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random throwback to fabio's response to casey saying he should've been black flagged for the whole open leathers situation
#'he is at home and he likes to fish' is truly superb#//#brr brr#heretic tag#current tag#i was reminded of this in a very roundabout way... seeing a social media graphic celebrating fabio making q2#which is like. yes that's nice. but that's also inherently extremely depressing lbr#and i was kinda thinking how... look obviously people don't ignore it and yes the novelty has worn off after last year#but it feels like what's happened to fabio should STILL be getting more attention than it is. like it is a major injustice#that also no past stars of the sport are regularly having hot takes about! they mostly just ignore him!#i do sometimes link casey and fabio in my head. roughly the same age gap to the all-time-great hazing them during their rookie seasons#the only riders within their manufacturers able to wring performance out of their bikes over the course of several seasons#who suffered a competitive decline as their manufacturers went the wrong way#now obviously casey's 2010 is nowhere close to as abysmal as fabio's 2024 but. y'know. and at least casey got to leave for pastures greener#anyway given all that. it is funny that like their one significant interaction is fabio dismissing casey as a fisher#which ironically is of course a deeply casey line. casey had a whole thing about how retired riders should maybe know to stfu#“i have seen the real face of some with whom i had a good relationship” EXTREMELY casey line#and thus the cycle of life continues#(though casey was obviously right here lol)#ofc the main difference between the pair of them is that fabio at heart is a lover and casey is. not that
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Veilguard vaguing:
It's not automatically a good thing, actually, that the game de-emphasizes or even outright removes racism against elves, and bigotry against other groups, from the story
#veilguard critical#completely declawing the sociopolitics of the story doesn't in any way make it a better story ugh#being of a certain race and even of a certain gender should mean something in the dragon age world and not all those things are good#and that's part of the challenge of the roleplay and part of the themes of the whole overarching story like#tevinter! is a location in this game!!#not to focus on just the elves but if we're not feeling the absolute depths and desperation of all the elves#not just the dailish#then there's no way to feel much complexity or conflict over - for example - what solas is trying to do and why he's so motivated#his character is boiled down to him being by himself and feeling conflicted over just his past actions#as if he didn't spend all of inquisition investigating yours and the companions' differing plights and worldviews#tbh though one of the biggest failings of inquisition is maybe possibly not highlighting the dailish and city elves enough#to help drive home this point - but veilguard is so clearly just kind of out here by itself with loredumping that goes completely#uninvestigated socially or politically that like... it doesn't matter much#like we just have to pretend that everyone is playing kumbaya now? with the elven god of rebellion real and running around?#that you can walk around anywhere in tevinter practically unbothered?#like bellara and davrin and every dailish elf in thedas aren't at all significantly moved by knowing their gods are just some guys?#i get more and more pissed at -good vibes- storytelling in all its mediums with every passing day#ISMtext
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It's my birthday, and I want nothing but Meliodas thoughts all today. So, what's your favorite Meli scene(s) and why??
#i say this as if i'm not currently on my way to spend the entire day in fucking stockholm. my social anxiety will have a field day 😭#help a birthday gal out will you 🥺 give me some good thoughts to come home to tonight#nanatsu no taizai#seven deadly sins#7 deadly sins#nnt#sds#7ds#meliodas#meliodas nnt#sds meliodas
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Getting emotional about the salmon run again…
#solarpunk#no but seriously the way the indigenous people light fires to welcome the salmon home#and then wait to harvest them till enough have passed by#and the bears eat the salmon and their bodies rot to feed the soil#and that grows new trees that nourish the indigenous people and transpire rain#that keeps the water cycle in motion and feeds the sea#like nooooo I can’t my heart#hopepunk#environmentalism#social justice#cottagepunk#community#optimism#bright future#climate justice#tidalpunk#ecosystem#salmon#bears#forests
