#ATGDJWelch

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Wow they look like best buddies! I wonder what their lore is all about???....................... .Oh. - S

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Satin and Alan fighting over DJ (Basically the whole plot)

We love siblings fighting over their toy xDD - S

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More of ATG! DJ Welch (Ascension to Godhood AU)

Official DJ color palette? *wink*

And DJ as a kid! ^^ - S

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Ascension to Godhood DJ Welch Official Design

Here is our ATG! DJ Welch, I hope you'll like him. After all, we'll see more of him :D - S

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There goes my baby (Ascension to Godhood AU)

I have no idea what's going through JM's head when she did this, but I want you guys to know this was NOT my idea - S

I'm sorry (not) XPP - JM

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hey since DJ had just gotten shot(autocorrect tried to change that word XD) I wonder if perhaps Alan decided it would be best to push him away. After all, he knows he's going down and he's realized that he's bringing DJ down with him. However, he ends up doing it in the most hurtful way possible. Maybe he wants DJ to hate him because then he'll stay away and out of danger. Unfortunately, DJ could never hate him and now just feels unloved by the last person he had left. Alan absolutely did not think about it from his perspective.

Instead of getting DJ to think "oh this guy is an ass and I don't want to be around him anymore" he got DJ to think "I'm not good enough for anyone and unworthy of love"

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Violet, you're absolutely cooking. Is this what you guys call copium?? /j. But I will be saying nothing with this, I am not agreeing nor disagreeing because I don't wish to spoil you guys too much T^T. But that is such an interesting take :DD - S

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OKAY OKAY OKAY.... CHAPTER 5 OF ATG... WHAT IN THE WORLD OH MY GOSH HOW MUCH DID DJ HAD TO GO THROUGH- FIRST HIS PARENTS AND NOW THE LOSS OF HIS OWN FOUND FAMILY TO HIS BEST FRIEND LEAVING HIM TO ROT, WHAT THE FRICK-

FIRST OF ALL, THEM TALKING ABOUT THE STARS AND SAYING HOW DJ SAYING HE WANTS TO SEE THE REAL STARS ONE DAY IS JUST.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IT SOMEHOW HITS ME- REMINDS ME OF THAT ONE UNDERTALE DIALOGUE: "what's a star? Can you touch it? Can you eat it? Can you kill it?... Are you a star?" IT JUST SUDDENLY REMINDED ME OF THAT!!! ARE THEY REALLY FORESHADOWING THEMSELVES ABOUT LOSING EACH OTHER BECAUSE MY GOSH- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DJ IS STILL TRYING TO REACH ALAN DESPITE HIS WOUND AND WORDS, HE'S TRYING TO PROVE HIMSELF SO HE CAN BE SEEN AS A USEFUL PERSON TOWARDS HIM, HOW HE IS STILL WILLING TO HELP HIM EVEN THOUGH HE NEEDS REST TO RECOVER FROM THAT SHOT, BUT I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE THE HORROR ON HIS FACE WHEN HE SAW ALAN WEARING THE WEAPON, THE VERY THING HE WASTED THE REST OF HIS LIFE ON, OH MY GOSH HE MUST'VE BEEN FEELING A LOT OF EMOTIONS THERE- WE GOT SOME POV OF HOW DJ IS DOING NOW!!! SEEMS TO BE SOMEWHAT ALRIGHT BUT ALSO NOT BECAUSE THE WORDS ARE STILL STABBED INTO HIS HEART LIKE A LITERAL BULLET, BUT YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DJ AND VICTIM MEETING!!! I WAS ALREADY THINKING ABOUT IF DJ WILL SAY ANYTHING TO VICTIM AND THE OTHERS ABOUT ALA- NOOGAI, OR MAYBE THEY'LL FOUND OUT AT DJ WAS ACTUALLY ONCE A CLOSE FRIEND OF NOOGAI AND HE HELPED HIM SO LONG AGO, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THESE SCENARIOSSSSSSSSSS!!! I DID NOT EXPECT HIS PARENTS IN THIS TO BE LIKE THIS, HIS MOTHER DISTANCING HERSELF HIM AND HE TOOK IT AS KINDNESS FOR FREEDOM UNTIL THE REALIZATION HITS, HOW HE WAS KNOWN TO REASSEMBLE HIS FATHER BUT HATES THE IDEA OF BECOMING SOMEONE HE DESPISES A LOT, STAYING AT ALAN'S SEEMS LIKE IT'S THE ONLY HOPE FOR HIM TO SPEND HIS LIFE HAPPILY INSTEAD AT HIS FATHERS. DANG I DIDN'T EXPECT HIM TO PICK A WHOLE GOSH DANG FIGHT IN THAT BAR, THAT ALCOHOL REALLY DID SOMETHING TO HIM WITH THE NUMBNESS AND BLOOD ALL AROUND HIM, NOOOOOOOO HIM AND ALAN GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING AT THE SAME TIME BEFORE AFTER KAORI AND THE CHILDREN HAD PASSED, EXPECT DJ IS WILLING TO HELP ALAN AND MOVE FORWARD SLOWLY BIT BY BIT, WHILE ALAN REFUSES AND LEAVES HIM TO CONTINUE ON WITH HIS OWN PATH OF VENGEANCE, LEAVING SOMEONE WHO WAS THERE FOR YOU THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME, LITERALLY AFTER EVERYTHING, HOW MUCH DOES DJ GO THROUGH IN THIS, INCLUDING ALAN TOO OFC OH MY GOSH- READING VICTIM AND DJ STARGAZING TOGETHER ALREADY GAVE ME PARALLELS, AND DJ SAYING THE STARS AREN'T REAL LIKE HOW ALAN DID BEFORE, AND VICTIM SAYING THOSE FAMILIAR REALLY MUST HAVE HIT DJ SOMEHOW-

SO MUCH IS HAPPENING ALREADY OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! SOMEONE GET THIS DJ TO THE AA HOUSE ASP, RIGHT HERE AND RIGHT NOW, AND EVEN LET KOM!DJ HELP OUT TOO AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA- MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMGEY YOU'RE WRITING IS IMPRESSIVE AS HECK AND KILLING ME!!!

