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[harryandstanley]

Big love 2 my mutuals i love u but i dotn have the balls to tell u

[ererokii]

Excuse me! I would like to make a request of a headcanon of shoto/mirio meeting and falling in love with izuku's older sister(reader) while they went to visit or to spend the night there. Lov ur writting 💕

Aww thank you so much! Unfortunately I don’t write for Mirio so I went for Shou instead! I loved this, this was so cute 🥺🥺

Shouto knew about you and may have only visited Izuku’s house for that purpose only.

Course he wouldn’t say it, he also liked to spend time with Izuku as well.

The first time he went to visit, he expected to be greeted by his mother instead, but no. You had

A big bright smile and a warming hug was all it took to make the blood rush to his cheeks.

He didn’t even know you were Izuku’s sister, he’s seen you around school before, being a second year which makes you a year older than him.

You looked nothing like him. He assumed you looked more like your father.

Automatically he started to admire you

Since that small encounter, Shouto tries to visit the Midoriya household as much as possible

Study Session? Guess we’ll study math. Is your mom cooking? Can I have dinner with you? Wanna do some weight training? Well we can do it at your house

Izuku was oblivious to his sneaky ways

Sometimes when he would spend the nights, Izuku would be doing something that made him leave the room, causing you and Todoroki to be in the same room for a short amount of time.

He would be very nervous but wouldn’t say/ show it.

“Say Shouto-”

He would be ready to answer any question you have for him, even if it could be the weirdest.

“Can you sneeze icicles?”

“No. It isn’t possible for me. But I never thought about it.”

His senior would laugh and make jokes with him from time to time, sometimes even having inside jokes with him that Midoriya didn’t know about.

From time to time he would spot you in the main room in the late hours of the night as he made his roundabouts to the bathroom. Of course he would get concerned and ask if everything was alright.

Each time you always nodded and invited him to talk with you, which he obeyed rather quickly. He felt as if he was getting closer to you each time.

Even times where something was bugging you, you trusted your feelings with Todoroki, this made his heart soar with joy. Some things you didn’t even tell your own brother.

In a way, Todoroki felt bad for using his friend as an excuse to see his pretty sister but if this was what he had to do, he would.

Your hugs were amazing. He felt as if he could melt on the spot. His thoughts would be filled with boy things as he pressed up against you, relishing in the warmth of your body.

Don’t get him started on the cheek kisses you would give him as he left every time.

Days where you were taking a bit longer to give him a kiss on the cheek, he would somehow stall Midoriya long enough until you finally remembered what you had to do.

“Midoriya, I think I left my book in your room.”

“Huh? What’s in your hand?”

“..I meant my pencil. Can you go check?”

Confused he would do as told.

Still noticing you haven’t gotten the message yet, he would clear his throat to gain your attention.

Once he knows you’re looking his way, he would purposely turn his head, scratching, rubbing or tapping his cheek with pure intention of getting a kiss. He’s actually a little shit.

Of course your brain would wrack for anything before you gasp in realization as you got up. “Todoroki I’m so sorry!”

You were a bit smaller than him so you always had to stand on your tiptoes. You would cradle one side of his face with both of your hands and bring him down, pressing your lips against his cheek. A smug little smirk would appear on his lips as his cheeks burst with red.

“H-Huh?! Y/N why are you kissing Todoroki-kun?!”

“Oh Zuku relax!” you scoffed and pulled away, a bit too quickly for Todoroki’s liking. “It’s just a small kiss. Don’t even worry about it!”

You yourself couldn’t deny the butterflies that popped in your stomach.

Each time he would leave, he would always say bye to you last and would give you a hug, a much longer and tighter hug than he would anyone else.

You always sent him home with a hug, a kiss to the cheek or a smile and wave. Most days it was a combination of everything, which made him extremely happy.

Maybe using your friend to see his sister wasn’t a bad thing after all.

[dazeythescout]

hi clari, want u to know i’m thinking of u <3 i know yesterday was rough & you don’t deserve that at all !!!

bc i wanna focus on u and not The Evil that had infiltrated your haven of a blog, what is your favorite fruit? and no you can’t answer with ‘sexy m’

i ate a shit ton of coconut the other day and i went 😩

also been thinking about language a lot and belonging to places !!!! oh shit and i keep forgetting to reply to your letter, i’m sorry i’m replying AS WE SPEAK ok we aren’t speaking but u catch my drift y’know yolo dude ok bye i’ve devolvedbinto surfer speak and it’s horrendous i love you!!!! <3

((god the adhd really gave me NO choice today))

hi ilan i love u so much 💞💕💕❣️💗💖❣️💘

right now i think my fav is mangos or apples....maybe frozen blueberries...or grapes 🥰🥰 @punkrockers is in my top ten fav fruits though sorry :/

i’ve never eaten straight up coconut but i used to eat coconut oil by the spoonfuls hdhfk thinking about it now is making me nauseous

make a post abt language do it do it this sounds so interesting language & belonging are things i think abt so much i wanna see ur thoughts do it!!! also omg i keep forgetting to check my email okay i’ll write back sometime today LOV U MWAH

[ackermans-freedom-inc]

