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[alifeasvivid]

On testosterone, I'm getting more meditative practice than if I were a Buddhist monk.

Literally every slight perceived inconvenience activates a flash of pure vindictive rage that could easily be fanned into something worse... but I'm so well-medicated and I have had so much therapy at this point that I just defuse it immediately.

person: [walks slightly in front of me at 0.98x speed that I'm walking] my brain: KILL!!!!! MAIM! HURT!!! NOW!!!!!!!! me: this person and I are moving at the same speed toward entropy, heat death, and thus the reunification of all matter into energy, there is no need for anger. All things are one.

But like this happens every 5 minutes. Anyway. At this rate, I'll acheive enlightenment before I ever start passing.

[honeypleaseart]

Hello there! My webcam finally came...and there are several issues already lol. However, I feel like it's nothing that can't be fixed. I plan on getting a new microphone for vlogging along with a tripod for a better camera view/angle...and lastly I need to invest in a video editing program that: 1.) will not crash or corrupt files (I'm talking to you windows movie maker) 2.) Is simple enough for me to learn and understand (that is directed at you VSDC)...I'm terrible with PS to beging with...let alone doing complicated things with videos lol. I may need to spend money on an editing program to get what I need. Today I did my first video with my new webcam w/o a tripod or a decent microphone...or a decent editing program lol and for that I sincerely apologize. I did this more to get a feel of things to see how good this webcam I got was. I have the Razer Kiyo webcam for streamers, it was within my budget range so I went for it. The webcam CLAIMS to record in HD and 720p w/ 60fp however for some reason the video itsself turned out to be 480p ;___; I am so sorry for the quality!  I believe it had to do with the settings I saved the file in...I just wasn't very knowledgable about it. In the future I do plan on fixing all this stuff, so the next video will be in better condition! Here is the video of me coloring this piece (warning: the video is around 20 minutes long lol) I go over my process with you and also give you some basic advice concerning acrylic paints. If you are already skilled with acrylics the information may be something you already know. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1vDArYGoDPEyETH07xjxkUNk6CxmPYEc5/view?usp=sharing  <~Riku KH3 Coloring Art Vlog/Casual Tutorial Background music for the video is all RFM and Credit given bellow: SNDR & Joey Shigrov - Memories:https://youtu.be/S1Q2PpM5To8 FLEXX - To The Stars: https://youtu.be/7UDzFZj9K3Y Erio - Monolith: http://youtu.be/_oivKNpHNEE Support Alan Walker: ► Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alanwalkermu... ► SoundCloud: https://soundcloud.com/alanwalker ► Twitter https://twitter.com/IAmAlanWalker ► YouTube https://www.youtube.com/user/DjWalkzz ► Instagram https: //www.instagram.com/alanwalkermusic/ Support DZone ►https://soundcloud.com/dzoneofficial Support FlyingTunes; ► Youtube; https://tinyurl.com/hr534uv ► Second Channel; https://tinyurl.com/jxvwu5w ► Twitch; https://www.twitch.tv/flyingtuneslive ► Twitter; https://twitter.com/FlyingTunesYT ► PSN; FlyingTunesPlays ► Instagram; https://www.instagram.com/flyingtunesft ► Vabble; http://www.vabble.com/profile/FlyingT... ► Vine; https://vine.co/u/1330988332674613248 ► SnapChat; flyingtunes ► Spread Shirt; https://shop.spreadshirt.net/FlyingTunes Hope everyone is having a wonderful week! 

[upanduphotairballoons]

Rasanya kggn bgt smp yg cranky.

Hahhahahaha malu bgt nulisnya pdhl gada yg baca.

Tp sumpah kgn bgt. Sampe heran. Wkwkwk

Putus sm andr tuh gada rasa apa apanya samsek bingung g si. Malah kgn bgt ama acing hwahahahaha 

Sumpah kdg rasanya bersalh bgt sm andr ky ternyata w blm kelar sm acing. Huf tp jujur gue jg ga tau bakal begini:”””)

I really really have no clue at all.

Kgn bgttt sm ribut2 di mobil yg ampe berjuta2 lap muterin margonda wakakaka sumpah knp geblek bgt sih loll

Kgn bgtt sm janjian di stasiun cikini.

Kgnnn bgtt sm deep conv di mobil parkir di mcd or rest area.

Smp lupa kyny 6 th tuh kl ktemu always end up di mcd?? Ky gprnh kemana2 saking lbh sering dimobil aja tuh?? Even blm covid apa2 maunya “bs mkn dimobil aja g si?” Wakakkaa

Kgn bgtt sm yg tiba2 aja ke bogor wakakaka

Kgn bgttt sm ribut2 grgr gue ga on time janjian dicikini krn dia hrs muter lagi wakakak

Kgn bgtt sm keanehan acing yg suka nelponin kl w pergi pdhl sm tmn sndr??? Wkakaka ky knpsi gbole plg mlm aneh???

