#25-08-2024

[justformula1]

Driver standings after the Grand Prix of the Netherlands

[f1archives]

Max Verstappen & Charles Leclerc on the podium - Zandvoort, 2024

[blyszczopies]

[dailysudeikis]

Jason Sudeikis at the NY Liberty game - August 25, 2024.

[pernillecfcw]

A lovely win for the blues yesterday 💙💙

[shiri1124]

恋人にお互いのために別れようと言われました

何でお互いのためなのか私にはまるでわかりませんが、休みの日など予定が合わないこと、会話が合わないことが原因だそうです。休みの日が合わないのは私がシフト制で働いているのが原因といいたいのだとは思うのですが、それをいうならば私は「僕、社長だから休みは自由に取れ��よ、平日だって」と言われて出会ってるし、私が休みor仕事終わりのタイミングで君の家まで行ってたので　それを文句言うなら私の方では？って感じやし、話合わないもなにも、ラインはいつも一方的で、私のラインは当たり前に既読無視するのに、私が一度ラインを既読無視しただけで話聞いてくれないとか拗ねられたらたまったもんじゃない。（私が既読無視したのも色々考えた末返信しなかっただけ）

　好きだっただけに辛い。結婚も考えられないし、って言われたけどそもそと結婚はいい人がいればって言ってたのに、どうせ、結婚が視野に入らないことが原因ではなく、思ったより手懐け辛いし、全然自分の思い通りにならないからと捨てられるのだとは思います。最後会った時、三回もセックスしたのに。別れとセックスレスって同意義じゃないんですね。あの電車内でのバイバイが最期になるなんて思いもよりませんでしたね。人生はなにがあるかわかりませんね。今日から4連勤なんですが、もしかしてそれを分かった上であえて今フラれた？鬼じゃん

[13tapiocapearls]

"That's something you did not see a lot of in New York: Zach Wilson smiling" 💀

[photoncatcher]

Olympus Stylus 1; 1/25; F/2.8; ISO 800; 14mm

04/08/2024

[kuvirametalbender]

This whole week ive been back in my hometown since im on vacations from residency. And yesterday i went back to my rehab/psych clinic where i spent seven months of my life sobering up and dealing with my mental health issues. When i was first admitted it was against my will and yesterday i went voluntarily as a visitor and had a moment were i shared with the current patients. As im nearing my one year anniversary since i was discharged and in February my two year sobriety anniversary i dunno, i felt a lot of mixed feelings. I felt really sad and really mourned how much i let my life spiral out if my control. How awful and harsh the lessons i had to go through were, the time lost, the self hatred. And my current daily struggle. Because it is a struggle. Every single day i have to battle demons and the voices in my head and the feelings of hopelessness and self hatred and it was hard not to spiral IN SPITE of being there as an ongoing success story.

Like, im proud of were i am but i just wish i hadnt reached that point were i slashed my wrists and had to be commited and nearly lost everything. I wish my mistakes had been softer or i had been stronger.

But im here now. Im doing the right things and thats all i can do.

[myastrouniverse]

August/2024🌓♉️The term ‘peeing like a racehorse’ sounds like an insult, to me.

🌓 ☸︎ ♄︎ Why don’t you slow down before you drink the cult’s Kool-aide, okay?

🌓 < 🦚 It’s amazing how much better I look, when I look like MYSELF.

🌓 < 🌽 I want someone to give me THREE RINGS. I’ll probably end up buying two of them, myself. The one ring I want, I’ll never buy and you don’t care enough to do fuck shit for me. I suppose I’ll have to stop wanting, something I want, because I know; no one cares. It’s kinda obvious.

☿︎ < ☊ If I showed you my heart, it would look like Medusa’s head. I don’t hide my feelings very well, I guess. I do hide my thoughts. Maybe that is why my emotions look so scary. You have no idea what I know. The unknown’s conflict with what is known, is what scares you the most. How much truth can I uncover, as I use this time to heal from the scars, you dared tear into my soul? Scared? I know I AM.

🌓🔺 ♀️I AM A DIVINE FEMININE, NOT A DYKE.

🌓 ☍🎸 I don’t get you. If I cast someone in a play, I expect them to fucking know their part. Why are you casting background actors without leads? No wonder you are surrounded by lost souls. I AM not one of the lost. Why are you trying to lead a leader? Whoever the fuck, thinks they have authority over MY HUMAN RIGHTS, is going to look like an animal.

🌓 ☌ ♅︎ My brother mentioned a road trip to Ashland. It’s a blest and cursed place. I love it and hate it. I wished I lived and worked there, but gentrification has shut me out, everywhere I really want to go. To be honest, I am not sure how much it has changed post COVID. I haven’t been there in eight years.

