#2018 is the year we have it all
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when are we gonna get a third mamma mia instalment!! another mamma mia summer could fix me and also maybe the world
#before there was barbie summer there was mamma mia summer and it was beautiful#i distinctly remember my mum and older sibling going to see it whilst i went to see narnia at the same time#and then they decided i would like it and it was age appropriate (i was just told to look away during lay all your love on me LMAO)#so we went back to see it and it rewired my brain chemistry forever#i have several memories of listening to the songs or talking about it with friends that year#and going on holiday and playing the soundtrack cd non stop in the car#and then we got mamma mia summer take 2 and it was just as good i saw it twice at the cinema and weeped both times#i literally subscribed to apple music so i could have the soundtracks easily accessible#(my 2018 replay playlist is the entire soundtrack album followed by a selection of other songs)#and i think we need that energy again!!!#talking
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do you ever just get sentimental about like old ships and writing partners and you're like woah, if you ship with me this might be you.
#im thinking about the caejose i wrote with kuro like over the past five years I LOVE THAT SHIP SM#some of these people i havent spoken to in like five years#but there was someone i wrote juhaku and akira and akechi with like 2018 that im like GOD i miss them#and my tumblr wife who i wrote meliodas and elizabeth with like a few years ago#LIKE if we get into the ship#this could in five years be you#its wild how like you do not forget these people even if they leave tumblr and roleplay all together#ooc.#if they're still out there somewhere i hope they're having a good day.
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genuinely why is there so much misinformation about the guardians of childhood book series?
#Lemme be a toxic fan for a moment bc im so tired and stressed and i need to yell my silly fandom frustrations out to the void#The people saying Jack is fourteen in them. No.#He can manipulate his age from 11 to 18 and is dating a 25 yr old#people still insist that the books are connected to the movie despite there being no possibility for that since 2018#And like they totally guess what happens in the books#I saw someone try to say that dreamworks were being 'weird' and aged Jack up to ship him with tooth but in the books he was a child#three things: He's not fourteen (see above for age. He's essentially an adult and is treated as such) and is dating an adult#And he didn't make an official appearance in the books until 2018. Six years AFTER the movies release#and thirdly dreamworks aged him DOWN????#Joyce's og idea was an adult with a wife + kids ???#Like what are you talking about#never mind the people insisting that JACK IS 12???? NO??? Where did you get ur information bc wtf???#the movie started production (in 2008) before any of the books even existed (first book was published in 2011)#We have no idea how much of the books they had! The most they had were Joyce's ideas that were subject to change (and boy did they change)#the walking eggs in the movie didn't come from the book (even tho they're in there) they came from Joyce's doodling on notes!#The third book published alongside the movie tie-in books and then days later the finished film premiered at the Mill Valley Film Festival#by the time the second book rolled around (2012) the movie was probably finished and was just getting distributed by paramount and#was possibly even finished in 2011! Four years of production of the movie and then the first book got released#I cannot express enough how much the books are not the source material for the movie. If anything is it's the 2005 short film Joyce made#God it's so infuriating to see people discussing the books like they're the Bible without having read it. I get so irrationally upset#And why are we talking about the books like they have any relevance to the movie after 2018? that book completely severed all ties#Like I get it if people want to connect them but you'd have to ignore the entire last book to do that (which yeah most do)#but there's so many assumptions about the books and it makes it clear who got their into from fan rumors and who actually read them#if you are basing ur understanding of a book you've never read based on fanfic maybe you just shouldn’t say anything about the book#rotg#rise of the guardians#guardians of childhood#goc
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got asked to draw two of my old wc rp ocs :-) left is cicadahop, right is scallopstar
