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chickenkurage · 2 months ago

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CHAPTER 12................. OKAY............. I SERIOUSLY NEEDED TO REST AND CALM DOWN TO PROCESS ON WHAT HAPPENED ON THAT CHAPTER.....

WARNING/TW: LITTLE S3XUAL THEMES WILL BE MENTIONED HERE SO IF YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE BY READING THOSE THEN DON'T READ THIS!!! IT'S MOSTLY MORE AT THE END BUT STILL IF YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE THEN DON'T READ AGAIN!!!

CONTINUE READING IF YOU WISH TO

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FIRST OF ALL, A BLUE GREY STICK.... NOW THAT'S ALREADY GIVING ME SUSPICION FOR SOME REASON AND SOME SIMILARITIES, BUT HER AND DJ REALLY DID SEEM TO GET ALONG A LOT BACK THEN!!! EVEN DJ EXPRESSING HIS INTERESTS TOWARDS HER TOO LIKE THE WORMS PART WHICH SEEMED WHOLESOME, AND EXPRESSING HOW THEY BOTH HAVE BEEN CALLED WEIRD THOUGH ONE IS AFFECTED BY IT A LOT WHILE THE OTHER DOESN'T CARE ABOUT IT AT ALL AND ACCEPTS IT, BUT THE LINE OF HER SAYING "BE FOREVER CAGED" JUST SOMEHOW HITS HARD NGL- THEIR FRIENDSHIP SEEMED ALL NICE AT FIRST LIKE HOW DJ GIFTED HER THE GRASS BECAUSE HE THINKS IT'S PRETTY LIKE HER WHICH IS SWEET!!! BUT UNTIL YOU GET TO A PART WHERE YOU WILL FEEL SOME SUSPICION AND NERVOUSNESS NOW, LIKE HER TOUCHING DJ'S PUSLE ON HIS NECK? LIKE YEAH DJ DIDN'T SEEM TO MIND IT BUT IT FELT OUT OF NOWHERE FOR HER TO DO THAT- LIKE- OH GOSH I'M ALREADY FEELING NERVOUS TYPING ABOUT IT- BUT YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! ACTUAL ALAN AND DJ BONDING!!! AND APPARENTLY A TIMESKIP TO ANOTHER WEAK WHERE DJ ACTUALLY PASSED OUT DUE TO EXHAUSTION AND ALAN TOOK CARE OF HIMMM!!! BUT ALAN IS REALLY CONCERN FOR HIM RN AND HE KNOWS DJ ISN'T TELLING THE TRUTH AT ALL WHEN HE KEPT SAYING IT WAS WORK, EVEN WHEN HE ASKED WHERE HE WORKS DJ STILL WON'T BUDGE AND OFC THAT WILL LEAVE ALAN SUSPICIOUS ABOUT IT, BUT I GENUINELY KNEW DJ WILL SOMEWHAT SNAP BUT IT STILL CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD NGL- WONDER WHAT ALAN'S PERSPECTIVE WAS WHEN HE HEARD THOSE WORDS COMING OUT OF DJ'S MOUTH, I MEAN YES THERE WAS A POINT WHERE ALAN WAS EXPECTING DJ TO BE MAD AT HIM SINCE THAT WAS HIS PLAN IN THE FIRST PLACE BUT STILL WONDERING ABOUT IT LIKE BEING REMINDED HOW HE LEFT DJ SO SUDDENLY AND CAME BACK SO SUDDENLY TOO AFTER ALL THESE YEARS, IT REALLY MUST HAVE AFFECTED THEM BOTH A LOT BY DOING THIS TO THEMSELVES TO BE SEPARATED, BUT ALAN ACTUALLY STAYING WITH DJ WHEN HE ACTUALLY ASKED HIM TO LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! YOU DID IT DJ!!! YOU MANAGED TO ASK HIM ABOUT IT!!! BUT MAKES SENSE BECAUSE I CAN TELL HE FEELS MUCH MORE SAFER WITH ALAN OTHER THAN THAT B*TCH SATIN, AND MARY SUDDENLY EATING HER DOLL??? NO BECAUSE I FELT LIKE I WAS HAVING A SHOCKED EXPRESSION AND GASPED AT THAT PART TOO, THANK GOSH DJ WAS THERE TO STOP HER- BUT WHY SO HUNGRY FOR A DOLL??? AND APPARENTLY SHE DID IT BECAUSE HER MOTHER TOLD HER TO BE PRETTY LIKE THE DOLL??? HER PARENTS ARE ABSOLUTE A**HOLES LIKE GEEZ- THESE KIND OF PARENTS ARE SO SH*TY OH MY GOSH- AT LEAST THERE WAS A NICE MOMENT AFTER THAT WHERE DJ WAS ADMIRING HER TALENTS BY WATCHING HER AND HUGGED IT OUT NICELY, BUT OH GOSH.... THE PART WHERE I HAD TO PROCESS ABOUT..... HERE'S THE S3XUAL THEMES PART SO CONTINUE READING IF YOU WISH TO AGAIN

