#A&R:1x02

[doggirlbuck]

[fourthgem]

Can you tell me what happens in the key scenes?

[drizzedoffrootbeer]

[clumsycapitolunicorn]

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[heartysworld]

Ya'll I'm rereading my old fics and this one...damn I made myself cry

Your beauty never scared me || Aemond Targaryen x Reader

A/N: I do not care how many fics it is going to take but I'm going to make you LOVE Aemond Targaryen like the psycho ass that he is! I hope you like this one, I believe it was a request.

You've never ran faster than you did right now. The moment one of your maids said Queen Alicent had sent for you,you knew it was nothing good, this happened only if something was wrong.

Your relationship with your future mother-in-law was not bad,but you knew she likes to keep her distance most of the time.

You turned the corner of the big hallway, finding yourself in front of Aemond's chambers. His mother was outside, pacing in front of the doors. Tears were streaming down her face.

"Your Majesty, what is happening?" You asked worriedly.

"Oh Gods, they have ruined my boy, my beautiful boy." She sobbed sitting down on a chair,hands covering her face.

"Who and what have they done? Is Aemond okay?" You asked once again, kneeling before her shaking form.

"These bastards, Jacaerys and Lucerys, they attacked Aemond on his way back from the Dragonpit. I am yet to seen him, all I was told is that the Maester has been called and nobody is allowed in. I heard his screams, my boy was tearing the skies, his voice was full of so much pain." She said.

Your heart clenched at the thought of Aemond being attacked and injured. The situation in court wasn't the best but you never expected for it to go this bad. You could only hope that Aemond would be okay, that's all you cared about.

You and the younger Prince are about to be wed in less than a moon. Your father, Lord Tyrell had long ago noticed your fondness of the white haired Prince,and after a long discussion with the King and his Council it was decided, you two were to be married. Aemond was happy,you were as well.

After a long agonizing few hours of waiting in front of the door,Queen Alicent was finally allowed in. You couldn't hear much from the inside but one particular loud scream scared your soul away, making your heart beat even faster than it did before. What had they done to him?

Time passed before the wooden doors creaked open again. Slowly the Queen slipped out of the room, closing the door behind her back.

"Is he in a lot of pain? Will he be okay? " You asked with a worried expression.

"Listen,Y/N...what you're about to see... Nobody would blame you if you decide to annul the marriage proposal. " She said making your heart stop, your face went completely pale.

"What...what are you talking about? I would never! I love Aemond I would never do such thing!" You exclaimed. You felt offended that anyone would ever think this way of you. Have your signs of affection not been enough.

"Listen,dear..." She started again but you couldn't listen to her any longer, you just wanted to see your fiance.

Walking past her you headed for the doors, pushing them open. You were met with complete darkness. The curtains were drawn,the door to the balcony was also closed. It felt more like a cave than a room.

"Who's there?Y/N?" A voice rasped from the darkness. You immediately recognizing it as Aemond's.

You took a few steps closer to one of the windows, reaching for the blinds to pull them apart.

"No! Don't you dare!" Aemond hissed.

"Aemond,my love, what happened?" You asked with concern, heading to his bed as you sat down on its edge. In the darkness your hand managed to find his, giving in a light squeeze.

"I think you should leave,Y/N. I can't bare seeing the look on your face when you catch sight of what I've become." Aemond said, his voice was raspy from all the screams he had let out not long ago.

"No... Aemond, I am not leaving,not now,not ever. Whatever happened, I am ready to endure it by your side. I am to be your wife, I will never leave you. Please,my love,let me see." You whispered.

His desperation made you feel even worse, to think you'd leave him just like this.

You felt him move around in the bed. The only light in the room was coming from the opened door. Aemond slowly raised up his upper body, the lonely stream of light falling right on his face.

What you saw made your eyes water like waterfall, your hands went over your mouth while tears started falling down your cheeks.

His left eye was gone, the entire half of his face being covered in bandages that went all the way up in his hair down to his chin.

"I don't expect you to still want to give yourself to me." Aemond said,his hand never letting go of your regardless of his words.

"Aemond,no,look at me" you said,when his head remained lowered you repeated your words "look at me Aemond!" You raised your voice.

Slowly his gaze met yours, his healthy eye was teary,ready to release its tears.