Me

Just me and everything I write

IM JOKING BUT THERE IS A LOT THERE! I HAVE A FEW SERIES OKAY IM GONNA RUN BC I HATE PROMOTING MYSELF BYE

I recommend myself some u too 🥺 ur so sweet and amazing I lov ur writing sm

[eijispumpkin]

helloooo sending love ur way for wtvr reason, even if you're having a good day im giving u a virtual hug to make it better :)

also I just reread like ribbons, worn bright on my sleeve (which was great and heartwarming btw) and I'm just thinking, how do you come up with these titles?? like !!!

cuz the title of my pics are literally so boring I can't ur so creative and big brained w o w

#rimiappreciationpost

ok bye :D

awwww thank you omg u are so sweet!!! ;w; i lov that u reread, aaa... thank u <3 <3

as for titles, it depends!!! most of my older stuff have song lyric titles (ribbons, for example, comes from this vienna teng song), usually from the song i listened to on loop while writing them. lately though i've been moving more towards wholly original titles bc i want to get better at Making Titles Up, so things like that come from... idk the. uh. the vibes??? or like, finding some kind of poetic way to phrase the vibes??? i wish i could explain this better, i just... words. i like words. words pretty. pretty words make title pretty. yes.

[to1vity]

hey i just requested the badboy!chan scenario and ran out of room 2 say that u can add onto or into the plot to make it better ofc ,, and i lov ur writing so So much And cant wait to read more of both too and cravity !! especially jeyou + minhee au's hehe , they're two of my ults but im also ot10 n ot9 . whew the mf struggle tbh ..... anyways !!! i just luv ur blog sm 😸 hav a good day and week n forever okok bye 😿

UMMMMM OKAY ... i have to hold back my tears reading this i literally cant believe people like my writing so for u to say this i am BREAKING DOWN thank you so much it means more than you know really <333 stuff like this really motivates me to keep writing so seriously thanks a million

alsoooo i am totally down to write more jeyou (hes my bias so yes mhm) and im 100% going to write more minhee bc i love him (who doesnt??)

[alukaforyou]

and ALSO sry to post bs on main im mostly just talking to myself in my personal tag half the time so yolo, no need to respond to this or reassure me or whatever but these days i licherally question how much of my - sry to sound like a broken record - bs is dépression or just my shité mentality, like i rly was not designed to last, huh? physically or mentally? lol. like who gets motion sickness on swings lmao anyways. i think i give up too easily. theres a bunch of reasons y but i dont feel like saying. its a different thing to kind of kno something, and to admit / speak it (confront it). i could psychoanalyze myself all day and tell u exactly why some things are the way they are but its too unpleasant to neatly state stuff like that u kno?? like... *i kno* but im not gonna say i kno. anywho, i digress. so i give up easily and kind of have a defeatist mentality too, its so exhausting lool. actually its weird cuz duality of man, i'll be rly determined / stubborn abt doing some stuff and not care abt fear of failure with certain things but when it comes to My Life / My Future i just think i cant rly do anything? i mean that literally like i got no skillz *laugh crying emoji* not particularly good at anything, and art - the only thing im maybe arguably ok at - i dont wanna do as a career, that is art therapy for me i dont feel like commercializing it. not interested in working in my major, maybe things wouldve been different if i went to culinary or cosmetology school?? that sounds fun. or if i majored in bio cuz i was so good at that, or even if i majored in japanese language or literature or idk. but no regrets tho cuz i learned a lot abt drawing in art school which i can use for myself. and hmm i like staying home and not rly going out of my way to meet new ppl so connections what? i h8 hearing how most opportunities come through the ppl u kno cuz its true and ik like 10 ppl tops so hm very sexi of me :^) i just feel like im p much f*cked and it rly doesnt help that i have no functional dreams, goals, or aspirations nor the confidence and drive to work towards anything so ah ok cool. u kno suga's songs "the last" and "so far away" ? that p much sums up my feels minus the part abt having to deal w fame obviously LOL. its so easy being a student (for me at least) but being a good student isnt really worth a whole lot in the """""real world""""" and the current education system doesnt even rly prepare u for reality or w.e like Deep Sigh also the political climate rly lookin like shité out there like hmmmmm do i even wanna try so hard to be here anymore tho??? also going back to the self confidence thing, ya idk her LOOOOL like it doesnt very much bother me tho? i really, honest to god have no idea what my redeeming qualities even are. being nice? and my mindset re - tolerance and compassion for others, etc, ya im rly proud of that actually but besides that i mean like what can i Do tho like hm im not particularly good at anything also im hideous like uglee but thats ok too like none of this Bothers me, thats just literally how i Am so ok fine, but i feel like it makes it hard for me to exist in the world i happen to be in??? and i realize im speaking with a huge bias here cuz my brain is totally out of whack im p sure if some1 saw me / read this they would lit be like um u literally do not have it hard girl, which is fair ur kinda right actually from an objective pov, probably? its amazing how um. hard? of a time my brain is having given my relatively ok circumstances but thats just how it is ig. and if i may quote shakespeare - o full of scorpions is my mind. and its weird cuz duality of man - i actually have a lot of good times w friends and whatever i have a lot of fun, im not even very Sad or in Agony its all very a mild? sensation? but that might be because my plan b is to simply *** so nothing rly fazes me anymore lool.

