#3 years post op phalloplasty

[answersfromzestual]

Another person out there! Answered a different way as well. And a similar but different procedure. It gives you options and I like how he mentioned his previous bladder conditions to help clarify more and show that maybe if you have the same issues they should consider the risks as he has.

I'm sure he wouldn't mind a follow?

The options are great, and I would say, actually, numerous.

I like to see other trans men post op posting and letting others know it's not scary, but definitely has some risks depending on your health.

Thanks @twinfools for your post!

I would love if you wanted to submit more about your journey choosing not to lengthen your urethra and why you chose phalloplasty? And anything else you feel like sharing would also be great!

Stay Golden Everyone ✌️ 💙 💜

I’m 3 years post phalloplasty and I realized I’ve never really made a post about how things are going. Phalloplasty is a hard surgery to talk about because, bottom line, it’s not part of common conversation to talk about yo dick. That being said I think it’s really important for me to talk about this procedure to help break stigma and misinformation— both inside and outside of trans and non-binary communities.

I had ALT phalloplasty, glansplasty, scrotoplasty, no urethral lengthening (UL) with vaginectomy. This means that tissue from my thigh was used to create my penis, my urethra was not extended or moved (so I don’t stand to pee) and my vagina was closed. I feel like this detail is important because this is one of many variations for this procedure and what I opted for/out of were decisions made according to trade-offs between personal benefit and risk.

I opted out of UL because I do not tolerate catheters well and, due to my very active lifestyle, was not willing to risk longer term catheterization or bladder spasms which would impede my quality of life. This risk, for me, outweighed the benefit of standing to pee.

I opted for ALT knowing that I would likely need debulking (which I didn’t end up needing but opted for anyway out of preference). Debulking is a procedure to make the penis less girthy as ALT phalloplasty is more girthy because of the nature of tissue on the thigh. I chose ALT because, first and foremost, I did not want scarring on my forearm. My ALT scar is covered by clothing most of the time which I appreciate. I also chose ALT because I have skinny forearms, which wasn’t ideal for forearm phalloplasty (RFF).

Vaginectomy, for me, was a no brainer. I have never used or connected with that part of my body so I wanted it gone.

Glansplasty is a procedure to make the glans (head) of the penis and was a short procedure done after my initial stage of surgery. I may get it redone but I’m still undecided on that. Scrotoplasty creates a scrotum, I was ambivalent about this procedure but have grown to more appreciate it over time.

I am considering further surgeries: erectile implant (which creates the ability for the penis to “get hard”) and testicular implants (fills to scrotum with testicle implants). But I’m undecided and want a break from surgery while I finish my degree and focus on work. I’m also considering phalloplasty tattooing to help enhance the contour and coloring to make it appear more like a cis penis.

Whew! Lots of info, right? These are big procedures completed over multiple stages and are very unlike chest surgery, hysterectomy and other surgeries I had completed prior. When I was first considering this surgery I didn’t know there was flexibility in terms of tissue donor site and UL. I waited to have this surgery and am so happy I did because the information I gained from research and consulting with professionals and folks with lived experience was so valuable.

Was surgery hard? Yes. This surgery was the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. I’ve never been so uncomfortable for the first 2 weeks after recovering. I had to re-learn how to walk. I couldn’t sleep. Peeing hurt… but would I do it again? Yes. It was worth it for me but I can’t underscore enough that that doesn’t mean I didn’t have moments where I felt regret while recovering because post op depression is a thing and I was in pain while adjusting to a new body part that was also a healing surgical site… LOTS going on there!

3 years on I feel really at home in my body. Just having a penis is such a comfort to me in ways I didn’t anticipate. I’ve had a feeling my entire life that I was missing a body part and this was it. The quiet gender euphoria of just sitting and feeling my body and for once feeling complete in that is something that’s hard to articulate.

I’m thankfully back to full mobility and got back to full mobility about 3 months post op. I was grateful for this since a long term recovery wasn’t what I wanted. There are still weird twitches, pains and feelings, especially around my donor site (thigh) from time to time but nothing that inhibits me. Just interesting when it happens (usually when weather gets colder?).

What is one thing I would want to go back and tell myself before surgery? Well:

Your penis will feel HEAVY. Like it will fall off. It won’t fall off and your body will adjust to the weight in an area you didn’t have it before. Until then it will feel like you need to hold it at all times.

Hopefully this helps someone as an overview of what an experience with this procedure may look like. Again, my goal is to put information out there and have frank conversations— because it’s these same things that greatly benefitted me in my surgery journey.

Finally— my inbox is open for anyone that has questions. I am in a privileged position to feel safe talking about these things and I feel comfortable doing so. Not everyone does, so please don’t assume that this invitation applies to other folks who have accessed surgery unless they say so.

