#14 yo me (yes I put off watching the movie for a couple years ok) checked ffnet and was Disappointed

[frightfulmouse]

My ass watched Inception back in whatever year that was and was like “hmm yes, saito x eames, I’m sure this is what all the boys and girlies are going to slash” and well. I was wrong!! But the point is, I’ve always been this way

[theroguequeenaniki]

Questions 2009 -> 2021

This is from my Facebook. It popped up on my memories page thing. I originally answered this in 2009 when I was 15, it’s now 2021 & and I am 27, so I’m gonna do it again. Leaving the original answers. Original answers will be italicized. Commentary on the original answers in parentheses & crossed out? Lol. (I’m not gonna tag anyone, but, like, I guess if you want to answer these random questions from Facebook 12 years ago, go ahead lol) 

Questions

Can you fill this out without lying? You've been tagged, so now you need to answer all the questions HONESTLY. At the end, choose people to tag. Don't forget to tag me so I can see your answers! To do this, copy this entire message, then go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, delete my answers, and type yours. Easy! Next, tag people that you think may enjoy this (in the right hand corner of the app). Click publish (at the bottom). Have fun! :) 1.What was the last thing you put in your mouth? My cup with my Big Red in it The straw to my Kate Spade tumbler to drink my HEB Cola Lol.

2.Where was your profile picture taken? I got it off the internet. it's a random anime girl. My bedroom. 3.Can you play Guitar Hero? Never played it. Probably wouldn't be good at it. Not to good at video games. But I am good at Mario Cart, both 64 and the Wii. plus I'm good at some Sonic games. Still never played it. Idk if I’m any good at Mario Cart or the Sonic games anymore, I haven’t played either in years lol

4.Name someone who made you laugh today? Doctor Who TikTok. My cats.

5.How late did you stay up last night and why? Umm, probably about 10:00 cause it took me forevor to get into bed. Uh..Past 4am. Lol. B/c my sleep schedule is fucked. I was in bed by 3am though, but I was playing games & watching TikToks on my phone. Lol.

6.If you could move somewhere else, would you? Yes. I'd move to either New York or Sweden. I don’t know. Part of me says yes. But part of me says no..b/c even though Texas has it’s faults (a LOT of them), I cannot imagine living anywhere else long-term..

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks? HAHA. Yeah right. I've never even been kissed! Still nope. I have been kissed though. He just didn’t kiss me under the fireworks the one NYE we spent together...

8. Which of your friends lives closest to you? Um, I think R, but D might also. D is accross Stasney from me and R is a couple blocks down (I don’t talk to these people much anymore & I’m not going to share their names on Tumblr) Uh. I think Maybe Raven? B/c they’re the only one who lives in the same city still. But, Sarah might technically be closer distance wise? Hold on. Ok, yeah, Sarah’s closer, even though she doesn’t live in this city anymore.

9. Do you believe exes can be friends? It all depends on the situation.(I totally stold M's answer but it's true) (I don’t talk to this person anymore & I’m not gonna share their name on Tumblr) I mean, yeah. Two of my best friends are each others exes and they’re still friends. I haven’t stayed friend with my ex, but, uh, he ghosted me so? Lol.

10. How do you feel about Dr. Pepper? I love it. I still love it. Lol.

11. When was the last time you cried really hard? I can't remember. I don't think it was that long ago, I had a light cry on Saturday, but I don't remember the last time I cried really hard. When we got back from our trip in July. Had a full on breakdown that night. Overheated all weekend. Overwhelmed. Anxiety. It was not a very good vacation..I cry a lot though.

12. Who took your profile picture? I got it off of google. I did. 

13. Who was the last person you took a picture of? Umm, either myself, or one of my family members. Aside from myself. I think my dad, on his phone, b/c there was a cicada on his shoulder and he wanted to ask the family group chat if he could keep it. Lol. I take a LOT of pictures of cats though. Lol.