DJ has been doomed from the start xDDD.

The stars were indeed a metaphor!! And how DJ loves those "Fake Stars" even if it was fake, he still found beauty in it, like how he did with Alan and his family :'')). The stars can be both a foreshadowing and a metaphor with Alan and DJ, with the stars being both fake and out of reach from DJ, just like he is with Alan (oop)

And the Undertale quote, oh my goodness i agree :000

And ahh DJ backstory, super dope xDDDD. We can see here how much of a family Alan and Kaori really are to DJ, it really shows that DJ really loves them both, and losing them both is just......im sad for him.

Alan is so busy with his own world building that he completely forgot about his best friend DD": It's just not fair, clearly, it's not just Alan who is a bit messed up in the head now XDD.

And yipee ond DJ and Vic friendship XDD, Vic being so playful and DJ is the one that has no energy LMAOO. It's a duo we did not ask for but a duo we need.

And God, DJ and his mother. It's so fucked up that he thought what his mother was doing a form of love and freedom until he realized his mother just wants him gone :'')

And we know how DJ always puts his friends first before himself, that's why when Kaori and the kids died, DJ pushed his grief so far back just so he could help Alan to the point he completely forgot that he too has the right to grieve over them because Kaori was like a sister to him.

And Victim reminding of DJ the memory of when he used to stargaze and Alan would always mention that the stars are fake as a way to tease him. It is a parallel, being the first line in the chapter with DJ saying he wanted to see the real stars and fast forward to Victim saying he too wants to see the real stars. PAIN

DJ does need to meet the AA, those Alans would give him all the love he needs and maybe Snow would help him xDDD. KOM DJ would definitely try to cheer ATG DJ up!!

And oh my goodness, thank you, i want to write the story as a more of character study type. ATG DJ isn't an interesting guy, he has no powers, he has no flashy tricks up his sleeve, he is just him.

His friend left him, his sister Kaori died and his nephew and niece, and he's all alone trying to deal with the pain and hurt that was left. Maybe he gave too much love to other people that he forgot to give himself some as well :((.

The AU may have fooled you guys, thinking it would be all about ATG Alan and his cool and revenge escapades, or even Victim and his brothers goofing around. But in reality, we would just look at the AU in DJ's eyes. There's nothing cool about it, and there is nothing fun about it.

Let's just hope DJ and Alan would finally talk - S

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two chapters in one day?!?!!LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

For you guys!!! I'm glad you're enjoying. How is the story going for you? :00 - S

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CHAPTER 9..... OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH CHAPTER 9, THIS ONE HAS A LOT MORE TO TAKE IN THIS TIME-

FIRST OF ALL WOAH- THEY ACTUALLY REUNITED!!! LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! ALAN ACTUALLY FINDING OUT THAT THE OTHERS KNEW ABOUT DJ SO HE ASKED VICTIM ABOUT WHERE DJ IS TO SEE HIM AFTER ALL THIS TIME!!! THIS IS LIKE THEY ALMOST FORMED AN ECLIPSE BY NOT CHASING EACH OTHER NOW AFTER SEEING EACH OTHER, BUT IT WENT BACK TO THAT WHEN ALAN FLEW AWAY FROM DJ, THE AWKWARD MOMENT THEY HAD UNDER TREE DOES SEEM RELATABLE CONSIDERING HOW IT'S BEEN SO LONG TO THE POINT YOU DON'T KNOW HOW THE OTHER VIEWS YOU AS, DJ THINKS LOWER OF HIMSELF AND ALAN THINKING HE'S STILL WORTHLESS ALL THIS TIME, MEANWHILE ALAN POSSIBLY STILL THINKS DJ HATES HIM FOR WHAT HE HAS SAID SO LONG AGO AND THINKING WHY HE INTERACTED WITH DJ THAT WAY WHEN HE LEFT, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THESE TWO TALK IT OUT OH MY GOSH- AND YEAH VICTIM UH- YOU'LL PROBABLY NEED TO KNOW ABOUT ALA- NOOGAI AND DJ'S RELATIONSHIP MUCH MORE LATER ON, OR JUST KNOWING THE FULL STORY ABOUT THEM LATER ON IN THE CHAPTERS BECAUSE IT'S SO MUCH TO BARE I'LL SAY- AND OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH SATIN... OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE HER ALREADY HONESTLY- I HATE HER VIBES I'M ALREADY HATING WHAT SHE'S SAYING TO DJ AND I HATE HER JUST TOUCHING HIM OUT OF NOWHERE- OH HECK NAH THIS IS DEFINITELY HALO 2.0 FRICK NO- BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO DJ THINKING ABOUT BRINGING BACK HIS FAMILY COULD POSSIBLY MAKE HIM THINK THAT ALAN WILL FIND HIM WORTHY AGAIN FOR ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING- OH DJ.... DJ.... AND NOT THE FLASHBACK WITH DJ TELLING THE STORY ABOUT THE SUN AND MOON BEING SIBLINGS AND THEM LITERALLY ACTING LIKE SIBLINGS BY DJ CLINGING ONTO ALAN, OH GOSH THEY LOOKED SO HAPPY BEFORE WHAT WENT WRONGGGGGGGG- WELL APPARENTLY THE FAMILY WAS KILLED DUE TO RACISM BUT STILL THAT'S EXTREMELY TOO FAR LIKE WHAT THE F*CK??? GEEZ IT REALLY WAS A LOT OF THAT BACK IN THEIR DAYS.... SO THE OTHER DID EVENTUALLY WENT BACK TO THEIR CREATOR WHICH IS A GOOD THING BUT THAT MAKES DJ GO BACK TO HIS OLD ROUTINE BUT WAITING FOR ALAN AFTER HIS VISIT AND STILL THINKING ABOUT SATINS OFFER, WHAT IN THE WORLD IS SHE THINKING??? LIKE WHAT- FOR SOME REASON I'M ALREADY IMAGINING HER AS THE CYAN STICK ALAN HAD BEATEN UP A LONG TIME AGO IDK WHY- OKAY BUT ESPECIALLY DJ'S THOUGHTS HERE.... OH MY GOSH THAT'S A LOT OF DARK AND F*CKED UP THOUGHTS- EVEN WHERE BEFORE ALAN FLEW OFF HE WAS ALREADY THINKING A LOT ABOUT WHAT ALAN WOULD DO TO HIM AND ALL!!! LIKE WHY CAN I EVEN IMAGINE DJ THINKING ABOUT KNEELING IN FRONT OF ALAN WITH A SHARP WEAPON LIKE A KNIFE ON HIS FOREHEAD AND WAITS FOR ALAN TO FINISH HIM OFF JUST LIKE THAT- WHAT IN THE WORLD IS GONNA HAPPEN WHAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

