#2022 when i had faith 😭

[leraquo]

RIP to my draft if bkdk became canon it will never see the light of day 😔

[hummingbird-games]

2024 in Review (Indie Games)

2023 | 2022 | 2021

Helloooo gamer friends!!!

I'm so tired.

Lol.

Anyhoo, y'all don't care about that!!! Y'all are here to see what games I played and what the heck I have to say about them! Reminders: I don't bash games I didn't like, and I try to post more in-depth thoughts and reviews and general yapping to Gem's Game Gems.

DEMOS

When Stars Collide - I am by no means a sci-fi girlie. I need a HEAPING dose of fantasy or fantasy elements to help me out. That said, y'all might remember how I went feral for Gilded Shadows, so I am locked in for this journey with WSC. It's just as mysterious and lore intense as GS, but also just as intriguing and engaging!

Love Me, Love Me Not - I looooove when a game charms me to pieces??? Our MC Addie, the introduced LIs, the story, the art??? Where do I begin?? Anyway, please check this one out y'all! I'm impatient for the full game (shocker, I know).

Threads of You: Beyond the Bay - So my thoughts and reactions for this one are on the side blog, but I really enjoyed the demo and I have eyes for Chris, Vince, and Alex hehehe.

Lost in Limbo - While I'd been keeping tabs on this game for what seems forever because of the character art that originally caught my attention, I almost didn't finish the demo because it was lowkey disturbing (I'm a wimp and not all horror is made equal). But!!! BUT!!!! I push through to the end, had a good time, noted that I need to play the full game in the daylight with the music turned down low. And I absolutely adore Ara and Xal so, so much.

A Simple Twist of Fae - Absolutely no one cares, but I read a lot of manga this year. Like, a lot-a lot. Like, ~180 books and 1/3 of that was manga. Anyhoo, When JMB announced she was cooking up this game, I was impatient to get my grubby hands on it. AND THEN I PLAYED IT AND IT WAS THE SHOJO INSPIRED GAME OF MY DREAMS?!?! Like.....I wish I could both have it on my computer and also on my bookshelf. Final build dropping when??? (Also the UI design is utterly delightful, I cry.)

The Summit Library (FULL DEMO) - The last time I reviewed this game, we got chapter 1 as a taste, and I was. Locked! In!! The full demo gives us the first 2 chapters as well as the previews for all the romance routes and while giving everyone a whirl I'm *still* undecided on who to go for in the future, I must mention this: TSL is so aspec friendly???? I do love a game with smut, don't get me wrong looks at College Craze but sometimes I have my moments of being overwhelmed/sliiiiiiightly repulsed and the variety of options you have to choose how you react and interact with the various LIs in this game is amazing. (I have more thoughts on this, so I'll try to remember to post to the sideblog, but please understand that this game is totally worth your attention and time imo!!!)

Fully Released & Played (at least 1 playthrough)

Rabbit Trail - This. Game. Is. SO. Cute. *punches the air* 😭🥹(Copy + paste of my review on the itch.io page -> This was so charming, so fluffy, so cozy, just delightful all around??? I've only reached one ending so far, but René is just the cutest protag to play as, and his interactions as he delivers his mail made me cheese so dang hard! (Also, I wanted to fight his parents for not properly appreciating their kid LOL))

Stuck by Design - I checked this game out because I was looking into games that fellow programmers had worked on, and this cozy game stumbled onto my lap. The music was perfect, the UI is beautiful and clean, and I thoroughly enjoyed the performance of the VA for the LI, Yuki.

Wake Me Up If You Need Me - I called this game older!HSDJY MC x Ryan coded and I'm still right. The voice actor MAKES this game, and the interactions the player has with Reed is so flippin' delightful?? All my love and adoration to the game developer. May they make more beautiful games.

CTRL FREAK - The developer team brought us The Faithfulness of the Universe which is a banger in its own right, and CTRL FREAK is the team's commercial, finished project that I also found delightful. The soundtrack and the animations are chef's kiss 💛

Breathless Winds - Ooo, baby, ooo. So. If there is only one game you play from this list and you have some spare cash to spend (at the time of writing, the game is on sale!!!) please, please, check this one out. It left me absolutely spellbound, both the orginal demo, and then the full game. While I didn't get to blog fully about this one, and I only tackled 2 of the 4 routes, this game is absolutely everything. This is my indie game of the year. Poppy and her journey resonated with me, and between the music and the art, everything just came together so perfectly.