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Just a bit of lore relevant vent art (with terrible proportions bc apparently I mess that up horribly when I'm tired ugh. Watch me regret posting this tomorrow. The head size is already driving me mad bc it's too big, and I can feel myself wanting to abort this mission already) of Mourynn just, lying down on top of one of those large elevated Pale Tree roots far above the Grove (and far away from everyone else), and during the time between the early years and before the Personal story. Caithe is gone (Destiny's Edge), Wynne is gone (bc well, y'know...), even Faolain is gone (bc of Caithe in DE), and she's just feeling miserable, lost, and alone. (Her hair is in between her sapling hair and the Zhaitan hair, so it's grown out a bit bc she's depressed, and she's meant to be in the new outfit she designed, but I'm in the process of redesigning it a bit, so I've made a few tentative changes for now. Her collar is now just an extension of her clavicle leaves which can be put up like a collar, or can be draped down over her shoulders or back)
#gw2#sylvari#artgallery#mourynn#mourynn art#I've just been so tired lately bc of work#also just going a bit stir crazy with the silence (lonely; but alas I unfortunately suck at starting convos bc I have nothing interesting t#talk about and work has been draining my social energy; making it even harder :( (I'd rather burn the social energy with friends yknow?)#it's getting a wee bit better; but I haven't had much time or energy to even game while we're in the midst of our busiest season :(#I miss hanging out and chatting with my buds; but the universe insists on keeping us apart :(#just miss having something to look forward to throughout my day. Been trying to fill it with other things; but the depresso is overriding i#Mostly just been me with my thoughts and that is just bad bc I got so many horrors in there lmao.#I wanna at the very least; draw more or game more to distract from it; but work is sapping all my time and energy from it.#but also it's very quiet on my end and it's kicking my overthinking into overdrive so I#Ive just been fighting with my mind lately lmao#hopefully this will all pass soon so I won't obsessively keep thinking about it loll#lol I'd post this in the servers but it's vent art so it feels a bit weird to do; so it's going straight to home video w/o a theater releas#hopefully once work calms down it'll help#(I have so many long shifts makes me so frustrated bc I hate them and I run out of steam half way through)#other than all that I'm doing fine lol. My brain's always been like this; But I usually only get like this during the winter season#(bc of the holidays making everything quiet and also the SAD) so it feels weird having this exact same feeling happen to me in July lol
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do u have blue sky
yes! i'm zeewa on bluesky 🫶
thank you for reminding me that i need to put my bluesky in my about me 💋✌️
#i'll be honest. an enormous part of the reason i'm still here at all is bc i've been on tumblr since i was 14 + twitter since i was 17#they are my baby artist first social media experiences... my history... all the trauma + loss of innocence + acceptance + funniness + life#i'm scared that i won't be able to fully dedicate to a new social media bc i'm so old + very set in my withdrawn solitary ways now#but i'll try. i won't let my life be work work work with no active place to share my art. my art is my demonstration of self. not my career#my art is the part of me that i care about. that i must nurture. i have a job so i can be financially stable TO come home + draw#(only 25-50% jokingly) STOP pouring yourself into your thankless job. and start pouring yourself into your ART + thank YOURSELF!!!!!!!!#workers of the world - unite. you have nothing to lose but your chains
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Headcanon that most demon royalty goes to some fancy private/finishing school. But that Stolas was homeschooled with a private tutor. It was one of the very very few requests his dad granted him and for years it was a tressure memory, one of the few times he /got to choose/ one of the few times his dad /listened/ to him. Only to realize when he enters society that it was another isolation tactic. That everybody had already spent years forming social alliances and building their reputations and social credit. And that there was no room for him to break into those circles, that he /did not know/ the proper unspoken social rules. That his wife has spent years building her clout and that he is once again. Alone.
