#All of this and I've never even watched Steven Universe lmao

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What started out as me and 2p Nyo America as gems turned into me making my own SU lore and origins that are different from canon.

ANTIS DNI, THIS POST IS NOT FOR YOU

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why do so many people keep calling ed izzy's abuser? I thought it was kind of funny how wrong they were at first because I love being right but at this point I feel like, if you really believe that why do you even like this show? where the main love interest is a violently abusive indigenous man? that sounds boring as shit. what would possess the writers of the show for them to make such an awful decision?

but then I think, if this many people believe it does that mean I'm the one who's wrong? or is it that the creators fumbled that storyline when they should have been clearer about it? or maybe it's just that most people on here have had their reading comprehension scorched away by Sherlock Holmes conspiracy theories and Steven Universe discourse. I can't tell. sometimes I think the internet may have been a mistake.

No they're wrong here's what's going on. People all read this shitty fic called Hell or High Water where Ed was everything the Izzy stans say he was and then instead of realizing that Ed is sad everyone regressed into thinking that the Kraken Era TM was going to be incredibly violent, like serial killing blond men because they look like Stede levels of violence. Even if you didn't read HoHW you saw art or read fic from people who had engaged with this fic and succumbed to it's premise. So there's been this background radiation of misunderstanding what the Kraken is on the fandom for several months. So inevitably when Ed did some mild violence and then attempted suicide by threatening murder until the crew took matters into their own hands, which is not abuse or torture by any stretch, btw, it's a murder-suicide at worst (I say at worst because I consider it fuckery-suicide I don't think Ed was trying to kill people I think he was trying to force them into a situation where they thought it was kill or be killed so that they would choose to kill him, but that is my interpretation and you are free to think it's a botched murder-suicide I have no problem with that), which, murder is something the show has never condemned and if it did it would be horribly inconsistent. So anyway, Ed's whole Kraken Era was categorized in the show by him being sad and doing so many drugs and begging someone please god anyone to kill him and trying to break Ned Low's record out of the evil boredom, but because it had a murder-suicide element to it and Izzy's toes were getting removed and he waved a gun around at everyone once (in a way that felt to me like he was trying and failing to work up the nerve to blow his own brains out but I digress) people who liked HoHW and were mad that people had called it out were like "see hes being violent HoHW author vindicated" as if anything Ed did rose to the level of that fic

And you want to know how I know this read is bullshit? Because when I watch the show with people who don't read fic or interact with the fandom and then I gauge their reactions without showing my hand they all implicitly understand that Ed is reacting to Izzy in a way appropriate to how pirate captains react to threats from subordinates. The spectrum of reactions has been from "hey isn't it weird how Ed was the Kraken because his dad was abusive and now he's the kraken because of Izzy? Maybe there's something there but idk" to "I don't think you can apply the logic of domestic abuse to a pirate captain and first mate but also Izzy had it coming" to "I cannot feel bad for Izzy after last season, I'm sorry." To "lmao Izcel" and I've showed this show to roughly everyone I know. The only thing I can conclude from the fact that people who don't engage with OFMD fic almost unilaterally thinking that Izzy is in the wrong and then coming online to see people thinking the opposite is that Izzy as victim and Ed as abuser is pure fanon, like how Stede is a cinnamon roll who talks like Azeriphael.

But anyway yeah you're completely right about the fact that this would be a bad show if they decided to make Ed into a domestic abuser. I don't want to watch a rom com about a domestic abuser falling in love and I don't want a show that decided to make it's indigenous lead abusive when the stereotype of indigenous men as abusers is still to this day used as an excuse to separate indigenous children from their families and put them with white Christians in order to erase their culture. Good thing OFMD didn't make Ed abusive, so I still like the show.

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are you transphobic or just ignorant? no one is mad that mizu is being called a girl in interviews because they are sexist. They have just watched the show and seen that the writers are clearly implying Mizu’s gender isn’t something as simple as a mulan situation, and are disappointed to see them turn around and deny any non-cishet reading of the show.

There are already a number of very strong and well written female characters in the show, such as Akemi!! And for the record, I do not ship akemi with mizu or any of that nonsense, it has clearly been shown teh few times mizu did feel attraction it was towards men.

Lmao like clockwork. I made that post because I thought people would become immediately and increasingly stupid about this so let's pour cold water on it. The minute ppl have an attachment to a character they start being ridiculous and I've seen people feel bad for saying she's a woman. Why? Because someone thinks differently?

You're essentially saying 'you have Mulan' is there a quota lol ? Mulan is a kids movie, this isn't. Might as well bring up Steven Universe next. You bring up Akemi like ' here you go' Akemi is cool but again, is there a quota? The creators made that behind the scenes before most people were even aware of the show & some are acting like they said what they said to personally spite them. Disappointment is fine but come on! Ppl are being extra.

