#ACTUALLY CRYING OMLLLLL

[jus2passtime]

HELLO???? BRO when hao sent this i- i was salvating fr like 🤭

And SIR THE WINKKKK HELLOWERRR

[callsigns-haze]

I just met one of my favourite football players. Still dying and screaming inside but he asked if I play for a club and which one which he recognised and he told me he's seen some matches.

I might be dying...or dead...or idk but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[distant-sound-of-binicorn-howls]

nobody speak to me I just finished listening to the vengeance saga 😭😭

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

okay so i do kind of get that but i want their voices omg what i would do to be a tenor

i’m an alto but i have a natural deep voice anyway!!

i do actually like my voice and stuff i would just love to be able to play a dude PROPERLY

i played eugene in grease and so many of my lines got cut, and i couldn’t really be myself in the role because i was so focused on making it perfect

that’s why i wanna play crutchie or jesse tuck because i feel like i could truly be myself in those roles !! but roles i don’t know anything about make me feel even worse

i genuinely cried and purposefully missed cues when i was in grease because i hated my role that much

BUT IVE COME TO TERMS WITH IT!!

i also really wanna perform as crutchie so i can do letter from the refuge my friends all say that they love my cover of it and i can never get enough of him i literally hyperfixate on him so i could play him SO WELL

Sorry tangent on how awful i felt in grease x

i also happily play female roles but i like playing male roles cause i’m more masc presenting

rant all you want shawty!! i had similar experiences in my highschool theater class, we had one boy and like 14 girls(and then me lmao) and i was the only one with a wide enough vocal range to play both? so we did beauty and the beast one year, and that was the year we FINALLY had two boys, so they (of course) got gaston and beast. well, yours truly got lefou, but my (very christian) teacher made me wear a ton of makeup and almost made me wear a dress (argued my way outta that one) so i got to play a guy's part, but it was still an iffy experience because the rest of the cast was rly annoying abt it

anywhizzle

i was in a production of joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat last year, and i was one of josephs brothers along with another girl(who was The Most Annoying Person On The Planet istg) again because of the lack of boys

that theater had a better supply of guys but still not nearly enough

so i had like three singing lines, right? all pretty far down in my vocal range but i was proud of myself for being able to do it

and one of those lines the girl 'brother' (who insisted on wearing makeup and a dress for the production) spoke immediately after me, so how it went in rehearsals and even the actual shows:

me: says line

her: physically like SHOVES me aside to be CENTER F-ING STAGE which we werent supposed to do and says her line in the most annoying enthusiastic falsetto ive ever heard, and her line was something about starving😭😭

and im a soprano, and i can go weirdly low for a soprano but WHAT I WOULDNT GIVE TO BE A TENOR

j would give up my left leg and also my spleen if it meant i could be a tenor

like most of my dream theater roles are guys

and i would be happy to play a gal's part!! but like

only if its on my terms? like if audition for a bunch of guy parts and maybe one girl part, and i get the girl part? like i get that casting a wholeass musical/play can be difficult with only so many peopl and even fewer guys, but youd think that the ratio of guys to girls(and others) would raise my chances of being a guy?

idk i have so many thoughts abt this

and the voice thing OMLLLLL

like literally any time i listen to one of my favorite actors speak im like 'sir can i B L E A SE HAVE YOUR VOICE'

or even just some of the guys ive interacted with in everyday life

like do you know how many times a cashier's voice has made me want to cry because its so deep/melodic/beautiful/masculine???

[evieisclean]

Writing this for posterity's sake:

The last time my stepmother wrote something negative on Facebook, it was Sep. 18.

In regards to my Father:

Called my Father a Narcissistic abuser

Accusing my father of pathological lying

Accusing my father of having a lack of parental responsibility

Said she had to deal with:

Having to cover her ears to drown out the screams

Having to keep her mouth shut in order to prevent rages

Being denied access to her daughter and not knowing where she was

Bringing up the police visits

Sanity hanging by a thread... not knowing if she'd make it another day

Crying herself to sleep

In regards to other people:

Telling people who were sold "a web of lies" that it was time to see the truth (which was always there but they were just too blind to see it)

Telling people accused her of abuse that her going to court was also a victory over them "because people who enable abusers are the reason why abusers keep abusing"

The last time my stepmother posted something not in her own words about abuse (a quotation) it was Sep 29th.

