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roxy-davenport · 8 years ago

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The Secret of the Long Shower

Pairing: Dean x Reader

Beta: @raspberrymama

Word Count: 2,041

A/N: Fluffy and sexy but no smut. It’s mostly dialogue. This was written for @thing-you-do-with-that-thing Kari’s favorite things challenge with the prompt, long showers/baths. This was also written for @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps Steph’s Golden Girls 1.5k Challenge with the prompt, “ Tiny little ginsu knives.”

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“Jesus, since when are vampires martial arts experts? What the ever living fuck was that?” Dean nearly yelled.

“The James Lee of Vampires.”

“I can always count on you for sass,” Dean uttered with a smirk.

“But of course. I gotta live up to the sass quota you’ve been accustomed to,” you quipped.

Dean smirked at you but the smirk fell off his face just as quickly as it appeared. A wave of sadness came over him. “All jokes aside, I’ve been hunting for years now and a vampire gets the drop on me? Am I losing my touch?”

You sighed heavily. Of course he would do this. “Do not do this to yourself. I know you’re the King of Guilt but just hear me out, okay? There were way more vampires than we thought. We should probably have asked Sam to join us in hindsight. No one is blaming you; you’re a fantastic hunter with amazing reflexes and great martial arts skills. Each one of us was fighting off three vamps. It’s lucky we’re both not entirely cut up or dead. You got us out of there alive. So what if you got a little beat up? It happens. This is no time to start reflecting. Fuck these d-bag vamps. Don’t let them shake your confidence. You hear me? You’re amazing and I will not drive Baby with you uttering negative things about yourself.”

“You always know just what to say.”

“I mean what I said. Keep pressure on the wound, Dean. We’ll be there soon. It isn’t too deep but the stupid cut won’t clot,” you replied frustrated while eyeing his wound.

“You’re telling me! Tiny little ginsu knives. Who would have thought monsters carried knives? I mean seriously!”

You glanced over at Dean shrugging. “At least we ganked ‘em. One case down, onto the next. You know those are some of the sharpest knives out there; at least I think they are. And weirdly enough, you can only get them from infomercials.”

“Wait the vampires watched infomercials?” Dean asked you incredulously.

“Maybe they were bored? Passes the time,” you said matter-of-factly.

“Passes the time? What are you, 60?”

“Hey easy with the age related jokes, Dean-O. They’re vampires. They clearly haven’t feed in a while given their hunger, so maybe infomercials about knives and cutting made them smile as they thought about their victims?”

“Well that’s gruesome,” Dean uttered grimacing as he turned to look out the window.

You rolled your eyes. “Don’t like the answer, don’t ask the question. I’m a little more worried about the bleeding.“

Dean waved off your concern with his hand. “I’ll be fine. Devastated about Baby though. I think I should apologize for making her leather seats dirty. It will take forever to clean.” He looked around to take stock of how much there would be to clean later.

“You do know that you have an unhealthy relationship to this car? That’s what she told me to tell you.” You turned to Dean with a smile wanting to see his reaction.

“Baby would never say that,” he muttered, scoffing at you.

You turned your eyes back to the road shaking your head. “You’re only proving my point. Baby gets dirty from time to time; so what? You’d look good in shorts cleaning her. You got nice legs.”

“Are you flirting?” Dean asked confused and a little take aback.

“I’ve seen you ask women out over dead bodies. Puhlease. Save the sanctimonious crap for some other girl.”

You grabbed the wheel and pulled hard into a parking space, running out to get a room. You hurried back to Dean and nearly threw him into the room.

“Hey, hey - watch it, gorgeous. You’ll break something,” Dean stated, not used to you being so forceful.

“Says the already bleeding guy,” you quipped. “Take off your shirt Winchester,” you added.

“What?” Dean asked confused and shocked.

You looked at him like he grew two heads. “The wound is on the side of your stomach. How am I going to reach it, disinfect it, and help clot it through your shirt? Did you lose that much blood? You’re not usually this shy or dense.”