its usually a v confusing emotion, im either feeling happy, or if not that, very ???? im literally that duwang quote get a feeling so complicated its just "ajdjsjsja" idk its not overly repulsive and upsetting im like :s LOL u kno wat at this point idek what im even saying anymore but its good that im writing whatever cuz im gonna need to look back on this later and organize my thoughts for presentation cuz remember i have a s.o now???? i wanna let them kno so we r on the same page, and i dont feel like im tricking them, i thought it over more and there are like 4? major cards i wanna lay out on the table early on and they are 1. im not that close w my family emotionally so do not seek their approval or expect to deal with them much. 2. personal ideology / political views like im bi lmao and pro lgbt if that wasnt obvious also i dont rly wanna be around racists / terfs etc and if ur right wing or not on that respect women juice uhhh bye.. 3. my weak ass mentality how i might Maybe *** in the future like no promise but errrr theres one more but its a little more negotiable and also too early to discuss so i wont mention it but i already got the first two outta the way so ya. theres the most troublesome of all, #3. the last thing i wanna do is traumatize someone that loves me (and i love back) with that kinda thing, its too late for my dear friends whom i love, sorry i didnt kno i was gonna be like this LOL yall already got attached but its a little different with my s.o cuz i feel like its not too late to uh.... stop getting as attached LMAO like dam i've known my girls for almost 10 years whereas i've only known my s.o for like a month.

and this is totally not gonna come across right but if my s.o very understandably desides to dump me id be SO RELIEVED LIKE WOOOO ok cool cuz like essentially what i'd be saying is you are getting attached to someone who's future is not as stable as other people, including u. *huge exhale* from the bottom of my heart, my bad lol. and then i probs wont ever get involved w. a s.o again, sorry to reference snk in 2020 but remember how e*win smith is single cuz he doesnt kno when he will ***? big mood. i have never acted out on my interests before but i was like ok for once lets go off the shits and do smth ooc, i uh... didnt expect for it to actually go anywhere tho so now im like ???? i shouldve thought it through more tho, like i felt low key irresponsible af and selfish and dumb for getting involved w. someone even tho i Know how I Am like...... Also i just lov being single and staying home and chilling alone lmao like i seriously...... never get loney....

ok so what was i talking abt? how the passage of time makes me nervous cuz idk how i can manage to keep up w it??? how i feel like i cant do jack shit???? that life is hard???? and maybe a bih just wants to rest? permanently?????? i think the most irritating part of all for me, like what i am most mad about at myself is that i have no dream. yikes. naruto, do u think thats sad? well yoongi said its okay, and what counts is just being happy, so i will console myself and forgive her and idk just try my best for the time being??

[asthmark]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you’re supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you’re beautiful inside and out! 💖💞💖 (HI KAI YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING HOW ARE YOUU i hope you’ve been doing well and i’m lov u a lot and you’re amazing and the sweetest and i just have a lot of appreciation for you ok bye

HHHHH I LOVE U SO MUCH LEYNA UR SO SWEET AND TALENTED AND STUNNING JUST AN ALL ROUNDER!!!!1 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️ im doing well!! kind of unmotivated to write but what r u gonna do :/ this really made me smile though so thank u so much :((((( i appreciate u a ton baby!!! :’)

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               ❛     GEU  SONEUL  NAEMIREOJWO  SAVE  ME  SAVE ME   --     ❜

complete  the  song   boi     //   @bcyfrnd   .

[regialux-a]

2am kh3 thoughts:

(warning bc there are some canon char’s i rlly don’t care that much about and i know are some of ur favs)

aight im like literally not that mad

i went in with low expectations bc squenix are generally convoluted shit writers who can make a fun game and i had fun so [shrug emoji]

first of all i am Concerned about sora like ummmmmmm sora come home ur dinner is rEALLY FUCKING COLD NOW PLS STOP WORRYING UR MOTHER

secondly, ISAISAISAISAISAISAISAISAISA 

(if u dont know isa is my lowkey fav and ive had a blog for him since 2011 and this was honestly more than i could have asked for him, i would have been happy with his “death” but adsKLASDFJSLA HE WAS SO HAPPY AND BEAUTIFUL I LOV HIM!!!!)

any re: riku: honestly not mad. his character arc came to a close a couple of games ago and further development would just be pushing it. kh1-2 was riku’s development and now it was other people’s turn. i liked the contrast between how riku and sora handle things and the direct contrast between his present and past self. like what a boy, what a glow up. would have liked to have seen more of his interactions but thats true for everyone. he had nice shoes, sensible choice for running around. 

re: kairi: ya i dont actually like canon kairi that much bc theres just nothing there to like. the first games she did like........not much. she did it well but it was still not much. now she had time to do stuff and boy did they drop the ball. also her voice acting was bad. she was just. boring. but thats kind of consistent soooooo ??? anyway they gotta figure out ways of writing dramatic tension tht doesnt involve damsels in distress. shocking i know, but it can be done :0 anyway ya like not mad bc it was my expectations with past kairi writing and current squenix writing of female characters. like was it bad? yeah. am i surprised or upset by it? nah i knew it was coming. the manga and rp writers do her better.

re: sora: WHAT A GOOD GOLDEN BOY HE HAD SO MUCH CHARACTER I LOVE HIM i dont remember what other thoughts i had about him thats it

re: axel: i like axel anyway so i always want to see more of him (even just like a short scene of him and kairi training) but he got a solid chunk of screen time so ya nice

re: vanitas: ngl i dont think i’ve thought about vanitas since i played bbs and seeing him on my dash so he was entertaining but ya i didnt have any expectations for him i didn’t rlly care soz

re: roxas and xion: they made some hella fucking dramatic entrances, axel should be proud

re: isa: LKJAFJ;ADJOIVS;J;A#[ASDVKL;ANDFGVKLASDMC[P#Sjfdnvjakds

frozen world sucked but i hate frozen. that, tangled, and caribbean were too much of just watching the movies. why did caribbean open with such a long song it was painful. also caribbean had tHE WORST VOICE ACTING

