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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 9- Day#4 of #21toimprove . Hey, how was your day? . Tasks: Circulation notes(tru) P13- ncert/notes/FC ...tried tackling transfer characteristics explanations..*crying* . Productive Time: barely 5 hrs One word. Doublie. . Rants: Been on a weird mood. Very prickly. Yes, like the cactus. And very nappy. Signs I am anxious/panicking quietly, cause i am taking refuge in sleep again. Nope, not gonna happen. Won't let it happen. . Instagram: yay! 1.5hrs. Ok, not yaaaay. But yea, yay. . #chargeyoursoul✨ Ran: 5.2k. with music. I miss music all the time. Even when one of them is playing in my head 24x7(currently Khamoshiyan, an oldie from my love-sick years) . /Fascilis descensus Averno/ A. #neet2020 #medicotobe #dreams #timetowakeup #studygram https://www.instagram.com/p/CCbN8nFB9GF/?igshid=6dwumvtwnn1r
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 07 - Day#2 of #21toImprove (my mind is actually stuck in June) (those are bubbles in processed aloe gel) . Tasks: Tests Printed notes review I am just doing anything except studying properly after tests. Which is ironic! . IG: 2+ hrs. problem: frequent use in breaks/whenever tf I get my hands on it. Possible solution: timeslotting IG activities [NO explore time] . Productive hours: ~4hrs. Will try super-super light stuff post-mocks: review flash cards/ joking around with organic . @budding.doctor ; #chargeyoursoul✨ Run: ~5.2k [GPS acting weird. Help ne1?], + super nice 100m sprint. . MoiSpeak: A smile plastered eternally, hiding the mess that exists in ones mind, hiding the deep sadness, the accompanying hopelessness, the false cheery façade at times, flaring up, raging out, but rarely sometimes, crying in the corner sometimes, punching a wall bare handed, cutting with a blade, a pain to overwhelm the pain inside or sleeping excessively, or distracting with mundane chores/books/movies etc., anything other than Prioritized task, or numbing it with drugs/alcohol…finding a niche, some solace, a bit of peace, a refuge from the storm within. Anxiety, depression [not clinically diagnosed, but know enough clinical people to analyze the symptoms], Panic attacks, emotional breakdowns at midnight, utter hopelessness… these [not depression] have been my 'friends' long before NEET came in the scene. All I can tell you is: It gets better. Sit tight. Get help. Or google "I need help". You will find some. Talk to someone trusty. Tell them to listen, or ask them to help. Analyze: going back to ‘that’ time after recovering is daunting. But its necessary, to find that 'trigger' [or allergen, pardon the expression] that starts the avalanche. Try solving it. Removing it. Because, yk, treating symptoms doesn't necessarily cure a disease. Sending lots of healing, rejuvenating, awesome-wale vibes your way. #NeverGiveUp Adios. A. #neet2020 #aiims #aiimsdelhi #neetmotivation https://www.instagram.com/p/CCWSh2ChJpn/?igshid=ng44pat3632n
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 6 Day#1 of #21toimprove for #neet2020 . I swear my mind is stuck on June. . Early post cause need to work uninterrupted in the next few hours. . Productive Time: ~6 hrs Way below the benchmark. But more than my usual average. . Also, it's totally CHEATING when they label it as Chemical Bonding topic, and ask, which of the following Sulphur oxoacids have peroxide bond? Are you kidding me? That's p16 Question, dumbass. . Instagram: 1.5 hrs. Chatting with a variety of people mostly. This is why I joined this community. I love talking. I love listening even more. I love making people laugh the most.😋 (Yesterday: 4.5 hrs. Can you believe it?) . +Nominated by @someonestudiesmed (that oh my gosh! Feeling when a (possible/hopeful) senior tags you😜) for #chargeyoursoul✨ -An abstract art, basically playing with sketch pens and pencil colours on a very moist, very bad Classmate paper. Heavily edited, since my camera ain't no shit. -Quote credit: The Fault in Our Stars (John Green) . Sup with you guys? Tag me when you update yo! Signing off. . Arnab #aiimsdelhi https://www.instagram.com/p/CCTMxBAh1cX/?igshid=ynv96df35usd