NOW ATG ALAN AND DJ IS REMINDING ME OF THIS AUDIO- "moon tell me if I could, send up my heart to you? So when I die which I must do could it shineeeeee down here with you?" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THEY'RE SICK-

Okay! Let's start Yapping! Yippee!!

There is so many misunderstandings in this chapter, and it's absolutely just...sad. They had each other at arm's length but refused to reach out. DJ did reach out, but Alan wasn't sure on how to react, perhaps in his head he thought DJ was about to punch the living lights out of him and Alan was waiting for that.

Alan was definitely waiting for DJ to burst into anger, that's why he's incredibly quiet, he was waiting for DJ to be angry at him, to hurt him.

Victim most likely would not know right away what Noogai and DJ's deal with each other was, but he might have some theories or some suspicion about them knowing each other or perhaps more than that. As for Satin, Satin is already making a move towards DJ. And her unnerving way of trying to touch DJ, is just utterly disgusting. But she knew she already had him hooked with the promise of revival, the temptation of trying to get who you love back into the land of the living.

And as for the sun and moon, it was utterly just heartbreaking hearing the legend of the Sun and Moon where both of them we're actually siblings and not lovers as some says. And they forever chase each other in the sky.

While the original take on it was, they chase each other for fun, DJ found it sad because forever chasing someone you love is painful for him, that's why he felt incredibly just sad about the story while Alan isn't so interested in it.

Yes, Alan's family was killed by racism, since Alan's wife and his kids are not the same kind as Alan, they were shunned, especially Alan for marrying a different stick than his kind. Because in their time, it is important to note that you can only marry your own kind. (It is almost the same with some religion that they can only marry the person with the same religion)

DJ really does have a pretty fucked up thoughts, and I really can't say anymore to that. The whole fanfic is a pretty heavy baggage for having a summary that is so silly.

DJ has always liked to imagine how Alan would react if he were to die, and he loves doing that to pass time. And I don't know if I should laugh at that or cry.

The quote really does remind me of ATG Alan and DJ, they are honestly sick. That even if I saw doodles of them looking happy, it just makes me sad because that isn't the same thing I'm seeing right now XD - S

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AAAAAA I NEED THEM TO BE BESTIES AGAINN😭😭👹

I saw your DJ and Alan art and somehow I can't look at it the same anymore, because not even cute stuff is making me less happy when I see ATG xDDD - S

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CHAPTER 4 OF ATG IS HERE AND OH MY GOSH.... WHAT- NO.... NO NO NO NO NO NONOONOOONOBOOBOBO OH MY GOSH DJ AND ALAN IN THIS.....

FIRST OF ALL DJ WAS ACTUALLY WILLING TO HELP ALAN WITH HIS WEAPON BY GETTING A LOT OF MISSING PIECES FOR IT, BUT ONE TIME ENDS UP GETTING SHOT BY SOMEONE IS SOMETHING I ACTUALLY NEVER EXPECTED THAT WOULD HAPPEN TO HIM- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OH MY GOSH.... YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH VICTIM AND DARK BOUNDING!!! LOOK AT THEM GO!!! ALSO A STATUE OF A CURSOR THAT RESEMBLES NOOGAI IS HONESTLY REALLY INTERESTING TO KNOW ABOUT!!! ALSO DARK IS GETTING INTO THE NOOGAI SITUATION BY WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE! I THINK THOUGH BUT I WONDER IF THEY BOTH WILL LOOK THROUGH SOME BOOKS AND FIND ANYTHING ABOUT NOOGAI!!! MY FRICKING HEART.... NO..... OH GOSH NO, EVEN IF ALAN HELPED DJ RECOVER FROM THAT SHOT, HE STILL HAS THE AUDACITY TO SAY "DJ... you're worthless".... THAT EXPLAINS THE TAG OF DJ HAVING SELF ESTEEM ISSUES OH GOSH- THOSE WORDS DEFINITELY HIT HIM WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY TOO MUCH, IT LOOKS LIKE HE'LL NEVER LET IT GO PROBABLY, EVEN IF HE TRIES TO HIDE IT IF HE WOULD, ALAN THAT'S YOUR GOSH DARN BEST FRIEND AND THE BEST BROTHER YOU'LL EVER HAVE, GOSH I'M GETTING A LOT OF EMOTIONS.... THE FLASHBACK OF THESE TWO TALKING TO EACH OTHER ABOUT GODS IRL WHILE THERE ISN'T ANY IN THE OUTERNET, BUT OH MY GOSH THEIR FRIENDSHIP IN THE PAST LIKE.... THEY LOOKED SO HAPPY OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IT ALL WENT SO WRONG.... AND DJ PRAYING FOR HIS BEST FRIEND BACK, EVEN IF HIS HEART LUCKILY DIDN'T GET SHOT, IT FELT LIKE IT DID BY FEELING LIKE IT WAS SHATTERED BY THOSE WORDS.....

