#AND WAS WORTH THE WAIT 🥺🤧

[killuaisaprincess]

HOLDS IN PALMS OF MY HAND

[taegularities]

…about cmi10 :')

[moonsnightowl]

I MISSED THOSE TWO LOVE BIRDS SO MUCH 😭❤️

Like I know it's inevitable but I can feel my heart breaking every time he mentions leaving..

Fuck... what did she just say???

WHAT DID HE JUST SAY???

"Why do you insist on asking silly questions such as that?" 🤣🤣❤️

"“At least I don’t feel a compulsion to make out with you,” she said in a gentle chuckle." I do though..

"You've really long fingers" 🤐

"He doesn't deserve to rest..." Well said, girl 👏🏻

"Penny smiled softly, though there was a hint of sadness in it. “If you took me with you, I’d feed you well every day.”" This is TOTALLY something I'd say.. ❤️😭

No I'm not crying. The antidote popped into my eyes 🤧

Chapter Sixteen: Chocolate

The time it took the chocolate to freeze seemed like a century, but it might’ve felt that way because Penny was still cross with him after their squabble. She stayed in her office the entire time. Sirius had begun working on an antidote for the chocolate, while he waited for the ice box to do its job, and tried to work out in his mind how he would sneak onto the Hogwarts Express without notice. The answer he arrived at was the easiest — he would need to be at King’s Cross before any students arrived and hide himself on the train as soon as it pulled in. The cart all the way at the back of the train was least likely to be occupied, and it wouldn’t be a long trek to the Forbidden Forest from there once they reached Scotland. He could’ve sworn he remembered a cave they’d found in their sixth year somewhere near the creek in the heart of the forest. With any luck, he could live there while he put his ultimate plan into motion.

Standing from the sofa, he walked to Penny’s study and leaned against the door frame. She was at her desk, drafting something on her box, the clicks of her fingers the only sound in the room. Sirius glanced at the photo of her and her friends that hung beside the bookshelf, wishing yet again that he had met her under different circumstances.

“The chocolate ought to be ready by now,” he said, looking back at her. “I thought I could hide it somewhere in the flat and let you try to find it, but I think it might be best if you weren’t here when I did. Just so we can be sure it does actually work.”

Her fingers still moved over the letters on her rectangle as she answered. “Okay, just a second.”

Sirius nodded, turning to go back to the sitting room but pausing and turning back toward her. “For the record, I do trust you. I just don’t think you realize what you’re getting yourself involved with. If the wrong person from my world found out that you’ve been helping me, it could quite literally up-end your life. I couldn't live with that.”

“Did it ever occur to you that maybe I just wanna do what I can to make sure you don’t go back to prison?” she asked gently. “Not just because you’re innocent, and not just because of your godson.” She looked at him over her shoulder. “I like you, idiot.”

Sirius snorted, lowering his eyes as his cheeks grew warm. It had been years since he had felt anything for someone else, and given the atmosphere in his world, it frightened him more than he cared to recognize. His heart fluttered in his chest, making his ears thrum along as he looked back at her. “I like you, too.”

Her lips twitched with a smile that she seemed to be trying to temper as she rolled her chair back and stood, walking up to him. “Then let me try to help you. I may not be able to do much to try to keep you from getting caught, but I can at least try to help you prove that you didn’t murder all those people.”

“Penny —”

“I know how to do things under the radar, and I think I may have a few ideas that no wizard would ever think of. Muggle ideas.”

Sighing to himself, Sirius nodded once. “Alright. But you must promise me that if there’s any chance of someone realizing what you’re doing, you’ll stop immediately.”

Smiling in satisfaction, she went back to her box and shut it off. “I promise. I’ll be careful.”

“And I’d like for you to read A Guide to Self-Protection with me so that you can properly shield your flat from anyone who gets too curious.”

“How am I supposed to use magic? I’m a muggle,” she replied.

“Yes,” Sirius said. “But your uncle is not. And since you plan on enlisting his help anyway, it’s logical to ask him to help you stay hidden.”

“That’s fair,” she replied.

“Alright,” Sirius repeated. “Now, off you go. I’m going to hide the chocolate while you’re out. Give me about five minutes and then come back.”

“Sure. By the way, nothing’s gonna happen if I eat the chocolate, right? I mean I won’t, like… sprout wings or something, right?”

“Why do you insist on asking silly questions such as that?” he asked with a light smirk. “No, you won’t grow wings. The worst that’ll happen if you eat it is that you’ll feel as though you’re in love for a few hours. Don’t worry, I’ve made an antidote for you.”

“Oh, okay,” she replied. “Okay, I’ll just… go for a walk, I guess.”

Nodding once, Sirius moved to the side to let her pass him, and waited until he heard the front door close before he went to the ice box, and got out the chocolate. He pulled out his wand and used it to break the chocolate into quarters, hiding each piece in a different spot. Going back into the sitting room, he sat on the sofa with the antidote in hand and tried to mentally prepare himself for the inevitable if the chocolate worked.