Some need to relearn appropriate reactions. Have your theories, headcannons and memes but others aren't obligated to go along with that. The creators are mixed race with a mixed daughter with blue eyes and wondered how the world will react to her and took it from there.

How is someone " denying " something they never wrote about their own creation in the first place? Do you understand how insane that sounds ? No one is or can stop you from reading her differently, many are without being annoying.

" there are already a number of well written strong female characters in the show" again! IS THERE A QUOTA?? Lool please I'm just waiting for more cool fanart and find some people's behaviour silly.

Desist!!! And relax!

We can all hold hands and sing kumbaya! Have you tried having fun?

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So recently, I started watching Bluey!

In a way, that was inevitable: I was a brony back in the day (and yes that sure is a whole subject in its own right I'm not getting into right now lmao), I work in a setting where I frequently interact with children, and I'm Australian. It was just a matter of time, and when my aunt over the Christmas hollies demanded my parents and I watch 'the cricket episode', that was just the final permission I needed to do it.

So, those are three potential reasons to watch it: because kids' cartoons can be highly enjoyable and good viewing in their own right, because it'll help me better understand and relate to kids, and because it is The big cultural product coming out of my country for this entire decade probably and that's interesting.

And all of them turned out to be well-founded! It has helped me to visualise a lot better how kids work and learn and live, and it's good viewing: the animation is pretty, the music work is great (some very well-placed classical pieces alongside the Steven Universe-esque chiptunes), and it's equally capable of being sweet and funny and genuinely meaningful. There's a lot that can be said about that; the contrast with the mixed reaction to the 'darker' Avatar remake, or even just the way limitations (in this case, quick 7-minute runtimes) can breed creativity.

But it was that third reason which surprised me the most. I'd heard all the jokes about how American kids are picking up Australian slang and even accents and so forth, but I never properly prepared myself for how... it would feel, seeing my life depicted on TV like that.

It's not like Australians never get to see our country on TV. We have our own reality shows and soapies and all that, but I don't watch the latter and the former... aren't exactly depictions of ordinary everyday life. When Australia does show up in media, it's usually through satire: either Simpsons-style, or our own home-grown Kath and Kim or The Castle. And that's not a knock on either of those last two: they're pitch-perfect depictions of Australian culture and I'd highly recommend anyone who wants to understand Australian humour or social mores to watch both! It's just that they're very... self-deprecating. Which, again: Australian culture. We're like that.

But Bluey is so... beautiful.

I've always had a weird relationship to my country. I've never really fit in much with the culture; I'm too sensitive and sincere for it, and it's usually pretty obvious I think. And the environment? I just don't entirely know how to relate to it. All of our holidays are based on a calendar and geography an entire world away. Native plants and animals and the like always seemed like they Belong To the, well, native Australians. I'm not witchy, I'm not a health junkie, and I'm not super outdoorsy (though I do like a hike now and then!). My main way of interacting with my country is through just walking down the street, and marvelling at how pretty my city is, and how lovely (and/or annoying!) the birds are.

And I get that from Bluey. Something it's good at, even outside my personal connection to it I think, is depicting this certain sense of awe at the world that children can have, when everything is so new and strange and wonderful. The pilot episode features a long, zoomed-in moment of the youngest child encountering a walking leaf bug, and her whispered, thinking-out-loud amazement. 'Why would a leaf want to walk?' indeed!

And there's that: the rainbow lorikeets flocking in trees; the jacaranda flowers softly falling outside the parents' bedroom window. But also the man-made things. The green deck chairs out on the lawn, drinking white wine and cider while the dads barbeque. The sausage sizzle and pavlova. The opening presents Christmas morning and then going for a swim in the pool with your cousins.

It's romanticised up the wazoo; it boggles me a little when people complain about how big the titular character's house is, because... yeah! It's idealised! It's meant to be pretty and comfy and a little wish-fulfilmenty. That's not to say that everything is perfect, but it's larger than life; not to quote the old cliche, but it's a preschoolers' show, for gosh sake.

And for someone who has always loved the world too much and felt silly and cringy and embarrassed by it, there's something really, really lovely about finally getting to see artists direct that love at the actual world I see around me. Not exactly the same; where I live is much drier than Brisbane, for starters. But it's close enough.

This, I really feel like, is a new cultural image of Australia that will resonate in the public memory. Not Mad Max, not Steve Irwin, just a pretty, hilly city by the beach, with bright cockatoos and wandering bin chickens, shallow creeks and gumnut 'dollars', and families gathering for barbeques and friendly games of backyard cricket.

(The cricket episode really is a very good one!!)

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𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐍!

★  NAME:  Luan

★  PRONOUNS: He/Him/Dude/Bro/My guy/etc.

★  BEST EXPERIENCE: I... honestly can't think of any? I've had more bad experiences than good. Maybe I'd say when I finally found my footing with independent OCs with Izren and ended up buddies with Bear and his whole entourage of writing partners. I've joined up on Discord servers with people I write with in the past, but I've never had fun like we do on his server. Plus we play D&D!