*INHALES* MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMGEY!!! YOU ARE DOING A LOT ON ME WITH THIS AU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA- DJ WHERE ARE YOU EVEN AT RNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN-

Chapter 4's new name "Doomed Friendship" DJ would always help Alan, and we know that, Alan is his best buddy, and he would definitely follow Alan even to the end of the world. And if making that weapon makes Alan "himself" again? DJ would do it a million times, just so Alan would have that spark back again :''), and the fact he did get shot trying to get the parts for the weapon just, makes it worst.

Victim and Dark bonding are really adorable, they really have that older brother and younger brother energy XDD. I mean, we can understand Dark. How uncanny and scary it is for a stick to "easily" use humans as his tools. How technically, Alan has so much power in his hands. He could start wars, imagine if he gets his hand on a world leader and start another world war. That's just terrifying honestly. That weapon they created, is a damn good one, Alan is basically a god at this point. And that thought just terrifies Dark.

Alan telling DJ was worthless.... that was painful, DJ wears his heart on his sleeve. And for someone he cares about, his best buddy, his brother, not by blood but he loves so much, tells him he is basically worthless...... That broke him.

And the religion and gods talk between the two of them when they were younger, and how DJ admits that he would believe in god, as long as "that" god gives him strength, and that god can be someone that he can ask help from when in need. And the fact Alan is the so called "god" in this, that's basically the opposite of what DJ wanted from a god. But the fact he would still search for his "god" even if that god doesn't want him...anymore.

And honestly, they were really happy, they USED to be happy :''). This may be really a doomed friendship from the start after all.

We all know, that's the day DJ heart broke. Heartbreak isn't real, but let's admit it. DJ would prefer getting shot in the heart than hear his "best friend" tell him he isn't no longer needed and useless.

DJ will appear more frequently.... since well...he's the real MC of this AU xPP hehe! Prepare for more angst to come, and DJ getting hurt. Maybe ATG DJ was actually the real counterpart of CS Alan after all ;) - S

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CHAPTER 12................. OKAY............. I SERIOUSLY NEEDED TO REST AND CALM DOWN TO PROCESS ON WHAT HAPPENED ON THAT CHAPTER.....

WARNING/TW: LITTLE S3XUAL THEMES WILL BE MENTIONED HERE SO IF YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE BY READING THOSE THEN DON'T READ THIS!!! IT'S MOSTLY MORE AT THE END BUT STILL IF YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE THEN DON'T READ AGAIN!!!

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FIRST OF ALL, A BLUE GREY STICK.... NOW THAT'S ALREADY GIVING ME SUSPICION FOR SOME REASON AND SOME SIMILARITIES, BUT HER AND DJ REALLY DID SEEM TO GET ALONG A LOT BACK THEN!!! EVEN DJ EXPRESSING HIS INTERESTS TOWARDS HER TOO LIKE THE WORMS PART WHICH SEEMED WHOLESOME, AND EXPRESSING HOW THEY BOTH HAVE BEEN CALLED WEIRD THOUGH ONE IS AFFECTED BY IT A LOT WHILE THE OTHER DOESN'T CARE ABOUT IT AT ALL AND ACCEPTS IT, BUT THE LINE OF HER SAYING "BE FOREVER CAGED" JUST SOMEHOW HITS HARD NGL- THEIR FRIENDSHIP SEEMED ALL NICE AT FIRST LIKE HOW DJ GIFTED HER THE GRASS BECAUSE HE THINKS IT'S PRETTY LIKE HER WHICH IS SWEET!!! BUT UNTIL YOU GET TO A PART WHERE YOU WILL FEEL SOME SUSPICION AND NERVOUSNESS NOW, LIKE HER TOUCHING DJ'S PUSLE ON HIS NECK? LIKE YEAH DJ DIDN'T SEEM TO MIND IT BUT IT FELT OUT OF NOWHERE FOR HER TO DO THAT- LIKE- OH GOSH I'M ALREADY FEELING NERVOUS TYPING ABOUT IT- BUT YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! ACTUAL ALAN AND DJ BONDING!!! AND APPARENTLY A TIMESKIP TO ANOTHER WEAK WHERE DJ ACTUALLY PASSED OUT DUE TO EXHAUSTION AND ALAN TOOK CARE OF HIMMM!!! BUT ALAN IS REALLY CONCERN FOR HIM RN AND HE KNOWS DJ ISN'T TELLING THE TRUTH AT ALL WHEN HE KEPT SAYING IT WAS WORK, EVEN WHEN HE ASKED WHERE HE WORKS DJ STILL WON'T BUDGE AND OFC THAT WILL LEAVE ALAN SUSPICIOUS ABOUT IT, BUT I GENUINELY KNEW DJ WILL SOMEWHAT SNAP BUT IT STILL CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD NGL- WONDER WHAT ALAN'S PERSPECTIVE WAS WHEN HE HEARD THOSE WORDS COMING OUT OF DJ'S MOUTH, I MEAN YES THERE WAS A POINT WHERE ALAN WAS EXPECTING DJ TO BE MAD AT HIM SINCE THAT WAS HIS PLAN IN THE FIRST PLACE BUT STILL WONDERING ABOUT IT LIKE BEING REMINDED HOW HE LEFT DJ SO SUDDENLY AND CAME BACK SO SUDDENLY TOO AFTER ALL THESE YEARS, IT REALLY MUST HAVE AFFECTED THEM BOTH A LOT BY DOING THIS TO THEMSELVES TO BE SEPARATED, BUT ALAN ACTUALLY STAYING WITH DJ WHEN HE ACTUALLY ASKED HIM TO LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! YOU DID IT DJ!!! YOU MANAGED TO ASK HIM ABOUT IT!!! BUT MAKES SENSE BECAUSE I CAN TELL HE FEELS MUCH MORE SAFER WITH ALAN OTHER THAN THAT B*TCH SATIN, AND MARY SUDDENLY EATING HER DOLL??? NO BECAUSE I FELT LIKE I WAS HAVING A SHOCKED EXPRESSION AND GASPED AT THAT PART TOO, THANK GOSH DJ WAS THERE TO STOP HER- BUT WHY SO HUNGRY FOR A DOLL??? AND APPARENTLY SHE DID IT BECAUSE HER MOTHER TOLD HER TO BE PRETTY LIKE THE DOLL??? HER PARENTS ARE ABSOLUTE A**HOLES LIKE GEEZ- THESE KIND OF PARENTS ARE SO SH*TY OH MY GOSH- AT LEAST THERE WAS A NICE MOMENT AFTER THAT WHERE DJ WAS ADMIRING HER TALENTS BY WATCHING HER AND HUGGED IT OUT NICELY, BUT OH GOSH.... THE PART WHERE I HAD TO PROCESS ABOUT..... HERE'S THE S3XUAL THEMES PART SO CONTINUE READING IF YOU WISH TO AGAIN