Wake Up Magical Girl - Listen TF up, if miseri creates it, I'm gonna play it, idc, idc. That being said...this game had a kick to it that when I finished my first playthrough, I had to stare off into space and gather myself. It takes the concept of magical girls and heroism and gave me a teeny tiny existential crisis, but other than that, I'm fine, it's fine, play this game, thank you.

Sleeping Under Spells - God, I love me a game where I get to argue with a LI. I love it. Bonus points if it's lowkey stupid stuff we're bickering over LOL!!

Our Wonderland - Yeah, uh huh, you thought you'd escape me talking about this game this year, didn't yah???? Too bad. The fifth and final arc dropped this year and I played it and I cried and felt for the briefest moments that life was okay. To say something different than my review of last year, I love that this seems to be the game that helps fellow ace devs find and flock to each other, I'm not kidding 🤣 so thank you Carrot for helping us fellow aspec peeps feel seen and validated and understood!

I Watched a Full Game Playthrough and Highly Recommend

Replay Boys - Okay so technically at the time of posting, there's still one more video I'm waiting to watch (Naja of BlerdyOtome uploaded her stream to YouTube) but my Godddddd. I've had my eye on this game for FOREVER but I was lowkey waiting for it to move to itch.io (I'm still a lowkey Steam hater 🥹) anyhoo, watching this absolutely wild game made me go ahead and buy a copy for myself to replay at a later time, but it's just great. The summary only scratches this surface of what the game entails 🤣

Gemi’s Gushies

(a list within a list of games that have devs trucking along in the background and I want to spotlight for y’all)

Save the Villainess - Life got away with me and unfortunately I never finished my play of the demo BUT what I have played was fun and I hope to return to this in the new year!

Woman of Xal 2 - Plot Twist Studios is on that Sequel Train with the next installment of WoX!!! Which I'm VERY excited for!!! I've unfortunately only completed one playthrough of this game, but the first game is definitely a masterclass in replayability, and I hope next year I'll be able to do a second playthough as I wait for game 2's Kickstarter!

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And that's 2024! Any shared favorites?

- Gemini 🫶🏾

[blushydrangea]

so curious on your thoughts on the latest shenanigans lol, also missing your nymphia thoughts in general 💗

it's been a while. cracks knuckles.

(under a read more because it's quite long!)

a lot of things happened since my last time answering an ask about ✈️🍌, even claims that they were long gone apparently. the taiwan trip was so sweet and i'm happy they spent time together & with mirage, something i love about this cast is that they always find opportunities to hang out with each other in different combos, their bond is so cute! i'm curious about the music they're working on, although it seems like we won't get to hear it for a while 😭.

kissgate (that's what i'm calling it lmao) soured my feelings a little bit, because we shouldn't be attacking real people for not acting according to our headcanons. it was sad that plane had to explain herself on twitter, and it's good that the girlies still interact normally after that but i honestly wouldn't blame them if that caused for them to hide their friendship a bit more. still i'm 110% sure they'll never lose what they have, it seems to be something important for both of them and that they wouldn't let go of 🩷.

the drought reminded me of early march (i believe...) when they didn't talk for two weeks (!), i think most people weren't here for it and that is why a bunch of you freaked out. don't worry if it happens again, ✈️🍌 are fine, have some faith in them!

THE PAST DAYS WERE WILDDD. we got bratty nymphia demanding plane's full attention, nymphia with morphine which goes so well with my seven stages fantasy, and planymphia being super sweet with each other 🥺 it was a great moment for the enjoyers, both of them looked so goooood and nymph is like a vocaloid come to life in that cute outfit. their whole live on morphine's ig was absolutely wild & i'm sure a lot of people have shared their thoughts already and i don't wanna repeat them, so i'll just say that the forehead kiss was very important to me <3 and very seven stages. i love winning!

onto nymphia thoughts since you mentioned that!

1) she seems so exhausted and it breaks my heart. nymphia appears to be the type of person who gets more energy from being around her close friends, so she was happier with the s16 cast, but when she's alone it's sad to watch how tired she is. she also mentioned not sleeping in her ig story. i hope the princess can find some time to rest and take care of herself, she deserves it :(

2) on a lighter note... HOW COME NO ONE TOLD ME LA GRANDE DAME IS A BANANA BELIEVER– she liked two!!!! nymphia tweets!!! and commented "oui" on a team nymphia post!!!!! if you were around here in 2022 you'd know how obsessed with lgd i was then, so i'm sure she did this for me 🤧. the pretty & silly fashion girl liking the other pretty & silly fashion girl makes so much sense <3 they follow each other too and now i need a dada and nymphia encounter. pls someone book them both for something. PLEASE. i need to see nymphia look tiny next to her.

that's all i have! even though i've been dethroned lol it's still nice to know someone cares enough about my thoughts to shoot me an ask through my inactivity. i love fandom 🥰

[maneskinthoughts]

vic almost a virgin? Lol I swear some fans are very naive.