🌓 ☸︎ ♆︎ Did I mention I was pissing nearly non-stop? Not even my ‘Depends’ are dependable. I’ve been covered in piss, shit, barf, bio-parasites and a monoatomic cocktail of poison and tears for many, many, fucking YEARS now. I barely notice how disgusting I can get, because everything is disgusting ALL the time. This is why I make it a habit to look at beautiful art everyday. I can imagine being in a beautiful place for awhile, or learn about someone else’s pain, so I may feel some comradery in this living nightmare. The Chinese performance artist, he knew pain best, I can’t remember his name now. “It’s almost over,” seems to be my recovery mantra. I have a lot of water weight to lose. I AM thinner than you think, fat ass.

🌓🔺 ♇︎ Babe, the big blue Ox that hangs with Mr. Bunyan, is actually a Buddhist deity. I forget his Buddha name.

The Sundays - Wild Horses

[justformula1]

A safe but exciting race everyone

[f1archives]

Lando Norris & Oscar Piastri before the race - Zandvoort, 2024

[hyeahgaku]

Suzuki-sensei’s comment this week (2024/08/25)

[glacialswordsman]

⸺ 𝑴𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑯𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒈𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒅𝒔𝒎𝒂𝒏'𝒔 𝑲𝒂𝒆𝒚𝒂 𝑨𝒍𝒃𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒄𝒉. ✧

these will be broken up into sections: physical, mental, emotional, behavioral, and miscellaneous.

𝓟𝓱𝔂𝓼𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓵

kaeya has a little beauty mark on the lower left corner of his left eye.

kaeya has full lips with a prominent cupid's bow.

kaeya's upper lip has the kim possible look goin' on.

kaeya always wears make-up, being another meticulous detail about him aside from making sure his clothes are perfect too. this make-up consists of eyeliner and mascara, but for formal events he may go all out. most people may think this is him being purely vain, but he has an image and reputation to uphold.

kaeya is not very slim, having a fuller chest, arms, rear, thighs, and calves, lending to his status as a knight. despite this, he has a thin waist and is a tad curvy.

kaeya has scars along his body from all sorts of weapons from sparring and altercations.

he has burn scarns running along his right side and a scar on his right eye.

kaeya's right eye has a black sclera with a golden iris.

kaeya does not mind wearing either masculine nor feminine clothing. if he likes it and it looks beautiful on him, he'll wear it.

𝓜𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓪𝓵

kaeya, as we all know, is very intelligent. thanks to this, i'm of the belief that he has picked up on multiple languages thanks to multiple trips with the ragnivindrs, whether out of business or leisure, thus making him a polyglot. this is especially useful when it comes to communicating with his intelligence network that spans nations.

kaeya at times reads recent novels from other nations, in order to keep his fluency but also as a past-time. practice makes perfect, after all.

kaeya LOVES brain teasers and puzzles, like c'mon.

kaeya is rather impatient and hates standing still for too long (due to supporting voicelines). he values his time immensely. he will never be late again.

kaeya would never put the pressure of perfection on anyone else but himself. he needs to be perfect.

𝓔𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓪𝓵

kaeya's loneliness, and ultimately depression, torments him the most right after leaving the angel's share. it's in these moments he's loathe to return "home" right away, sometimes passing through the streets of mondstadt like a ghost late at night. on the rare occassion, he would leave the gates and make a trip to starfell lake, the symbol of mondstadt's hero at windrise, or even more rarely the cliff overlooking dawn winery.

it's canon that crepus's death had fascinated kaeya tremendously, morbidly, and offered him relief and solace, but i believe he also grieves over him just as much as diluc does, if not a tad more. after being given warmth, love, a family, a father who truly cared, how could he not grieve over what he had lost, and was too late to save? crepus is not the only one who he grieves for. after all, he lost a brother that day, too.

kaeya still yearns for home, whether the one he was born into, the one he was taken in by, or a new one. yet, his ever-lingering guilt that refuses to be absolved keeps him from having it again. he acknowledges it's not his fault that he was born into this life and role, but he still believes, as a sinner, that he has no right to feel the happiness he oh-so-desires.

as much as kaeya believes he has left behind khaenri'ah, i'm of the belief that he still cares about it. he kept a portion of his birth father's notes, willingly chose to keep using "Alberich", hitched a ride on a ship to sumeru to learn more about his homeland, and still remains torn with the idea of duty to his home nation versus the love for mondstadt.

𝓑𝓮𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓲𝓸𝓻𝓪𝓵

kaeya is very careful with his eyepatch(es), making sure they're not being worn out too quickly.

speaking of eyepatches, he would rather die than be caught lacking without one. this includes going to bed with one on. only time he ever takes it off is when he bathes. he locks the door when he does so.

should kaeya have a bedmate for the night, he would not take them back to his place and would instead either book a hotel or go to their place. that way, he's able to slip away once they're asleep. this is due to not trusting (hardly) anyone while he sleeps, and wanting to have no strings attached.

kaeya doesn't necessarily fear commitment, but he fears the fall-out of said commitment potentially coming apart. he's very hard to woo, keeping up plenty of walls not only towards potential romantic relationships, but quite literally every other relationship too.

kaeya learned a lot from miss adelinde, such as sewing, brewing tea, the best ways to wash and dry clothes, what works best when washing dishes, how to take care of his hair... yet, when it comes to cooking, he's not...great. he knows the easy stuff, such as making rice, toasting bread, making broths, eggs, etc. though, he definitely makes the best chicken-mushroom skewers with his signature fruity skewers!

bringing up kaeya being impatient again, he often taps his foot or chews on the inside of his cheek. anything that doesn't mess with his actual appearance (such as biting nails, picking at skin, pulling hair, etc).

kaeya is often seen as lazy, taking the easy way out when he does his work. yet, realistically, he clears his work dutifully and ahead of schedule when he has free time, tacking on even more if he still has time leftover. time is precious. he had to be efficient and hard-working when supporting diluc as his shadow, after all.