Basically saying that the abuser is never thinking about you, they never were. Be free of the past and step into your present

My Father told me that she started taking meds when I visited him on Oct. 6th. He said they were trying to work things out, communicating and actually talking.

That would be 18 days after my stepmom posted her last typed Facebook post

That would be 7 days after my stepmom posted the quote

~ 10/15/23 Update ~

THIS IS SO FUCKIN FUNNY BECAUSE SHE JUST POSTED ANOTHER QUOTE TODAY OMLLLLL

- It basically talked about how she wasn't going to walk on egg shells anymore, cater to egos, or avoid sensitive topics. She's refusing to make herself smaller to make other people comfortable

I guess that could mean other people as well as my Father but come on. After all the vitriol she puked up about him over the past 4-5 months, this feels more like she is reminding people that hey! I was a victim! Don't forget about that!

How in the fuck are you supposed to reconcile if you keep POSTING THIS BULLSHIT ON SOCIAL MEDIA?!?!

[smutty-ki113r]

omg holy shit- the tiktok with the wink- i am blushing; shaking my heart is racing because that person looks so much like him like wtf!! THE WINK- i will replay this video until i die istg(which won't take long with the way my heart is pumping-). i can't stop giggling either omg. stop i am simping so hard. so i think we are in the same boat here (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

ok he said: "sounds like my typa person; can they give me a tarot reading??? dude; monster high is sick i could watch that shit for days! tell them i want a cuddle buddy so bad and I am excited to meet them in person!" i don't know if that's how he said it word for word but the sense is the same. and don't worry he keeps asking if u wrote again- he likes hearing abt u ^^

dude the thing is i am more scared of them actually liking me but being like: "poly? nope." and then they ask me to choose and i would probably just not shift there again but that would be so fuckn sad cuz I love nina and ben. they r like super important to me. haha but ig i should shoot my shot anyways right?

-🃏

AGGHHHHHHHH we both be simpin- (this first paragraph is just me freaking out so.. feel free to skip ahead) OMLLLLL SAGHHJHHH JFHSLEI HJUIOYKFGHNCHJIYTURJDHJFTYGIU I CANT STOP SOBBING ;ASRHGPUHRG;OUSHRG;OI GOD HELP ME IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW HE ACTUALLY KNWOS ABOUT ME AND THINKS IM COOL IM GONNA STOP BREATHING I NEED HELP- IVE NEVER LIKED SOMEONE THIS MUCH-

*cough cough* ok im done. (●´⌓`●) My vocal cords gave out. He keeps asking if i wrote again like a fic??? I would read his tarot, I would cook him food, I would suck his d-. Essentially, I would do anything for him. If it will make him smile I would fucking do anything. God me??!! MEER!!?? His cuddle buddy OMLOMLOML RED CALM DOWN- im gonna strain my vocal cords BAD.

Also bro- I wanna listen to lady gaga with him. This is now my life goal. (✧Д✧) Do you think he likes lady gaga?? (;ŏ﹏ŏ) God what I would give to listen to love game and just dance around- I don’t care if he thinks im weird. I’ve been waiting all my life for this.

Well how is jeff and Toby’s relationship with eachother?? Ask around about that!! Im sure that once you are completely certain they like you, shoot your shot. BUT ALSO BRO- please please please believe in yourself. You are amazing. Don’t give up mannnnnn. ALSO TYSM FOR THE COFFEEEEEE NOW IM CRYING AGAIN- AIGHA;YIYHIGYISFISA;OH;S I LOVE YOU SO INSANELY A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[rainstormfes]

Anime Expo Lite Day 1 Experience!