#my art#wc oc#squints. its been a dogs age since ive posted anything wc oc related#oc#BUT YA!!!! these guys are old. i think i made cicadahop 2018-2019 but i could be wrong/i have no way of checking haha#and scallopstar was made 2020.? i think? both are vaaastly different#if i were to play them today i think id keep a lot of things the same for cicada. shes just a silly girl who wants to make friends and#and be kind. as for scallopstar. i think id change a lot#one reason: ive gotten a lot better (I HOPE) with storytelling now that ive been playing dnd for a well over a year#and since i also run two different campaigns. two: i have more experience writing a character with an arc that turns them into a villain#three: i was really going through it at the time so. erm. LMFAO plus i was like 16 so ANDKJFGNJDFHBGJH#but yeah!!! kinda crazy looking at my old art and seeing how much ive improved#also a weird feeling to draw them again but not a Bad weird feeling. been doing a lot of reminiscing#thank god we can copy/paste tags bc if i had to rewrite this all id be so sad HAHA#the crop was weird so i wanted to fix it before it was too late lol#since these 2 are ocs im not gonna indicate this was a request the same way i will with the other requests lol
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hit a milestone on the dead drawing website so i drew Kaneda to celebrate
#ghostly posts#my art#one layer andy#akira 1988#shotaro kaneda#his arm looks like its unfinished but i prommy the shading just isnt there on the animation cell i referenced its only under the glove#which i didnt even include here#ughh anyway i really like how this turned out otherwise#-> not recommended btw to pick up doodle or die at this point in time#its a bunch of trolls and then like 20 regularly active people#every year it runs the risk of shutting down completely#new years 2018- so the beginning of 2019 - the site broke and you couldnt access it at all for like six months#the devs never noticed it was down until we hounded them about it#for once thank god for discord#but really its gonna have its last day any time now
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your top 5 philip island races 🙏
okay all five of these are very close together. to be clear
2004: putting this first fundamentally comes down to whether you're a duel or dogfight girl, and I'm the former. like, I love a great dogfight, I love chaos, I know phillip island specifically is all about multi-rider scraps, but as a person I'm just really about the psychological tension and drama of a one-on-one fight. especially between two people who despise each other. this is the penultimate race of the season, valentino's matchpoint race and also his first fight with sete post-qatar. the whole race is excellent but the first lap and last lap... transcendental
2017: practically a comfort watch by this point. it's so... ferocious, unrestrained, it also has a great post-divorce battle between valentino and marc buried within the dogfight that instantly elevates it for the viciousness. another one with big championship implications, which adds some fun stakes to just how hard they're going at it. also, I fondly remember watching this live early in the morning and going 'oh god they're gonna crash oh god they're gonna crash WHAT IF VALENTINO RUINS MARC'S CHAMPIONSHIP WHAT THEN' which quite frankly was such a special time
2015: another thrilling one in the category of proper dogfight. honestly these three middle ones are quite tricky to rank because, well, they're all great fun. I don't like,, enjoy watching the actual fighting quite as much as I do with 2017, though obviously the fantastic last lap does elevate this one. and the first few laps are really fun!! that poor seagull. plus the whole sword of damocles feel, the narrative implications of the whole thing are again. very pleasing. I think I kinda needed jorge/valentino to actually Fight Each Other a bit more, but I suppose the whole point of that season is that they didn't
2001: it says something about the quality of phillip island races that I'm ranking this absolute banger fourth. this is valentino's first matchpoint race, first premier class title, and it's super pleasing in how you're frequently readjusting your expectations of how this race is going to go? excellent momentum shifts. it's got the most pleasing narrative conclusion too, with the dogfight becoming a duel between the title contenders right at the end. valentino doesn't need to overtake biaggi for the win to take the championship, but can he resist... (no.) I think the main reason this is no higher than fourth is that by this point the title is basically wrapped up, but there is also something fun in how badly valentino wanted to win the race anyways. always got to be so dramatic about everything
2003: I was about to say 2023, but then I had the 'wait what the fuck I can't leave out 2003' moment. the issue is that this is... well it's a different flavour of pleasure than these other races, right. but also it'd be fundamentally dishonest of me to leave this out, because I DO get one hell of a kick from watching it and have done so an unhealthy number of times. you've got the early vicious dogfight, then you've got that lull out front while the dogfight for the remaining podium places rages and then you've got the penalty announcement. you've got the dogfight for the final podium position to keep you entertained on the action front, you've got the slow burn pleasure of watching valentino pull out increasingly silly laps, and then you've got the ghost bike extra-dimensional warfare commentators to pull the whole thing together into a unique race watch experience