Rubbing a hand over his face, he sighed as the door opened again and Penny walked in, her eyes darting around the room.

“God, that smells good,” she mumbled under her breath before looking at Sirius on the sofa. “Now what?”

Snorting softly, Sirius bobbed his shoulders. “Just follow your sense of smell. Try to find where I’ve hidden it.”

Her nostrils flared as she took a deep inhale, her eyes closing as she turned toward the bookcase by the window. She stood in front of it for a moment, looking at each shelf before she raised up on her tiptoes to reach above it.

“That was easy,” she mumbled as she pulled down the piece of chocolate he had stashed up there.

He expected her to find that one straight away and continued to watch her closely as she popped the chocolate in her mouth. Her eyes widened as she slowed her chewing, looking up at him.

“Holy shit, this is the best chocolate I’ve ever had,” she said, swallowing once. “Seriously, you should totally think about being a chocolate maker.”

He smirked softly. “I suspect you may think that due to the magic inside it.”

“Would magic make it taste different?”

“To you it would,” he answered. “What are you feeling?”

“Hm, like I could eat ten pounds of this,” she groaned, her eyes closed as she savored the chocolate.

Sirius’ eyes were drawn to her throat as she swallowed once, twice before letting out a soft breath. Her eyes opened, lips parting as though to say something when her brows suddenly furrowed. She turned her head toward the hall, sniffing the air again.

“You know, I bet…” She walked towards the scent she had no doubt picked up. “I bet it tastes great even without the magic.”

“Perhaps I’ll make you another batch sometime,” he called out. “Without the magic. Then you could decide if you truly think it’s the best you’ve ever had.”

“You promise?” The door to the hall closet opened. “Oh!”

Sirius smiled to himself at the sounds of her chewing another piece of chocolate. “Certainly.”

“Ca yu ake it wi nufs?” she asked, still chewing her second piece as she came back to stand at the end of the hall.

“I beg your pardon?”

Taking a few moments to chew and swallow what was in her mouth, Penny asked again, “Can you make it with nuts?”

“Oh… sure,” Sirius replied.

“Why’d you —” She sniffed the air, turning her head as she sniffed again. And again as she went back down the hall. And one more time before opening the door to her bedroom. There was a brief lull of silence, then more chewing. “Why are there so many?!”

Sirius smiled to himself. “There aren’t that many, are there?”

Once again she emerged from the deeper parts of the flat, standing closer to the coffee table.

“I’ve found three so far,” she replied around another bite of chocolate.

“Do you make a habit of speaking with your mouth full?” he asked playfully.

Penny’s eyes narrowed, squinting slightly as she continued to chew the chocolate in her mouth. Swallowing, she let out a breath, swaying just a bit as she slowly blinked. A rosy flush was creeping up her neck, and Penny used one hand to fan herself before she pulled off her jumper, tossing it toward the sofa.

Noting the small, circular shapes against the front of her shirt, Sirius lowered his eyes. “Alright, Penny?”

“Yeah,” she replied breathily, her blinks still slow. “I think it’s —” Her nostrils flared as she inhaled deeply again, exhaling with a soft moan.

The sound made prickles bloom along the length of his arms. Sirius closed his eyes in an effort to chase away the images forming in his mind of her bare skin pressed against his, his hands following the curve of her spine. Pushing his fingers through his hair, he tightened his fists around a few curls, using the sting in his scalp to distract himself from her more potent scent, lingering beneath his nose even as she turned back toward the hallway.

The scent of the final piece he’d hidden enticed her back down the hall toward her study. It took a bit longer than the other three — he had made sure to hide the final piece beneath quite a few layers, just to be certain of the tweaked spell’s strength. If she could find that final piece, he could easily lure Wormtail into the hidden passage at the base of the Whomping Willow.

Standing from the sofa, Sirius made his way down the hall and stood in the doorway of her study. Penny was sitting on the floor, chewing with her eyes closed with her hands balled into fists on either side of her. A gentle hum blew through her nose, her body becoming like liquid as she laid down on the floor. The rosy hue that had spread from her neck now painted her cheeks, a light sheen of sweat covering her face.

“Alright?” he asked, watching her closely.

“Mhm.”

Sirius’ tongue darted out to swipe over his bottom lip as he turned his head away. “Seems it works then, yeah?”

Softly humming, Penny swallowed the final bit of chocolate and let out a contented sigh.

“Yes, it works,” she said, her eyes still closed as her chest steadily rose and fell with each of her breaths. “It’s not as strong as when I smelled it.”

“It isn’t so concentrated.”

A barely audible hum was her only response as she opened her eyes and rolled her head to one side, looking up at him. “Will you come lay with me?”