OH YA AND XIGBAR FUCKING JUMPING TO HIS DEATH WTF THAT WAS DARK

SPEAKING OF XIGBAR ???????????????????????????? (those are my thoughts on that)

the game mechanics were rlly fun i liked smashing things 

OH IENZO WAS CUTE!!

a list of people who can Get It (eye emoji): riku, yozora, young xeha, isa, axel

ya thats it bye

[piraticalarchive]

hi i jus want u to kno i lov ur blog and i've admired it for some time and i think ur the absolute bees knees k bYE

ahhh mate, this was the best thing to wake up to !!  i love your writing and i’m so glad we’re mutuals - you’re awesome. Got it? good. Thanks for existing and thanks for being such an amazing presence on my dash. I can’t wait to see more !!

[stormdive]

HEY these are from last month before my sudden disappearance ( i’ve been moving to a new apartment and haven’t had internet half the time, and haven’t had energy the other half , so there’s the reason for that ) but I didn’t feel right cleaning up my ooc and deleting the post they were commented on without acknowledging all the kind words even if it’s super late to do so. SO      

dromii replied to your post “i’ve been feeling pretty insecure about my portrayal here lately so...”

Okay but, listen friend, I only just followed you, but your blog captivated me because of how freaking unique it is in the roleplaying community????? Like, for example, I love the shattering effect you've got, the aesthetic is top notch??? And your writing, from what I've seen, looks beautiful too????? I'm cry?????? Seriously, I could gush about your blog and I literally only just followed you okay.

okay but u listen friend , part of that aforementioned insecurity made me pretty hesitant in following new people , and so ngl i saw your blog a few days before i’d made this post and chickened tf out . which is ridiculous because you have lovely writing and you’re clearly sweet as heck and i’ve followed plenty of people just for the pleasure of following along their roleplay experiences without any expectations of them wanting to interact with me , so the moral of this story is that anxiety turns me into A Fool™ . anyways i’m glad you like the aesthetic of this blog because Graphic Design is My Passion and all I can do is try my best . i don’t know where to start with how A+ your choice to take from norse mythology within the context of Cloud’s narrative , but being captivated by the uniqueness of it all is a mutual feeling . ( p.s. i hope your internet stuff gets sorted out soon ! )

maenadian replied to your post “i’ve been feeling pretty insecure about my portrayal here lately so...”

i lov u mem ur so good at any character u pick up GOSH

your just saying this b/c i basically only play strong pretty girls or doormat men and those are larx’s favorite people

jk thank you mars ilu and thank you for following me around everywhere even though tooth kicks every muse out of the house eventually anyways

erromes replied to your post “i’ve been feeling pretty insecure about my portrayal here lately so...”

smothers u with hugs i love u so much and i love the depth and love that you put into all of ur characters ;___;/ also ur a big nerd

you come into MY house

call ME a nerd ??

bless you for always listening to my ramble about all these characters you have no reason to care about and engaging with me in those conversations anyways samcat you are truly a better friend than i deserve just for that i swear 98% of people wouldn’t even bother pretending to care at this point let alone get all excited like you do ! ilu and also i can’t wait for aqua to adopt nahia bye .

[moonsluvr]

HIII SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO READ THIS I WAS BUSY WHEN U POSTEF IT SKSJSJ and also sorry for the long ass review but ‼️ this deserved it bye

ABI. MY LOVE. WTF. first of all i am so so honored and proud that such a talented author such as yourself participated in *my* collab like omfg AND THE FIC WAS SO GOOD HOLY everything about it is so perfect i can’t even describe with words (except i did with almost 800– bye). ANW i wanted to share some of my thoughts as i was reading because . i have many .

SPOILERS BENEATH BTW !!

You fell in love for the first time on a sunny spring morning, at the age of 6. — oh my gosh. even the first line hits so hard. the description of it being ‘a sunny spring morning’ adds to the vibe of the scene!! i’m nostalgic for 6 year old me already

so when Heeseung proposed to play hide and seek you got excited to try something new and more fun. — ABI THIS IS MY BIGGEST WEAKNESS WHAT??? i am ltrly in love with the ‘they brought something new and different in my life’ trope ugh,, and the way heeseung loses the game to comfort them– they're so cute <//3

A moment so sweet that later you wrote down in your personal diary with great detail, you didn't want to forget that moment for anything in the world. — i’m combusting rn HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME??? DO U KNOW HOW MY HEART REACTS ?? ur writing is too good wtf !!!