"I've loved you for so long,my love. Nothing could ever make me detest you, your looks are the least of my worries. You're the one I want to call my husband, the one who's children I want to carry and whose life I want to share. We will get through this together. I need you to speak to me, about everything, whatever you're feeling I want to know about it. That's the only way we could be able to handle every challenge fate throws at us." You said.

Your free hand slowly laid on his cheek, feeling the coldness of his skin.

The two of you spent hours in his chambers, at one point he asked you to lay in bed with him. You nestled safely in his embrace, careful not to touch his face. The entire day was spent in bed, talking, you were even able to make him laugh twice, which made your heart flutter. A few kisses were exchanges as well, at the time night had falled Aemond was already asleep against your chest while you combes your hands through his beautiful white hair. He looked so peaceful when sleeping.

A quiet knock was heard, followed by the doors opening. The Maester from earlier stood at the entrance of the room, a bag in his hand.

"It is time for me to change the Prince's bandages,my Lady ." The old man whispered.

You nodded slowly. With you hand on Aemond's back you softly shook him awake, a quiet groad escaping from his mouth. He never liked being woken up.

"My love, it's time to clean your wounds. The Maester is here,you must get up." You whispered against his forehead.

His body tensed when your words sank in. There was no way he could make you leave, you were going to see how damaged he was.

"It's okay,hey, I love you. I love you a lot." You said, cupping his cheek softly.

He nodded, slowly rising from the bed in a sitting position.

You followed the Maester's every move, trying to memorize the process as much as possible so that whenever it was needed you could take care of your future husband as well.

It was nothing complicated,after a few tries you were confident in your skills and knowledge.

Aemond didn't complain, the opposite,he was actually glad that it was you who took over in taking care of him. He was always more comfortable in your presence and nothing could change that.

Years passed and your love for Aemond never disappeared, it became even stronger with each day. He still had his insecurities,but you spent every moment possible reminding him how much you loved him until every single ounce of doubt was gone from his mind.

You had recently given birth to your first child,a little girl who was the most precious angel ever. When Aemond held her for the first time you recognized the look on his face from that horrifying moment years ago. He was worried about his own daughter being repulsed by his appearance.

However, your little girl was all smiles and giggles. Whenever she was in her dad's arms she always wanted to look at his face, she was adorable and had him wrapped around her finger. You knew that your family would be fine,as long as there was love present.

[onscreenkisses]

K I S S O G R A P H Y : ↳ Eddie Cibrian

SUNSET BEACH (1997-1999) / Lesley-Anne Down BUT I'M A CHEERLEADER (1999) / Clea DuVall THIRD WATCH, 2x05 (2000) / Kim Raver SAY IT ISN'T SO (2001) / Heather Graham TILT, 1x06 (2005) / Amelia Cooke INVASION, 1x09 (2005) / Lisa Sheridan DIRTY SEXY MONEY, 1x06 (2007) / Natalie Zea SAMANTHA WHO?, 1x09 (2007) / Christina Applegate UGLY BETTY, 3x04 (2008) / Ana Ortiz NORTHERN LIGHTS (2009) / LeAnn Rimes HEALING HANDS (2010) / Lisa Sheridan THE PLAYBOY CLUB, 1x02 (2011) / Laura Benanti THE BEST MAN HOLIDAY (2013) / Nia Long BABY DADDY, 4x15 (2015) / Chelsea Kane TAKE TWO, 1x12 (2018) / Rachel Bilson HOME ECONOMICS, 3x12 (2023) / Topher Grace

requested by anon

[professional-girlkisser]

Dubai loumand

tw: mention of s*icide and r*pe

I actually, unironically, like Dubai loumand. I looove the aesthetic, from the dark, corporate (?) clothing to the grey, post-apocalyptic, doomed house/ tomb. (one day i will have the words to articulate how much this aesthetic means to me 🤞🏽). Second, I love their fuckedupedness. Their brand of mess is my favourite brand! Third, I don't think Armand has as much control over Louis in Dubai as ppl think.

We see them making decisions together, e.g., what to do with the empty wall, how to handle Daniel/ the interview, etc. Armand doesn't keep Louis locked in the penthouse but he does make it so Louis doesn't want to leave. Or better yet, so Louis doesn't think it's safe to leave.

Armand vehemently opposes the interview but he still lets it happen. And then he hovers around to monitor it. That's how Armand exerts control in Dubai. His control is not total, it's around the edges. Like a parent building a sandbox for their child. This is why it's so fucked up. He's treating Louis like an owned, kept thing. But...I think he's doing it out of some good intention. Out of love (controversial ik).