Thank you for reading :)

[vaingod]

Hey, congrats on the bottom surgery, I hope your recovery goes well. I wanted to know, do you have any advice for what to look into about the surgeon? I'd also be interested to hear how long it was from your initial consult to the surgery?

hello thank you so much! depends on where you live for example i needed my gp to write a letter saying i "medically need hysto/bottom surgery" and i also needed a letter from a psychiatrist saying the same thing (find yourself a student in training or someone getting an apprenticeship in psychiatry but even then the cost might be the same since its a flat fee for "second letter allowing you to get a sex change" in ontario, it was around 250 for me to book a single appointment. the benefit of choosing someone in training is to tell them to make your letter fit perfectly - i told mine to put whatever was most likely to get me approved and cover my surgery)

now if youre past the permission letters stage - i just asked for a referral to the most experienced surgeon who has performed the most laparoscopic hysterectomies and i got a few options - i had a choice of going w Womens College Hospital or Mount Sinai which ontario has a sister connection w the one in NY - i chose a surgeon at MS cus that gives me a case file in that hospital and MS in NY performs phalloplasty which will ultimately make it easier for me to transfer/be waitlisted for that.

My surgeon (Dr. Allen) met w me abt a year after my 2nd sex change letter for consult, and then it was abt 6-8 months until i was booked n got my surgery! So once you send that 2nd letter off expect to be getting surgery within 18-20 months. My surgeon even gave me a choice of where i was operated at and i chose WCH since i got my top surgery there and they are the first ones to scrap the bullshit BMI requirements that gave me access to surgery to begin with 💕

i love the workers at WCH so much actually i cant not talk abt them, its mostly women and its a teaching hospital so you get thousands of future surgeons n nurses that are interested in providing better transition care and are learning how to perform these surgeries and what obstacles trans people usually face (dropping the BMI reqs, giving me mid surgery tools that are used in vaginoplasty in WCH cus the nurses noticed everyone w leg blood clot risk can benefit from them, etc) like i dont wanna say go to WCH cus my care team was all very pretty diverse women and im gay but they really do treat you better theyre more personal w their care and i saw 3 trans girls at different stages of bottom surgery recovery being wheeled out into a waiting room together just cus the nurses knew they were friends and wanted them to have daily time together while they stayed for recovery it was really sweet. ive had mostly queer nurses for post op checks there it was realy nice being able to ask how my keloided top surgery scars would heal and my nurse pulling up their shirt and showing me how theirs looks cus it was done by the same surgeon - small things like that made my fear of medical malpractice drop majorly so if youre in ontario i recommend WCH for most transition surgeries!!

[sanguinaryrot]

and irt the phalloplasty post when I said directly after surgery I mean people will look at a picture of phalloplasty 20 minutes after surgery, stitches, covered in blood, and reddened from irritation. And then be like THATS NOT WHAT CIS PENISES LOOK LIKE!!!! Like a) yeah. It’s not done yet. there is follow up surgeries and healing left. If you looked at 3 years post op with glandsplasty and/or scrotoplasty and/or medical tattooing it looks incredible and b) what happened to I don’t want to look or act cis? you sound like a dumbass and C) ITS NOT YOUR FUCKING BODY if a man wants a penis that is just a tube of flesh to alleviate dysphoria why the fuck are you talking about how he ruined his beautiful womanly perfectly functional body. Do you fucking hear yourself? Are you listening to the words you say?

[answersfromzestual]

Second Part of Directory

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Phalloplasty and Metoidioplasty Side by Side Comparison

PhalloplastyProcedure full outline offical - Article

My Chest after 15 years+ Post-Op

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Sexually Transmitted Infections/Diseases Information- description, symptoms,and treatments included.

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[camerons-t-diary]

6/27/21

I have really been down on myself for so long for not keeping this blog up to date and not posting more recovery details as they were happening. Sometimes being in the middle of it is more overwhelming that you aren’t really thinking much about documenting it lol

That being said I am at a much better place in my life right now and am extremely motivated in a lot of areas. I am working full time, going to the gym 5 days a week, and training to become a fitness/nutrition coach. I really feel like I am in a spot to get this blog a lot more active and keep up with it on daily basis. I would really love to get more information out there and routinely be answering questions many of you might have.

I just recently passed my 4 years post op phalloplasty and am less than a week away from my 6 years post op for top surgery. I am also 10 months post op the 3 piece inflatable erectile implant and nearly 8 years on testosterone.

Please feel free to message me any topics you’d like me to make a more in depth post about! You can really ask me anything, but if I feel like the question is too far then I will just say so instead of answering!

[transgenderteensurvivalguide]

July 2021 marks the one year anniversary of 'ALT Dick Story Share' monthly Zoom group.

As a way to celebrate, there will be a special event: a Zoom panel discussion, with a diverse group of post-op ALT folks sharing their experiences.

NOTE: This event's Zoom will be different than their usual monthly Zoom link, so even if you have been to their ZOOM meetings before, to receive the Zoom link for this event you MUST pre-register: bit.ly/altphallo

WHEN:

JUL 25 (SUN)

3-4:30pm EST / 2-3:30pm CST / 12-1:30pm PST

[***IMPORTANT*** please log on time, the event will be closed after 15min]

Feel free to share this flyer/info with folks who are considering ALT phalloplasty!

Register here:

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSc0iPRrwBPB8mQFT3yK9chYqIyLVadDtWmIVlqBwwq0rcmEOw/viewform

[loadingluke]

Today I’m one year post stage 1 phalloplasty. I was going to make a long post breaking down everything I’ve gone through in the last year, all about my recovery and the physical stuff, but I think I’ll leave that for later when I’m more recovered from stage 3 and I’m better prepared. But I did want to take a moment to talk a little about the mental impact that this year and this surgery has had on me.

