#8 hour flight meme idk what to call it

[selfindulgentraptor]

Saw @kidneyurine do this teehee

1: He's super polite, but every 20 minutes would start up the most awkward old man conversation topics

2: Would be quite pleasant if not for Radio constantly vocalizing and poking the seat from behind you

3: He may have brought a knife on the plane and has no sense of personal space, but he's such a sweetie and would be SO FUN to talk to. Just keep in mind that if he takes a liking to you you'll have to constantly decline his on-flight invitations to kill you

4: You'd get to observe two rich scumbags cycle between comparing their wealth, joking about the poor and ordering all the fancy airline foods twice over. 50% chance that they'd even notice you're there, but if they do they would make fun of you

5: Probably the most dangerous seat on the plane? But they'll be distracted by their fascination for each other's scientific predicaments and likely fall into an endless conversation you won't comprehend

6: Mark Beaks will be blasting dubstep through his headphones the whole flight between you and a hyperventilating orange thing

7: Weirdly okay compared to the other ones if you can tolerate Spongebob's enthusiasm to make small talk and Grievous' occasional bouts of wheezing

8: On paper not that bad, but Entrapta is probably whipped around in her seat trying to listen to the science talk 3 rows down and her hair inevitably gets shoved in your face. Adam is actually pretty chill and will probably share his snacks with you, but expect him to say at least a few absolutely out of pocket things

[adventuresloane]

get to know me meme

tagged by @desiree-harding-fic ! Thanks friend I could use a distraction from work.

Rules: Answer 17 questions and tag 17 people you want to get to know better.

nickname: "Jack” is an intensely punnable name, so now and again my close friends will get cute and call me things like Jackalope or Jackal, which I enjoy. My roommate calls me Jacques sometimes but that’s because they like to dunk on me. 

zodiac sign: Taurus

height: 5'2″

last thing I googled: “medscape 15 studies that changed medical dogma.” I’m polishing up my resume rn and a paper I worked on got accolades in this really good medical journal, so yeah.

song stuck in my head: “Bad Ideas” by Tessa Violet because I’ve been straight-up pining for the past month.

hogwart’s house: Hufflepuff, which should surprise no one I think.

following: 295

followers: On this blog, 683!

amount I sleep: I try to get seven hours a night but don’t always succeed due to I’m a dumbass.

dream job: I really just wanna teach creative writing in a higher education setting. I love editing and discussion so much and I love it when I can help stories reach their full potential. 

lucky numbers: Idk 8?

wearing: Dark purple flannel, black jeans, socks with deer on them

fave instrument: I love a good saxophone honestly. Violins and hurdy-gurdies are pretty good too.

random fact about me: As we speak, I have a case of mantis eggs in my refrigerator. I took the case from outside because I want to see them hatch and then release them, but it’s still a bit too cold here for them to be released and survive, so I’m keeping them refrigerated to delay hatching. I’d also like to keep at least one mantis to raise!

fave author: Tbh I have an easier time answering what my favorite books and stories are, because I don’t often read a lot of books by the same author. I’ve read and adored a lot of Carmen Maria Machado’s short stories, though, including probably my favorite story of all time, “Observations About Eggs from the Man Sitting Next to Me on a Flight from Chicago, Illinois to Cedar Rapids, Iowa.” I also like Ta-Nehisi Coates a lot, though I haven’t read his fiction yet.

fave animal noises: When a dog sees you coming and gets real wiggly and excited and lets out this soft throaty “awooooo”...I’m struggling to explain it but it’s good shit

aesthetic: I always struggle with this question so I asked my girlfriend and she responded “lesbian motorcycle cowboy. unironically wears cowboy boots.” Which is. Not incorrect.

tagging: @greyhawkrogue @ohsweetflips @mirmontilyet @thegempage @urbanbirdbud @huntersmark @theatricuddles @lavenderdryad @justasmalltowngir5 @maybemountains @deadbonessinderhellaton @infernallegaycy @huitunkuutti @minicy @shyyren @viv1n @j-esbian

[krupnick]

———  BASICS! ♡

NAME! Red. PRONOUNS! ♡ She. TAKEN OR SINGLE! ♡ Taken!

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

1! ♡ if you ever see a tumblr post of edward elric dancing to gloria estefan’s “conga” floating around the fma rpc abyss, know that deactivated ‘miraclemother’ account was Me back in 2015. i dont know why that thing got so many notes but it did. 2! ♡ When I was in sixth grade, my class had to make write own story for a Language Arts project, and the end result for that was getting them sent in and turned into actual books! I was excited! But apparently what I wrote was too good for a kid my age because the teacher called it plagiarism and never published my book. Even though I paid for it. I’m still hurt. :) But I got that little laminated construction paper book I made it into around here somewhere.. it’s got tears on the corners and her grades & notes all over my pages but wcyd. the salt never ends. 3! ♡ My first concert was a Korn, Flyleaf and Evanescence concert. In the mosh pit. When I was like 14. I don’t know how I survived. 8) eventually my dad realized his daughter didn’t want to check out on life just yet due to being crushed by drunk & shirtless dudes bodyslamming each other across the field and we left .. towards the end. after spending hours down in The Pit.

THE MUSIC WAS GREAT BUT GOOD GOD.

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

PLATFORMS USED! ♡ Nickelodeon Message Boards [all the way back in the early 2000s LOL. my starting point.], MLAATR Message Boards, AIM, MSN messenger, Yahoo IM, LiveJournal, Discord and eventually Tumblr. 

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

FEMALE OR MALE! ♡ Females 100%.  LEAST FAVORITE FACE(S)! ♡ Ehh.. idk? Maybe The Joker, but he’s got some great reaction faces for icons so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The Suicide Squad one seems to activate a flight instinct tho //laughs// SO I GUESS THAT COUNTS?? MULTI OR SINGLE! ♡ Both are ... so necessary. There’s no “or”, it’s “AND” for me. I have so many characters both original and canon that I want to rp on Tumblr, but don’t have the time to spend 3 hours hunting for the perfect theme and THEN the whole design/about/blahblah process. Well I guess I can, but I don’t want to. Multis have saved my life and my sanity, and the singles I make now are purely because they won’t fit on the multis or I just want them to have their own run-a-muck space. For sideblogs, I use them for the multis to have aesthetic/musing/interest/headcanon dumps so I don’t end up clogging up the main blog. When you find something for a specific character every five minutes and don’t want to clog your main drafts, it’s a Life Saver. FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡ I adore fluff. I’m eeeehhhhh on angst. I love smut.   PLOT / MEMES! ♡ Both, but in the same vein? Plotting can give me a lot of anxiety. I don’t want to be that dead end in a conversation with boring ideas that eventually make my partner lose interest, so I just.. meme it up. I usually pray people are coming to me with ideas when they want to do something //laughs.

TAGGED BY! ♡ @rollingsnowsmasher​ - thank you, pumpkin! <3 TAGGING! ♡ yoooooou.

[low-budget-mulan]

1-155

This is going to be long. So it’s going under.

1: Full name

Sara [REDACTED]2: Age

22 1/23: 3 Fears

Caterpillars, rolly pollies, idk?4: 3 things I love

my niece, my job, my friends5: 4 turns on

nice, caring, strong, able to cook6: 4 turns off

any of the guys I have been in relationships with lol7: My best friend

I have many. Brandon, kelsey, renee8: Sexual orientation

straight 9: My best first date

I mean. All my first dates were ok? Like the last 2 guys I dated I had a lot of fun. We ate and laughed and talked about memes. 10: How tall am I

5 ft 6 in11: What do I miss

My niece12: What time were I born

*was         idk like 2 pm?

