Bungou Stray Dogs Masterlist
Together: “Dazai?” The surprise was clear to hear. Chuuya tilted his head slightly as he looked at Dazai, the man was back in his normal clothes. Ao3 Link
You have no idea: “And the next I was gone.” Dazai tilted Chuuya’s head slightly upward. His eyes were bright as his finger traced against Chuuya’s cheek. “I know I hurt you and that I never wanted to hurt you. I listened to every message you sent me. It was the only thing that kept me going. Your messages and photos.” Dazai could see the pain in Chuuya’s eyes. Ao3 Link
Misery loves company: When the other boy finally settled again, Chuuya realised with a groan he didn’t want to leave his friend alone to deal with the nightmares on his own.
His eyes racked over his room, a groan slipping through his lips when he realised that the idea passed through again. Ao3 Link
I can't love myself how I love you: “I love you and I will do everything in my power to keep you safe even when it means hurting you in the process.” Dazai forced himself to stand up, his energy completely gone. He whipped at his eyes wishing he could hide the tear tracks. Ao3 Link
Fighting your own head. The day passed slowly as his mind just tried to dragged him down even further. He ignored the calls coming in, eventually the pounding against his door. He knows in the end that he would have to face the music, but now isn’t the time. Ao3 Link
I don't know... “What happened love.” Chuuya tried to keep his voice as calm as he could.
Dazai’s eyes darted around, everything felt too much. His breathing felt like it caught in his chest and he didn’t want to move. Ao3 Link
Change of Faith: “Oda…” Dazai’s voice broke slightly as he slid down next to the body. Blood clung to his hand and he just wanted to wipe it away. The silence was thick in the room. Ao3 Link
You are not the man, I thought. “The truth Dazai.” Chuuya took a step closer to the younger man, everything in him screaming, raging at the world. Ao3 Link
It was a needed choice. “I can’t promise you forever Chibi. But I can be here for now, for as long as you will have me.” Dazai kept his voice even. Both of them know that there is a high change that he will try to kill himself again. But he could be here in the present just be here for Chuuya. Ao3 Link
It is time. His heart almost stopped. Is this how love feels? His eyes went to his wrist, but it was hidden beneath his jacket.
The time was almost up when he last checked. Ao3 Link
What if: You were in a position where one change and your life would be over Dazai? One change in the force and we won’t have you here any longer. And yeah it is selfish that I don’t want you dead even though I know that each day is a suffering for you. Ao3 Link
A little bit out of the ordinary. Everything just falls apart, they are good Chibi.” Dazai’s voice was soft as he admitted to his downfall. He should have tried to get more intelligence, should have seen that something was missing when no one could tell him a thing about them. Ao3 Link
Nowhere to run: “It doesn’t matter. I have it handled.” Dazai just wanted to walk out. This was too much. It felt like he was being attacked from inside and outside. He didn’t know what to make of these people. Ao3 Link
Every Whumpee's Needs: He closed his eyes again as another shiver passed through his body. It felt like he was being boiled alive. He knows that he needs to do something about it, but all he managed to do was lay still. Hoping that it won’t trigger another vomiting spell. Ao3 Link
Everything hurts and I'm dying: Wondering why on Earth Dazai didn’t just come to him before he did something stupid. Why did he think jumping from a bridge would change anything? Now he only was full of bruises and a head injury. Ao3 Link
The very noisy night: “Something is bothering you.” A mere fact, nothing to be questioned. In the years they have been together Chuuya managed to learn some of the subtler ways Dazai would show he was at his end. And for some reason tonight seemed like such a night. Ao3 Link
Can't make an omelette without breaking a few eggs: When he placed his hands over Dazai’s eyes to shield him from the knife, coming down, piercing his heart. Ao3 Link
Let's break the ice: Dazai forced himself back upright, brown met blue and for a second he wished that he could just let everything go. Just for a second, to just go splat on the road below. Ao3 Link
Enough is enough: “Dazai?” There wasn’t much hope to get a response. His hand was warm against the coldness of Dazai’s cheek. Ao3 Link
Famous last words: “Come, you need to see a doctor.” He made sure to keep his voice as calm as he could. Knowing that the last time he had to take Dazai near a doctor the boy freaked out.
