#.... for the time machine thing not the parenting thing

[qeyond]

THEYRE HERE THEYRE HERE THEYRE HERE!!!!

[sirpeachess-casual]

No doubt, him seeing himself as a freak is only made worse by his upbringing. Being told since his birth that ghosts are mindless, evil, dastardly monsters. Seeing his parents tinker and test machines specifically designed to eviscerate those monsters in horrible, excruciating ways because it's what they deserve. Having holidays and trips and countless family dinners ruined by the mere mention of these creatures.

And now he is one? Sorta? Has he become the thing that made the microwave come alive and go feral that one time? Does he have an insatiable thirst to hunger and devour and destroy since that's all ghosts are good for?

Except.... That's not true. He, Danny, just wants to go to prom and get a good grade on his English test and stop being bullied and do everything in his power to preserve what little stability he has at home. He doesn't want to hunt or hurt or maim. He isn't brainless, guided purely by a terrible, animalistic instinct. He's the same as he always was. Shy, clumsy, unpopular, and loyal to his friends with aspirations to be an astronaut one day.

Suddenly, he's two things at once. Except one of them is him and the other.... Well it is, that's undeniable, but not in any way he knows, not at all how he's been trained his entire life, his every waking moment, full of chaos and turmoil but love and life and so much humanity.

This is such an interesting scene to me because when Spectra asks Danny what he is supposed to be he can't give her a proper answer. Instead he gives not a clear response and ends ups saying ¨I don't know¨.

And its worth of analysing since it shows that Danny has an identity crisis about his nature of being a halfa. He doesn't know to which world he belongs to- human or ghost. Spectra even suggests that he is a ¨ghost trying to fit with humans¨, something that Danny doesn't fully deny because again, he doesn't know what to answer.

It gets sadder when you think about how Danny sees himself as a ¨freak¨ due to being half ghost-half human. It isn't hard to see why: He is very unique in nature, probably something he believes that shouldn't exist in reality yet here he is.

It makes me kinda of sad that this concept wasn't explored further because it has so much potential for character arcs for Danny and exploring how he views himself as a halfa.

[en-trashy]

Sunshine 西村力

After the incident Niki wants y/n back to be roommates but she doesn't want him anymore, broke relationship is not the best. Sunshine fem character and dark aura Niki (not rude anymore)

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Pt.2 of this

Tw: jealousy, opposites attract, slight description of the suicide attempt, hospital and treatment, parenting neglect, slight toxic Niki, skin ship, kisses, a lot of Jay interaction with the female character:)

The bep of the machines was the first thing she heard then Niki's voice struggling to keep his composure on the phone.

-Ma'am I know… yeah y/n told me about the cruise ship but… no, this is really important I just need some basic info about her medical records… hello? hello?...- Niki cursed under his breath running his hand through his hair, he didn't have a single idea of what to answer 

-O positive- her voice sounds strained and weak- I'm allergic to penicillin, I said yes to be an organ donor- she talks through the oxygen mask taking a deep breath- my full name is y/f/n and my security number is on my phone notes… if not they can search my dad and I'm under his security number 

Niki was writing everything as quick as possible to not miss anything giving her phone so she can unlock and provide the security number she handed her phone feeling so tired and cold, she was trembling a little, Niki let her check the paper before going to give it to the nurses by the time he was back in the room with her, she was already tearing up, Niki rushed to her side wiping her tears.

-thank you for helping me, is okay you can go now- her little voice sounds so small and tired of this

-i register myself to be the one here during the night in case you need it- he rubs the back of his neck still unsure to get closer, Niki have this itch to hold her and hug her close to his chest, when he saw her pale and fragile he noticed how much smaller she was compared to him, how easily it is to hurt her- one of my hyungs is on the way here to bring me some things to stay

-you don't have to, I'm really okay and I don't wanna bother you more… I'm sorry for… everything I didn't mean to be a bad roommate 

- you're not- he was interrupted because of a nurse coming to inspect her vitals asking Niki to go out while they check on her.

Heeseung arrived at the hospital bringing a bag with all the things Niki asked for him and her, when he was allowed inside again they explained him where he is supposed to sleep, the bathroom, the button to call in case of emergency and all of the instructions, Niki smiles and nods his head,then smiling at her noticing that they removed the oxygen mask taking out some things for her.

