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sillygoofyart · 21 days
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mclqren · 6 months
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UNFORGETTABLE ★ CL16
PAIRING ✦ charles leclerc x fem!gymnast!reader
SUMMARY ✦ after attending one f1 race, you simultaneously manage to embarrass yourself in front of and impress a certain f1 driver [ SMAU ]
WARNINGS ✦ cursing
REQUESTED ✦ here!
NOTES ✦ for the purpose of this fic, the reader is going to represent america in the olympics for gymnastics. i made the reader have a private insta account for this fic & a main, just to fit in with the 'private life' aspect. the fc i've used is isabela juliana, but feel free to picture whoever you want! my requests are open so feel free to leave a request :)
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yourusername flowers are the key to my heart 🔐💌
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user1 STUNNERRR!!
user2 if the whole gymnastics thing doesn't work out, you could literally have a career as a model because damnnn!!
user3 the flowersss 🥺🥺
user4 is she going to the olympics this year??
user5 yess!! can't wait to see her 💗💗
simonebiles my girl wowwww 😍😍
yourusername my lover fr 💓💓
yourbsf GORGEOUS
yourusername LOVE YOU!!
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yourfinsta sushi night & trying to figure this f1 shit out before this weekend 🍣😱
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yourbsf SINCE WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO WATCH F1
yourfinsta HAVE I NOT TOLD YOU
yourbsf NOOO???
yourfinsta FERRARI INVITED ME AS A PADDOCK GUEST SO I GUESS IM GOING
yourbsf you better message me ALL ABOUT IT
yoursibling you're the luckiest bitch alive.
yourfinsta yeah except i know NOTHINGG about f1 pls drop by my apartment and teach me ☹️
yoursibling fine fine im on my way
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( caption one: about to moveeee ✈️ | caption two: i apologize in advance for my limited formula one knowledge 😔 )
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yourfinsta third slide is me after embarrassing myself in front of one of the most good-looking guys alive?? i swear i knew his name i just panicked when someone asked me 😭
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yourbsf HOW DID YOU NOT KNOW WHO CHARLES LECLERC WAS
yourfinsta YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING ESP WHEN HE BROUGHT IT UP AGAIN LATER??
yourbsf he brought it up AGAINNN?? oh he likes you.
yourfinsta NO HE DOESNTT HE WAS PROBABLY JUST AS EMBARRASSED AS I WAS.
yoursibling the caption??
yourfinsta it's a long story. i'll tell you when i get home
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yourusername i had such a good time w ferrari this weekend: thank you sm for having me!! (ps. yes i do know who both drivers are 🤣)
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user9 the caption 🤣🤣
user10 you have to praise the girl for owning her mistake!
user11 STUNNERRR
user12 so why isn't she training then...
user13 ppl are allowed to take breaks - leave her alone!
user14 the flowers are so on y/n's brand
user15 righttt!! she's so spring i can't explain it
scuderiaferrari it was lovely to have you with us, y/n!
yourusername thank you for having me! ❤️❤️
user16 okay but why couldn't they have chosen someone who knows about f1 instead of someone random girl off the street?? like at least pick someone who's WATCHED the sport, and knows the drivers names.
user17 tons of people who haven't watched the sport get invited all the time. she said when she was there that she didn't have too much knowledge on the sport, but wanted to learn more about it, hence why she accepted the invite. she said she forgot their names momentarily because she was panicked by the larger crowd, so maybe leave off her for a minute! 💓
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( caption one: back again 😴 | caption two: thanks for the gift 😉 )
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yourusername another crazy weekend later...🏎️
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user22 she's so luckyyyy wth!
user23 TWO F1 RACES IN A ROW?? WOWWW SOMEONE'S POPULAR
user24 AND THE HAT? it's def charles asking for her
user25 the outfitttt wow 😍
user26 she's literally so pretty
user27 STAY AWAY FROM CHARLES
user28 girl what.
charles_leclerc the bag 😉
yourusername yes yes you bought it for me thanks babe 🤣💓
user29 A GIFT? 'BABE'? WHATTTT
user30 WOAH WHAT IS THIS
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yourusername back to training at last 🤸‍♀️
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user31 back to your rootsss!!
user32 my fav gymnast
user33 WE'VE BEEN WAITINGGG i can't wait for the olympics
user34 SAME!!
user35 wowww she's stunning!
user36 is this charles' girlfriend then or-
user37 nope! nothing's been confirmed right now - they might just be good friends!
simonebiles YOU ARE EVERYTHINGGG!!
yourusername I LOVE YOU 💗
charles_leclerc i could do that 🤣
yourusername fighting talk from someone who drives around in a car all day!