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 21 - Day#16 of #21toImprove ... Ykw? Let's not dissect today. Too tired. My eyes/brain are/is almost shutting down if their/its own accord. . No study talk. Except studies task: Searched book on Guitars. Got Dummies. Looks promising...only if I HAD a guitar. Practiced on Harmonium + Vocals, Raag Yaman. Both rusty. A heck lot. Read randomly from The Mortal Instruments. Started writing a post on music. Didn't write after two lines Started making a photoshop art. Closed it after opening it. ... Ok, I did s block, some 12 th bio rando flash card stuff. No physics again. .. Weird day. Weird empty day. Weird empty restro/intro-spective day. Tho happy with my running pace. . But #NeverGiveUp . A. #neet2020 #aiims #aiimsdelhi #neetmotivation Ps. She is The moon of my night sky. And I ? I am a star Among the million others Surrounding her. Admirers. (C) arnonymous https://www.instagram.com/p/CC6MwdABTZ4/?igshid=t5cfnpp76du0
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 19 - Day#14 of #21toImprove // Know thy enemy. Know thy self. A hundred wars, a hundred Victories! // (I think I quoted it wrong from Sun Tzu. But you get the idea) . Who are you? What are your strengths/weaknesses? Are they really what you THINK they are? Tough questions. Even tougher is finding the 'right' answer. . You, I, we aren't static/constant beings. We are literally variables come alive. and that makes it a continuous process. Self-discovery. Followed by self-improvement. . Add to that, WHO is thinking/judging about you/rself? Your brain. Basically your brain is judging itself, influenced by 'you'. . And hence the quotation in pic. [all i am saying is. Look at the 'truth' you know with a critical eye. Is it really true? Or is it 'influenced'?] . Its tough af. Tougher than Chemistry. [yes, I ducking said it, and I ain't takin it back.] . Tasks: -Biotech: revised NCERT. Tots. Made some flash cards. Not all -Electrochem: didn't touch it. -Wave optics: Theory from halliday. Cause I suck at theory. Mejorly. . . Productive hours: 5.5 hrs instagrammed excessively. Mostly watching @aupmanyu. Had some really good laughs. Ab-squeezy ones. Felt good. Felt like that after a long time. Thank you, for that :) . Running: 5.02k. After completing it, I was self-talking [empty roads = chance to become as weird as I can]… when I noticed someone jogging right behind me…CREEPs! I was like, ye kaha se aa gye? And? i started running backwards lol. Ik. The first part is mostly fabricated. But I did run backwards today, followed by lateral shuffles [cause it helps in badminton] then a mad mad hundred metre dash. . #NeverGiveUp [...falling in love/eating chilli. And Ik I am a hypocrite. I hate doing both] [the first, frankly, is not under my control. Fuck you, feelings.] (Not really. You are human cause you can feel those feelings. Never stop them. They are there to help) A. #neet2020 #aiims #aiimsdelhi #neetmotivation https://www.instagram.com/p/CC1DiCNpIBy/?igshid=9gpig5l8m8ly
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 18 - Day#13 of #21toImprove [arnonymous is my pseudonym when i write] System reboot doesn’t necessarily mean system reformed. But I am doing it anyway. First [actual] day of trying to keep up with J's sched. Tell you what, I am having second thoughts about it. But a man (or woman) has gotta do, what a man has gotta do. Might as well do it now. . Tasks: -Mendelian Genetics et al xcpt Linkage [nightmare of my 'Trending' section] -Molecular Basis: Fingerprinting, human genome stuff xcluded -Solutions: formulae everywhere. . Productive hours: 4 hrs basically i spent 2 hours doing not-study stuff. Literally. I opened quora like 4 times, opened Instagram thrice. Read The Mortal Instruments [1st book] for like, the 4th time. Chatted with mom on literally anything, from neighbours to relatives at my native place to…basically anydamnthing. Then binged on toasts. Then… finally awoke from my logical-hibernation and went