honorary mentions!! 2023 (this was such a blast to watch live, like the way the story of the race gradually changed and you had this brutal fight and this building tension because you just knew that Those Tyres Were Being Shredded and then it all comes together... last lap is so so good); 2022 (just pure pure chaos, you kinda felt like half the grid was involved in the dogfight for the lead at one point or another, just never knew what was going to happen next, plus the last lap is a lot of fun and with a very deserved winner); 2009 (dude I felt so bad not including one of the many casey wins but genuinely which of these races would I kick out. this one is his most 'exciting' win and obviously massive championship implications, but also it's very much the being edged of watching a motogp duel in that a fight constantly threatens but doesn't actually ever get going); 2008 (objectively one of the better phillip island races in casey's tenure but like. unfortunately he's just too good at these, and the most exciting thing going on here is valentino working his way up from 12th. sorry casey if you just went slower then you'd be featured more on this list); 2006 (first flag to flag race!! ever!! absolute chaos all the way through, constant chopping and changing of the championship picture. last lap duel between Old Enemies I'm fond of for sentimental reasons); 2013 (marc's race still makes me mad if I think about it for more than two seconds, but the whole experience is also inarguably chaotic enough and dumb enough to be a lot of fun to watch); 2011 (at least Making It Wet was one somewhat interesting way to mix up casey's domination and spook him a little bit, but ultimately obviously he did the thing again - sentimental value because he sealed the title on his home race at his birthday)
#great work I mentioned more than half the phillip island races this century#I actually also quite enjoyed 2002 and 2010#2019!! I was super hungover and that was the year we got like five last lap duels so I have to say I was a little pissed we didn't get one#yeah we might have been a bit spoiled back then. but most of it was fun!! first few laps especially I think#//#brr brr#batsplat responds#race rec tag#I dozed off during 2018 after marc retired which I'm sure isn't indicative of its actual quality but. well y'know#goated circuit where valentino casey marc are the most frequent winners >>>>>#if we're just counting premier class doohan does match marc BUT marc still has time#he said he thinks aragon pi valencia are his best chances at sniping a win this year because of the whole left handed thing#and well. he'd know best. but has he checked his record at valencia ik it's weird as the End Of Season race but it really isn't all that#I just dislike valencia enough that I philosophically reject my guy being any good there#I reckon he'll win a silly flyaway f2f race at buriram or something
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your icon just jumpscared me it's so cursed
Oh gosh!! I'm sorry nonny! I didn't mean to
IMPOSE UPON YOUR SLUMBER
#listen i'm aware lmfao but i can never change it#i've been matching with lori since we made these blogs back in 2018 but she's been locked out of her account for the last three years#and yet our contract is eternal! my hands are tied! there's simply nothing i can do!#we'll all just have to grin and bare it :)#answered
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There’s something so poetic about a Phineas and Ferb poster for season 5 being released and all this con information and excitement which is quite literally all I ever wanted for years and yet now. here I am. going nuts over Steven Universe—a show that ended four years ago that COULD get more content pls pls pls but nothing is set in stone (hehe get it stone)—instead.
I love this for me actually.
#friendship ended with pnf now Steven universe is my best friend#JSNSNSNSN I KID#I still love pnf but it’s like.#the warm cooling embers of a once blazing fire#I assume I’ll get more excited when footage comes out but I might not and that’s ok#I still plan on drawing art and being part of the fandom but i really love the coziness of SU#we have no baggage just good memories :)#well other than the baggage of me knowing all the spoilers haha. but that’s part of the charm bc truly I’ve been a SUBfan for years#since like 2017-2018#anyway#I do not control the fixation I simply embrace it#cadence rambles#WE ARE LEARNING HOW TO LOVE THINGS IN A HEALTHY WAY#at the ripe old age of 24 haha
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I was just listening to a song I used to love while we were friends. I listened to it so often, we talked so often, it became the background music to our relationship.
I'm listening to it while I knit. I often forget that I started knitting because of you. I remembered tonight. It's strange, I never knitted anything for you. I've knitted for other loved ones, rarely for myself, but never for you. I remembered you showing me the amazing things you made, and I wished I could get to that level of skill. But at that time, you had to explain to me how to purl because I couldn't get it.
Everything reminds me of you in a terrible way. Everything I do is an echo of you. I started painting so that I could paint for you. I started knitting to bond with you. I hear your voice in the music I listen to. You're haunting the things that I love. Will I ever make a brush stroke or stitch without you on my mind?