Armand takes on (more) control of the relationship after the san fran incident. Its implied that before that he mostly let Louis do whatever he wanted - disappear for periods of time, fuck and kill loads of men, get high on drugs - but that incident was the worst of it. Louis tried to commit s*icide and Armand revealed his worst self (the gremlin). So he erased that memory as a fresh start but also to maintain a specific, positive image of himself for Louis (the nurse). I don't think he'd ever erased Louis' memories before this incident idk.

Anyway, Louis does have some independence in Dubai and he does imo voluntarily cede some control to Armand. And Armand is literally on suicide watch. Which is why he controls the env around Louis; to keep out any potential triggers (of which the interview is a HUGE one). We see this in 2x01 when Armand asks Louis to take a break. Louis refuses. Daniel thinks Armand is only asking bc he's hiding sth (which of course he is). Armand leaves them and then later Daniel is like yeah Armand was right, Louis should've taken that break. We also see it in 1x02 when Daniel asks (demands really) for the torn out diary pages detailing Claudia's r*pe (💔). Louis snaps and makes Daniel's hand shake violently. Armand rushes in and places a hand on Louis' shoulder to calm him down.

Throughout the interview, Armand is constantly doing damage control for Louis while making sure it's not too much for him. And Louis does the same thing when they get to Armand's part of the story. They're constantly exchanging soft touches and glances to calm each other down and it's soo fucking cute i could cry 😭

So to summarize, I don't think Armand's control is total or completely out of self interest. He's of course trying to preserve his own self-image as well as this facade of a happy/ functional marriage but I also think he's doing it out of a (*daniel voice*) fucked up idea about love.

[manhandlingmayhem]

Daniel Jackson Whump List: Stargate Sg-1, The Ark of Truth, Continuum, & Atlantis

The other whump lists I’ve found for Daniel have been quite minimal so I decided to make my own since he is my latest hyper fixation.

This is a work in progress. I’ll add seasons as I watch them.

Season 1

1x01 - distressed, guilty, crying, thrown against a wall, imprisoned, held back, forced to kneel, held down, shot at by staff weapons

1x02 - emotional about losing Char’e

1x03 - threatened with a knife

1x04 - beat up by Jack, attacked by The Touched and infected, carried by Teal’c

1x05 - gun held to kneck

1x07 - shot and killed with staff weapon, brought back by the Knox

1x12 - kidnapped, pushed against wall, general intimidation, strapped to a table, memory searched painfully

1x13 - brainwashed/manipulated by Hathor and implied rape

1x15 - manhandled

1x16 - goes rogue, threatened with court martial

1x17 - violently thrown through gate, head injury, comatose

1x18 - knocked out with scanning device, duplicated, weak, falls through gate

1x19 - gun point, handcuffed, manhandled, sedated, detained, interrogated, shot with staff weapon

1x21 - injured by ribbon device

Season 2

2x01 - knocked out and blinded by stun grenade, imprisoned, shot with staff weapon, presumed dead, revived in sarcophagus

2x02 - gun to head, shot with zat gun

2x03 - violently thrown through gate, choked, passed out

2x04 - taken by an alien devices and put into a coma, repeatedly forced to watch his parents die, tries to stop it but his parents perceive him as a child so they won’t listen to him, distressed and angry, held back, handcuffed, confined

2x05 - captured by Jaffa, chained, forced to kneel, manhandled, forced labor, limping, crushed under rockslide, healed by sarcophagus, addicted to sarcophagus, strapped to bed, extreme withdrawal, escapes infirmary and gets into a pretty violent fight with Jack, emotional breakdown

2x06 - surrenders

2x08 - emotional throughout, forced to kneel

2x13 - knocked out with dart, confined

2x17 - body swapped into old man, in hospital bed near death, emotional (the old man as Daniel gets handcuffed and confined)

2x19 - emotional, angry/vengeful

2x20 - gun point, hands on head kneeling, detained

2x21 - wakes up in kryo tube, caught trying to escape, threatened with becoming Ga’ould host

Season 3

3x01 - threatened (Hathor brings up when she r*ped him) gash on leg from staff weapon, kneeling, hands tied, threatend with zat gun, generally looks very tired this whole episode

3x02 - gun point, forced to kneel, brainwashed by Seth, thrown by ribbon device

3x04 - hallucinations which get worse until he is institutionalized, passes out, forced sedation, general manhandling

