#10051

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Dynamic: Shoichi is Shoujo manga protagonist, and is oblivious to the fact that his two friends are both in love with him

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10051 based on this meme!!!

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Iconic Homoerotic Betrayal: Revival Match

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My Takes on KHR Pairings

No one asked for it, but I do so love me some character analysis and head-canons. So here are my personal justifications and thoughts on 8059, D18, 6927, and 10051

8059 This is canon, isn't it? I don't even need to explain how Gokudera is the pressure Yamamoto needs in his life to apply himself and Yamamoto is the grace Gokudera needs in his life to not be so hard on himself? Even their fighting styles support each other. They are dating in the manga as far as I'm concerned. If you didn't read the manga and think half the reason Gokudera was so loud about his hate for Yamamoto was basically Unresolved Sexual Tension and Gay Panic, then I can't help you. The canon speaks for itself, and it speaks loudly. Where most KHR pairings tend to be of the 'two sides of the same coin' verity, these two are opposites attract.

D18 Dino and Hibari have the same core values. They protect their territory, they inspire their subordinates, they are respected leaders, and they love a good fight. They both admire and respect individual potential and don't garner unrealistic expectations of others--they know there are exceptions and not everyone can rise to their level, but those who can had better get their act together.

Dino initially sees a wild and beautiful brat of a creature when he looks at Hibari but learns to see his kindness and fairness as he reflects on their similarities. Hibari sees a never-ending battle that in truth he hopes does go on forever, because he's never before had someone in his life who could break him down, bare and bloody, no tricks and no respect lost, day after day, and follow it up with the proper care after to ensure they can both continue in the morning. There's the rocky post-trauma start considering the last time Hibari thought he was walking into a fair fight, he was deceived, tortured, and kidnapped all thanks to mafia foolery (Fuck you, Mukuro~). But after a while in the woods, knowing this time he won't be left to rot with many of his bones broken, trust and respect are built and last a lifetime.

The man with the bronco on his arm hasn't broken in the wild creature, because he himself has been considered a force of nature and he knows it's best to let wild things run free. Hibari is allowed to be his weird, unintentionally funny, and aggressively possessive self, while Dino gets to bask in that feeling of being the only one at a house party that the cat will let pet it, seeing the softer side of Hibari that others might see but still never quite understand the meaning behind.

Respect and admiration turn to passion and reverence. Even if mafia politics only ever let it be sexual trysts, their mutual assertiveness makes it a high-adrenaline encounter that lets Dino really let loose and enjoy enforcing his dominance since his partner needs him to prove he's worthy every single time, even if only for pretense. Meanwhile, Hibari gets to be gentle and quietly seductive with Dino in ways no one would believe, relishing in the power he has over the allied Don even without lifting a finger. In the end, it's a power play for both of them that works because Hibari doesn't prioritize a win so much as he is enjoying each fight, and Dino, head of his territory's criminal organization by birthright, needs to feel like he earned it sometimes in a way only adversity can prove.

6927 Put each on either side of a window and they'd think they were looking in a mirror. Mukuro was a child abused by the mafia, his future stolen from him for its ambitions without any consideration for his own wants and desires, made close friends with others put in the same position as him, has a strong desire to protect those close to him even at the sacrifice of his own life and security, and tends to overcome adversity against the odds--prison even proving only an inconvenience as he continues to exist in the wider world mentally at least. Tsuna is a child currently facing abuse within the mafia, his future stolen from him because Vongola decided his fate without any consideration for his own wants and desires. He's made close friends with others now pulled into the mafia's schemes beside him, has a strong desire to protect those close to him even at the sacrifice of his own life and security, and tends to overcome adversity against the odds--even seasoned assassins failing to take him down. In the end, they both came to the same conclusion: the mafia is corrupt and should be burned to the ground. Mukuro has been planning the destruction of the mafia since childhood, and Tsuna told Primo he would not uphold those evils but tear it all down. Mukuro's abuse is exponentially more egregious than Tsuna's, but with that, his reactions and responses to that trauma are also more exaggerated. At the end of the day, though, you have Tsuna forced on a transformative journey, and Mukuro who, having been there and come through the other side, possesses the knowledge that there is no excuse good enough to excuse this and no punishment more fitting than annihilation.