“Easy with the insults, girl. You’re gonna bruise my ego.”

“Who knew your ego would be that fragile?”

Dean glared at you as he slowly peeled away his plaid shirt revealing a sticky red mess of blood and hard taunt muscles. He tried to get up from the bed and pull the shirt all the way off his shoulders but he was shaky and fell right back down.

“Easy tiger. One thing at a time.” You ran to get your kit out of the trunk and went to work on Dean’s wound, patching it up in no time. You didn’t notice the gentle way he was looking at you or how his other hand was struggling against the need to grab you and pull you to his lips. You ignored the feel of his skin against yours and how hard and firm his chest was. You tried not to linger longer than you had to, tried not to steal glances at him. And for the most part you were able to resist but you knew the few glances you spared at his chest did not go unnoticed. But neither of you made a move; not wanting to be wrong and spoil the close friendship you had. Pity to let a fine specimen of a man go to waste though. Thankfully no stitches were needed. After it clotted, it was a simple fix.

You both turned in soon after, desperate to fight the attraction with sleep. For once the two of you got a good amount of sleep. Not your usual four hours. You left abruptly in the morning after taking a very brief shower; happy to put this town and case in your rearview. Dean ran in so fast after you finished your shower, it made your head spin. You guessed it was to get the grime of the case off him from last night and wash his cut?

“I’m going out to get us breakfast, okay? See you soon,” you called after Dean, hoping he’d hear you through the locked bathroom door.

“Okay get something good sweetheart,” he yelled. A second later you heard the water running.

You left promptly for the hole in the wall diner. There was a surprisingly long wait and only one waitress doing take-out orders as well as waiting on half the tables. By the time you got back to the motel, you were sure Dean would be ready to go back to the Bunker. Sam probably found a case and would be calling soon.

But to your surprise, when you came back, the water was still on. He had been in the shower for an hour now. That’s an incredibly long time. What the hell was he doing in there? You knew he took long showers but this long? You had to know what the secret was behind it.

You slowly crept into the shower, opening the door as softly as you could. You stepped carefully placing your feet on the white mat. You stood there unmoving, just waiting. He had his back to you so you couldn’t see much, not to mention the frosted glass door. What you could make out was teasing you; the way the water cascaded off his body slowly falling down to the ground. His muscular arms taunted you with their unabashed strength. He could hold you up and plow into you something fierce with those. He was moving slowly. You could hear a faint sound. His shoulders were hunched over; one of his arms reaching out in front of him to grab the tile and the other hand was hidden from your vantage point. The question was, where was that hand?

You kept waiting for the answer to pop up when you heard it. It was a soft moan of your name.

“Fuck Y/N. You feel so good. So fucking tight. The way you squeeze my cock. Fuck. That’s right, lay back and take what I can give you. I'll have you screaming for me.”

Your eyes went wide. One, he was pretty damn good at dirty talk, who knew? Two, he was hot and he’d clearly been fantasizing about you for a while now. Three, what the hell were you going to do now?

A sloshing sound brought you out of the moment. He was picking up speed coupled with loud moans. He clearly wanted you just as much as you wanted him. You wanted to go in and claim your man like some cheesy paperback novel; but there was a reason why he took long showers all the time, why he hid his attraction from you. Entering into a relationship wasn’t a good idea for a hunter. He was protecting you, thinking of what’s best for the both of you so you couldn’t mess that up.

You slowly left the bathroom, both sad and happy. You sat on the small desk, not caring that the food was getting colder by the minute. Dean Winchester thought about you all the time. I mean if you added up all the showers he took, 1 hour each, that’s a lot of wanking for one man. A lot of attraction to work through, an hour a day, every day.

And you felt the same way. After all these years and he felt the same way. All the fun flirting could mean something more. There was never any other guy for you and he never had any other serious girl, just one-nighters here and there. Maybe risking the friendship was worth it. Clearly you might have a chance.

