#AND SHE GOT FIGHT STORIES TO TELLL

[himemeiya]

You are not immune to tiktok anime edits [x]

[sevi007]

Sevi plays tales of the Abyss... part 14? Did I mix the numbers up again? Hope not.

So after that rather quick fight against Dist the runny Reaper, let me just say:

As much as I understand Luke (sheltered boy who got the carrot dangled in front of his nose that he can be a hero, and be free) - this spells trouble all over. He got this in his head now, and he won't let it go, and it will further strain his relationship in a party that already never really worked together. oomph.

First off - are you tellling me the castle was RIGHT NEXT to Luke's home the entire time? We could have just walked over there? How is it, then, that Luke's house arrest was confined to his home for "safety reasons" when the castle is probably just as safely guarded, if not more? Nah, doesn't add up.

Also, what is that reaction from his own uncle, as if he does not recognize him?

so Luke's mum falls ill in worry, but Dad is just like "ah yes you're here, I heard that already". What a warm, welcoming environment!

At least Mum is actually happy to see us. And not even angry at Tear! What a nice lady.

(Checking Luke‘s diary. Yes he also commented on how cool his father „always“ is. I don’t like how they treat Luke. No wonder he clings so to his Master Vaan)

Oh so that's Natalia! Quite the headstrong lady. Yes she is a princess, but the last princess I met was Estelle - wait. She was also headstrong, just in a different way. Oooh that's a princess trait!

Alright, and direct too. (Then again so is Luke)

Oooooh. Wait, which one? The one recently because of the hyperresonance, or the other one seven years back?

You know, I haven't seen Luke act very interested in - well any gender.

He still could have said that nicer, but I guess that's Luke to you. The brain-mouth filter is very weak.

But if he puts effort into it, he can be sweet and thoughtful.

Well then. Let's see what happens now, since the party is about to disband - which of course can't be right, the game is like. What. I think I'm only like a quarter into the story yet XD

@magicmetslogic

@ahsokaisawesome

[cconfusedkat]

Alright i call this a win

Telll the plot about one your AUs?

Please

-alz

AHHH SURE I WOULD LOVE TO!!!! This ones being drawn instead of written so im just trying to find more time to draw it out but

This one is called "You begun my story, but i won't let you end it" (can be shortened to just 'reclaimation of lamb' :>c)

It begins similiar to the main game where Lamb gets beheaded, given the red crown by TOWW, and then begins to crusade and yeah yeah

However, this time, lamb chose to give up the red crown to narinder. Narinder took the crown back and didnt kill lamb, rather wanting lamb to continue running a cult under his name... and a certain unknown god didn't like that narinder was going against the laws of the old faith.

So, with all this in mind, what's there to do now? What is the main point of this?

Mystic Seller—unknown god in question—makes an offer up to the lamb. TOWW may be powerful with the red crown, yes, but mystic seller is still powerful than all; even lamb who now remains as nothing more than a cheap fake god ever since nari took back the red crown.

Lamb begs mystic seller for godhood, days on end, wanting their sense of religion and faithfulness in themself back. They felt useless that the cult was entirely dedicated to TOWW instead of themself now. Along with being incredibly lonely, knowing they would be the only ever Lamb of their race left in the old faith to simply let narinder win. Lamb slayed all four bishops, thousands of times in purgatory now, taking all their anger out on each of them.

After years of getting more irritated by lamb's stubborness, they sit down and make a negotiation with the lamb: "If you want your power so back, i will request three things from you. Your immortality earned back by giving me your physical heart, your faith must be restored to me instead of narinder (and to bring back the bishops as followers for more devotion points), and lastly if you can give me a god tear of your very own after i give you back the red crown."

Lamb obliged immediately, without taking much consideration of the first step. So, they get their heart removed physically by mystic seller with the pointiest claws, waking back up in their leader's tent after the 'precision' was made—the two requests from mystic seller looping in their head, making their way to each of the four temples where they tortured each bishop in purgatory, bringing them back to their cult in different ways.

They resurrect shamura first, then kallamar, then leshy, and lastly, heket. The fights got more tough on the go, so that's why they chose to begin in that order rather than the first original order prior.

Shamura gave up because they were too tired of torture, kallamar fell to his knees immediately when finally hearing lamb say theyd spare him, leshy greeted lamb with a bloody battle to then accepting defeat, and lastly heket gave lamb WAR. After hours of trying to convince theyd genuinely bring heket back, they kill her when shes caught off guard, to then her also giving into the Lamb's willingness of bringing her back as a follower to the cult.

Now that all the four bishops were back in the cult, TOWW was the last one to kill. Again, another battle that lasted for hours, longer than heket's. He had the power of the red crown, and lamb fought and fought until mystic seller stepped in as they were quite literally dying of blood loss on the floor. They took the crown from narinder in one go, stealing it from his head, Narinder poofing back to follower form as he laid there incredibly weak

What does mystic do with the crown? They keep it until lamb heals from narinders battle, all of the now ex bishops residing in their cult and worshipping mystic seller.

Lamb didnt like this one bit.

After healing for what felt like decades (which only took five years instead), they challenge mystic for the red crown. "You and what army?" Was asked, but they knew theyd be too weak.