First of all of course she was with Elle, they were attached to the hip for the entire summer 2022 and Vic had even posted a photo of them showing together topless on their vacation. When you see two girls being everywhere together for a short amount of time and then they're never seen together again it's because they were scissoring not because they're best friends who braided each other's hair lol and now Elle doesn't even follow Vic anymore or Vic her.

Also, between Janis and Luna Vic was single for about a year (Not counting Elle because i think it wasn't an official relationship but something more casual) and was definitely whoring around (and good for her). There were rumors about her hooking up with a fan in Brazil, then she was photographed at a club in Denmark in December 2022 with some other model. What do you think vic was doing during her single era, practicing abstinence? 😭 she was eating pussy left and right.

and third, she isn't even faithful to Luna lol. Or they don't have a monogamous relationship. Because last year during the rush tour Vic hooked up with a model who's kinda big on Instagram. They weren't even that subtle but most Måneskin fans are so up Damiano's ass waiting for him to breathe near any woman to invent rumors that Vic could fuck a girl in front of them and they wouldn't notice.

Anyway, don't try to make homegirl some shy prude because you think it's only cool for the men of the band to sleep around

OMG, details please!

[readingismyhobby24]

HI FAITH.. how have you been doing lately ??? other than yaknow. being sick..

havent asked u one of these in awhile i used to do it like every other day..maybe ill get back to that idk ive been in a depressive episode but im trying my best

i had a good thanksgiving !! it felt strange but every holiday after 2022 felt strange honestly or maybe its cuz it feels like the year is in like 10x speed?? meh

i got way too interested in a new roblox game.. its called phighting and its basically a pvp game, theres currently 15 characters to select and it has a whole lore too its so cool (i suck at it but its ok)

I MADE XMAS PFPS OF MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS FROM THE GAME LOL.. only 1 of these characters are actually a playable one and its the pink one :3 his name is subspace and hes one of my favorites

i usually use the characters sword, rocket, and medkit in game though, occasionally subspace but i need to get kills in not assists which is basically all subspace does

can you believe that new years is 4 fridays away? its insane to me..

i keep jumping topics but going back to phighting theres this thing called skins which are purely cosmetic but theyre like the only thing you can currently buy with bux (what youre rewarded after a match) so yk what hell yeah! i really want the captain rocket (green one, hes a skin for rocket) and the 7MK0 (orange and yellow one, hes a skin for medkit) skin

OH YEAH these are the sword, rocket, and medkit (in order of appearance) characters theyre so silly

i also do have a favorite trio.. the blackrock trio which is biograft, hyperlaser, and subspace (BIOGRAFT AND HYPERLASER PLAYERS WHEN I CATCH YOU. biograft is so hard to heal cuz they have like 50hp and i cant heal the shield feature i think only boombox can do that 💔 unfortunate. ALSO I HATE SKATEBOARD PLAYERS BECAUSE LIKE. STOP SKATING AROUND I NEED TO HEAL YOU?? i have no complaints whenever i play sword or rocket its just medkit thats a pain)

theres another that i like which are all teal which theyre scythe, medkit, and broker but unfortunately broker isnt playable and never will be because hes the guy thats basically the donate to the game through the brokercoins which are 25 robux each, they have no feature in the game theyre just there so people can donate :3

theres..so much more i could yap about but ill just list the playable characters in order

melee

Sword

Skateboard

Biograft

Ban hammer

Katana

ranged

Rocket

Slingshot

Hyperlaser

Shuriken

Scythe

support

Medkit

Boombox

Subspace

Vinestaff

Coil

very cool game.. its not beginner friendly but unfortunately i still play it 💔

I've been doing pretty good! I had thanksgiving with my family and that was a lot of fun. Now I need to really focus on Christmas presents lol (I'm crocheting most of them lol). I'm also in a secret Santa at work, so I have to do that too lol.