Because of this, though, Mukuro has a kindness towards Tsuna. A curiosity. He recognizes the fact that the mafia as it exists will destroy Tsuna and try to reshape him into something else. He didn't know Tsuna before their fight--he expected someone like Xanxus, someone already made cruel and warped by ambition. He didn't know he was advancing Vongola's objectives by engaging with him, but in his defeat like saw like. Their mental bond is almost a subconscious reaction to guilt at being a pawn yet again in another mafia family's power play and wanting to warn against obeying the established authority presented to Tsuna. Mukuro refuses any show of vulnerability, but without thinking about it, has shown Tsuna that he cares about people and that he's suffering. Reborn does not want Tsuna to forget about Mukuro's crimes and to potentially stop seeing him as a threat just yet, but Tsuna has regret about the Vindice taking the Kokuyou crew back to prison--sees them rightfully as victims and wants better for them than more mafia 'justice' when it was the mafia that created them in the first place.

Tsuna, whether by their bond or his intuition, sees through Mukuro in a way no one else can. He can cut through his bullshit, recognize when he's lying or being obtuse to avoid vulnerability, and see the frown hidden behind the smile. Mukuro, on the other hand, keeps Tsuna from the evils of complacency. Cognitive dissonance makes it easier to stop fighting your morals and go along with what everyone else is telling you you have to do when you have no alternatives. His right hand is a mafia shill, his other friends trust him and the mentors who have gotten them this far which were supplied by the mafia. Mukuro alone can and will comment on the true moral failings of the mafia and has no reservations in doing so. If ever Tsuna needs to feel like he's doing the right thing, all he needs to do is look to Mukuro for confirmation.

Mukuro is also the only one Tsuna can let his guard down around fully as a mafia boss. Gokuders is a fixer--if Tsuna vents to him, Gokudera takes it upon himself to tackle the problem rather than simply listen. Yamamoto is an optimist--if Tsuna vents to him, Yamamoto tries to cheer him up and make him feel better. When Tsuna vents to Mukuro, it's shit talking time and every petty bone in the illusionist's body is happy to be in on the action. Gurl, go on~ He enjoys some catty behavior and acknowledging that a lot of people are the worst and everything sucks is a topic he is here for. Does it help anything? No. But Tsuna feels heard and seen and validated and that is important. They grow closer because it's only with Mukuro that Tsuna gets that validation and he trusts Mukuro's perspective because they understand where each other is coming from. And Mukuro is never so loyal as to hold back on telling him he's being a dumbass--something the others might refrain from doing out of respect for their Boss.

Neither of them has strong, familial bonds. Tsuna was neglected and Mukuro was.. given up to human experimentation. They both crave soft, cozy, warm love and affection. Cuddles on the couch, maintaining touch throughout sleep to feel assured the other is there and assure them of the same, gentle caresses and soft, sweet kisses. It's almost a platonic love where playing with each other's hands and fingers is a high level of intimacy. They could probably be fulfilled and happy and loved without sex in their relationship. Which is good, because Tsuna is trying so hard to conform to what he thinks a straight teenager should be, he hasn't even had time to figure out who he actually is, while Mukuro has spent his life so untrusting and full of hate, the question has never required an answer.

10051 If Amano had written Byakuran a backstory, this would be easier to defend. What is Byakuan's perfect world? What's wrong with the current world in his opinion? What is he? Where did he come from? These would be really helpful to know. But instead, we learn about him through Shouichi. We learn they went to the same university so Byakuran is likely similarly a mechanic/engineer--or my choice of physicist (theoretical) if going to a school for sciences. We know they collaborate well together since they devised Choice, and that Shouichi is a simp for his charisma. We know Shouichi trusted and believed in Byakuran enough to join his mafia family and take on ranks and titles under him. We know Byakuran believed in Shouichi enough to give him it all, and even after their time at college, they both wanted to be invested in each other's lives forever (the mafia is not something you walk away from). We know Byakuran legitimately thinks the world of Shouichi, his best friend, even if he would sacrifice him for his ambitions. We know Shouichi legitimately thinks the world of Byakuran, his best friend, even if he would betray him.

While Byakuran is effortlessly endearing and boisterous, Shouichi is quieter and enigmatic. They are the Extrovert who adopted the Introvert trope except Shouichi is no wallflower. Shouichi is courageous, cunning, and manipulative while Byakuran can be playful, caring, and genuine--as well as the reverse. Neither is, necessarily, a better person than the other at their core, and their actions are equally as grey when we don't know what it is that Byakuran wanted to give the world that everyone was trying so hard to stop. Would World Peace have been worth a handful of deaths? The ambiguity leaves a lot to question if you don't fall into the "any sacrifice is too high a cost" set of values.