★  PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION: Discord is my go-to if you wanna reach me. I use Tumblr IMs too, though with how they're about as functional as a Bethesda game, I often ask if we can move over to DMs.

I've got my Discord tab open 24/7 on both my laptops, plus I have the app on my phone. I lurk a lot. But nine times outta ten, I'm more of a reactive replier, almost always messaging back rather than messaging first.

★  MOST ACTIVE MUSE: Kouki, always. Getting into the mood with him is so stupidly easy. Put on any rock music, think about any series, play a video game, whatever- and there's always something that makes me do that Leo pointing meme and think "Hey, that gives me ideas for that white-haired little gremlin!"

★  EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS: I've honestly lost track lmao. Ballpark estimate is 11-13 years since I started around 2010 to 2013, with my intro to roleplaying being those ancient Quotev quizzes and the chatroom website Chatzy. If I remember correctly, my first actual RP was either in a Sonic chatroom or a Naruto chatroom. And I've never even watched Naruto- I was going on nothing other than the Fandom Wiki. You could even say that my cringe-worthy OC there was the first iteration of Kouki. Only reason I still remember that chat was one of my writing partners died of some terminal illness. Basically drowned in her own blood.

After that, I moved here to Tumblr. It started with Pokemon blogs... then Steven Universe (where I saw them actively out-toxic the MLP fanbase and drive them out of the fanbase)... then I was the sole Soul Calibur roleplayer... then I made a Skyrim OC based on the Kid Dragonborn mod... then I fell back onto Naruto and joined the fanbase here with more cringy OCs... made my other, still on-going Pokemon blog about eight-ish years ago... joined the JJBA fandom, which was and still is the best fandom I ever joined... then I joined the RWBY fandom... then the BNHA fandom... and now we're here!

★  RP PET PEEVES:

I'm gonna cheat a bit and leave two of Bear's peeves, if only because he completely hits the nail on the head. There's just no better way to put it without rehashing things.

Excessive commentary blogging. Before it was just a lot of dash commentary that had me going 'eh'. But in recent years it's gone past that. I've become disenchanted with blogs that become largely commentary for whatever it is they're doing on Discord. All power to those Discord groups doing what they do! But it reaches a point for me that I don't really see them as indie, and it can feel insurmountable trying to interact with them if you're not entangled with their zig-zagging plotlines.

Blog hoppers. Because for a slow burner and long hauler like myself, they're the most impossible people to write with! Which is a shame, because a lot of the hoppers I come across do seem to have some writing talent to them!

Fandom RP events. When I was younger, I used to love the idea of these big events with their own plotlines and moving parts that anyone could participate in if they wanted to. Galas, holiday parties, festivals- stuff like that.

That lasted until 2018, when I kickstarted Bernadotte's original JJBA blog and brought back my long-running Pokemon blog. In the span of something like 5 months, eight separate RP events happened back-to-back in just the JJBA fandom alone. You can only try to participate and be entirely ignored for so long before it sours your whole outlook.

And I mean entirely. I remember writing twelve different starters that people asked for, responding to numerous open threads and starters, liking many different event starter calls, sending asks- the whole shebang. Not even once did I get anything back. If you enjoy fandom RP events, more power to you. But I've been burned too many times to even want to try.

★   PLOTS OR MEMES: Doesn't matter to me! Either way is great! Back in the day, I relied heavily on memes without any ideas for plot, just sending in whatever sounded like something my muse would say. Basically "Oops! All Memes!" Now? I put more thought into things. Overthink things too.

Receiving memes? I almost always ask if there was a reason or an idea driving my partners to send in that specific thing 'cause you never know, y'know? They usually do. But it really doesn't matter to me if they do or don't. I'm just happy to write with y'all.

★  ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: There's a little bit of me in every one of my muses! An example off the top of my head? Kouki is based on how I was as a kid his age. Corbin was inspired by my high school years, my love for old books and poetry, and my music tastes. My Pokemon OC was straight-up a self-insert when I started that blog. Tino came from my RWBY days and my absolute love for weaponry.

They've all got fragments of me in 'em!

tagged by: @dcviated Thanks bear! tagging: @pluviacuratio, @boomermania, @remunporium, @caestusvulpes, @fctedivided, @monmuses, and anybody else that wants to do it!

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I don't normally post my thoughts out, and I feel like not many will know what I'm talking about, so I'm going to apologize for that in advance before I get professionals beating me to pulp, just needed to let it out of my system and eventually try to figure out why I feel this way. (It's a long one, and it's about cartoons, babyy) Don't know how to explain, nor prove it, but I feel like a lot of animated cartoons nowadays that are officially put on streaming services feel stale. They lack life, they lack exaggerations, what makes characters believable. I don't have anything on me to prove it, I'm just cooking with my sleep deprived and caffeine chugged ass.