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charles_leclerc turns out the key to heart is to actually just buy her flowers 🤷‍♀️❤️
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user42 MAMA Y PAPA
user43 UR SO REAL FOR THISSS
user44 DAMN Y/N IS BEING SPOILTTTT
user45 AS SHE SHOULD BEEE!!
user46 POWER COUPLE ALERTTT
user47 gymnast x f1 driver is NOT a trope i was expecting but i love it!!
yourusername the flowers are the only reason we're together.
charles_leclerc WHAT
yourusername wish i was kidding, i'm just a sucker for nice flowers 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️
yourusername ALL JOKES ASIDE im so grateful 💗
landonorris barf 🤮
yourusername call me when you get a girlfriend x
user48 SHE'S FRIENDS W THE PADDOCK TOO??
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yourusername it's no longer acceptable to forget your name anymore ☹️💓
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user49 MY NEW FAV COUPLE ON THE GRID
user50 im OBSESSEDDD
user51 pls call me if he fumbles you ☹️
user52 NO REALLL im always here y/n ❤️❤️
user53 THE THIRD SLIDE PLEASEEEE
user54 love a woman who's obsessed w her man 🙏
simonebiles if he hurts you im always here (to date you)
yourusername my ACTUALLL wife 💍💍
charles_leclerc im so lucky ❤️
yourusername you mean you're lucky i liked the flowers.
charles_leclerc you're still on about this??
yourusername YOU THINK IM JOKING?? flowers are my life. i would die for flowers. it's the only reason we're together 🤣💗
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hamzah missing you on vacation
talk to me - hamzahthefantastic x reader
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contains: fluff, smut, reader is female, you read the rest and find out
word count: no clue rn but its short
story below the cut
hamzah: hi baby sorry i haven’t been texting n stuff i’ve been busy with martin and mandy yk but i love you sm and i miss you
you: i understand completely :) have fun and dw about me ily too
hamzah: i just got back to my room, u wanna call?
you: ofcc
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hamzah had gone on vacation to curaçao to relax and film videos for youtube and the podcast. he had brought the trip up to you, asking if you wanted to go. unfortunately, you had work and couldn’t take time off because this was one of their busiest months. you were both obviously disappointed, but he understood and you wanted him to go without you and have fun filming. (#securerelationships) when he got off the plane, that was the moment you realised that it was going to be difficult with extra work and no boyfriend, but you were managing so far. however, today you just got home and boy were you exhausted.
your phone went off as soon as you had sent him the last text. you wait 10 seconds before answering it. “hellooo?” you hear hamzah say. “heyy” you reply, matching his energy. “whats up?” “nothingg, i just missed you” this man knows just what to say. “wait facetime me” he says, while the button pops up on the screen. you answer and see someone else with him. “well hello martin” “y/n! how are you?” “i’m good, how has the trip been for you and mandy?” “so good, she loves it. but this guy here is constantly yapping about how much you would love it too.” “aghh, i know, it looks like a lot of fun, much better than what i’m doing haha.” “alright well i’m gonna go back to my room, cya guys.”
martin leaves hamzah’s hotel room to go back to his own. he turns his camera off, but you didn’t think much of it at the time. you can hear fumbling on his end of the phone. “so, tell me about your day.” you think hard, not even remembering what you did, but start giving him a little summary. you hear a zipper while you talk, but continue as he was probably just changing. you hear him release a groan, “hamzah? are you okay?” “yeah i- just wish you were here right now. hearing your voice isn’t enough.” you finally caught on.