This year has been one of the most challenging and rewarding years of my life. A lot of sacrifice, pain, and years of preperation has resulted in what is and will continue to be a peace and comfort I didn’t know was possible. This surgery has been the best decision I’ve ever made. I have been given the ability to actually function, and I am now able to actually work towards becoming the person I know I can be. I know I’m now able to actually work towards my goals without the fog that was daily debilitating dysphoria and hopelessness that got in the way. Even though it took a lot of work and heartache, money and time on hold to get here I’d do it again in a heartbeat.

I want to thank all the health care professionals who have made this possible for me, all my doctors and nurses and OTs especially Dr Goossen and Dr Ingram.

I want to thank everyone else who is brave enough to share their experiences online and this community we are building- knowing this isn’t something I have to go through alone has been very comforting and I’m glad to call you my friends.

I want to thank my family and friends, especially my mum who stayed with me during stage 1 and 2, the and my friends who have opened their home to me for months while I recover.

And of course, my wonderful partner, who has been my bloody rock for the last 4 years, but especially this year. I don’t know how I would have coped without her at my side throughout this entire process and I love her dearly.

This surgery isn’t something that happens overnight, and it’s not something that one can just get over and done with on your own. I guess it takes a village to make a penis (I thought this was clever but I think it sounds kinda weird but the point still stands so I’m keeping it in!).

If this is something you are planning or actively pursuing, know you aren’t alone and there are tons of people in the same boat here with you, and many people around who will help you get there. It might feel forever away and trust me I know how much it sucks but the wait is worth it. I really hope that whoever you are you are able to experience peace in your body, surgical intervention required or not, and I wish you the best of luck on all your endeavours.

Happy 1 year post op to me and here is to the rest of my life with this body I’ll be forever grateful for ❤️

[saltypringl-track]

Okay, trans guy here, I have not had any form of bottom surgery yet but I've done a lot of researching recently so heres what I got:

Theres two forms of dick-giving surgery, metoidioplasty and phalloplasty

Metoidioplasty requires you to have been on testosterone for at least a few years in order to get a significant amount of bottom growth. The surgery then removes the hood of the clitoris so it can stand erect away from the body. This results in a small dick, from about 1.5-3 inches depending on the amount of bottom growth you had. Metoidioplasty dicks can get hard naturally, the same way they would before surgery.

Phalloplasty is more constructive. A skin graft is taken from either your thigh or arm and it is used to create a penis and balls. The nerves from your clit are redirected to the new surface of the dick. Phalloplasty dicks cannot get hard naturally, instead they are inflated with a pump inside the ballsack. Phallo dick size is affected by your weight and size, ie the more skin in the donor site (your arm/leg) the girthier you can be, and in discussions with your surgeon you will be able to find out your range. Unfortunately I cant find any hard and fast "phallo dicks range from x to y inches long" stats but I do know that a well-done phalloplasty dick is pretty indistinguishable from the average cis man's dick.

(Fun fact the use of skin grafts for phalloplasty means that if you have a tattoo on the site used that tattoo ends up on your dick, and I think thats incredible and more trans guys should take advantage of it)

The tl:dr is that post-op dick size largely depends on your body's pre-existing assets and the type of surgery youre comfortable with. Talking to a surgeon will give you much more personalised advice as to the type of surgery and size thats best for you. Ultimately theres no Optimum Dick Size thats better than any other, its all personal preference and vibes, so follow your heart <3

...or dick

Question for penis master chan.

What size of penis do u recommend for like bottom surgery bc I'm trans and want a penis but I'm too fucking scared to ask my close male friends so I had to resort to my final shot, penis master chan.

Hope you have a penisily happy day or wtv

Oh honey this is not something I can answer for you! This is a you question. It’s a very personal decision. And I don’t know much about this subject, but I would venture to guess that you may not have as many options for the size? This may depend on your options for surgery where you live.

Perhaps you could try experimenting with different size packers till you find when it feels right?

Anyone have advice or suggestion for anon?

[realtransfacts]

Transmasc Lower Surgery Masterpost

Note: Not everyone who wants these surgeries identifies as transmasculine, nor does every transmasculine person want these surgeries.

& if anyone else has any other good resources you want to share, please do feel free to add to this post! <3

Metoidioplasty:

How Metoidioplasty Works [Animation] Video

One Year Post Metoidioplasty Video

Healthline: Metoidioplasty

What is Metoidioplasty: Overview, Benefits, and Expected Results

Trans 101: Ep 25 - Metoidioplasty Video

Metoidioplasty FAQ

Why I Had Metoidioplasty Over Phalloplasty Video

Transgender 101: Metoidioplasty

Metoidioplasty Blogs

Metoidioplasty Risks and Complications

1 year post-op! + new dick pics

Metoidioplasty Q&A

Metoidioplasty Wiki

Phalloplasty:

Phalloplasty: Gender Confirmation Surgery

Trans 101: Ep 26 - Phalloplasty Video

Why Did I Choose Phallo Over Meta Video

Phalloplasty FAQ

Phalloplasty Seeing My Arm For The First Time Video

What Does a Skin Graft Feel Like? Video

Phalloplasty Risks and Complications

Lower Surgery Q & A

Phalloplasty Things I Wish I Would Have Prepared For Video

The Total Guide to Penile Implants

Phalloplasty: Frequently Asked Questions

Phalloplasty Q&A Video

Phalloplasty Wiki

Phalloplasty without vaginectomy?