Steeling yourself for the conversation to come, you crossed the small motel room to the front door making sure to slam it hard. You then called out to Dean making it seem like you just got in.

Dean’s response was garbled but it sounded like a muted okay. You tried to calm your nerves and just relax and unpack your food. Hopefully he wouldn’t grumble about it being a little cold.

He got out of the bathroom a minute later, dripping wet with a small towel around his waist.

You didn’t make eye contact with Dean when he got out. You didn’t think you could handle the amount of skin he would undoubtedly be showing. The temptation alone was incredible. I mean come on. He must know the effect he had on a woman to walk around soaking wet and naked save for a flimsy towel. Cruel and unusual punishment.

He slowly sat down after quickly drying himself off and putting on a random outfit he brought in his duffel bag. He gave you a confused look since you were usually never silent. You were always quick to the draw with sassy comments. Clearing your throat you went through with your plan.

“Hey Dean. That was a long shower.” “He blushed, actually blushed,” you thought.

“Yeah well showers relax me and I wanted to wash my wound.”

You took a beat waiting for just the moment when Dean was about to eat his burger. “Of course. So you weren’t masturbating to thoughts of fucking me and making me scream for you?”

Dean stopped mid bite, eye wide frozen in place.

You smiled, your own burger in hand. “Gee. Something I said?” you asked feigning innocence with a smile.

Dean swallowed audibly trying to figure out his next move. His words came out softly and tentatively. “You heard that? I thought you just came in.”

“For a hunter who’s been hunting since you were a kid, you have terrible hearing. I’m a curious girl who simply wondered what was taking you so long. What does a man do in the shower for an hour?” Dean blushed at your words, which made you chuckle. In as seductive a voice as you could manage you added, “You know next time you should invite me.”

Dean slowly turned towards you, taking in your facial expressions, carefully trying to gauge if you were serious or not.

Just at that moment Sam started calling. You smiled at Dean’s frustration. “Sam’s calling. He probably has a case. Don’t keep him waiting. The shower in the bunker is bigger anyway, clearly better for two people,” you said with a wink.

The giant smile on Dean’s face was all the confirmation you needed. You made the jump and he felt the same way. You finally got your man.

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dillyduzit · 5 years ago

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ok heart of a champion 1) the beat ?? 80s beep boop synth ??? 2) charlies flow is NEW and im pleasantly surprised that hes trying a different style 3) not my fave track but it was fun

killin it i stg i was SO excited to hear this shit and like a minute in i was in LOVE WITH IT fuck Out of here. dad go OFF my angel..... and charles. that piece of shit. those first two lines of his verse are GREAT IN CONCLUSION I LOVE IT

THE FIRST VERSE OF ENEMY SLAPS SO HARD i love the high-tempo drumming thing it reminds me of babymetal,,,, CHARLIE SCREAMING,,, LEGEND, ICON, MVP, IRREPLACEABLE, LUV U SWEETHEART. also dylan AGAIN?? yes puhlease. whole thing turns into an anime intro real quick once danny comes in though

my ears are extremely confused hearing jorel sing but its very sweet. upside down is gonna be a song to cry to thats for sure

second chances... this bitch..... johnny sweetheart im so sorry you had to write these lyrics but god id give anything for you ALSO you know its fucked when a drop makes you cry,,that was powerful

nightmare was an experience but first off. the 808 is giving me dark places vibes and i like it. was that eminem on the last verse there or was it just charlie.... anyways on this track george proves to us once again that he is, in fact, the best and h

ITS TIME

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drink-n-watch · 5 years ago

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I was right, Bam’s design really looks best with some red in it! See what I mean! It brings out his features and adds some interest to the characters. Not to mention that it really underlines that he is the Red Oni to Kuhn Blue Oni. What’s that you say? Rak is the red oni? Puhlease…

When I first noted Bam’s costume change a few episodes ago, I went on and on about the lack of red and I think I promised to stop talking about it…ooops. But ‘cmon!!! He looks way better with red!