#helluva boss#stolas goetia#stella goetia#Other demon royality#Listen I dont know anything about the world building in helluva boss or if they have any type of schools at all#I am basing this off of other dramas involving rich kids there's always a private school social credit is everything#And stolas has such perfect weird home school kid who does not know how to act around people because they've just never socialized ever#And I love the angst of dtolas's life being a compounding series of isolation and misreading situations only to realize#What was wrong way too late but still clinging to the good memory because that's all he has#And it pairs well with Stella being an excellent socialite#And the angst of stolas being like okay yay! Time to attend events i can do this i might even make friends!#Only to realize he /cant/ and forget friends or allies this means he has no one he can lean on to help with the abuse Stella deals out#Owl in a cage is a very telling song#Vassago once again in the corner vibrating because he'd love to be friends! He volunteers pleaseeee#Stolas gaining a reputation for being really fucking weird but really good at his job and for thinking he's too good to talk to anyone here#Because he never fucking talks to anyone#I imagine the first few years stolas was out in society were filled with just. So many painfully awkward conversations until he just#Stopped trying because what was the point
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this is an actual question- i know dnp were kids when the internet came out but back in the early days was internet safety not taught? yes i know dan graduated hs in 2009 but was that not standard curriculum (or at least a shitty assembly?) ik you didnt go through the british school system but im just curious (for reference i was in kindergarten in 2009) (also considering this is the piss on the poor site no i am not victim blaming him for creeps im just wondering)
absolutely not lmao there was zero awareness for internet safety especially for mine and dan's age group. we were old enough to be left alone on the family computer but too young to think critically about how we engage with strangers online and the concept of that specific brand of 00s social media was so foreign to most adults it wouldn't cross their minds to make a PSA (specifically sites like myspace where you'd display your real name, photos, and personal information and then ADD AS MANY STRANGERS AS YOU COULD TO YOUR FRIENDS LIST VIA WHORE TRAINS)
we just treated our online life like an extension of our real lives except you'd get to befriend people who were like you but nothing was necessarily off the table in a way that's common sense now (like posting your home and school and where you hung out etc). and of course no one could have predicted what internet fame would turn into
#anon ask#being 14 on myspace was like living in one of those social experiment kid cities#bc why was i giving my home address to strangers in 2006#why was i taking wildly inappropriate photos bc a british emo boy said he loved me despite us not being able to call each other#the way randos would make “vanity groups” and you'd have to submit your photos for judgement like what WAS THAT
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I know little of the Keepers and their cultural norms, but I suppose it should not come as a surprise that matters of grooming and personal maintenance should carry a more pragmatic connotation for those who live in such isolation - or perhaps our friend is simply strange, regardless of his context. I must admit: it was no small comfort to me, in those frigid days heralding the twilight of the Dragonsong War, to discover that our champion did not share our Sharlayan intuition toward personal space. Our more guarded companions don't always share my gratitude for the attention, but I believe that after our long estrangement, even the coldest of hearts could not fail to be warmed by such a gesture.
Wolcred Week 2024 Day 1: Warmth | Home
ok as mentioned in the tags i didnt have time to render a complete scene for this but i found this old mspaint sketch that demonstrates the Vibe. tyagoa just walked up behind him after cleaning up from their meal
#ffxiv#wolcred#wolcred week#wolcred week 2024#valerianart#caption is alphinaud journal entry#please imagine everyone is making camp and sitting down i simply did not have time to draw the wider context U_U#to be perfectly transparent i am doing the prompts kind of ass backwards and the degree of effort varies#but come sit with me and imagine#we can hold hands if you want#anyway tyagoa does a lot of Fussing post-vault#at the time it's really the only tell that things are. well. you know how things are.#i think little grieving alphie would soak that up like a sponge but it would come as quite the shock to the other returning scions#shtola probably had to set some polite but firm boundaries#but tyagoa would appreciate that#he likes knowing what his friends like#and vhasoa was frequently touch-averse so he doesnt take it as an insult or anything#anyway i think it's a combo of [gestures to heavensward] and the way that traveling through the wilderness with a small group feels like#well#like home to him#that kind of shortcuts through all the Eorzean Social Customs that he's learned to navigate#i hc his tribe as being very casually tactile with each other#to the extent that something like this doesn't even register as intimacy#not to him anyway LOL
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Born to be a polyamorous bisexual slut, forced to be a social recluse with an extreme fear of pregnancy, no experience with women, medium-ugly appearance, and crippling social anxiety
#i’ve actually done a lot to improve the social anxiety#but that doesn’t mean jack shit if i don’t have any social situations to get anxious about#‘just put yourself out there!’ out where exactly? i can’t go to a bar or club because the lyft home is $70 one way and my whole family goes#to bed at 9pm so they sure as shit can’t give me a ride either#and i’m not gonna meet anyone at school because i’m 24 and everyone else is either an 18 year old child or a 40 year old elder#and i can’t even turn to coworkers because i fucking doordash
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Do you ever just become overwhelmingly cognizant of the existence of evil in the world?
Like, not as a cute, devil-emoji 😈 i'm-so-naughty-i-steal-chocolate-cake-and-do-weird-sex-acts thing, nor still as a melodramatic, comic-bookish, high-absorptivity-black-fabric, soon-my-death-ray-will-destroy-Metropolis thing, but like.
