#04.12.2019

[romantizethelife]

Day 1 of sharing random pictures from my gallery <3

04.12.2019

I went shopping with my two best friends in 6th grade after school.

[jfsabyblogs]

Le Mot du Jour pédagogique

BLOG BLANCHARD. Mer 04.12.2019, 9:23. MISE À JOUR. http://jfsaby.com/blogs/index.php/blanchard/aB8V Article modifié. 3 PHOTOS. C…descendance. Jean-Michel Blanquer sur RTL : “Je pense que certains font grève parce qu'ils ne comprennent pas tout”…

[taeminrecuerdos]

04.12.2019

Mensaje de Taemin publicado en el vídeo publicado en el canal oficial de Unicef Korea en YouTube

"En el momento en que cada niño nace, tiene derecho a ser feliz y estar saludable. Construyamos juntos una tierra en el que los niños de todo el mundo puedan disfrutar de sus propios derechos con orgullo". Para cada niño, cada derecho!" — 191204 UNICEF Corea

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[dinlebenibi4]

Elə insanlara varki onlar haqqında nə qədər yazsaq, nə qədər danışsaq yenə azdı. Atamda belə insanlardan biri idi. Atam gedəndən sonra heç nə əvvəlki kimi olmadı. Nə keçən bayramlar, nə bərabər izlədiyimiz verlişlər, nədə üzümüzdəki gülüşlər əvvəlki kimi deyil. Çox təssüf ki səni itirmək duyğusu ilə bu qədər tez tanış olduq. Bu gün artıq 3 il olurki aramızda yoxsan. Nur üzlü, canım atam nur içində yat. Məkanın cənnət olsun. #04.12.2019🥀

[liam-93-productions]

LP1 promo in London (x) - 04.12

[aarondingle]

#all the moods

[hosgeldinhuzun]

"Bir sabah rüyalarınızı yarım bırakarak tamamlamak isteyeceksiniz başka düşleri..."

[schmerzderphantasie]

Die Leere ist so nah. Die Kraft reicht nicht mehr. Wem soll man noch vertrauen kann man überhaupt vertrauen.

[itwasjustmisplaced]

Okay, if you don't mean that — I wish I didn’t.

[a-bon-a-day]

〖Day 102〗of 365 ✰

[twicetwiceblr-blog]

[dieherrscherin]

eternal autumn.

i miss the way your eyes glazed at me and i get nervous because i'm afraid i won't ever forget that feeling i'm afraid i won't ever find that sparkle again

so i did something something i never thought i would i tried desesperately to find, in all kinds of people the way i felt with you

i know just like the sun sets and is born again, i will find a way to forget you

but like so, the sun takes a month to change signs, the sun takes three months to change seasons, and recently all i've been feeling is an endless autumn.

i've had my heart broken before, and it always felt like winter to me. because i sensed i was dead, and my love was something that i thought i needed.

but this time, everything is different. i feel like autumn, because the feeling i carry since you left is bittersweet, i love to reminisce about it, and, although i know i don't need you, i still want you.

and i want you really bad.

[delilah-in-the-forest]

29.04.2019

I have been meaning to write something for a while now. If I don’t write I know I will have only faint memories of the days passing me by. Granted, these days are not some of my most memorable ones - I haven’t fallen in love, I haven’t been swept off my feet, I haven’t made a meaningful connection with anyone. Life is ordinary. I went to the lake earlier today and my friend and I stopped by the side of the road on the way back to pick some yellow wild flowers. Here they are sitting in a vase on the balcony table.

03.08.2019

Two cats yank me from the monotonous and lonely life that is housesitting. I have moved to another country, I have a job. Just as easily as these cats appeared in my life, a new person can come along with a new set of flaws and little annoying habits that I will hopelessly romanticize. It would probably wreck havoc on my life. Someone seemingly exciting and unique can disrupt this period of emotional stillness and tranquility, someone sweet and kind, with a different set of teeth and pair of eyes from what I’ve known can come along and promise to love me. The novelty of being touched in a different way, words arranged differently into sentences worshiping me will awaken some passion and yearning for connection and deeper meaning and send me spinning... And for a moment I’ll be riding the tidal wave of a passionate love affair until I fall hard and it all comes crashing down. Whatever comes will surely go.