𝓜𝓲𝓼𝓬𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓪𝓷𝓮𝓸𝓾𝓼

kaeya thinks of elzer as a second brother! after all, elzer did say that he saw crepus as a father too.

kaeya keeps every single thing he was ever given tucked away in a safe place within his home. from mementos and photos from childhood to klee's thoughtful gifts.

kaeya, at most times, is unable to sleep properly due to nightmares, memories, mistakes, and overall guilt festering inside of him.

kaeya can sense the abyss coming off of others. of course, when he met dainsleif in sumeru, he probably felt eyes on him regardless; or even moreso he felt the abyss reaching out to him.

kaeya loves spicy food. i refuse to believe otherwise even if it may be canon that he doesn't. i refuse to let a brown man not be able to handle spicy food (as a poc myself).

kaeya was affected by the chasm being unsealed. this caused him to be out of commission for a few days, unable to properly work and instead hiding away in his home. it caused him a lot of pain, physical and mental.

there is a cryo abyss mage down by the thousand winds temple that kaeya had always visited since he was a kid. the abyss mage always found him so, SO annoying, but it never laid a finger on him. he is khaenri'ah's last hope, after all, even if it deems kaeya a traitor. yet, despite this, it understands his conflicts. doesn't mean it wants to be nice to him, though.

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　　　　　█　　✱  　❛　　FIG. ¹　　ANIMANGA ⅋ ANIMATED .

✱ GOJO SATORU,　JUJUTSU KAISEN. 8TEEN — TWENTY9.　VERSE DEPENDENT. HE / HIM. USAGI TSUKINO,　SAILOR MOON. 9TEEN. SHE / HER. YUNO GRINBERRYALL,　BLACK CLOVER. 9TEEN. HE / HIM. NEZUKO KAMADO,　KIMETSU NO YAIBA. VERSE DEPENDENT. SHE / HER. ✱ TILL,　ALIEN STAGE. TWENTY1. HE / HIM. ✱ SUA,　ALIEN STAGE. TWENTY3. SHE / HER. ✱ JINX,　ARCANE. 8TEEN — TWENTY. SHE / HER. EDWARD ELRIC,　FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST: BROTHERHOOD. 6TEEN — 8TEEN. VERSE DEPENDENT. HE / HIM.

　　　　　█　　✱  　❛　　FIG. ²　　VIDEO GAMES .

✱ WANDERER,　GENSHIN IMPACT. AGELESS. HE / ITS. ✱ CHLOE PRICE,　LIFE IS STRANGE. 9TEEN. SHE / HER. ✱ SABLE WARD,　DEAD BY DAYLIGHT. 9TEEN. SHE / HER. ✱ THE TRICKSTER,　DEAD BY DAYLIGHT. TWENTY3. HE / HIM. ✱ JOU TAZUNA,　KIMI GA SHINE. 7TEEN. HE / HIM. ✱ JONI THE RED,　FORTNITE. TWENTY2. SHE / THEY. CHARA,　UNDERTALE. AGELESS. THEY / THEM. RALSEI,　DELTARUNE. AGELESS. HE / THEY. KAI'SA,　LEAGUE OF LEGENDS. K / DA VERSE. TWENTY6. SHE / HER. DAN HENG,　HONKAI STAR RAIL. TWENTY5. HE / HIM. * testing

　　　　　█　　✱  　❛　　FIG. ³　　TELEVISION .

HANNIBAL LECTER,　HANNIBAL. FORTY5. HE / HIM. QUEEN MARCELINE,　ADVENTURE TIME. AGELESS. SHE / HER. LUCIFER,　LUCIFER. AGELESS. HE / THEM.

　　　　　█　　✱  　❛　　FIG. ⁴　　TEXT .

ZAGREUS,　THE SON OF HADES. HERMES,　THE MESSENGER.

　　　　　█　　✱  　❛　　FIG. ⁵　　FILMS .

KEN SATO,　ULTRAMAN: RISING. TWENTY6. HE / HIM. UMA,　THE DESCENDANTS. 8TEEN. SHE / HER. ✱ PRINCESS BRIDGET,　THE DESCENDANTS. VERSE DEPENDENT. SHE / HER. PRINCESS AURORA,　SLEEPING BEAUTY. 9TEEN. SHE / HER.

　　　　　█　　✱  　❛　　FIG. ⁶　　REQUESTED .

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