Here’s something I never thought I would say at the beginning of this series. Now really, if you told me back in episode 3 of Tower of God that I would say this some day, I would have called you a dirty liar. But only in my head. I’m not very confrontational. Still here we are and I’m saying it. Way to subvert my expectations, show! I missed Rak. I was honestly happy to see him reunited with Kuhn and Bam and back in the main story line and his presence was welcomed.

It’s sort of a great sign when a series can make you miss a character without forcing a sob background story down your throat or something. Rak is a barely established character with a few strong but simple characterizations and hardly what I would generally call compelling and complex character building. And yet he brings so much to the story and his actions hold way more meaning than they should. At some point Tower of God managed to build an actual character out of an archetype caricature and I didn’t even notice. Smoooth!

One thing I did always know I was going to say is: I miss Yuri! I have wanted to see more of her since episode 1 and the series just keeps teasing us with her presence but never actually giving us a proper view. This time her equally fascinating team were just milling around as she sat on a huge dragon of some sort. It was such a fascinating scene with hardly any context and no explanation at all. Now I want to see her even more..so mean!

This is neither here nor there but have you noticed how often people sit on each other in this show. It’s such a specific mannerism that’s never acknowledged and I love it. This week Rak and Kuhn inverted their traditional roles since Rak is smaller, now.

The episode itself was pretty straightforward. In the aftermath of last weeks events, the remaining participants pull themselves back together and contemplate the future while waiting for the placement exam results. The decide to have a funeral and wake for Ho and think about what comes next. Some decide to leave of their on volition, other’s fail and the group is whittled down to the best and most perseverant.

Oh, we also find out that the Tower has alcohol. Maybe we already knew that. We know it for sure now! And I personally found out that drunken Hatz is my spirit animal. If ever I get Isekaied I desperately want to get drunk with Hatz. I do not want to climb the Tower though so he’ll have to meet me. Maybe Hatz can get Isekaied instead. I keep writing Tower of God fanfiction instead of reviewing it. I’m sorry guys.

The first half of the episode was a nice return to form as far as I’m concerned. It gave closure to the previous arc and set up the next one while giving all the characters a nice little breather and a chance to enjoy themselves while shining a little.

And then the last half of the episode brought the tension right back up. Have I mentioned that Tower of God has some of the best pacing in recent memory?

For the entire episode, Rak has been going on about how the “slow turtle”, the other spear bearer who passed the first test, just disappeared. He is rather distraught about it but no one pays much attention to him because… well he’s Rak. The rest of the contestants do think about it a little but give up soon enough as no one seems to know anything about the guy. But I’m thinking this is going to turn into some important foreshadowing. I’m just not entirely sure of what.

However, it may be tied into what happened with Yuga, or should I say Lo Po Bia Ren. I actually remembered that! I had to look up the name Yuga though. So apparently the cute little wave controller instructor was in fact a spy or some sort. He was sent by the Royal Enforcement Division (?) to retrieve Black March and Green April and get rid of Anak.

So far so good. We know the 13 month swords are extremely powerful weapons and whoever is in charge does not want them just floating around as it could upset the balance. We also know that Anak is a problem. She only exists because her mother broke the rules and it stands to reason that Jahad would like her to not exist anymore. All of this is in line with everything we know.

So why exactly did Lo Po have to threaten Yu Han Sung? Why didn’t they even tell the director what was going on? Is there some type of strife within the leadership of the Tower? My assumption would have been that if this Royal Enforcement Division had simply told the director that they were eliminating a participant and taking the swords, he would have had to obey. Or is this Royal Enforcement Division and the administrators two different and competing factions? Sure there has been some seeds of dissidence from Lero but that was mostly suspicions and frustrations. This looked more like an actual attack and it changes a lot of what I had assumed the hierarchical structure of the Tower to be.