That game sounds fun! And the pfps look really good! And new year is that close????? Already??? I thought it just turned 2024 though 😭

And the game sounds really cool! I know I'd be horrible at it though 😂😭

I hope you start feeling better soon. I'm sorry you haven't been doing too great lately 🥺

[heartsoftruth]

It was such a nice summer, fantasizing about Lewis winning the WDC this year when we were going into the summer break with a Lewis win. We all knew it t would take a miracle for that to happen, but GR and Lewis at 7 and 8 and Lewis' qualifying makes me not want watch the rest of the season. I feel like we got dragged back to reality.

I have to be honest: I never thought Lewis could win the WDC this year😅? I mean I adore this man and I had and have faith in him that he would be P1 again, but WDC in 2024? Naawhh.

I hope he and Ferrari cook and he can win one in red. That would be 😭😭♥️

That’s the goal and what we should look at imo. For this year let’s hope more wins.

Anon if you survived 2022 than you can finish this season. I don’t think after AD21 anything is more painful than that. With Baku as the cherry on top tbh.

[earthtoharlow]

I guess since he had a non stop busy schedule from 2020-2022 he wanted a 2 year break to balance it😭 I do have a feeling he will be fine when he comes back. One because I have faith and two because, idk if anyone else has noticed, rap in general is so wide open right now. Specifically for young rappers. There is no one dominating at all. Absolutely no competition. It’s kinda crazy to think about ngl. The only rappers doing numbers are the ones that have been out for over a decade.

GP unfortunately doesn’t care about Rap music right now and the new rappers don’t put the work in and tour and actually build a fan base! Jack has the advantage because he has a dedicated fan base so yeah i think he���ll be fine

[bisluthq]

But I cannot for the LIFE of me understand WHAT THE FUCK was Matty's reasoning throughout all of this????//

Urgh anon I feel you, I really do😭 as maddenning as the whole thing is though I do think that the simple answer is that Matty is a drug addict (per his own words, he has straight up said it) and drug addicts tend to impulsively search for temporary highs in different forms, often without being aware that that's what they're doing. Tbf Matty has also said that he's now clean from the heroin and stuff but Taylor does sing about him buying pills and being stoned so🤷🏻‍♀️ And anyways, even if a drug addict is in recovery they're still bound to have erratic behaviours and/or withdrawal symptoms and I legit think that's a big part of why this man is the mess he is. Like he would be messy anyways but with the drugs he just stands no chance and so he ends up hurting the people around him a lot without meaning to.

I did have a phase there in 2022 where I was very into the 1975 and Matty specifically as in, I wanted to fuck him and yes that is so deeply embarrassing for my life and for my soul I know ☠️☠️ but besties we'd just come out of a global pandemic that'd nearly done me in literally like I really almost ended it all so I wasn't exactly ok and I did a bunch of messy questionable stuff that year and yes had a crush on Matty bc I was fresh out the slammer (as in the pandemic lol). When it was confirmed in May that Taylor was in fact hooking up with him I joked with Nat that she went ahead and fucked him for me💀😭 but that was all before the man outed himself as an avid enjoyer of deranged misogynistic racist porn and before he said the racist ass shit about Ice Spice. No crush of mine has ever been so quickly and effectively extinguished as that one was, the moment I knew about that he was suddenly the most disgusting and unappealing human ever to me🤷🏻‍♀️ ngl kinda wish my irl crush that I've been pining after for years would do something repulsive like that and kill the crush once and for all lol. But yeah when Nat put 2 and 2 together about Question...? there was no question (pun intended lol) between us that the song was about Matty, I'd been listening a lot to 75 songs and yeah he is the certified Sad Boi and she was the certified Good Girl back in Tatty 1.0. I think the ootw sample at the begginning of the song is making a nod to the time period when this happened, not to our boy Harold. Crazy how she was wanting explanations from Matty back then and once again does now 10 years later💀I was listening to the album again while walking home yesterday and Nat you're right I had too much faith in her lol it really does feel like she wrote this album instead of going to therapy 💀😭 it's like if she'd managed to write her way out of 2016. I do think that's ultimately a good thing though bc she carried around the wounds and trauma of 2016 for years but with this it seems like she effectively sucked the poison out of the wounds and is very determined to close the chapter and heal. I still really wish she would just go to therapy though😩 girlie can pay for the best therapist in all of the US if she wants and make them sign the most solid NDA for privacy. I legit wonder if that has been a hold up for her going to therapy, maybe she's terrified of things leaking and feels like she could never truly trust a therapist/inhibit herself enough to be able to say everything she needs to say, and so she ends up thinking that it's not worth it and instead talks to her friends and makes unhinged songs lol

”Crazy how she was wanting explanations from Matty back then and once again does now 10 years later💀” literally tho.