Program: Warner Bros. Japan Presents "Stay connected with Anime"

This whole program made me so frickin happy, SEIYUU AND JAPANESE GUESTS EVERYWHEREEEE WHILE TALKING ABT ANIME YESS (note: i typed most of this while the event was going on so pls bear with all my keyboard smashes and small comments lolol i just rly wanted to make a review for this event since i knew tons of seiyuu and anime that i love would be there and talked about. Also also i am not allowed to share any screenshots or recordings of it so just fyi 👍🏻)

It started out with talking about DanMachi 3 with guests Matsuoka Yoshitsugu (voiced Bell Cranel) , Minase Inori (voiced Hestia) , Osawa Nobuhiro (from EGG FIRM), and Matsukura Yuji (producer from J.C. Staff)

They answered many questions like how the author was inspired by the voice acting from the two guests specifically, talking about specific scenes

MINASE-SAN PERFORMED A SMALL LINE WHICH WAS SO FRICKIN CUTE

one of the producers was asked about production for DanMachi and he was like ‘brUH the volumes got thicker and thicker as they kept getting released like DANG’

They prepared a teaser image for the third season and for the big reveal Matsuoka had to tear a curtain off of a huge posterboard but the curtain got caught and made it almost fall xDD (very cute and awkward moment, Matsuoka never change pls omg youre too precious)

Matsuoka was asked if there was any difficulties when recording s3 and he just talked about how Bell went through lots of growth and that he had to think about how to properly act out just how mature Bell got, considering he’s now a leader of his group

Minase-san answered the same question. She talked about how she made sure to try and keep in mind how close all of the characters are and Hestia’s mental and social growth

Iguchi Yuka (voiced Chigusa) sent in a vid message since she sings the opening!! And it was announced that sajou no hana would be performing the ending song! Both vid messages were very nice and cute and both artists just talked about how they were looking forward to everyone’s reactions to their songs and to look forward to the anime

Airing of DanMachi 3 will begin in October woop woop!🎉🎉

OML WHEN MATSUOKA-SAN DID HIS ENDING REMARKS he pointed to the posterboard and was like ‘thIS NEW CHARACTER IS CUTE’ and said ‘whO TF IS THIS’ (pointing to new characters on the posterboard lol)

The next anime that they talked about was Shokugeki no Soma: The Fifth Plate with guests: Matsuoka Yoshitsugu (voiced Yukihira Soma) (MY GOSH HES SO AWK AND CUTE OMLLLLL he was like ‘can i speak now’ cause there was that kind of awkwardness in the first segment too 😅) and Yonetani Yoshitomo (animation director)

Yonetani-san was asked how he felt abt the anime. He talked about how he wanted to express how amazing the cooking/food was as well as wanted to excite (oh b o y 😳) the audience

Matsuoka-san was asked the same thing. He talked about how he’s been following Soma since day one and thinks a lot abt his growth in Totsuki. He talked about how he kinda thinks about his own high school days (comment from director lol that he might just cry during his final recording session which i feel, its been 5 years since the first season was aired)

THEY RECORDED AN IRL SHOKUGEKI?!??!?! OMGGGG. FUKUYAMA JUN (voiced Saiba Asahi) AND TAKAHASHI MINAMI (voiced Tadokoro Megumi) WERE THERE (yall can i just- JUN LOOKS SO MF GOOD OML). 

bruh matsuoka’s mixture for a sauce for tonkatsu was frickin WACK he put strawberry jam, cream, waSABI???, KETCHUP?!?!?!, along with SOY SAUCE, there was more but that combo i put alone looks so frickin wack. 

Jun’s sauce oMG HE STARTED W NUTELLA AND PEANUT BUTTER WTF OMG THIS MISCHIEVOUS MAN I CANTTT 😂😂. He put in LOTS of mayo uhm... he crushed sesame seeds and dried fish together OMLLL HE WAS LIKE SHE NEEDS HER CALCIUM W THE FISH HES SO CHAOTIC and since he ran out of time he couldnt crush the fish properly so there were just HUGE CHUNKS OF FISH IN THE BOWL. omg when he was mixing it..... ew. the takamina was like E W. the way he was selling it was pure g o l d OMG HE PUT IN MF SQUID JUST NOW I CANTTTT HE IS IRL SOMA XDDD poor takamina she was fake crying, girl saME (she’s the judge)