Sirius remained perfectly still for a moment before taking a few steps toward her, the hammering of his heart rippling down his arms. Her scent was thicker, more sweet than it had been before as he sat on his heels beside her, and he wasn’t sure he would be able to resist the urge to press his nose against her hair to take it in. Biting his bottom lip, he held the antidote out to her.

“Here, take this. It’ll counteract the chocolate.”

She shook her head. “You should know how much time this whole chocolate plan will give you to expose him. Just lay with me for a minute.”

Deep down he knew she was right, and nodded once, moving to sit down before he set the antidote down beside him. Slowly, he shifted his bottom toward his feet and laid on his back beside her, staring up at the ceiling. If he stayed completely still, he could ignore the little voice in the back of his mind telling him how good it might feel to snuggle up to her. Instead he focused on the voice reminding him that she was under the influence of a spell that was derived from Amortentia, and therefore would likely cause some of the same symptoms. To take advantage of that would be unethical at best.

“At least I don’t feel a compulsion to make out with you,” she said in a gentle chuckle.

He snorted subconsciously, some of the tension in his shoulders easing. “To be honest, that is both a shame and a relief.”

Penny laughed breathily, one hand coming up to wipe at her forehead.

“Shall we watch another muggle film later?” he asked, trying to distract her from the symptoms as best he could.

“Sure,” she replied. “Let’s just order in tonight. I don’t feel like cooking.”

“Brilliant,” he mumbled, keeping his eyes on the ceiling when he felt her fingers tangle with his, sending a spark of electricity through him. Glancing at her from the corner of his eyes, Sirius fought the urge to curl his fingers around hers.

“There’s a Greek place down the street that has the best grilled octopus I think I’ve ever had.”

Swallowing thickly, he took a few deep, silent breaths before replying, “I don’t believe I’ve ever had Greek food. Grilled octopus you say?”

“Mhm,” she replied. “I can get you the menu in a minute. Can we just stay here for a second?”

Nodding, Sirius turned his head to look at her. “For as long as you like.”

From how the chocolate was affecting Penny, it seemed Wormtail might not be much trouble after all. It seemed too easy, and experience told Sirius that nothing was ever easy. The easier you thought something to be, the more devastating it was when or if something went wrong. Still, it was a small sliver of hope that perhaps, just this once, things would go his way.

Penny brought their hands up, seeming to examine his fingers and the tattoos that were etched on his knuckles.

“You have really long fingers,” she said, her own fingertips tracing the length of his. “Did you ever play the piano?”

One corner of his lips curled slightly as his mind filled with memories of him and Regulus sitting at the piano in the sitting room at Grimmauld Place, playing the Black family lullaby until their mother would call them for tea. It was one of the few memories of his youth before Hogwarts that didn’t make Sirius want to curl in on himself. Of course, Walburga had never seemed to want Sirius to have anything good, and playing the piano with his little brother eventually had been taken from him, along with anything else that brought him joy.

“I used to play a bit when I was very young,” he answered.

“You have the fingers for it.”

“Thank you.”

“Mhm,” she hummed. “How long does this stuff usually last?”

“Normally, up to twenty-four hours.”

For a moment, she was silent, but it didn’t last long. “Yeah, I’m not doing that.”

Penny propped herself up on an elbow and reached over him with her free hand to take the vial with the antidote. She tipped it back against her lips, swallowing it in one gulp before she handed the vial back. Almost immediately she was more alert, sitting up beside him as the pink in her cheeks slowly began to fade. A light sheen formed on her forehead and neck, her breaths heavy as though she had just run a mile.

“He’s gonna wanna cuddle you if you feed him that much chocolate,” she said, shifting to turn slightly toward him.

“Good,” he replied, sitting up beside her. He made no effort to pull his hand out of hers, instead curling his fingers slightly around hers. “The more pliant he is, the better.”

“What are you gonna do once you have him?” she asked.

Sirius glanced at her, silently wondering how she would react if she knew that what he wanted most was to take from Wormtail what he had taken from James and Lily. Something told him she wouldn’t be very fond of that plan, but Sirius could think of no better justice. Still, the last thing he wanted was to frighten Penny by telling her that he was fully intending to kill the man who had murdered his best friend.

“I’m not sure yet,” he replied.

Staring back at him, Penny tilted her head as though she could see right through his facade. “Don’t lie to me.”

Sirius lowered his eyes, grazing his thumb over a small scar on the back of her hand. “Perhaps it’s better if you don’t know.”

“Sirius…”

“Penny, don’t. You don’t understand, you weren’t there —”

“Then help me understand,” she said, pulling his hand onto her lap.

“Wormtail didn’t just betray us, he handed two people who had never been anything but good to him over to the man who wanted them dead. He made Harry an orphan. He deserves to pay for that.”

“So you’re gonna kill him,” she surmised.

“It’s what he deserves.”

“No, he doesn’t,” she replied. “He doesn’t deserve to rest after what he did to Harry… and Lily, and James. And you.”