Scrotoplasty:

Scrotoplasty and Testicular Implants

Scrotoplasty: Testicle Implants

Scrotoplasty Wiki

Post-phallo/scrotoplasty guys: How sensitive are your balls?

Vaginectomy:

Vaginectomy: What Trans Men Need to Know

Vaginectomy: Critical Info for Trans Men

Vaginectomy Wiki

General:

Genital Reconstruction Surgery

The Difference Between a Metoidioplasty and a Phalloplasty

Preparing for Bottom Surgery Video

Phalloplasty and metoidioplasty - overview and postoperative considerations

Masculinizing surgery

Bottom Surgery posts

Bottom Surgery: What You Need to Know

Transmasculine Bottom Surgery

How to Build a Penis

Types of Bottom Surgery

Erection, standing to be & sensation

Pros/cons for meta/phalloplasty

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Transfem Presentation

HRT Masterpost

Top Surgery Masterpost

Breast Augmentation Masterpost

Coming Out Masterpost

Gender Questioning Masterpost

Masterpost for Trans Allies

Choosing a New Name for Yourself Masterpost

Self Care Masterpost

Writing Trans Characters Masterpost

Transgender Pregnancy & Fertility Masterpost

Chest Binding Masterpost

[phalloplastytime]

Phalloplasty Consultation with Dr. Chen & Dr. Watt

Here is what I remember from my experience going through my consultation with Dr. Chen from GU Recon (his private practice) and Dr. Watt from the Buncke clinic in San Francisco, CA, USA. My apologies for the length, I wanted this to feel kind of immersive for those of us still in the waiting process because stuff like this helped me. Also - small content warning I do use a couple anatomical terms.

For those of you unfamiliar, Dr. Chen is a urologist and Dr. Watt is a microsurgeon.

My partner and I traveled down to San Francisco to stay for two nights. We flew in on Thursday evening and flew out on Saturday evening, not wanting to be gone for too long and rack up even more expense on the hotel bill. If I had planned ahead several months ago, I would have tried to stay at the Quest House during this time but I didn’t realize a short stay was potentially possible. 

We are fortunate to be able to use the public transit system offered in SF, which is pretty good in my opinion. They have buses, trolleys (cable cars?), and an underground/train system. We utilized this to make our way over to Castro street, where the medical office building and also the hospital are located. 

Without any plans for the day we went ahead and headed over about 3 hours early because I had seen that there was a dog park right nearby. We sat and watched local dogs come and play and have a break in the middle of the day and we ended up meeting an older gentleman whose dog wouldn’t leave us alone asking for pets. It was pretty great, and nicely calming as I was pretty nervous before the consultation. We then got some food at the local cafe on the corner. It was actually pretty good. 

We realized we still had time to kill so we decided to hike up the hill to the Buena Vista park where we looked out over the city and rested for a bit. There’s a path that has some disturbingly friendly squirrels on it.

About 30 minutes before my appointment headed over. Inside the medical office building, Dr. Chen’s suite is right across the hall from the Buncke clinic. I wasn’t sure where to go to check in, so we walked all the way down to the entrance of GU Recon and saw the door was open. Inside the waiting room was fairly spacious with comfy seating and plenty of random coffee table books to peruse. There was nobody else there at the time. At the receptionist window was a sign indicating to check in over at the Buncke clinic, so we quickly hopped across the hall. 

The Buncke clinic waiting room was much smaller and was actually quite crowded for a Friday afternoon. I checked in and they asked for my ID and insurance card (even though I had sent in pictures), and they didn’t ask for any kind of copay or payment. I suspect I will receive a bill at some point for the specialist copay from my insurance which is $30. Hopefully.

They instructed us to head back over to Dr. Chen’s office to wait, so we went back over and started looking through a photography book. At this point I was still about 25 minutes early to the appointment so I was ready to wait however long it would take. 

About 5 minutes later, Dr. Chen himself appeared behind the reception area with pizza and Starbucks in hand, apparently not expecting anyone to be in the waiting room. He noticed us right away and began apologizing for the wait. He explained the schedule didn’t indicate whether or not we were having a phone consultation, so he just assumed it was going to be over the phone based on my address. 

This whole interaction solidified every good thing I had heard about Dr. Chen, and I immediately felt so… normal. That’s the best way I can describe what I felt. I felt like I had known Dr. Chen for years and that he was.. reachable. Human. 

He told us it would be a few minutes, and sure enough a few minutes later Dr. Chen and Dr. Watt appeared at the door and we made introductions. My partner came with me because I wanted her to hear what the doctors had to say and I wanted another pair of ears listening, and also because I wanted the doctors to see that I had support. 

We went down a narrow hallway and went into Dr. Chen’s office, which hosted another comfy couch which he had us sit on while he and Dr. Watt sat across on office chairs. They each had some papers (my medical information). The room was somewhat dimly lit, but calming and comfortable. 

The consult started with Dr. Chen confirming my reason for the visit (seeking phalloplasty), and he asked me how important it was to me to stand to pee. I explained that my personal goals were 1 - Sensation, 2 - Stand to pee, 3 - Aesthetics, and 4 - Sexual function. Which, again, are personal goals and it is completely valid to have other priorities with lower surgery. This is my own journey. 