Takamina surprisingly enjoyed matsuoka’s sauce (she was like the ingredients somehow WORKED xD) “it feels like i had a nice meal” (GIRL HOW??? XD)

as for Jun’s sauce review: FDSAFD TAKAMINA SAID THAT THE SQUID WAS STARING AT HER I CANTTT. she described it as a theme park which is perfect. tons of flavors were trying to be the main thing. The squid leg works with tonkatsu so it was ok in the end

matsuoka’s sauce won bc the squid in jun’s was kinda unnecessary but in the end she liked both (kinda surprising lol)

ADSJFKSFJ YONETANI-SAN DID THE ‘bursting’ thing ONCE THE SHOKUGEKI VID WAS DONE, SHOWING A SHIRT W MEGUMI AND TENTACLES OMG

Matsuoka’s comments on the shokugeki: he enjoyed doing it w jun since he was very good at talking (especially when he was making the sauce). Both their sauces were “okay” lol

Yonetani-san’s comments: he talked about how he struggled to cook when he was a child but even through the small irl shokugeki they did he learned smth lolol

Matsuoka was asked which lines were more memorable for him (other than soma’s lol): he talked about how the explanations for the dishes (the monologues when theyre being made and when theyre being presented) were difficult and whenever he recorded those kinds of lines, it was kind of difficult to record since it would be hard to express a good portrayal of soma’s energy if he didn’t even know what he was talking about (so on the side he had to keep using wiki to understand what soma was even talking abt lol)

Question abt the production of the anime: Yonetani-san talked abt how there were lots of complicated words; there were lots of cuts in certain scenes made to try and portray the energy that they wanted in the anime

“If you could try any of your character’s dishes which one would you choose?” Matsuoka: he wanted to try the chicken wing dumplings and a recipe book was released before so he tried it... and it turned out BAD XDD

Someone asked abt where the producers get ideas about the ending theme sequences: Yonetani-san’s used the songs as inspiration for the backgrounds used for the ending themes, also trying to relate to the cooking and the theme of high schoolers just going through life etc

OH SCHIZ THERE WAS A SPECIAL MANGA RELEASED. A small part of it was voiced by matsuoka, jun, and takamina it was vvv cute (the full would be released on Shounen Jump at a later date)

Ending remarks: FASDFDSA THIS ACTUALLY WILL BE THE LAST SEASON OF SHOKUGEKI OMG 😭😭. OMG MATSUOKA IS SO FRICKIN CUTE AND AWKWARDDDDD he was doing a small clap at the end hes so adorable someone protect him pls :(((

The next and last anime talked about was JoJo's Bizarre Adventure: Golden Wind, where there was a behind the scenes vid made:

Ono Kensho (voiced Giorno Giorvanna) was there ofc along w two producers from David Pro (Kasama) and Warner Bros Japan (Omori Hiroyuki)

OMG FIRST THEY TALKED ABT THE STAND CRIES YESSS. DSFDSAF THEY ACTUALLY COUNTED HOW MANY MUDA’S ONOKEN HAD TO SAY that is so amazing i love the dedication. onoken mentioned how he talked to koyasu (voiced Dio Brando) abt counting the muda’s but he was like ‘ehhhh i never did that lol’. overall, everyone from all seasons tried to match the scenes but koyasu was basically the odd one out not rly needing??? to follow it lol

FDSAFDSA BRUH THERES 17 RERO RERO’S hirakawa-san practiced in the BATH the dedication is INSANE i love this

lolol onoken scrunches up his face when he says his mudas lol vvv cute (so thats a good tip for anyone wanting to say it properly)

one of the reasons they chose onoken in the first place to voice giorno was the fact that his muda’s were strong, thats frickin awesome (and he asked for a redo so that just shows great dedication, smth that staffs would want in their seiyuu)

next they talked abt the anime-only scene of giorno giving gelato to a kid. they wanted to show how kind giorno was despite eventually becoming a gang-star. its personal to kasama-san since he had actually went to italy and had experienced intense heat there and went to a gelato stand so he wanted to preserve that memory in film

they moved on to talk abt how the hitman team was first introduced in ep 10. they decided to enhance the anime by showing the many teams of passione in their own meeting places, trying to emphasize how close everyone was in their respective teams