His gaze came back up to hers.

“He doesn’t deserve the easy way out. And you don’t deserve to live with the burden of having murdered someone. Think of Harry; who does he have if you get put back in prison?”

Sirius bit his lip to keep himself from saying out loud that Harry deserved far better than anything he could offer. Whether it was that he was too jaded, first from having been in a war and then locked away in Azkaban, or the guilt he felt over a decision that led James and Lily to their death, Sirius didn’t feel worthy of being in Harry’s life.

“They’re likely to throw me back into Azkaban regardless of whether or not I’m innocent,” he replied.

“You don’t know that,” she argued. “And if you kill someone then you have nothing to bargain with.”

The corner of his lips curled upward, though there was no mirth in the gesture. “You’re far more optimistic than I am, darling.”

“No, I’m just apparently more strategic than you are,” she replied with a smirk.

“Oh, is that right?” he asked, mirroring her smile.

“Yeah, it is,” she answered. “There is a path where you can clear your name and not have to run anymore, we just have to find it.”

His smile widened as he arched a brow. “We?”

“Yes. We.”

“Right. What are we going to do then?” he asked, glancing down at where their fingers were still tangled.

“That’s what we need to figure out,” she answered. “We have the rest of the week to come up with something.”

He could see there was little he could say to deter her from becoming too involved. And if he were being honest, it felt good to have someone on his side, especially in the face of being regarded as a murderer by his own community. His fingers subconsciously tightened around hers as his chest filled with warmth. Licking his lips, he lowered his eyes and nodded once.

“Right now, though, I’m hungry,” she said, earning a snort from him. “Aren't you?”

“Yes, actually. Suppose I should cherish the days I have left where I can eat a hot meal.”

Penny smiled softly, though there was a hint of sadness in it. “If you took me with you, I’d feed you well every day.”

Smiling back, his free hand came up to lightly pinch her chin. “I don’t doubt that, but I’m afraid that’s not possible.”

“I know,” she replied, one of her shoulders bobbing lightly. “But it’s nice to think about.”

His eyes lowered to her lips as the impulse to kiss her moved through him like an avalanche barrelling down a mountain side. But if he did that, he might not ever want to leave her side, and that interfered with his duty of keeping Harry safe. Still, her lips looked so inviting, the thought of tasting them so tempting that he had to force himself to avert his eyes. With the last of his control, he stood, pulling her up by the hand he still held in his.

“Let’s make the most of the time we have left then,” he said. “So, in keeping with our tradition, which muggle film shall we watch tonight?”

Another sad smile pulled at her lips. “Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory seems like the right answer,” she said, her eyes down at their joined hands. “But I don't have that one, so Back to the Future it is.”

One side of his lips curled upward as he subconsciously stroked her knuckles with his thumb. “Sounds perfect.”

[marmarisgroovy]

So I read Coattails by @pain-in-the-butler and HNNNG I LOVED IT. I read a chapter a night this past month and it easily became my favourite part of the day, I couldn’t wait to read more…alas, I have finished for now, but I so wanted to draw something for it because wow.

In the fic, Ciel and Sebastian have these “nightly meetings” and it was so cute, I had to draw it 🥺💕

Below are some alternate versions, this took me ages 🤧 but it was so worth it, I love these guys

Definitely keep an eye out for more Black Butler sketches :3 back on my bs after being dormant haha

[angieloveshua]

“My five starts danmei novels.” Short, well, you do know, not short reasons why I like them.

🎋 —C Language Cultivation.

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Programming? Cultivation? A pretty man with long hair? Fucking swipe my card— wait, I don't own a card... Anyways, you get my point!

This novel, C Language Cultivation, had all the possible elements to make it into the top of my favourite novels. Did it achieve it? Well, fellas, it is in the post for something!

Believe me, for a moment, I was crazy enough to think that studying Computer Science because of this book was a good idea of a degree (it is, but Angie is a literature girl), so Imagine how good it is.

If you're done with slow burn (I'm never done with slow burn, but there are times when I appreciate a couple who gets straight to the point), read C Language Cultivation! Dong Jun and Lin Xun had THEE tension going on from the moment they've met, and I was screaming with every single interaction.

I believe this novel had one of the best plot twists I've read in my entire life (and I've been reading since I was 10, guys, 10 years old!). I was literally staring into the wall, trying to process what I've just read. I still can't believe how it fucking played with me.

Alas, Dong Jun and I share birthdays! Do you need another reason to start reading it, like, mmm, NOW?

🎋 —Beyond The Outline.

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Grab yourself to something because this is the second, THE SECOND novel with almost no angst (there are sad moments, but it's mostly cute) that I ranked as a five starts book. The author? Obviously, Mu Gua Huang.

You see, guys, Mu Gua Huang makes me love happiness and to be quite addicted to it. Once I started this novel, I would keep reading it until 5 a.m., and it was worth it!