But mostly, the scenes between Lo Po and Sung just served to tell me that Sung is pretty awesome. A far more interesting character than I thought and one to really keep my eye on. There are only two episodes left in the season so there’s not much time to keep said eye on it but it sort of reinvigorated my interest.

One finally but of exposition we got out of the episode is that there is an administrator test. In fact, that’s the test Jahad took that made him so powerful. But why is there such a test? Like who put that test together. It seems to only be available under very specific circumstances. Obviously there has to be an authority above Jahad to grant him the power after he took the test. Maybe not anymore but at least there was at the time. Right? Why is no one interested in that guy? I bet it’s the big eye of Sauron thing Bam keeps seeing.

Speaking of eyes, why does Rachel have cat eyes? She’s the only one that does. Oh I forgot to mention it. Rachel is in a wheelchair now just really driving home that damsel in distress trope and for some reason, convincing me more than ever that she is going to betray everyone. Well Bam at least.

Anyways, this was a great episode and I can’t wait to see the next one.

Tower of God Ep.10 – Moving On I was right, Bam's design really looks best with some red in it! See what I mean!

#action #adventure #anime #drama #episodic #romance #supernatural #surreal #Tower of God

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phoenixknightv2 · 5 years ago

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New State of the REALUnion plus Drama Vs Trauma The Blog Version

One thing i will say is i’ am so glad that the one thing that has been more true to me than anything or anybody officially returns in 24 hours. I have missed it so much and it has been so long since i needed it back at this level. The first half of this year was amazing. The second half outside of meeting my girlfriend has been a fucking Disaster in so many ways. Felt like the darkest time of my life all over again. Basketball Season especially when it comes to Texas Hoops is like what Kills to Dexter Morgan are. So anybody doesn’t freak out, if you haven’t seen the show Dexter then A) It’s a great show up until the final season but also B)Since he is more of a vigilante, Well......You’ll just have to watch the show to get it. Basketball season keeps me Sane. Not just another team to me, they are a part of me. When they win, i win. When they lose, i lose. Either way, i would be a jackass if i didn’t start off with that. HAPPY BASKETBALL SEASON MOTHERBLEEPERS!!!! I DON’T CARE WHAT ANYBODY SAYS THAT IS THE BEST TIME OF YEAR!!!!!! EVEN BETTER THAN ANY OF THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!

The fact that people in this society put mental health way below the level of importance is just really heartbreaking. I haven’t seen it yet but The Joker movie (which I heard is surprisingly really good) states just that. Before I begin I just want to say a very special shoutout to my mom and my girlfriend who finally get why I do what I do. With my movement and my show. I wanna make one thing clear, I forgave my mom a very long time ago. I just still bring it up on my show and then some because a lot of you out there still don’t get why I do what I do. Why i’am doing all of this!!!! And although like my aunt says I can’t change everything in this broken society, as long as I make even just a little bit of difference then I know I did the best I could.

It’s been awhile my firebirds and realbies. Let’s begin.

Originally posted by allreactions

I’m gonna begin this edition of the real Time blog by saying I’am done. This summer multiple times I’ve had to explain myself multiple times and i’am done. I don’t have to explain myself to all the doubters out there anymore. If you still don’t understand then fine but if you choose not to understand because your ignorance is so far up your ass then those are the ones I’m not explaining myself too. Far as I’m concerned, if you still want to doubt me then as far as I’m concerned you can kiss my ass. The only person I will compromise with regarding my movement somewhat (also because she is right on some things) is of course my girlfriend. Somewhat but just a teeny tiny bit my father only because I live with him still for now (hoping that won’t be the case for much longer) but I do got some things I need to figure out. Tell you one thing, it won’t be here. As a matter of fact, within the next year or year and a half, I don’t want to be in Austin anymore. This city more and more is getting fucked because of shitty leadership and all they care about is Money!!! OH LIKE YOU DUMBASSES DON’T HAVE ENOUGH MONEY!!!!! OH PUHLEASE!!! Fuck off on out of here. Because of that kind of ignorance and greed, this city is falling apart. It’s going to continue to fall apart and same with this society. Yes I get we all have to make money and yes I get it’s a capitalist society but it has gotten too far into greed and corruption. It is fucking up this society and Austin, Texas is an example of that. These news sites and rankings can rank it all it wants but do they not realize that there is a dark side to this city and what they are doing is contributing to said dark side of this city? Apparently not. Who knows maybe they’re getting bought off. But what I do know is I don’t want to be here anymore. It’s not the same city and other than my father and girlfriend, I have nothing here anymore. I mean yes I have the one thing that has been true to me (alas Texas hoops) but it’s not just another team to me. It’s apart of me. However I can’t be held back forever. I gotta do what’s best for me. For my future. Within the next year I want to be in San Marcos for the short term end game and then the long term End game, I wanna be in Miami. More of the Boca/Deerfield beach area. Man wouldn’t it be fun to be in a beach community. It so would.