13: Favourite color

purple14: Do I have a crush

nah fam. Aint nobody got time for dat 15: Favourite quote

”be not afraid” 16: Favourite place

Mammoth/june mountain, disneyland, yosemite17: Favourite food

My grandma’s cooking. Always. 18: Do I use sarcasm

Nooooo. Why would I do that (i was being sarcastic. And yes) 19: What am I listening to right now

Slime rancher home screen music 20: First thing I notice in new person

face21: Shoe size

1222: Eye color

brown23: Hair color

^24: Favourite style of clothing

hobo with a job 25: Ever done a prank call?

yes27: Meaning behind my URL

brandon insulted me. I agreed 

28: Favourite movie

Totoro, book of life, home, Christopher Robin29: Favourite song

idk??30: Favourite band

WAL31: How I feel right now

Sleepy after getting off a 38 hour shift32: Someone I love

My niece33: My current relationship status

Married to my job I guess. 34: My relationship with my parents

There is one at least35: Favourite holiday

CHRISTMAS36: Tattoos and piercing i have

Be not afraid on my arm. No piercings 37: Tattoos and piercing i want

Verso L’Alto, and some others38: The reason I joined Tumblr

neighbor made me one 

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

I don’t hate him. I am hurt. But he decided to not want to be friends at all. I would have still loved to be friends with him, even though we didn’t work out. 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

no41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

My cousin? no 

42: When did I last hold hands?

idk? many moons ago 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

depends if I shower. If I shower then 30 mins. If not then 10 

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

No I don’t have to shave my legs. 45: Where am I right now?

in bed46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

My friend renee. But I have never been drunk before because I am not a lightweight and I also know how to say no. Why would I intentionally want to make myself sick. 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

depends where I am and how I am feeling 

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

yes, because I make minimum wage as a first responder and can’t afford to live on my own. 49: Am I excited for anything?

Not being on night shift anymore XD currently dying from it and need a break.

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

Brandito51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

Whenever a patient or random person starts creeping on me. 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

I hugged My niece so many times today 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

I would tell him to go away. But like that’s just because I am mad at him. He can kiss whoever he wants. I don’t care. I don’t own him. He is his own person. 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

My friend Sam 55: What is something I disliked about today?

not sleeping all day 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

idk?57: What do I think about most?

My niece and how much I miss her. and wanting to move out 58: What’s my strangest talent?

I don’t have any 59: Do I have any strange phobias?

caterpillars and rolly pollies 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind 61: What was the last lie I told?

idk? Probably something I said to a patient? 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

online63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

no64: Do I believe in magic?

no65: Do I believe in luck?

no66: What’s the weather like right now?

sunny 7767: What was the last book I’ve read?

Emerald Dodge’s battlecry Series. 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

makes my physically sick69: Do I have any nicknames?

Low Budget Mulan, Sa’a, Scara, Hoe70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

uhhhhhh My back? and also my wrists and neck. But this is all from work and having to lift heavy patients. 71: Do I spend money or save it?

both. But I need to start saving more 

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?

yea73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?

bubble gum tape 

74: Favourite animal?

idk75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

working.76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

doesnt have one 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

idk78: How can you win my heart?

memes, food, money79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

”guess I’ll Die”80: What is my favorite word?

idk81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

i don’t have any 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

Ambulances are not a taxi service and your stubbed toes are not emergencies. Pay first responders more. 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

not that I know of. 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

super sarcasm probably? idk? flight? invisibility? super strength?85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

this one 86: What is my current desktop picture?

default picture87: Had sex?

no, just waffles88: Bought condoms?

no89: Gotten pregnant?

no90: Failed a class?

many91: Kissed a boy?

yes92: Kissed a girl?

no93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

cant remember94: Had job?

many95: Left the house without my wallet?

yep96: Bullied someone on the internet?

just my sister97: Had sex in public?

no, just waffles98: Played on a sports team?

yes99: Smoked weed?

no100: Did drugs?

crack is wack101: Smoked cigarettes?

ew no102: Drank alcohol?

heck yea103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

no I dont hate myself104: Been overweight?

yes105: Been underweight?

no106: Been to a wedding?

yes107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

yes108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

yes109: Been outside my home country?

yes110: Gotten my heart broken?

ye111: Been to a professional sports game?

I’ve worked them 112: Broken a bone?

yes113: Cut myself?

yes114: Been to prom?

no115: Been in airplane?

yes116: Fly by helicopter?

no117: What concerts have I been to?

Many118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

no119: Learned another language?

pig latin120: Wore make up?

ye121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

no122: Had oral sex?

ew no 123: Dyed my hair?

yes124: Voted in a presidential election?

yes125: Rode in an ambulance?

Bruh. I work in one. I drive that bitch126: Had a surgery?

yes127: Met someone famous?

Many famous sports people and some others 128: Stalked someone on a social network?

every day 129: Peed outside?

yes130: Been fishing?

yes131: Helped with charity?

yes132: Been rejected by a crush?

no because I never make the first move. And I never tell someone I like them unless they have said they liked me first 133: Broken a mirror?

lol ye134: What do I want for birthday?

money135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

many. Idk?136: Was I named after anyone?

no137: Do I like my handwriting?

sometimes138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

furby and my doll139: Favourite Tv Show?

idk140: Where do I want to live when older?

yosemite, june mountain, mammoth, japan 141: Play any musical instrument?

no142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

on my hand, My mom poured hot caramel on me. 143: Favourite pizza toping?

pepperoni144: Am I afraid of the dark?

no145: Am I afraid of heights?

no146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

no 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

My whole life148: What I’m really bad at

everything149: What my greatest achievments are

nothing150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

some stuff my mom has said 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

move out and buy a house and save the rest 152: What do I like about myself

nothing 153: My closest Tumblr friend

brandito and kelsey 154: Something I fantasise about

having a family 155: Any question you’d like?

rood 

[zairehyun-blog]

do ask memes :o

ALL OF THEM!? ON THE ENTIRE WEBSITE!? no but since i love you i will ~

Halloween asks : done

‘Let’s get personal’: done

Sweet asks:

vanilla - how has your week been?

An honest to god mess, but that’s okay. It’ll get better soon~

chocolate - what do you crave right now?

Attention.

red velvet - what type of music do you like?

All tbh

ice cream - if you were an animal, what kind would you be?

I WOULD BE RILAKKUMA (u may be like zaire that’s not an animal. shhh let me be rilakkuma)

cake - describe your ideal location

like.. im just gonna say what i consider home

new zealand or osaka 💫

mocha - what are three things that make you feel warm inside?

my bby

the stars

writing abt my day at night

frosting - describe your appearance

uhm Mmmm i don’t know how i would.

marshmallow - do you sleep with plushies? if so, which are your favorites?