3x06 - bloody scrape on his cheek, surrounded by Jaffa, kneeling, shot with zat gun

3x07 - runs face first into force shield, forced to surrender, gun point for most of the episode

3x08 - struck by zat lightning, caged, shackled, chained and left as sacrifice to the Unas

3x09 - shot by stun gun, threatened with stun gun

3x10- tortured with ribbon device, emotional, nightmares

3x11 - emotional from the death of Shar’e

3x12 - captured, kneeling, imprisoned

3x13 - imprisoned, kneeling, slapped, punched, knocked to the ground, interrogated

3x14 - drugged, gun point

3x19 - zapped unconscious by force field, hands tied, kneeling, blood sample taken, caged, interrogated, tazed with staff weapon multiple times, manhandled, Jack and Sam tortured to get information out of Daniel

3x20 - surrenders to Jaffa as a ploy

3x21 - sent out of phase by crystal skull, not really whump but I love to see Daniel frustrated and helpless

3x22 - Michael Shanks had an appendectomy so Daniel had one too

Season 4

4x02 - gun point

4x03 - alien device stuck on his arm, passed out, weak, falls through gate

4x05 - hit in the face and knocked over

4x06 - knocked out and captured by unas, wrists tied for entire episode, pulled along by rope, dragged, knocked over, cut on cheek, threatened, lots of flinching

4x08 - memory loss

4x09 - gun point, zip tied to chair, interrogated

4x13 - manhandled, choked, thrown to the ground, tortured with ribbon device, extreme headache

4x14 - laying under a floating bomb trying to disarm it

4x16 - shot and killed by laser weapons in the future

4x17 - passes out, in a coma

4x18 - suicidal, Jack talks him off his balcony, coma, flatlines, Jack fireman carries him through the gate, headache,

4x21 - duplicate Daniel captured, hands tied, kneeling, manhandled, head shot off by staff weapon

Season 5

5x01 - gun point , imprisoned

5x04 - gun point and disarmed, shot with zat gun

5x07 - shot with zat gun, imprisoned, chained by ankle, electrocuted

5x09 - captured, thrown by ribbon device

5x13 - shot by zat multiple times

5x15 - undercover as Goa’uld slave, manhandled, kneeling

5x16 - undercover as Goa’ould slave, knife to throat, punched and knocked to the ground, grabbed by the throat and threatened with knife, thrown to the ground

5x19 - thrown into bookshelf, arm twisted/injured, thrown to the ground, kneeling, emotional, crying

5x20 - burned hands, slowing dying of radiation poisoning, jumps through glass windows, emotional, ascends

Season 7

7x01 - wakes up in a field naked and with no memories

7x02 - captured by Jaffa, tackled by Jonas to keep him from being shot

7x06 - passes out, wakes up with multiple people in his mind, collapses, medical restraints (belt with cuffs that attach to it), lots of emotions in this one, angry, terrified, sad, etc.

7x07 - kneeling, intimidated

7x10 - woken up with a staff weapon in his face

7x11 - almost drowns in a tunnel complex, captured by guerrillas, hands zip tied, blindfolded, manhandled, locked in a shed,

7x12 - manhandled, food and water deprivation, interrogated, tortured (off screen unfortunately), dragged, weak/unable to walk, zip tied to chair, punched in the face, bloody mouth and cheek, shot in the leg, slams into tree, limping, on crutches

7x15 - Osiris manipulating his dreams, tortured with ribbon device

7x17/18 - if you like emotional Daniel you’ll like this, one of the best war drama story lines of the entire show

7x19 - wakes up on the ground after being knocked out

7x21 - Jack grabs him and pushes him against a wall

Season 8

8x03 - shot in the arm, arm in sling, shot with zat gun

8x05 - arm in a sling and shrapnel cuts on his face, grabbed by the collar and threatened with gun

8x06 - shot in a simulation multiple times

8x07 - threatened with sniper fire, kidnapped, handcuffed, manhandled, interrogated, forced to give up information to save a friend, shot with zat gun

8x10 - shot by zat gun, punched in the face and knocked to the ground

8x12 - shot with zat gun, zip tied to chair, interrogated, slapped, shot in the shoulder, punched in the face several times, kicked in the stomach, kneed in the face, head butted