14. Was yesterday better than today? Hail yes! To much drama today! And I couldn't avoid it cause I was in the middle of it! (Oof, what drama was 15 yo Linda dealing with that she couldn’t avoid? Lol. I mean, I guess, Sophomore year was a bit full of drama lol) Anyway, I mean, they were pretty much the same. One wasn’t better than the other. One wasn’t worse than the other.

15. Can you live a day without TV? yeah. Now Music there is something I can't live without! Yep, Do it almost everyday. Sentiments about music remain the same. Lol.

16. Are you upset about anything? Yes. I'm annoyed about something and it's making me upset. (I assume this has something to do with the the drama mentioned earlier lol) Always. Anxiety & depression are a bitch. My rooms a mess & I can’t get myself to clean it. My shelves are still a mess.

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? yeah. though i havent really had one yet. I mean, yeah. Even though I haven’t had one last, aside from friendships, but they’re worth it. 

18. Are you a bad influence? I hope not. If so, let me know.(again I took M's answer but it's true) Probably. Idk. Lol.

19. Night out or night in? Depends on what's going on and how I feel about it. Night in usually. I do like going out sometimes, but, like, to dinner. Maybe a movie or a show. But, you know, we’ve been in a panini press, the only thing I’ve been comfortable doing is going to dinner (fully vaxxed & masked). But I also prefer staying home anyway. (Like I usually just go to dinner with my family lol)

20. What items could you not go without during the day? my computer. my book. my journal and a pen. My phone. My journal (b/c I write in it every night, as a diary, 14yo Linda wrote stories). Uh. I didn’t take food or drinks into account in the og, so I won’t in those. But, yeah. My phone & journal. I can go a day without my laptop if I need to. (Went the whole trip in July without pulling it out, though maybe that’s not a good example since my anxiety on that trip was so high..) I want to say a book, but I’ve been in a massive reading slump so...I wish I read as much as 15yo Linda did..

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? I don't remember. I think it was myself.(if you want to know, ask me in person) I honestly don’t know. I don’t remember the last time I was in a hospital. 

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say? "Mrbobbybones:  wish ted would finally meet their mother already. geez. get to it. However, I see myself in that character more and more each episode." yeah. That's what it says. It's from Twitter. (Huh? and I can’t even go check b/c my inbox doesn’t go back to 2009 on Twitter?? (I haven’t had my account that long) Wait wait wait just remembered I used to get tweets to my phone as text messages lol)

Facebook messenger: “ Cool” From our group chat. Lol.

From actual text messages on my phone: “ heeey! Just put up the Tuesday PDS just for you  it’s a big one.” From Phillip Defranco’s text line Lol.

23. How do you feel about your life right now? I'm loving and hating it. but hey nobody gets out alive right? Uh..I mean. I’m alive. I have WiFi. Food. Family. I haven’t seen my friends in 2 years. (Minus Alex, b/c they were here in July to cat/house sit, but I saw them for like, one night..) There’s a lot that could be better. A lot that could be worse. 

24. Do you hate anyone? yes!!! Oof. I mean, kinda.

25. If we were to look in your Facebook Inbox, what would we find? some random conversations. most of my convos on her though have been in chat or through comments. Facebook Inbox is now Facebook Messenger. So you’ll find all my Facebook Messenger convos. Mostly our group chat. And side group chats for secret planning (birthdays & stuff). Plus other chats? Lol.

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass? I better! (excuse me miss 15yo Linda you absolutely could have passed a drug test you ALSO didn’t drink or smoke or take any drugs lol) Yeah. Absolutely. I don’t drink or smoke or take any drugs so, yeah? Lol.

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before? 

Yes. But I can't remember when... Yeah. Pretty sure. 

28. What song is stuck in your head? Gee by SNSD(Girls Generation) They're Korean. A few My Chemical Romance songs

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be? EDWARD CULLEN! Joke! lol. No I don't know. If it was Edward, I'd call the cops. whoever it is though better have an explaination or they are gonna get hit in the head with my Book of Shadows. (Maybe I wouldn’t mind Edward at my window though? Lol.) Uh. My friends? Lol. Idk if I want anyone knocking on my window at 2am.