Which is why they used the actual remaining crowns' power from the ex bishops as support, to aid them in battle. This feels like a broken record but this so happened to be the last ever battle that happened to last days instead of hours, mystic tired AGAIN of these annoying games.

Lamb cried more than ever, unable to believe they'd get back their crown and godhood so easily after days and days of fighting a battle they couldn't win for a second time

Mystic turned away in the realm, "you fulfilled my last request, My Lamb. A God's Tears, from the ripe source. I thank you for all that you have done for this land. Go on, spread your New Faith. I will remain here to trade in anything you wish."

Really, lamb didn't have the energy to argue back with anything Mystic said, so... they rest in their tent for weeks, avoiding all social interaction. There was a new faith to begin, anyways, they had to properly be in the right mental head space to fully comprehend they were the last god in this new land the people had to rely on.

All this tough work felt like seconds to them. Five millennia after fighting *this* long to get their godhood back.

But like they said, "You begun my story, but I won't let you end it."

Shsjdnsnfs so basically thats the entire jist of a hypothetical chapter one if i genuinely ever did plan to write this out better since drawing takes more time,,, i hope this all made sense!! :'-Dc

[bscully]

I just got the good ending on Hades I think. I still have to discover all teeny tiny corners of the story, but I really enjoyed it Spoilers ahead!

Oh my god. Family reunion???? Persephone girlbossing Hades around? Hades apologizing??? Did I just witness Zag laugh for the first time (fangirling intensifies)??? Peak fiction I SWEAR Persephone’s easily one of my fav characters after that final cutscene. YOU GO GIRL TELLL HIIMMM lmao The bond between Persephone and Zagreus is so damn wholesome. Theyre both so kind and sweet to each other I love it.

What I also love is the resolve not being some lovey-dovey fantasy. Things are still sore between the three of them, but the gates have been opened up for some healing and growing back together. Really good stuff!

Also loved to see Hades softening up and actually apologizing to the both of them :O This was a sincere and truthful apology too. What's also impressive to me is the depth the characters have. I see a LOT of mostly uncommunicated/only implied stuff happening that still affects the character's decisions. There’s a whole web to explore and we’re being fed tiny bits!

Persephone ran away because she felt like she didn't belong. Her son as he grew up without her knowledge was trying to run away just like she once was, feeling out of place. When Zagreus found out about her and eventually found her, reaching her trying to catch up to all those years they lost, gave him a reason to fight, a purpose.

As Zagreus is attempting to figure out how to mend things and realized that his father still acts to protect her (which can only mean one thing), he eventually told Persephone that her and father belong back together. This must have struck a chord in her, as Zagreus’ determination (or maybe I should call it despair) to mend a broken family perhaps reminded her of herself. Now with her knowing that her son is in fact alive and well, has proven himself to be kindhearted, emotionally intelligent and stubborn; and also is fighting hordes of undead shades just to see her for a few minutes before being forced back to the House of Hades... there was indeed a sense of belonging she could have--or at the very least, create. She probably realized that it wasn’t just Hades that needed her. Her son needed her as well. Really really badly.

I’m getting teary-eyed just thinking of how anyone goes through so much struggle and pain just to see their mother for a few moments. So she eventually decided to return. It's interesting considering the sheer determination Zagreus had when he told her that they NEED to get back together since they were family. Zagreus certainly has his priorities, heart and values in the right place, much like Persephone herself. She must have realized that as well. It lead to her "sudden" and determined decision to go back to the underworld, that even Zag was taken aback.

Like mother like son.

I looove them so so so so much

[sometimesrosy]

hi rosy! it's my birthday today and I know you don't talk about the 100 as much anymore but I was wondering what was your favourite part of the bellarke relationship (s1-6 only ofc) and what do you think made it different from the other ships on the show.

Happy Birthday!!

Every time I see a great gifset of Bellarke, I shake my head sadly and say “what a waste.”

Let me tell you what my favorite part of Bellarke was... it wasn’t a scene or season. It wasn’t about the ship. 

It was about the STORYTELLING. I loved the way the bellarke relationship was a mirror for the story as a whole.

The head and the heart thing wasn’t just about Bellarke, it was also about leadership and living and how to be a good person.

The idea of hope in the apocalypse, while struggling to survive, was tied to the idea of the love they felt for each other. “You still have hope?” “We still breathing?” as they wrote each other’s names down on the salvation list because they needed the other to be breathing.

The concept of wanting to give up, but fighting still, because Bellarke still believed-- not just in making things better, but in each other.

The mythic and symbolic parallels in the relationship and the story. The idea that your flaws AND your greatest enemy could in fact be your greatest strength and greatest love.

Bellarke was EMBEDDED in the story from episode one. It was the framework around which the post apocalyptic science fiction adventure show was built. It was the spine of the story, and everything that happened with them was a reflection of the larger story. 

This is why the way it ended made the story fall apart. It wasn’t actually that they didn’t get together. It was that they were REMOVED. Erased. Invalidated. Ignored. Forgotten.

They did not finish the story. They took the heart out of it and gave us a braindead 7B. So the secondary characters flailed around trying to get to the end and did the best they could, but they straight up stopped tellling the story of The 100. They stopped fighting for humanity. They stopped fighting for survival? They began fighting to be erased in sent into purple sparkly space heaven? 