I DO INDEED i sleep with my moomin

sorbet - describe an ideal summer day

Going on adventures ;; especially car rides n stuff like that ✨

butterscotch - describe an ideal autumn day

going outside and walking around and the cold wind n i m happy it’s autumn 🍂

caramel - describe an ideal winter day

DRINKING HOT CHOCOLATE AND WATCHING TV IN AN OVERSIZED SWEATER WHILE IT SNOWS AND THEN GOING OUTSIDE TO PLAY IN THE SNOW ❄️

pecan - describe an ideal spring day

sitting outside n just enjoying all the flowers c”:

mint - what’s new in your life?

my bby

pie - “home is where…”

he is

macaroon - list three things you feel inspired to do

draw again

to cosplay

2 mAKE HOT CHOCOLATE NOW

Send me a number:

1: where are you from?

I was born in London but I was raised in New Zealand

2: how old are you?

I’m 18

3: when is your birthday?

March 13th

4: what is your favorite music genre?

It all depends on my mood

5: religious?

Yes

6: do you believe in ghosts?

Yes

7: would you want to be immortal?

Yes and no, I would hate to lose everyone who isn’t but I would love to see how the world will evolve idk

8: favorite book?

Alice in Wonderland

9: favorite song?

MIC DROP ASJGHSD

10: favorite band/singer?

I have too many but between bts and exo :3

11: sexual preference?

Indifferent to gender

12: virgin? If not, how old were you when you had sex for the first time?

No & 16

13: do you drink, if yes, tell me what?

Nah.

14: do you smoke?

No

15: ever did drugs?

No

16: ever visit a festival?

Yes

17: do you have pets? tell me about them!

I have 2 cats ✨

Ayumu & Kiyoshi

18: how many countries have you been to?

A lot , my dads travel 2 much

19: do you speak another language besides english? If yes, write a sentence in that language!

Korean - 안녕 사랑해!

Japanese - やあ、君を愛している！

and Arabic - مرحبا انا اح��ك!

They all say Hi, I love you! C:

20: vegan, vegetarian or meat eater?

21: be creative! write a short story about something that comes into your mind!

ASGIJSDHKJf i hate

one day we all heard zayn left the band and it was the worst day ever like they had a song called the best day ever no bitch this is the worst day ever and we all went 2 bed and it was all a mutual dream we all had (WTF WAS THIS ASKJGHKSD)

22: put your iPod on shuffle and tell me the first 10 songs

i don’t have my phone near me either

23: grab the nearest book and give me the last sentence of page 124

I have no books near me....

24: tell me about your crush

i’m answering his ask

25: any weird habits?

If i get scared i start sucking on the back of my thumb

26: ever been rude to a teacher?

Yeah

27: ever talked to yourself?

I always do...

28: extrovert or introvert?

In the middle

29: the most embarrassing moment in your life?

WHEN MY DAD GOT DRUNK AND STARTED FLIRTING wITH MY OTHER DAD AND WAS LIKE “u single”

and my other dad said “no.” and MY daD cRIEd AJHKGDS

30: what keeps you going?

🍯 you c: 🍯

31: ever thought about suicide?

Always

32: do you suffer from a mental illness?

Yeah

33: I'm bored, tell me something funny that happened to you!

I once fell down a flight of stairs because I thought someone was walking up them and I wanted to beat them, but like as I was falling I realised I was walking downstairs and no one was there.

34: your 5 favorite blogs

1. @spook-hyun

2. @lucidyeol

3. @hosvoks

4. @ultchen

5. any suggestion blog tbqh

35: 10 facts about yourself

1. I can bend my pinky all the way back lmao

2. It took me one night to learn Korean :’)

3. I’m a self taught artist

4. the first cat I ever had, I randomly found and I nursed him back to health and he never left me C:

5. I used to want to be a vet/or just someone around animals at all times

6. I used to live by the ocean and yet i’m lowkey afraid of it askJGHKSD

7. I started this blog as a safe space ✨

8. I have a twin sister who’s older than me by a minute

9. I have a younger sister who still calls me her little brother....

10. i’m madly in love

36: 3 things you like about yourself

Nothing

37: 3 things you hate about yourself

Everything

38: biggest turn on?

AHEH IM NOT DISCLOSING THAT I have a stalker who’s gonna try shit so no

29: biggest turn off?

someone who’s controlling. ;e; like i get if you’re like warning me abt something but if you’re like thisthen yeah fuck off.

30: when did you join tumblr?

January 2014

Luxury Asks:

bubble bath: do you have any routines before bedtime? like skin care, etc. what are they?

AHA YALL READY FOR THIS

I wash my face n then i brush my teeth and then i put lotion on and i change and then i drink green tea and watch anime lmao and that’s it

champagne: what topic could you talk about for hours?

You

crushed velvet: have you ever used your charm to get something you want?

AHEH HOW DO U THINK I GOT HYUN

diamonds: how do you feel about excessively spending money?

I mean, if it’s for a shopping spree for good reason (like u got cheated on and are trying to make yourself happy) then yeah, but if you do it everyday then no

faux fur: describe your wardrobe.

lots of oversized sweaters and jeans and cosplay outfits

glitter: describe someone special to you.

His eyes look like honey when the sun shines on them and every time it happens I fall in love

gold: describe what you would call the most perfect meal.

mY DADS KIMCHI COME FOR ME

jazz: name a song that resonates with you and your emotions. explain the reason why.

Go go because 

“I want to be cruisin’ on the bayI want to be cruisin’ like NemoNo money but I wanna go far awayI don’t have money but I wanna relaxNo money but I wanna eat Jiro Ono’s sushi

Worked hard to get my payGonna spend it all on my stomachPinching pennies to spend it all on wasting itLeave me be, even if I overspendEven if I break apart my savings tomorrowLike a crazy guy”

lace: what is something in your life completely different from last year?

My happiness

lingerie: do you consider yourself a promiscuous person?

If I remember the definition correctly 

kinda? but I stopped being that way

lipstick: do you enjoy talking to strangers?

n...no not at all lmAO unless it’s like at a comic con or something like that then yeah

pearls: what's something about your personality that surprises others?

I open up to people when I feel comfortable with them, like, I seem really shy and reserved but I open up to everyone I meet as long as I’m comfortable. 

penthouse: what would you consider your dream home? describe it.

AAAH my old house

perfume: if you could make your own signature fragrance, what would it smell like?

Ironically my cologne is really strong but it’s not so strong you’re like *dies inside*, it’s like, it’s strong so you remember it and if you smell it somewhere, you’re like “Zaire?”

robe: how do you prepare for an evening alone with a loved one/date?

I HYPE MYSELF UP AND THEN I GET READY LMAO

roses: If it had to be winter, autumn, spring or summer for the rest of your life, which would you choose?

AUTUMN AUTUMN AUTUMN LIKE 

AUTUMN ABT TO TURN WINTER YES

satin: what is your most favorite article of clothing?

this oversized as FUcK black sweater that says “fuck off” in japanese on the sleeves asghsdjkfl 

sheet mask: what's your favorite lazy activity?

drinking tea while watching anime

silk: do you have more inner or outer beauty?

Inner

silver: do you have any obscure hobbies? what are they?

I’ll draw on the wall and then i’ll paint over it??? unless i rlly rlly like it

sparkling water: what are your top three songs for the summer?

ew summer

wine: what kind of drunk are you (happy/affectionate, angry, sad, fun/wild)? if you don't drink, what kind do you think you WOULD be?