30.Wanna have grandkids before you’re 50? I don't know....... Uh. No? Idk. Most likely not gonna happen. 

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow? I can't think of anything right now... Eat. Should probably clean my room.

32. Do you think too much or too little? Way to much! lol. Way way way too much

33. Do you smile a lot? i try to. I think I do. I get told that alot in Theater...

I think so

[deans-baby-momma]

Past Haunts Part 14

A/N: I have no idea if the movie 'All Saint's Day' is an actual movie or made up by the lovely writers at Supernatural. I made up the scene and so I don't even know if that's how the Hatchet Man would appear. 

Dean and Sam leave the McGregor residence and climb into the Impala.

"Man, I feel sorry for Dirk," Sam says sadly. "Losing his mom like that, after taking care of her. He was just a kid. No wonder he took out his frustrations at school."

"Yea, well now we can put him to rest," Dean says. "Get back to the bus and find that Bible."

They pull up to the school to find that the haunted bus is missing. Sam goes inside the school to find the bus' whereabouts while Dean stays in the car.

*FLASHBACK (DEAN'S POV)*

"Hey. Rebecca, right?"

Finally, after a few days of trying to figure out a way to talk to her, the opportunity hits me. Quite literal. After watching Sammy take down the class bully,  Rebecca had turned to walk away and ran right into me.

I look down into the prettiest blue eyes I've ever seen. It was like an ocean, a myriad of colors; blue, green and just a hint of brown. Not that I would ever know what an ocean looked like,  but I had seen pictures and paintings.

"Ye-yea," she stutters as she looks down to the ground.

"Hey.  No need to be shy honey," I tell her, silently praying that she will look back up at me. I just want to stare into those gorgeous eyes.

My prayers are answered as she looks back up and at me. "I'm not your honey, Dean," she spats.

I smile. I like her, she's spirited and not afraid to speak her mind.

"Listen, Becks. Is it alright if I call you that," I quickly ask when I hear the nickname fly out of my mouth. She grins and nods her assent as she tucks a hair behind her ear. "We got off on the wrong foot. Let me make it up to you. We can go get a bite to eat." She looks like she is going to turn me down so I try to sweeten the pot. I just really want to spend time with her, get to know her. "I'll even bring my little brother so it won't look like a date if that's what you're afraid of."

"Oh, uh...okay," she sputters which causes me to like her even more.

I lift my head and look over toward the crowd that is now dispersing. "Yo, Sammy. Let's go!"

The three of us walk off the campus. She has meticulously put Sammy in between her and me. Smart girl! Don't make it look like we are leaving together. I put my arm around my little brother and begin walking toward the motel, anxious to get to spend time with Rebecca.

On our journey, I find out that she is 17 years old and is planning on going to college, preferably Harvard, to become a Psychologist. She is a smart girl. She lives alone with her parents on the other side of town, no siblings. I glance down at Sam and can't picture a life without him. Even though he is a total nerd and can get on my nerves, I can't imagine not having him there. It must be a lonely life for her.

We pass by a movie rental store and I see the poster for the newest 'All Saints Day' film. I stop and look at my companions. "Crazy idea. How about we rent a movie, order a pizza and head back to our room and watch it."

Sam nods excitedly but I can see that Becks is having doubts. "Sam'll be there the whole time and I'll be on my best behavior. Scout's honor."

"You've never been a scout Dean," Sam snickers. I give him a look and he shuts up immediately.

"Ok," Rebecca agrees. "One movie and then I have to get home."

What feels like butterflies erupt in my stomach and I swallow the feeling down. I rush inside the store and find the movie. I pay for the rental, picking up a couple of bags of popcorn too. 

The cashier, a middle-aged lady, bags up my purchases and smiles at me. "Thanks, sweetheart." I head back outside to join Sam and Rebecca.

I open the motel room door with one hand while I hold the pizza and movie bag in the other. I hold it open for Rebecca to enter. "Ladies first."