We then went over my medical history, which is fairly short, but Dr. Chen was thorough and asked me about my minor eczema, asthma, and migraines. Dr. Watt was quietly taking notes and listening during this time. Next, they asked about any trauma to either arm and I basically explained how my right arm is essentially immediately disqualified from being a donor arm. In my specific case, I broke my right arm when I was 18 months old and had to have a surgical repair. This repair didn’t heal correctly and now my arm when extended is quite crooked. 

This has put some strain on my ulnar nerve and gives me hypersensitivity in my palm.  Further, I had a different surgery on my forearm which involved an incision and left me with a scar right in the middle of the graft area. This could compromise the blood supply, so we pretty much immediately dismissed my right arm as an option. To top it off, it is my dominant arm for most activities. I kind of would have preferred to keep my left arm nice and clear of any scars, but I think having 1.75 properly functioning arms is preferable to only 1 functioning arm in case my right side nerves ever gave out. 

Next, Dr. Chen went on to explain his portion of the surgery - he starts with the vaginectomy and then relocates the end of the urethra to the natal phallus using labia minora tissue. He then mobilizes this and relocates it to the other side of the pubic bone to come out to the site of where the neophallus will be placed. At some point during this discussion, Dr. Chen explained the complication rate and he was both realistic and optimistic about it. He said the vast majority of complications that happen are fixable. Further, the most common complications often heal on their own. I can’t remember the exact numbers, but he said of the patients that do have fistulas, only around 20% of them end up needing a surgical fix. Strictures don’t show up right away, and usually occur within the first year. 

While Dr. Chen does the work down below, Dr. Watt explained his team mobilizes the RFF and prepares it for the new location, using the tube-in-tube method to create the urethra and phallus. Dr. Chen places a foley catheter through the neophallus and into the relocated urethra to line everything up, and he sutures everything together once the microsurgeons connect the blood supply and nerves. Dr. Chen then places the suprapubic catheter and the RFF site is covered with the split-thickness graft from the leg.  If requested, Dr. Watt would place integra on the RFF donor site before the split thickness graft (not staged like other teams).

They then explained what recovery typically looks like - 5 nights in the hospital, including 4 days of strict bed rest and then up and walking on day 5.  If you’re able to walk well enough, you get to leave to recover elsewhere. They then check up every week for four weeks before sending you home. During your 1 week post-op visit, Dr. Chen removes the foley catheter from the neourethra complex. You start your peeing trials just before the 3 week checkup, and if you’re able to empty enough of your bladder the SP catheter can be removed. If you have significant fistula(s), an additional week for healing may be allotted and the SP catheter retained for that time. 

Dr. Watt then did an exam of my arm, performing the Allen’s test to see if my hand receives enough blood if the artery they harvest for the RFF is removed. The test seemed really quick, but I guess with how fast my hand refilled with blood he was very confident I was a candidate for RFF. He indicated that no further testing of my forearm blood supply was needed. 

He examined the hair on my forearm, which turned out to be really funny because while he was looking at it he guessed that I had undergone electrolysis up to about 6 inches down my forearm. I laughed a little and explained nope, I just haven’t grown hair there in my ~5 years on testosterone. He gently pinched/grabbed the skin to see the thickness and said they’ll likely delay my glansplasty, and when he looked at the underside of my arm where the urethra graft would be taken he said I was basically hairless there and that any electrolysis at this point would just to be to remove hair from what will be the outside of my phallus, which is optional and he said I can always shave or use something like Nair. 

I then had a chance to quickly look over my questions to try to find any that hadn’t been answered. They were pretty thorough so the most I asked about was about Integra because I was most curious about it. Dr. Chen then explained that he needed to do a quick visual exam of the genital/mons region and we walked across the hall to an exam room.

He apologized for the discomfort and had me just quickly drop my shorts while standing. All in all I think it took about 5 seconds of exposure. When we got back into the other room he reported to Dr. Watt something along the lines of “minor prominence” of the mons. I checked my questions one more time and asked if they had any testicular implants that I could feel, but Dr. Chen explained that he had a patient waiting that was somewhat urgent and he promised that he would show me next time. He was very polite about it and I understood, and all in all I think the consultation took about 30 minutes. 

We said our nice to meet yous and goodbyes and Dr. Chen showed us out the shortcut out of the clinic and boom it was over. Despite the quick ending, I still didn’t feel rushed out of there and felt like they really took the time to make sure I understood the surgery and that my possible concerns were heard. 

All in all I left feeling really good, which for me was everything. I was actually excited about the future. Also, they said they would be forwarding my information to the phalloplasty team about our consultation, and that they should be reaching out to schedule with me. What ended up happening was I emailed Logan with a follow-up question and after we emailed back a forth a couple times, Logan asked me if I wanted to set my date. So now I am officially on the books for Left RFF Phalloplasty and words cannot describe how much joy/relief/excitement I feel about it. 

Like, I still can’t believe I get to do this and I don’t know when reality will set in. But for the first time in months, I am hopeful and optimistic about the future. 

Edit: I forgot to mention that Dr. Chen also will perform a scrotoplasty during his part of the procedure.