Well, 

one dad acts all normal and like he’s not drunk and he makes perfect sense and he’s fully aware of everything and can walk perfectly and cook

my biological dad on the other hand is all emotional and affectionate n happy n soft lMAO so i guess i’d be like my biological dad

wow bby i hope you enjoyed this

[edelgard-more-like-baedelgard]

30 Questions

tagged by @tactician-spar, sorry I took a while, work kept me busy :P

answer 30 questions and tag people you’d like to get to know better!

1. Nicknames? Uuhh, my friends used to call me Speedy Gonzalez xD My extended family still calls me Nat Man, and my uuhh, I guess ex-girlfriend now, used to call me Nelly.

2. Gender? Female.

3. Star Sign? Taurus

4. Height? Uuuhhh, Like 5′11″ or 6′, I haven’t measured myself for a while, but that’s the last one I remember.

5. Time? 11:30p.m.

6. Birthday? May 6th

7. Favorite bands? Uuhh The Violet Burning

8. Favorite solo artists? Two Steps From Hell. Although I think they’re two people, does that still count? idk.

9. Song stuck in my head? Armed and Ready-RWBY Vol. 4 OST

10. Last movie you watched? I honestly don’t remember, it’s been that long since I watched a movie xD

11. Last show you watched? Technically Doctor Who, but that was just watching a bit while my mom had it one while I was eating.

12. When did you create your blog? Like mid 2014 I think?

13. What do I post? Mostly Fire Emblem and other assorted memes. And then pretty much anything else that catches my eye or I think is important. Once every 500 years I might actually make a post myself.

14. Last thing I googled? How to not die in Stellaris. xD

15. Other blogs? Nope.

16. Do you get asks? Also nope, my blog isn’t important enough for that xD

17. Why did you choose your url? because I wanted something that wasn’t something I had come up with when I was 12, I’m super gay, and I love Lucina, and now here we are.

18. Following? 76

19. Followers? 197 for some reason.

20. Favorite colors? Blue and Purple, specifically darker hues of both colors.

21. Average hours of sleep? Uuuhhhhh not enough xD I think it’s like 7 or 5

22. Lucky number? 6

23. Instruments? Trumpet, sorta Violin, Timpani, Marimba, xylophone, (anything like the last two), Marching Snare, and Piano. Though I’m out of practice with everything except Piano.

24. What am I wearing? Black plaid pajama pants, a t-shirt with all the different Iron Man suits on it, and a plain black hoodie.

25. How many blankets do I sleep with? 1, unless you count the comforter I also have.

26.  Dream job? I have no idea. Maybe musician/artist/writer that kind of thing, except I’m lazy trash that never gets around to any of that shit.

27. Dream trip? I have no idea.

28. Favorite food? Lasagna

29. Nationality? American. uh, technically Mexican-American I think, but I’m 3rd generation and know no Spanish so idk if that counts

30. Favorite song right now? Flight of the Silverbird by Two Steps From Hell

Aaannndd tag people I want to know better, right? Uuhhh @sleepy-sylveons @marihelle @angelicroses don’t have to do it if you don’t wanna ofc :P

[21st-century-flapper]

got tagged by @cafeleningrad

85 questions

THE LAST

1. drink: vanilla chai cookie tea 2. phone call: mom 3. text message: with @perilsperil, speculating about tumblr suing me for being problematic XD 4. song you listened to: A Sorta Fairy Tale by Tori Amos 5. time you cried: over a video on youtube about a paralyzed kitten. I get very emotional over kittens. 6. dated someone twice: never 7. kissed someone and regretted it: I was 16 and very drunk 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: my German grandma, about 25 years ago 10. been depressed: haha I’m bipolar. So I’m going with “major depression” which was last winter 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: never

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. purple 13. dark blue 14. dark green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: nope 17. laughed until you cried: yes.  18. found out someone was talking about you: as in, gossiping? Spreading rumors? Or in a benign way? Because I know my friends talk about me with their friends. 

19. met someone who changed you: no one comes to mind 20. found out who your friends are: none of my friends have turned out to actually be assholes, if that’s what you are asking, meme 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: I don’t use facebook GENERAL 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: I don’t use facebook 23. do you have any pets: Gwyn, the most beautiful of corn snakes 24. do you want to change your name: no.  25. what did you do for your last birthday: nothing big.  26. what time did you wake up: usually around 7, 7:30. 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping. 28. name something you can’t wait for: Thor: Ragnarok. And finally having full use of my left leg again. 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: errrr I think it was in July? 31. what are you listening to right now: the wind in the trees 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. something that is getting on your nerves: round 241 of the Great Balcony Repair Saga 34. most visited website: either tumblr or Flight Rising 35. hair colour: varies 36. long or short hair: short 37. do you have a crush on someone: no.  38. what do you like about yourself: I’m smart. 39. want any piercings: no. I’m too chicken (says the person with two tattoos) 40. blood type: IDK 41. nickname: Fireez 42. relationship status: married 43. zodiac: Aquarius 44. pronouns: whatever, idc 45. favourite tv show: Deep Space Nine, MillenniuM, Criminal Minds 46. tattoos: two. A unicorn on my right shoulder blade and a sun/moon symbol on my left bicep. A third one is in the works. 47. right or left handed: right

48. surgery: for a broken metacarpal after a car accident. Hip surgery next month. 49. piercing: none 50. sport: mostly yoga. Swimming. 51. vacation: Denmark. Canada, some day. 52. pair of trainers: yup, got one. MORE GENERAL 53. eating: pasta and cake fiend. Carbs are my friends. Not the healthiest of eaters, I suppose. 54. drinking: tea 55. im about to: not sure yet. I wanted to write but I’m too filled with anxiety. With my current levels of executive dysfunction, probably “waffle around for half an hour and then watch a shitty horror movie”

56. waiting for: nothing 57. want: health and a million euros. I can dream, right? 58. get married: am married 59. career: loooool what’s that? A career? In this economy and with my disability? I’ll settle for a job that doesn’t literally land me in the psych ward, thank you. 

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: hugs. I love hugs. Hug me more.

61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: who cares? 63. older or younger: see above. It’s the age of a person’s mind, not the number on their ID. 64. nice arms or nice stomach: both 65. hook up or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: depends HAVE YOU EVER 67. kissed a stranger: no 68. drank hard liquor: lots 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: I don’t wear them 70. turned someone down: yes 71. sex on the first date: no 72. broken someone’s heart: probably 73. had your heart broken: kinda sorta it’s complicated 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: that’s basically my MO

DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: depends. I do believe I am a survivor and a fighter. 78. miracles: no 79. love at first sight: no 80. santa claus: not since I was a little kid 81. kiss on the first date: what kind of puritanism is this 82. angels: see Santa Claus

OTHER 83. current best friends name: I don’t have one best friend, I have several, and they know who they are.  84. eye colour: blue-grey-green-ish 85. favorite movie: The Last Unicorn, Silent Hill, The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood, Princess Mononoke

[actualbird]

tagged by @ezramakesanentrance!! hiya!!!

im a huge cop out with these and i never know who to tag that i wont annoy so i just….Wont tag anybody. im a coward, sue me. but here r the answers!!

1) What color are your eyes?

dark brown

2) Do you have any internet frens?

hhhhhhhhhhhh im scared to call anybody a friend because idk if im oversteppng boundaries. but uh. the moment you engage me in a conversation? i love you and youre my friend. 