Murphy and Emori’s story was finished. But to be honest, Murphy’s story had ALWAYS been outside of the main The 100 story. So that story wasn’t eviscerated and could make it’s resolution. The endings for the side characters were nice and satisfactory, though tragic (Like Diyoza and Gabriel.) But Octavia got a cheap unearned romance and never reunited with her brother and the pain and horror of the bunker was NOT worth it as her people turned on each other for no reason. Wonkru? Ha. no. Echo never told her truth or faced Ash’s existence. Raven started her leadership role, but ended up being just a prop for other characters’ erasure or growth. Miller and Jackson were okay but that storyline was too slight to sustain us. Don’t even get me started on Madi. Hope was okay but she wasn’t The 100. Jordan was lame. They never utilized him. Indra was good, except for the fact that she should have killed Sheidheda right away. 

Wait. You were asking about Bellarke. See. I keep seeing how it fell apart. 

I’m taking it as a lesson, frankly. Because you see, I love to write science fiction-- and yes, I love romance, but I don’t always want romance to BE the story, like in the romance genre, so the first six seasons are a good example of how to build a story AROUND a romance without making it be ABOUT the romance. And that I like. And it was masterful, I thought. 

[dandywolfychips]

I dreamt i was a 15 year old girl in school just doing this assignment i was given in the auditorium when i saw some people trying to hurt someone.

Before i knew it my body changed and i turned into a adult male super hero. The powers i had were vague,i could fly, super strenght. I had this one power like spiderman where a string shot out of my arm and could retract to pull people to me. I just remember crashing threw walls with ease and never feeling pain

Also i have no control over when and if i transform, it just happens when it feels like and same with changing back. I think it happens when i feel a need to protect people but idk.

From what i remember i was fighting this super villan i was apparently in love with and he loved me too but didnt believe i could ever love him so he was all depressed and stuff. He ended up going into hiding and i couldnt find him again.

Then i was fighting this trio of super villans who were hunting for a specific student in my school and i was fighting to get them to stop and leave. Two of them fused together and i was like "uh oh" cause they were stronger but i was able to pull them apart and defeated them

Later on i found them again searching for some certain student,i talked to the female of the group and thought about my super villan love and thought if we fused he could finally feel how much i really love him. So i asked her if she could show me and i would stop trying to stop them.

She skittered away and i thought that was a no but then all 3 of them came and she begun to show me how to fuse. It didnt work tho,i wasnt synced with any of them so fusion was impossible. Feeling dejected i told them to leave my family alone and ill leave then alone then i left

They finally found who they were looking for. It was a cousin of mine who was a professinal mma fighter and was in the middle of a match when they attacked. He was over powered and his girlfriend tired to help and they both got caught.

I crashed in threw the roof and did the string arm thing to pull my cousin and his gf out of their grasp and started to fly away to take them to safety. But i had been using the powers for a week straight and i guess my body was worn out. So as i tried to crash threw a wall to escape i instead passed out and crash landed. Transforming back and my cousin was kidnapped.

My secret identity was found out and i didnt realize until i woke up, come to find out i had been passed out for 6 days straight. When i woke up i talked to my fam and thry were stand offish and my mother was terrified of me.

I went to school and my brother was pissed at me because he was deemed a freak now for having a freak sister. All the students were scared of me and i transformed again and flew over the school sadly as everyone looked at me with disgust. Even my own crush in school was terrified of me and i was super saddddd.

My dream tried to telll me my back story but i got woken up so i have no idea what it is

[tea-mew96]

Analysis: TFP Optimus Prime and a Discussion on Revenge

Disclaimer:  This post is going to be a long vent about my frustrations with TFP Optimus Prime, specifically with the advice he gives to Arcee and the audience in regards to revenge. So if you’re someone who does likes him or hold similar views to him, you are probably not going to like or agree with what I’ll say in this post and that’s completely ok. The whole point of this post is to provide another perspective and open discussion with me and anyone else about this (But do so respectfully, please).

Also, there are going to be spoilers for Transformers Prime in this, so skip this post for now if you don’t want the show to be spoiled for you.

So without further ado, let me explain why TFP Optimus Prime’s stance on revenge is wrong.

For those who aren’t familiar with Transformers Prime or don’t remember everything, one of the biggest subplots of the show was Arcee and the loss of her partners, Cliffjumper and Tailgate. Throughout most of Season 1 and Season 2, Arcee is on the hunt to find out who killed Cliffjumper and to get revenge for Tailgate by going after Arachnid. 

Everything with this arc was going ok...until Season 1 Episode 20, Partners.

During this episode, Arcee ends up following Arachnid, much to Optimus’ distaste. After Optimus saves Arcee from Arachnid, he tells her that seeking revenge for Tailgate is a bad idea. Later on in the episode, Starscream lets slip that he was the one who killed Cliffjumper, and Arcee reacts accordingly by attacking him. She almost kills him, but is stopped when she realizes Bumblebee is watching them and she lets Starscream go. The episode ends with Arcee saying that she thought settling scores would allow her to move on but that her actions instead lead to the Autobots losing an ally. Optimus comments that wisdom is gained, not automatically earned. This arc continues in Season 2 Episode Episode 10 Armada, where Arcee ends up trapping Arachnid in a stasis pod, ultimately ending their rivalry. The pod is taken back to base, where Ratchet says Arachnid “deserves worse”. Arcee responds that she “intended worse, more times than you know” and Optimus responds that Arcee is “stronger” for her choice.