[supercodi]

I am two years post-op phalloplasty today. Hard to believe two years have already gone by! 😮 . . Going into surgery I had no idea that The next couple years would be filled with having surgery every few months or so... either for a stricture repair or an arm graft revision. However, I am happy to report that I am now stricture free and I only have one more phalloplasty surgery ahead of me and that is for the erectile device in September. This chapter in my life is finally coming to a close in the near future. People always ask if it was worth it with all of the complications it entailed. 100% yes! No ones life is complication free and to me, the biggest complication was not being born with a penis so really... how much worse could it get? 😂 This surgery was no easy task but I’ve come our way stronger in the end because of it. . . So thankful to be living in a time where medicine allows for me to feel more aligned in my body and for my surgeons ( Dr. Chen and Dr. Lin specifically). If you are thinking of pursuing phalloplasty in the future my biggest tips would be: 1. Research your surgeons and the procedure ahead of time. 2. Therapy: you will need to mentally prepare yourself for both good and bad outcomes and also post-op depression. ( its inevitable so don’t think you are special and will escape it ). 3. A good support system: Friends, family, etc. you are going to need help. Maybe even someone willing to wipe your butt 😆 . . Happy 2nd Birthday to my penis! ( usually people my age have actual two year olds and I’m just celebrating my dick 🤷🏻‍♂️) . . #phalloplasty #bunckeclinic #drchen #drlin #pridemonth #pride #trans #transgender #transman #ftm #bottomsurgery #lifewillbethedeathofme #phallo #happybirthday #transguy #tbt https://www.instagram.com/p/Byqzf1fAqsz/?igshid=338qg3gdu6cv

[wildberrybunny]

First off - It's been a while! Hi! I'm over the 2 year mark from my phallo surgery, and in addition I went for stage 2 (urinary hookup) this past May.. putting me additionally at 5 months post-op! "patience is a virtue." Yes! Feeling has returned to my genital area/spread up the shaft as intended. I'd say the 1 year mark was when I really started to get the full feeling. My rating at over 2 years (June 2021): The shaft is not as sensitive as my pre-surgery genitals, feeling has spread to approx 90% of the shaft. Overall I'm satisfied because this was ultimately the goal. I went into it not expecting perfection, but a result that was satisfactory. I ended up waiting longer than I thought to finally get stage 2, but it's such a relief being able to pee from my penis now (previous to the hookup I still had to sit) Lastly my arm. I'm planning tattoo cover-up over the scar tissue. I've been largely successful in regaining strength in my arm. It is stiffer than my right arm, and the graft section doesn't have much surface feeling (if that makes sense) where the nerves were taken.. but I've seen that as a necessary sacrifice. Thoughts on stage 3 phalloplasty (The last stage): Testicular implants and a rod which allows for intercourse. I'm unsure if/when I wish to go forward with stage 3. These past 3 years I did stage 1, 2, plus (like a goof) broke my ankle really bad between those. Since I've been really happy with how my body functions, I won't be doing more surgery at least for some time. Additionally, at least right now intercourse isn't that high on my priorities.

Updates have become more sparse as I've reached the end points of my transition... But to anyone who has continued to follow my journey, I hope you've enjoyed it! It's crazy to look back almost 10 years now when I first came out, started T, looking into surgeries... where I began this blog "My Eventual Penis." :)

It’s finally happening; in two days I’m undergoing stage 1 phalloplasty!

[zero-ohms]

Life Update

I haven’t talked a lot about my life surrounding phalloplasty on here, partly because I’ve spent a lot of time recovering from surgeries, and partly because this surgery has marked a huge change in my life, and where I want to go in the future. It sounds corny, but my perspective on life has changed drastically throughout this surgical journey.

In summary:

1. I resigned from my job in California 2. I moved back to Toronto 3. I decided to pursue medicine

Having been exposed to medicine so much throughout my transition has created an interest that I never expected. I connected with many post-op people along my journey, and saw the frustrations with difficulties accessing care. Many of these obstacles put our lives on hold, manifested in physical pains, and resulted in mental exhaustion. There’s a huge gap in healthcare for trans folks that has been unmet for a long time. I realized I could make some serious impact in this area, in ways that I never could as an engineer. Not to mention, it’s an interesting field. I have a couple of pre-requisite courses to make up, as well as the MCAT ahead, but I’m aiming to apply to med school at the end of this year. No idea if this will work out, but it’s worth a try.

In the meantime, back to being a broke student and juggling surgeries.

[tontherocks]

Phallo Consult

On January 24 I had my consult for phalloplasty, done in three stages (phalloplasty, then UL, scrotoplasty and glansplasty, finally implants and ED). I had my appointment in the early afternoon with one of the four surgeons of this team. He was in his late 30s, friendly, appeared a bit hung over and tired. Our conversation was more equal and on a shared level than with the surgeon for my meta one year ago.

Since I already had an initial consult in this clinic in October 2017, I was familiar with the basics of this surgery and we only talked about the questions I had prepared. I give here an overview about the information I got - I don’t intend to quote the surgeon by any means, everything is absed on my best ability to understand the procedures.

Penis

During first stage, they take a graft from my left arm. The donor graft has a length of 15cm and a width of 15cm on the upper part of my forearm, 11cm on the lower part, near my wirst. Usually, the expected penis size is around 12.5-13cm in the long term, since it’s expected to lose around one cm in the weeks after surgery.

There are no data avaiblable about how much re-gain tactile / warm and cold / erotic sensation throughout their penis, hence nobody really knows when and how much sensibility to expect. There is no known possibility to help or enhance the development of sensibility in my phallo penis.

