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caramelmochacrow · 3 months ago

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god, i feel so sick. the more i act like my feelings for my crush doesn't exist, the more it hurts. is this what it's like to be a pining idiot? i actually hate it. no one told me it'd be this painful......

(there's a stupid rant in the tags)

#crow talks #unlike the characters i write im gonna make my feelings for her die out because im scared as fuck of being rejected but more being--#reciprocated bc i cant even date her bc my parents dont even know im trans so transphobia will get me first and then being a “lesbian”(?)#then i'll be restricted with everything and i'll never be friends with my friends ever again and i'll be miserable and i might just die.#i hate my first ever proper genuine long lasting crush is hurting me this much #the other ones were just admiration i think. i admire how smart they were.#this one.... this one i think is real. but it can also not bc she's the first person ive ever met irl that has understood me so well other-#than my older sibling and my mutuals online....#AEUGH even the way i talk about her fits the characters i write im stopping this stupid ramble

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