-is really cold so I thought that you may want this- he took out her knitted blanket putting it over her body, taking also her favorite gummies along with his tablet- today is Thursday and we still have a long list of must watch together

She tried to feel happy about this but in reality she knows that he's only feeling pity, this is the longest he has ever talk to her and the first time she actually sees him interested in doing something together, also for the first time she didn't have anything to say to him letting him do this. The movie was a teenage romance, classic nerd girl that becomes pretty after taking her glasses off, along with the popular mean guy that notices her after an equally mean popular girl ditched him, she couldn't help but to tear up not because it was something sad but because she seems to never experience something similar to love, from anyone, Niki noticed wiping her tears helping her to get comfortable to sleep, she was grateful that he didn't try to dig in or talk about her crying, closing her eyes and succumbing to the tiredness in her body, he stayed there watching her in the dim lights of the machines, seeing her chest rise and fall, the line that indicates that her heart is beating, he wanted to make sure that she was still there, just observing her until he couldn't stay awake anymore.

In the morning she woke up first looking around the room finding him sleeping in the small couch there, her phone rings and she answered it was her mom complaining about why a boy called her when she's on vacation, Niki woke up and she felt ashamed that for her mom it was more important her cruise ship instead of her daughter.

-is was nothing mom, just a little fall but I had to be rushed into the emergency services I'm okay tho… yeah I don't think they call again for this… sorry for bothering you have a good day- and just like that the call was finished- you can also go now probably is not much longer before they discharge me from here 

-I can't leave you here alone, how are you supposed to go back to our apartment- Niki gave a warm genuine smile, but she didn't feel it like that

-I won't be back there…-she whispered- I'll will take the first trip to my parents house- she gives the best smile she can- I'll try to take as much as I can this time, but I don't think I can take all, my dad will come after their vacation to pick the rest

-why you mean? You don't have to take all, if you wanna go spend some days to your parents house is okay, but it will be a problem for when we start the new semester bringing back everything again -Niki smiles sensing what she's trying to tell him but refusing to 

-i won't be back next semester… I think is better for me, everyone eventuality will know that your shadow tried to kill herself and I don't want more people to look at me with pity, is enough having your friends pity and yours… - she takes a deep breath struggling a little to talk that much- with luck I'll be able to start in September in the community college near where I live.

She did, she tried to smile and be alright with this choice, to left her dream college and her so desired major to be a public accountant like her dad, since is the only thing she can actually study there.

-can you please leave? Please I wanna be alone- her voice sounds so defeated and helpless, her life like she imagine was crumbling down before her.

Niki really wanted to stay but he also wants to respect her boundaries, leaving reluctantly, just when he closed the door he could heard her sobbings, it broke his heart to listen that, he felt like trash for being the one responsible of everything, if he wasn't so reckless she would never be this hurt, he missed how cheerful and colorful she was he feels miserable now because he took away that little light she was. She cried until her tears run out, a nurse came in to leave her breakfast followed by Niki, unsure to be welcomed inside again, she eats small bites feeling the struggle to swallow, the lump in her throat hurts when she eats, the silence between them feels suffocating for Niki in that moment Jay appears with a gigantic bouquet of tulips.

-how are you feeling miss sunshine? He smiles at her leaving the flower next to her bed, she couldn't take her eyes from them, the flowers are so pretty and her favorites too

-i feel better just cold

-i can imagine you almost pass away because of hypothermia, it was a luck Minju was there, if not the sunshine will be gone- Jay was warm, and she reaffirm why everyone was in love with him, he wasn't like those frat boys in the movies, he's handsome and kind

-Minju? Kim Minju?... Saved me

-well not like that, she was taking a walk when she saw you climb the bridge and called the emergency services, when you fell the paramedics arrived, they took you out in time and treated you… she wanted to come but she wasn't sure if you would want her here so she sent this - Jay took a plush keychain of a bunny, with bows and a dress similar to one she actually owns- she hopes that you like it and that you get better soon, also she told me that she won't tell anyone about this 

-can you say thank you for me, and that I'm sorry for the struggle and the bother I may cause to her- she smiles genuinely for the first time in days, admiring her plush and her flowers- I left the jacket at home, you can return it and have your money back

-oh no it's yours, how can I return something you look so cute wearing? It's yours is also a gift so don't even think in paying me back- Jay got close to her, brushing the baby hairs out of her face making her blush, no one was ever this good to her- there it is, that beautiful color on you- he smiles and poke her red cheek making her more shy- gotta go I have to pick my mom for a date, see you sunshine hope you get better 

-thank you for coming Jay, I really like my flowers- she was blushing intensely like a teenager, and Niki was seeing their interaction feeling something on his chest a pinch there, uncomfortable and it made him somehow angry, is he jealous? Of Jay and y/n?Jay left the room waving at her and sending a flying kiss that made her giggle, Niki rolled his eyes and saw him go, after Jay was gone only the beep of the machines were the only sound in the room.