DESCRIBING THE DETAILS ABOUT HOW HER FATHER LITERALLY TOUCHES HER SO S3XUALLY AND INAPPROPRIATELY IS JUST SO... ICK AND ABSOLUTELY DOWNRIGHT DISGUSTING... I KEPT FEELING LIKE I SERIOUSLY WANNA THROW UP AND GAG LIKE OH GOSH- EVEN EXPLAINING HOW OTHER MEN DID IT TOO!?!?!?! AND SHE THOUGHT ALL THIS TIME THIS IS WHAT THEY DO TO SHOW "LOVE" AND "CARE"!? IF THEY DID THIS TO MARY WHEN SHE WAS AT A YOUNG AGE THEN IT WOULD MAKE SENSE FOR HER TO THINK IT'S NORMAL, CHILDREN AT A YOUNG AGE WILL GET EASILY INFLUENCE BY ANYTHING, EVEN WITH THINGS LIKE THIS TOO, THAT'S WHAT MADE HER KISS DJ WITHOUT HIS CONSENT AT ALL BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT IT WAS NORMAL AND TO SHOW HIM "LOVE", BUT AGAIN IT'S WITHOUT HIS CONSENT SO IT'S DISGUSTING FROM HOW DJ PROBABLY HAD ABSOLUTE HORROR ON HIS FACE FROM HER DOING THAT SO SUDDENLY, AGAIN SHE THINKS IT'S NORMAL BY HOW SHE SAYS IT TOO, AND SUDDENLY IT ALL CAME DOWN WITH HER LITERALLY BEATING TO SOMEONE ALMOST TO DEATH I ASSUME WITH A LITERAL HARD ROCK, AND GOES TO HUG DJ LIKE THE PROBLEM HAS BEEN REMOVED, OH GOSH WHAT EVEN HAPPENED AFTER ALL OF THAT!?!? ESPECIALLY WITH DJ'S REACTION, IK IT WAS HOW SHE WAS INFLUENCED BUT IT STILL MADE ME WANT TO THROW UP BY LIKE OH MY GOSH..... OH DEAR GOSH.....

NO DJ DON'T EAT THE CHOCOLATE AGAIN!!! GET YOUR SENSES BACK TOGETHER!!! ARGHHHHHHH- SATIN YOU.... WHO ARE YOU............

AND YOU SERIOUSLY DID NEED THAT CHEESE PIZZA BREAK MOMGEY, I CAN TELL YOU NEEDED TO PROCESS WITH WHAT YOU WROTE, IT'S REASONABLE ALRIGHT IT EXTREMELY IS-

Chapter 12 was indeed heavy, let's all take a moment to breath and calm down. Let's talk about it.

Mary and DJ are almost similar in their own ways, both being subjected by being called "weird" by their peers. But it seems like it's only DJ who doesn't want that kind of treatment, while Mary seems like she doesn't care. She looks like she never cared what the other people think of her while DJ is incredibly self-conscious about it. DJ asking Mary that what if he wanted was "to be accepted" and Mary responding is "Then forever be caged" means she knew no one would really accept them, even if DJ pleads, begs, kneels and cries a river. "He would be forever caged".