The muscles tensing as Dazai tried to pull away, made Chuuya tighten his hands. Ao3 Link
I'm Sorry: This was the only why. There is no more place for him in the Port Mafia. And he couldn’t ask Chuuya to a choice between himself and his family. It would be wrong to do. Plus, he was relatively sure that Chuuya would have chosen to stay. Ao3 Link
Nightmares: Chuuya just held him waiting for the tremors to pass. Waiting for his breath to even out. Wondering if tonight he would finally tell him what was going on in his mind or if it would be like always. A wall between them. Ao3 Link
I'm Done: His hands balled up slightly before he turned to face Dazai. “I love you more than you know and ever will know. Why can’t it be the same for you? Why is it necessary for you to string me along? All I am good for is those plans of yours. Knowing I will come to no matter the situation.” Chuuya could feel tears burning his eyes, but he quickly blinked them away. Ao3 Link
My Pet: “We are in the Mafia Chibi, and my orders are absolute.” Dazai knows by now he shouldn’t test his Chibi’s patience but at the same time, he just couldn’t help it. It was so much fun. Ao3 Link
My sweet little omega: He grinned slightly as he nuzzled into Dazai’s neck. Just breathing deeply for a second. His sweet little omega was already wrecked, and they barely started the fun. Ao3 Link
Just listen: A pained whimper filled the air as he made his way to his room, his hands shaking as he reached for his blades. Just forget everything for a short while. Tomorrow he will handle the rest, but for now, he didn’t have the energy to deal anymore. Ao3 Link
How long until you break: “You realise that hurting him will make the boss pissed off with you. He wants him with a reason, do not mess this up.” In the short time, she worked as a medic here, she honestly wondered why she was still trying some days. It was just a bunch of manic people around her. Always going out of their way to hurt the people they get. Ao3 Link
Please spell it out for me. “Do I have to spell it out for you Dazai?” Chuuya could feel tears burning his eyes. “I love you! I have fallen in love with you the bloody second, I saw you.” He turned away from Dazai. A choking sob left his lips. Ao3 Link
I'm a Failure: Dazai tried to ignore the pain as he curled up behind the futon. He could hear the rain pattering against the metal making him shiver. It was all his fault. He should have known that there was something more to the new organisation. Ao3 Link
Out of my mind: Another whimper as Dazai tried to press against Chuuya. Hoping for more but at the same time, knew that he would need to beg if he wanted more tonight. Ao3 Link
Engraved into my mind: Hoping that he would tell him to stop speaking, that it was enough. Because he was quite sure he wouldn’t be able to stop now. It felt like someone finally pulled the plug. All the water needs to be realised. Ao3 Link
Say that again: He forced his hands to still as he kissed Dazai’s cheek. “You should have come to me. You don’t need to deal with this alone. I love you.” The last part was said so softly Chuuya was sure that at least Dazai wouldn’t have heard that part. Ao3 Link
Confusion at midnight: Cloudy brown eyes looked at Chuuya. “I don’t know. Everything is hot and my skin is itchy, and I don’t like this, Chu.” Another step closer “It is as if something is burning in my stomach and my head feels fuzzy.” He could feel tears burning his eyes, wanting something but having no idea what. Ao3 Link
Holding Hands: While in a train station, Dazai feels slightly jealous of the people. Chuuya to the rescue. Ao3 Link
Energy Fairy: “Osamu what in the seven hells are you looking for? And stop pulling files out please?” The last part came out slightly high as Chuuya forced the cabinet closed.Brown eyes locked with blue as Dazai pouted. “But how am I supposed to get the energy fairy?” His voice was low and tired. Ao3 Link
Sometimes we only need comfort: Chuuya tightened his arms slightly, wishing he could take the pain away. “Try and sleep. We will figure this out.” His voice was low as he ran his fingers against Dazai’s back. Maybe it would be best if someone takes out Mori… Ao3 Link
Atelphobia: Chuuya bit the inside of his lip as he rocked slightly back and forth. He forced the negative energy from his mind. It doesn’t matter if Dazai comes or not. It doesn’t. Ao3 Link
Please find me: He could almost feel his heart breaking when a trembling body clashed with his. A slight thud as he pulled the omega properly onto his lap.
“It is all right. You are coming back home.” Chuuya whispered the words. The urge to kill everyone involved was almost overwhelming him. In the end, he just nodded at his men. Ao3 Link
And there was only one bed. “Mackerel, can I get the bandages off you?” Chuuya kept his voice low. He knew how Dazai could get for his bandages. Scared of showing what is going on in his skin. To show the world what he managed to survive so far. Ao3 Link
Don't be so stubborn. Just try it! “Please Dazai, I tried a new receipt the texture will be different I promise.” Anything to get him to eat slightly more vegetables. Why does it sometimes feel like he was dealing with a toddler? Ao3 Link
What did you do? “Yeah.” Chuuya sighed slightly. “I don’t know why you did what you did. But it worked. You managed to save my life and keep other people safe. It will take a while before I get over what you said, but I will.” Chuuya leaned slightly forward placing a kiss on Dazai’s head. Ao3 Link
Clenched Fists: Dazai closed his eyes for a second before he leaned down placing a kiss on Chuuya’s head. “Go to sleep Chu. We will discuss this when you are better.” He ran his fingers through the sweat-soaked hair, as he waited for Chuuya to fall asleep. Ao3 Link
What? Did you enjoy it? Chuuya was silent as he watched Dazai chasing the high. He could see the moment that he was almost there, the stuttering of his hips, the way his chest was heaving. He pulled his hand away as Dazai looked at him with tears in his eyes. Ao3 Link
This is wrong: “There was no other choice Dazai. You know it as well as I do.” Chuuya could feel the anger coursing through his veins. “Do not look at me like you care. It is my life, if I died out there, it would have been the…” Before he could continue Dazai pressed his mouth against Chuuya’s. Ao3 Link
You don't need to hide.“You don’t need to hide anymore. I know you want to return to your container, but you don’t need to hide anymore.” Chuuya wished he could shake the words into Dazai’s head, but he knows at the end of the day it would do nothing. Ao3 Link
Get on your knees: “Go to sleep, we will speak tomorrow,” Chuuya’s voice was warm as he gently ran his fingers through the matted locks. It wasn’t long before Dazai was out for the count.
