAS WRONG.

Mr. Shingaki Tarusuke didn’t come here to play—he came to fucking slay. If this was the reason why Therapy Game was so delayed despite it’s supposed initial release back in December 2019, then it was well worth it! Hara-san who? We don’t know her. I was right when I said that his Shizuma-kun was what I was looking for, but I didn’t expect him to not sound like any of his other seme roles! WHAT A FUCKING LEGEND! UGH. 😩 He used a softer tone that was a pitch higher than Kishimoto’s in Customer Masquerade! I had thought that Shingaki was going to take the back seat during this BLCD because Therapy Game was more centered on Minato and that was true to some degree, but when it came to the bed scenes, he really didn’t let up! There were no safety belts on that bedroom roller coaster and I was struggling to hold onto something because it was that intense! If that wasn’t already enough, when they were busy being the ghosts of the mansion’s version of Paranormal Activity, the man was ramming himself against Minato as if his life depended on him breaking that goddamn roof! They better be thankful that the attic was sturdy and that there were no casualties—

except for me, of course. 

Now, Ono Yuuki. Wow. I don’t have any words. This was probably the most emotional role I’ve heard him in as an uke. Emotional as in dramatic and as in his character was very expressive. Kairi in Memento scarlet was more of a cool slut and Coyote was more of a reserved yet naiive softie, but Minato was a bit of everything plus “queen needs to be loved”, so I wasn’t sure if he was going to be able to pull him of especially since he was getting majority of the dialogue. Surprisingly enough, he did great! Except for that little bit where he was telling Yuka off for interrupting his call with Shizuma-kun where his tone drop sounded unnatural, he nailed Minato’s expression changes almost perfectly. Also, never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that there would come a day when I’d get to hear him moan “sugoi, sugoi!” with such zeal as he did as Minato. I was literally screaming praises to the Lord during that dance in the attic! #BLESS

As with what I did with Cupid ni Rakurai 2, I didn’t look at the whole cast list because I didn’t want to hurt myself if I found that Hirarin and Shimono Hiro wouldn’t be coming back for the bits that Mito-san and Shouhei-kun appeared in the sequel, BUT THEY CAME BACK!!! 😭😭😭 AND THEY VOICED ALL OF THEIR DIALOGUES!!!

No more screaming dinosaur gifs here. I’m willing to forgive Shinshokan for not voicing Shizuma-kun in Secret XXX now. I got the snickers bar I needed. 😌 

OML. I can’t believe they got these four together in a BLCD. What a way to semi-end this log. I didn’t even notice that I put it after Coyote, Saezuru, and Cupid ni Rakurai. Thank you, Cheska of July. Speaking of thanking myself, thank god I didn’t listen to Therapy Game 1 the moment I got it because I thought that it was going to be the whole volume 1 and that 2 was going to be Play More. I really saved myself the cliff-hanger and a potential heartache there! 

Ugh. These just makes me so goddamn happy! They're executed pretty well and the voice work was so good! Everyone from the main cast to the extras gave their all! I loved Shizuma-kun’s cooky friend especially. He could be in the running for the next Shimono Hiro and I hope that he gets more roles in BLCDs! Also, the brothers’ mom was so scary and their dad’s driver/lover/murderer was so creepy. 😨 Props to their actors!

This is definitely one of my favorites of this log. I super recommend getting this if you’re a fan of the series (because the cast is finally complete), but be warned that there are a lot of additions to the dialogues if you are a beginner. When they were in the theme park just before they went to the hotel, they added a good amount of new content where Minato teaches Shizuma-kun how to take better pictures and this becomes the moment that Shizuma-kun realizes that he’s in love with Minato. Also, as what they do in BLCDs, the bedroom scenes are much longer (which is a plus), but it’s just your regular bed talk. The original dialogues in the manga weren’t changed, however, so reading the manga along with listening to the CD shouldn’t be a problem as long as you have that info. Speaking of the manga, Therapy Game has since been licensed by SuBLime in English, so I’d suggest reading it from them for maximum experience! 

Now, let’s hope that Love Nest doesn’t disappoint me. 🤞