These series of events are what ruined both Optimus as a character and Arcee’s arc for me.

Optimus tells Arcee that seeking revenge is bad and that she’s a “stronger person” for giving Arachnid a fairly merciful fate of being put in stasis. There’s one problem, though: he’s wrong. And apparently no one on the writing team knew that.

What Optimus ends up implying is that Arcee’s anger at both Arachnid and Starscream is not justified, that being mad at them for hurting her makes her a “bad person” and wanting them to suffer consequences for it is not the right path to take. Except none of that is true.

I think it’s fair to say that Arcee is victim of murder, and has a lot of trauma and emotional damage because of it. She has lost two partners that she clearly cared for and were close to, with one of them (Tailgate) dying right in front of her optics. She displays signs of depression throughout the series, and if the flashbacks in Season 1 Episode 12 Predatory are any indication, Arcee probably has a good case of PTSD too. 

The thing about people who have been severely hurt and traumatized by others like this is that they need closure, and there are many ways that this can be accomplished. Forgiveness is only one way. Sometimes closure comes in the form of having the aggressors be given jail time or the death penalty. Sometimes with bullying, a victim will find peace by seeing the bully getting in trouble with the teacher and being suspended. Some find peace through therapy. Sometimes, people can only find peace by taking matters into their own hands and punishing the aggressors themselves (victims fighting back against their bullies and the story of Gary Plauche are good examples of this one). The point is that victims and their friends/family members affected by murder, rape, bullying, or any other hurtful acts is that they don’t have to forgive the ones who committed the crime, nor are they required to. In fact, many people don’t.

This is something that Optimus Prime simply doesn’t understand, and many adults don’t either.

I want you to take a quick read at these statements that people often give as solutions to bullying:

“Don’t react, just ignore them. They’ll go away.” “Don’t fight back, that’s stooping to their level” “Tell them to stop saying/doing those things, they’ll listen”

On the surface, all of these statements sound correct because these are all very tame, non-violent solutions. They’re all moral high ground statements. But almost any victim of bullying can tell you that none of this advice ever actually helped, and if you ever told a teacher someone was bullying you, you at best got ineffective solutions/similar advice to the above and at worst did nothing about it.

Optimus Prime’s statements about not seeking revenge come from the exact place that the above quotes come from: a place of wanting to appear moral and above-it-all but having none of the experience or knowledge to actually back it up. 

Optimus wasn’t as close to Cliffjumper as Arcee was. Optimus didn’t see Tailgate’s gruesome death first-hand. He may be older, but being old doesn’t automatically make you right. And I find it ironic how Optimus states that wisdom is earned at a cost yet he’s the one who is clearly is struggling with that concept when it comes to Arcee.

It upsets me to no end how Optimus is contantly tellling Arcee that she’s the one who has to be the more moral, bigger, stronger person. But Starscream and Arachnid? You know, the ones who caused all of Arcee’s anguish to begin with? Naw. Arachnid can continue to tease Arcee by asking if she’s lost any more partners and Starscream can pretend to feel bad about killing Cliffjumper and then immediately brag about it the next day. Yeah, those two don’t need to change. ARCEE DOES. CUZ REVENGE BAD. 

Remember how Arcee said she intended a worse fate for Arachnid and Optimus praises her for it? While the show treats that as “closure” and the end to that rivalry, I’m not convinced. For the longest time, Arcee wanted Arachnid dead. So for her to all of a sudden switch to being merciful to Arachnid seems off to me. And thus I began to wonder: Did Arcee decide to not kill Arachnid because she had a genuine change in morals, or did she do it in order to make Optimus Prime happy? Or in other words, is this a genuine change of character or this just the writers’ last-ditch attempt at pushing the “no revenge” narrative into the audience’s face? I don’t know for sure (although I’m pushing for latter in both questions) and the show doesn’t address this. And this is bad because depending on this answer, this could mean that this arc was never truly finished. If Arcee still didn’t believe or feel that having Arachnid in stasis was good enough closure, than the story isn’t fucking over. But no one of the writing team thought this far. No one was willing to put this kind of depth into the show.

Furthermore, I’d argue that this constant talk about Arcee being a “better person” is causing her to be critical of herself over things that aren’t really her fault or that she wouldn’t be able to predict the outcome of.

One is Arcee blaming herself for Smokescreen’s “death” in Season 2 Episode 21 Alpha/Omega. The other is Arcee regretting her attack on Starscream and losing a potential ally. But the reality is that Starscream is extremely fickle and having him join the Autobots wasn’t guaranteed to end in success to begin with. Even if Starscream did join the Autobots, there’s no promise that he would side with them forever. Almost all of his decisions are based off his own goals, and many times that can go against the ideas/goals of the group he’s in. Actually, Starscream does end up betraying the Autobot’s trust anyway in Season 2 Episode 23 Inside Job where Starscream uses the Autobots’ (ok, most Optimus Prime’s) trust to steal the Omega Keys and use them in order to gain Megatron’s favor again. Unsurprisingly, trauma victims in the real world also blame themselves for what happened to them too.