Also ngl I’m very grateful for your (brief but intense) crush on Matty because without it I’d never have figured out Question and then I wouldn’t be out here feeling as vindicated as I am in a post TTPD world.

[bryyyryy]

It's been a year now since we broke up, I'm sorry I couldn't give you a proper closure, I just wanted you to hate me more. You said that you had a bad feeling of me from the start, I did too, from 2020 to early 2022 I seriously did too, but I risked it all because it's you. I honestly thought that we'll end up together forever, but we were both immature, we both ended up hurting each other, and it all just ended up falling apart because I ended it. I wanted to stay, but I kept reflecting on the times that you let go of me easily, I was hurt I kept crying during those times, and after sending a "LSM", you'll then comfort me and I'll come back running to your arms, looking back I'll always laugh how "tanga" I was, but I thought that it was the love I think I deserved. Around my senior year, I was a busy person, I had a lot of responsibility, I was the EIC, a business mnger, vice president, secretary, and many more. I had a lot of problems, from school to my own house, and I would end up running and talking to you, but it ended up hurting me as we would only fight. I was immature when I asked for space, now looking back I think I should've talked to you about it, but I couldn't confront you and I'm sorry for that. During our relationship most of the time, you were the one that always wanted to break up (from what I remember), we broke up a lot of times and most of them was initiated by you, and on our last moment I was the one who ended it all. Looking back I really wanted to fix and talk to you about it, but I ended up choosing myself, and I wouldn't apologize for that. I'm really sorry I couldn't gave you a closure sooner, but after checking tumblr and reading your replies I just couldn't bear it. I'm sorry for letting you go, we were both young, too young and dumb to understand love (bangin hi ako la tbh 😭), but I know we tried our best. I couldn't blame you for hurting me during our relationship, we were too young to understand how to love each other. Anyways, after breaking up a lot of things happened to the both of our lives, you ended up dropping from your school, and honestly I felt guilty since hi sir dexter nag chat akon adto para laak mabaro 🥹. Tapos haak side naman na disgrasya ak BUWHAHAHA, thought I was going to die tbh, tapos sunod nag aragway nak fam hayss, but its all okay now, so if ever man nag ask ka karma para akon nagtikang na after nat hadto pag break 2-3 days na disgrasya ak after BUWAHHAA. Im sorry for letting you go, but getting hurt by someone you explained your pain to, really devasted me, sorry na na hurt ko liwat ikaw, it wasn't my intention and I wasn't thinking straight. I'm sorry if you ended up thinking I used you or something, pero dire po promise I didn't when we did those stuff I felt loved by you, im sorry if it didnt felt the same for you. And honestly, after our break up I ended up thinking that you can miss a person from time to time, but at the same time still be glad that they're no longer a part of your life. I'm thankful for you, im sorry that we both ended up as a character development for each other, but I really wanted it to be us at the end, but it seems that faith didn't help us. thank you utro sorry for reaching out to you.

[boyfhee]

hehe, i know and thanks for the jay fic, in enjoyed reading it ^^ well thanks for the blassing but am still not ready :] and ill tell her to do well in her boards (from you who said it)

pcm is no fun, there is no reproduction to laugh at :/ i have fear of them and that was the only, only reason for me to not choose pcb... my mom wanted me to become a gynaecologist :( sadly, it wont be true... yeaa apothorax, i font know but yea medicine is still a lot to take it.

i just watched random fs programme and only hanyu was the one i knew, i didnt go in deep but yes, i still love fs... and for the coding languages, once again thanks ^^ atleast you mentioned what to learn bevause i dont know where to start :0

anyways, my fav album is border : day one and my fav track is all time flicker and let me in. my fav bsides would be chaconne, bills, upper side dreamin, prdx, mixed up and title track would be sweet venom, tamed-dashed and drunk-dazed :)

if you have an instagram account or ny other apps talk, i would love to know it and know you more ++ the fact that you are chiyuv (my fav writer back in 22' :0 i am in tears. i never went through your old mlist until today, so nostalgia hit me hard... your how to get back with ur ex + fair and square + unlikelihood are my favssss 😭😭😭😭😭 ill trade my spy x family manga for them to reread if they were to disappear some day 🥲

i stopped using tumblr in late 2022 and started using it now + stopped writing way back in early 2021 because my mom got to know my writing acc for enha on ig 😭😭) i wanna talk more about everything with you but tumblr feels like we are in a long distance relationship, where we get our letters once in a blue moon 🥲