DESCRIBING THE DETAILS ABOUT HOW HER FATHER LITERALLY TOUCHES HER SO S3XUALLY AND INAPPROPRIATELY IS JUST SO... ICK AND ABSOLUTELY DOWNRIGHT DISGUSTING... I KEPT FEELING LIKE I SERIOUSLY WANNA THROW UP AND GAG LIKE OH GOSH- EVEN EXPLAINING HOW OTHER MEN DID IT TOO!?!?!?! AND SHE THOUGHT ALL THIS TIME THIS IS WHAT THEY DO TO SHOW "LOVE" AND "CARE"!? IF THEY DID THIS TO MARY WHEN SHE WAS AT A YOUNG AGE THEN IT WOULD MAKE SENSE FOR HER TO THINK IT'S NORMAL, CHILDREN AT A YOUNG AGE WILL GET EASILY INFLUENCE BY ANYTHING, EVEN WITH THINGS LIKE THIS TOO, THAT'S WHAT MADE HER KISS DJ WITHOUT HIS CONSENT AT ALL BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT IT WAS NORMAL AND TO SHOW HIM "LOVE", BUT AGAIN IT'S WITHOUT HIS CONSENT SO IT'S DISGUSTING FROM HOW DJ PROBABLY HAD ABSOLUTE HORROR ON HIS FACE FROM HER DOING THAT SO SUDDENLY, AGAIN SHE THINKS IT'S NORMAL BY HOW SHE SAYS IT TOO, AND SUDDENLY IT ALL CAME DOWN WITH HER LITERALLY BEATING TO SOMEONE ALMOST TO DEATH I ASSUME WITH A LITERAL HARD ROCK, AND GOES TO HUG DJ LIKE THE PROBLEM HAS BEEN REMOVED, OH GOSH WHAT EVEN HAPPENED AFTER ALL OF THAT!?!? ESPECIALLY WITH DJ'S REACTION, IK IT WAS HOW SHE WAS INFLUENCED BUT IT STILL MADE ME WANT TO THROW UP BY LIKE OH MY GOSH..... OH DEAR GOSH.....

NO DJ DON'T EAT THE CHOCOLATE AGAIN!!! GET YOUR SENSES BACK TOGETHER!!! ARGHHHHHHH- SATIN YOU.... WHO ARE YOU............

AND YOU SERIOUSLY DID NEED THAT CHEESE PIZZA BREAK MOMGEY, I CAN TELL YOU NEEDED TO PROCESS WITH WHAT YOU WROTE, IT'S REASONABLE ALRIGHT IT EXTREMELY IS-

Chapter 12 was indeed heavy, let's all take a moment to breath and calm down. Let's talk about it.

Mary and DJ are almost similar in their own ways, both being subjected by being called "weird" by their peers. But it seems like it's only DJ who doesn't want that kind of treatment, while Mary seems like she doesn't care. She looks like she never cared what the other people think of her while DJ is incredibly self-conscious about it. DJ asking Mary that what if he wanted was "to be accepted" and Mary responding is "Then forever be caged" means she knew no one would really accept them, even if DJ pleads, begs, kneels and cries a river. "He would be forever caged".

DJ had always found Mary interesting and kind, and of course we cannot forget that he finds beauty in everything. Even if Mary's expressions never change, or how her eyes are always dark. DJ found beauty in all of it, that's why he gave her a grass, while it's not much for the other people, it means greatly to him.

Mary always had an obsession with touching, especially the area around the neck. Since we can see that it is fairly hinted that she is mostly touched in "that" and mostly on her lips and her neck. But it also one of her fascinations to feel the pulse of a living person (stick ig) so we can see that's she's so wholly obsessed with being able to touch DJ because DJ lets her do it. Reading that part really does make you nervous, as if you're caged and unable to do something indeed.