Kgn bgt sm lahapnya acing kl dimasakin pdhl makanan gue ga sll enak?? Wkwkw

Kgnn bgt sm ribut2 di tlfn yg almost everyday HAHAHAHA 

Kgn bgt sm masa2 damai kita yg bs diitung jari wakakakaka tp sumpah, mnrt gue sih kalo lu udh ribut berkali2 sm org tp ttp balik2 lg, lu lebih merasa secure krn tau aja gt, se parah apa bs ributnya dan gimana bounce backnya.

Kgn bgtt kerumahnya hahaha 

Kgn bgtt liat u main basket. 

Kgn bgtttttttttttttttt makan brg ya allah ya rabbb wkakaka 

Kgn bgt sm request2 ngada2 nya.

Kgn bgt sm masa transisi dr ribut sedunia tbtb anget lg lol

Kgn bggtttttttttt sm strugglingnya kita mempertahankan hubungan. Feels like i have so much more energy for us. For both of us to stick together, no matter what.

Tp yaudalah ya in fact the future is not for us. 

I am happy for you. 

I hope ill find my lost treasure too, when im ready. 

When im no longer belong to our past.

Semoga perasaan ini cpt2 luntur ya, capek bgt sbenernya.

Smoga aku jg bs nemuin orang buat bareng2 jalanin susah senengnya, ky waktu aku punya energi buat jalanin nya sm kamu ya yas.

Ternyata dulu energi aku sebanyak itu loh buat pertahanin semuanya sm kamu.

Hal itu br aku sadarin stlh aku sama org lain. Padalah minim konflik, nggada kecemasan, tp rasanya ga punya energi buat toleransi sm kekurangannya yg g seberapa, krn kayanya aku ga segitu cinta nya sih huahahahahaha

I love you that hard.

I wont be here for so long if it is not love. 

We both know,

You are my weakness yet you were my strength.

But now, we are just each other weakness.

Arent we?

[meythaagstriningtyas]

I am today

Hello world.

Since 1st September 2017 I've be fulltime mom for my son

So amazing coz caring my son alone more tiring than become carrier woman

Perbedaannya apa sama carrier woman?

Ya kalo kerja sendiri pengen apa apa enak tinggal beli

Duit pny sndr

Nyampe rmh uda pegel

Pengen anak cpt bobo bagi wanita pekerja

[esoksenja]

Teorinya, orang2 selalu bilang "mumpung masi muda, jangan stagnan ke satu orang, rugi. Pilih-pilih lah"

Dan gue meng-iya kan. Im in love with that statement. Sukak.

Faktanya, gue ga bakal sanggup. Gue selalu ngerasa ada penghianatan. Kalo gue suka sama satu orang, dan bisa bahagia chattingan sm org lain, gue ngerasa ada yg salah. Janggal. Gaenak. Mati-matian gue ngejaga, atau ngelepasin. Kalo gue bs bahagia dg senyum org lain, dg cepet bakal gue analisis, ini jenis perasaan apa? Terus letak org pertama td dimana?

In case, gue prnh jalin hubungan. Gue gatau presentase sayang gue seberapa ke tu org. Keknya gue lbh banyak kasian. Gue nerima dia sekitar 6 bulan stlh pertama kali dia nembak. Truly yes, gue nerima pas kedua kalinya dia nembak. Sekitar 2-3 bulan stlh gue move on dr mantan. Dlm hal ini gue bs sedikit bangga sm diri gue sndr. Pas pertama dia nembak, gue baru putus. Tp pikiran gue jernih bgt. Gue ga jadiin dia pelampiasan. Sm sekali enggak. Pdhl gampang bgt kalo gue jadiin dia "alat" buat move on. Im good on this way. Mayanlah.

Dalam hubungan biasa2 aja si. Dia baiknya kelewatan, perhatian dan pengertiannya luar biasa ga normal. Tiba2 nongol bawa coklat, es krim, atau apa kek yg bisa dimakan, krn gue hobi makan :(

Gaak perna nolak kalo gue mnt bantuan. Rela bgt harta bendanya gue yg pegang. Dlm hal kecil aja gue perna pinjem sendal dia di sekola abis jam solat, dia rela nyeker -,-

Trs dia mau bgt tukeran hp dia yg booming pada masanya sdgkn hp gue merk labil coba :(, tp ga beneran tukeran kok, gue masi cewe baik2

Sabar bgt gue yg emang bnyk tmn cowo krn kita osis,

Jg gatau tmn2 gue suka usil bgt gangguin, apa curhat ga jelas kek, maen pukul2an pake sapu kek, belajar bareng kek, trs dia liatin doang smbl rada2 ngambek di kursinya

Wkwk oya, kalo main futsal dia selalu izin, trs bilang dia bakal nge-gol-in buat gue. Drama njiirrr. Kadang minta2 bgt spy gue bs nontonin dia. Tp gue anak rumahan wkwk jd ya gitu la

Dia yg sll blg ga bakal bisa lupain gue seumur hidup wkwk konyol sumpah,

Tp gue ga baper kok, gue tau itu masa2 entahlah, kadang pikirannya suka tiba2 ga fungsi, sukanya maenan doang

Dan yg paling dibuktiin, dia perna mau ngelamar gue coba pas abis lulus SMA smbl bawa teddy bear pink kecil :(