#i should be able to block all music i listened to on Spotify from 2018-2020. i was not doing well and i dont need the reminders pls#im fine this was just kinda reflective#so much of what i do was inspired by her. i havent spoken to her in three years. we havent been friends for five#but my first painting was a gift to her. i started knitting because she knitted. i got so much music from her#we bonded heavily over music. and i used it to cope after she left. so unfortunately shes mixed into so much of it#she got me into dnd which got me into a different ttrpg im playing now (unknown armies)#shes a big reason i applied to the summer camp i worked at for six years#and a big reason i took the position i had the last two years. and the reason i told our camp legend (long story)#she was in my christmas in july gift i gave and received this year#i dont think ill ever be able to forget her. on good nights thats a good thing. its reassuring. she'll always be with me#but on bad nights. i feel like im never going to stop missing her#i was knitting tonight while listening to music. as the post suggests. and i was just overcome with her#this is the bed i was in when she called and left me. this is the bedroom we used to video call to practice sign language in#oh theres another one. i was going to be an asl interpreter. years ago in another life. i always practiced with her#we're both autistic and asl is easier than speaking a lot of the time#fuck. it reminds me of the ship of theseus. its 2:30am so i wont be able to explain well but#no actually i tried and i cannot explain. youll just have to understand. some days i wish i ciuld replace all the parts that were her#and sometimes im so afraid to lose the parts that were her because thatll feel like losing her#if i ever consciously decided to stop knitting (which i may have to do soon) it will feel like im replacing a board that was hers#how many of my boards are hers? are any of hers mine anymore? how many of hers can i lose before shes gone?#that last one was asked with fear and hope. and fear. depending on the day#god im tired. goodnight
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it's mort at 19 yrs old, about to graduate from school.
yeah this is very norwegian, so i wrote it in mostly norwegian. sorry
#low stakes 🦇#sketches#oh hmm i might as well queue this for 17th of may lmao#it's norway day i might as well :-)#17.mai#so anyway they would have been russ in 2018... a full year before they become a vampire#a month or two before meeting bat#so yep#mayyy have been inspired by personal experience#like hey listen we don't all participate in the crazy parties. some of us just want the clothes and to not feel completely outcasted#ja hens russebilde på kortet var ham med at tårn av hatter. as you do
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another question.. grah.. you don’t hav to answer if you ont wanna..
about your headspace, I remember a post being made about Bat-Cat showing up which got me thinking Does that just happen? Like, what is headspace like— whenever I research DID or OSDD I can’t really figure out just what headspace is like. Can someone hear headspace while fronting, see it? Or is it more like just somewhere you go when not fronting?
a headspace is basically just a little world inside our head for all of our alters to exist with each other! some systems have them and some do not! usually when we say "someone showed up in headspace" it just means theyve formed solidly as an alter enough to be visualized there. ours is a big haunted house! sometimes the fronter can hear headspace and sometimes they cannot (also this all varies from system to system, as some do not even have headspaces and some do not have any inner communication at all, this is all just about our experiences in particular)
like i said our headspace is a big haunted house and we all just kinda live there and exist with each other, alters who are fronting are still inside the headspace but they tend to kinda zone out so they focus more on the real world, but people with a lot of practice (like licorice) can better exist within both spaces at the same time and switch back and forth between what theyre focusing on (he usually uses this to give messages from the real world to alters who arent fronting)
sorry this is kinda rambly and confusing, if u need me to clarify on anything do not be afraid to ask but please note we are not a dissociative disorder professional so we're just speaking from our own experiences :]
-shadow milk cookie♣️
#hehe sorry if this is confusing im not too good at explaining !#i should try to draw locations in our headspace sometime#its a very pretty place#weve had multiple different headspaces over the years they tend to change when we make a large transition in our life#i believe the haunted house change occurred from us more properly beginning a healing journey#our very first headspace is from when we were maybe 9 or 10! we remember it very well it was a large hallway lined with doors for all#our different alter rooms#surprisingly weve always been aware of our alters we have documented evidence of them dating back to around 2017 or 2018 i believe! which#was when we were a 7th grader! but thats just when we started writing diaries weve always known about them#one of our oldest known alters was back when we were in elementary school (around 4th or 5th grade) and is a winged cat introject of a#lisa frank illistration (im not sure how to spell that word) and she was our host for several years!#the mind is a facinating thing isnt it
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😐🥲
#i...#i went back and read some of the comments on 'One More Tomorrow'#ya know the long multi chapter pokkopiku fic i wrote back in 2018/2019#and there's surprisingly a good amount of readers who... want me to continue it.. 🥲🫨🤕#i really want to continue it!!!!!#but its been sooooo long!!!! 😭#would there be enough readership for it now??#idk like I'm conflicted 😭😭😭#i mean... i guess if enough people really reallly reallyyy want me to finish it...#like if enough peeps rally behind me continuing it... 😭😭#then... i suppose i oughtta 🫨#I've finished multi chapter fics before... so i know i have it in me!!!#took me like 3 years to finish my valeveira fic lmao but the readers were supportive and patient 🥲#i just need time!! im SORRY!!!!#believe me i wanna give porco closure and give pieck all the orgasms lmaoooo 😭😭😭#well porco gives her the sex#ya know what i mean :/#should i make a poll? take a vote???#are we doing this old school like signing a petition??#idk sometimes i go back and forth with it lol#is OMT even any good??😭😭#idk i gotta lotta pkpk feels with snk ending soon#and my love for the ship and the characters and the fic has never wavered!!!!#its late lol too many thoughts abt this 🤕
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I have a great idea for a mx revival (that nobody is gonna care abt even if we had enough ppl to interact and create content on this hellsite):
PRETEND COMEBACKS.