back to studying. Repeat that twice. . Running: 5k. There's this small kiddo who walks with her mom when I run [ I run on-road. Kinda hate tracks.] so, today when I was overtaking them, the kid started running as fast as her lil feet could do. I had to smile. I had to slow down. But obvi, she got tired. Yet, it felt good. Maybe someday she will take up running, inspired by this. Inspiring people to change for good is the second best thing I like doing. First is making them laugh. ["Clean up your study table/bed first. Then inspire people" my Mom says from behind me. Mom, you sneako!] jk. . #NeverGiveUp not kidding. A. #neet2020 #aiims #aiimsdelhi #neetmotivation #neetgroup #studygram #studyblr #studyblog #premed https://www.instagram.com/p/CC0LGTjhzKp/?igshid=9dymizkdqeu
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 14 - Day#9 of #21toImprove Depressing stuff ahead. . Tasks: -mini + mejor test. -read EMI -… . Productive hours: ??? . Running: 4.6 kilometers. . MoiSpeak: Nothing. . Well, I think I messed up my priorities again. I am sorry, so sorry. . You know, when you go to a candy shop and want every fuggin candy over there? Cause you like em all? . My hobbies/feelings are my candies. And they are giving me a darned hard time. + hustling for NEET has become just so much tough, mentally. Its not, actually. I am an ass. Its as simple as that. . Not learning from your previous mistakes is about the worst insult you can haul at life. And insulting Life? Tsk tsk. Try not to. Payback is a bitch. . And memories, stories of past; ghosts of people once met, of a person I fell for, of the mistakes I did, of the results that happened. Of …everything that happened consequently. They haunt me, in broad daylight. . Time heals, they said. It didn't. I moved on, by suppressing it. Today, it all came out. No, I didn't cry. But wish I had. Wish I could. Lucky are they who can vent their emotions as tears. I built a wall to appear strong, and it has ended up making me feel dead. Nothing. A void. A deep sadness that I try not to unravel, like avoiding a nest of snakes. The moment I touch them, they kiss. And that kiss is never sweet. . Love, I think, had an extrememly huge role in this short life that I have lived. It broke me out of my shell, helped me change for better, change for worse; Then it broke me, like nothing ever did.And then it healed me too. . But what is once broken, never heals completely, does it? No matter what you fill the cracks with; even gold doesn't make a broken crockery become un-broken. But it has its beauty. A different kind, but beauty all the same. Wish I had healed myself, like they do in /kinsukuroi/. Filled my void with gold, instead of escaping them. Faced my demons, instead of turning away. Faced life, lived it; instead of living in someone else's, of people in my head, of Fiction. . #NeverGiveUp, I say. And yet, I am broken. And every minute seems a struggle. I am a nyctophile, yet, it is only Light that gives life. . Peace and Happiness to you. A. https://www.instagram.com/p/CCoTfYtBWCq/?igshid=1btwon11kj1ng
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 13 - Day#8 of #21toImprove Lousy start to a week. But everyone has to start somewhere 🤷‍♂️ . Tasks: -Test -EMI - HC text, meagre PYQs -GeoMagnetism- LN - only materials -Cell structure: Plastids Tm -Neural system - Tm . Productive hours: 4 hrs. Stuck at that fuggin halfway point. Nope. Gotta do it. . #chargeyoursoul✨ Running: 4.56 kilometers. . MoiSpeak: Talk. Talk to someone you look up to. Talk to someone you trust. Communication. Healthy communication, tbp ,has the power to solve the biggest of problems. …and Breathe. When you get lost, when you feel a void in you, focus on surviving. Focus on what you can control immediately. Your Breathe. Control it. Deepen it. Feel it. And be Honest to yourself, if not to anyone else. Start again. Sometimes it is late. But not doing anything is far worse than doing something in the time that you have. Effort never goes to waste. It either helps you succeed. Or it teaches you. If you are ready to learn. . #NeverGiveUp Adios, Arnaud #neet2020 #aiims #aiimsdelhi #neetmotivation #medico #medicalschool #college #medicine #mbbs #mentalhealth #neetdiaries #arnonymous #neet2021   https://www.instagram.com/p/CCmwtjOh_Ai/?igshid=15ermyxj9d5zk