Their team dos 2-3 phalloplasties each week for at least 15 years, so aorund 100-150 annually. He himself has like 8 years of training with phallo procedures.

He showed me the microsurgeons he works with, all three have at least two decades experience with phalloplasty.

Complications

He estimated the probability to develop one ore more Fistulas by some 10%ish, Stenosis 5% and Diverticula some more. One of the main reasons for the latter are the different diameters between the urethra, created by my former labia minora, now residing in my meta penis, and the urethra, created by tube-in-tube-method, in my phallo penis. During my surgery they can estimate how narrow/wide my meta urethra is and thus, how much “leap” between the two forms of urethras. They will cut into the tip of my former meta to fuse both urethras.

All in all, he assured me that there were only 5% of complications that need to be adressed in a seperate surgery, every other minor complication can be fixed during one of the next stages.

Donor site

The clinic highly recommends RFF and rarely performs ALT (abdominal isn’t offered at all). We talked about my thight as possible donor site, but he strongly discouraged me from this option. His arguments were that 1) the skin is thicker than on the arm, hence less sensible 2) pain during movements is very common with ALT and sometimes results in chronic pain and that 3) this type of surgery is more prone to complications since they have to cut through muscle to harvest some of the nerves. The surgeon also favours RFF because of better sesibility. I was already familiar with their dislike for ALT and so I kind of never considered it as a possible donor site for me. ALT is rarely performed, hence less experience with complications as well, and since security is important to me, ALT really doesn’t seem to be suitable right now.

The surgeon never heared of Integra before and they don’t work with tissue expanders either. We watched a video from their Website and the surgeon said that they prefer a full-thickness graft over a split-thickness graft (as they usually do with Integra). The transplantat has to be rather thin since it has to be nourished by tiny blood vessels, so the leap between the donor site and the area around it is inevitable.

They take a full thickness graft from my lower belly to cover my donor site. The graft has a trapezoid shape, 40cm long, 5cm width and they sew it together, eventually, so there only remains a thin scar line from hip to hip, right where my underwear is supposed to end. The length of the scar depends on how much the patients weighs, since bigger patients need less space to harvest a graft. The surgeon told me I had to expect to have a full-length scar in this area.

Lympthatic drainage for the donor site is provided initially after surgery.

Stages

The second stage (glans- and scrotoplasty, UL) can be scheduled at least 3 months after first stage, they recommend 6 months. It reduces the probability for complications related to the new urethra.

It is possible to adjust glansplasty to the indvidual wants and needs of a patient, since its merely an aesthetic concern. We will talk about it after first stage. During the hospital stay of each stage there is an appointment scheduled to talk about the next stage.

Medical tattooing can be done around 1-2 years post-OP.

[truthfulrebellion-blog]

Hysterectomy

Let’s call it what it is. No pussy footing around it. A necessary evil on the way to the end game: phalloplasty. I had been waiting almost six months to hear back about my approval for phalloplasty. I currently have health insurance through Kaiser Permanente, and they had a laundry list of things for me to do in order to present my file to the medical board. I had to transfer my files over from the organization I was seeking healthcare through, as it was cheaper than paying out of pocket for an endocrinologist, to Kaiser. I also had to obtain letters from two medical professionals confirming my need for bottom surgery. The whole process took nearly a year and several trips to medical facilities nearly thirty miles away from my home. My case manager finally called and said in order for the final review to occur, I had to get a hysterectomy.

At the time, I thought that was done by the surgeon performing the phalloplasty at the time of the phalloplasty. With Kaiser, that is not the case. They want anything and everything they have the capability of doing done within their facility. Likely to keep costs down. I didn’t mind. My hysterectomy was scheduled for December 15th, 2018. I had to get blood tests done and watch several videos that didn’t pertain to my situation regarding the procedure. The videos are, obviously, geared towards women. I did what I needed to do and prepared myself for the surgery date. I got a call to move my surgery up about 10 days, even better. Then not 24 hours before the surgery, I received a call stating that it was being delayed for a week. My new date was the 11th. This was terribly inconvenient as my care giver for after my surgery had already taken off work for the original surgery date.

I walked into the facility to check in about an hour early. I had yet another interesting surprise. The surgery was going to cost me money. $475, or close to it. Luckily, I had the money. I was very upset that I wasn’t told about this ahead of time, however. I am paying for the most expensive coverage this company offers so I had as little to pay out of pocket as possible. In the grand scheme of things, $475 is better than $10k. It still would have been nice to know before I showed up. If you have Kaiser, please make sure you know exactly what the costs are before you walk in the door.

I got checked in. I had to remove all of my clothing, put on a hospital gown & surgery cap, and take one final per break. I also forgot to mention I had to stop eating at midnight the day of and wipe my body down with these pre-surgery wipes. I was hungry and my skin smelled weird. They hooked up my IV, fed me my “lunch”, and several doctors came in to ask me questions and verify information. My surgery was supposed to occur at 3pm, but was delayed until closer to 5/530. My surgeon came in to make sure I knew what was about to take place. He also talked to me about a surgeon for bottom surgery in Arizona or New Mexico he was going to refer me to. He had given me the name in our prior consultation. When I looked that surgeon up, I was horrified. The man was fired from the California region Kaiser Permanente for botching transwomens vaginoplasties. The guy didn’t even specialize in phalloplasty. I expressed these concerns to him and told him it probably wouldn’t be a good idea to partner with him for any trans surgeries. Hopefully he heeds my advice. He confirmed that after the surgery, he would stick to the decision to refer me to Dr. Jens Berli of Portland, OR.