Lets do the blog edition of Drama vs Trauma. I already did it in the show now it’s time to read it.

-Did I asked to be raped by Some of the neighborhood kids when I was a kid? No. Tell me I’m full of Drama

-Did I asked to be very badly mentally abused by my mom and ex stepmom? Definitely my ex stepmom more? No. Tell me I’m full of drama

-Did I ask for a certain bitch who I was kind of seeing before I started seeing my way better more amazing way hotter more kind hearted girlfriend, do what she did with the whole (country accent) I won’t abandon you one minute but then the next minute she abandoned me? Nah playa tell me I’m full of drama. (yes I’m taking shots at said someone but again I should thank her because her immature actions led me to my amazing girlfriend)

-Did I ask for two of my FORMER best friends at my FORMER job to fuck me over the way they did for about a year? After everything I’ve done for them assholes. Putting everything I got for them, that place, having their back, etc yet it still wasn’t good enough? No, tell me i’m full of drama. I dare you

-DID I ASK FOR A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE SEVERAL YEARS AGO?!?!?!??!?! NO I DIDN’T. TELL ME I’M FULL OF DRAMA!!!!!!!!

-Did i ask for my mom back then to have an affair behind my stepdad’s back with a man who i was pretty much forced to move out with her to his house when i hardly knew him and pretty much forced to look at him like a father figure? NAH FUCK NO I DIDN’T!!!!! TELL ME I’M FULL OF DRAMA I FUCKING DARE YOU!!!!!!!!!

-DID I ASK FOR MANY PEOPLE THROUGHOUT MY LIFE TO FUCKING GIVE ME THEIR WORD AND SHIT ON IT YET I’M THE ONE WHO’S GIVING ALL THE EFFORT?!?!?!?!? NO I DIDN’T!!!!!! AS A MATTER OF FACT, ONE THING I CAN’T STAND IS PEOPLE WHO FUCKING THINK I’M STUPID WHEN I’M ALOT SMARTER THAN YOU THINK!!!!! (Translation: I cannot stand ghosting and as a matter of fact, there’s alot of that going on lately.)

I got something i want to say to that but i’ll say it later on. Basically goes to one of my major points. Back to Drama vs Trauma!!!!!

-Did i ask for a mental condition like Asbergers, Anxiety and depression that have fucked with me my entire life? That made me unfortunately have to take special ed classes in high school? That made me look like a freak to where i was being treated differently and then some? No i didn’t. Tell me i’m full of Drama

-Anything else in my book or my show that alot of you have yet to learn about me, but yet decide to still question me and who i’am, I DARE YOU TO TELL ME TO MY FACE I’M FULL OF DRAMA!!!!!