She blushes but walks on in. I am thankful I had the foresight this morning to at least throw the blanket back up the bed. The room isn't that messy, only a couple of plastic wraps from our dinner the day before lay on the table between the beds.

I sit the pizza on the table while Sam throws his bag onto his bed. Rebecca is just standing there, close to the door, looking out of her element.

"Well come on darling, get comfortable. We're going to watch David Yaeger slice and dice."

I watch as Rebecca slowly heads to the first bed, my bed, and sits on the end of it. I grab three paper plates and dish out a slice each. I hand Sammy his and then carry mine and hers over toward the bed. She takes the plate from me with a quiet "thank you". I sit on the floor beside her legs and dig in. 

After we each eat a couple of slices, I get up and slide the movie into the player then return to my spot on the floor.

During the movie, Rebecca joins me on the floor and when the Hatchet Man appears on the screen, appearing from behind the door, she jumps and hides her face in my shoulder. I lean closer to her and whisper,  "I'll protect you."

She lifts her head and looks up at me, her cheeks blushing. Our eyes meet and something in hers tell me that she trusts me. It makes my heart beat harder. 

*END FLASHBACK*

Sam climbs back into the car and shuts the door. "The bus was used to transport the wrestling team to a match in the next county. Won't be back until tonight."

Dean nods as he reaches to start the engine. "So let's find the route it will be returning on and take care of it," he suggests. "I'm hungry.  Let's get a bite to eat first. "

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[lillysleepilystudying]

92 Questions Tag

tagged by: @court-ships (now @bujo-ie )

LAST: 1. drink: probs water (tbh i dont like water much but you gotta sTaY hyDrATed) 2. phone call: i ran out of credit ages ago and haven’t bothered to recharge it so i haven’t called anybody recently, but mum has called me, so i guess that counts. (actually thinking about it i can’t remember the last time i called someone) 3. text message: to my best bud (cause i was wallowing in the depths of despair for like 3 weeks cause i felt like she was ignoring me so i finally got the courage to text her about it last night :) i think we’re going to be good) 4. song you listened to: K I’M LISTENING TO TEAM BY LORDE RIGHT NOW AND I LOVE IT FOREVER AND ALWAYS  5. time you cried: tbh like last weekend (see point number 3)

HAVE YOU: 6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed anybod 8. been cheated on: nup, thankfully 9. lost someone special: i have lost relatives but i never really knew them? i have lost quite a few pets tho :/ 10. been depressed: not ‘officialy’ but past couple weeks have been bad (once again, see point 3) 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: never been drunk, only ever had small sips of alcohol (i’m way to young)

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: ohh so hard i don’t really have a fav, but i guess all blues (with and emphasis on teal) and like nearly all pastel colours.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yeah, but not like super close 16. fallen out of love: nah 17. laughed until you cried: maybe, but not very much 18. found out someone was talking about you: i don’t know? like this one isn’t very clear 19. met someone who changed you: sort of, i became closer to best bud, who i guess has changed me a bit 20. found out who your friends are: yes, but like also no? one of my few good friends left (for england of all places, but she is coming back), another’s moving schools, and once again see point 3 for other friend 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: no lol i don’t even have facebook

GENERAL: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: see point 21 23. do you have any pets: YESS SO MANY a dog, two cats, like 8 horses (only one’s mine tho), 3 ducks (one i’ve had since i was like 4), around ten chickens... yeah i kind of live on a farm without all the big herds (also a lot lot smaller than a farm lol). fun fact: we used to have like 7 peacocks, they’re actually the coolest birds to have around. 24. do you want to change your name: no way, i actually quite like mine :) 25. what did you do for your last birthday: pool partay! tbh i went way overboard with the decorations, i spent hours making little paper flowers for everyone (they looked pretty cool, actually) 26. what time did you wake up: probs like 6;30, but stayed half asleep until 8:20 (shhh it’s a sunday i can do what ever i want 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleepinggg (sadly without my radio on bc mum wanted me to ‘try sleeping without music’ mum how i can i i need it ON 28. name something you can’t wait for: DOCTOR WHO CHRISTMAS SPECIAL #BILLISBACK GET PUMPED!! also PINOF 9 and halloween baking videos from dan and phil, also, any album coming out from any of my favourite artists for the next like 104585 years. ALSO I’M GOING TO MONGOLIA IN LIKE 2 WEEKS HOW DID I FORGET THAT 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like half an hour ago we were running about in the rain putting the horses back in their yards 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: world peace, there are too many people (and animals) that are a victim of unhappiness they will never deserve