It all honestly started when I checked out Animaniacs for the first time (never watched the original either, so it didn't come from place of bias) and the way the characters try to exaggerate their movements -- it just didn't feel like it at all. Feels like they're lacking inbetweens, or maybe some extra motions, I don't know. The Cuphead cartoon also falls into this as well, and I understand how much replicating rubberhosey style would cost in time and money, but in the end it slips so far from what Cuphead originally was that the cartoon's just ever so slightly feels off to me. There's more examples somewhere hidden in my head, but these two I've had been thinking about the most.

I do acknowledge that so far in my examples I've only talked about a reboot of a 90s cartoon and an adaptation of a game based on 30s animations, however I do want to include that The Looney Tunes Show did whatever these cartoons would wish to achieve. The stylization, the acting, it feels so much closer to original Looney Tunes than whatever some newer cartoons do with their quick buck 'reboots'.

Also must include, I do know that there are amazing new shows out there with gorgeous animation, like Amphibia, Owl House, Steven Universe (anyone bringing up the off-model screenshots will get sent to he🏒🏒) and even Bluey. But guess Cartoon Network, Disney and the sheer power of Australia just carried these.

I don't know, I haven't done proper dig down on why I feel like some of the new cartoons are trying to be what they're not. And I know I probably ramble about nothing and someone's out there will see this post in the future and reply with 'wtf are you on about', but it's just simply something I couldn't get out of my head.

Going to also apologize for the way I say my thoughts out loud too, I probably sound like someone who has never animated before (<- solo, indie animator since early 2010s lmao), at the moment I really lack better words and research on what I'm trying to express. In the end the only thing I'm blaming for that is the industry and their greed.

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tagged by @maplefiasco 8 shows to get to know me uhhhh in no particular order!!

tagging (no pressure tho!) ;; @cauldronofmorning @angellspt @spacephrasing @ambrwolf @wesninskijr @rolodextra @zapkilikan and anyone else who wants to do it !

what we do in the shadows: wwdits caters to me so heavily. it captures all of my genders. everyone's hot and fucking each other and they're all so fucking stupid. i've watched it 90 billion times and i still laugh bc the jokes still make me laugh.

midnight mass: we're setting aside my taste in men for a minute here. midnight mass does a really excellent job capturing the more horrifying aspects of growing up as an outsider in a very tight-knit religious community. i've never seen that done in a way that's resonated so much. i talked about this show a lot in therapy. plus okay fine; father skinnyjeans thee vampire [chef's kiss.]

the magicians: idk how to sum up the everything about the magicians in a few sentences. i have an eliot prayer candle lmao, his arc and his friendships and the way he does masculinity are so important to me despite the writing having a few missteps (mind the warnings definitely.) the fandom experience is unlike anything i've ever had, yes derogatorily but also in a really good way--my writing got so good because of the things that i created for this show.

steven universe / sailor moon: i combined them because while they're separately very important to me, it's for a lot of the same reasons and i don't feel right putting one without the other. i'm very saccharine underneath everything, i wanna believe love and friendship can heal anything. i grew up on sailor moon, and i think su would have had the same impact on me if i was the right age.

daredevil: where do i even start :( human disaster matt murdock is just like me fr. foggy nelson is who i wish i was (he also reminds me so much of my husband.) i almost went to law school bc of this fucking show. it's the first time i ever saw two guys crying during an argument bc they love each other that much (nelson v murdock is a treasure of an episode.) i didn't dig s3 as much and i hated the defenders but god the rest of it's so good.

bob's burgers: it's less because i think it's deeply telling and more because it's 100% comfort food. if i'm sick or stoned or sad or trying to find a crowdpleaser, bob's is always my go-to. their family and bob & linda's parenting methods are a lot of what i picture for myself when the time comes.

death note: death note was the thing i was obsessed with as a teenager and while i missed a lot of the point of it, it also is what started making me smarter about media consumption, interpretation, and analysis. mello is also like thee gender of all time.

succession: the latest and greatest "oh jeez that's me." like firstly i love watching shows about terrible rich people but to dig deeper: some of the dynamics hit soooo fucking close. i feel like the portrayal of mental illness and abuse are done almost too well: proceed with caution.

honorable mentions:

buffy the vampire slayer: buffy was the first show i ever got like really, really obsessed with (as well as the first canon i ever tried to make an oc for) but it's almost impossible to recommend for actual viewing bc of how badly it's aged. i didn't rewatch it for the many years, cringed through the last one, and am at permanent hiatus since we've entered the Joyce Is Dying arc which is just like painful to watch on top of the uhhh. joss whedon writing.

archer fx: i don't think archer's necessarily required viewing to get to know me, but i've definitely done some of my best writing for that canon and if you're willing to listen to me talk ad nauseam about archer and cyril's dynamic i'll probably love you forever.