Alan and DJ, finally bonding, isn't that a surprise? And since DJ was just exhausted, he somehow accidentally snapped at Alan, and Alan in response leaving. It was mostly him giving DJ space but somehow DJ thought Alan would leave again that's why he chased after him (isn't that sad :((). Anyways, it's great that Alan did stay, perhaps their relationship is getting better. But let's not forget DJ is still in danger, and Alan doesn't know about it.

Mary ate the doll because she has nothing to eat, it was her trying to find any nutrients because she is being deprived of eating. When DJ took away the doll, she even started suckling on her own hand as a way to satiate her hunger and fool her brain into thinking she is actually "eating" something. It's great that DJ was really there to stop her as she would have actually swallowed the hair. Her parents are indeed just shitty as fuck, keeping their child small, petite and skinny to interest the "men".

It is cute that DJ admired Mary's talents, she was talented in everything. And if only her parents could see that, she could have had a nice childhood. She was good at singing, drawing, and even sports. And mind you, she has a weak body because the lack of food in her body, she still managed all of that. And somehow DJ admiring her just changed something in Satin. She was never admired that greatly before, until DJ.

Mary was unfortunately a victim of "sex trafficking", she just doesn't know the word yet. But yes, her parents wanted her to look like a "doll" so they could sell her body for money. And Mary, being such a young child is still learning everything. Her father telling her what "they" are doing to her is "love" meant a lot to her, because it wasn't just her father "loving" her, there are more men doing that as well. It was a twisted way of making your own child think that what is happening to her is fucking okay. And of course, Mary thinks that it's "love" that if she wants to show her own "love" she must also do what the men does to her. Which is touching the person she loves, and most of all. "A kiss"

Mary loved and admired DJ, of course as a friend, but we know she never really knew the difference between platonically and romantically, but it is hinted she calls DJ "her other half" that means she never saw him romantically, but a piece that has been missing in her entire life, she was a "lonely" child. All those so called "love" given to her, but she never had a friend to stay by her side.

Of course, Mary wanted to show DJ her own type of love, which in turn made her kiss DJ all of the sudden, because all those men, her father, tells her that kissing means you love them. Mary did it in an innocent way, she never really understood the depth of a kiss, but all she knows that it means you love them to a certain extent of caring about them.

Coral has always been against Mary touching DJ in such weird ways, of course Mary never liked her because with Coral around, she could never touch DJ or even hug him. And Coral pushing Mary away from DJ made her snap, because in her mind, why would Coral stop her from showing her love to DJ? Does Coral not care that Mary loves DJ? Are they not friends? Mary really has that twisted sense of thinking that you cannot even find it in yourself to blame her. Because she is a "child". Mary is a victim of SA, she never knew it was wrong in the first place, because nobody "corrected" her. Instead, they continue to do it, even if she never knew it was against her will.

We cannot blame Mary for what she had done, instead i can only feel bad for her and DJ because it all ended to this. They could have been close friends.

And in the end, DJ still ate the chocolate, and the cycle continues. We can only hope for Alan to save DJ in the end.

My Thoughts:

And well i needed that pizza because i was hangry xDDD. But it was an interesting chapter to write. Dabbling into dark themes, it is not far from me to dabble on such themes, but it might be a surprise to all of you. As you may know me from writing CS AU which also dabbles on dark themes but not so dark, perhaps a little more action that dark, and now we see in ATG AU, where there is literally no action to get your head off to what just had happened.

I think it's a new perspective for me to write things like this, it does not affect me much as i have already planned the whole story and had thought about it greatly. I know, somewhere out there, this happens to other people, but i want everyone to know that do not connect yourself too much on the story.

The ATG AU has too much dark themes that may affect your health, and if you cannot handle it. Please leave the story, it will turn more darker in the future, and if you cannot handle it now, then i will warn you. You will not be able to handle the next few chapters.

That's why i decided to make an update schedule! There will be a rotation of my other AU's so you all can focus on the other AU's. For now, Chapter 13 will come in a few weeks. This decision came from me and JM, because while it does not affect me too much, i know it can affect some readers. So, there is a possibility ATG will be much slower as i have (Cursor Alan Fanfic, Duck Alan, CS Fanfic, and ATG. then Cursor again, Duck, CS, you get the gist) The rotation will be like that, and it will go on a circle, the updates will be much slower so that people can actually simmer on the chapter and not rush too much in the story.

So be ready for Cursor Alan Fic to come back!! Perhaps we need that fluff ;)) - S

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my honest reaction reading chapter 12:

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Like i kid you not i covered my mouth in shock twice during this chapter

Also?!?! Is Mary actually Satin??? Their behaviour and appearance are so similar, i wouldnt be surprised if it turns out Mary purposely searched for DJ after all those years and went by a different identity now. Or maybe she wants the weapon to be forged and the only person capable of doing that just so happens to be DJ

Either way AUGHH it really does seems like theres nothing good going for DJ in this AU, i hope he gets a happy ending, or a satisfying closure at the very least . He deserves it :')

Satin and Mary, maybe so maybe not. There similarities need to be noted. How about we talk about their names first? When you say Mary, who do you think of? I think we should all start there. There are hidden secrets within their names as well :DD. And i think everyone can connect the whole story if you take notice of every single thing. As said, the fic has too many religious themes (especially Christianity), but it is possible it will not only be Christianity. You might even piece out how the story would end, who knows - S

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OH CHAPTER 11 OF ATG.... CHAPTER 11....