8x13 - disarmed, held at gun point, hit in the stomach, choked

8x14 - manhandled, detained by the Russians, blood sample taken

8x16 - captured by Replicarter, pinned to the wall, mind searched

8x17 - interrogated by Replicarter, stabbed through the chest, dies again lol

8x18 - accended and the sent back to earth

8x20 - alternate timeline Daniel knocked out by stun grenade, punched in the face, manhandled, forced to kneel, tortured with ribbon device, implanted with Goa’uld off screen, killed by T’ealc

Season 9

(a lot of whump gets moved to Cam this season)

9x01 - gets alien bracelet stuck on his wrist, passes out

9x02 - manhandled, held back

9x03 - thrown and held against a wall, manhandled, punched in the stomach, chained, almost burns to death

9x04 - passes out, handcuffed as part of a ruse

9x06 - collapses

9x10 - manhandled, knife held to throat

9x15 - imprisoned, manhandled

9x16 - captured, tied up, tortured mostly off screen, cuts on his face, almost shot (I greatly dislike this episode because the whump potential was great but the terrible writing ruins it with plot holes and time skips, boooo)

9x19 - ‘possessed’ by Vala using the Ancient communicator device

[raayllum]

Now, don't get me wrong, by all accounts, Rayla isn't a particularly 'good' assassin. She fails to follow mission orders when she's actually given them (1x01, 1x02) and outright defies them (1x03). A lot of this is because of her own sense of morality and compassion, which is exactly what Runaan criticizes her for and what Ethari worried about.

R: Your heart isn't hard enough to do whatever it takes.

E: I told Runaan you were too good hearted for the work of an assassin, so I know you did not betray them out of malice.

However...

There is still a reason that Runaan thought she would be a good assassin. Part of that is because he's a lot like Claudia, his love for his family obscuring a more objective reality. The other part is that, other than her 'too soft' heart, Rayla has what she needs to be an assassin in terms of the skill set (her blades were at Marcos' throat) and because she doesn't always listen to said 'soft heart'. In fact, she often tries very very hard not to (see a lot of early S1 in particular).

“Of course. For…” she chewed her lip and counted on her fingers. “Hrm, maybe fifteen years now. Anyway, you can call me Redfeather.” [...] Rayla felt her heart turn soft in her chest in just the way she hated. She wanted to know more, had to know more. “What did you do?”

Now, we see that in S4 Rayla is a lot better at well, not listening to that soft squishy part of herself, and that Soren was less good at appealing to her about it than Ezran. Some of this is probably because he pivoted away from the dragon and went after it from an identity standpoint — which, not only does Rayla have a pretty malleable sense of self in her own head, she does not believe that any part of whatever identity is there is particularly good / does not think she's a 'Good' person quote unquote — but this was absolutely doomed to fail post-return. Spending two years alone, trying to singularly hunt down a man and murder him, and knowing all the while that you hurt the people you love the most and have nothing to show for it... Yeah, no one's gonna be in the best head space for that, or be overly inclined to trust their own judgement or capacity to save people.

Like most characters in the show, Rayla struggles with always knowing what the right thing to do is, and what served her well in the past — trusting her gut, taking on things alone, laying herself down in the line of fire, removing her hesitation, and going to save Phyrrah in 2x07 — may not always serve her well in every scenario. She thought she was right to do all the same things when she went after Viren, didn't she? So she errs on the side of inaction, of not wanting to make another mistake by acting with her heart rather her head (again), and inadvertently waltzes into another mistake (Soren being captured and going missing).

Rayla will do the right thing, and hate herself for it, and will stubbornly ignore the signs screaming at her when she isn't doing the right thing (and she'll hate herself for that, too.)

[ Sidenote: bonus post about how Arc 2 increasingly treats more and more character traits and decisions as circumstantial rather than inherently good or bad ]

As she says to Ezran:

R: I let him go. I don't know why. E: Because you felt for him. R: But he was a human — my enemy! E: Yeah, but then you saw he was scared. And you knew he was a person, just like you. R: That shouldn't have mattered. I had a job to do.

I think we can read this in two ways. The first is that to be an assassin, you have to be able to dehumanize others on a fundamental level because you're 1) murdering strangers 2) on someone else's orders. Although Runaan preaches about balance in Bloodmoon Huntress (when you kill someone, you remove their capacity for love and change) we have all of Arc 1 talking about why that mindset is flawed and isn't good enough, especially because it culminates in Harrow's death when he still had plenty of things to love, like his children, and so much he wanted to change, and it would've led to Ezran's death as well. This is one of the reasons why assassination and dark magic, conceptually, often go hand in hand for the characters and their explorations of personhood and the right thing to do, etc etc.