31. what are you listening to right now: A WORLD ALONE AKA THAT LORDE SONG THAT I RELATE TO ON AN OTHERWORLDLY LEVEL 32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah, there’s one in my grade and he speaks fluent french (at least he did last time i checked which was like 2 years ago) 33. something that is getting on your nerves: tbh like all homework ever, plus this giant self-directed project we’re doing this year, it’s the most stressful thing ever. also, once again see point 3 34. most visited websites: umm i guess youtube, school’s home page, tumblr (although i’m mainly on mobile for that and that’s an app) reddit and ao3 (one my phone)

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. mole/s: nah not really 36. mark/s: nah, but i got beeg stretch marks on the sides of my hips bc i am gROWING FAST 37. childhood dream: i think a vet or zookepper. also i really wanted to publish a book that said ‘new york times bestseller’ on the front bc that’s what all my favs said on them (tbh i still dream of this) 38. hair color: blonde ayyy (but it’s getting darker underneath) 39. long or short hair: i guess medium - long (little below my shoulder blades) 40. do you have a crush on someone: not really i haven’t had one in literal years unless you count that time i sorta thought i had one one on my best friend even though im 98% sure i’m straight 41. what do you like about yourself: my creativity, like i’ve learnt not to say ‘oh i’m horrible at art/writing’ when i’m actually not that bad. also, i’m a total weirdo 42. piercings: confession: i don’t even have my ears pierced yet?? like, i do want them pierced, but i literally can’t be bothered atm lol 43. blood type: idk, although i did get a blood test like last monday, so i should know soon 44. nickname: i don’t really have any (there’s not much you can do with ‘lilly’) although i have one friend who calls me lilpil. 45. relationship status: single and probably staying that way for a while :) 46. zodiac: capricorn (but i don’t bother with zodiacs bc i am NOTHING like a capricorn) 47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite TV Show: OMG I HAVE SO MANY BUT I’M A FRIGGIN HUGE DOCTOR WHO AND SHERLOCK FAN COME SCREAM ABOUT THEM TO ME also if you ship johnlock that’s even better!! 49. tattoos: none 50. right or left hand: right handed 51. surgery: nope 52. hair dyed in different color: never done, probably never going to (i change my mind ALOT) 53. sport: tbh i hate sport but i do horse riding and with school i do sailing and hockey (bc a summer and winter sport is compulsory)  55. vacation: OK LIKE I SAID I’M GOING TO MONGOLIA AND I CAN’T GIVE AWAY TOO MUCH BUT I DID HAVE TO APPLY TO GET IN AND I’M RAZZED 56. pair of trainers: i’m not to particular, i just have shoes for sport (alTHOUGH, i do have an awesome pair of white sneakers with a bit of gold round the back)

MORE GENERAL:

57. eating: it’s father’s day and we had a GIANT breakfast and lunch so i don’t know if i’m even having dinner 58. drinking: i could KILL for a milo right now (it’s like, my version of tea or coffee) but parents have stopped buying it because ‘there’s too much sugar’ TIM I DON’T CARE I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT IT 59. i’m about to: idk i need to practice guitar, work on my bujo (bc i’m super behind), keep writing my fic, and i guess other general stuff 61. waiting for: nothing really, it’s sunday night so i’m sad bc it’s monday tomorrow 62. want: lots of things (who don’t amirite) but one is getting my bedroom walls gyprocked and painted (they’re wood panelling and i hate it) 63. get married: tbh whenever i meet the right person :) 64. career: FILM DIRECTOR YO i know nothing about film but i still really want to do it.