— lover club anon <33

sweets, i'm telling you reproduction is only fun when you're studying penis and vagina but not the mechanism TT i was going thru hell in embryology lectures 🙏 also, it's neet's fav chapter i'm lowkey bored of it. we studied it sm times that there was an ongoing joke in our class that next lecture will be based on practical and visual learning 😭 also a gynaec :O that's cool ! i'm aiming for cardio-thoracic / neurosurgery, although more inclined towards the former ( imagine five years later i'm a doctor while still crying over jay )

one of my friends was a huge fs fanatic so she made me get into it and it's fun, honestly :> and you don't have to worry about coding yet ! once classes start, i think you'll get a good idea of where to start from. although, html is usually the basic ( in my case, it was? we learnt it before anything ) and then css cause that's a bit more advanced. we took html css and python together, but javascript was only for pcm + cs students. i hope you have fun learning how to code ^^

FLICKER IS SO GOOD TT i remember looping it for hours while writing my lab manuals lmfao. and upperside dreaming too it has such a nice melody :O i'm gna be honest i didn't like prdx at first but then it grew up on me and now it's one of my fav tracks :D chaconne 🙏 no one knows her like me. when the tl was ranking it last on the basis of highlight medley i had faith in it because anything titled chaconne can't go wrong i have proof to back this up ( it's so serious for me can u believe this ) me and a close moot had out daily chaconne stream sessions lmfao

drunk-dazed aged like wine because it sounds like the first time every time i listen to it :] my favs are bite me, sweet venom, blessed-cursed, ptm, i know if only you say yes will be on the list too the moment it's released because that melody and humming is stuck in my head ><

AND TRADING SPY X FAMILY IS CRAZY ??? pls i didn't expect you to be here for so long but i'm glad you remember chiyuv .. what an era 0_0 my instagram is beusoir if you want to follow and discord is znghao. i would love to talk more, just hmu on insta or disc ^^

[loalesbian]

🥀🍓 (from the ask game)

🥀: when did u discover the law?

early 2022 with solar subs manifestation guide! and i then started following the affirmations tag on here and i got to loablr, like, og loablr 😭 i've been here since i first created this blog, and just now, a year later, fully Getting It lol! better late than never tho + i'm talking 3d time bc time doesn't exist + L + ratio. OK NO but yk i had to

🍓: did u ever try to tell ur friends or family about the law?

nope! and don't think i ever will! not really bc i'm """gatekeeping""" (LOL) but like. for friends they'd forget or laugh, i tried to tell it once to my irl friend but she probably forgot now, and with family... i was raised atheist, non religious, i was raised devoid of religious faith, and while i am grateful because it has made my spiritual journey (and my intro to occultism/witchcraft) so much easier,,, at the same time, it made me skeptical and wary, and it made me have a hard time having faith in myself. but i feel like i am healing from that now :')

[chooey]

hey, i saw your post and i just wanted to reach out and idk... give you a virtual hug or hold your hand or something. thinking, praying and hoping for good things for you and the ones you love. you dont have to respond, i just wanted to reach out to you and offer something other than silence

thank u☹️🥺💖 it's looking real bleak here ngl- our country is infamous for putting the absolute worst. corrupt, money-hungry shitty "people" in power............... thank you for thinking of me 😭🌷

[murfeelee]

IWTV 2022 INSP - EP7: The Thing Lay Still Pt2b

Lestat: "I'm going to miss this place. There's not an inch of this city that wasn't built from the fierce wilderness that surrounds it. Hurricanes, floods, fevers. The damp climate on every painted sign, every stone facade. High windows, through which enameled bits of civilization glitter. Silhouettes emerging, wandering out to catch a silent flash of lightning. The silky warmth of summer rain. Desperately alive...and desperately fragile."

-- Interview with the Vampire (AMC 2022, S01E07)

MY THOUGHTS & CC CREDITS

MY THOUGHTS (me flipping the eff out over this scene I’m calm I promise)

BEST SCENE IN THE WHOLE SEASON, FIGHT ME.

LESTAT looking at Louis like he was READY TO CRY, I CANNOT.

The EFFING GENIUSES at AMC went and spun something Lestat actually said in the books about New Orleans as the Savage Garden (see my post about that), and applied it DIRECTLY to Louis--because THE SAINT IS NOT A CITY!

Antoinette tried to get Lestat to leave New Orleans, LOUISiana with her, but the dumb wench wasn’t listening!