Like we pick a certain number of albums and every month we pretend like its that album's comeback. we follow the same schedules the cb had and consume the content accordingly as well as create more content out of it!
it sounds simple and dumb but if everyone played along (and with a little bit of delulu sprinkled all over it) like we were seeing the concept pics, the mv, and the stages for the first time, it would be so much fun especially if we pick older albums that maybe some of us didn't experience first hand and maybe never got around to watching all the stages and everything.
It's not going to work becasue even the last couple of comebacks weren't as hyped as comebacks used to be, but well. it was a nice thought.
#i was just thinking about how nice it would be to experience Fatal Love aka my favorite cb era all over again and came up with this idea#but we have like... 3 content creators left. maybe 4 occasionally#and a fifth of the number of consumers on this site compared to a few years ago#and also the newer generation of kpop stans (in my experience on tumblr at least) don't really react and interact with content like we did#especially back in 2015-2018 (the peak of kpop imo)#anyway#niki screaming into the void
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It always has to be you you you you you. Nobody suffers more than you, nobody can suffer other than you, you're the entire fucking center of the universe!! Nobody can talk about anything anymore without these people going "wah wah but gaza" shut the fuck up!!!!!!
I've actually seen people mention goddamn gaza under a grieving mother's post about the loss of her child!! Y'all are fucking deranged!!! Have you no shame??
Also literally nobody has been silent. These useless excuses for human beings have been cheering on terrorists and spreading blood libels for these whole 6 months, making the entire Jewish community feel unsafe and unwanted in spaces they used to be a part of.
Also, funny you're begging Europeans, the biggest colonizers of them all, to acknowledge you. But you don't like colonizers, do you?
And finally, if you really can't deal with the fact there are other problems and injustices in the world and that people aren't dedicating every inch of their mind to you, you might have a bit of a problem. Nobody owes you anything. Let people speak about what they care about and stop policing literally everything.
#their blog is so funny though#wah wah I am so sad I hate my life why am I such a piece of shit#idk bro maybe work on yourself instead of being a whiny ass bitch who gives the vibes of a rabid 6 year old#they're such a pick me too it's insane#''I've been around only girls for too longh ughhhgh'' bruh I thought we left this in like 2018#''pro palis'' (aka antisemites) being insufferable human beings part 837473882093847#I have so many thoughts about this post..... especially when they try to frame it as islamophobia like-#bestie what do you think afghan and iranian women are...? (well not all of them of course but still)#what religion do 18% of israelis follow? can you answer that for me?#I have them blocked so they can't lol but still. bruh
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annnnnd 18 with arannie?? Feel free to ignore any and all of these prompts tho; have a good day in the meanwhile lynnie 💕💕💕
Ara & Annie.
#3 THINGS YOU SAID WHEN THE SUN WAS SHINING. FROM THINGS YOU SAID ⬩ Not accepting anymore.