FIRST OF ALL FRICK YOU SATINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!! WHAT IS SHE TRYING TO DO??? WHAT IS UP WITH HER TRYING TO RESEMBLE ALAN??? WHY AND HOW DOES SHE KNOW ABOUT ALL OF THIS??? WHAT IS SHE ACTUALLY AN ACTUAL ROBOT HERE OR SOMETHING??? WHAT???? OKAY BUT THE TRIP TO THE ZOO IS SOMEWHAT UNEXPECTED FROM HER NGL- BUT HER ANALYSIS WITH THE EAGLE JUST DEFINITELY SEEMS LIKE IT'S FORESHADOWING SOMETHING.... IT DEFINITELY IS AT SOME POINT.... BUT WHAT WAS SHE TRYING TO SAY TO DJ THERE??? TO MAKE HIM ACTUALLY SNAP AT HER OR SOMETHING??? LIKE WATCHING A POOR ANIMAL BEING CAGED AND JUST ANALYSIS LIKE IT'S A DAILY THING FOR HER??? THAT SHE KEEP GOING TO THE ZOO OR SOMETHING TO WATCH ALL THE ANIMALS BE LIKE THIS??? LIKE WHAT??? SATIN.... WHO RAISED YOU TO BE LIKE THIS ACTUALLY... WHAT IS THAT YOU KNOW ABOUT ALAN AND DJ??? WHY CUT YOUR HAIR TO RESEMBLE ALAN??? WHY HAVE A WEAPON THAT'S SIMILAR TO HIS??? WHAT ARE YOUR TRUE INTENTIONS ACTUALLY??? BUT ALL I KNOW IS THAT I'M GETTING MORE DISGUSTED AND SUSPICIOUS BY YOU- LIKE WHAT THE HECK DO YOU MEAN YOU ATE THE SNACKS AND NOT FEEL ANYTHING BUT DJ DOES BY PASSING OUT??? WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO KEEP DJ IN YOUR HOUSE WHEN YOU LITERALLY ACTUALLY HAVE BEEN DR*GGING HIM FOR HALF OF THE DAY SO HE WOULDN'T GET THAT MUCH WORK DONE??? WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU B- YOU HAVE BEEN DR*GGING HIM- THE NEW TAGS SAYS THERE WILL BE THAT IN THERE SO WHY??? AND ICKKKKKKK THE TOUCHING ON HIS NECK.... OH GOSH..... DJ CAN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT FROM HIS BODY FEELING TOO WEAK..... OH MY GOSH.... I WANNA GAG ALREADY EVEN IF IT WAS A SILLY LIKE- OH GOSH- BUT YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! CARING ALAN!!! GIVING HIM A WARM BLANKET AND HELPING HIM OUT BY GIVING HIM COFFEE!!! BUT OFC HIS CONCERN FOR DJ, LIKE ALAN HAS TO AT LEAST TRY AND FIGURE OUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH DJ LOOKING EVEN MORE TIRED THAN THE LAST TIME HE VISITED AND HELPED HIM OUT, LIKE YES LIKE THE NOTES SAYS YOU NEED TO DO A LITTLE SAVING HERE ALAN!!!

ALSO ALMOST FORGOT NOT DJ GRIEVING ABOUT ALAN BEING GONE WHEN HE WOKE UP, HE ALREADY LONGS FOR HIM TO STAY BY HIS SIDE WHILE HE WAS SLEEPING, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA- THE PAIN IS STILL THERE DEEP DOWN INSIDE OF HIM HE CAN'T LET GO OF HIM AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!

Time to talk about Chapter 11!!

Let's all collectively agree Satin is such a weirdo!! :I. The time with the zoo, Satin is trying to show DJ what she thinks about what Noogai had done but DJ is very unwilling to listen to her that's why she never told him why she wanted him to create the weapon. She needs more time for DJ to understand, then there she will tell him *wink*

Satin is a freak and a weirdo for touching DJ like that, especially drugging him as well, tsk tsk. As much as it's hard for you guys to read this, I'm also to the brink of deciding to just lay on my bed and refusing to write that part anymore xDDD.

At least Alan stayed for DJ, showing his caring side. And somehow DJ still thinks Alan still sees him as someone worthless, that's just sad.

DJ crying because he fell asleep when Alan was there is just so him xDDD. Waking up the next day to see Alan gone, maybe next time Alan would stay, both of these goobers are freaking lonely, they have each other but they aren't doing anything about it is just making me want to rip my hair off. - S

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CHAPTER 10 OF ATG!!! CHAPTER 10 OF ATG!!! AND OH MY GOSH THIS ONE FELT LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER-