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8, 12 & 19 for the ask meme!!

8: Pick a random character and tell me a song that reminds you of them.

Oh you mean my favourite thing to do in the world?? Ok im gonna go with Glenn and say "I could never be (ready)" from Steven Universe bc I've been thinking a lot about younger glenn and nick today...

12. What’s your favorite Anthony twist?

This one might have been obvious to other people but when in ATMOD it was revealed that the horror they were trying to fight was the Doodler I was SHOOK. I had not made that connection at all fsr but it was a very cool moment

19. What other media have you consumed after hearing it referenced on the show?

Oh boy where to even START. Dndads has truly influenced what I watch and read so much... I've been trying to watch more classic movies they reference a lot, like Inception and Face/Off. Also, I'm starting to watch anime bc of Taylor, which is kind of embarassing lmao

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yeah i think it's finally time to post this. there's like 45 line breaks in this holy shit

essence and glitches time

i completely forget if i've talked about glitches before. i want to talk about them Now. i'll have to give a couple basic explanations of a couple story terms first bc i highly doubt i've talked about them before.

first: Essence

essence is what makes a character a character. yeah that's it. as a concept it's not complicated but once i start explaining it it probably becomes like the fnaf lore.

it's this solid rock thing hiding in a character's base form (this form is often human or humanoid and possess human strength; glitches are different because they can have the ability to shapeshift and are stronger, among other powers).

(also xyn are also different bc they shapeshift as well but i'm not entirely sure if xyn as a species is even canon to the main timeline or not. they have their own story that may or may not be disconnected from the main timeline (still deciding) so i don't know whether main timeline things apply or not).

robots don't have essence.

anyways essence is a lot like gems from steven universe and i genuinely wish i never got inspired by that but it's a big part of specifically solstyx's character so i can't change it. it dictates appearance, personality, morals, strengths and weaknesses, memory, whatever else the fuck else makes people people.

characters with damaged essence change. solstyx can only feel anger; every other emotion is just. numb. oliver and a couple other characters became glitches from it.

i don't really have any rules about what changes occur other than that it's completely random. could be one thing, could be a couple, could be Everything.

there's a term i'm gonna explain in the glitch section that's not really the deciding factor, but instead one way to become a glitch. used to be the only way to become a glitch!

also essence can be damaged like su gems can but the effects are... different. i think. i think gems die if their gems are damaged and not repaired (idk i haven't watched that show in years) but that isn't necessarily the case with essence. a lot of characters with damaged essence won't die unless it's like. ground into sand. maybe small chunks. something like that. big chunks can be fixed, but doesn't fix the character. it makes them worse, actually.

pieces of essence from different people can be fused together, and this can make characters Really Fucked Up. ala the tommie/tommy situation (tommie created with his own and a couple other characters' essence, becomes an abusive piece of shit. tommy created from the remainder of tommie's essence and no one else, entire appearance/personality/birth sex changes but is a good person).

i think that's everything about essence lmao this is already a lot

didn't really need to explain that, i say, as i know literally anyone other than me would be really confused if i didn't

anyways. Glitches.

a glitch is a specific character state with damaged essence. not every character with damaged essence is a glitch, but every glitch has essence damage. like squares being rectangles.

glitches were inspired by that one guy in tawog. wish i could remember his name /ref

glitches have more power the more their essence is damaged. can potentially be infinite, barely.

it's permanent, until they die completely, since essence can't truly be restored.

i have three glitches rn and they all have their stories on how they became glitches. so like.

oliver

i genuinely forgot about oliver in rtr (second generation in main timeline) so i made up for that by just. putting him in the void. with the rest of the characters that didn't make it into the story.

he became a glitch through something called void rot, which is a physical manifestation of me forgetting details about a character over time. his broken eye switched sides because i forgor

he fought against the void (encouraging void rot) and eventually started his own generation because of that due to Circumstances but that's its own looooong infodump's worth of explaining so i'm not gonna fuckin. talk about that. at least not here. maybe later.

cassie

cassie and The Gang (zac, rebs, scraps) were waltzing their way into the "loading docks" (the void but stable; basically the area that connects all of the generation doors) after i was done writing the story at that time, and she was knocked into the void by oliver bc he didn't want competition.

rebs is actually the one in control of the generation but oliver didn't realize that until later. cassie was an easy target for his anger.

she's probably the most stable glitch out of the three bc keeping her base form comes naturally to her and doesn't tire her out (she does still has a glitch form), but the weakest as well.

she's the type of person that's extremely forgiving, but she only forgave oliver because her stepson married him. the relationship between them is still really awkward/strained.

eyes

eyes was kidnapped by some guy and experimented on. i don't remember the exact reason why, but this guy wanted to cure some mental illness (i'm definitely retconning something by saying it's itfd* but it's not a retcon if it isn't published) and become a god. he accidentally made eyes a god (glitch) in the process instead and stayed normal.