3) What are your favorite songs?

my taste in music changes wildly on a weekly basis but here are some all time faves: Calendar Girl by Stars. One Angry Dwarf and 500 Solemn Faces by Ben Folds Five. Your Universe by Rico Blanco. 

4) Do you have any pets?(if so what kind and names?)

YEAAAAHHHH. we have 5 dogs, Bec (jack russel terrier/poodle mix), Muffin (shih tzu), Suju (lab), Arya (lab), and Robbin (lab). and we got two turtles too, both of them red eared sliders. Isaac and Tweek.

5) Do you live in a house, a townhouse, an apartment, etc….?

one floor house kinda super close to a river that has a tendency to flood in the rainy season. blegh. love this place w/ all my heart tho. even when it’s submerged.

6) Favorite musicals??

so many????

pippin owns my ass because it was my first musical and got me to love theatre. jesus christ superstar is a close second because it’s fucking jesus christ superstar. les mis holds a special place in my heart esp since it’s the first Big musical i saw live when les mis manila happened. spring awakening and next to normal also get honorable mentions because they Rock and got me into the more recent musical scene (my tastes were very very classic back then) +++ a local prod, three stars and a sun, a ridiculously cool jukebox musical using the music of francis magalona about post apocalyptic philippines. and another local prod, kung paano ako naging leading lady, a musical about superheroes. i have too much love in my heart for musicals

7) Have you ever broken a bone??

no!! it’s really weird!! ive fallen down flights of stairs several times and still no broken bones, so i think im invincible. i’ll update you guys when i get hit by a car if my hypothesis holds true

8) what do you want to/study in college??

im currently studying creative writing and in the process of applying for a minor in english literature. yeah, i know. im That Pretentious Student. if it makes you feel any better, i dont smoke and i have mixed opinions on slam poetry. 

(of course, no offense to those who do smoke and like slam poetry. you do you!! cyn!! thia!!!)

9) favorite food??

candy. all candy. my dentist hates me. they had a candy booth at school once and i bought like 3 bags of sour tape and i ate it all over the course of a few hours. but if we’re talking Actual Food, i’d leave somebody at the altar for sinigang. 

10) Favorite meme??

doge. Judge Me All you Want But It Was A Good And Nice Meme, Okay. 

11) Do you have any hobbies??

writing fanfiction is my main hobby but i also crochet!! not as much now tho…i also like origami, but i only fold the same six designs over and over again because i cant stand it when theyre not Perfect. im also rather obsessed with folding these same designs smaller and smaller. itty bitty paper cranes. 

[arrow-aves]

Tag meme

I got tagged by @cry-cats, thanks dude :0 I havent done one of these in years lmao.

I guess i just tag all my mutuals who can be bothered to do this?? or just anyone really.

the last:

1. drink – orange juice 2. phone call – heck idk I haven’t called someone in ages bc anxiety  3. text message – My cousin  4. song you listened to – Some Starbomb stuff 5. time you cried – eh I cant remember that shit. I cry a lot but not recently I guess?? 6. dated someone twice - haha nope fuck that. 7. kissed someone and regretted it – noooo. 8. been cheated on - nah 9. lost someone special – I guess? 10. been depressed – I don’t think so?? 11. gotten drunk and thrown up – I don’t like drinking :0 I haven’t even been tipsy lmao

favourite colours: 12. Sea green 13. Other shades of blue 14. Also faint violet colours idk I like colour combinations more than just one solid colour.

in the last year have you:

15. made new friends - yep  16. fallen out of love - nah 17. laughed until you cried – maybe?? I cry when I do impressions of people so I guess? 18. found out someone was talking about you – yep. 19. met someone who changed you – idk? Probably. 20. found out who your friends are – certainly.  21. kissed someone on your facebook list – lmao nah

general:

22. how many of your fb friends do you know in real life – idk I don’t really go on that cesspool anymore tbh. 23. any pets – One bearded dragon called Hermes. He is my grumpy pancake son. 24. do you want to change your name – Not really. 25. what did you do for your last birthday – Nothing I think. Planning stuff is scary. 26. what time did you wake up- half eight, I was expecting to sleep in longer seeing as tho I fucked up my sleep schedule. 27. what were you doing at midnight last night – reading angsty fanfiction bc im sad. 28. something you can’t wait for – Going to uni 29. when was the last time you saw your mum – an hour ago lol  30. what are you listening to right now - My dad has some music on downstairs does that count. 32. something that is getting on your nerves: my mind I guess?? I hate how anxious I am with adult responsibilities  33. most visited website – Flight rising maybe? This hellsite and youtube too.  34. hair colour – currently a dark blue/black!! Im gonna dye it again soon tho  35. long or short hair – short!! 36. do you have a crush on someone – nah.  37. what do you like about yourself – I guess my drawing skills?? My personality is shit lol 38. piercings – Just my ears. Tattoos>piercings!! 39. blood type – idk who keeps track of that shit  40. nickname – Don’t have one I guess. O me n one of my friends call each other Disney bae just bc we go watch Disney together when we are sad lmao 41. relationship status – single pringle fuck that relationship bullshit thanks  42. zodiac - Capricorn 43. pronouns - she/her 44. favourite tv show – Lucifer, Voltron, I’m might start watching Game of Thrones bc I’m procrastinating doing my work,, 45. tattoos – none but I can get my first one in like less than six months so that’s pretty cool. 46. right or left handed – left. 47. surgery - Nopppe 49. sport – I used to like basketball and archery, but none of that shit anymore. I just have weekly dance classes now. 50. vacation – Went down south for a few days this year :0 51. pair of trainers – not trainers but I have a pair of combat boots and ive worn them to death.

more general: 52. eating – Pizza soon 53. drinking – orange juice still lol 54. im about to -  actually do work I swear 55. waiting for – something worthwhile. 56. want – to go to bed. 57. get married - maybe  58. career – I wanna be an animator or artist idk how successful thatll be.  59. hugs or kisses – hugs pls  60. lips or eyes – eyes :o 61. shorter or taller – relationship wise??? Same height or taller. But im like almost 6 foot so thatll be tricky. 62. older or younger –  idk?? A little older maybe. 63. nice arms or nice stomach – idk?? I care little for either of these. 64. hook up or relationship – idk?? Im a child pls don’t ask 65. troublemaker or hesitant – hecking hesitant pls  66. kissed a stranger - no 67. drank hard liquor - no and I don’t want to currently. 68. lost glasses or contact lenses – I only lost my glasses like once and it was cause I was sat on them. 69. turned someone down – not to someones face I think. I cant remember this shit. 70 - sex on the first date – nope.  71 - broken someones heart – idk? Probably once or twice. 72. had your heart broken – Lmao no. 73. been arrested – Nope. 74. cried when someone died – duh yeah. 75. fallen for a friend – no.

do you believe in: 76. yourself – fuck no 77. miracles - nooo 78. love at first sight - no 79. santa claus - nope 80. kiss on the first date – heck idk 81. angels - nnah

other: 82. current best friends name - 83. eye colour – brownish hazel 84. favourite movie – aaaa I love httyd?? And so many other animated films,, but dragons are my shit.