WHICH IS BETTER 65. hugs or kisses: OMG HUGS HUG ME PLEASE 66. lips or eyes: eyes, literally everybody’s eyes are beautiful, it’s great 67. shorter or taller: taller 68. older or younger: older i guess 70. nice arms or nice stomach: nice personality ;) 71. sensitive or loud: sensitive, like me tbh i’m so sensitive raise your voice at me and i will burst into tears  72. hook up or relationship: relationship always 73. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant, also like me

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: definitely no 75. drank hard liquor: nopeity no 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: don’t have ‘em 77. turned someone down: technically yes? there was this new kid at school and he was literally asking every girl out, i was a bit confused. 78. sex on the first date: definitely no  79. broken someone’s heart: sadly i think so (but we’re like best friends no so it’s all good) 80. had your heart broken: no 81. been arrested: no 82. cried when someone died: yes, aforementioned relative i barley knew (still sad tho)  83. fallen for a friend: sortofnotreally

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: yes, at least i try my very hardest 85. miracles: in a way, yes 

86. love at first sight: not really

87. santa claus: when i as like 3, yes 

88. kiss on the first date: maybe?

OTHER: 90. current best friend name: ezri, my smol bean (also person from infamous point 3) fun fact: we’re both pretty sure she’s named after her character from star trek, ezri dax (her parents are giant nerds just like ez and i) 91. eye color: blue/gey with a bit of green 92. favorite movie: ARGHHH I CAN’T PICK I HAVE SOOO MANY, LIKE EVERY ONE BASED OFF BOOKS I LIKE, i really can’t pick, but one that is quite special to me is ‘my house in umbria’, my grandma and i used to watch this together all the time

Ok whoa this took me LITERAL HOURS but now that i’m done i just want to tag anyone who wants to do it! :)

[lauraacan]

ALL OF THEM WHAT DO YOU THINK? Except 1, 12 and 42 because I already know those ;)

0:Height1m60. But my parents found funny to put 1m59 on my ID… VERY FUNNY x)(omg you’re taller than me

1:Virgin?I’m Leo.

2:Shoe sizeA boring 39 ;)

3:Do yousmoke?NOPE. NEVAA

4:Do you drink?Very rarely. Although I kinda could enjoy being drunk rn lmao

5:Do you take drugs?NOPE NOPE. Like if I needed any LOL

6:Age you get mistaken for25 yo.

7:Have tattoos?No

8:Want any tattoos?YES But I won’t have any because I’m way too perfectionist to get myself inkedby anyone. Imagine they shake???But if I could i’d like some orca on my arm, in maori style. Also a phoenix somewhere accross my Back/hips... I dunno I love so many tattoo concepts. Also some motivational words on my wrists. 

9:Got any piercings?Not a single one

10:Want any piercings?Not really

11:Best friend?ONE SINGLE FRIEND. MORGANE YOU KNOW IT S YOU.

12:Relationship statusIn couplealso I DON’T FUCKING HATE YOU OK ;A;

13:Biggest turn onsWOW That escaladed quickly. OKayyyy-> Don’t ever touch my neck for your own sanity. OR PLEASE DO->  Good perfume can do miracles.Seriously

14:Biggest turn offs-> PAIN -> Vulgarity I think??

15:Favorite movie

Mmhhh tough one. I recently watched “ledernier jour du reste de ta vie” and it really rang a lot of bells to me.

16:I’ll love you ifI LOVE YOU  TOO ;A;

17:Someone you missWell you obviously. But let’s not be too cheesy and add…. Ahem…. Old friends?Like those I had back in middle school days?