“are you… jerking off right now?” his breath hitches a little. “i’m sorry- i just can’t get you out of my head baby. imagining you in a bikini just makes it worse.” he breathes out. your cheeks grow redder, thankful he wasn’t there to see it. the truth is that you needed him badly too. “well, what would you do if i was there?” you ask him in a more lustful tone. he stops palming himself through his boxers, and removes them instead. “i would pull the string from your- top” he starts slowly stroking his dick. you start taking off your oversized shirt, not bothering to wear a bra because you were home alone. “and then, fuck, i would kiss you everywhere and touch your boobs.” you start massaging your breasts, moaning a little. “mhm, and then what?”
he whimpers, barely audible on the phone. “i wish my hand was yours right now baby. i would probably- m’ take off your bikini and fuck you so good.” he groans out while you take off your panties. you insert a finger into your pussy, ”uh shit, hamzah” you moan out, wanting to help him reach his high. his breathing gets heavier, and all you can think about is if he was the one fingering you right now. “you make me so fucking hard babe-“ you push in another finger, rubbing your clit slightly faster. “keep going hamzah” you praise him, making him involuntarily buck his hips into his hand. “i bet your pussy would taste so good right now.” he says, and you stretch yourself more.
“i can’t hold it,” “just let go y/n” that last sentence made you moan loudly and release your orgasm, panting to try to catch your breath. he groans out, cumming on himself, relieved. “i love you so much.” “i love you too” “you’re definitely coming on the next trip no matter what.” you start getting stuff ready to clean yourself up. “i will, and i think im gonna take a shower now baby.”
“mmm, part 2?”
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thank you for the request im so tired and drained rn but hopefully this will hold you guys off for the next one. ;)
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thinking about logan and wolverine mating season overlapping. like I know he isn’t actually any part wolverine, it’s just a funny thought that you could tease him over, but imagine if it was actually accurate/lined up like you walking by, mentioning in passing that, ‘hey! it’s that time of year!” and Logan just grumbling because you were right about it 💀
(also sorry if this doesn’t make sense like. at all 😭)
yes I could imagine one day you were telling him abt seeing in a article that actual wolverine mating seasons come up in like 2 months and he just brushes it off like it has nothingg to do with him, but 2 months later he is always on you, never leaving you alone and just constantly touching on you 🙂‍↕️ always needing you just more than usual and then you remember the article and tease him abt it bc of his recent behavior and he’s like that has NOTHING to do with it. like are we sure about that sir
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catcze · 1 year
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Helloooo. I really like your work! Its really well written! 🥰 Now then...You want Wriothesley thoughts...i can give you one which popped up in my head.
!!Suggestive content might be ahead!!!
I've been thinking about Swinger!Wriothesley for a while now. Just imagine...A friend drags you with them in a swinger club...You've never been much of a fan of those but then...with your drink in your hand...You see him leaning on the bar.
A black string vest decorating his scarred chest and tight leather trousers hugging his muscular thighs.
I'll just leave it here like that 🤭✨
(I didnt know if i had to put some warning there tho...i hope you can forgive me if i did sth wrong 🥺)
!! Hey baby dw about it !! No warnings needed here and you submitted ur thoughts vv correctly !! Mwah mwah thank you for sharing !! ♡♡ And thank you for enjoying the stuff I write tee hee ♡
Baby i will b honest with you, i know little to nothingg about swing dance and its, like, vibe + culture (so if i get any info wrong pleak feel free to correct me !!) BUT MAN you are whole selling me on the idea of swinger!Wrio with that description of his outfit alone;;;;
I MEANN 👀👀👀 black string vest and the leather trousers ??? hugging his thighs ??? babe you've given me a whole ass IMAGE now hasdkjs
And lowkey i feel like swinger!Wriothesley wouldbe super smooth when he talks to the reader— pulling out the suave moves and the coy smiles. He'd pay for more of your drinks, if you'd like. Whatever you want, you just have to say the word and he'll let the bartender know. I feel like he's the type to absolutely sweep you off your feet when he offers you to dance, too! The kind to guide you through movements that you're not familiar with, the kind who pulls you back to the bar once he's deemed that you've had enough of a taste of dancing for the night. and OH the way he would guide you onto the barstool, holding you steady despite your shaky legs, and plops you down safely. How he would stand and lean beside where you sit, just so he can catch you if you stumble a little from your post-dance jitters ♡♡♡
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Hi love! I just followed you a second ago after reading some of your fics! Your writing is amazing, so I wanted to request a fluffy soulmate au with Pietro where the world is black and white until you make physical contact with your soulmate? Feel free to go wherever with this, but can you make the reader’s personality similar to Pietro’s? (I see too many fics where the reader is all shy and a rule-follower and such and I’m nothing like that) I hope you can do this!!🥰
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pairing: Pietro Maximoff x reader (Marvel)
word count: 1.9k
warnings: nothingg
summary: Reader is on the run from Hydra and has caused trouble on the streets. She encounters the Avengers and fights them, but what happens if her soulmate is among the Avengers?