There’s many things about TFP Optimus Prime I can forgive. Boring characterization? Fine. An intriguing characterstic (lack of outward emotion) that has potential to be interesting but the writers never decided to explore it? Whatever. But I draw the line at shitty advice presented as a good lesson, especially when your audience is young kids who don’t know better and may need desperate help.

Kids get bullied and abused. Kids need to be told that fighting back against bullies and abusers who have hurt them doesn’t make them a bad person because the “lessons” and “solutions” that many schools and adults teach or tell rarely work. And telling them otherwise because it sounds right isn’t going to help. If anything, it’s only going to hurt those kids in the long run.

TL;DR Arcee is a good girl who deserves hugs and therapy, and Optimus Prime is a self-righteous moron who deserves to be thrown into a smelting pit.

[sick-mindedss]

STORY TIMEE: THE MEMORY THATS KEEPING ME UP TONIGHT 🤬😓😓😫

Me and my brother were fighting about some bullshit he was accusing me of doing. I told him he was tripping but if he really believed I did that shit to come at me. So he attacks me and I'm getting my ass beat. My mom knows I wasn't gonna quit even if I was losing bad and he wasn't gonna stop no matter what. So she calls the cops for help.

At this point he had me pinned down on the floor and was choking me and I'm turning colors so my mom tries hard to push him off me. I almost pass out but he let's go just in time and I just lay there catching my breath. A few minutes later the cops show up and split us apart. Now they're asking us both questions. I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING and I THOUGHT my brother wasn't gonna talk either.. BUUUUT..... he starts tellling them how it was my fault. He tells the cops that I'm possibly on drugs. AND LIED TO THEM AND TOLD THEM I KICKED HIS BABY.🤬🤬🤬 So they come back and tell me what hes saying to them and asked me "Why were you guys fighting" i said nothing again. They said "youre brother said you were probably using meth" i told them ive been sober but I do smoke weed. So they searched my purses/closet/and pat me down. Luckily i had smoke all my weed earlier that day so they didnt find anything. AND THEN THEY SAY YOU WERE SAYING THAT I KICKED YOUR BABY💔💔...LIKE WTFF!! WHERE DID THAT COME FROM.. I told them I never did that and that they can check the baby and i had no clue why you were saying that... So then I get taken to jail (I'm not sure if he got taken in too). When I got to jail the cops give me paperwork so I can write a report about what happened(to give my side of the story). AGAIN I DIDNT DO THAT, DIDNT THINK IT WAS NECESSARY...

3 days later at court I find out YOU ACTUALLY WROTE A WHOLE REPORT. AND I KNOW YOUR FUCKING ASS LIED AND SAID I STARTED IT AND YOU ALSO PROVABLY WROTE THAT I KICKED YOUR BABY🤬🤬!!

My public defender at this point doesn't bother asking me ANYTHING or if it was true or NOTHING. He just tells me to plea guilty and I'll get off easy. And I'm fucking MAD, CONFUSED and FUCKING HURT that my own brother is doing this to me. So I plead guilty did a week in jail and they put me on probation for 5 years. AND YOU GET NOTHING AND ARE A FREE MAN!

it's been like 2 or 3 years since all this happened and you've started talking to me again... as if nothing happened... 😡😡😡😖 I do talk back to you cause I miss my brother... BUT I DONT LOOK AT YOU THE SAME.. YOU DID ME SO FUCKING WRONG AND I DONT FORGIVE YOU!! But you are still my brother and I still got some love for you I guess...😓😓😢. i just dont respect you like I did, i don't look up to you anymore, I wish I could punch you in the fucking face for what you did to me ...but i got a big and dumbass heart so I'll pretend I forgot about it cause life goes on.

IT IS WHAT IT IS.

YOURE A STILL WHOLE BITCH

ILL NEVER FORGET WHAT YOU DID!!

SOME PERSONAL SHIT BUT ITS BOTHERING ME

LET ME VENT TO YOU GUYS

[falconsandfishes]

platonic relationship

i have a bone to pick with plato. see the socratic method is basically the scene in montynpython in which a woman is weighed against a peice of wood to determine if she is a witch. and this is pretty much also the measurement system women use for me judge a cardio junkie by his ability to withstand smoke fumes. ive been up all night listening to eminem because i wish that i had the mysogny that he had because logically i should be mad at these females who lie to me but apparently developmentally theyre limited. 

so pretty much i just want my neck not to hurt and my side and platonic love isn really the kind which could support my lumbar spine but if you think im angry you are right and maybe if i rhyme my brain will work this time and ill finally be able to explain was never targeted at my objects of affections at all i like to walk around the mall see a cutie with a skirt on and she sees me looking at her tells her grandmother to leave her there because this place looks fun as she smiles at me there comes abu my friend who judges me and judges you and as i stare at her i can tell she wants me too probably more emotionally mature than my mom and a virgin with her skirt on and its workun but i have the confidence of a plastic bag floating in the wind shes cheesing while i hide behind her even though shes 4 11 and im 6 4 and because he was there i didnt pass because i dont cross paths but even thinking about having a girlfriend makes him mad. if shes too young for me i would have figured that out but it doesnt help that no matter how young or how old even the weather lady im told shes not right for me so will you make up your mind please can someone define maturity because apparently there is a reverse correlation between it and age and socrates was no sage im not really impressed that he drank poison similarly i smoke weed which takes me back to age three and birthday parties then i think about how much my life failed but only because everyone always stood in front of me. so snitch on me when i talk to you when youre in front of me at your desk and say your story about butterflies is the best begging middle and end. meawhile i havent even gotten to the first page of my legend of the sword it had a much more compliated plot which was cut off. then tell me i didnt count to tenthousand while you were listening to the teacher say the is spelled t h e and put me in a remedial reading class with a bunch of girls and address us as the girls so we can read books about a mouse who lives with his family in a house but if girls and boys are the same how can you explain i was the only one in that group to be bumped up to the advanced on by 2nd grade. i guess reading the encylopedia of animals wasnt a wase memorized their latin names bufo sativa phylobates. so by third grade i was getting so good at math that they took me out of class and had me testing material meant for 5th graders and it was really lame how can i explain all the flaws in the system to all the other people who were also ruined by it.

