#A fucking 3 hour lecture
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just how can i protect your smile?
#you guys like yaoi? can i get you some yaoi#pjsk#prsk#project sekai#proseka#tsukasa tenma#rui kamishiro#ruikasa#AUUUUUGH.#this is what finally makes me actually draw riks. vocaloid autism#putting the link in the caption because NOBODY FUCKIGN TLAKS ABOUT SCISSORHANDS EVER WHERES THE HYPE I NEED HER. SONG OF THE DECADE(2009)#this song makes me incredibly normal. my bad. i saw the miume choreography when i was like 11 and my brain shifted#i wanted their outfits to look like mikus in the mv so bad. Fuck my life for that btw stupid fuckign frill trim. why did she have to slay#tried to think of smth other than butterflies for kasa but i have no brain and tbh i hope his life is miserable so its fine#me posting this only to tmblr and not twt because i fucking hate twt#im drawing more song covers that live in my mind palace so i'll pist them there all together. and maybe here all together. who give a shit.#emnn skeleton orchestra next and it will fix me#Good lord. sorry. Im so caught up posting this for no reason. Get me out of here#im supposed to have a lecture in 3 hours but post covid symptoms say otherwise. im so fucked#i have a cyberpunk dead boy wip with them but idk i dont like posting wips on here its like an archive. n i want to actually finish it#but dear lord rendering it with their stupid outfits. clutches my chest falls to the floor. AUUUUGH#wxs killing me killing me taking damage augh auugh aughg
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test tmr and i thought i only had 1 and a half lectures for today but i had 4 and a half 😭😭😭 plus a ton of practice questions
#i am sooo screwed#well now i have 3 lectures. all half an hour ish so not too bad cuz the others are an hour to two hours#i did bad on the last test and its a required course for philosophy#my other class was just taking up all my time so rip!!!! i hate being so fucking unable to do 2 classes at once its so humiliating to tell#ppl i do that when they take 5 at once 😭#been feeling super depressed abt my limitations lately like why am i even here on this earth i dont have much to offer. even interpersonally
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i have lived ten thousand lives today
#3 hour lecture and i was the only student in this class#ONLY STUDENT#FIRST ROW MIDDLE BENCH#imagine the torture#and with that same research paper professor#she asked me if i can write the research paper#i said yes#then she asked three more times#?????? i said i will do it#then she's teaching biostatistics and i have to nod like that fucking toy that nods it's head#and solve every question in seconds for her#god imagine 3 hours......#one to one interaction with the teacher#but i think she really likes me#because she repeated everything she taught earlier related to the topic and because i didn't attend classes#she doesn't say a word to me even tho i hardly attend classes#maybe because of the research paper#but GOD#3 hours nonstop
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finally did my goddamn dishes. and that wasn't all i managed to do today. fuck yeah.
had a meeting for thesis prep. bmv trip. rough plan for friday's discussion lecture. cooked dinner for the first time in like 3 weeks. read ~50 pages of academic text for 2 classes and a paper revision.
feels like i didn't do enough but. considering that yesterday i managed... going to classes and nothing else! and monday i was only capable of doing the required meetings i had, this is a pretty good day!