a/n: tysm for my being my first request haha sorry if its not thatt fluffy or if you didn't expect it go this way, i tried to incorporate your ideas in the imagine ! i just added my little twist
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"Fuck," you muttered as the Avengers slowly caved around you.
You were on the run from Hydra after having several experiments and tests done on you. They created gene mutations and then made DNA replications, causing you to gain the ability to create clones. You were the first successful patient they had, but you were fortunate enough to escape from the hideout.
But they wouldn't leave you alone, taking every chance they could to retrieve you, but you fought back -gaining attention from the general public- and that's how you ended up in this situation.
You were also running from the Avengers as they tried to capture you for causing trouble around the streets and using unauthorized powers.
You heard the slightest movement behind you, whipping your head, you saw Black Widow; her eyes widened as she realized you heard her. She threw a punch over your head, but you ducked in time.
As you were bent over, you kicked her legs to the side and she fell on her hands, before pushing herself off the ground.
Sudden arms wrapped around you and you were lifted off the ground, Black Widow began to charge at you but you brought your legs up and kicked her in the chest. Twisting your body, you recognized Captain America was gripping you, you brought back your elbow and jabbed in the face.
A single spike of pain struck the man and his hold on you loosened, taking the opportunity you escaped from his hold.
"Is that all you got?" You said to him, smirking to yourself.
Using your abilities, you created multiple copies of yourself, tons of them ran around you as you then quietly joined them. The Avengers watched in awe as they lost track of you among the clones.
Running as fast as you can along with the other clones, a sudden command was yelling out and then you felt a surge of power from Wanda Maximoff hit you in the stomach, knocking you to the ground. A flash of light appeared and you were suddenly pinned to the ground, the back of your head hitting the concrete.
Your eyes squinted as you grunted and hissed, confused at how somebody could tell which clone was the real one.
Opening your eyes, you felt your heart stop.
The world exploded with colour. Every colour you could think of was plastered everywhere. The shades and the tints were so vivid and astonishing. The dramatic change of atmosphere left you speechless, your eyes darted everywhere, gazing at the different tones of objects and people.
You felt yourself become uneasy at the transformation and you realised you still felt the weight on top of you. An anxious feeling rested on your stomach as you slowly made eye contact with the man on top of you.
Pietro Maximoff. You had heard about him and his sister on the news and at Hydra bases. His eyes rested on you as he was in awe from being in contact with his soulmate.
You never believed you had a soulmate. That is how reality is. Not everybody had a soulmate. The odds weren't in favour for only a few, and you believed you were part of the smaller ratio. The way your life progressed, you had eventually lost hope, but here he was.
His gaze was still on you, focusing on the different shades on your face, the crimson red blood that dripped down from your rosy lips. The various tones in your hair and the slight discolouration on your cheeks from dirt.
"W-what?" You managed to get you, your voice croaking. Pietro couldn't bring himself to say anything; he found you so beautiful, even as you lay there confused, his hold on you loosened as and he shifted back from you.
Sudden energy tightened around your body, and you shrieked and thrashed under his hold. You felt yourself slowly lose air as you felt all your insides clasp and tighten. You grabbed your throat, desperate for it to reach your lungs.
Pietro's eyes widened in panic as he tried to find the source of your problem, his eyes widened as he saw the red energy that floated around your body.
"Stop it, sister!" He yelled, his thick accent evident in his tone.
Suddenly, you felt your body loosen up as you gasped for air. Your hands loosened around your throat as you slowly sat up. Looking around, you saw the confused expressions on the Avengers' faces. Your eyes rested on Wanda Maximoff as her eyes flashed a red before speaking up.