actually this is the best time to mention that glitches can steal life from literally anyone with essence. they have to be caught off guard, weakened, or conditioned for this to happen, though.

that's important because eyes is different from oliver and cassie, in that his essence damage is so extreme and makes him so unstable that his life slowly drains away. he could easily die from this. to combat this, he gets others close to him (through manipulation) and drains their essence to keep himself alive.

so eyes leeched life off of the guy who made him like this until it killed him, then moved onto other people. lovesick and eyes on me (two stories from gen 6, four years apart in-universe) expand on this more but, as i put in the carrd, these two stories (plus a couple others) come from a bad time in my life and i don't like talking about certain details in them. the whole "curing a mental illness" thing (even if it didn't work) is already kinda fucked up in hindsight. that's one of the only things i'm allowing myself to say from that era.

ever since eom was canned he hasn't showed up in the current hyperfixed story at all. but that's normal bc this current subgen is realistic and full of healing and eyes would kinda ruin that whole vibe.

the lore of eom (and the other "bad time" stories) stays but the story doesn't. eyes still has three people to leech off of right now (currently in the story it's 2030), it's just in the background.

nearly forgot this but when eyes was active, he targeted oliver and cassie because he believed that if he drains their essence, he won't have to drain anyone else. yeah that didn't work they fought him off.

*itfd: intermittent thoughts/feelings disorder. mental illness stemming off of schizophrenia that revolves around believing you're in a false world and are a character in some story, and believing there's someone more powerful than you out there controlling your every move. which is the truth but no one in-universe (other than oliver, eyes, and maybe zac) knows that it's true.

also some fun facts about eyes leeching off of people (mainly just about the people involved) because i feel like it:

so for a little bit of context, lovesick was this idea of a dating simulator, i really don't like to talk about it much just because of the gimmick of it (i'll give a hint: it's an anime archetype. no other hints). there's more reasons but i'm Not Saying Anything Else About It.

the og guy that eventually died, paz, didn't really have much of a personality other than "weird secret dateable character". still doesn't. also he doesn't have a single colored picture but i've drawn him a couple times (not recently).

also another context thing. in eyes on me, eyes had three accomplices to do his work for him. the gang's all here in this post.

yuu was the main character of lovesick. i pretty much forgot everything about them, even what they looked like (there was One unfinished picture of them and akane, with just their hair drawn. i just filled in the cracks). i thought the memory loss from eyes manipulating them would be kinda cool to work with so it stuck. tbh void rot should 100% apply to them but i never really realized that until now. maybe i'll have to change that.

anabelle was hank's girlfriend who became abusive towards him when the whole life taking thing messed with her. she was always kind of manipulative in the first place but when eyes came into the picture things just got worse. in the current story she goes to jail because she was caught in the middle of hurting hank. haven't decided whether or not eyes abandoned her after this but i'm leaning towards no, since she can't run away from him anymore.

i thought about tommy being the third accomplice on and off and never really decided either way, but now i've fully (mostly) decided that he was. tommy is a character with fucky essence to start with because he's the remainder of tommie's essence after a shard of it fused with a couple other people's essence shards. tommie's so incredibly fucked up because of this, and tommy barely looks like him other than similar color palettes (they share most colors; tommy has more) due to the damage. as i explained earlier, but it should probably be mentioned again since i'm Actually Talking About Him this time.

none of them were given last names and i've told myself not to tag characters without last names (with exceptions, mainly nonhuman characters that don't have last names) so. maybe i'll come back and edit this post. maybe not. who knows

[andsheloved]

hii!!! how are you?? how have you been these past couple of days?? i hope you're taking care of yourself!!! 🤍

thank you so much for your words about the situation i told you about in my last ask!!! i really appreciate your advice and it means so much to me!! i've been thinking about it A LOT these past few days and i think i'm just going to finish this semester and see how i feel about the situation when it's over! i've been struggling a lot with motivation and with my mental health in general, so i've been thinking about going to one of the therapists that work at my university, but idk if i'm ready for that rn, so i'm still thinking about it! but i'm mostly okay, just with a lot of things in my mind, but that's just the usual with me lmao

and about moon knight ⬇️

pls i rewatched the first three episodes with my cousin this weekend AND HE DIDN'T LIKE STEVEN ??? i don't get it omg ajsgsk but i just fall more in love with him with each episode that i watch😭 he's the best and i love that i can see a lot of myself in him and i've never related more with a character before!

but yeah, i just want to give him a hug 24/7 and just cuddle and hold him bc he's having such a rough time with everything😭 and i also love marc so much!!! he's having a hard time as well and he also needs all the hugs asap😭 my babieees akshdk i feel so sad for them!! :(

now i have two more soft bucky thoughts for you <33

-he would be the best at taking care of you!!! like making sure you're eating well, being comfortable and happy and if you're not for whatever reason he would do everything in his power to be there for you and to make you feel loved!!!