The second way is that Rayla, by ignoring her own wants and personhood — her own heart — is also dehumanizing herself. It shouldn't matter that she's a person with wants and weaknesses; she had a job to do. We see this reflected in a lot of her behaviour ("Don't worry about my hand. The egg is all that matters now" —> "It's agonizing. But I know our mission comes first: the world is in danger, and you can trust me to stay focused") and in Runaan's / Moonshadow elves infamous "I am already dead" thing.

(There is also the factor that, because her and Callum mutually informed the construction of each other's new senses of identity to an absurd degree, if Callum doesn't want her then she doesn't know / doesn't have a firm footing on who she is anymore without him, but that's a codependent post for another day.)

All of this is a very long winded way of saying there, much like Viren and Claudia, are two consistently contradicting aspects to Rayla's personality that she is catapulting between, and the Assassin Rayla and Protector Rayla are, as of S5, still equal parts of her as she finds her way. Both have good and bad qualities of her, even if the Assassin Rayla side is — let's say more negative — and far more worrisome given what Callum has asked her to do if he is possessed again, and how it seems like S6 will be going full steam ahead in exploring that plotline.

In a lot of ways, Assassin Rayla and Protector Rayla have the exact same set of traits — selfless, protective, strong, willing to sever close bonds or divert from the mission to do the Right Thing — but instead describe the circumstances she's making those choices in. Protector Rayla is the one who stands against Runaan on the battlements; Assassin Rayla is the one who refuses to prioritize her parents even when she absolutely could (or at least, more than she is).

Assassin Rayla causes her to forget her own needs and put the world above everything else. Assassin Rayla causes her to ignore other people's needs, either not helping them (although iirc 4x05 is the only real example of it) or by leaving / keeping secrets.

The part of her we don't want her to listen to, the part she listens to when she's Scared — the one that walks away from the drake in 4x05, that tries to walk away in 1x09, and what led to her leaving, in a lot of ways, in TTM (both out of love, trauma, and a desperate need for control) — and how S4 reaffirms those qualities is precisely what may lead her to hurting Callum (again) in S6.

Because Callum is asking her to become an Assassin, Aaravos marks her as a failed one, and Rayla still — deep down — wants to ultimately be a Protector. We'll just have to see what side she answers to (and why).

More thoughts on Rayla, identity, and murder to follow lmao

[romancemedia]

N O A H R A L I - 1x02: Why Raeliana Made a Contract

[fexalted]

watching tos for the first time since like, roughly 2012/13-ish? i don't remember what year it was, or why i only got thru most of season 1 before stopping

it's been fun to refresh my swiss cheesed memory with this tho so here's a semi-liveblog of the first 10 eps that i watched over the past couple weeks

1x01 - the man trap

things i remembered beforehand:

salt monster

"plum" uwu

that gay little run and crawl jim does when he's taking cover (it fills me with such delight)

things i did not remember:

how many people died, good god man it's only the first episode

1x02 - charlie x

things i remembered:

jim's bright red exercise pants

that stupid fucking face charlie makes when he uses his powers

not liking this ep at all when i first watched it, possibly due to me being around the same age as charlie at the time

additional thoughts: i enjoyed it more this time and felt more sympathetic for charlie. poor kid needed some parents, and also, like, a hug

1x03 - where no man has gone before

things i remembered:

bones isn't in it :'( (bored) (sad) (missing my bestie)

"James R Kirk"

that post i saw on here recently about how their contacts were made of glass

the only thing i could think about while watching:

their contacts

were made

of GLASS

(yes i understand this was how contacts were made back then. still freaked out by the concept of people putting glass in their eyes on purpose)

1x04 - the naked time

things i remembered:

sweat disease

sulu fencing

oh kathleen

"ONE-MORE-TIME!!"