-Minju likes you a lot- she only looks at her lap and the plush Minju send- I heard her talk about you with her friends… we share a class- she knew that Minju rejected him since Jay told her- I'll talk to her to clarify everything before I left, I promise, you can try again I bet she'll say yes this time- she bites her lip trying not to cry again, her little crush on Niki must be gone now, specially since he made very clear how he feels about her

-I don't think it will be the best 

-She's really pretty… like the movies we saw, popular and pretty, just that unlike what happens in films she's really nice and kind too… you'll look so good together… you also look like one of those bad guys in movies but you're kind too that's why people like you 

-I haven't been kind to you 

-Is okay, I know is because I'm a lot to deal with… not even my parents, they prefer to be far away from me than be on Christmas together… last year was the same- she shrinks her shoulders trying not to think a lot about this

- you're not… people likes you too

- I know is not true, that's why I don't have friends… don't wanna talk anymore my body hurts 

-okay, but Jay hyung said it, you're a sunshine

Niki left the room to call for a nurse to check on her, they did an usual check up and gave her medicine and treatment, she fell asleep tired with everything that happened, when she woke up in the afternoon the first thing she saw was Niki sitting on the couch sewing her green dress looking at a tutorial on his phone, she looks at him with amusement he's frowning while doing the stitches so carefully I took him a while to notice that she was awake watching him.

-oh just in time, look- he lifts the dress to show her proud of his work- it broke when you fell but now is like brand new- she didn't know how to feel about it, she didn't want to be overly excited of Niki doing simple yet meaningful things for her because of guilt 

-thank you… is my favorite recently I didn't mean for it to be ruined- Niki handed the garment for her to look at it, making her smile for the first time after the incident, he felt his heart skip a beat seeing her like that with that little spark of hers

-you look pretty when you smile - that little frase and Niki's smiling face made her remember his venom words, Niki is getting closer to her- miss sunshine is getting her colors back- he chuckled and leaned over her automatically erasing her smile, he's trying to… she doesn't know, he's trying to kiss her making her nervous pushing him away just when his face was centimeters away from her face, her voice came out in a whisper 

-can you leave please? Like leave really… I don't wanna you here, I'm not feeling well… and neither I'm sure if I want to keep seeing you… you make me feel confused because you treat me bad and now you're kind… -she felt ashamed of what she was saying never putting boundaries for anyone before- I like you, the same way you like Minju… but I don't want you to only kiss me because of your pity 

-Is… I don't feel pity 

- neither your guild, you made clear what you think of me, don't wanna see you ever again please?- she looks at him with her teary eyes- I'm not a disposable toy you can treat badly and then kiss… go home Riki

- I'm sorry… I won't do it again… I'll just stay to take care of you won't do anything like that again it was a mistake…

- of course kiss me will be a mistake- she didn't even know why she was crying maybe it was everything, she couldn't hold it anymore, she felt angry, so angry something unusual in her, when Niki tried to talk again she didn't let him- just go now don't wanna see you ever again… this whole thing is a mistake, you and me as roommates, this lame get together on Thursday when your friends couldn't be with you… I don't wanna be the last resource for when you're bored… go… GO

A nurse heard all her rage talk and her yelling at Niki, seeing her so distress made her call security on her room, taking Niki out of the hospital, he felt so frustrated and dumb for what he did, kicking a trash bin screaming in frustration, after some minutes to cool down he went inside the hospital but only to find out in reception that y/n asked for him not to be allowed anymore, now that made him more angry wanting to break in just to see her, security took him out of the hospital again into the parking lot where he called an Uber to the apartment once there he noticed how dark and gloomy it was, how he was dark and gloomy, he once had that light but he extinguished, Niki took away the sunshine that y/n was and he knows she's right about wanting him away, what was he thinking? he did it on an impulse, he just saw her and wanted to do it, now what?.

Niki paced around the tiny apartment, he will make things right, he'll find a way to make it up to her, first thing is to actually put on all the decorations and little details about her in the space they live in he took everything out of the box and back in the original place, the cushions, the vase, the little colorful figures she likes, probably she'll need a bigger vase for the bouquet Jay gifted her, maybe a welcome home party, that's exactly what he's gonna do he started to plan everything for her, Niki received the email of her check up and all the studies the hospital made on her, also that tomorrow she will be discharged, with no time to waste he started to do everything going out to buy her decorations a cake, he even buy a Christmas tree hoping that they can decorate together, y/n did bring a box with ornaments for the holidays it was in a cellar in the basement of the building he did bring it upstairs finding really colorful things, he admired everything amazed by how she was able to imprint her personality in every little detail around her, he started to place and put little Santa figures and a Christmas village around the apartment even inside her and his own room; it did made him smile like a fool seeing the snow globes on his desk, on her room he found her book of designs for her classes all the ideas she does have the creativity, Niki didn't want that lost forever, that spark that shines in every thing she does.