It was something new and fresh, like lilies of the valley covered with drops of morning dew. But what could you know? You were just a little brat. — your words are somehow always the best i don’t understand how you manage to outdo urself every time bye

It was as if all the memories you had shared together were shattered into thousands of pieces, just like his heart and the letter he had written for you, telling you even his deepest feelings for you. — NOOOOO YOU CAN;T DO THIS heeseung pls omfg

The second time you thought you fell in love was a winter afternoon when you were 16 years old. — have i tolf you your writing is my absolute fav? Because it is. AND PLS I LUV THE REPETITION ITS MY FAVVV LITERARY DEVICE its so chefs kiss

as well as a cute and innocent feeling inside your stomach that tickled your silly heart — yes my heart is so silly it can’t stop madly beating for you

Was all this real? It's as if the whole world had stopped, time ceased to exist, the birds that were flying were frozen in mid-air, and all sounds disappeared, leaving only the rapid beating of your heart pounding your chest with force. — sigh. what more can i say. i’m speechless. nothing compares to your writing fr 10/10 i’mcrying at how good this is

Both of your eyes already said a lot, although it was still not enough for two people who had loved each other so much and then stopped knowing about the other. — STOP PLAYING W MY FEELINGS I AM NOT THE ONE ABI

"Long time no see," it was as if you had become strangers, though practically You were "you're taller now." — this is such an amazing reunion pls i love how they immediately hug but there’s still some awkwardness (?) it’s so realistic and good and MWAH I LOVE IT SM

He was still the same Heeseung as always. — this is so fcking cute and for what

You felt your heart break a second time for the same person. — …. I’m sobbing what a rollercoaster HEESEUNG COME BACK BABE I MISS U SM

But looking into your eyes always gave him a little hope and he held tight to it, refusing to let go. — brb gonna go loSE MY FUCKING MIND RQ

Both of you are left with many unspoken words about to come out of your throats, but you had to swallow them. — say it. say the words. do it you cowards,.

He was still the most beautiful person you've ever seen and you think you can never get over Lee Heeseung — i know i sound like a broken record but your writing genuinely makes me feel so many emotions this is framed so beautifully like a literal masterpiece and i think there couldn’t be a better writer, ever.

"I never wanted to leave you." — gosh. currently typing from my grave, actually.

How dare he say love didn't exist when you felt it with every fiber of your body every time you looked into his eyes? — THE FEELINGS I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW. OH, IF I COULD DESCRIBE IT.

those orbs that you loved so much and from which you had fled so many times. — OUU THE CONTRAST my brain is malfunctioning as we speak

"Hold me again, I've missed your arms more than anything in the world, I can't let you go, not this time." —

the only thing left in the place were your butterflies that finally fluttered together. — this fic is everything to me omg i hold this endlessly dear to my heart

The first and only time you fell in love was that spring morning 14 years ago. — THIS IS SUCH A GOOD ENDING ISHEFOSFHWI IM SCREAMING INTO MY FISTS WTFFF it honestly ties everything tgt so well and ugh the way it circles back to the beginning it’s so good i love how you nicely wrapped it all together. and the whole concept and theme for this is just so good it makes me want to spontaneously combust.

back 2 u — lee heeseung.

pairing. heeseung x f!reader

genre. childhood friends to strangers to lovers, mutual pining, fluff, slight angst.

warning(s). swearing, mentions of bruises.

summary. butterflies always found their home again in your stomach whenever you saw heeseung wrapped in the warm spring breeze, destiny and the decisions you both make in life make your paths cross several times unintentionally, although they repeatedly parted ways, in the end you always end up going back to the other.

note. this is my part for my beloved @moonsluvr's "in between the lines" collab. i hope you enjoy it cause it's especially for you! ik it's late but happy birthday love, i love you.

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You fell in love for the first time on a sunny spring morning, at the age of 6.

"Hi, I'm Lee Heeseung!"

You looked at the small hand that had multiple paint stains of all colors that was extended towards you to take it. This was the first time you saw him and the first thing that caught your attention, apart from the fact that he was almost completely covered in paint making his clothes a rainbow, was his bright smile which was missing a tooth and his beautiful eyes.

"Hi." your voice was barely above a whisper as you shook his hand shyly, noticing how it left a red stain on yours.

The boy who said his name was Heeseung stared at you, waiting for you to keep talking so he could know your name. Only after a few seconds in silence did you realize why his eyes didn't even want to blink, in case he missed any detail, when you finished telling him your name you were already holding back a few tears due to the embarrassment you felt.

One of the first things your mom told you was that you should always introduce yourself to the children who approached you and it was the first thing you forgot.

"Nice to meet you! Do you want to be my friend? I was painting a drawing I made myself, if you want you can help me." if you had to be honest you never met someone so energetic and cheerful before. The friends you made up until now were the same as you and didn't dare to leave the comfort of your routine and relate to someone outside your small circle.

You remembered your older brothers and how they had plenty of friends and always went out to play in the street with them and sometimes you used to feel jealous about it, so you would give yourself a chance to make new friends even if it was hard at first.

So you accepted. But in the short span of a few minutes you were already on the floor holding your knee with some tears running down your cheeks, without any teacher around to help you.

Now you were beginning to regret making that decision, you were used to playing quietly or just walking through the halls while talking about anything with your classmates, so when Heeseung proposed to play hide and seek you got excited to try something new and more fun.

But the moment you couldn't find him anywhere, about 7 minutes into the break, you began to despair, you were running from one place to the other, you checked all the places you knew although it was useless because it's as if he had disappeared from the planet. Your little mind began to think unimaginable and exaggerated things but the nerves had won over you.

When your crying reached the ears of the boy who was even holding his breath so as not to be found, he came out of hiding almost running with concern marked on his face.

"Are you okay?" He knelt in front of you, looking sideways to see if any teacher would peek out so they could handle the situation. What could a child do to calm someone crying?