"love mankind"

spock breakdown (extremely uncomfortable to watch)

bones casually ripping jim's shirt sleeve to jab him in the arm (extremely hilarious every time i think about it)

did not remember:

anything about them almost crashing into a planet lol

jim's little monologue when he gets infected (lmao)

time warp???

additional thoughts: hey remember when they reused this plot in tng and tasha and data fucked (<- literally the only thing i can remember about it) ((edit from future fex: i rewatched that ep. it was wild. tos did it better tho))

1x05 - the enemy within

things i remembered:

unicorn dog :)

evil kirk and poor little meow meow kirk

"I'M CAPTAIN KIRK!!!"

things not remembered:

dog dies :(

evil kirk's killer eyeliner

additional thoughts: say what you will about shatner / his acting but this ep is Peak shatner performance and a lot of fun to watch. he put his whole pussy into it, as the kids say these days

1x06 - mudd's women

things remembered:

could not forget harry mudd if i tried

the women are color coded like the powerpuff girls lol

they're also like, on some kind of drug that keeps them looking young or something

cool costumes tho

i don't have much to say about this one lol, harry's a fun character but the rest of the ep wasn't super interesting to me. did finally learn how to pronounce "ophiuchus" tho so i'll thank it for that

1x07 - what are little girls made of

things remembered:

is this the penis rock episode (it is)

uhhh i think kirk gets put into some kind of spinny machine that makes androids (he does)

more cool costumes (debatable)

things i find funny:

the number of planets we've encountered so far that are populated by like. 2-4 people

the way ruk (the big guy) just picks up and throws kirk like he weighs nothing

so much buildup with kirk and the penis rock and he doesn't even get to hit ruk over the head with it smh

also not a funny moment but i liked the way kirk was able to get a message to spock thru the android kirk, v clever

wait i just realized bones wasn't in this ep either. deducting 1/4 of a star from my mental rating bc i missed him (but apparently not that much)

1x08 - miri

remembered:

planet of children (bc everyone else died of terminal puberty)

"no blah blah blah!"

bones tests his newly discovered, untested cure on himself, in true mad scientist fashion (also spones moment <3)

saw this ep on a "what's your fave 'bad' episode" poll here recently and i can't remember if i thought it was good or bad when i first watched it lol

forgot:

another earth?? there's just a second, identical earth floating around out there?? and (of course) they don't mention it at all for the rest of the episode

300 year old children

oh these kids are so much more annoying than i remembered, however i may just be biased bc i don't like kids shfkshfk

1x09 - dagger of the mind

remember:

absolutely nothing! oh boy!

thoughts:

wow this ep is fucked up!

okay actually i don't think i've seen this one at all before?

usually there'll be moments that jog my memory but the only thing even slightly familiar to me was kirk going "helen don't go!" while in the neutralizer chair, but i could've just seen a clip/gif of it before

i remember skipping episodes in season 1 (i was impatient and wanted to get to city on the edge of forever) but i thought i'd at least made it to halfway thru the season before skipping any

anyway did i mention this ep is fucked up? (star trek really does love to drop an absolutely haunting 50 minutes of television on you and then never address it again, i understand this now. roll credits!)

1x10 - the corbomite maneuver

remember:

uhh

there's a thing out there

it's in the way

preventing them from boldly going, even

looks like an old windows screensaver

i might've skipped this ep too now that i think about it

thoughts:

cute mckirk moment in sickbay :3

i love that this cube has its own theme music whenever its on screen

oh shit it's the sequel to cube: orb

jesus christ that's a big orb

man they really said "okay we've got 3 music tracks and we're gonna get our money's worth out of them"

i gotta say this ep slaps tbh—WAIT HE'S A BABY???

LITTLE BABY MAN

LMAOOOOO

honestly great episode tho i'll stand by that

[paperstorm]

Can I just say just how much that 1x02 scene genuinely sounds like porn without the music? It's probably just as well they put the music in otherwise the scene may never have been allowed in cable tv!

They had to blast last night I slept in my stilettos to cover those moans or else they’d get an R rating

[drizzedoffrootbeer]

[clumsycapitolunicorn]

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[blueiight]

You're so right. the sex industry is lucrative and fast money. Since the Du Lacs were months from bankruptcy an honest business was not going to cut it. He even says that his little corner grocery stores weren't making enough. And I'll bet getting that kind of big money that fast while also being the token/pet black was addictive.