Beyond The Outline has a precious message behind the hilarious and mysterious situation where two high school students, completely opposite from each other, switch bodies after being hit by lightning. I was this emoji 🥺 all the time.

I love this couple. Shao Zhan 🤧, look, I don't mean to spoil you, but he does something that I was like, “No man will do this for me never. He's the last romantic.” He's the best boy and the best boyfriend. If someone hates him, they seriously need some help.

🎋 —Alpha Predator.

No carrd, unfortunately.

Some of you may say, “Angie, didn't you review this novel before?” And I will do it again.

Alpha Predator is the last novel of the 188男团 (if you don't know, basically, the gongs are all 188 and scummy) and the best I've read from Suida. This book basically fell from the sky for me. I was on a reading block (is that the right term in English?) and needed something that made me retake my usual reading rhythm. May I aggregate that this has been the best novel I read in 2023 by so far? It is.

As the title suggests, Alpha Predator is an ABO world where rank plays an important role in society. The ML and scummy gong (mi bebé solo estaba jugando) is an S class Alpha, which means he is the one on top of the pyramid. I love Qu Moyu, and I am willing to defend him with my life. I accept that I tweeted that he was a stupid Alpha, but we all make mistakes, hahaha.

I love QuShen. 💜 They are my favourite 188 couple, and the best, in my not so humble opinion. They admire each other, and they come to love each other despite all the misunderstandings, and that makes me 🤧.

If you like scummy gongs and trust my taste, give it a try!

🎋 —Po Yun.

carrd.

What do we have here? My last reading, the best crime book, and the novel that made me couldn't look my chemistry teacher straight in the eye! The last point is kind of a long story that I'll tell you some other day.

Anyways, who are these sexy gentlemen? I'll introduce you to Yan Xie and Jiang Ting, the protagonists and couple of Po Yun!

I have great memories of reading this novel. I remember sending voice messages to one of my friends about this book: “Girl, you wouldn't believe what just happened...” Dalia and I agree that this is an amazing book.

I also found it quite realistic in the aspect of how much can drugs fuck up someone's life. I won't elaborate on this because it's spoiler, but you will piece a lot of things once you know about a certain character past.

As for the romance, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, WHY THE FUCK I WASN'T IN THAT WEDDING. I WOULD HAVE CRIED WHILE DRINKING EXPENSIVE WINE (I don't even like wine). They're HOT and they LOVE each other.

🎋 —First-Class Lawyer.

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Look, maybe I wouldn't have dropped out of law school if it were as entertaining as this novel, but it wasn't in my case. Putting that new fun fact about me aside, welcome to First-Class Lawyer by Mu Su Li.

This novel is set in a futuristic environment, so Yan Suizhi and Gu Yan are not just lawyers but interstellar lawyers. Amazing, isn't it? The mystery involves the other planets, so you'll see them space-travelling to find out the truth. And if that didn't sell you, Yan Suizhi is “dead.” Yup, our main character was awakened from death and put in another body in the first chapter. As the critics (me) say, “You know the book is good when the author kills the protagonist in the first page.”

The couple, aw. Imagine having someone you could tell anything, it doesn't matter how insignificant it is, and that they listen to you and that they love you so much —that's Gu Yan and Yan Suizhi. They're also teacher × student, from those who like that kind of dynamic!

As I told you in the beginning, this is written by Mu Su Li, author of QQGK, which means it is freaking good!

Some of you may be wondering, “Where the fuck is BAB?” I'M WAITING FOR OFFICIAL ART. 😭 HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO ART BAIT YOU IF THERE IS NO OFFICIAL ART???? /cries in it's my favourite book and it doesn't have art even though it was signed to a lot of publications

[coughs] I hope you like this pt. 4 of Angie recs! I don't know when I'll post the next, but this is my humble effort of making you read these amazing novels!

[sincosma]

hello! ive been a fan of your shink work for a long time and i was wondering if you were going to continue sanctuary? im really sorry to bother you like this but i will patiently wait forever

thank you for this lovely message, anon! I’m so glad you’ve enjoyed my shink work 🥺 you’re not bothering me AT ALL!!!

Sanctuary is a project I’ve really struggled to get back into. But I have a list of projects I want to finish and Sanctuary is at the top of it. I’ve written a little bit more since the last update, but not a full chapter’s worth.

Honestly, I think I’ve been feeling a bit uninspired because it seems the ship is mostly dead. In fact, when I’m in the “shink” or “link/sheik” tags these days on tumblr or ao3, I’ve been noticing it’s actually just zelink in disguise.

So I guess it’s been hard for me to get back into writing a male sheik/link AU piece because it feels like everyone has moved on. I get really inspired by seeing other creators making stuff for the ship so it’s been kinda hard to ignite that spark since.