[freigaeist]

sup i got tagged in a few thingies by a few beans big thanks to @ksjknj @rapdaegu @hyejinbee @minyccngi @mochikeks !! it’s under the cut to not flood your dash with a wall of text :< )

rules: answer the 20 questions and tag blogs you would like to know better

nickname: bea is a nickname actually!! the kids at work call me tabeh for some reason??

gender: female

star sign: capricorn (with a taurus moon and aqua rising)

height: 180cmish ? 

time right now: 12:39pm

last thing i googled: pacman

favourite bands: bts, coldplay, gorillaz, lullatone, flight facilities, depeche mode, the killers, placebo (you get the idea....)

favourite solo artists: stromae, björk.. listen i’m bad at this i rather like songs or a certain direction rather than artists ever since spotify sighs

song stuck in your head: help i’m alive - metric

last movie i watched: I Am A Hero 

last tv show i watched: The Walking Dead 

when did you create your blog: i believe 2013? i joined 2011 but made this one to go all kpop back then

what kind of stuff do you post: kpop, aesthetics and other stuff i find cool and interesting (like sharks or history or science or spoopy shit or whatnot.... everything rly)

when did your blog reach its peak: uhh never? just when ppl recommend my blog there’s a few coming into this weird household and wait to get fooled by the houseowner that is me :< )

do you have any other blogs: i’ve a shit ton of sideblogs don’t get me started

do you get asks regularly: no! a few when i reblog asks memes but except of that it’s either personal chats or talking to one another via tags 

why did you choose your url: it’s cute how jimin calls namjoon moni and if joon isn’t boyfriend who is..........

following: 672 bean sprouts

posts: 38,977 

pokemon team: drag me i never got into pokémon and have no idea whatsoever but i guess the blue one?? my flatmate said that i think

favourite colours: black and darker, organic colors 

average hours of sleep: 6

lucky numbers: numbers + luck are two things this life will never combine for me i’ve dyscalculia 

favourite manga characters: death note’s L and Mello and Fullmoon wo sagashite’s Meroko i guess?

how many blankets do you sleep with: currently two

dream job: mhh i think i will do more things over the years? idk

dream trip: we’ll go to greece this summer which has me excited, i still wanna get my ass over to slovenia to visit a certain baby cakes and japan and iceland are also high on my list! i also miss swedens nature

another one:

Name – (ta)bea Age – 22 Height – 180cm Ult Bias – kim line of bts (don’t make me choose i can’t??) Nicknames – bea Zodiac sign – one hell of a capricorn Ethnicity – white and very northern european (my bones are huge dude) Favorite fruit – pineapple, coconut, tangerine, peaches, oranges, lists every fruit ever, apples, bananas............. Favorite season – winter, early and late summer  Favorite color – black and darker colors (like warm browns dark yellows whine red and greyblue) Coffee, Tea or Hot Cocoa – coffee Favorite animal(s) – sharks and lately i love piglets?? they’re so cute omg Dream trip –  iceland and japan  Number of blankets you sleep with - two Dogs or cats – has always been cats but just like my sexuality i swing both ways now bc i’m an indecivise binch Side blog – here you go  Follower count – 1111 teehee When did you start this blog – 2013 

Instructions: You can tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people. No skipping. 

i future politics - austra ii 팔도강산 - bts iii gone bad - monsta x  iv every planet we reach is dead - gorillaz v bone us_elements - epic high (ft. tbny and myk) vi you are my winter - dillon vii bourbon - gallant viii andy, you’re a star - the killers ix 19-2000 (soulchild remix) - gorillaz x louise - eisblume uhauishsoad i hATE MYSELF LMAO

BTS Top 10 Songs

1. Save ME 2. Run 3. MAMA 4. Autumn Leaves 5. House of Cards 6. Coffee 7. Silver Spoon 8. TOMORROW 9. Just one Day 10. Converse High

phew the last one was hard sajdiaosdh anyways i’m not tagging anybody bc idk who already did this and it’s exhausting to have it all in a block but if you wanna, feel yourself being tagged and don’t forget to @ me i love song recs!! tysm for tagging me have a good one B< ) 

[i-amusemyself]

All Lets Get Personal.

Thanks anon!! My depressed ass needed something to do

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

It really depends on my mood tbh. But judging by my YouTube playlists:

Church- Fall out boy; Hopeless Wanderer- Mumford and Sons (its a jam okay?); Summertime- my chemical romance; so cold- ben cocks; this is me- keala settle and killing in the same- rage against the machine

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Lmao idk I dont have much of an interest in anyone atm. I still think itd be cool to meet kaitlyn alexander ig

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

You recognise each other the moment your eyes meet. It’s a question and answer book and the question is about soulmates or something

4: What do you think about most?

What it is I need to do to stop feeling anxious or stressed since it’s a daily battle

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

“it was hillarious but I couldn’t say “lmao I’ve seen women take bigger” so I just let the conversation die but I was urging to show him a savage video and ruin him just to be right but then I stopped myself”

Yes, it is as bad in context as out of it.

Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

Depends how warm it is tbh

What’s your strangest talent?

Talent? What’s that?? Idk I’m quite good at picking up languages super fast for some unknown reason (but i can forget them just as quick soo

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

Girls are hot hot hot they make me gay

Boys are hot hot hot they make me gay

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

Nah, but I’m not major sad about it since that’d be so awkward

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

Oh gosh um probably in the car the other day, canny remember which song it was tho

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

I seriously hate water like to the point I chose my uni based on where the lakes were. I also hate stuffed toys with voice boxes. 

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

Probably but I don’t remember

13: What’s your religion?

I’m an athiest

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Walking between indoor places

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind it! I’m not photogenic

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

Ummmmmmm idk. I genuinly don’t know. I probably listen to five finger death punch most atm?

17: What was the last lie you told?

I said I was feeling good lmao

18: Do you believe in karma?

I don’t know, but I like to hope it does to make myself feel better 

19: What does your URL mean?

I think it’s pretty self explanatory

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

My greatest weakness? Probably my low opinion of myself or my associated jealousy.

My greatest strength? A few years ago I mightve said my resilience but I’m not sure I ever have that anymore. Idk, maybe my need to always keep improving as a person

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

See number 2 tbh

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

Yah every time I have a bath

23: How do you vent your anger?

I send massive long rant paragraphs to my closest friends and try not to do anything stupid or unhealthy

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

I have a pretty big collection of reaction images and memes

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

I hate both but video chatting is slightly better

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

I suppose. I’m closer to being happy with them than I ever have been and that’s what matters.

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

At this point I hate the sound of my alarm more than most things and I love... idk music. Does that count?

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

What if I’d stood up for myself more?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

I don’t know as I believe in ghosts but I’m fascinated by the people who do. As for aliens ofc they exist.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

I touch sofa. Both times. I’m sat on a sofa.

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

I smell rabbit since he’s currently sat with me in a box. I got lonely.

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

Gosh I don’t know. I can’t really think of anywhere I’ve hated being, besides home sometimes. I don’t know, no where has been that bad since I always try to make the best of it.

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

East coast

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

Opposite eh? Lmaoooo

Okay I actually have quite a thing for the lead singer of motionless in white. Make of that what you will.

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

To be happy, to go good and to die with as few regrets as possible

36: Define Art.

Fuck. Something visual this is made to be aesthetically pleasing or convey a message. I guess.

37: Do you believe in luck?

I’m not entirely sure what luck is. Maybe?

38: What’s the weather like right now?

Fekkin horrible, you wouldn’t know it’s spring. It’s grey and wet and windy and cold.

39: What time is it?