#it's been. a tough few weeks. i couldn't focus at all last week. only got work done on the weekend. yesterday was........ tough.#monday wasn't as rough but was equally exhausting#so! proud of myself that i got. stuff done. big stuff even!#started keeping a task/reward journal to help out too :)#so every night i'll write out some tasks that need to get done the next day#and as i finish them i check them off and give myself silly little stickers to track what i managed!#so i get like. 1 sticker per 10 pages read (bc i usually need a break every 10 or so pages rn) 1 sticker in a diff color for chores.#1 for teaching stuff (laying out a lecture plan/finishing the lecture/doing a dry run/doing the lecture) 1 for meetings etc etc#it's helping bc i have a dumbass brain that doesn't give me dopamine for completing tasks anymore#it all gets lumped into 'yeah i did the bare minimum bc that's what i need to do. that's not special-#-no reward for you! you didn't really *do* anything. just scraped bare minimum!'#turns out that's bad for you lmao to get No Rewards#so i have a journal now! so i have hard proof that shows that i've Done Shit.#and i think the last two weeks i've been 1. underfed 2. overtired and 3. on the verge of burnout#so i haven't been able to do much. but a major stressor is gone now! (the bmv trip...)#and it like. immediately lifted a veil from my brain. 0-60 in like 40 minutes flat.#i hadn't realized how stressed about that i'd even been. it was taking up so much of my brain's metaphorical CPU.#so i'm hoping tomorrow i'll be able to do what i was doing two weeks ago. just plugging along at my usual pace#instead of just barely dragging my carcass forward#so! anyway. update that was unasked for but you sure are getting#i fuckin did stuff today! fuck yeah!#it is now an hour past my bedtime i'm gonna crash tf out. bedtime. sleepytime. good night
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the bus in september is actually the most hellish place on earth
#uni just started . everyone still has motivation so Everyone is here#it is thirty degrees celsius outside wih a billion percent humidity#the buses are fucking packed . none of them have air conditioning#my sunglasses are literally sliding down my face because i am sweating So Much . by Sitting Still on the bus#and i have a headache . bc i was just stuck in a lecture for 4 hours in a fucking sauna#this might be my 13th reason <3#s.txt
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gpu swap over commencing today everyone cross ur fingers for my computer
#my uncle is doing it bc I am just a lil guy and I don't wanna fuck it up and he is the Tinkerer of the family so#hopefully it goes smoothly so I can get back into everything quickly#I had my first sound design class yesterday and it was pretty good despite the horrors (lecture getting pushed back an hour last minute)#ANYWAYYYYY gonna read and write and try not to panic over my baby computer. her name is persephone btw if u even care </3#nadine is typing...
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crazy how 2 university lectures w a huge gap between them will make me more tired than a whole day of continuous classes at school
#they weren’t even like rly intensive lectures like one was ethics so we did fuck all#and the other was just a small extension of an online lecture id already seen so not too many notes to make#i hate the weird gaps in between in person classes though like actually 😑😑#like wtf am i gonna do with a 3 hour gap once i’m done with any work i had#🧩
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i know i've bitched a lot today, but this stats class is also bad
#i have it twice a week#and thus far what is expected of you is that you watch ~ 6 hours worth of lectures /outside of class/#and then she does a /different/ lecture in class#i've never had a class thats just nonstop info with literally no time to sit with any of it before#like how can I /learn/ this if i have to just move on to the next thing immediately because there is not enough time in the week otherwise#like arent most math classes like... learn the info -> apply the info in hw?????#this is just INFO INFO INFO INFO INFO INFO INFO INFO#whats the homework?? GET MORE INFO THROWN AT YOU#oh you want to sit with something and learn how to do that thing?? fuck you you have 5 more hours of lectures#on top of other classes of course#anyways i literally just have to get through this semester and then the rest of my degree should be smooth sailing#like i wont even have a full class load for the next 2 semesters#i /just/ need to pass these classes#lea speaks#i am PRAYING that this isnt the setup for the whole semester and she's just front-loading this shit#also i feel it should be noted that its not 6 hours of lectures to do in 7 days#no sir it is 6 hours of lectures to do in 3 days
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im not doing this fucking snow today i’ll tell you that much
#i have a quiz but i can take it online and i am NOT going to my 3 hour lecture tn bc frankly i cant be fucked. i habe to go on campus#later for a meeting w my advisor and to print a few things but i am going to stay IN and stay COZY and watch the andrew scott ripley show
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help I just wanna play splatoon but I have to revise :(