Actual Evil, as a force that is real and immanent in the world.
Just pointless cruelty inflicted pointlessly by one human being upon another because they've forgotten how to be kind. Just entire systems and machinery of state and ideology brought to bear on the problem of annihilating human lives and maximizing human suffering so that small men can feel powerful. Just humans who have through trauma or conditioning or propaganda shut off their ability to see other humans as fundamentally like them.
Anyways, I joke on here a lot. I get angry on here a lot. They're both just scabs to hide my horror and my despair at the condition of humanity.
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#i've watched this entire genocide play out over social media; i've followed the news for decades beforehand#none of it ever really affected me in any way but outrage#but i watched just some of that 'bulldozer' video and it gave me the worst panic attack that i've had in years#like i had no idea that that well of despair was as deep as it turned out to be#what kind of people do that?#what kind of systems make people who do that?#do they go home afterwards? do they drink and laugh with their buddies?#do they look at themselves in the mirror every day for the rest of their lives?#do they ever feel even the smallest *particle* of sorrow? even the smallest quantum of disgust at what they've become?#do they have enough of a soul left to feel even the smallest corpuscle of guilt?
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i miss drawing so bad bro..
#life man...#things have been busy asf...#in a good way not complaining but i notice that when im busy and my social life increases that my art productivity decreases#been hanging out w friends irl A LOT and then come home and work on dissertation#and when i have free time i just rot#also im learning to crochet#no art ideas...head empty...#i miss my children..#i would say maybe ill have time over thanksgiving but i also have like 33 projects to work on so probably not#maybe over christmas break..
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Social Conditioned ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#¯\_(ツ)_/¯#this is 100% self-indulgent and nonsense so don't @ me about other cases.......#*mine: gif#in the end I agree with all the endings here but one....#but at the same time the list of shows going against the leads getting together is getting longer#I just pick the ones that I had the most feels/watched and enjoyed#so I argue that social conditioning is now the above for creators...thinking about The Bear and is Abbott going that way too#this gifset brought to you by that one guy doing an ama and that one day driving home which added more nonsense#Fleabag#Normal People#Schitt's Creek#Ted Lasso#Phoebe Waller-Bridge#Andrew Scott#Annie Murphy#Dustin Milligan#Paul Mescal#Daisy Edgar-Jones#Jason Sudeikis#Hannah Waddingham#I thought about trying to get the timing lined up on these but then I remember tumblr will miss that up so don't worry/try to do it#something something about hands in all of theses#I really should've done a multi-gif layout gifset where they all ended with the silver lining scene over them#I just don't have those skills and real don't have the time to do that kind of gifset
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i have to be the best dressed person standing in the corner of a party like this 🧍
#hmmmm do u know when u have like. Objective Personal Wins but it still feels embarassing#like i went to a party by myself where i knew nobody and i had conversations with four different people#and i had to navigate a stressful transit situation on the way there#and now im going home because i feel satisfied#like this is objectively a win but i still feel embarassed for not like. idk#u know how sometimes u walk into an environment and are like oh. OH. this is a difficult social environment#anyway i think i deserve to callthis a personal win#rome wasnt built in a day and etc#trb.txt#anyway i was rlly hot. not posting pics but i was hot
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really going insane in my plant class over the Sociale Dynamiques......vent below the cut
the class program coordinator is an ex-navy officer, lots of the parks and rec boys we're working with are vets, as is at least one prominent student in the class.....and most of the students are like. retiree age white women who own land and want to learn how to improve it. so it's a fairly conservative crowd, sprinkled with a handful of younger idealistic envirohippywhatever types.
but the class is like. "Fairly Progressive," in a seattle-area standard sort of way. everybody's asked for their pronouns regularly, there's like....clear expectations being set around accessibility, people are encouraged to take breaks and not take anything too seriously, lots of discussion about the history of colonial devastation on US environments, etc. we average two land acknowledgements a day.
and i know that none of that means anything, but it's still so disgustingly dissonant with the actual material goals. as repayment for the training, we're being asked to work on this project that is, like...40% developing hostile architecture in two prominent parks. and while we were out there the other day, the program coordinator (+ "friendly" tiny 75yo ecologist auditing the program to report to the supervisory org) called the cops on somebody for being too close to that area of the park while having two backpacks. with half the class actively laughing + making jokes about it the whole while through.