-he would be so grateful for your presence in his life, bc he doesn't feel like he deserve good things, so he would constantly be in awe and just so grateful for your love, for the kindness you show him all the time and for your support every time he's having a hard time with anything, he would do everything in his power to avoid losing you and he would remind you that he loves you at every opportunity he has!!!

I'M CRYING OKAY AKSGSK I'M SO SOFT FOR BUCKY😭 i want to hug him and cuddle with him too ajsgsj

that's all i think ajsgd i hope you're having a good day/night wherever you are!!! all my love and hugs for you!!! 🤍🤍

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HELLO MY DEAREST MOST WONDERFUL 🌈!!! oh my gosh as always, such a pleasure to have you in my inbox!! but hello!! i am doing pretty alright!! i've been a bit busy but i'm trying to remember to make some time for myself :) but thank you mwauh i hope you are doing so good!!

🥺 of course though!! please know i am always here for you!! i totally get just sort of riding it out and then taking a step back once it's over, as a chronic-not-taking-care-of-themselves-human, please remember that at the end of the day, you have yourself!! and you do need to take care of your brain and your body!! no matter what your brain may tell you!! and as someone who just started therapy a bit ago, i was super super nervous to start, but i'm telling you, once you give it a try, at least for me, i genuinely felt so much better about making progress in the right direction. at least in my brian, i never thought i had enough reason to go to therapy, and my brain was just like 'yes everyone should try therapy but lol not you, you have to handle it on your own' but that is so not true!! i'm 100% going to support you on your journey wherever you decide to go!!

(as always hehe moon knight spoilers below the cut!!)

okay to be fair i don't even know your cousin but uh. he's so wrong actually. HOW CAN YOU NOT LIKE STEVEN!?!?!?!? literally how. he is the perfect man. he is so adorable and even if you don't find him attractive or anything how cAN YOU NOT LIKE HIM??? i just love that we as a unit just feel steven so much hehe, i do love that for us :)

and you are so correct for the hug thoughts, at first i was like marc 🫢 oh my goodness he means business but then he said 'i'm unwell, i need help' and i was like okay marc come here i'm hugging you as well my baby my love of my life.

okay mWAUH hold on i am going to literally do separate posts for these soft thoughts because you are my original bucky soft thought anon and i love you but i hope you are having a wonderful day/evening wherever you are in the world mwauh!!

please take this lil steven because you deserve him and also this must be my all time favorite scene of him he's so huggable okay mwauh ily

[phoutube]

i'm sorry you're feeling sick!! i hate being sick it's the worst state in the world tbh. i feel like most ppl had some weird username that was like glitterkitty667 at one point when they were 11 lmao. mine was gamergamergirl111, which is ironic considering i've never played video games. and dw i won't stalk u. x reader stories are the worst??? full offense 2013 dannies but 14 yr olds writing abt being in a sexual relationship w dan howell is a bit weird. 1/2

also i mean i do remember the stories just not specfic plot details. one was my weird hybrid of rugrats (bc i was legit obsessively into it at the time when i was 13) and gravity falls. it was abt toddlers who were related with superpowers in graphic violent situations and demon magic. i imagined a whole fandom for it. the other was lesbain steven universe oc’s and i still love them a lot tbh. my babies.

yeah,, being sick sucks. and it came on so suddenly, too?? like at first I felt fine and then suddenly my throat felt so bad (I have the grossest cough too) and ughh I just wanna dieee… I have play rehearsal on friday too so I hope I feel better by then because singing like this is not fun

yeah?? even earlier back (when I was like eight or nine) my username was DuckDuckGummi??? for some reason?? and I wanted to become a famous minecraft youtuber so there’s your Embarrassing Ava Fact for the day I guess

x reader stories make me so uncomfy like please… nobody cares about your self-insert smut (which is kinda why I pretty much only read dnp fics?? NOT FOR THE SMUT, I meant that most other fandom fics are basically self-inserts with a throwaway character instead of y/n) also I hate being reminded of when people tagged fics tagged as “lemon” for the love of god stop

th-that’s really cool?? I don’t usually watch TV (I think I said this earlier) because I can’t sit still for it, also my mom didn’t let me watch most cartoons growing up because they were “too creepy” so I missed out on all of those nickolodean/cartoon network stuff. I don’t even get the spongebob memes, how sad is that??

anyway your alternate universes sound really cool!! I definitely think you should mentally revisit those because honestly they sound super cool. also lesbian steven universe??? sign me tf up

[fataziraphale]

Yooo I asked feederkurogane abt any shows, movies or books that involve feedism or chubby characters that arent in it solely for fat jokes but they didn't know of any and told me to ask you !! It's ok if you don't know any I'm just rly desperate for good content lmao. I've read Hoppe Ni Himawari and it was rly cute but then disappointing when he lost all the weight in the end :// but anyway i was just wondering?? thank you aha!