#I started playing it again this week and it’s so much more fun than I remember#I’m having a great time#I got up early today!! but I was then falling asleep trying to watch my lecture#and I have another to do (last one!!) but I. stopped working at 12 to ‘have lunch’#actually seeing it’s the last one is a very good motivator and I only have like 40 minutes of it left#i can do 40 minutes easy and then start writing it up that’s not bad at all#if I say I’ll go until 6 for now just to have an end point so I’m not trapped in The Endless I’ll be fine#but goddamn people keep texting me (if you can read this it’s not about you ily) and I. would like to not deal with them specifically rn#aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAA okay fuck that will deal with that later it will have consequences but it’s fine#I have to wash up too >:(#it’s just a plate but still#okay fine. I will. go wash up. and then lecture. by which time probably around 5:20#and I can spend ~40 minutes writing out the basics of the two lectures I watched today that’s manageable I can do that#and it would put me a significant step forward which I need rn#and if I can do that okay for just 1.5 hours. I can have some time before i eat to play the silly squid game <3#luke.txt
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#fearandhatred#on the canvas syllabus for one of my modules our ta included pre-tutorial instructions to form groups and bring an item to share#but the thing is i have no way of reaching any of my tutorial classmates because i don't even know who the hell they are#and i missed the first tutorial which was on zoom anyway so like. useless#also we haven't had a face to face lecture in the past two weeks. the first time was because of chinese new year#but the second time our professor didn't even give a reason so like what the fuck#anyway i don't think it's that big of a deal because this isn't like a graded presentation just class participation at most#but idk whether the rest of my classmates have already formed groups if they know each other (none of my friends are taking this module)#so yeah i have been mildly nauseous for the past 2 days because of this. thanks prof#anyway the tutorial is today! in 12 hours. we will see how it goes. maybe i'll just derealise and then i won't feel anything <3#not giving af is not going well#hell week lol. goodnight#actually no fuck you there's a reason no other professor has ever done this and why it's always pre-allocated groups at the very least#how do you expect communication between students from like 500 different majors with no actual main communication channel#that is not how it works in our college bro i'm about to start insulting you in malay i'm so serious. bodoh
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Tetsu's bday = my molecular bio + protein chemistry final :((
couldn't be anymore awesome -_-
sorry my lovers the kuroo bday fic will be up a little late, I have doomsday to pass :(
#not to mention these 2 are the most hardest courses I have taken this semester#Im like ripping my hair off#14 LECTURES?! AND EVERY LECTURE IS LIKE A GODDAMN UNIT OF A BOOK#who gives such shit-#every lecture takes atleast 3 hours to finish what a fucking drag man#and I keep forgetting the past lectures what the fuck man#and I gotta study after coming home too cause the very next day I got another final#wow#nice#must be nice having a life and write and breath normally#can't relate#sorry everyone Im just venting I really wanted to upload right on his day :(((#but issokay I'll read y'alls for the time being#:33
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think i should get time machine so i can kill. peter jackson
#upsides:#less annoyig racist tourists#no movies with the Racism Casting towards the native people of the country THEYRE FILMING THE MOVIE IN#preservation of union and working rights for people working in the film industry#because that dumb fucking nimby wont be there to go ''oh but warner said if i cant violate workers rights on my fantasy hobbit set#then theyll film in scotland so you have to let us do that or we will lose thousands in tourism'' AND THEN NATIONAL JUST FUCKING.#LET THE WARNER BROS AND JACKSON CHANGE OUR FUCKING LAWS SO THEY COULD PROFIT#insane i had to take a media class at uni to learn about this shit#we got 3 whole 2 hour lectures on the fucking mess behind those films and how. nonexistent the argument that they#draw in most of the country's tourism is#i say all this as someone who thinks the lotr books are fun and recognises why the first movies are so loved#but my god i just. i hate that fucking man dude. i hate how he used his influence to push our previous mayor into that position#all because he didnt want us to build more houses and ruin his dumb fucking harbour view WE HAVE A HOUSING CRISIS DICKHEAD#i hope my old classmate angus accidentally stands on your head while you are sunbathing at lyall bay again evey day forever
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Not to be upset over my own goddamn choices I stand behind but like
I miss not having so much shit to do
These days with med school doing it's fucking best to murder me I almost never like,,,, have time to do things besides studying
Oh, you want to engage in a hobby for more than 10 minutes? Try making it alive through anywhere from six to nine hours of class, house chores, and an absurd amount of homework you have and see if you won't pass out from exhaustion first. Oh, and don't forget about all of the tests you need to study for, as well, and those two projects you are meant to present next week which require turning in a paper version, which means you need to have them ready a day in advance in order to go print that shit on the way from class because none of the places that offer printing work at the time you are leaving for uni
It's genuinely not fun because I can never properly rest,,, like, it's my only weekend day (as saturdays also have class) and guess how I'm spending it? That's right, glued to my desk drawing piles and piles of histology because I spent the last two days suffering from the extent of my own exhaustion and a migraine which decided to fuck me over.