none of this is surprising or unusual, but the hypocrisy of it is really getting to me. the program coordinator did refer to the whole trespassing/eviction/citation/harassment process as "engaging a community member" and i'm really taken aback by like. how angry i am that this guy is pretending to be respectful of homeless people, even in a normalized/thoughtless way?
idk. obviously i'm not going to be engaging with the stated goals of preventing people from camping on public land - unless i can find a way to make the land more camp friendly - but i'm so livid about like. the way that this is playing out as a process. i'm also honestly just genuinely confused, like....how are these literal actual ecologists able to, with a straight face, blame the damage to local plants on homeless people trying to fucking sleep, and not like....the whole fucking process of urbanization that led to this point. like. girl. we're planting on an old airstrip, in the middle of a burgeoning urban core, that's downstream of what used to be a creosote factory.
but that's too big for you to get mad at, so you're just going to cave in and kick out the handful of people trying to find somewhere to be left the fuck alone? it's disgusting and terrifying to see people swerve around things, mentally, like this.
#i also just. frankly. still don't understand the vitriol people broadly have for unhoused folk. baffling to me.#classmate who drove me home was commenting on how “everybody's so nice!” and i was like...yeah....to. us.#which she did agree with#at least nominally#but then *she* is now like. accusing the One Black Person in class of sexually harassing her. because he brushed against her in passing.#in some ways dismayed by the idea that the social dynamics could be so much worse than this in similar spaces elsewhere#but also. maybe it would be less crazy-making if people were less disingenuous. idfk.
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it's sound weird, but i have headcanon that Hunter didn't go hexside, because he too old to shool(according to my feelings, at the end of the he is 16-17 y.o (except for the post-credits scene), and at that age it is already too late to go to school):p
i mean, well- in my opinion he rather certainly did go to hexside, since one of the things he'd said during his TTT monologue was "i'd like to attend hexside like a normal student and play flyer derby with my friends" and all of his "wishes" were supposed to sort of foreshadow his goals and his future (carving palismen, studying wild magic, etc etc) so i feel like it's safe to say he succeeded in becoming a hexside student as well. we also know he attended grom with the rest of his friend group, and like- since he's 16 before the timeskip (no canon certainty whether he's recently turned 16 or is going on 17 already though, but like... around 16 canonically) that means he'd get at least 1 year of school, but most likely 2+.
my personal headcanon is that he went to hexside for around 2 years (full or not quite, depending on when the school year starts in the boiling isles and how long it lasts; possibly even 3), and during that time he picked up a mentorship/apprenticeship at del's palisman carving shop, and after he graduated from hexside he started carving palismen professionally with the clawthornes (i like to think that he also takes some courses at eda's wild magic university in his spare time, simply cuz . funny uni hexsquad shenanigans)
#like imo him being like ''i dream abt going to hexside'' and then not getting to attend hexside cuz he's ''too old to start'' or sth#would be kinda cruel since he already lost sooo much of his childhood because of belos. and he wants to be a hexside student#he deserves to have these few years of the typical teenage experience that he so desperately longs for#ofc it's not gonna make up for ALLLL the years of childhood that he'd lost. but even 2 years of the experience? would mean So much to him#not to even mention that the idea of him just... sitting at home or JUST carving palismen or doing whatever for halfa day for the 2-4 years#just cuz he's ???? ''too old'' or it's ''too late for him to start high school at his age'' or anything similar ?#while the rest of his friends get to go to school and learn and socialize and attend classes everyday without him . sounds so lonely#and he had already spent most of his life sheltered and separated from everyone so . yeah.#he'd still technically have to finish hexside like 1-2 years before the rest of hexsquad buuuuut y'know. his situation is very unique#so i could also imagine bump/eda agreeing to let him go to school a year or so longer so that he could finish it alongside his friends#but that's like mm i also can see him finishing it a year early compared to the rest of hexsquad and starting fulltime at the palisman shop#but either way; yes to at least 1-2 years at hexside in my mind#now COLLEGE? i Could see him not going to uni since he's already got the palisman business going and is doing well and wants to chill#BUT personally i still like to imagine that he attends classes there part-time#nicole answers#my toh talk#hunter toh#verocorne
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