Chuuya placed a kiss on Dazai’s head before he also settled down for the night. His arm was securely around Dazai’s waist. Ao3 Link
Where do you want to go? Dazai was silent for a few seconds. “All right, I will try.” He closed his eyes as he tried to ignore the despair slowly falling over him. Just trust Chuuya, he normally knows better when it comes to emotions. Ao3 Link
I love you, okay! “It is too much Chu. Why can’t anyone understand? All it is, is empty, always empty. It is like the void is living inside me. Slowly devouring me from the inside out. And I just want it to end!” He breath out the last word almost like a dragon. Ao3 Link
But now the room is spinning while I am trying to fill in all the gaps: “Just sleep, everything will be better in the morning.” He whispered the words into the quiet of the room Ao3 Link
I'll call out your name, but you won't call back Dazai forced his eyes open, everything felt heavy. Darkness was trying to drag him back down, but he forced himself to sit upright. A groan slipped passed his lips as he tried to figure out where he was.
“Dazai lay down.” The voice was calm as a hand pushed him down. A panic whine slipped passed his lips as he fought against the hands, but his body didn’t want to work with him. It felt like he was back home, all those years ago. Ao3 Link
Like crying out in empty rooms, with no one there except the moon: “Alright, hey it is okay Osamu, it is okay. You are safe. I am here for you if you want to speak.” Chuuya pulled Dazai back onto his lap, as he hummed hoping to calm him down, knowing that tonight was not the night he would get an answer. Ao3 Link
I see the danger, it is written in your eyes: “It was a lot, he is scared and confused. But with proper support, he will find his way again Mori-san.” Her words were light as she gave him a smile. “The fact that he also already woke up, with those kinds of injuries. He is fighting.” Ao3 Link
You better pray I don't get up this time around: He forced himself to turn around and look at the building, he grimaced slightly as he saw the damage, it was plain as day that it was a miracle that he survived it. Ao3 Link
Do or die, you'll never make me, because the world will never take my heart: When he was certain that Dazai was asleep, he forced himself upright, his legs trembled slightly as he made his way out of Mori Corp. There was a sick sense that some of the punishments should have been his.
His eyes softened slightly as he looked at the trembling boy in his arms, looking younger than he was. Who would have thought that Dazai cared that much? Ao3 Link
I paced around for hours on empty, I jumped at the slightest of sounds: His hand trembled as he gently ran it through Dazai’s hair. How on earth did he expect to keep the abuse hidden for so long? Of course, someone would have noticed. There was only so much before people would start to speak about it. Ao3 Link
I've got soul, but I am not a soldier: Hands pushed into his chest, soft whimpers reaching his ears. He gently licked the fang marks as he pulled away. Dazai tried to speak but all that came out was a garble as he lost consciousness. Chuuya needed to do the last part. Ao3 Link
Learning everything ain't what it seems: “Mori would have gone after you, I was starting to go against him, that is why Oda died. And I knew that he would have gone after you next, anything to keep me in line.” Dazai hissed the last part out, hoping that Chuuya would understand. Ao3 Link
Can't you see that you're lost without me? Chuuya closed his eyes as he lay down. He glanced towards Dazai, who sat down next to him. His voice trembled slightly. “You left, and you promised that you would never leave, but still you were gone. When I woke up today and you weren’t there…” He trailed off. Ao3 Link
All the lights going dark and my hope's destroyed: The days passed slowly as Chuuya lost his hope, that anyone would want him back, slowly losing the will to live, he ignored his captures, ignored the food and water they bought him. Just wasting away. Ao3 Link
I haven't slept in days, but who's counting? Dazai just gave him another glare, knowing that there isn’t much that helps with sleep, his brain was simply going too fast every moment, and the few hours of sleep he got, meant that sleep would even be worse for a day or two. Ao3 Link
It comes and goes like the strength in your bones: Allowing the tiredness to start to drag him under, only for a warm hand to gently shake him. “Before you sleep, drink.” Pills were pressed into his hand, making him groan as he swallowed it dry. His eyes slipped shut as darkness finally claimed him. Ao3 Link
Feed me poison, fill me, 'till I drown: He moved forward as a hand was placed on his shoulder, pulling him backwards. Panik clouded his mind as he could only blankly stare at the nurse. Someone had pulled Dazai from his arms, but he wanted to follow behind. Ao3 Link