Strong headcanon, but I believe Byakuran wanted a world that he could be a part of. He is obviously not human, even without the Mare ring he was able to see across alternative dimensions, and he seems to be completely detached from consequences. If you've seen an infinite number of Shouichi's, is there such a thing as the 'real' Shouichi? If you've seen kingdoms rise and fall based on a butterfly's wings, is there any permanence in institutions? If people love you in one world and are indifferent to you in another, which is the truth of their feelings? If all things are possible, then nothing is concretely true, real, or genuine. You are a player character surrounded by NPCs and worlds you can load up as you like where you can simply move on if you get tired of the scenario. Byakuran was already a god, but he was a god railroaded into living a life of limited possibility despite infinite options. I think he wanted one timeline, one truth, one world in which things were perfect and he knew he was with the Shouichi, and he was the Byakuran who got to live his life. This makes the most sense of why they had to stop Byakuran in that future specifically--because all other parallel worlds would cease to exist if the Byakuran of their future specifically won. And if the toll of his victory is an infinite number of casualties, then the stakes are so high that it makes sense why the burden of it crushes Shouichi and physically pains him at every step but also why he still cares deeply for his best friend despite it all. Because he can't offer an alternative solution; there is no cure for the level of insight Byakuran has gained and the level of detachment it has caused him over the decade. Even telling him that no matter how many Shouichi's exist, he is himself and unique and special to Byakuran is hollow because surely every version of himself would wish to think so too. He knows how happy Byakuran would be to live in a "real" world with "real" people and there is no way to give it to him--in fact, he knows he is what caused Byakuran to begin to lose his connection with reality in the first place.

Both of them will lie, cheat, steal, and murder to get what they want. And I think Byakuran is constantly amused when he is reminded of how calculating and cold Shouichi can be. Shouichi, on the other hand, is exasperated by Byakuran's childishness, but uncomfortably attracted to the sheer force of his personality. They are a switch couple. Shouichi hates it when Byakuran starts to treat him like his sweet, docile bottom and will turn the tables on him to prove he is and has always been a perfect match for Byakuran's cunning. And Byakuran doesn't care if he's baby girl or daddy so long as he has a good time. Friends, to lovers, to enemies, to… friends? Their relationship is tangled in the memories of people they will never become. And that makes them even more fascinating.

[minkufu]

Byakuran just wants to have a little fun, and he has sooooo many people that would line up just to play with him~ (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) Shame Shoichi didnt want a priority pass...

Meme redraw of the pic below:

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not to be sad about things but about 10051...

I'm thinking about how usually it's Byakuran that comes across as bringing the unhinged and crazed energy in Shouichi's life. Byakuran as the reason Shouichi's slightly still normal life became incredibly stressful and life or death dangerous to the point of insanity.

But according to canon it was quite literally the other way around.

Byakuran was just some mildly depressive guy with massive emotional issues who, upon meeting Shoichi became aware he's billions and trillions of selves and had his life become batshit insane. Genuinely Shouichi who brings the crazies to Byakuran (unintentionally) not the other way around.

And Shouichi doesn't state (as far as I remember, correct me if I'm wrong) that he regrets his life being crazier due to Byakuran. For all the Vongola meet up nightmare episode and tension and suffering and anxiety he's had to face stopping Byakuran I don't remember him much saying "I hate how my life is this way because of you" or anything like that. He even goes to say the uni times were the happiest times of his life.

While Byakuran's the one expressing it that life feels kind of wrong in an /this is sad sort of way and still for all that power doesn't explicitly thank Shouichi but still seeks him out in general and TYE!...

iM unwell. Don't know where I was going with this but I'm once again unwell about them..

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(dialogue from golden girls) sitcom exes is one of my favorite 10051 flavors

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@fuujinlol It seems I wasn't tripping.

We got this kind of moment with 10051 in canon in EP. 201.

What bliss.

Enemies to lovers "who did this to you?" about scars? Great, of course. However, I raise you this: "I did this to you."