"She's his soulmate," She announced.
A silence fell among everyone before Tony Stark walked up to her, his mask opening up to reveal his bewildered face.
"Wait, wait, wait, how do you know?" He asked.
"I read his mind."
Tony sighed and rubbed his face, "Great, we have a Hydra agent who is soulmates with an Avenger."
"I am not a Hydra Agent," You glared at him as your voice came out strong.
Tony sarcastically chuckled before muttering something under his breath, "Go on, somebody tie her."
You felt a hand on your shoulder abruptly pull you up and shove both of your hands together and began to tie them together with an electrical impulse handcuffs to prevent you from escaping.
"Hey, watch it," Pietro softly pushed Steve away from you as he finished the final bindings of the cuffs. Steve had an amused expression as he saw Pietro's sudden protectiveness over you.
"Alright, bring her to the quinjet. We'll see if we can really trust her or not." Tony declared, already making his way inside.
The other Avengers slowly made their way inside and you felt a hand on your shoulder, softly urging you on to go inside. Peering behind you, you saw Pietro there, a small smile on his face.
The other Avengers sat in a distance from you two, including Wanda as Pietro whispered into her area telling her to give them some space. You sat on the floor, your back and arms against the wall as Pietro sat beside you.
"What's your name?" You snorted at this, funny to think that after meeting your soulmate and now tagging along with the Avengers, that'd be the first question.
"Y/n." You bleakly responded.
"I'm Pietro Ma-"
"-I know." You interrupted, his brow rose amusingly. "You and your sister were a pretty popular topic back at Hydra. You actually allowed those guys to experiment with you?" You addressed a popular rumour.
"And you didn't?"
You felt slightly offended by this; you worked your ass off to escape from those guys. "Haha, no, Pietro." You sarcastically said.
A comfortable silence fell among you two, Pietro's gaze resting on your face. You felt slightly nervous and a mixture of butterflies erupting from your stomach as you slowly tapped your fingers against each other.
"W-what are you staring at?"
"I'm thinking about how I got so lucky," He flirted with you, taking a piece of unkempt hair and tucking it behind your ear. Each touch sending electricity through your body.
"Wow, look at you. You're going to make me blush." You teased him, nudging his side with your tied-up hands.
"Thank you, Pietro." You whispered.
Pietro chuckled, a confused expression on his face, "What for? I had you pinned on the ground."
You rolled your eyes, "I mean, I can see now. The world looks so different now that I've met you. It's so just breathtaking."
"I thought my soulmate would be from Sokovia," he chuckled.
"Oh, am I not what you wanted?" You teased.
"You're better than the Sokovian girls," He winked at you, causing you to look away in embarrassment.
You then each began to talk about your lives and your stories to each other. You found Pietro to be easygoing and brave, he seemed to have a very strong relationship with his twin sister and he introduced a bunch of the Avengers. He also apologised for her attacking you earlier on, regret laced in his voice.
"Wow, look at you lovebirds," Natasha spoke out, interrupting the conversation you were in. "We're here now, but Y/n, you're going to need to stay in a prison-type cell thing for now." You nodded, avoiding eye contact with Pietro.
"But why?" Pietro asked, concern contoured on his face.
"We don't know if we can trust her," Natasha said as she walked away, leaving the pair to think over what's going to happen.
You got up as Pietro followed behind you, "I'm not going to let them do anything to you, I promise." He whispered in your ear as you both made your way inside Avengers Tower.
"Wow, what are you going to do, run past them?" You joked around, trying to lighten the mood.
"I did a lot more than run past you, didn't I?"
You made your way into the containment area of the tower, Steve and Pietro following behind you.
Steve removed the cuffs on your hands and you looked at them to see red marks around your wrists, you winced as they were sore from having them tightly secured on you. Pietro reached out to your wrists and slowly rubbed them, soothing the red skin. You blushed at the mini hand massage and gave him a small thank you.
"Alright, Y/n. You're going to stay in this cell for a little while as we figure out what we're going to do with you," He ushered you inside, breaking the contact you had with Pietro. He closed the bar door and locked it, "Pietro can stay here and visit you because well, he's your soulmate, but you can't leave this room. At least, for now."