18:Most traumatic experience

My mother died, I was bullied veryseriously as a teen  but NO my biggesttrauma is almost losing a tooth two years ago??? LIKE BRAIN WHY ARE YOU LIKETHIS??? (I really have nightmare regularly about this accident O.o)

19:A fact about your personalityI’m a selfish person, sadly. I try to at least deal with it a little bit. AlsoI am VERY anxious. But you know all too well

20:What I hate most about myself

Ahahha very easy: my sex. Why am I not afreaking boy it would be so much easier on so many levels? ;)

21:What I love most about myselfIt may sound weird but: the world I built to sooth me (I should write / draw itlmao but somehow it just never feels right). Also I kinda like my body. Almost. Okay it’s a love / hate relationship but let’skeep it positive!

22:What I want to be when I get older

GOSH IF I KNEW… Alive?

23:My relationship with my sibling(s)

Very conflicted. And I wish one of mybro wouldn’t have missed his suicide, because he’s making our lives a living hellfor so long.. I wish we wouldn’t have to watch him turn in such a monster yearsafter yearsBut I kinda love how the brother I thought I was the most in conflict with actually is the one who is there for me when shit happens lol. He’s a shithead but he’s a good guy

24:My relationship with my parent(s)Conflicted too? But things go better over time. I managed to say “I love you”to my dad for the very fist time in YEARS for Christmas… I cried a lot.

25:My idea of a perfect dateCUDDLES. Just cuddles… And some good, healthy sex afterwards would be marvellous.Or simply cuddles more. No seriously some nice chattering on a bed, with a good movie, some food, tea…It sounds lame omgI also did the “watch at the stars lying on a beach” and it was amazing (thank you ex BF for being such a romantic soul ahhaha)

26:My biggest pet peevesI dunno… Not even sure what a “pet peeve” is… Something I really dislike? Welllet’s say intolerant people, physical violence. Also cetacean captivity.

27:A description of the girl/boy I likeGOSH I can’t. I’m crying because I just CANT. Guys. Fantasizing about someone who isn’t your boyfriend EVEN THO you love himis actually the WORST FEELING EVER.

28:A description of the person I dislike the mostLet’s go ahead: he lacks three fingers in one hand,is the utterly asshole and should be in jail for so many reasons. Oh also he’smy brother.

29:A reason I’ve lied to a friend

I don’t know… to not worry them? To not destroyeverything? Well I do try to avoid lying a lot, it’s been a fucking long timesince I last lied…. Can’t really remember.

30:What I hate the most about work/schoolSTRESS

31:What your last text message says“oups” I did it again

32:What words upset me the most“Seriously, what do you wanna do with your life, you can’t keep going like that »- like fuck you living is already hard enough and you ask me to make PLANS ???Also “you chose your path” – very funny to say that when my parents didn’treally give me a choice.

33:What words make me feel the best about myselfWhen people say they love me ;A;But let’s be honest I’m much more confortable with physical touches when it’s about making me feel better. Nothing’s better than a good hug.

34:What I find attractive in womenOh gosh almost everything ahahah. Almost. (I have an issue with female sex)No seriously I must have a thing for neck. 

35:What I find attractive in menNECK/ torso/ arms/deep voice

36:Where I would like to liveI think it’s not about where I want to live but who I want to be with ahhaha. Ican do with most places I think.

37:One of my insecuritiesmy fantasies.

38:My childhood career choiceI wanted to be a vet, then a mangaka. And then a translator. 

39:My favorite ice cream flavourVanilla maybe?

40:Who wish I could bea guy I guess. Handsome please.

41:Where I want to be right now

With someone

42:The last thing I ateSushis

43:Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediatelyHEJGFKDSSHLDGJJFGDKJGJH * end up crying *

44:A random fact about anythingReading my answers I find myself super scary… Looks like I need to really sort some things out lmao / I’ve been telling that for the past 10 years litterally /Also, I swear a LOT more in English than I do in French ahahah. 