A small spotlight was lit on his head, he quickly checked the pockets of his pants and a big smile came to his face when he found what he was looking for, he put in front of your eyes a band-aid with drawings of panda bears to show you that he already had everything under control.

He used to fall and hurt himself quite often so his older brother had given him a box full of those so that he would start taking care of himself a little bit so as not to give his mother too much trouble.

He gently placed it on your injured knee, it was rare to see that in him because of how unruly he turned out to be at all hours. Your wound wasn't that bad but you still flinched at the touch, successfully making the small waterfall in your eyes stop.

"I couldn't find you anywhere." that bothered him a bit, he didn't like to see people get sad because of him.

"I'm sorry."

He looked down as he played with his hands only now noticing how dirty they were from the paint, the thought of painting your face pink flashed through his head. He mustered up some courage and you felt his lips rest on the band-aid he just put on.

you were startled and he didn't even give you a chance to say anything because he ran into the classroom at the sound of the bell.

Maybe you were too young to experience what love really was, but back then you could swear your heart was about to explode and you were scared to feel that way whenever you were with him.

A moment so sweet that later you wrote down in your personal diary with great detail, you didn't want to forget that moment for anything in the world.

It was something new and fresh, like lilies of the valley covered with drops of morning dew. But what could you know? You were just a little brat.

The months passed and whenever you shared a moment that made your stomach turn, you wrote it down and treasured it for yourself. You never told anyone about those emotions that made you feel more alive than ever.

After a few years being the best friends that could exist, you disappeared from the city without notice leaving Heeseung alone.

And from there you didn't know anything about each other.

The day you didn't come to school worried him a lot, but nothing compared to the feeling that shook his body when he went to your house only to see the "for sale" sign outside, with not a single piece of furniture inside.

It was as if all the memories you had shared together were shattered into thousands of pieces, just like his heart and the letter he had written for you, telling you even his deepest feelings for you.

—

The second time you thought you fell in love was a winter afternoon when you were 16 years old.

Spring was just around the corner but these days the cold hadn't given you a single break, today was your first day in a new high school and you already made the mistake of not bringing any coat and letting yourself be fooled by the sun in the morning because now your body was shaking from head to toe.

The snow melted days ago and if you paid attention to your surroundings you could see how the flowers began to bloom, decorating the streets a bit giving them joy, as well as a cute and innocent feeling inside your stomach that tickled your silly heart. The sun's rays fed and gave life to everything every new morning.

You took a deep breath trying to feel the early warmth of the season you loved the most.

And your body completely freezes at the smell of that perfume.

Was all this real? It's as if the whole world had stopped, time ceased to exist, the birds that were flying were frozen in mid-air, and all sounds disappeared, leaving only the rapid beating of your heart pounding your chest with force.

And all because you exchanged glances with him.

Heeseung had been so engraved in your memory and soul that today, after years, you could still recognize the typical smell of his perfume.

But had you really fallen in love again? He was the same person after all and it was as if all those butterflies were coming out of hiding that they refused to leave. They never left.

You watched as he said something to the boy next to him to walk towards you. With each step it's as if he is activating a bomb in your head not knowing what to do or say.

"Hey."

His voice made everything around you return to normal, letting time run again.

You couldn't say anything, there were so many things you wanted to say that in the end they got stuck in your throat. Both of your eyes already said a lot, although it was still not enough for two people who had loved each other so much and then stopped knowing about the other.

You let your body act by itself and quickly passed your arms around hisneck while you hid your face on his chest, the warmth of his body made you feel in paradise and when he passed his hands on your waist a chill ran down your spine. Feeling his touch after missing him for so long gave you goosebumps. It was overwhelming.

When you parted everything was uncomfortable, he raised his shoulders not knowing what to do and you just covered yourself using your arms because of the cold that penetrated inside your light clothes.

"Long time no see," it was as if you had become strangers, though practically You were "you're taller now."

You did your best to make the environment more comfortable, it was the first time you saw each other after years. His eyes were still the same as you remembered them, he was tall, much taller, his bright smile hadn't changed a bit but he was already a bigger person, you could tell just by looking at him that he wasn't still the same 12-year-old boy.

"Are you cold?" he noticed how your body reacted to being outdoors without any source of heat "I don't want you to get sick."

Heeseung didn't even let you reply that he was already taking off the hoodie he was wearing to put it on your head without hesitation.

"Oh but you don't need to!" he didn't even listen to you and from one second to another his hands were already on the edge of the hoodie making sure it covered you completely "now you could get sick."

"I care more about you." he said softly. His face was so close to yours that you had to hold your breath. He was so cute, he smelled so good and his smile mesmerized you in a way that you could die right there.

He was still the same Heeseung as always.

You didn't talk as much as you would've liked, at least you were able to spend a few minutes talking about what you had done with your lives in recent years, although you couldn't concentrate even for a few minutes, your head kept overthinking every action you did and your eyes couldn't stop traveling in his face trying to remember every last inch of him as if you weren't going to see him again for another long period of time.

Only when you got home did you realize how red your cheeks were, you were embarrassed to think that Heeseung saw you all the time with your face burning and your heart beating so loud, you were sure he could hear it.