Finally to end this portion of the REALUnion because there is alot more i got to say,

- DID I ASK FOR ONE OF MY OWN?!?!?!?!? ONE OF MY OWN WHO WAS A GOOD MAN AND LOVED BY SO MANY YET HE WAS SUFFERING TO FUCKING SAY HE COULDN’T DO THIS ANYMORE SO HE DECIDED TO TAKE HIS OWN LIFE?!?!?!?!?! NO, AND ANYBODY GOING FORWARD WHO HAS A PROBLEM WITH WHY I DO WHAT I DO CAN KISS MY ASS

Now before i continue, i know for a fact that i’m not easy and yes, i’ am a little too much at times. I get that i’ am overwhelming at times. However you know what, despite my imperfections i know that i’ am alot better and there are alot of good about me and that i have done alot for alot of people. Some of you see it, the rest unfortunately do not. It’s fine, i’m used to it. But if you think i’m just going to just sit by and take ALL THE BLAME......You clearly don’t know who i’ am.

For so long, i have had people tell me one thing one minute and then a complete different the very next. I can’t even begin to tell you how many times that has fucked with my head. It has happened throughout my entire life. I wonder how anxiety and depression could’ve developed? Hmmmmmm (I say that with major sarcasm)?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!

Also i may have said it already but in case i haven’t. I’ am going back to therapy because with all the events that have been happening lately, i have once again reached the point of wondering if i can do any of this anymore. Let me make one thing clear. A lot of the work is on me, the inner to make myself better. I get that. However like i have said with my anti anxiety medication (I can only take it so much and it can only do so much) the rest needs to do its part. Going back to the first part? I can only do so much work on myself but in any situations, relationships, it takes both sides and after what’s been happening.... i’am done doing all the damn work. Outside of my father,

These are the only ones who i know that will do their part and won’t make me feel like I HAVE TO DO THE DAMN WORK 100 PERCENT

AKA (The i trust you list)

Because i may love you but trust is a much different thing

-My Amazing Girlfriend Nicole (Number 1)

- Andria my amazing long time Best friend and the Big sister i’ve never had

-Glenn

-Michelle

-My Big 12 Country Brothers

-My Longhorn Nation Brothers

-Evan

-My Uncle Dave

-My Aunt Carla (Even if we don’t agree on everything)

-My Grandpa Lou

-My mom

-Will

-Devonna

-Daniel

-Chris(tian)

-Mary

-my Stepdad Jesse

-Jaclyn (My life coach)

-Jon

-Jon’s family

If you have made the list so far, congratulations and thank you for being the people who have been consistently trustworthy. Who have accepted me for who i’ am even when i haven’t been easy.

Now if you haven’t made the list, one of three things.

A) I May love you but i don’t trust you. I’ve had to do all the work and no effort in return. When you need something, i’m there always unconditionally but when i need something, WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?!?!??!?!

B) Because my trust has been violated so many times by so many, if you aren’t consistent then you are under evaluation but you got a chance to earn yourself back into my good graces. I’m done putting everybody at a level 10 when level 10 needs to be me and then 9 needs to be those i trust the most.

C) Don’t talk as much but nothing personal

I made a promise that i was never going to go back to rock bottom again. I made a promise to someone who i gave a tremendous shit about that i would never let anybody who was a good person suffer ever again. Now once again if anybody ever wants to question me, then go right ahead but have the balls to say it to my face. Don’t beat around the bush.

Let me say something that alot of people are probably wondering. ‘’Sky you have a girlfriend? Why are you still acting like the way you are acting?”

Well i’ll respond to it with this, just because my amazing girlfriend is in my life now, doesn’t mean that everything is fixed!!! No my fight and my movement still is going strong and it will continue to get strong. My amazing girlfriend is just my amazing support system. Is there boundaries we have to follow? Especially me? Of course and we both are a constant work in progress. It hasn’t been easy and she’ll even tell you. But you know what, after she read my book even if we won’t agree always on everything, she gets it and she is someone i can confide in. Obviously i don’t want to ALWAYS BE AS REAL AS IT GETS WHEN I’M WITH HER because i do want to enjoy my time with her and i want her to enjoy her time with me. However she gets it and then some. It hasn’t been perfect and hasn’t been easy but we just continue to get stronger and she continues to be an even more amazing girlfriend and amazing partner. It’s why she will always be my number 1. And while to everyone else yes i should sit back and enjoy it (which i do), it doesn’t mean that everything else is fixed. Doesn’t mean that i’m going to be a fake ass SumBitch. That is not how i roll