When y/n was discharged she didn't have an idea of what to do, she wasn't sure where to go or how to get there, if she goes to her parents house she will be locked outside since she doesn't have keys, going to a friend's house yeah sure, find another place to stay with what money? She was having a headache putting on her green dress, it was cold outside but she didn't have a sweater only the blanket Niki brought for her she picked her things and stayed standing on the parking lot trembling, a really nice car parked in front and Jay did came out of it.

-my god little sunshine where's your coat?- he quickly took his off putting it on her shoulders opening the door for her- get in I'll take you home or whatever you wanna go- she looks at him with Bambie eyes so thankful that he turn on the heat

-I don't know… I don't have where to go… don't wanna see Riki now

- I can take you to the frat house and let you stay in my room, but if you feel uncomfortable you can tell me and I'll find a solution- he gives her a smile and she nodded in affirmation

-how did you know I was discharged?

-Niki told me… be wanted to do something nice for you but he made clear that you didn't want to see him so he sent me for you, by the way he organized a welcome thing for you hoping that maybe you can forgive him

-I don't feel ready to see him yet…

Jay only nods not digging in the topic anymore he drove in silence parking outside a beautiful house, really large, he opened the door to help her get out of the car and then he let her walk in first.

-Im back, there's a new rule… no walking around the house naked or semi naked, no sex jokes, no harassing her, no touching her, no talking to her unless she wants to talk to you, most important no coming into my room… now boundaries set, this is y/n is my guest for tonight and as long as she wants, we want her to feel comfortable so behave

Everyone there agreed with him without questioning him, Jay guides her through the house into the last floor and a room more like a penthouse, letting her in she looks around amazed, while Jay texted Niki to tell him that she won't be there for now.

-now clothes, you look really pretty with that dress but is not suitable for winter, soon will start to snow and we don't want the sunshine back in hospital or sick at home- he took sweatpants ang a long sleeve shirt, also one of his sweater- probably it will be big for you but is better than freeze

Jay went out to let her change clothes, waiting until she told him it was alright to come inside, he did knock before coming inside for her, she feels shy because nobody had been this attentive to her

-you must be hungry and tired of the hospital food, let me make you something

Y/n wasn't sure if Jay was doing this because he feels pity for her, but unlike the way she felt with Riki with Jay she felt something genuine and warm, even if it was pity she wanted to enjoy having someone caring for her.

When Niki saw the message he wanted to punch himself in the gut, she didn't even want to be near him, she prefers Jay over him even when she meet him first, Niki clenched his jaw before packing some things in a pink bag, taking the cake and going out straight to the frat house.

He didn't need to be invited since Jay was his friend, he did have free entry there, he saw the new ones doing the chores of the house as part of their initiation, asking one of them where's Jay, they indicated the way to the kitchen before he could go inside he heard her laugh, a genuine soft laugh, enjoying the bad jokes of Jay, when hold himself and grounded his thoughts before stepping inside, Jay was mixing something on the stove and she was sitting on the counter smiling wearing Jay's clothes, why she was so happy here? Why does her spark only shine here and not in the apartment with Niki?

-oh Niki I didn't knew you'll come here

-you told me I didn't need an invitation to the frat

-yeah I said that, you can go to the game room if you want the newbies finished the cleaning

-I didn't come to play… I come to take her home- Niki locked his eyes on her blushy face, feeling something pinching his heart

-don’t wanna go please Jay, you told me I can stay here- she whispered pulling Jay close to her using his body as a shield putting more distance between her and Niki, something that made him furious but he swallowed all to not upset her more

-I know you probably hate me now, and I don't blame you I know what I did was wrong and it was worse how I tried to force myself into you by kissing you… it's just that I don't know what I feel, I thought I was done with you, but now that I experienced how's life without you I noticed how dark it actually is, how horrible is to come back not hearing you singing voice in the kitchen, how painful was to see your things in the trash… I know I fuck It up but I don't know how to be a good friend and I thought that maybe if I push you out you'll never have to be near to be disappointed of me but you're and you hate me… I'm stupid okay? Because maybe I wanted to deny how much I started to like you, how much I love every bit of you… I'm sorry I hurt you and that I was the one responsible for you to try end your life, I never felt so afraid to lose something until I didn't saw that sunshine that used to like be around with me in our apartment, I really want an opportunity to make things right this time, please just one? One chance I won't fuck It up again- She was petrified listening, holding onto Jay, Niki felt more nervous that she didn't answer and probably he just ruined things even more he tried to get close but Jay put distance between them