This message does help a bit with that spark, so thank you! 🤧 And if the male!sheik community is still out there and has simply moved to a different place that I’m unaware of because I’m an old fart, please let me know! I miss seeing and reading the amazing shink content that seemed more prevalent in like 2014-2016ish. That rarepair life is tough 😮‍💨

[angelicyoongie]

Chapter 10 was really worth the wait!! You wrote those parts really well that depict her revulsion versus naturally seeking comfort in them (where she snuggled into Jin's neck)

I expected a lot of harshness from the boys but they were surprisingly tame or maybe tame as per my standards because all I read is really dark romance with no concept of boundaries 😭 the spanking scene, so they're all feeling the phantom sensation of being spanked? They felt her blacking out too?

Jimin being mean and scoffing as his natural response is never gonna get old! I love how you've maintained diversity in personality for all of them.

Great chapter ❣️ it was worth the wait!! Take care maggie❣️

Thank you so much!! 🥺💖

I don't want this story to be non-con, so that's why things are perhaps a little tamer than what you'd expect from someone who is as delulu as they are. I need the MC to somewhat like them before any smut happens so that's why I'm keeping them pretty vanilla in order to move the story forward 😬 They all felt the MC being spanked, but not her blacking out/disassociating!

Tyy 🤧 It's not always easy, not when you have seven equally important characters to keep track of, but I'm trying my best!

You too friend 💖💖

[taexual]

had to postpone my plans just so I could read the new chapter and DAMN was it worth it!!! I couldn't stop smiling the whole ch goddd i want what they have!!!!

this part here, for example, i seriously had to lock my phone and take a deep breath like???? the bees were inside me apparently lol

they ARE meant for each fr frr I will personally fight anyone who gets in their way (((( u hear me Isidore???)))))

and then there's this????? he WAS smiling and so was i?????!!!!!!! i literally can't omg that's too much for my poor heart :(((((

ugh you're just soooo good, I can't wait for the next parts! This one made me reeeeally happy, thank you so much for your hard work 🤧💘

ahhh babe 😭 thank you so much for trusting me enough to postpone your plans for this 🥺🥺 also, not the bees inside you as well that's so cute pleASE 😭😭 sid shall crumble!!!

thank you so much for reading and for feeling all this!! knowing that these parts made you smile literally made my whole day, i love you so much 🥺🤍🤍🤍🤍

i hope you catch up with your plans and have a good day, love!!!! 🤍🤍

[celestie0]

HIIEEE ELLIEE!!

how are you? holy shit, i just got done with reading chapter 9 and it was so worth the wait that i will start crying. i am genuinely so proud of you for writing it, i have reblogged and everything with my reactions and opinions and thoughts and whatever, but i still wanna send this to you to let you know that you’ve done a great, great job with this chapter. like nothing has ever felt mire justified and satisfying.

you’re a brilliant writer and i’m proud of you.

thank you so, so, so much for sharing this story with us!!!!

🫶🏻💌

HIIII BB <33 IM DOIN OKAY HOW R U

😭💕 thank u sm omg i read your reblog analysis and i was squealing my ass offfff HOW ARE U SO POETIC N EMOTIONALLY COGNIZANT N INTROSPECTIVE N FUNNY AT THE SAME TIME ugh i have soooo many thoughts ab what you’ve said but i’m just looking for some quality time to reblog ur comments w a response but i promise i’m going to very soon ugh u got me out here pondering n shit 🤧 i appreciate u sm

it’s my pleasure to share the story w everyone and i love u sm dear m00tie 🥺💕 im rooting for u sm n i’m so proud of u too

[killuaisaprincess]

Q POSKET KI FINALLY 

[parcequecestnotreprojeeeet]

Hi, it’s me, Fanfic Anon #2. Since I did one for Mother’s Day this year, it’s only fair I also do one for Father’s Day this Sunday. (I’m submitting early so I don’t forget lol) Hope everyone enjoys!

"Laurence said that she put a card in the mail for you today that you cannot open until Sunday," Brigitte said over dinner one seemingly random Monday night.

"Okay?" He started, confused. "But it’s June. It’s not my birthday."

"Oh, she knows," Brigitte smiled knowingly in response.

"Wait! You know what this is!" He accused.

"She swore me to secrecy," she demurred in response, the delicious secret dancing in her eyes.

"But -"

"You’ll find out soon enough, chéri. Trust me, it’ll be worth it."

That Sunday morning, as soon as he woke up, he rolled over to grab the letter off the table next to him, so eager to open the envelope he didn’t even check to make sure Brigitte was awake before doing so.

He gasped when he pulled the card out and read the cover: Happy Father’s Day the Papi crossed out and replaced by a handwritten Daddy. Inside he opened the card to see in (clearly Laurence’s handwriting) a small note - Happy Father’s Day to the best Daddy ever! Love, Emma "signed" by what was clearly her little handprint.

A Father’s Day card. He got a Father’s Day card from his beautiful little granddaughter. He was so moved he could barely see past the tears the sentiment brought to his eyes, missing the way Brigitte was now wide awake and smiling at him, tears of her own in her eyes.

