#Achilles tendinitis from biking too much too soon

[pinolitas]

so many issues plaguing me

[havingahillofatime]

4.16.19

Today I told my coach that I would no longer be coming to track practice. We are entering championship season and seeing as I have not raced all season, I am not qualified for anything. I spent the beginning of my senior year coming back from 3 months off with a broken foot into Cross Country season, and I spent the end of my senior year taking 6 weeks off with Achilles tendinitis. As a 3 year varsity runner, I had very different goals in mind for my senior year. These past 10 months of running have all been a hard pill to swallow but they have taught me so so so much. This experience has given me the ability to truly understand the struggles of my fellow injured teammates. It has given me immense gratitude for the ability to run. It has shown me how to work on my weaknesses when my strengths cannot help me at that moment. It took lots of lonely stationary bike rides, many tears, and overcoming stubborn insecurities, but I can genuinely say I have made peace with it all. As I walked away from the track today my teammate made me stop and take it in. I looked back and said “this is a see you later.” I know I will be back soon. Probably not to my highschool track for some time (most likely spring break next year) but at some other track. We are already back running a little bit and every step feels like a gift. Here’s to club running and many miles to come.

I found these quotes today and they fit my situation too perfectly not to share!! I know where I am going to college but I have been putting off clicking the accept button. I have been in this state of “I don’t know where I’m going yet haha!” for sooooo long that to finally have all the decisions back and know where I’m going is insane. I have to remember to trust this odd transition period in my life and know that everything is happening the way it has to. Always.