When Lestat said “ “I'm going to miss this place,” he wasn’t talking about missing stupid New Orleans--he was talking about how much he was going to miss LOUIS, because he KNEW Louis & Claudia were plotting his demise the whole time, and he wasn’t going to fight if LOUIS wanted him dead.

HOME is not a place, but a person--WHAT did Mr. Pyromaniac du Lac say about Lestat?

Louis and Lestat are HOME to each other.

This “place“ ain’t New Orleans, and the “city” 👏 ain’t  👏 a  👏 saint. 👏

And that’s on top of them both being struggling Catholics, with all the religious significance of St. Louis the city where Lestat wanted to live; St. Louis Cathedral where Louis ran when he wanted to die; and Lestat constantly calling Louis his "saint.”

(It’s crazy how in BOTH of those scenes Louis missed the point entirely AGAIN and insulted HIMSELF--calling St. Louis “dull as dishwater,” and saying he was “trash” when Lestat said he was a “challenge.” Louis, my love, GET HELP.)

Even Louis’ sister Grace calling his new green eyes “church windows,” like in St. Louis’ Cathedral, because NO ONE can help worshiping this man I swear!

Lestat spent his childhood wanting to be a PRIEST. He wanted to run away from home to worship the SAINTS, before his father beat it out of him and forced Lestat to sit at home and play chess and take care of his depressed/bedridden mother Gabrielle (*cough* Lestat & Claudia & Louis *cough* ANNE RICE YOU WILL BE MISSED, WOMAN!).

Lestat lost his faith in God, and after being made a vampire he thought he was damned for eternity, and was suicidal MULTIPLE TIMES. Louis called him THE DEVIL. And Lestat called Louis THE SAINT. Lestat finally found someone who had what it took to best him--because saints kill devils--and Lestat turned Louis in ST. LOUIS CATHEDRAL--someone hand me some FRIGGIN TISSUES! 😭🤧

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I posted 19,391 times in 2022

That's 7,013 more posts than 2021!

5,934 posts created (31%)

13,457 posts reblogged (69%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 17,204 of my posts in 2022

Only 11% of my posts had no tags

#0 - 1,053 posts

#ask - 5,431 posts

#lt tour - 2,094 posts

#love on tour - 848 posts

#you are home - 228 posts

#coachella - 202 posts

#fitf promo - 199 posts

#lol - 184 posts

#faith in the future - 169 posts

#harry’s house - 149 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#is that he’s going to cause an absolute hysteria and i’m not sure if he’s going to be able to ignore that afterwards and go back to his pas

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

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#4

Harry saying his house right now is just piles of things he's trying to sort through and clear the space. So the woman has the heart to ask him why and if he's a messy person and he just goes ☺️ No I don't think I am ☺️

I wonder who is messy and made Harry's life a living hell before going on tour for the most part of the year

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950 notes - Posted April 1, 2022

#3

"I've been really open about my sexuality to my friends" said no straight person ever.

1,039 notes - Posted April 26, 2022

#2

Pleaaaaseee Harry’s face at the end 😭😭

LOL what I love about Liam is that he knows exactly how to get under Louis' skin, and that's using Harry to tease him. It works every single time ahahah I wonder if this still happens between them so many years later!

If I wasn't a larrie already I feel like these kinds of videos would be the ones that would make me really consider the entire thing, the way Louis reacts when Liam uses Harry to tease him is so obviously about jealousy, and there are SO MANY videos just like this one. You literally can't brush off his reaction as something else. But I suppose some people are just blind and refuse to see what is literally right in front of their eyes.

1,401 notes - Posted May 13, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I originally didn’t pay that much attention to Satellite because int didn’t seem as lyrically complex as other songs, but after listening to it a few times, I keep thinking about the lines in Habit, “Took some time cause I ran out of energy/playing someone I heard I’m supposed to be” and “You gave me the time and the space/I was out of control and I'm sorry, I let you down.” I hear Satellite talking about someone who seems to have taken some space to figure themself out until they’re ready to talk things through, and Harry reassuring them that he’s always right there waiting for them to pull him back, that he’s never far and will be there to catch them. They shouldn’t worry, he’s stuck in their orbit (the habit that he can’t break?) and he’s not going anywhere. *cries in an uncool way*