17:51

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

I have a full license but haven’t actually driven since my test, so I haven’t had a chance to crash.

41: What was the last book you read?

When breath becomes air. It’s about being a doctor.

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

I adore it yaas

43: Do you have any nicknames?

Char, (wholemeal) chorlo and Thot lmao

44: What was the last film you saw?

Love, Simon

Go see it, it’s gay and beautiful!

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

Idk, I broke my humorous after dislocating my elbow once. But that was ages ago

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

Hundreds lmao thats my childhood right there

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

I’m too depressed to have much of an interest in anything tbh. Even when I’m not I don’t tend to get That Invested.

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

Bisexual, ig. Though saying it never feels right for some reason.

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

A few, a few. One being that I was a lesbian years before even I knew I wasn’t straight. 

50: Do you believe in magic?

Not really but who knows

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

The threshold for grudges is pretty high but if I have one I’ll be bitter til the day I die

52: What is your astrological sign?

Libra

53: Do you save money or spend it?

I swing wildly between saving loads and spending loads. Healthy.

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

Um I mean I paid the deposit on a house, does that count?

55: Love or lust?

Love, for sure

56: In a relationship?

Yeah XD

57: How many relationships have you had?

This is like my third proper one

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

Nope

59: Where were you yesterday?

At home on my tod again, revising

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

Nah

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

Yuup

62: What’s your favourite animal?

I love all the animals I can’t pick a favourite. I love alpacas, chimps, gorrillas, orangutans, lizards, elephants, octopuses etc etc

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

Excessive praying and reblogging lucky posts

64: Where is your best friend?

Tbh I have multiple, one in the next village, one 6 hours south and one 4000 miles away

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

Christ um, people I spam with likes most are probably @oneshappyplace @apricot-el @only-slightly-dangerous @succeeding and @setheverman

66: What is your heritage?

I’m white as a toilet so my family probably murdered a lot of innocent people

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

Umm I was skyping my boyf and playing a game online with him

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Trump

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

Yeah, haven’t most people?

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

I like to think so yeah. Though I do have a lot of breakdowns so maybe without that part. @ my friends I apologise

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Help the dog. Though realistically I probably couldn’t do it alone, so would call someone over to help and leave asap to not be so late.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

I think I’d tell the people closest to me, yeah. I don’t know what I’d do though. Probably book as many flights as possible and visit all the countries I’ve always wanted to go to. I guess I’d probably write my will and organise a funeral too. I don’t think I’d be too afraid, just, idk, sad? I don’t want to disappear to nothingness yet, even if I won’t know when it happens.

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

Argh that’s horrid. I mean trust is essential for all relationships imo. But if I had no love at all in my life I doubt I’d live very long at all. So... love? No wait,,, trust. Yeah trust.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

Little Talks by Of Monsters and Men. It reminds me of a school trip years ago to Belgium that was such a good time

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

8008

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

Well, trust ig, being able to talk about anything, a good balance of affection and roasting. Idk

77: How can I win your heart?

Be kind, be funny and have layers.

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

I suppose so 

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

The decision to reply to the message that appeared in my inbox right before I was going to end it. There were plenty, but I only opened that one. The person who sent it changed my life.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

7

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

Either a pun or something ominous. Maybe both.

82: What is your favourite word?

Probably sorry since I say it a lot

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

Love, followed quickly by the mental image of a dissected heart

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

I amuse myself. Gotta keep up that brand sponning.

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

Don’t feel like dancing by the scissor sisters lmao

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

Black, red and purple

87: What is your current desktop picture?

Just a galaxy

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

Donald. Trump. When in close proximity to Mike Pence too.

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

Besides “what are your credit card details”? Idk, perhaps a question about the flaws of the people closest to me, since they’re something I wouldn’t want them to read.

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

Lie there still for a good 5 minutes just to make sure. Maybe chuck a pillow across the room to see if they attack it. Then go fetch my phone and call whoever will pick up to ask wtf to do.

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

The ability to fly probably. It’d help stop me being late and transport is so expensive these days.

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

A half hour period of the time me and my friend spent outside laughing our heads off and covered in glitter when I visited her in the states last summer

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

Damn, only one? Lmao catch me ranking my traumas to try to answer this question. I’ll erase getting flooded and being made homeless I think lmao

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

Probably P!nk since she was low key my gay awakening

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

I quite fancy going to amsterdam rn, or failing that, copenhagen

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

Not that I know of

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

Only as a little kid

98: Ever been on a plane?

Plenty of times yeah, I love it

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

I wish there was some way I could convince all the dictators, extremists and right wingers to just fekkin stop tbh. Centrists can stay but theyre on thin ice.

[bitch-sexy-blog1]

Day 1 - Angie

Monday 8:48 am:

Text from Dom:  “Hola!!! I miss you!  So curious how you be, wanna catch up? <3”

I wake up to this text.  3 mosquito bites on my forehead.  Some IG memes.  Snapchats.  Along with a slight depression because I am still funemployed and I hate not working.  Oh, and to texts from my other ex-boyfriend Jake who reached out because his step-father passed away this week.  

*Mind tries to swallow these feels*

9:50 am: Sends Mila a screenshot of Quinn’s text

9:53 am: Mila:  Oh my god.  Are you going to respond???????

*falls back asleep until MUFUGGING 4 PM* WHO THE FUK AM I.

(Dom is a well-known (I guess you could say famous) DJ ex-boyfriend of mine whom I asked to never reach out to me again back in January after the X-Games.  That was my breaking point of our “trying to be friends after dating” situation.  He is the reason I have an unordinarily negative outlook on love, relationships, and men.  And yet I still compare every guy I date to him.  How obsessed we were with each other, how we communicated, how we loved...I can’t put into words how it felt.  The best part was that it was mutual each step of the way.  But as time went on, we both changed.  Unfortunately for me, he turned into a lying, egotistical fuckboi.  He was a world-class manipulator and controlled my every move like I was his personal puppet.   He was also the *only* person who could make me cum in 30 seconds.  Yay for me.  After I found out about his sleezy nature and about all the PLUR baby girls he was banging, I could no longer cum.  Not even once.  That was it.  The flame burnt out.  Sexually, mentally, emotionally.  We tried and tried and tried and it just wouldn’t happen.  You can still try to love when your mind’s not in it, but when your heart’s not in it too, that’s when it’s game over.  Time to move on.  I appreciate the times we had because now I know how to love deeply.  I also knew what it felt like to be vulnerable, for once.  

Year 1 and 2 he showed me what true love was like.

Year 3 he tried to have an open relationship with me (with it being open on his end only, mind you) and consistently told me it’s natural for men to have multiple partners because they crave “sexual diversity”.  Even though he thought I was perfect, he still wanted a taste of something different.  He would tell me “if you don’t want any guy to cheat on you, you’re gonna have to get with a plumber.  Because guys in this day in age, if they’re successful, attractive, and are charming, they are going to have multiple partners.  That’s how it should be.”  He told me, “I become even more addicted to YOU, because of how free you allow me to be.”  

Pshhh, keep that shit away from me mayne.

Here is where my negative outlook on men began to cultivate.

Anyway, so I wanted him out of my life.  I felt like he was toxic to my mind and I just didn’t want him to flood my thoughts anymore.  I politely asked him to stop reaching out weekly and he freaked out.   He tried to text me four or five times after, and my short and disinterested responses seemed to have worked.  I haven’t heard from him since April.  And it’s been great!