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July11 - Day#6 of #21toimprove (Yesterday's post was a total fiasco) . Tasks: Morphology- trueman points annotated on ncert. p14 ncert- Inc Magnetic fx: a "co-compete" something with @procrastinate.aesthetically_ ...gonna complete before sleep . Productive Time: 6 hrs max. Maybe 1.5 more now. Or not. No idea . Rants: Sorry, kinda busy today. But don't lose hope. The world may turn against you, but if you have hope, there's still the possibility of you winning. . Instagram: in pic . #chargeyoursoul✨ Ran: 4.51k. This pic is an oldie. An A4 page full doodle. Miss doing those. Low on patience. Sigh. . /Lumos/ A. https://www.instagram.com/p/CCgZv2FhcK_/?igshid=1sdyf276cwp20
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 07 - Day#2 of #21toImprove (my mind is actually stuck in June) (those are bubbles in processed aloe gel) . Tasks: Tests Printed notes review I am just doing anything except studying properly after tests. Which is ironic! . IG: 2+ hrs. problem: frequent use in breaks/whenever tf I get my hands on it. Possible solution: timeslotting IG activities [NO explore time] . Productive hours: ~4hrs. Will try super-super light stuff post-mocks: review flash cards/ joking around with organic . @budding.doctor ; #chargeyoursoul✨ Run: ~5.2k [GPS acting weird. Help ne1?], + super nice 100m sprint. . MoiSpeak: A smile plastered eternally, hiding the mess that exists in ones mind, hiding the deep sadness, the accompanying hopelessness, the false cheery façade at times, flaring up, raging out, but rarely sometimes, crying in the corner sometimes, punching a wall bare handed, cutting with a blade, a pain to overwhelm the pain inside or sleeping excessively, or distracting with mundane chores/books/movies etc., anything other than Prioritized task, or numbing it with drugs/alcohol…finding a niche, some solace, a bit of peace, a refuge from the storm within. Anxiety, depression [not clinically diagnosed, but know enough clinical people to analyze the symptoms], Panic attacks, emotional breakdowns at midnight, utter hopelessness… these [not depression] have been my 'friends' long before NEET came in the scene. All I can tell you is: It gets better. Sit tight. Get help. Or google "I need help". You will find some. Talk to someone trusty. Tell them to listen, or ask them to help. Analyze: going back to ‘that’ time after recovering is daunting. But its necessary, to find that 'trigger' [or allergen, pardon the expression] that starts the avalanche. Try solving it. Removing it. Because, yk, treating symptoms doesn't necessarily cure a disease. Sending lots of healing, rejuvenating, awesome-wale vibes your way. #NeverGiveUp Adios. A. #neet2020 #aiims #aiimsdelhi #neetmotivation https://www.instagram.com/p/CCWSh2ChJpn/?igshid=45d5fltoe6i
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medivergent-blog · 4 years ago
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July 5th = Day 70 Day#0 of #21toImprove ... Let's do a 21 day...NOT challenge. Like...ah, okay a challenge. Start tomorrow, ends on yep, 26th July. Simple rules: 1. ✅Study atleast 8 hrs a day 2. ✅Curb Instagram/distractions to less than half of current usage. 3.✅ Log it down daily, in post/stories/both. 4. ✅Tag me.(ofc) + #21toimprove 5. ✅SHARE this. The more people, the better it becomes. Jk. But 🔥 TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY.🔥 This isn't just about NEET. This is about improving yourself as a person. And consequently, becoming better. ... My log: Read ncert of Human physiology. #5daysHPchallenge over. Didn't do justice, but didn't fail either. So there. ... To a Better day ahead, to a better I, you, us. A #neet2020 #aiimsdelhi #neetpreparation #neet2021 https://www.instagram.com/p/CCQ_p9BJ1ZX/?igshid=m3lczk03emzy
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