DJ had always found Mary interesting and kind, and of course we cannot forget that he finds beauty in everything. Even if Mary's expressions never change, or how her eyes are always dark. DJ found beauty in all of it, that's why he gave her a grass, while it's not much for the other people, it means greatly to him.

Mary always had an obsession with touching, especially the area around the neck. Since we can see that it is fairly hinted that she is mostly touched in "that" and mostly on her lips and her neck. But it also one of her fascinations to feel the pulse of a living person (stick ig) so we can see that's she's so wholly obsessed with being able to touch DJ because DJ lets her do it. Reading that part really does make you nervous, as if you're caged and unable to do something indeed.

Alan and DJ, finally bonding, isn't that a surprise? And since DJ was just exhausted, he somehow accidentally snapped at Alan, and Alan in response leaving. It was mostly him giving DJ space but somehow DJ thought Alan would leave again that's why he chased after him (isn't that sad :((). Anyways, it's great that Alan did stay, perhaps their relationship is getting better. But let's not forget DJ is still in danger, and Alan doesn't know about it.

Mary ate the doll because she has nothing to eat, it was her trying to find any nutrients because she is being deprived of eating. When DJ took away the doll, she even started suckling on her own hand as a way to satiate her hunger and fool her brain into thinking she is actually "eating" something. It's great that DJ was really there to stop her as she would have actually swallowed the hair. Her parents are indeed just shitty as fuck, keeping their child small, petite and skinny to interest the "men".

It is cute that DJ admired Mary's talents, she was talented in everything. And if only her parents could see that, she could have had a nice childhood. She was good at singing, drawing, and even sports. And mind you, she has a weak body because the lack of food in her body, she still managed all of that. And somehow DJ admiring her just changed something in Satin. She was never admired that greatly before, until DJ.

Mary was unfortunately a victim of "sex trafficking", she just doesn't know the word yet. But yes, her parents wanted her to look like a "doll" so they could sell her body for money. And Mary, being such a young child is still learning everything. Her father telling her what "they" are doing to her is "love" meant a lot to her, because it wasn't just her father "loving" her, there are more men doing that as well. It was a twisted way of making your own child think that what is happening to her is fucking okay. And of course, Mary thinks that it's "love" that if she wants to show her own "love" she must also do what the men does to her. Which is touching the person she loves, and most of all. "A kiss"

Mary loved and admired DJ, of course as a friend, but we know she never really knew the difference between platonically and romantically, but it is hinted she calls DJ "her other half" that means she never saw him romantically, but a piece that has been missing in her entire life, she was a "lonely" child. All those so called "love" given to her, but she never had a friend to stay by her side.

Of course, Mary wanted to show DJ her own type of love, which in turn made her kiss DJ all of the sudden, because all those men, her father, tells her that kissing means you love them. Mary did it in an innocent way, she never really understood the depth of a kiss, but all she knows that it means you love them to a certain extent of caring about them.

Coral has always been against Mary touching DJ in such weird ways, of course Mary never liked her because with Coral around, she could never touch DJ or even hug him. And Coral pushing Mary away from DJ made her snap, because in her mind, why would Coral stop her from showing her love to DJ? Does Coral not care that Mary loves DJ? Are they not friends? Mary really has that twisted sense of thinking that you cannot even find it in yourself to blame her. Because she is a "child". Mary is a victim of SA, she never knew it was wrong in the first place, because nobody "corrected" her. Instead, they continue to do it, even if she never knew it was against her will.

We cannot blame Mary for what she had done, instead i can only feel bad for her and DJ because it all ended to this. They could have been close friends.

And in the end, DJ still ate the chocolate, and the cycle continues. We can only hope for Alan to save DJ in the end.

My Thoughts:

And well i needed that pizza because i was hangry xDDD. But it was an interesting chapter to write. Dabbling into dark themes, it is not far from me to dabble on such themes, but it might be a surprise to all of you. As you may know me from writing CS AU which also dabbles on dark themes but not so dark, perhaps a little more action that dark, and now we see in ATG AU, where there is literally no action to get your head off to what just had happened.