finally one girl who was definitely old enough for me waved at me when i looked at her and i got a boner and walked over to the ladies at the tea shop who looked at me with a disgusted look on their faces then some gangster looking dude older than i am replaces me with his hand on her shoulder.

before i was 18 i could beat up my dad and ever since then i knew not many people in my generation had much of a chance against me but i looked so thin they were not understanding. high iq causing depression have anothe smoke session even though you have athsma everyone remember to complain that i prefer to get high off one big hit i stayed in high school till i graduated but i left.

unfortunately with brain damage i could still make straight as which made me think i was ok gpa jumping above 3.68 when i only show up an agerage of 3 days.

practice your sky hook do your pushups get embaressed when an asian princess sees you do them 20 hanlaps perfect form and im not even a jock wow id better stop. next thing the girl i like is sitting on my lap in class telling me she likes me back shes sitting on my desk shes rubbing my face my life isnt gay justnsaynsomehing and youll get laid.

nah ill let some kid with adhd steal her seat and ill help him with math instead because i didnt tell her this but im alread braindead. my soul probably died with my pet lizard or my kitten perhaps it was internet addiction. 

what makes you think youll be make it as a porn star? you know im hot. well maybe i just didnt want you to act like a slut. i still remember the blonde who waves at me and smiled my freshman year it was clear that the world was my oyster the only problem was i couldn make my own choices.

i wanted to be an actor but i was so good at acting nobody got it. was so good at debating everyone liked to argue. was so succinct couldnt get the last word. so fast nobody would pass me the ball so dominant in wrestling i had to pretend i couldnt win just to have a friend.

pretty much i feel like the last cro magonon stuck on an island without charlotte saisselin bounce baby bounce three story house you look so cute in a blouse. hey look theres charlottes stalker i think il wave my arms around.

bounce baby is a reference to eigth grade i was watching a 100 meter race and then some black guy said that she never raced again. weed turned her from a goth into a wigger and after that i figured id become one too but it wasnt till 2009 i started to dress like you. what happened was i got some clothes from olympia sports to wear as warmups on the basketball court and to work as a salesman i shaved my head smiled knowing i was dead but still i couldnt even say i wanted to kiss  girl without that not being cool enough for my nephew and her bowl broke too

it fell from her car on the pavement and she said that he didnt even get to hit it.

so now im living in my dads room on the floor and finally my back isnt sore i have a well paying job im away from mom i have iron lungs and dad still doesnt approve because now i play too much basketball.

hi im interested in going to california. i meant connecticut but califonia will do since its warm there. sure steve come on out west but read the fine print your 20s are dead.

prove you wrong shame on me. dont prove you wrong brag proudly. stay out west and let your dad die. watch him act like an asshole at home back east one more time. your reward for having surived on the street for years as a middle clas kid

your friend says he thought you were dead. by the way he has this girlfriend in connectiut. oh you were the one who set him up with her? theres a whole website or three centered around her? 

better get you to spend your money on heroin and make you seem like a jerk in front of my dad. my excuse is im skitzophrenic.

all because my dad shamed me for growing up even crazier than him. thats why i called up my friend and asked him to date my girlfriend. 

there must have been something in those amphetamines which made me keep stopping at her house. i found them up on the shelf years after i tried to spill them out.

it was the first time an adult had ever called me immature. he also said my handwriting was bad and i needed a cure. talking to him i began to get red where even to begin? i have a lot of prblems at home and this isnt fair. see my dad camps in the yard and gets drunk watches us through windows andmy sister punches me in the head. mom pretty much works till shes in bed.

every day she watches the same soap opera and oprah which i record for her on tape. my sisters friends call me gay so i go over and play with the kids from the other neighorhood all day. 

one of them listens to a lot of eminem. his favorite song is if you dont like it you can suck my dick. hes in reform school and proud to be off his meds. when i talk about biking down a steep hill and blending into traffic he thinks i meannliterall blend in.

two gay twin brothers end of the road honor roll kids. play baseball and have alcoholic parents. hey ill tell the girl steve likes he likes her then she will never talk to him again. accept his chalenge to a fight and he will bang my head into a tree which is the same thing i did to another kid who tried to jump me but got sperated from his friends. 

refuse to dance with the only girl in middle school who has hips. make fun of the girls intelligence who sits next to you in math and has giant tits. refuse to eat candy off the first girls tounge then your science teacher who pushed pills on you flips on the tv its 911

stare at a girl all day and say you dont like her. girls think youre gay if you have a boner. telll me a calculator doesnt mattrer for a test but i do worse without one. make a flag pencil it isnt cool enough for the other kids.