Just
Can't I have a single day without having to stress over this or that assignment,,, can't I just go to class, go home, and be done ಥ_ಥ
#essentially this semester against the last one is like x3 times the workload and x6 times the stress#+ just the time I spent there weekly is 35 hours#that is a full time job#and that's not adding all of the time spent on assignments and tests and lectures you have to do in your free time#... listen if I actually had a single day to myself I wouldn't have been this grumpy but both this weekend and next one are full of stress#so now I'm incredibly grumpy with the knowledge that I will have no fucking break for 3 weeks straight when I need one desperately
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I am straight up NOT having a good time right now
#adhd hell brain trying to do schoolwork at the last minute#this is so stupid because technically I'm ''studying''#but actually I get GRADED on this stupid REVIEW SHEET based on how detailed it is#which isn't how I study at all but whatever#straight up just feels like the stupid busy work they gave me in high school#that used to take me like 6 hours because it was so boring I couldn't focus on it#and college courses basically never make you do stupid shit like that but this professor is built different <3#honestly with the state MY fucking brain is in right now I'd probably just try my luck with the test#maybe just study a few of the things I'm less sure about because that's all I've got the mana for#I got fucking MARKED DOWN for my LAST study guide for ''not being detailed enough''#like what do you want from me? this is how I study and I got a 92% so CLEARLY it works for me#also not for nothing the specific part I got marked down for was the material we covered in the class I had to miss#because I caught covid IN HER CLASS#and I'd emailed her to ask what I should do to catch up on that material#because she deliberately doesn't put the information from lectures on her slides#and she didn't answer me until AFTER we'd already taken the exam for that material#also not for nothing (again) but I'm pretty sure SHE also caught covid because she was coughing for like two weeks#around the time there was a known exposure in our class#and not only did she continue doing class in person#she didn't even wear a fucking mask!!
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if there's one thing i hate more than slackers in group projects its goddamn hypocrites
#this guy did jack shit for two full weeks when we're building the damn prototype#but STILL brought up the fact that most of our team blew off a report till the last minute in the beginning of march#*prototypes don't work* “sEe tHis iS wHy wE nEedEd tO hAvE a cOnvErsaTioN aBouT MS3”#like hon you lost the rights to the “y'all need to contribute more” argument the moment you left me hanging for 2-3 FUCKING WEEKS#like excuuuuuse me you been prioritizing extra curriculars all week get off your high horse stop lecturing everyone else about contribution#he made maybe 3 contributions? maybe?#first he 3D modeled an adapter and sent it to someone else to print (couldn't even do THAT himself smh)#then he sent the gc a sketch of an idea i roughly proposed literally the NIGHT BEFORE as his own contribution (that I ENDED UP BUILDING#then he...screwed on a few pipe fittings and called it a project :)#would be a LOT less pissed if he didn't show up to One Thing outside weekly team meetings/class#then apologize for slacking off BUT then launch into a FUCKING SPEECH ABOUT HOW HIM BEING HERE PROVES HIS COMMITTMENT#all because he DOESN'T LIKE GETTING UP EARLY. like sir. sir i am rIGHT FUCKING HERE. i was up till 4-5am working on this stfu#we've been building for three weeks and he's come into work on stuff wo me there ONCE for an HOUR#for context id spent about fifteen hours in the shop alone working on the fucking thing that WEEK#like im trying to be understanding ik tech week is hell#but i took “stepping back” as “i only have a few hours here and there to be in the shop and will do the writeups”#NOT “won't show up outside meetings AND we're splitting slides and writeups 80/20”#like id been in the lab all fuckin day and notice we have an assignment due (missed a SINGLE meeting due to exam)#and i ask him if theres anything i can do (and im thinking like look it over maybe add a spec or two)#and this fucker has the AUDACITY to ask me to write the full four paragraph summary cause he#*checks notes* copy-pasted some specs from milestone 3 so of COURSE its only fair that despite the fact I've been in the lab ALL DAY#that i write the four fuckin paragraphs too#course we're troubleshooting and he's like “did you clean the pump? did you disassemble it and rinse it?” like yes???#i did EVERYTHING i could think of before i even bothered texting you cause i know you're fucking useless#and then he raises fifteen different concerns which while valid would have been NICE TO HEAR WHEN I SENT YOU MY INITIAL DESIGNS#y'know BEFORE i spent over fifteen hours of my free time building this damn thing#with slackers i just pick up the work and move on with my life this idiot is trying to gaslight me into thinking that he contributed fairly#when i heard “i need to step back due to play stuff” i thought we'd be splitting it like 65:35 NOT FUCKING 95:5#and now hes probably going to give ME a poor peer review because I've been passive aggressive with him in the few meetings he showed up to#like i got shit going on too? how the fuck does he expect me to respond to being abandoned to do this shit myself
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