I think it's a new perspective for me to write things like this, it does not affect me much as i have already planned the whole story and had thought about it greatly. I know, somewhere out there, this happens to other people, but i want everyone to know that do not connect yourself too much on the story.

The ATG AU has too much dark themes that may affect your health, and if you cannot handle it. Please leave the story, it will turn more darker in the future, and if you cannot handle it now, then i will warn you. You will not be able to handle the next few chapters.

That's why i decided to make an update schedule! There will be a rotation of my other AU's so you all can focus on the other AU's. For now, Chapter 13 will come in a few weeks. This decision came from me and JM, because while it does not affect me too much, i know it can affect some readers. So, there is a possibility ATG will be much slower as i have (Cursor Alan Fanfic, Duck Alan, CS Fanfic, and ATG. then Cursor again, Duck, CS, you get the gist) The rotation will be like that, and it will go on a circle, the updates will be much slower so that people can actually simmer on the chapter and not rush too much in the story.

So be ready for Cursor Alan Fic to come back!! Perhaps we need that fluff ;)) - S

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chickenkurage · 2 months ago

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OKAY OKAY OKAY.... CHAPTER 5 OF ATG... WHAT IN THE WORLD OH MY GOSH HOW MUCH DID DJ HAD TO GO THROUGH- FIRST HIS PARENTS AND NOW THE LOSS OF HIS OWN FOUND FAMILY TO HIS BEST FRIEND LEAVING HIM TO ROT, WHAT THE FRICK-

FIRST OF ALL, THEM TALKING ABOUT THE STARS AND SAYING HOW DJ SAYING HE WANTS TO SEE THE REAL STARS ONE DAY IS JUST.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IT SOMEHOW HITS ME- REMINDS ME OF THAT ONE UNDERTALE DIALOGUE: "what's a star? Can you touch it? Can you eat it? Can you kill it?... Are you a star?" IT JUST SUDDENLY REMINDED ME OF THAT!!! ARE THEY REALLY FORESHADOWING THEMSELVES ABOUT LOSING EACH OTHER BECAUSE MY GOSH- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DJ IS STILL TRYING TO REACH ALAN DESPITE HIS WOUND AND WORDS, HE'S TRYING TO PROVE HIMSELF SO HE CAN BE SEEN AS A USEFUL PERSON TOWARDS HIM, HOW HE IS STILL WILLING TO HELP HIM EVEN THOUGH HE NEEDS REST TO RECOVER FROM THAT SHOT, BUT I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE THE HORROR ON HIS FACE WHEN HE SAW ALAN WEARING THE WEAPON, THE VERY THING HE WASTED THE REST OF HIS LIFE ON, OH MY GOSH HE MUST'VE BEEN FEELING A LOT OF EMOTIONS THERE- WE GOT SOME POV OF HOW DJ IS DOING NOW!!! SEEMS TO BE SOMEWHAT ALRIGHT BUT ALSO NOT BECAUSE THE WORDS ARE STILL STABBED INTO HIS HEART LIKE A LITERAL BULLET, BUT YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DJ AND VICTIM MEETING!!! I WAS ALREADY THINKING ABOUT IF DJ WILL SAY ANYTHING TO VICTIM AND THE OTHERS ABOUT ALA- NOOGAI, OR MAYBE THEY'LL FOUND OUT AT DJ WAS ACTUALLY ONCE A CLOSE FRIEND OF NOOGAI AND HE HELPED HIM SO LONG AGO, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THESE SCENARIOSSSSSSSSSS!!! I DID NOT EXPECT HIS PARENTS IN THIS TO BE LIKE THIS, HIS MOTHER DISTANCING HERSELF HIM AND HE TOOK IT AS KINDNESS FOR FREEDOM UNTIL THE REALIZATION HITS, HOW HE WAS KNOWN TO REASSEMBLE HIS FATHER BUT HATES THE IDEA OF BECOMING SOMEONE HE DESPISES A LOT, STAYING AT ALAN'S SEEMS LIKE IT'S THE ONLY HOPE FOR HIM TO SPEND HIS LIFE HAPPILY INSTEAD AT HIS FATHERS. DANG I DIDN'T EXPECT HIM TO PICK A WHOLE GOSH DANG FIGHT IN THAT BAR, THAT ALCOHOL REALLY DID SOMETHING TO HIM WITH THE NUMBNESS AND BLOOD ALL AROUND HIM, NOOOOOOOO HIM AND ALAN GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING AT THE SAME TIME BEFORE AFTER KAORI AND THE CHILDREN HAD PASSED, EXPECT DJ IS WILLING TO HELP ALAN AND MOVE FORWARD SLOWLY BIT BY BIT, WHILE ALAN REFUSES AND LEAVES HIM TO CONTINUE ON WITH HIS OWN PATH OF VENGEANCE, LEAVING SOMEONE WHO WAS THERE FOR YOU THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME, LITERALLY AFTER EVERYTHING, HOW MUCH DOES DJ GO THROUGH IN THIS, INCLUDING ALAN TOO OFC OH MY GOSH- READING VICTIM AND DJ STARGAZING TOGETHER ALREADY GAVE ME PARALLELS, AND DJ SAYING THE STARS AREN'T REAL LIKE HOW ALAN DID BEFORE, AND VICTIM SAYING THOSE FAMILIAR REALLY MUST HAVE HIT DJ SOMEHOW-

