#pride month with heidi ♡

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every time I think about #HER, maula mere maula starts playing in my head…..

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could you just imagine jab we met…but SAPPHIC??????? 🥺 butch gf aditya x femme gf geet? 🥺

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i am EXTREMELY EXCITED out of my goddamn mind to complete this crossdresser sub!jay drabble.

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vancouver is honestly SUUUUCCCHHH a bi panic city for me. hot men and hot women everywhere 🥵😮‍💨 i gotta come up here more often 👀 ����🏼

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saying jooshica makes kpop makeup tutorials is an understatement. her videos are so much more than that. they’re actually “how to trigger my bi panic tutorials”

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itzy pcd.

i meant to post this last week but I’ve been SUUUPER busy and tired lately😪🤧

gosh. what an amazing concert it was! i’m so glad I finally got the chance to see itzy live. I’ve been wanting to see em for a loooong long time now. I got so teary eyed when they played the fan project video commemorating their 5 year anniversary. as someone who casually admired chaeryeong since sixteen and ryujin since mix nine, it makes me so proud to see how far they’ve come since then. goodness. time really flies. it feels like yesterday when they debuted….. im actually quite emotional thinking about it. god I feel so old…I can’t believe it’s been NINE YEARS since sixteen🥴🤢

there were also several lia clips that popped up during the 5th anniversary fan project video and the audience cheered every time a clip of her was shown. that made my heart real soft. I hope she’s doing okay and I certainly hope she is aware of all the love and unwavering support for her even in her absence. 🥹💗

chaeryeong got so shy when everyone wished her a happy birthday. and her reaction was soooo freaking adorable 🥺 I wanted to run up to the stage and give her a hug AAAA OMG!!! I love chaereyeongie so much and I’m so proud of how far she’s come since sixteen. 🤧 it feels like I not only watched her grow but also grew up with her???? like I’m not even chae biased but I hold such a soft spot for her in my heart cuz of sixteen. I had to hold back my tears cuz I was getting so emotional when they wished her a happy birthday……..

the concert was fucking amazing. the seat next to me was empty which meant extra room for me to dance 😊🫰🏼I literally had THEE time of my life. I went fucking MENTAL when they performed kidding me, sneakers, loco, untouchable, wannabe, not shy, escalator, dynamite, as well as ryujin and yeji’s solos. good fucking god. i went absolutely insane for both of their solos. they’re so hot. 🤧 what an immaculate setlist. I just wished mitm and ting x3 were on there too.

and lemme just say……… crown on my head inspires me. the lyrics actually do move me. I was feeling depressed the other day and when I started playing crown on my head, I shed a couple of tears and felt better. the cherry on top is that I was also wearing a tiara as part of my concert outfit 🤣 ahaha……

also….I gotta mention….. one thing about jyp concerts is that they NEVERRRR disappoint!!! 💅🏼 the members and their stage presence is one thing. but the live band takes the performances to another level! having seen skz and twice live, I can attest that i fucking adore attending jyp concerts because of how epic the live bands are. JYP CONCERTS ARE 100% WORTH THE MONEY!!!

and of course the part you’ve all been waiting for - cute butch gurlie!!!!! If ya know ya know…..(see my enha and txt concert posts). THIS IS OUR THIRD CONCERT TOGETHER!!!!!🥹💗at this rate…might as well call these concerts DATES…..and how fitting is it that it’s on pride month!?!?? slay. goodness fucking gracious she is soooo fine. as usual, I tried not to drool when I looked at her. her outfit was gorgeous and was inspired by yeji’s butterfly outfit in the swipe mv 🤤 mine was inspired by the checkmate concept photos because yall know how much of a pink loving princess I am. I even wore a tiara too 💅🏼 I wore a pink shimmery eyeshadow look to match the outfit and tightlined/smudged kohl to add that sexy desi twist to it 🥰 if the eyes are the window to the soul, then I sure as heck hope she saw the window to my pink n’ sparkly, yet dark and hypnotic soul…��🫰🏼 lmao.

we were gonna have food together but my dumb ass decided to take too long to get ready 🤦��‍♀️and I really didn’t want her to wait so long to eat. so I just told her to go get food at her own pace if she wants. I FUCKED UP THERE YALL!!! 😭 I PROMISE ILL GET UP EARLIER AND GET READY FASTER THE NEXT TIME SHE AND I MEET. but fear not….everything else went well. 😊👍🏼

I also had a poster that said ‘yeji addractive’ (in reference to this iconic moment) cuz y’know…..yeji herself is addractive. LOL anyways, I showed my poster to cbg and she giggled. she said it was so cute 🥹 she took pics of me and everything. 🥹 d’aawwwweee gosh im so soft for her.

the venue was SO nice! it was my first time there and her second time there cuz she saw the rose there before. it had such a cozy vibe to it. once were inside the venue, we were actually quite early!!!! we had coffee together and talked for an hour straight about various topics and I enjoyed every second of it. she asked me about my dhol hobby and how the parade went and I showed her pics 🥹 she loved them and said she wished she was there 🥹

I also showed her pictures of myself from the night before that parade where I was at a volunteer event for my dhol troupe’s org and I was wearing an all green outfit - bright green jumpsuit + trench coat and my green jhumkas. and she was WOWed. she said i look really good and green and she loved my jhumkas 🥺🥺🥺🥺 and to top it all off, of COURSE I showed her pictures of the volunteer award I received from my dhol troupe’s org as a flex 💅🏼 as expected, she was impressed 🥰

also…..WE SAT IN THE SAME SECTION!!!! I didn’t even know this until the day of the concert. 😳holy fucking shit. it’s as if we just VIBE on the same wavelength or smth…..😔🫰🏼we sat in diff rows but it still felt nice that we were at least in the same section ahaha.

and to end things off, we even uber’d back to our places together 🥺 wished we could spend more time 2gether that night iykwim👇🏼😔👇🏼🤭 HAHA JKJKJKJK…..unless????😬 and she said that she’ll go to sleep once I text her that I’m home safely 🥺 we love a caring, chivalrous queenie 🥺💕

I’m just so happy this was our third concert together 🥹 im so glad we spontaneously met through those chaotic lines at enha. im glad we clicked. it feels like ….. destiny!?!??? god that sounds corny af to say but even on a friendship level I just really enjoy her personality and her presence!???

she’s not going to ateez but she IS going to g-idle so uhhh…..ima make sure I show up to that concert looking as ✨ethnic hip✨ as possible in my jhumkas, kohl liner, and MAYBE my faded mehndi (depends how long it stays on after my cousin’s wedding) as a homage to our ethnic queenie soyeon! 🤪💗💕💗💕💗💗 and maybe then, cbg will see me in my fullest desi form. 👀👌🏼 lmao.

pics below!!!! not exactly a face reveal but moreso a body/outfit reveal????? haha peep the skz pc in my phone case too👀👌🏼

I also realized I didn’t take as much pics but took a crap ton of videos but y’all don’t need to see me screaming out the lyrics to sneakers or wannabe cuz HUNNY I sound like a screamo singer 😭💀

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cute butch gurlie and i have nearly the same taste in biases it’s crazy. we’re both yeonjun biased and soobin-wrecked, AND we’re both yeji biased and ryujin-wrecked. this is CRAZYYY

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ok yall….I gotta get GOINGGGGGGG on this bisexual heeseung draft that’s been sitting in my google docs for ……. A Long Time to say the very least……

it’s rlly angsty and i may or may not have done a shit ton of self-projection in both heeseung’s and reader’s characterization in this fic