That night you slept without being able to take off the blue hoodie with some yellow lines and letters that he gave you, it was a silly thought but you could tell that it was something he would buy the second he saw it. You smiled at that, you had missed him so much that you couldn't be able to get away from that smell that comforted you so much in the past and that remained engraved in the depths of your mind.

You hadn't thought about him going to your high school until that moment, he had the same uniform as you so that got you excited because maybe you can be close again and just thinking about being near him increased your heart rate. You felt like in a fairy tale and you hoped you could tell him what your heart been holding.

But when you went the next day he wasn't there. Nor was it the following days.

Even if you were dying of embarrassment, Heeseung was much more important to you, so you had the audacity to ask the person you saw him with, but he just told you that he had left there and he didn't think he'd be back anytime soon. You felt your heart break a second time for the same person.

Your anger spoke for you but you wished you had never seen him that day just to avoid feeling that unbearable pain you didn't want to remember for anything in the world.

It's as if Heeseung had never existed, being all a product of your imagination that so longed to live his love story.

—

Heeseung was like a loose leaf that had been wandering since autumn letting the wind carry it to no particular destination.

That's why the air caught in his throat when he saw you in the cafe he used to go to whenever he needed to clear his mind of it. He had never seen you there before and you didn't seem to be some new employee so he assumed it was because he always picked the times you weren't working.

Feeling so many emotions running through his body made him overwhelmed and dizzy. It was ridiculous that you always met after years in places you least expected, he was tired of that, he was tired of feeling how his heart shrank at your memory and how he cried when he saw you, it erased all the "progress" he was making trying to forget you and he went back 100 steps because he already convinced himself that you weren't meant to be together.

But looking into your eyes always gave him a little hope and he held tight to it, refusing to let go.

It was for that reason that he was too cowardly to approach you, and he simply turned around wanting to leave the place and his feelings as well once and for all. Inwardly begging not to regret his decisions later.

And it looks like the universe heard him for the first time in years.

"Heeseung?"

There weren't many people in the place and he was grateful for it because he could take off his mask and cap calmly without anyone recognizing him, but he was surprised how you could tell it was him just by looking at his figure, his stomach couldn't stop spin around.

Despite the fact that the few who were there stared at him because he had been standing for like 5 minutes without moving, he shrugged it off and walked towards you, with the counter being the only thing that separated you.

"Hey," he smiled at you, "I didn't know you worked here."

"I used to work in the mornings," you didn't know if it was because you hadn't seen him in a long time and you couldn't remember him as well as before but you noticed he was a little sad, you both looked at each other for a few seconds and stayed silent trying to distract yourselves with something "you want a drink?"

"Yeah, of course." Heeseung ordered for his usual.

Everything was damn awkward, you couldn't even talk like you did that time at the high school entrance long ago, everything was worse since you were practically strangers who didn't know anything about each other, just two unknown people who shared a past trying to talk, which would obviously end in embarrassing failure.

Both of you are left with many unspoken words about to come out of your throats, but you had to swallow them.

When Heeseung had his takeout order in his hands, he said goodbye to you and started walking towards the exit. With each step he took, new thoughts came to your head, you couldn't let him go like nothing like you did before, you had to do something to keep him by your side even for a few more hours or else you would regret not having done nothing for the rest of your life.

"My shift ends in about 20 minutes!" your ears turned red realizing you yelled at him, when you got his attention you continued "do you want to wait for me so we can talk?"

"I would love that." his grin dispelled all your doubts, he didn't even have to think twice.

You couldn't do your job properly while he waited sitting next to a window, your mind kept wandering to the image of him with the sun's rays lighting up his face. He was still the most beautiful person you've ever seen and you think you can never get over Lee Heeseung.

Getting him out of your heart is like an impossible mission, it was as if he had been created specifically to be inside you all his life.

"I still have the hoodie you gave me that day." you played with your fingers not wanting to see his expression.

Both left the cafeteria and headed to the first park you found, there were some children playing and running everywhere. You couldn't help but think about when you used to play with Heeseung until it got dark and your mother had to practically carry you home by the ears, you even avoided going home to drink water for fear that she wouldn't let you out again.

His giggle made you look up "I can't believe you kept it," he looked up at the sky, hesitating as to whether or not to say the words on the tip of his tongue, but he was tired of keeping things to himself so he let his mouth speak for itself "it's more yours than mine, it always was."

You tilted your head to the side, not understanding what he meant "what do you mean?"

"This is embarrassing," he tried to cover his face that was beginning to turn pink, "but I bought it with you in mind."

"Are you serious?"

"I've had it since I was 12 years old just because I wanted to lend it to you, so I bought it a few sizes bigger than it still fit me," your chest tightened at the memory "I never wanted to leave you." his sudden words confused you.

"What?" you tried not to stutter.

"That day I had to rethink what I wanted to do with my life several times just because I saw you again after years wondering what happened to you," he took a deep breath trying not to overwhelm his emotions "but I followed my dreams ignoring the deeper feelings, I became a trainee and now I'm here, being an idol. I'm sorry I left, but I don't regret it."

"You fulfilled your dream, of course you don't have to regret it, I would never want you to." your brain still couldn't process everything he told you, you just concentrated on the fact that he was able to fulfill what he told you so many times and you couldn't be more proud of him because your body couldn't contain so much happiness "I'm so proud of you Heeseung, I still remember when you-"

"Even though I don't even know if I like it that much anymore," he cut you off with tears welling up in his eyes "you're right, I fulfilled my dream, but everything is so difficult that I'm beginning to believe that there are more cons than pros in all of this."