he needed to get rich fast cuz his family was also unaware of how close to bankruptcy they were. i wouldnt say he liked being the token black person more than he liked the power n psychosexual performance of controlling what these rich white men have sexual access to. “the product was desire” his modern self says. and he was the plug. re: his fixation on acquiring the fairplay salloon in ep1-2 is motivated by that & etc etc etc. ep1 when lestat is like “u made me buy a townhouse in the quarter” louis is like “i know men of my race look the same to u ppl but i aint sell u no house” & as soon as he becomes a vampire in ep2 he kills the assessor (?) for calling him a “good negro”. lestat is a french white man he knows little about here other than this guy has more things than me & hes feeling up on lily while staring at me. i wanna be him , kill him, and REDACTED by him. it unnerved him bc lestat was likening him to lily in that moment of sexual tension. translating lestat’s sentence, snarking at him off the jump, then being mesmerized by him not to put my ship goggles on [for a canon ship ik lol] is a rly gr8 way to set up the lxl dynamic n how louis operates. show louis is someone with sum i deem interpersonal racial pride. he interacts with his particular black classed community of his era n shows a perfectly respectable face in the eyes of the black church, his baby sister w the tickets up the garvey line, but everybody know where that money come from& r perfectly fine eating off its benefits. louis strategizing to get ahead at the expense of the black ‘collective’ outside of his immediate network. claudia would be someone outside of that as a poor black girl. shes the type of girl louis couldve .. well. lets just say, the fact that louis saved claudia in the midst of the race riot n losing his family , their shared tie of being made immortal by lestat & decades of living with lestat brought this temporary show of solidarity in the murder plot btwn lou+clauds that otherwise may have not have been there had claudia & louis met in a diff situation n show potential to go a lot of places in parts of s2 when lestat is out the picture. anyways. louis is not a self loathing black man n he hates being the token, but he was hardly a paragon of racial solidarity in s1. n he was always aware that his privileges were extremely conditional & dependent on how much of himself he was able to comparmentalize in situations where he did not have the upper hand and had to put aside his pride. what better to set up a certain kind of person whod favor eternal life, than a suicidal bougie boule opportunist of a black gay man whos aspects of himself all existed on different bookshelves.. who had to lie about his family’s financial condition to them, who tries to maintain this double life even with newly bestowed immortality. hes not grovelling at tom or fenwick’s feet, he plays the game to stay afloat but despises having to smile in their face. thats why when hes a vampire & the laws r discriminating against him hes so much more transparent in showing how he feels about them. all that pentup aggression he felt as the only black man in those rooms is the fuel for why he gored fenwick& ripped up toms jaw. i think 1x01 louis was actually at a breaking point but 1x02-beginning of 1x03 b4 the vampire starvation shit louis was rly feeling himself when the dough was rolling in. he has the fairplay salloon, he has lestat, he can ‘control’ what white people have sexual access to. but all that crumbles…

[gloriadenton]

Top 5 Audrey scenes?

BABY GIRL OF ALL TIME.

Audrey's prayer (2x01). She's so deeply over her head and she's been confronted with her naivity in a really devastating way, but in praying for Cooper to find her, she still has this instinct that she can bend the universe to her will through the sheer force of her desire. If I can be really pretentious for a minute, sometimes (like in this scene) she reminds me of this line from "The Lady of the House of Love" by Angela Carter: "He has the special quality of virginity, most and least ambiguous of states: ignorance, yet at the same time, power in potentia, and, furthermore, unknowingness, which is not the same as ignorance." Also it's just so sweet and sad and beautifully filmed? I love the overhead camera, and Sherilyn Fenn's performance, and "Audrey's Prayer" the instrumental is one of the most gorgeous, romantic Angelo Baddalamenti tracks ever.

Double R scene (1x03). I love how lonely and introverted and detached she is in this scene, and how it shows her being observed by other characters who don't really get her (Eileen Hayward sounds so judgy when she says "there's little Audrey Horne," lmao). But also she's so entirely her own world that she doesn't need anyone else to understand it: she'll dance on her own if she has to. Also, I love her talking about going to church because of Laura, and her really witchy body language when she's focusing on the coffee cup.

Emory Battis interrogation (2x03). AUDREY HORNE THE FREAK YOU ARE. I feel like "I'm Audrey Horne and I get what I want" is the feral wolf-girl flipside to the romanticism of Audrey's prayer, and also I just love her fearlessness and her willingness to mythologize herself as Little Red Riding Hood.

Meeting Cooper (1x02). It was SO! You know the world stopped for both of them, and also the dialogue is delicious. I love that she can go from dryly self-aware ("he's got emotional problems, runs in the family") to making allusions to these weird, esoteric fragments of experience ("do your palms ever itch?").

"What story is that, Charlie?" (3x13). This has the best use of her twitchy, angry s3 fragility, and I love how she starts to channel the unsettling mythic horror vibes through her broken-down broad persona.