26.08.2019

I am alone and tired in my new apartment. All of my yesterdays, rushed goodbyes and missed sunsets are weighing me down. I sit in a towel in my boiling hot little room facing south and yet another summer is coming to an end. I will go to the beach tomorrow. In a few days the heat will subside, but I’ll be working for the rest of my life. Fuck.

02.10.2019

I met someone. He makes me feel beautiful. Why am I so hesitant yet eager to jump headfirst into whatever this is? My heart flutters when I hear his sweet voice. I am charmed by his little quirks, his idiosyncrasies, intoxicated by his smell, his touch. It all overpowers me and I find myself walking as fast as I can to him. Ah, the moment he opens the door and embraces me..

18.11.2019

Yesterday he was in my room, he sat on my bed with a pillow propped up against the wall and nothing but thin air between us. I’d never before felt so distant from him. He was somewhere far, locked in the innermost room of the temple of his strange mind. I couldn’t reach him — I’ll never mean anything to him. That’s probably part of the allure for me.

21.11.2019

Nothing profound today. My existence is meaningless and I just want to say nothing, do nothing. Lie down and be in the moment with him, be in the now. Although it pains me to think that someday he’ll have so much to give... to someone else that he could love.

04.12.2019

He said that he ‘stole’ the tram. I find his broken English and just everything about him hopelessly attractive, but he thinks I am rushing things too much. I should pick up a hobby, I should see a therapist, I should learn another language or whatever would keep me from seeing him. Like now.

07.12.2019

Ok I ruined it for good. It was about time.

26.12.2019

Home again for the holidays. All that anxiety pent up in my chest in anticipation of hearing from him has started to subside. Only pain and tears now, but I am at peace. Pain is familiar, pain does not cause me panic. But now there’s no more hope. Hell, I’ll probably never see him again. To never hear his voice - it scares me shitless. Sweet sweet torture.

03.10.2020

One day I’ll struggle to remember this past year. And maybe it’s better off forgotten.

16.01.2021

I don’t write anymore. It’s anybody’s guess why. Corona is still here and we are all a bit mental now. I keep buying books I’ll never read. I’ll be 27 soon. I want a record player.

20.05.2022

my feelings fluctuate, there is no order to the movements of my soul - some nights I am puzzled and in guilt by dreams of us making slow passionate and tender love in his bed for days in a row...

[dinlebenibi4]

Atamı itirdiyimiz gün anam mənə xəbər verməməyi planlaşdırmışdı. Buna görə də məni qonşuya göndərmişdi. Orda qonşumuzun anası fərqli davranırdı amma yenədə ağlıma belə bir şey gəlmirdi. Artıq yatmağa hazırlaşırdım. Anam gəldi və mənə ağlayaraq: "çox çalışdım, əlimdən gələni etdim amma atanı itirdik qızım" dedi. Hələ olanlar onun günahı imiş kimi məndən üzrdə istədi. Ilk dəfə idi belə cümlə eşitmişdim. Ilk dəfə idi belə yaxınımı itirirdim. Gözlərim dolmuşdu amma reaksiya verə bilmirdim...Sonra evə qayıtdıq. Atamın cansız bədənini gətirmişdilər. O qədər belə şeyləri anlamırdım ki, tabuta əl vurmağa qorxurdum. Uşaqlıqdan insanlar içində rahat ağlaya bilməmişəm. Halbuki ağlamaqda gülmək qədər normaldı. Dərdim böyük idi amma mən özümü sıxmağa çalışırdım. Bu duyğular ilə daha gec tanış olmağı çox istəyərdim. Amma bunu özümüz seçə bilmirik. Bu gün 3 ildirki aramızda deyilsən. Məkanın cənnət olsun ata. #04.12.2019

[liam-93-productions]

Selfie that Liam sent of the Hugo Boss IG chat

[aarondingle]