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One, two, three

Why are you hanging on so tight To the rope that I'm hanging from? Off this island, this was an escape plan (this was an escape plan) Carefully timed it, so let me go And dive into the waves below

Who tends the orchards? Who fixes up the gables? Emotional torture from the head of your high table Who fetches the water from the rocky mountain spring? And walk back down again to feel your words and their sharp sting And I'm getting fucking tired

The capillaries in my eyes are bursting If our love died, would that be the worst thing? For somebody I thought was my saviour You sure make me do a whole lot of labour

The calloused skin on my hands is cracking If our love ended, would that be a bad thing? And the silence haunts our bed chamber You make me do too much labour You make me do too much labour

Apologies from my tongue, and never yours Busy lapping from flowing cup and stabbing with your fork I know you're a smart man (I know you're a smart man), and weaponise The false incompetence, it's dominance under a guise

If we had a daughter, I'd watch and could not save her The emotional torture, from the head of your high table She'd do what you taught her, she'd meet the same cruel fate So now I've gotta run, so I can undo this mistake At least I've gotta try

The capillaries in my eyes are bursting If our love died, would that be the worst thing? For somebody I thought was my saviour You sure make me do a whole lot of labour

The calloused skin on my hands is cracking If our love ends, would that be a bad thing? And the silence haunts our bed chamber You make me do too much labour

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[If someone became a god and remade the entire world, would you even notice?]

I'm so happy to finally be posting this. Off and on over the past few years, whenever I felt aching nostalgia for KHR and 10051, I'd scribble on this comic, then forget about it for months until nostalgia hit again. I forced myself to finally just get it out there!!!!

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the varia looks a little different huh

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Iconic Homerotice Betrayals: Round 1

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Context:

Shouichi/Byakuran

A betrayal 20+ years and multiple lifetimes in the making.

Suppose time travel and the multiverse exist. Now suppose there's a device that let you temporarily switch place with your future self from 10 years later. Shouichi used this device to peer into his own future in order to decide whether to pursue music or engineering. Upon meeting Byakuran in both futures, he awakened Byakuran's multiverse consciousness. Future Byakuran proceed to use his multiverse consciousness for world domination.

After that, Shouichi witnessed devastation in every other future he visited, until one final time when he returned to the past with his time traveling memories suppressed by his future-self, who had left him instructions to open at different points in his life. First to befriend Byakuran, and then to betray him.

He proceed to meet Byakuran in university and befriend him. When Byakuran started his world domination campaign, Shouichi became his loyal lieutenant, and overcompensated for his intentions by acting like a zealot believer who does everything for Byakuran's sake. (He fooled all the readers.) During that time Byakuran called him "Shou-chan" and sent him room full of flowers, which Shouichi immediately know the meaning of. Yes. They communicated via flower language like Victorian lesbians.

Anyway betrayal happens and Shouichi guided the protagonists in killing Byakuran. He confessed that despite everything, his time in university with Byakuran were the happiest time in his life.

They later reunites in the past as allies (and magically got their future memories because plot says so). Byakuran was immediately friendly with Shouichi, while Shouichi remains wary and warns the protagonists against trusting Byakuran. Despite this, he was the first to rush over when Byakuran got injured.

Shouichi literally formed his life and identity around his betrayal of Byakuran. Byakuran would not be who he is without meeting Shouichi. They meet in every lifetime. Soulmates but fatal.

tldr: Shouichi messed with the memories of his past self and specifically manipulated himself into befriending and betraying Byakuran in order to save the world.

Sasuke/Naruto

"I’ve never seen naruto but I’m pretty sure that was a rather significant part of the series"

"I don't know how they are not already included the whole series is about this"

"Sasuke leaves Naruto and their team to join up with enemy of their clan Orrochimaru. They fight. Sasuke kneels over Naruto's passed out body in the rain like a silent goodbye. Naruto spends 10 million chapters trying to bring his boy back from the dark side."

"THE ENTIRE ANIME"

[nikoshinigami]

Shouichi: Spanner, did you handle Vongola Decimo the way I told you to?

Spanner: Yeah, I had to improvise a bit, but I've undressed him and handcuffed him on a mattress like you told me to.

Shouichi: I-!! You wha-?

[Realizes he must have replied to the wrong email...]

Shouichi: ... Great job. Excellent work. All... all according to plan....

[jfc what did he end up telling Byakuran he wanted to do next time he was at headquarters then....]

[vanaglorie]

Happy Valentine's! How about L for the alphabet meme?

valentine's day alphabet! // no longer accepting

L    :   LOVE. who does your muse love?

Tricky question! Because love is a very tricky thing for someone like Byakuran. As it stands, it's hard for him to love someone else when he's so detached from the reality around him.

His beloved Sho-chan, of course. He does love that man quite a lot, and quite unconditionally. The love is still there, even through the events of the future, which makes the betrayal hurt all the more

In an alternate universe where redemption is somehow a possible path for him, he does end up falling in love with Dino. Turns out he is not immune to the charming wiles of a handsome mafia boss like himself.

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Nylon # 10051