I don't need you to help me, I can handle things myself: Dazai scrunched up his face slightly before he spoke. “Because death is the only way out. I am tired, no one understands. Mori just wants and wants and wants, and I can’t give anymore. Always wonder when he is going to go after you or Oda and Ango. Just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Do you have any idea how tiresome it is?” Ao3 Link
Would you lie with me and just forget the world? “I never told you that, and I showed it even worse. And I am sorry. Please, just get through this, when everything is done I promise I will make it up to you.” Dazai closed his eyes, just holding Chuuya’s hand. Ao3 Link
You're the lump in my throat and the knot in my chest. Dazai glared slightly at Chuuya. His eyes were almost red. “Leave me alone.” He almost hissed the words, as he pulled the blanket around his shoulders. Ao3 Link
You're the lump in my throat and the lump in my chest: Dazai forced himself to breathe through his nose. The pain will ebb away again. He needs to keep his focus. He glared at the man in front of him, he wanted to push him away, but with his hands tied, well that was difficult. Ao3 Link
I'll take one final step, all you have to do is make me: Dazai was silent as he clutched at his head. He wanted to force himself upright, but everything was spinning around him, making him feel dizzy. He could hear Chuuya moving around him, but he couldn’t find the strength to answer him. Ao3 Link
People don't change, time does.
Chuuya shrugged slightly as he turned to walk out, “It has nothing to do with you, don’t try.” There was a tiredness in his voice that pierced through Dazai’s heart.
“It does Chibi…” Dazai trailed off, forcing himself to continue. “He is under my protection.” Ao3 Link
See the chains around my feet: A soft groan slipped through Chuuya’s lips, he could feel something pressing him down when he tried to push himself upright. Why does he feel like a living death? He tried to rack his mind to find what he did before he blacked out, but everything was blank. Ao3 Link
They never saw us coming until they hit the floor. When they finally made their way back to the penthouse, Dazai easily pulled Chuuya onto his lap just holding him close. “What’s bothering you?” His voice was low as he placed a kiss against Chuuya’s neck making him shiver. Ao3 Link
It's gonna get me by the end of the night: Dazai deepened his breath slightly as he pulled the blanket tighter around his body. He hated this, his mind playing tricks on him and he knew that this was all this was. For a moment he wished that he could have a normal life. Ao3 Link
I've got a head full of chemicals, mouth full of ridicule: Dazai grimaced slightly, it felt like someone stabbed him in the heart repeatedly at the thought. He bit his lip slightly as he gathered a few personal things. Making sure that everything is in place. Ao3 Link
You're not delivering a perfect body to the grave: His voice was small as he forced himself to speak. “Mom, once forced me outside while it was storming as a punishment, I thought I was going to die that night.” His hands tightened in the blanket, his eyes blank. Ao3 Link
Sometimes I get so tired, I don't even know myself. Chuuya, is overtired, Dazai to the rescue. Ao3 Link
You drew stars around my scars, but now I'm bleeding. He couldn’t see the scars, the reason that Dazai wished he could die, the only thing he could control, yet it also slipped from his control. Ao3 Link
It's okay to say I am not okay: “Do you think that Chuuya might have wanted to help because he cares about you?” Oda took a sip from his tea as he saw Dazai thinking. Ao3 Link
It is just a storm: “Why? You hate me on a good day, why would you want to spend the rest of your life with me?” Dazai chokes slightly on the last part. He had known for a while that he had a major crush on the alpha. But there was nothing that he could do about that. Ao3 Link
Alone: The knife easily sank into his flesh, Dazai could feel his heart rate picking up as he pulled the knife out again before he bought it down again. A bitter laugh slipped through his lips as the man started to scream, trying to pull away. Ao3 Link
When your best isn't enough: It took everything in him not to go after the brat immediately, but to wait his time. Watching from afar as the boy climbed the rank in the Mafia, earning mockery as a Demon Prodigy, to him leaving for the ADA. Ao3 Link
Just a little bit of kindness: A hand clenched suddenly around his arm, and his eyes went to the stage. He could feel the anger almost boiling over when he saw the teen. It was clear that he was injured, the only one not in lingerie. But rather long sleeves, his tail wrapped around his leg. Ao3 Link
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