THEY MENTIONED HOW THEY PURPOSELY PUT CHARACTERS THAT ARE LATER INTRODUCED IN THE ANIME WITHIN FRAMES JUST TO TEASE omg i love

next they talked about how the second theme for golden wind was kinda hard to make (the animation and song IS amazing which i personally appreciate). considering that they needed to kind of match up with “Fighting Gold” (the first op), it was hard to produce something for it. And they had already decided to make an alternate version of it as well, animation wise. For a while they were stuck but eventually they managed to create smth which ofc ended up as the second op for Golden Wind (and also mentioned how that also happened for Stardust Crusaders, with changing the op’s animation to showcase everyone’s stands and also the small interaction between joutarou and dio)

AHHHHHH THEY MENTIONED THE FAMOUS DIO POSE THAT GIORNO DID AHH YESSSS THANK YOU DAVID PRO FOR DOING THAT, they said that they felt that they needed to live up to fans’ expectations so considering how dedicated of a fanbase we are, they decided to put that little nod toward dio’s pose with giorno doing it too

Ending remarks: lolol kasama-san was like ‘watch jojo in these difficult times to brighten up your day’ and honestly i just might :D

Omori-san was also a guest for the live broadcast too! Plus, Kanno Yugo who’s in charge of the music for Golden Wind!!! (a frickin king providing giorno’s iconic asf theme)

OMG THE THEME LETS GO HE TALKED ABT IT: considering his experience with parts 3 and 4 for the themes, he felt he needed to try and one up himself lol; he’s grateful that his music is loved by the fandom and hopes to meets everyone’s expectations (my king you’ve done amazing work)

He talked about how making music for jojo feels like competing in the olympics (cant blame him lol its a pretty difficult job to one up yourself every time theres a new season. since he started working with jojo at stardust crusaders and considering how iconic joutarou’s and josuke’s themes are, needing to make smth as amazing as those themes mustve been tough but he def delivered in the end)

OMG KANNO-SAN PERFORMED LIVE AHHHHHH and ofc its Il vento d’oro :)) THAT WAS SO FRICKIN AMAZING OMG ugh that made me so happy

Ending remarks: both guests were very wholesome, saying to stay safe during this situation. Omori-san stayed behind to say a small message on behalf of warner bros japan, saying to continue to support them and thank you for supporting the anime :))

Overall an amazing experience 😊

I loved everything that happened. It was nice to finally see some of my fave seiyuu at an event despite what’s going on in the world right now, it definitely brightened up my day :D

[jungblue]

TAY! Thank you for FH update~ I've waited so long but its worth the wait😀!!! I'm just happy with the fact that she's willing to think about her feelings before being definite about who she really wants to be with~ but I really want to find out what evil deed had JK done? Did he get someone preggy? Used drugs? Pt. 5 u mentioned that JK started smoking but it could be more~ again Thank you Tay! As always u and ur updates are amazing 😊

yeah i just don’t think it would be realistic for her to go right back to jk in a romantic way. she’s still hurt over the fact that he left, and plus she has very real feelings for jimin. and ahaa as for the secret we’ll have to wait and see! but thank you for reading!

Anonymous said: I'm literally over here crying rn bc I just finished pt 6 and she spent all of her time with Jimin instead of Jungkook 😓 I know it's essential to the plot, and she has her reasoning for doing it, and I trust you completely as a writer. It's just that... I love her and Jungkook's relationship so much. It's one of my favorite relationships out of all the fics I've read on tumblr... I would even go so far as to say my all time favorite. And to see them not together... it just hurts so much 😓

no i understand! it’s fine that you’re sad that she’s not w jungkook atm since that’s the person you believe she should be with. pt7 is almost an entirely jk focused chapter, so you’ll get to see how their relationship further develops then. but ahhhhhhh it makes me happy that you liked them so much :”)