oh my fUCKING GOD

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I am so tired for Louis. Look at all the articles because he made a flippant comment about Up All Night (which really is my least favourite 1D album, I like a couple of songs from it but I think the other albums were better overall) and also, Louis - and the other boys too, they have also said things that pointed at this - clearly didn’t completely love the direction of early 1D, hence why he fought for the boys to have more of a say, for them to write more and have more to do with the music side of things. Which they did. All these articles about that comment, yet none of them wrote about a world-record livestream with proceeds donated to charities and his crew, the Away From Home Festival from last year, the fact that the Away From Home Festival 2022 sold out in a few days, nothing really about Walls reaching #1 on iTunes a second time (which I think is actually pretty impressive), a successful solo world tour. And people outside of Louis’ fans think this is normal? It’s not. Niall had more articles about his livestream and he sold less tickets than Louis. I don’t want to compare the boys but doing so just tells you how rotten things are for Louis. I’m just sick of this entire thing and people are using those new articles to drag Louis again - and the comment happened over a week ago! The timing just seems off, but then they always do with negative press about Louis and actions against Louis. It gets disheartening. I also admire him so much for being able to keep moving forward and keep trying, because he knows what has been done to him and he still keeps going when it would be easy to give up and just completely lose faith. How do you deal with the anger towards and the disappointment in the industry which has not been kind to Louis in many ways, if it’s something you feel you can answer?

Yeah, I saw the negative articles and negative comments on ssome of them. Thankfully, despite those articles, it doesn’t seem to have gotten too much attention - not anything like what happened with Liam a couple of months ago. I also think while the general public is hating on him, fans overall agree with him and understand why he would say that. Billboard tried to post about it and fans just bombarded the quote RTs and replies saying he spilled. 😭

I’m not sure if it was a targeted effort or just the media acting like the media, but this yet again makes it very clear that Simon Jones does NOTHING for Louis to help him in the UK press and the rest of his team does nothing to help him elsewhere in the world. He has nobody trying to get him good press and nobody trying to lessen the impact of negative press. Like you mentioned with the livestream and the upcoming AFH Festival, there isn’t even a bare minimum of normal press coverage of those things, but any flippant comment that can be twisted to make Louis look bad, they’re on it. It’s ridiculous and not anything you see with any other artist at Louis’ level.

To criticize Louis slightly for a minute though (and his team again too) - I do think that he needs to go through a fresh round of media training. I don’t want him to be a robot in interviews, but I think it’s clear that after so much time away from having to do them (first with 1D ending, then with the long break from him releasing music after Miss You, then with the pandemic), he seems to struggle with them a bit. He seems very nervous and uncomfortable in many of them, and I actually think that contributes to him repeating the same phrases over and over (”do you know what I mean?” and “to be fair” are said like 10x per interview if not more). He swears even when it’s not appropriate - for example, on U.S. radio and TV shows where it’s not allowed. I have no issue with swearing, I do it all the time, but obviously there is a time and place. And comments like the UAN one - while yes, the media will absolutely always find something to criticize, I do think there are certain things that Louis says sometimes where it’s pretty obvious that it will be used to make him look bad and I think some fresh media training would help prevent him from saying those things or help him to say them in a better way where it’s less likely that it would be twisted.

A strong team that wanted the best for him would help Louis with these things so he would feel more comfortable in interviews AND better portray himself to the general public so he could gain a larger fanbase. Louis is so intelligent and kind and big-hearted and his interviews (and the subsequent press coverage, when it actually happens) rarely reflect that. It’s so frustrating.

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Izuku Midoriya from My Hero Academia.

Original Drawing Date: May 25 2022.

We all know him as Deku and we all love him so much. ❤️ So noble, so brave, so amazing! He is my favourite character from My Hero Academia.

Having a rough start of everybody telling him that he cannot accomplish his dream, Deku never gave up on that, his mom told him he couldn't, his classmates and teachers told him he couldn't, and even All-Might his most idolizes hero told him he couldn't, but nothing of that stopped Deku from being a hero, risking his own life to save Bakugo even though he didn't have a quirk. It almost made me cry when All-Might finally told him he could be a hero. 😭

Midoriya is a total empath and a selfless person, when he was willing to give in the tournament on the UA Sports festival just to help Todoroki fight his inner demons and embrace his full power, that really made my heart melt, Izuku is willingly going to literally destroy his own body in order to help someone else, and that is something that I admire of him.

When he gave his all to save Kota Izumi and restores faith in him about the heroes; I just love to see the impact and influence his actions has on others!

He is really smart and strong also, and knows when to ask help or when the problem is not for him to solve, like when he said that it has to be Eijiro the one who had to save Bakugo, that was amazing leadership there!

Deku is a true hero, he will always give his all to help others and improve himself.