And once again, IF YOU LIVE BY THE GOOD VIBES ONLY SAYING AND YOU ARE IGNORING SOMEONE WHO IS SUFFERING THEN YOU ARE SO FULL OF SHIT AND YOU ARE PART OF THE PROBLEM OF THIS GREEDY HEAD UP YOUR ASS SOCIETY!!!!! Tired of that saying. Ignorance

One more thing, and this is in regards to something i found out, I’m going to say this one more TIME!!!!! WE ALL HAVE OUR FIGHTS!!!! I GET IT!!!! I GET THAT CERTAIN THINGS ARE PART OF LIFE BUT I’M DOING WHAT I’M DOING AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO BECAUSE THERE COMES A POINT where ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!!! ALSO I’M JUST ME AND THE PEOPLE AROUND ME!!!! I get that sometimes caring about others before myself is not always the greatest thing but it’s who i’ am. When others suffer, i get upset or i get mad. My girlfriend is the same damn way which is why we are such a great match and indeed soulmates. But unless you know my story then sit down and shut your mouths!!!! Because just like how i don’t get alot of other people and things, alot of other people and things won’t get me. EVER!!!! But at least i care

As of today November 5th, 2019.....Opening night of the one thing that has been true to me more than anything and anybody. The following shit ends here...

-The ghosting fucking ends.

-People who give me their word and then shit on it.

-Me doing things for others and then when i need something, a good chunk is MIA!!!!!

-Everything similar to this summer, if it ever happens again, I WILL SHUT IT DOWN FASTER THAN A HOG TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM A HUNTER TRYING TO PUT A BULLET IN HIS ASSHOLE!!!!!

I will do whatever it takes to never hit rock bottom again but i will do it again. After all the shit that i’ve been surrounded by majority my entire life, NO MORE!!!!! Some of it is indeed out of my control. But the rest, i will get justice. I will continue to be who i’ am, i’ am not changing for anybody. I’ ll tone it down for certain situations (aka things that are important to my girlfriend) but otherwise No!!!! Because although i’ m not perfect and sometimes i’m not easy to be around, i need to remember the great things about myself. and there is alot. I’ am fair and respectful and kind until i have a reason to not be any of those things. I don’t like being the not so good side of me but if i have a reason to be that way and right now after everything again that has happened up until this point, If anybody has the right to be that way, it’s me because as i have said....Smiling and being happy go lucky isn’t always the answer. After what happened with that stupid bitch who i was somewhat seeing before i met my amazing girlfriend (who got together with me right after the last State of the REALUnion which i wrote right after the stupid bitch who i was seeing before i became a couple with my amazing way better girlfriend, what are the odds that me being REAL won me my amazing girlfriend over. Guess i did something right. It’s just hard to do so in this greedy stupid fucked up society these days), just proves my point even more.

Finally in closing, if anybody is wondering and some probably will, why you aren’t on this list? If it’s because i’m not happy with alot of things still and i will put everything else under evaluation until it is revealed whether i can trust you or not? Then you’re damn right because i will not put up with much more for much longer. Things are going to change or i’ m done. I get that life and shit gets in the way, that’s fine. That’s not the issue but it’s the effort and giving me your word and then shitting on it. Everything i’ve said to this final point is basically what i’m saying.

I will rise back up to the top, i will rise from the dead, or i will die trying.

Mr. Real as it gets is back. THE PHOENIX KNIGHT IS BACK!!!

REMEMBER MY FIREBIRDS

I WILL ALWAYS LIGHT THE WAY

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO

LET

THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE

PHOENIX KNIGHT FOREVER

ON TO HOOPS SEASON

TILL NEXT TIME MY REALBIES AND FIREBIRDS

-S-

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