sit with the retarded kids timmy and jimmy. watch nick all night fresh prince and bill cosby.

your sister wont stop torturing you so hold her at knife point. buy knives at school try to resell them and for the first time ever the kids you sold them to ge caught witth knives.

stay in the program with three teachers who gave up on you. one leaves to become a dean suddenly your grades go up. kids are jealous because you dont do homework. girls smile at you knowing that your test scores are high despite that.

throw shotput as far as a high school kid without any exercise or practice. run around the track dozens of times in pants you still arent good enough yet.

go to an alternative program reluctantly in high school its sort of like jail. everyone smells like cigarettes the air is stale. this isnt good for you but we will make you think if you leave you will fail.

[ourdxrksoulss-blog]

King 👑

Its 7:29 Am. Mom go to works and i am all alone at home again. My old sister who is know study at somewhere far away. The feelings lonely is keep hunting me eventhou mom at home. We doesn’t even talk bcs she too busy otp with her “husband to be”.

I miss dad. I miss him so much and no words cant describe how much i miss him. He is sick ((dad is blind and got one legs but he still a perfect dad to me)) and always at home and someday he always go to hospital for check up . When he got home he always smile, and everytimes i got home from school he always ask how my day was and i always tell dad from A to Z. i cant never ever lied or keep a secret from him bcs hes know me better than anyone else. When i cant sleep he always tellling me a bed time story like horror story mostly to make me sleep everynight. he always there when i suddenly awake at 2 or 3 am from nightmare. We talk and he pat my hair till i sleep. The funniest and best moments is i used to have a morning alarm person besides my phone. Everysingle morning he always play a song from tv and sing loudly just to make us wake up and go to school. Hes always like “WAKE UP WAKE UP ITS SCHOOL TIMEA WOO” its so annoying yet its so funny. Hes voice is the one that i always heard before go to sleep and after sleep but not anymore. :’) i always thou its so annoying but now that the little things that made my day bright & i miss it most. I always envy to everyone who is have a dad that can walk and send them to school every single days bcs im not. theres is one day where i cry see the dad and daughter at sports school the dad come to school to support her daughter meanwhile me i got no one to support me. mom and dad never come to my support day since dad fell sicks at the time when i was primary school. used to embarrassing my dad bcs he blind and got one legs. when i go out i always walk behind and far away from him & that was the most regrets things in my life if i can turn back time i would. 😔😞 The saddest moment is.. where one day i saw my dad at the dark living room alone crying.. im not sure why but i think bcs he is in the pain. i was shock but i call “dad….?” carefully and then he wipe hes tears quickly and smile “yes..? is that u sya?” im asking him “are u ok?” then he’s answering while smile “yes i am. its just my arms are so hurts.” Remember that things make me want to cry to badly bcs i cant do anything to make his pain go away. i cant help him and spend more times and be a good daughter to him. I AM SUCH A LOSER. gosh if he know how lonely and depressed i am right now but i dont want to make his sad i want dad to be happy at heaven bcs he been suffer alot. Dad, sometimes we always fights and i always say a cruel words but daddy, you always know right deep inside ur little daughter, she love you the most than the others. You was the first than everyone in this world even mom. You was my 👑 and my first ❤️, You were my hero and my first 👫. Dad, one day dad one fine day i will make you proud to have a daughter like me ONE DAY!

sorry just want to let it out everything bcs got no one to talk with. sorry too for the bad english bcs english was not my first language. 🙇🏻‍♀️ Who ever read this have a nice day and may God bless you. 🌹✨

[radiyum]

okay i have no idea how to savor things by spacing them out.... with that said i couldn’t put off the last chapters of strobe edge to tomorrow like i had wanted to because it’s so addicting....... sooo here is me reading the last seven chapters of the hilarious and adorable and brilliantly written STROBE EDGE by the amazing io sakisaka!!!!!!! i just LOVE IT SO MUCH.

HERE I GO! under the cut are chapters 32-37!! (+ some half chapters)

I’M FINISHED!!!!!!

chapter 32

okay i dont care i dont like you mao

you hurt my baby andou go cry me a river

i hope this is the last time i see u mao

ANDOU’S FIST BUMP

.....REN MY DARLING... UR TRYING SO HARD TO BE WILD BECAUSE YOU THINK NINAKO IS IN LOVE WITH CRAZY YELLING SENPAI

OK andou looks hot like this

dude

dUDEEE

REN WANTS TO CONFESS BUT I HAVE A FEELING SOMETHING IS GONNA HAPPY TO STOP THIS

ren u LEFT

fuck

FUCKK

chapter 33

GACCHAN. BUDDY.

