#AJ rambles like a literary wizard

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hey you ever think about how the Cullen's love-bombing eventually replaced Bella's personality?

She mentions multiple times in the books that she despises expensive gifts, and the ones that actually leave an impact on are her Chevy and the wooden wolf bracelet Jacob gives her. The Chevy is second-hand from Billy, and the bracelet was carved by Jacob. They hold value to her because they have personality; they speak to her tastes and were given to her with those tastes in mind.

She loves her Chevy, but it is eventually replaced with a sleek, expensive designer car gifted to her by the Cullens. She adores the bracelet but Edward puts an designer charm on it to remind her of him.

Even her clothes, which she insists are fine and suit her, are replaced with branded sweaters, dresses and heels.

She hates the idea of any kind of marriage but Edward holds vampirism over her head to get what he wants. Even when she agrees to marry him (against her will) she wants to keep it simple, wanting to simply drive to Texas and get married via a drive thru- Alice begs Bella to allow her to plan the wedding and it's easily more ostentatious and expensive than her birthday party in New Moon, which she described as "a hundred times worse than I'd imagined"

They get rid of her preferred aesthetics in hopes that their consumerist one will stick, and one of the last things they do to her is literally strip her of her humanity.

She becomes a cold, perfect creature and as a result, is no longer allowed to have ties to her father, mother, her best friend or the interests she had before. She's converted into a Cullen and this shit is supposed to be romantic.

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Boom Knuckles they could never make me hate you. He looks like a therapist who also happens to be extremely judgemental in this photo

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guess what I spent 3 days crocheting a granny square top and it turns out! (Who knew???) That having a dark colour at the center of a granny square (which is worked in rounds like a circle and creates rows coming out from the center) and then having two of those on your chest looks like fucking nipples

I'm going to bed I can't... I can't...

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please be proud of me I managed to sit down and draw something!!! And then I coloured it in!!! And then I drew something else next to it and I'm gonna colour it in tomorrow!

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rewatched Boo York, Boo York and all I can say is this is my aesthetic now

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this isn't interesting. Just to let you know

Be me, wake up around 3:30am to a clicking/tapping noise coming from near the floor; I'm half asleep but it goes away so I don't care and restart my podcast which has long since finished

At the sound of the podcasters voice, tapping resumes and I'm a little more awake by now so I actually kind of care this time because What Is That. It's also going from what sounds like next to my bed to my desk in just 4 seconds

Tapping stops; cue around 30 unread texts to loved ones and 5 missed phone calls because again, it's 3:45am and no-one's awake

Around 4:00 hear a familiar sound that almost seems like it's staying at the foot of your bed, wait for that to go away

Become so paranoid you scream and end up crying and relocating to the living room, write Tumblr post on 22% battery at 4:30

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me and my friends watching something sonic related (i forced them to sit down and watch it)

original gif from this post

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almost immolated myself with a projector lense just now 😞

I was playing around with reflections and the sun like "ooh shiny haha" and then I smelt burning and my dad said "Oh god you're on fire!"

Adding magnifying glasses to my list of fears

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I probably won't be uploading art for a while, guys! I love drawing and I love seeing your reactions to my art, but I think I'm a bit burnt out 😮‍💨

None of my more recent art is particularly satisfying to me, and I constantly get distracted and forget to work on it throughout the day... So I've decided that I need a break, to replenish my creative drive and make it less of a chore to do that

I'll still be active here on Tumblr unless those blossoms actually bear fruit, I'll try to update you on my SA2 progress if I remember and (maybe) I'll start playing SA1

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YOOOOO I GOT A COPY OF SONIC 3 I CAN SEE MY HUSBAND AGAIN

But I'm going to bed rn so I can watch it bright eyed and bushy tailed in the morning 😀

See you all tomorrow. Afterwards.

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Also sorry I haven't been as active here! There's been a lot of things happening in my life (not necessarily bad things just big things that require a lot of attention) and if those big things bear fruit then my uploading schedule might get more infrequent, just letting you all know!! (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

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I'm rewatching the Australian equivalent of Miraculous Ladybug and there's a character named Ric Rawls who looks like Markiplier help

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welp, here's hoping the orange dye with level 1 developer we slapped onto my head will give me awesome hair that makes me feel and look like Shadow the Hedgehog

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bruh I can't even draw Guinevere and Lancelot (Mint and Shadow) normally anymore

"no-one cares if Guin's queen outfit is historically accurate to the Anglo-Saxon era specifically the 5-6th centuries when Arthurian legend takes place-" I CARE OKAY

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how do you go from "yay I finished my phone pouch I can put the yarn away now 😀" to "what will be my legacy, what lies beyond short-term gratification aside from more short-term gratification, what doth life" in 1 minute

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Decided to listen to Last Christmas AKA the catchiest most earworm song of all time

No thoughts head empty except for that damn synth