Anonymous said: Okay but can you at least tell us if there will be a happy ending at the end of fh?? I would actually die if something say too angsty happened, my heart cannot handle it 😭

ahhh it’s definitely going to go to extremely angsty places, and i feel that i shouldn’t confirm or deny whether there’s a happy ending 

Anonymous said: I think jungkook is sick , have been diagnosed with somthing serious. Oh no is he gonna die. Even though im team jimin i also dont want tragic things to happen to jungkook 😣

Anonymous said: OMG MAYBE JK HAS A DEADLY DISEASE AND HIS TIME LEFT IS LIMITED LIKE 3 YEARS OR STH THEN OC ENDS UP WITH JIMIN EVEN THO SHE LOVES JK SO MUCH??? PLS DON'T KILL ANYONE I BEG U :( I DON'T LIKE CHARACTER DEATHS BUT IT STILL DEPENDS TO U

we’ll just have to wait and see!

Anonymous said: Damn! This FH series gives me feels that I've both felt and never felt b4.. Credits to your well written script.. You amaze me.. you're amazing :) This complicated love triangle.. is arghhh.. I love Kooks and Chimchim.. But in this, I'm more on kooks' side.. I mean OC knows she loves him.. She feels it still.. but with Jimin, she's trying.. Trying is entirely different than actually feeling.. she liked Chim coz he is like kooks.. which is unfair to chim.. I wonder what's ze secret too!!

i’m glad you enjoyed it! but as for the oc’s feelings for jimin, i wouldn’t necessarily say that she’s “trying.” she already feels a lot for him, and i wouldn’t say she only likes him bc he reminds her of jk. it was more so that he’s the only person that’s been able to make her even contemplate moving on. so her feelings are definitely muddled right now, but we’ll see where that takes us!

Anonymous said: And Kooks wanted to be in relationship.. It's OC who wanted to break it.. I don't understand why he went along with it when he didn't want that to happen.. I mean he could have contacted her.. why didn't he do that.. what's the reason.. Ha ha I've so many questions in my mind :P

well the oc was the one that said she couldn’t do long distance, so kook respected that. the oc just knew she wasn’t equipped to handle long distance, and as someone who has had long distance relationships, i completely understand her reasoning behind believing it wouldn’t work

Anonymous said: HOLY SHIT YOU UPDATED FUTURE HEARTS and it's so long too like I had to go lie down while reading it IM CRYING SO HARD ㅠㅠㅠㅠ you are literally one of the best writers out there and I'm so so so lucky to have been in the fandom the same time as you. I love that despite all the drama y/n hasn't flat out abandoned jimin for jungkook. I love the angst and tho I'm JK biased I'd say I'm officially team jimin for Future Hearts ^

GAHHHHH THIS WAS SO SWEET ;; THANK YOU :”) i’m really glad you’re enjoying it! but yeah the oc would never flat out abandon either of them. she knows just how confused she is

Anonymous said: Future Hearts is sooo good, you're such an amazing writer, keep going with the good work

thank you, lovely!!

Anonymous said: Okay so I'm not typically into punkAU but I decided to give future hearts a chance and Omlllll I just finished reading prt 6 and I'm in dyinggg, ur giving me too many feels and my heart legit hurts  but ily for it  keep up all the great with all ur amazing writing!! 

gahhh thank you so much! i’m glad yo enjoyed it even tho it’s usually not your thing ;;

[sawyercidea]

@wantedlaughs:  *clears throat* My dead gay sons

*my trash sons who r not my sons, i disowned them but would Still Like Them Around, so consider

@secondchanced:  me, waiting for betty finn + martha like

i’d kill a man for both tbh, every time a betty comes around they leave in 2 seconds and i spend a month in a dark room, crying

@mythxcbitch:  where is martha?? where is the horrible mrs fleming?? where is vs parents??

give me a martha and flem!! pauline has so much to her, even, you could have younger verses in the 60s, it’d be Lit ( also i write vern’s parents occasionally, so Look Out For That Hell Pit )

@psithurite:  duke?

harvard or brown??  ( don’t tease me nicki )

@grincarved:  THE GEEK SQUAD i love this movie so much omg

I Would Actually Kill a Man for a Rodney okay omlllll