"I never told you this. But, the bracelet I gave you. I bought it years ago, even before meeting you. I feel a little silly about this...but.. " There is a smile on her lips, not embarrassed nor ashamed, surprisingly at peace with a piece of her past she has never shared yet was about to. The sun was bright over their heads as they were lying down in the grass, in the summer. "My mother. When she wasn't being fully herself, when she was losing a little bit of her mind, she wasn't so kind to me. Saying that..." She pauses, her voice, slow and tranquil and deep. "I was just like her. Saying nobody would want to love me, that nobody would want to be my friend, that Us, Jung women were like the plague. Unlikeable. I wanted to prove her wrong, I wanted to prove her wrong so badly that I bought two bracelets - these friendship bracelets girls my age were always wearing. These were the chepeast I could afford, with the little money I stole. I told her I bought them for me and my best friend, I told her, all proud and arrogant... See, I have a friend, she is real, her name is Mihee and she loves me very much. She believed me, I think. As later on she kept on asking if I was away off with Mihee, if I was going over to Mihee's, if Mihee wanted to come over to play. I kept that lie running for as long as I could - overselling it, it was clumsy. Truth was, one bracelet was at my arm and the second, simply... hidden in a box under my bed. My mother was never doing any cleaning, I knew she wouldn't find out." A pained snicker escaped from her mouth. "It's ridiculously sad. Thinking back... I'm sad for Young Ara. And I wish I could send her a letter, something that would travel time, just to tell her that," Her throat is knotting. "Tell her that it gets better. That one day she will meet a friend. A real one." Her head slowly fell to the side, her eyes remaining on Annie's face. There was tenderness in Ara's features and perhaps even nostalgia already, of knowing the end of year was here. She extends her arm, the hand wearing the bracelet, reaching out for Annie's fingers, lacing together. "They're a little old and dusty and ugly now that I look at them again, I'm sorry-." She speaks, laughing she watches Annie's wirst in the grass, wearing the matching one, her thumb brushing over it. Ugly and old they were, but they had a meaning. "I don't really want you to go." Ara admitted in a whisper. Words that for her weren't so easy to speak. It has taken years for the tigress to open up the way she did, with Annie. There was something almost pure, in these rays of light caressing Annie's features, of the way the breeze was making the fabric of their clothes dance gently, the colors of the seasons on their skins. Ara could not remember for how long she stared at her, that day, to anchor this moment as deep as she could, in her memory - fearing the future would take it all away from them.
"Will you come back?
To visit me?"
#𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒎𝒆. 𝒕𝒐𝒐. ── quinn & annie.#RUNS AROUND.#Ok first of all you can't say 'feel free to ignore' I WILL NEVER???#FERRE I AM FERAL ABOUT OUR MUSES AAAAH.#Legit all of them their connexions are so good good LIKE. I don't know we make arT. And the way I gotta switch-#-between 2023 Quinn with Myungdae - and 2018 Ara with Annie - I'm having a lot of fun exploring this range#ARANNIE THO.#I have such a soft spot for them my babiesssssss.#I set this scene a little bit after the Flamingos drabble I wrote - so college days - after Ara asked to Tai if it was okay to give the-#-bracelet to Annie. I imagine that she did give her and as she saw Annie kept on wearing it - weeks later when the time for Annie to leave-#-they spend their last days together and Ara is less timid and tells Annie she's her best friend and doesn't want her to leave. :(#Eeep now I think of our current2023 Arannie thread where they're like so marked with the hard and traumatic years-#-that followed their peace from college.#Oof I love them#둘 𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐆 / interactions.#둘 𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐆 / the vengeress.
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Oh fuck. Today marks 6 whole years since The Bullshit started. I mean. It'd Started well before then but that's when it officially started yknow. And what cosmic irony is it that a whole new bullshit that's basically just a worse version of the original bullshit is starting now too
#my autoimmune disorder fully kicked in on Feb 18. 2018 lmao#and like. I know it all started before then bcuz even that previous April I had what I realized later was a flare#and the December before that was when I had strep that spread to my ears and almost definitely my brain bcuz my doctor just didn't give#us the strep test results for a whole week#so shit was definitely going wrong before then but it didn't actually Do anything until that day yknow#we were in Seattle to see Hamilton live and I could barely even see the stage because the world was spinning too much and I was so nauseous#I spendt the entire next week in bed and barely ate anything. missed a ton of school. and it just never got better#and now here we are. 6 years later. and I've spent almost the whole week in bed and barely eaten. waiting on specialist appointments again.#it's like nothings fucking changed#last year I was almost over even remembering the day because I'd mostly stopped grieving the loss of the life I used to have#and now it's even worse than before.#idk man it's just. it's a lot yknow#armchair speaks#actually disabled#physically disabled
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