SO MUCH IS HAPPENING ALREADY OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! SOMEONE GET THIS DJ TO THE AA HOUSE ASP, RIGHT HERE AND RIGHT NOW, AND EVEN LET KOM!DJ HELP OUT TOO AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA- MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMGEY YOU'RE WRITING IS IMPRESSIVE AS HECK AND KILLING ME!!!

DJ has been doomed from the start xDDD.

The stars were indeed a metaphor!! And how DJ loves those "Fake Stars" even if it was fake, he still found beauty in it, like how he did with Alan and his family :'')). The stars can be both a foreshadowing and a metaphor with Alan and DJ, with the stars being both fake and out of reach from DJ, just like he is with Alan (oop)

And the Undertale quote, oh my goodness i agree :000

And ahh DJ backstory, super dope xDDDD. We can see here how much of a family Alan and Kaori really are to DJ, it really shows that DJ really loves them both, and losing them both is just......im sad for him.

Alan is so busy with his own world building that he completely forgot about his best friend DD": It's just not fair, clearly, it's not just Alan who is a bit messed up in the head now XDD.

And yipee ond DJ and Vic friendship XDD, Vic being so playful and DJ is the one that has no energy LMAOO. It's a duo we did not ask for but a duo we need.

And God, DJ and his mother. It's so fucked up that he thought what his mother was doing a form of love and freedom until he realized his mother just wants him gone :'')

And we know how DJ always puts his friends first before himself, that's why when Kaori and the kids died, DJ pushed his grief so far back just so he could help Alan to the point he completely forgot that he too has the right to grieve over them because Kaori was like a sister to him.

And Victim reminding of DJ the memory of when he used to stargaze and Alan would always mention that the stars are fake as a way to tease him. It is a parallel, being the first line in the chapter with DJ saying he wanted to see the real stars and fast forward to Victim saying he too wants to see the real stars. PAIN

DJ does need to meet the AA, those Alans would give him all the love he needs and maybe Snow would help him xDDD. KOM DJ would definitely try to cheer ATG DJ up!!

And oh my goodness, thank you, i want to write the story as a more of character study type. ATG DJ isn't an interesting guy, he has no powers, he has no flashy tricks up his sleeve, he is just him.

His friend left him, his sister Kaori died and his nephew and niece, and he's all alone trying to deal with the pain and hurt that was left. Maybe he gave too much love to other people that he forgot to give himself some as well :((.

The AU may have fooled you guys, thinking it would be all about ATG Alan and his cool and revenge escapades, or even Victim and his brothers goofing around. But in reality, we would just look at the AU in DJ's eyes. There's nothing cool about it, and there is nothing fun about it.

Let's just hope DJ and Alan would finally talk - S

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