U SPOILER ALERT WITHOUT BEING A SPOILER

ren you cant wait until monday??? neither can i buddy

gacchan !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STOP IT SOOOTOOOPP

THE GANG IS HURTING ANDOU PROTECTING NINAKO

OHHHH MYY GODOOOD

NOOO HE’S SO SAD AND HUMILIATED AND BROKEN BECAUSE HE KNOWS NINAKO LOVES REN AND NOT HIM

AND HE WOULD DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT HER

omg..........omg................

ren confessed......

but ninako..............what are you thinking/.................. do you....like... andou NOW

CHAPTER 34!!!!!!!!

okay andou is probably gonna get it on with this random hot girl

okay now all the girls want to get it on with andou again oh geez

A GIRL IS LEAVING HIS HOUSE AND ANDOU ANSWERED THE DOOR IN HIS STUPID UNDERWEAR TO REN

i love ren and andou’s friendship it is so beautiful

STOP RUNNING AWAY NINAKOOOO

yes CHASE HER REN

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

DONT LET HER GOOOOOO

TELLL HIMMMM

PLEASE TELL HIM THERE ARE THREE CHAPTERS LEFT OH MY GOD I AM FREAKING OUT

ChAPTER 35

ren is so hurt by ninako avoiding him omg i want to cry

ANDOU IS BACK AND HE STILL LOVES NINAKO AND HE DOESNT WANT TO SEE THEM TOGETHER BUT HES SO CONCERNED ABOUT THEM

I AM CRYINNNNNNNNNNNNNNG I AM CRYING

MY ANDOU

MY BABY

MYFIGHTER

YOU PUT UP SUCH A GOOD FIGHT

YOU LET HER GO WITH SUCH STUPID GRACE

YOU KISSED HER AND SHE SAW RIGHT THROUGH YOU, AND YOU GAVE HER A PARTING KISS GOODBYE

YOU TOLD HER TO RUN AND TO GO TELL HIM

I FUCKING LOVE YOUUUUUU

I AM SOBBING

OMG OMG REN AND NINAKO!!!!!!!! RUUUUUUUUNN

FIND EACH OTHERRRRRRR

they BOTH GOT OFF THE TRAIN

CONFESSSSSSSSSS

PLEASE

chaptER 36!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i AM FUCKING CRYYYYYIIINNNNNNGNNGGGGG I AM CRYING MORE THAN I WAS BEFORE OOOHH MMMMYM GOD

THAT WAS THE GREATEST CONFESSIONAL SCENE I HAVE EVER READ EVEEERRRRR

IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING AND HEART WRENCHING

“I SAID I HAVE MY REASONS BUT I DONT HAVE REASONS. I ONLY HAVE ONE. I LIKE YOU REN” OOOOHHH MMMMYGOD

I LOVE NINAKO SO MUCH I LOVE HER I LOVED HOW SHE TOLD HIM EVERYTHING SHE WANTED WITH HIM AND HE LISTENS AND HE JUST SMILES AT HER AND LOOKS AT HER LIKE SHES A BEAUTIFUL DREAM

THEN HE SAYS I LIKE YOU THEN I LOVE YOU OH GEEZ

I AM CRYING OFF MY FUCKING NIGHT CREAM DUDE

andou i am so sorry baby i am so sorry this happened to you i love you too andou

omg he wants to quit hooking up with girls because ren doesnt want him to anymore YAAAAAAAY

“i wonder when this will become natural” “pretty soon” ooooohhh

wai T

THIS IS HOW IT ENDS

CHAPTER 36 WAS THE LAST CHAPTER????????

OOOHHH IMY GODO

?????????????????????????

ch 36.5

this was a cute chapter on my gacchan’s first love but its ok

cha 36. 6

OMG THEIR FIRST DATE!!!!!! AN EXTRA CHAPTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ren found out about andou kissing ninako OH NO

okay i couldnt type AT ALL during their first date

i love how much ren loves her

THEIR FIRST KISS!!!

ch 36.7

i don’t have much to say about this one! but its funny! i wish we got to see more of daiki’s and ninako’s friendship instead of just the confessional in the beginning of the manga! they were apparently so close and we are seeing them behaving so dorky together and spending their birthdays together and i was kinda expecting them to help each other out more, aside from the daiki is possibly cheating on sayuri thing

ch 37!!!!!!!!

OKAY ITS STARTING OFF

REN AND NINAKO ARE FIGHTING OK OK

OH ITS ABOUT YELLING GUY AND HIS NAME IS DANCHOU APPARENTLY and REN IS JELLY

is this how the story ends, with jealously

WAIT NO IT WAS  A MISUNDERSTANDING

“ i kind of get the feeling i just witnessed something awesome”

i kind of get the feeling i just read something AMAZING

me too girl me too

THAT WAS SOGOOD

THERE WAS SO MUCH GOODNESS IN THIS MANGA

I LOVE IT

I ALREADY WANT TO REREAD IT

I LOVED ALL THE CHARACTERS AND THE PLOTS AND NOTHING WAS DRAGGED OUT OR STUPID AND I LOVED IT

THANK YOU IO SAKISAKA

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVED STROBE EDGE!!

i can;t believe how long i put off reading this manga and just how much i loved it. i think this is one of my favorites now!! why hasn’t this been made into an anime yet?? (is it too sacred to be made into an anime?)

okay I AM DONE and i had so much fun live blogging every chapter! i wanted to live blog for the next completed manga i read because last time i reread ao haru ride i was remembering what i first thought when i first read everything and i wanted to be able to look back on it! and this was honestly the perfect manga to do it! when i reread strobe edge eventually i’ll probably read my live blogs and go ooooooooh! hahaha sorry i had such a potty mouth lol

goodnight!!!!!!!

i’ll try to watch the live action film of strobe edge tomorrow morning with my coffee!