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professional-termite · 6 months ago

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im considering giving lore bpd or at least trying to code him like he does in my fic..like im always iffy on explicitly coding "evil" characters (a concept i dont really like, especially in the context of a character as traumatized and neglected as lore) as having specific mental conditions but it would make sense for him. and actually it would make him Less Evil to me. like idk man maybe im just projecting onto this guy but he really does strike me less and less as someone whos Aughh Evil Maniac Horrible Person and more as a traumatized kid (using the term kid since, while he is an adult man whos like over 30 by the time brothers rolls around, he was deactivated for most of that time) with an emotional disorder who needs therapy instead of Being Yeeted Into Space

#getting madder and madder about everything that happened to lore as i think about him more and more #the reason im hesitating on specifically coding him as someone with bpd is that bpd is already really stigmatized and he is explicitly an...#...abuser in this fic #but man it would also explain some of his obsessive behaviour around ness but eughhh #the thing is while he is abusive/manipulative in this fic hes also not doing it for Evil Reasons hes doing it because he has a...#...crippling fear of abandonment that ness is really helping him through yk #just thinking about how being abandoned by your dad has got to leave mental scars #and ofc once he meets this impressionable android with no knowledge of the 24th century who sees lore as a friend...#...and possibly a romantic interest hes gonna be like Man I Cant Lose This and start twisting the truth whenever hes with ness #his whole thing in this fic is that he doesnt want ness to leave him and hes scared if ness finds out what hes done/doing ness will...#...risk meeting the federation (who lore has lied about and told are evil) in order to get away from him #and he does eventually #idk man i just needed to rant about this fic its getting so complicated and layered and i. hghh #and im gonna redeem lore in the end. hes gonna recover and hes gonna get help #because he deserves it. and i dont think ness is the type to spitefully go You Hurt Me I Dont Want To Help You #actually i think ness is the type to try to help lore to the point of hurting himself. and thats what makes them so tragic to me #anyways this is completely off the rails i need to shut up about my hcs and just decide whether lore has bpd in this fic or not #random #writing adventures with van #trek adventures with van

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