Grgr gue blg gamau pacaran lg, trs dia blg sm mamanya, dan uda jls ga dibolehin laa

Trs dia blg ke orgtua gue coba :(

Hhhhh

Gue gatau pasnya kita brp lama dlm hubungan, yg jls sering bgt putus-nyambung. Gue yg ga jelas. Krn gue bnr2 ga ngerasa nyaman mskipun dg segala ke-wah-an yg gue dpt. Gue bs banget manfaatin dia buat dpt apa kek yg gue mau. Tp gue ga bs. Ga bisaa. Gue srng bgt mau diajak balik krn kasian. Tp gue ga seenak jidat perlakuin dia. Gue ga caper ke tmn2, gue tau diri kalo di chat tmn2 cowo, gue ga seenak-enaknya mnt putus. Sekali lagi, gue ngerasa ada yg janggal, kalo bisa bahagia sama lbh dr satu org secara bersamaan.

Gue inget bgt pas ultah ke brp gt, mantan gue yg at least bkin gue nolak dia, ngucapin slmt. Gue inget wkt itu dipasar nemenin ibu, trs dpt notif gt pgn jingkrak2.. Tp gue stay cool aja. Gue bls seperlunya (Tp itu bkin gue sadar, perasaan gue milik siapa) Wkwk drama anjiiirrr. Gue yg mungkin keliatan jahat bgt, tp disisi lain gw jagain tu hubungan sampe abis. Sbrp gue ga nyaman, gue ttp nanyain pndpt dia soal sesuatu, gue ga perna ngilang ga jelas, ga perna jatuhin mental dia, ga perna ga dengerin kalo dia selalu ngasi logika knp kita harus balik. Biarpun itu ga ngerubah apapun, kecuali rasa kasian gue yg mkn besar.

Tp itu uda lama ko. Skrg dia kuliah, gue kuliah. Uda punya kesibukan masing2. Malah kmrn2 dia smpt cerita soal ceweknya. Thats right evryone, kita ttp punya hbgn baik ko. Dia masi suka chat tanya2 kabar. Atau ngejodoh2 in gue ama sapa kek. Unfaedah kan -,-

My old love story

Gue uda punya banyak cerita cinta lagi. Bahkan sampe detik ini. Gue cerita gini gitu bkn krn gue nyesel atau apa ko. Cuma gatau aja tbtb pgn nulis disini. Suatu waktu ntr gue bkl nulis love story gue yg lain. Wkwk

In the end gue ga blg kalo gue org paling setia se kecamatan rumah gue :( gue masi penuh dosa :(

Gue jg gatau ini apa namanya, setia, apa bego, apa prinsip, apa oon, apa gatau diuntung atau apa kek gue gapaham. Tp gue jalanin apa yg bikin gue nyaman dan aman. Gue ngerasa hal kek gitu uda pas aja di diri gue. Gue uda cocok. Dan gue brhrp bisa kasi ini ke org yg tepat.

Itu aja si intinya

- Dan, ikut kerumah Yuk?

Mlg, 3/9/17 12:14 AM

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[alifeasvivid]

He said love is a force of the Universe, like gravity.

He was a poet and a philosopher, not a physicist. It's not literal. Or maybe it is. I think he might have believed that.

He thought that love is neither creative nor destructive but rather, it is deconstructive. If Love brings connection, oneness, and unity, then is it not very like the slow burn of entropy? Is it not also leading toward the Universe collapsing back into itself, bringing itself back to one whole?

He had poetic license the way I have a driver's license. Or the way a bar has a liquor license.

"Love moving between people breaks down their walls, their selves, swirls all those pieces together and makes them more like each other. In this way, we are furthering the Universe's design for itself."

[alifeasvivid]

oh god what am I doing!!!!! I can’t dance.......... like really I can’t. I’m genetically incapable. what am I doing!?

[alifeasvivid]

a friend tries to cook dinner for you... and it doesn’t turn out right in their opinion... they get nearly done cooking and remember it’s missing a vital ingredient or that one of the ingredients wasn’t as fresh as it could have been or that they used the wrong substitute, but you taste it and you think it’s great, it’s really delicious, we’ll eat it together and enjoy it...

and then they say they will just throw it in the trash, ashamed, angry, upset at being unable to cook this stupid meal correctly for their good friend. They cry because this always happens, it never turns out right no matter how hard they try and it’s not fair to make you eat it...

you would say no, don’t throw that away, even if you don’t want it, I’ll eat it. Even if you don’t like it, I like it! I like it because you made it and you’re my friend. Don’t take away something I enjoy... and you can always try again next time!

But they throw it in the trash anyway... and never cook for you again.

That wasn’t your fault.

[alifeasvivid]

Since I have had a tiny uptick in new followers, who I am going to assume are here for ukus/usuk, I do want to remind everyone that this is not just a fandom blog, this is also my personal blog and I’m a very fucked up person (in fun ways and some not so fun ways) so... just... be advised.

I’ll try to be more diligent about using my personal stuff tag which is SNDR.5FM

Please read my pinned post.

[alifeasvivid]

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