#...though Eno /is/ aware that it took Baet a long time to become comfortable with himself in a number of those more general ways

[soulsxng]

Another thing that these charts made me start thinking about again, is the whole gender issue with the Elohim angels. They're all able to more or less change at will to whatever they want/suits their view of themselves, with the help of the Sacred Waters. (minus Enoch and Elijah, who don't need it, but struggle to actually change, the longer they stay in one particular form) But shortly after they were all created, their father, who had long since been driven mad by an affliction called the tzowld (which I have to write a little thing about eventually, but today is not that day!), ordered them to all take male forms.

Though he never outright expressed to them why he wanted them to do so, they've all done a good deal of speculation about it. That it's because he wanted them to be closer to him than their mother, Heaven, or because he didn't want to be reminded of their mother as much as possible when he looked at them. They don't believe that it's because of anything like him seeing males as "superior" to other genders and sexes, since...really, he only cared enough to believe that he was superior to everyone else.

Regardless of his reasoning though, with their father (and mother, for that matter) now dead, they're free to take whatever form they wish to. Which has had me wondering if any of them would choose to do so, since almost half of them-- Jophiel (nb), Sachiel (f), Jehiel (f), and Yeheriel (inter) out of the older Elohim siblings, and Gabriel (nb), Remiel (nb), and Azrael (inter) out of the younger siblings, as well as Enoch (f)-- originally chose/weren't male before that.

And I realized that, while two or three of them might have already done so (I'm thinking probably Eri, Emi, and maybe Azra though I see him more-so going back and forth as he pleases), the rest have probably just stayed as they are. The main reasons being that they haven't really fully realized "Hey, I have a choice in this now" yet, or because they're just so used to it that even if they wanted to change, they'd probably feel like they were doing something wrong (Jophi and Sachi). Or they're so used to it that they've just become more comfortable staying as they are. (Gabe and Jehi)

As for Enoch, it's more a mix of the second one, where it would feel like he was doing something wrong, but more-so just that it would feel so incredibly vulnerable to him. It would be like he was suddenly walking around completely naked, or something. Not to mention it just brings up some bad memories for him...so even if a part of him does want to change back, (or more likely, just to be able to change to whatever he likes, whenever he likes) I'm not sure if he'll be able to convince himself to do so any time soon.