Hello!!! Nice to meet you! I always love talking to other feedists omfg. I’m so glad you came to me to ask this question! I’m also so, so, so sorry because… I can’t do brevity. At all.

First of all thank you for that warning about Hoppe Ni Himawari because I was pumped to read it but if he loses all the weight like… not sure I want to haha

Anyway, there is VERY little media out there that explicitly involves feedism, unfortunately, and what is out there tends to be either have a vibe of “feedists are evil” or “feedists so weird haha im fascinated by these freaks.” Like Homestuck has an explicitly feeder character, but he’s also a villain, a huge misogynist, and his interest in feedism is the butt of a joke, re: “wow this guy is weird.”

But!!! There’s a movie called City Island that actually handles feedism in a somewhat sensitive way! It’s about a family who all keep secrets from each other, and the son’s secret is that he’s a feeder. It’s not the greatest movie in the world, but like ? there’s a canon feedee and a canon feeder in it? amazing???

My favorite example of fat representation/feedist representation is the reason for my URL. In the vide game Super Danganronpa 2, there’s a fat character who explicitly says he gained all of his weight on purpose, adores food, and is as close to a canon feedee as I’ve seen in most media. Some other characters occasionally make fun of his weight, but he’s a really well-rounded (pun not intended) character that has a super interesting backstory/story arc that has nothing to do with his size, especially in the follow-up anime Danganronpa 3. I love him so much because I feel like there’s sometimes a dichotomy these days where fat characters either get depicted as “lmao fat slob look how much he eats that’s all there is to him” or “this character is fat but they don’t care about food at all!!!! look, they’re a good fatty!!!!!” And ideally what I want are fat characters who are allowed to love food and also have a rich other life, because, dammit, there is nothing wrong with loving food. Twogami is a wonderful, perfect character and I recommend him so highly. The only problem is that to understand SDR2 you really do have to play the original Danganronpa game, so even though I really do recommend that game too, it’s… a big time commitment lmao.

As for things that have more… feedist subtext? I don’t know if you’ve seen Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them, but it’s difficult for me to imagine a reading of Jacob and Queenie that wasn’t feedist. There’s literally like one fat joke about Jacob in the whole movie, and he’s just a wonderful chaarcter in general. Also, Steven Universe, of course, has wonderful body diversity. On the topic of Cartoon Network shows, We Bare Bears is about… bears lmao but they’re very round and love food so much? It’s just such a fun, food-positive show? It makes me so happy. also, Bob’s Burgers has a ton of fat characters and is usually very food-positive. Most of the main characters are at least a little chubby, but even though I would never say it’s an overall fatphobic show, they do make a fair amount of fat jokes, so be warned.

sorry for this long as shit as list, but idk if you’ve seen any of the movies in the Cornetto Trilogy? but The World’s End is my favorite movie, and one of the two main characters is played by Nick Frost, who is…. such a beautiful, large man. He loves food and it comes up a fair amount, but his real storyline is something entirely different and he’s such a good character. also, for something completely different, the TV show Fargo (not the movie) stars a fat woman in season 1 and a fat man in season 2, and their weight is barely ever brought up? It’s last on this list because Fargo isn’t very feedist, but it’s a very well-done crime thriller show with some great chubby characters.

also, idk if you’ve seen Hairspray, but that’s sort of a fat positivity classic (although I prefer the musical to the movie). Nikki Blonsky from that movie starred in a show called Huge about a fat camp, which I would recommend watching if all you want is media with fat characters, because it like… blew my mind every single episode that there was a whole cast of fat actors, and they were all characters who were interesting and taken seriously, and the show wasn’t trying to make fat jokes but instead humanize fat people and show that we need to be treated with respect. The ending was SUPER disappointing though, like basically it demonizes the one body positive character and makes her end up unhappy and alone, and pushes this stupid idea that all fat people are fat bc they stress eat to deal with their shitty lives. It’s very much a “fat people are worthy of respect if they’re good fatties and trying to lose the weight” narrative bUT I put it here bc it’s just amazing to watch a show with a mostly fat cast (and im gonna be 100% honest it’s like……. such eye candy oh my god? like do normal people have this experience when they watch hollywood shows where everyone is hot? everyone is so hot in this show?????).

I want to recommend you some books, but I… don’t read I’m literally the worst writer ever. Taft 2012 is a fucking hilarious book about US president Taft just appearing in the president in the most random-ass way and it’s feedist as shit but there are a ton of fat jokes. Tbh most feedist books I know are really fatphobic….. The book/musical Matilda has a child who eats a whole cake and is a hero for it???? Good times.

I feel like there are def other books I know with fat characters but I cannot think of them at the moment and anyway you probably already died while reading this list bc it’s so long so… enjoy, friend. Run free and find feedist media, and tell me if you find anything good.