You didn't know what to say, you didn't even know what was going on in his life right now, and fuck, you don't even know if you can consider yourself his friend after being apart for so long.

"No matter what I do or how hard I try there will always be bad comments that sometimes become so overwhelming that they far outweigh the good ones. I'm just tired," he looked into your eyes and a spark traveled through your body "and this may be silly but I really do believe that love doesn't exist. Or at least not for me, I don't know if I should give up."

How could he say that? How dare he say love didn't exist when you felt it with every fiber of your body every time you looked into his eyes? When that strong feeling took over your heart from the moment you met him? How dare he when he taught you what love really was even if he didn't know it? It's true, it wasn't always pretty and it used to hurt a lot to the point you want to tear your heart out in order not yo feel anything and forget everything, and you knew that better than anyone for all the years you spent away from him feeling abandoned, but you wouldn't change the love you feel for Lee Heeseung for anything in the world, even if it hurts and burns you inside you're convinced you will never be able to find something similar in your life. Love was what made you feel alive every day.

"You're wrong about that... Love is real. I know because I've felt it."

"Please don't say you love me."

But even if you were consumed with shame and with your pride broken, you decided to stand firm and stare into his eyes, those orbs that you loved so much and from which you had fled so many times.

Hearing that completely paralyzed you, had you been so obvious all that time? You wanted to get out of there, run away and never see him again.

This was the last chance you had to tell him the whole truth and stop being a coward for once in your life, you were going to fight for what your heart dictated, even if everything ended badly you wouldn't be left with that heavy feeling following you everywhere.

"I love you Heeseung, I always have."

He didn't even move, you could see his gaze change but you couldn't figure it out, it was an ocean full of doubt and he was drowning in it.

"Don't make this harder please." His lips were trembling, afraid to blurt out the next words "because I love you too."

You had to blink several times to make sure you weren't in some weird dream or misheard. You wanted to beat him until your hands got tired, you wanted to yell at him until you lost your voice. You were already preparing to be rejected and he told you that? You couldn't believe it, so many years thinking that your feelings were one-sided when in reality he felt the same? You wanted to beat yourself up too by not taking the risk sooner.

But maybe that was fine, probably if you had done it before nothing would have worked, you wanted to believe that the universe was responsible for bringing you together at the right time.

"Please tell me you really mean it." your eyes were watery, waiting for any answer so the tears could fall.

"I never in my life said something so serious." his tone of voice changed to a slower and softer one to make sure you were the only one to hear him, his hands slowly moved up your neck to position themselves on your cheeks and caress them with his thumb "I'm sorry I didn't say it before, I was scared."

Your fingers were on his, not wanting to stop feeling the touch of his fingertips on you, giving you goosebumps "scared of what?"

"Scared of loving you." he was getting closer and closer to you, now you could feel his breath caress your eyelashes "scared of being the only one who felt all these butterflies when we were together and ruining the only good thing in my life."

You repeatedly shook your head letting some tears fall, although there weren't many because Heeseung took care to wipe them all away.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I was going to move me out when we were 12."

"And I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I was on my way to fulfill my dream and let you slip out of my arms, you have no idea how much I wanted to see you again but I let you go."

"Don't worry about it, we're already together, right?" he nodded as your fingers played with his hair.

"Hold me again, I've missed your arms more than anything in the world, I can't let you go, not this time."

It was getting dark, the children were gone and the only thing left in the place were your butterflies that finally fluttered together.

You wrapped your arms around his neck as he wrapped them around your waist. Your heart was threatening to burst out of its cage, he was getting closer and closer and you closed your eyes waiting for his lips to touch yours. The euphoric feeling leaving you dizzy and dazed, wondering what would happen to you if he didn't hold you in his arms.

Your lips fit together like a perfect puzzle which have been searching for its missing piece for too long.

This was how it felt to truly love someone, your hearts never gave up and if you had to wait 100 more years just to feel the moment when your lips and hearts were fervently linked then you would wait as long as it takes. There is nothing in the world you wouldn't do for each other, you would go to space back and forth, burn down entire cities and plant millions of trees if it meant you would meet in another life over and over again until your souls lived through it all.

The first and only time you fell in love was that spring morning 14 years ago.

14 years and the flower that bloomed in your chest without hope of living long hasn't withered yet.

Your heart and spring would always go back to him.

[theeldestsun]

📜 !

Paola idek know how many of your muses i want to start threads with. I hope ur in for the long run, cause betch u committed to me now.  @praeludio

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[thawedpatriot]

look .... ur portrayal is also worthy of unlimited chefs kisses ok,,, like you put so much thought into his character and his actions. i rly admire how much effort you put into him, bc i see that whenever we talk abt plots and stuff and it's just ........ it's clear how much you love him and that in itself is the best part of it all ok ............. bye i'm done bc i'm tired and don't know what else to do but ramble until i run out of characters since you know there's a character limit but i lov

how am i doing with steve??

i’m feeling squishy in this chili’s tonight,,, like i’m honestly a little weepy because i’m still finding my footing writing steve here because it’s been a couple years since i wrote him at all so this just. warms my heart and means a great deal to me. thank you for putting up with my habit of constantly chucking head canons and stuff at you btw that also means a great deal to me!! i’m relieved i haven’t scared you off yet!!