"Happy Father’s Day, Daddy," Brigitte wished him with her watery smile.

"They signed it with her little handprint, Brigitte," he showed her, the all-encompassing awe clear in his voice. "Look!" He marveled.

"She loves her grandpa. She couldn’t miss celebrating your first Father’s Day as a grandpa," she smiled, wrapping her arms around his torso as she moved closer to him, pressing a kiss to his cheek.

——————

"Now, Laurence said she put three letters in the mail -"

"That I can’t open until Sunday," he completed with a smile, the drill down pat after 16 years. "I know."

She smiled at him across the dining table, grabbing and squeezing his hand in hers gently. "Don’t get too cocky, you don’t know everything. There’s a surprise this year for you."

"But -"

"You’ll find out soon enough, chéri. Trust me, it’ll be worth it," she winked, referencing that conversation so many years ago.

Helloo fanfic anon #2! ❤️

So adorable that he gets letters from the grandkids on Father’s Day! “Happy Father’s Day to the best Daddy” omg no but you just want to kill me 🥺🫠😍 And him being all emotional with Emma’s little handprint 🤧🥰

Wait! Come back! Hahaha what is the surprise??

Thank you so much, fanfic anon #2! ❤️❤️❤️

[lavender-femme]

hey, I’m not sure what you’re going through right now but 1. I hope you get answers and 2. please take care of yourself, whatever that may look like for you. whether that is picking up a treat, making a warm drink for yourself, enjoying a soothing bath or shower, or something completely different, I hope you can do something to help yourself calm down. I’m so sorry and I hope things get better soon 🧡

Hi 🥺 thank you 🥺🥺🥺 I’m waiting on some serious medical test results and dealing with possibly being screwed out of a months worth of income (that’s the tl;dr version) and it’s just making me go crazy because I should have answers about both by now but I don’t have answers for either.

But this means so so so much to me 😭🤧 it’s just been such a long and exhausting day and my brain needs to stop going a million miles per hour 😔 I’m trying to watch a comfort show and just relax but it’s leaving a lot of open brain space which is hard for me… anyway ty I’m trying to take care of myself a little bit, as much as I can anyway.

🥺💕💕💕

[taegularities]

LOL I JS SEEN THE CMI UPDATE, this is like an early christmas present fr. 25K+?!?!?! god u don’t understand how much i luv u LMFAO. i can’t waittttt 😋😋

wait, YOU'RE RIGHT LOL. it could be an early christmas present fr!!! 🥺 and yes, 25k+ for sure, like we're missing the smut and pieces of a few scenes and are already at 18-19k-ish. manifesting that it's worth the wait and y'all like it!!!! 🤧 <3333

[btscontentenjoyer]

I’m pretty sure we skipped last week and it’s unacceptable so I’m here to bother you!

Firstly, it’s finally getting cold here so winter is coming 🤧 but I could finally take out my fave sweaters and jackets so it’s good (I love them)! I traveled a lot last week but I could meet some friends that I haven’t seen in long time so it was worth it 🥰 also I got new rug for my bedroom and it’s so beautiful I have to say it to everyone that will listen 🫣

Anyway! How are you? Studies are not too hard I hope!

Secondly, about your trademark! I totally associate you with pink 💕 especially cute pastel Jungkook (so basically entire boy with luv)! Other than that when I think of you I think of kindness and tons of support so 🫂 ily 💕

I think we did skip last week, which just shows how irregular I've been on here if I'm missing doing my favourite thing (talking to you at the end of the week)

I'm not a huge fan of winter but I have to agree with you that I love getting to wear my cozy sweaters, so it makes me feel better about the fact that it's so cold. And catching up with friends is definitely worth travelling a lot for, I'm happy you got to do that. And I'm happy about your rug too, I'm sure it's super pretty!

And as for me, I'm good, studies are going okay, but I think it's telling that the best part of my week was when I skipped classes lol. I went to an art gallery with my friends (and my crush) and had the best time walking around and taking everything in. I'm pretty sure it will be the highlight of my month, that's how much I enjoyed it. Also I might have told you this before but every time something really good happens in my week, I always think "I can't wait to tell Julia later" 🥺

Also the trademark??? Pastel pink (Jungkook) is soooo pretty, I'm flattered. I didn't use to like pink that much, but something about how soft and pretty it is has been speaking to my soul a lot recently. And I will be giving out kindness and support forever if I can 💕💕

I hope you have a lovely week Julia and I already can't wait to hear about it 💞💞💞

[wintaerbaer]

Hihihi😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I've just binged all the chapters for the things we don't say and I am A MESS

My heart is in SHAMBLES

And I'm dying over the slowburn angst (whilst loving every single moment of it) and just KAKSKSKJFKSKGDKGJDKGKSKGLSLGKKG

