#AND THE HIP AND LUMBAR MRI I NEED IS A THREE MONTH WAIT AT ALEAST TOO SO BASICALLY I JUST HAVE TO PUT UP UNTIL NEXT YEAR | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

maliciousmalfeasance · 16 days ago

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can't believe i have to wait til jan at the earliest to find out if i have the scary disease that causes silent heart attacks that i tick almost every symptom of..... if i die between now and then im going to haunt my doctors so hard

#and then there's the psychiatrist who i don't get to see until???? sometime in march im still waiting to be given a date!!!#AND THE HIP AND LUMBAR MRI I NEED IS A THREE MONTH WAIT AT ALEAST TOO SO BASICALLY I JUST HAVE TO PUT UP UNTIL NEXT YEAR #if anyone's wondering why i lost my shit and ended up in hospital suicidal and psychotic this is fucking why #i'm so FUCKING TIRED MAN.#apologies for being so negative i'm just hella overwhelmed lately tbh and i feel fucking helpless when it comes to doctors and specialists #like they just truly don't give a fuck if i die #it's been proven again and again #they don't give a fuck #sidhsksb #sorry. just. ugh.#i shouldn't have to wait this fucking long #i'm so anxious about this potentially really fucked nerve damage thing #because like the likelihood that i have it is really high i have all the risk factors and most of the symptoms #and yet no one wants to do anything to help me while i wait to see the specialist and my doctor straight up wouldn't refer me to a neuro #until a DIFFERENT specialist was like yeah you should see a neurologist #LIKE I KNOW I SHOULD IVE BEEN FUCKING ASKING FOR LITERAL YEARS AND NOW I HAVE TO WAIT AGAIN IM GOING INSANE

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