You tightly gripped the bars as you watched Pietro's concerned look on his face. Steve left the room, leaving you and Pietro alone.
Although it was unusual circumstances, that was how you and Pietro's relationship grew. He sat across from you just in arms reach but he longed for you. He wanted nothing more than to touch you, kiss you, and hold you. He visited you every day for two weeks and would have hours and day-long conversations with you. Every day was something different, and he felt blessed by the heavens to have a soulmate, that is you.
Wanda would come and visit occasionally, curious to what had peaked her brother's interests lately. The Maximoff twins had a certain charm, one that was unbreakable. If one twin is happy, then the other would also be happy.
The day came when you would be released from the small room, the Avengers had declared that you would join them for a trial for a short time. You were beyond thrilled and Pietro was equally as happy. They found your abilities to be useful and they would be able to use you to help stop Hydra; after attempting to convince them for hours that you weren't involved with them, as well as that it was against your will.
As the door finally opened, you crashed into Pietro's arms, holding him tightly as you inhaled his scent.
"It feels good to touch you," his thick accent evident when he speaks. You chuckled softly, nuzzling your face into his arms.
One day you believed you had no soulmate but the next hour, your world burst with colours. The odds were in your favour.
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clayisdead204 · 2 years
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The Truth
i am no one i cannot do this anymore over the cource of time i realised lying to others is easiest thing in the world what isnt thou is lying to your ownself i have been lying non stop to others since i got to a age of making sense of the presence of self and others in layman language you can say since 5th or 6th grade . i did not have a difficult childhood i had a pretty normal childhood like others thou yeah my mother had depression at that time even before that so yeah i have here there memories of her shouting and crying but those are very few memories in general i had everything normal . we came to ambala back when i was in 3rd grade i made some great friends but since the beginning i could not score i just did not like studying i found it a huge burden i was and am awful at maths even basic calculations dad used to shout and hit me on my head and shout in my face every sunday since 3rd grade to what i remember is 7th grade then he used to just check on me once a month and realize what a failure i was being dumb at each subject usually were sundays cause only that day he had time for me to pay attention at me dont get me wrong he is not at all horrible he is the best father in the world just it was his badluck or something that he got me as his daughter he worked in a private sector so he works really hard and as he aint any billionaire he knows how cruel the real world can get i know how much he loves me and how he just tried to prepare me for the cruel reality the way that he could maybe he was not taught better maybe he didnt know better i dont know but i understand and never in the world would blame him but to speak my truth sundays are horrible till date to me i am not a depressed person you know who you can just see crying or anything all time but somewhere still whenever i remember those sundays till my 10th grade how each sunday i was so scared that dad would start shouting or hitting me telling me how dumb i am and how i will fail and not be able to pass or even the days after ptm the silence in the car way back . but the most horrible of it all was that the very next day dad again smiled and felt sorry for shouting at me or hitting me i could see that he still believed in me somewhere the most horrible was that he still didnt give up on me never every sunday he would shout hit say things to me but every other day he was back to trusting me loving me and being the best father that he is . then i passed 10th got into 11th and now my parents started fighting horribly i hate it i hate it i hate ittt!!! i am so tired of them fighting it came to being so horrible and mom will need to leave now . its not like i am shocked or anything i always knew how there was no real love between my parents how they were just together for the sake of it like most of the indian couples but all this fighting has made me weak and my helplessness makes it even more horrible how i could never do anything from the time that i was kid till today to stop their fights they fighted always just earlier it was not every sunday it was like once in 2 months horrible fights ending up with mom getting depressive seizures where she would cry or shout or just like paralyze and i would just cry and cry and run to other houses get help or call nani aur masi to help i remember mom being on this medicines made her sleep alot i would just be in the room watching tv alll alone again its not like anythign special i had trauma or anything like any other kid i would go in evening to park play with other kids but i remember being more overly excited to go to the park no matter what was happening around me i didnt care if it was raining or parents were fighting or i had a exam nothingg would stop me and its still like that i always have this overly urge to leave the house i didnt quite understand why i was like this i knew other kids they were also excited to go out . and once i went to play i would not return before like it was awfully dark and again same is with me now
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