I knew nothing of Dr. Berli. There are no results to been seen online, barely anyone who has undergone his procedure even talks about their results, and I couldn’t find any other information besides his starting point in Maryland. I found his Facebook page and did some pretty intense research on him. He seems to genuinely care about his patients and has a passion for what he does. His only negative review is from someone who never had surgery with him because of a communication issue with his staff. Everyone else gave him five stars. So, I figured why the hell not. Hopefully my progress will help others who may be going to Dr. Berli for their phalloplasty be more comfortable with moving forward with him or the surgery itself. I am flying as blind in this moment as some of those who might read this in the future might feel. Trust me. I feel your pain.

I finally went in for my surgery. This time I wasn’t put under until I was on the surgery table. For my top surgery, I was out before I turned the corner on the way to the operating room. The next thing I remember is waking up several hours later and in pain. I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I was very disoriented. I’m not surprised considering I was on anesthesia. Apparently I wasn’t breathing enough either since my O2 alarm kept going off. I had to stay for an extra hour until I could get my breathing going regularly. Which is hard because I believe I have sleep apnea, and when I sleep I breathe much slower than I do when I’m awake. So I would fall back asleep, stop breathing, and be woken up by the nurses to get me to breathe. I didn’t feel any different than I usually do. I was actually quite comfy. But I’m sure it was uncomfortable for others around me to see me breathe 1-2 times a minute while asleep.

I was in so much pain. The pain meds hadn’t kicked in yet. I had had a total hysterectomy, oophorectomy, and partial vaginectomy. Let me tell you. When your genitals are covered in stitches, sitting fucking hurts. I couldn’t get comfortable. Then I had to go to the bathroom. Lord, that was an adventure in of itself. Once I was done, I had to have the nurse help me pull my maternity disposable underwear and extra absorbent pad on. And to help me get dressed. The was a humbling experience. But those disposable underwear are comfortable AF. I wish I had had more of them. I was only sent home with the 1 extra pair. After I got dressed, they sent my care giver to get the car. They sat me in a wheel chair and wheeled me to the pick up area. Wheel chairs are super uncomfortable. I begged the nurse to let me sit on the plushy waiting area seat, but she told me no. I couldn’t wait to get out of that chair. It hurt so bad.

I’ll spare additional details about the trip home. I was basically in pain in the seat, it took over an hour to get home, and I got right in the couch seat I’d be in for the next week and fell asleep. I had to wake up every 1-2 hours to pee and every 4 hours to take my pain meds. Compared to my chest surgery, the pain of the hysterectomy actually wasn’t too bad. I barely needed any medicine. The worst pain came when I peed. It burned like the surface of the sun, and I could barely get the urine out. This lasted for about 2-3 days. I was bleeding pretty regularly for 1-2 weeks and spotting until the 6th week. I had horrible colored discharge the entire recovery. I actually had to go get adult diapers when my last pair of those comfy underwear got worn out. I couldn’t find any of those huge puffy pads or anything without adhesive.

I think the worst part was not being able to poop. I could feel the poop in my back. I really could. But I could not get my bowels to work. Apparently, this is normal. I ended up pooping on day 5. Best advice? Take stool softeners religiously. I would go so far as to say take a laxative on day 3 or 4 because that poop is going to be quite solid. TMI alert, my first poop after surgery tore a little bit of the inside. Like a hemorrhoid. I’m getting into these details because I wish I had had them. It’s not rainbows and butterflies. It’s bleeding and inability to poop. I also could barely sleep as I had to sleep on my back, and I can’t sleep on my back. I get so unfortable. By day 3 I was sleeping on my side on the other couch. I’m also a bigger guy, so I had to hold my stomach when I got up since there was a lot of pain from my belly hanging. I’m not 300+ pounds or anything, but I do have a beer belly. If you are the same, just be prepared for tummy pain when getting up.

I slept on the couch for 3 weeks. It was so much more comfortable than my bed. And it was easy access to everything. I am almost 8 weeks post op and still get tummy pain. But for the most part, pain and blood free. I do still have discharge coming out. I’ll probably continue to wear the diapers until I run out just in case. I had already ruined a pair of pants when I thought the discharge was done. But after about 7-10 days, I was walking around and driving and doing what I needed to do. It was uncomfortable to sit and bend over, so my roommate had to help with a lot of things. My final observation is to leave the scabs alone. I accidentally picked at my belly scab and one of the dissolvable stitches came loose from my incision. I had that stitch hanging out for at least 2 weeks until it finally dissolved at the base and popped off. My scars look great and my hair has finally grown back on my stomach.

I’m doing all of this well after my surgery, so I am sure I have missed a thing or two. If you have any questions, please give me a comment or a message. I will answer anything.

[trucumber-blog]

A bit over 3.5 years post op (3 years post revision) top surgery with Dr. Fischer in Maryland. Hybrid procedure of peri-areolar with lateral extensions for excess skin from poor elasticity. - Almost six months away from RFF phalloplasty and 1 year in to hair removal for donor site (forearm of un-braceleted arm).