That. That's how I've felt every single chapter. Over every single subtle but meaningful AND DEFINITELY INTENTIONAL wording of how the relationship between MC and Tae is described (I'M SEEING THEM ALL👀👀🥺🥺) AND JUST MY HEART H U R T S

It hurts for MC

But it WEEPS BLOOD for Tae and for how he's feeling seeing the person he loves most in the world hurt so so MUCH, how the memory of her crying in the bathroom H A U N T S him and he never wants to see it again but its BRANDED into his mind at the same time

The P A I N is ���️agony✨️ and the angst just makes me feel ALL OVER THE PLACE

I think I've never (AND FOR A VERY LONG TIME) read such a well developed and extremely well written slowburn angst (ESPECIALLY WITH THE SILENT YEARNING 🥺😭) and I genuinely can't remember the last time I'd felt so many feeels, all at once until even in those small FEW MINUTE breaks I took in between the chapters had me JAKDJSKSJ and far too panicked and eager and wanting to read read read and MY HEART FEELS SORE AND BRUISED AND BROKEN

But for every chapter to come, for each drabble (and whilst I yearn and wait for them... your other works too) I'll be supporting and cheering your work on!!

Thank you for writing and sharing

My broken bleeding heart is yours to hurt for the rest of this story 🤧

(Could I please be added to the taglist for the story🥺?)

i don't even know where to start with this 😭😭😭

i must've sat here reading this twenty times through, fluctuating between wanting to cry and twirling my hair, kicking my feet 🥺 writing is a pain. it can be incredibly frustrating and drives me absolutely crazy (and it has lately). but this here makes it so, so worth it! and like GAH i just keep rereading what you wrote because it makes me so happy! especially because i so often find myself doubting the pacing of the story and the characters' feelings (it can be tough to gauge when i spend so much time sitting in it and bouncing all over the place), so this is truly wonderful to read.

i am very sorry to make your heart bleed (but i think it also means i'm doing something right? lol)! but hopefully we will be able to put you back together by the end like tae does for oc <3 thank you so so so so so so so so much for this. i'm going to be reading it over and over for days <3333 (and i've added you to the taglist!)

[minniepetals]

Ahhhhhhh this is long long overdue but you know when you want to cherish and savour something so you hold onto it? That is ALWAYS me whenever I see a chapter update and CMAR is the ANGSTIEST angst that continues to rip me apart more and more with every chapter, every word, every painstaking moment when the guys STILL DON'T KNOW. And only now...NOW Namjoon's realised that for over a DECADE everything they thought they knew, everything they assumed, every thing he and the rest of them inadverently caused by sending her BACK to the monster who abused and broke her....they don't even KNOW yet and I can FEEL the tension, my heart's thrumming MAD with the anticipation because as broken and bruised as CMAR makes me... I willingly surrender my heart to all the damage all over again. I can't wait to see how it'll pan out (and I know your writing is on pause which makes the wait all the more achingly ANGSTY and I'll wait forever for your art so 😖😖🤧 no rush EVER I hope you always know that despite everything because people who cherish your art and your writing and just YOU are such an amazing person...then they'll wait!)

And reading this chapter...like EVERY chapter makes my heart crumble but like I said I've entrusted the broken shards of my heart to you to do with as you will.

Reading this particular chapter and the aching scene with Mister Butler and her 🥺🥺 gave the title of this story a whole new meaning for me. Because Mister Butler would've ALLOWED her to cry a river's worth of grief and tears, held her through it and told her he loved her on the other end of it. Every chapter builds such emotional raw DEPTH but it really and truly struck me so deeply that he could've said those words to her.

"Cry me a river young miss. I'll love you anyways" something like that and just KNOWING him... how much he ached to protect her, how much he loved her... It just really and truly hit HARD 😭😭😭

Thank you so so much for writing and sharing and for always gifting us with your talent. I hope your comission works go well🥺💜 and always known we'll wait...I will wait FOREVER for this story and your writing.

Hope you're having a warm winter 🥺💜

bub!!! 😭😭😭😭 i always love it when you go in depth and tell me all the things you're thinking of when reading cmar bruh it gives me serotonin.

our y/n is struggling so hard. her chanting those false words of being mister butler's killer not only made namjoon go crazy but it made her go mad as well because for the longest time, her father gaslighted her into believing she was the killer and her saying those words to namjoon was like giving herself the punishment of not being able to save him because she regrets so much of what happened and she does feel guilty for being that person that held him back and made a little brother lose a big brother (because y/n knows to some extent of namjoon's own pain since he shared that part of himself with her in the past). it's honestly just really heart wrenching and i just want her to get closure already but that won't happen anytime soon 😭

also like i need some recs on some good groveling because i need the boys to GROVEL after abandoning y/n like that i literally searched up how to write good groveling but google stinks i need actual examples in books lmao.

cmar's on hold but my plans for it...next chapter's already made me cry