FIRST OF ALL, FRICK DJ'S FATHER AND ABSOLUTELY FRICK SATIN, THOSE TWO CAN DISAPPEAR WITH A THANOS SNAP- ARGHHHHHHHHHHH DJ'S WANNA BE "FATHER" YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THAT TO DJ!!! BUT OH GOSH IS THAT WHERE DJ HAD THAT FEELING??? WHENEVER HE WAS CALLED USELESS OR WORTHLESS IT ECHOES IN HIS MIND.... AND NOW THAT FEELING IS TRAPPED DEEP DOWN INSIDE OF HIM, HEARING HIS "FRIEND" TO MAKE HIM DO SOMETHING JUST TO GAIN HIS "FATHER'S" LOVE AND RESPECT, HE'LL LITERALLY DO ANYTHING WHATEVER ANYONE TELLS HIM TO DO JUST TO BE PROVEN USEFUL AND GAIN THE RECOGNITION HE HAS ALWAYS WANTED, JUST TO BE SEEN, LIKE THAT ONE QUOTE "to be loved is to be changed", FROM WHERE HE TRIES TO MIMIC OTHERS PERSONALITY TO BE THE SAME LIKE THEM AND FIT IN EVEN MORE, OH MY GOSH DJ YOU POOR CHILD, SCREW YOU AGAIN "FATHER", AND ICK- I'M GETTING MORE DISGUSTED BY SATIN ALREADY LIKE OH... OH GOSH I CAN'T IMAGINE HER SMILE, HER TOUCHING DJ AROUND... OH MY GOSH I WOULD GAG IF I WANTED TO OH DEAR GOSH- AND FRICK YOU MEAN YOU NEED A VIRUS NOW??? AND HOW DID YOU KNOW ABOUT HIS SKILL IN CODING AND WHY??? WHAT ARE YOU ACTUALLY DOING??? AND WHY IS YOUR HOME DEEP AND FAR AWAY FROM THE CITY??? WHO ARE YOU ACTUALLY????????????????? I'M GETTING TO SUSPICIOUS BY THIS- WHATEVER YOU WANNA CALL HER AS NOW- BUT HALO 2.0 LITERALLY AT THIS POINT- AND WHY MAKE DJ STAY AT YOUR HOME FOR A FEW DAYS??? WHAT??? OH HECK NAH I'M ALREADY GETTING SO MUCH DISGUSTED VIBES... *INHALES* OH GOSH NO..... THIS IS LITERALLY LIKE TRYING TO MANIPULATE HIM BUT IN HER OWN DISGUSTING WAYS OH MY GOSH- ALSO A BUILDING BEING DESTROYED IS 100% LIKE INFINITE 100% HER DOING- BUT DJ IS STILL WILLING TO DO THIS TO HE USEFUL BY BRING THE FAMILY BACK TOGETHER, BUT YEAH HOW IN THE ABSOLUTE WORLD IS SHE GONNA REVIVE THEM??? WHO ARE YOU LITERALLY??? ALSO YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! DJ AND ALAN BONDING AGAIN!!! AND ALAN STOPPING BY HIS PLACE AFTER A FEW DAYS??? LSJLJSHLJSHLJSHJLAHLJAHLJAHLJAH I CAN'T- THEIR CONNECTION IS STILL THERE DEEP DOWN OH MY GOSH- ALAN- DJ- PLEASE AT LEAST TALK IT OUT OH MY GOSH- COMMUNICATE!!! BUT ALAN NEEDING TO REPAIR HIS WEAPON??? IF IT'S SAID IT'S IN PERFECT CONDITION SO WHY??? WHAAAAAAA- BUT DJ ACTUALLY FEELING LIKE HE'S UNDERSTOOD AND FELT GENUINELY HAPPY WITH ALAN'S PRESENCE BEING WITH HIM, WORKING TOGETHER LIKE THEY USED TO AFTER SO MANY YEARS!!! DJ FEELING ACTUALLY AND GENUINELY USEFUL WHEN ALAN IS HERE, ALAN ASKING FOR HELP FROM HIM ESPECIALLY!!! LIKE A PERSON HAVE BEEN WANTING SOMEONE TO NOTICED HIM AND HIS SKILLS LIKE ALAN ALWAYS HAD BEFORE, AND AWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHH DJ HELPING OUT ALAN IN HIS SLUMBER!!! BUT ONLY FOR A MOMENT WHEN HE SUDDENLY WOKE UP AND FELT DJ'S FINGER- BUT DJ IS WILLING TO KEEP GOING AND DO IT ALL FOR ALAN, AND EVEN THE PART WHERE DJ WAS GENUINELY HAPPY WHEN HE FELT ALAN'S WARM TOUCH AND WISHED IT LAST LONGER, JUST HUG IT OUR AND FEEL HIS EMBRACE DJ!!! AND OFC AT THE LAST PARTS DJ HAVING THE URGE TO JUST CHOKE HIMSELF TO DEATH, BUT HE IS ACTUALLY CONSIDERING IT WHEN HE BRINGS KAORI AND THE CHILDREN BACK??? OH MY GOSH.... WAIT- IS- IS HE ACTUALLY GONNA ATTEMPT AT SOME POINT BUT SOMEONE STOPS HIM???? IS THAT WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN IN ANY OF THE FUTURE CHAPTERS??? IT'S GIVING EXTREME CS!ALAN VIBES HONESTLY OH GOSH- OH NO OH NO.... BOTH ATG DJ AND ALAN REALLY NEED HELP- YEP EVEN ALAN OBVIOUSLY-

AND YES I AGREE WITH THE NOTES- YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO IT DJ-

Let's yap about Chapter 10! Sorry for the delay but i have read this, just haven't responded hehe!!

DJ's father is such an asshole, the neglect, the fear he instilled on DJ and the insecurity that he gave to him is the leading cause to all of this. His so called friends when he was a child was such assholes as well, telling him to act "useful" to be called worthy of love is just-they knew DJ would believe them because he blindly trust everyone, thinking they would never do anything to him.

Satin knows too much about DJ yet DJ knows nothing about her.

Alan had visited DJ's house multiple times but DJ was too busy with the weapon, and honestly it's just..ughhh. It's sad xCCC. DJ and Alan were just so tightly knit when they were younger, and that habit still had not left DJ until now. And Alan is a bit touch reserved now since he had been alone for a few years now. DJ touching him had sent him into a fight or flight by accident.

We all know even as a child DJ had idealized suicide and we may never really know if he actually wants to do it, there are many times he contradicts himself by stating he is "scared" to die by "his own hands" therefore he searches for danger and hopes the danger will be the one to kill him. He loves to gamble (That sounds familiar *looks at Satin*)

They honestly do need help, both Alan and DJ are in dire need of help, but even those might not help if they don't resolve by talking to each other. - S

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The feeling I get from the new chapter is Oh↑ No↓😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

How was the feeling of doomed friendship? xDDD, I hope you are enjoying it!! :DD - S