[ghostly-harmless]

tag meme

I got tagged by @theghostielord so gather round for some personal details my dudes

1. Are you named after someone?

I’m sorta named after katharine hepburn, also just cause my mom liked the name

2. When was the last time you cried? A couple weeks ago cause I nearly failed a stats exam and I can’t cope with struggling l m a o

3. Do you like your handwriting? I have a love hate relationship with it. it’s distinctive, but also barely legible

4. What is your favorite lunch meat? turkey? idk my taste in food is boring

5. Do you have kids? fucc no

6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? i’m not even friends with me. I don’t understand her. what does she want

7. Do you use sarcasm? Like an artist uses their chosen medium

8. Do you still have your tonsils? i mean I never saw them come out so.......I hope yes......

9. Would you bungee jump? get a few stiff drinks in me and i’ll think about it

10. What is your favorite kind of cereal? trix, idc if they’re for kids bitch, i’m a child of god

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no??? fuck I look like. I just fling em off and let future me deal with em

12. Do you think you’re a strong person? well I don’t hate pain (as evidenced by my 10 piercings and 1 tat) and I don’t scare too easily but I also hate arguments and can’t stand up for myself so. 50/50

13. What is your favorite ice cream? sea salt caramel truffle 

14. What is the first thing you notice about people? definitely fashion sense and hairstyle. i’m weak for thick fluffy hair and a bangin wardrobe

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? eh i’m really annoyingly short and I wish I didn’t have such an overtly “feminine” body?? like i’m really small and curvy and I wish I was more lanky and androgynous

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? I am actually wearing a long purple skirt and black leather platform boots. I was walking outside Hogwarts. It was snowing and raining so there was no sun, which I was very happy about. A lot of preps stared at me. I put up my middle finger at them.

17. What are you listening to right now? fire meet gasoline by sia bc honestly it’s a #bop and idk how I never heard it on the radio or anything

18. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Black, what the hell else

19. Favorite smell? probably musk incense, rain, and sunscreen

20. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? some stadium employee who informed me that the panic at the disco show in my state was sold out. guess who’s literally gonna traverse state lines for a singing nerd in a sparkly tux? me, but you can call me Desperate Binch

21. Favorite sport to watch? gonna have to agree with lavi and say drag shows (tbh voguing should be considered a sport if it’s not already)

22. Hair color? black

23. Eye color? blue

24. Do you wear contacts? yes this bitch is blind!!!! 

25. Favorite food to eat? girl scout cookies, pizza, samira wiley, chinese, japanese 26. Scary movies or comedy? comedy when smoking, horror when drinking

(an aside: i was at about a 9/10 while watching It Follows for the first time and I about pissed my shit. did not sleep that night, will not make that mistake again)

27. Last movie you watched? Pulp fiction. i’d seen it before but we’d been playing monopoly so I missed like all of it

28. What color of shirt are you wearing? black tank

29. Summer or winter? winter. GA summer can fuck off with its sweaty buggy ass

30. Hugs or kisses? hugs, unless you’re one of like four people and then kisses are ok

31. What book are you currently reading? i’m finishing up Detective Pony (which is a homestuck fic, but??? also one of the most thought provoking, punishing, all around weirdest pieces of metafiction i’ve read in a long time but I HIGHLY recommend it)

32. Who do you miss right now? a couple of people, some old buddies

33. What is on your mouse pad? i have a trackpad like a civilized human? mouse pad? fuck is this? the 90s? yo brah i got five tamagotchis and they’re each named after a spice girl

34. What is the last TV program you watched? it’s always sunny in philadelphia

35. What is the best sound? nicki’s verse

36. Rolling Stones or The Beatles? both overrated. next

(also I just realized i’ve never seen mick jagger look anything but a thousand years old. his wikipedia says he’s 73. how long has he been 73?)

37. What is the furthest you have ever traveled? Peru

38. Do you have a special talent? I can sing, which you would very much not guess from my voice

39. Where were you born? jawja

So I’m just gonna tag folks now. @dude-im-not-a-spam-blog @balroxelle @99-problems-but-a-dick-aint-one @dreamofthefallen @j4ck-of-4ll-f4ndoms @oakagainsthumanity @cosmic-marigolds @viridis-cervidae