However, it’s hard to escape his entirety.  My friends in Atlanta are all obsessed with his music.  He developed a friendship with my brother.  I still even enjoy his music.  His old body guard still messages me.  I can’t escape Stage Name, but I can still try and escape Dom.).

This text was like woah for me this morn.  

Rewind two days:

I had just talked with the guy I’ve been seeing Quinn (who is also in the music industry) about how Dom and I don’t talk anymore.  He seemed curious about it and said, “Doesn’t he live like 20 min away from you?”  I said yes, but trust me, he doesn’t know I live out here.  And I asked him not to reach out to me a while ago.  He hasn’t.  It’s fine.  Don’t worry.”   This happened Saturday night as I lay in his lap, listening to Deadmau5, looking up at the sky (and his cute ass face).  He was asking me all sorts of questions.  How many relationships have you been in, how long were they, etc.  

Soon after, we all packed into Dan’s car heading to an after-party at Mike’s loft.  As I sat on Quinn, knee to face and ass in lap, he bit my ear, kissed my neck, kept turning my head to make out with me...all in front of everyone.  After we had talked about how he doesn’t need to worry about Quinn, how I’m a good girl that doesn’t just hook up, and how I’m a deep girl with deep feelings, he seemed to have no worries at all.  I liked that.  He couldn’t stop hugging me.  I noticed that I didn’t care about PDA at all either, which is unusual for me.  PDA?  Me?  Naw…..well, I suppose yes with him :)

We hung out on the rooftop overlooking the ATL skyline.  Soon we both got tired and head to bed.  Of course, we ended up having sex even though the bedroom had missing walls (I get that it’s a loft but like, what about privacy?  Y tho).  Pretty sure people heard us.  But, again…..we didn’t care.   

Sunday:

*Alarm goes off* 12:10pm

Angie:  Shit.  Need to get up.  Guess I’ll get up and see how I look.  *Looks in mirror*  Okay, not too bad.  We can make this work.  A little foundation, brushed teeth, and change of clothes and I’ll be Gucci.

12:15pm: *whispers to Quinn*

Yo...we have to leave in 15.  You don’t have to come, but just letting you know.

Quinn: Wakes up all squinty-eyed.  Curly-headed mess.  Zombie walks to the bathroom and moans.  Walks back to bed.

I sift through my tiny gym bag of necessities (thanks to Skiplagged even tho I love you Skiplagged) and find a cute, chill outfit to wear.  In 10 min, I look gewwwwwd.  Slight bags underneath my eyes but that’s inevitable after a festival weekend.

I tap on Quinn to let him know I’m calling the Lyft.  He gets up, stares at the wall for 30 seconds (I look at him like ...da fuq.  He spaces off randomly and IDK if he’s really not thinking about anything or what but...I curious about you sometimes dawg) but then he finally makes moves and puts his shoes on, and says “Mmmk.  I’m ready.”

We meet my mom and brother for lunch.  My mom is being extra cute and Asian and Quinn just giggles and stares at me the whole time.  I keep putting food on his plate to eat (Korean style) and he just kept eating.  What a doll.  He tried everything too.  What. A. Doll.  Even though he’s the second guy I’ve ever introduced to my family, my fam kept it pretty chill.  I think they know not to get attached to any guy I talk to now ‘til it’s reaaaal.  But still.  Props to my fam.  They were very welcoming and adorable.  I knew he really liked them.

My brother drops us off at the loft again and we pass out for a couple hours.  <Insert last quiet attempt at sex here>   We did ittttttt.  Both came too.  Tehe.  I still couldn’t get on top because the bed squeaked too much, but still.  Fun times.

We both head to the airport and he’s constantly touching and grabbing me along the way.  He asked, “You think we’ll have time to dine?” I smiled, “Dine?...Yes, I think so.”  And he smiled back.

We “dined” at Grindhouse Killer Burgers and just chatted.  Kept looking at the time, hoping time would pass slower.

I had 5 minutes until boarding ended, so we started to walk towards my gate.  Right before we got there, he asked when I’d see him again.  Of course I agreed to come down to LA.  We kissed goodbye and I hopped on my flight just in the knick of time.  Had bitch seat in between one chick playing loud ass electronic music and another watching football on her phone the whole time chewing her gum like Cardi B would (one of my biggest pet peeves).  And no TV.  So I decided to just try and sleep the entire way.

Decide to take BART home.  I see McD’s next to the station...so I decide to make moves.

Get home to wifey Mila.  I have a McDouble in hand.  I plop down on the couch and eat my burgz.  I barely ate all weekend so it was pretty fucking delicious.  We talk some then both decide to go to sleep.

I had awful sleep because I kept getting mufugging bit in the face by mosquitoes lurking in my room.  

I woke up Monday like…………………..is this for real?  Universe.  I see you.

Dom...really?  Now?

Also, last time I got bit in my face by a mosquito was when I was with Quinn on a hike a couple years ago and my forehead literally grew an inch because of how I react to mosquito bites.  He constantly laughed at me because of how cute it was to him.  Was this foreshadow, Universe?  Cuz...I still see you.

Anyway, all this is making me question if I could be with someone in the music industry again.  I lurked Quinn’s IG haaaard the other day and it was all fest/show life.  

I really dig Quinn, but during this next trip, I want to get to know him more and see what his everyday life is like.  And what his normal communication is like.  I can’t tell if he’s just shy and quiet or if he likes to keep the game interesting by being quiet.  I told Mila I want to have a communication level to a degree where Quinn and I shared, and she was like, “You compare every guy to Quinn,” and I was like…damn, you’re right.  But just because I want that communication level doesn’t mean I want a guy like Quinn.  Quinn is a broken dude who will always be broken.  I just look for the way our convo flowed.  Kinda like the way Mila and my convo flows.  I need that.  

So, bought my flight to LA (exact same one as Mila cuz she’ll be there for her poker playaz) today.  

Oct. 13…………oh lordt.

(I also messaged my bartending connect today.  We are meeting this weekend.  I think I’m gonna go this route for now.  Fukkkk sales.  I mentioned this so you don’t think I’m a lazy POS, lulz).  But really.  I am excited to see where this goes.

11:20pm:  Mila’s Jonah Hill doppelgänger just called.  He’s totally in love and trying to pay for her flight out this weekend.  She’s playing it cool by saying she has to check with her boss (which I’m sure she does) but I can tell wifey needs to think a lil about it.  I’m so curious to see how this weekend would go for her if she decides to go.  He’s suggesting she stay a good amount of time.  Her and this super sexy dark Kocoum look-a-like (who is roomies with Jonah at the cheez mansion) have this intense chemistry going on, and I’m sooooo curious to see how it unravels.  If she doesn’t go this weekend, Mila and I are both going to be in LA Oct. 13th wknd.  We are gonna have two completely different blog entries, I can tell ya that much, lolz.  I’ll be with Quinn mostly and she’s gonna have to fend off Chuck and Jonah, but try and sneak away with Kocoum.  Also while trying to slay at poker.  I happened to be at this mansion during fight night in LA a couple weeks before with Quinn and met all these guys.  Completely randomly with different connects.  The one guy I noticed and thought was cute was the guy she picked out--Kocoum.  Go Mila :) 

Arrrittttee.

****Time to sign off****

-Angie