-I need time to clear my mind, I don't wanna come back right now to the apartment… I'm not sure I can be near you… at least for now- her voice was soft and calm, unlike her hammering heart, Niki let out a deep breath

-okay… I did bring you your cake, I wanted to surprise you at home but it's your favorite and it will be a shame if we throw it away, it's cherry velvet cake… also I bring your clothes even tho I hoped for you to come back with me

He left the things there in the kitchen island, giving one last look at her before leaving the kitchen and the house. When he arrived home he saw the sign he made for her and the balloons and everything, he saw how even if he used a lot of colors it was still gloomy, it needed her to shine, he went to bed even if it's just the afternoon he buried himself under the blankets.

In the frat Jay finished cooking for her making her company, feeding her, trying his best to not think in Riki, but how could she if he admitted that he likes her, maybe not romantically like she does but at least friendly, Jay did everything to help her feel better and she did, he put on a movie and made pop corn, making her relax, by nighttime he helped into bed tucking her in the blankets, he made himself a improvised bed on the floor.

-I can take the floor, I don't feel good knowing I took your bed

-what kind of men would I be letting a beautiful lady sleep on my floor while I'm in bed?

-we can share then? Is really big and I don't feel uncomfy with you… you make me feel safe- Jay smiled climbing on his bed and taking his side of the bed.

-Well if you don't feel good I can go to the living room and take the sofa, okay? Don't feel bad of telling me that, good night sunshine

-good night Jay, thank you

She quickly fell asleep still feeling a little weak and cold, snuggling in Jay's side taking his warmth, in the morning he woke up with his arm wrapped on her and she peacefully sleeping, he stayed like that enjoying this peaceful morning, that didn't last long his bedroom door opened abruptly with Niki coming inside uninvited holding a bag and a tray with coffee, frowning and clearly pissed that they were not just sharing bed but alsothey're cuddling

-what are you doing here?- Jay said in his deep morning voice

-I came to see her and I did bring her favorite for breakfast- Niki said like if it was obvious or if it was something he did on the regular

-as you can see sunshine is still sleeping, you can leave I'll tell her you'd been here later- Jay said not minding that Niki was literally killing him with his eyes and just when he was about to talk he interrupted- listen she doesn't want to see you now stop forcing yourself on her, she needs time you hurt her Riki stop doing it now

-just tell her I came to check on her and that I'll wait for her at home- Niki left defeated leaving the breakfast for her in the nightstand, when the door closed and he didn't longer hear steps he chuckled

-I know you're awake sunshine- Jay moves slightly to push a part enough to see her blushing face- good morning, did you sleep well?

-good morning, I did… I'm sorry I cuddled you… thank you for telling him to go, you think he knows I pretend to be sleeping?

-no, he's too dumb to notice small things, oh and don't say sorry for something like that I cuddled you too- he smiles sitting in bed with her- let's have breakfast now that is still warm

-thank you Jay, for everything- he started to feed her little pieces eating almost everything until she was satisfied- can I ask you why you helped me if we're not friends?

-oh I thought we were friends now- Jay looks at her- I did it because you need it, you're actually nice and my mom would kill me if I saw someone that I could help and I won't do anything about it… also I know Niki can be a stubborn but he's my friend and I know he cares about you, one time he spent solid 20 minutes talking about you, you don't talk that long about someone you dislike, he's dumb and hasn't developed his brain well enough yet to know when he really likes someone, the way he likes you and not someone like Minju who he likes because he's used to seeing her at our parties and she's cute, but not like you

-you’re saying this only to make me feel better

-you think I'm lying? well if I wasn't right Niki wouldn't even remember the things you like, he wouldn't know what vintage shop you're so in love with, he wouldn't notice your size to buy you a dress, wouldn't know your favorite snacks- Jay hold her by the shoulders to make him look at him- he knows everything about you even little silly things about but he took way too long to know that he wants you not Minju, he doesn't even know her major, but about you, oh boy don't get me started, Minju rejected him because in a supposed date Niki talked about how annoying you were singing happily while making his breakfast, who the hell will talk about someone else when you wanna date?

-i I didn't knew that

-sunshine don't tell me you're just as airhead as him- Jay dragged his hand on his face- you know everything about him too and didn't notice how he was slowly dying for you… it was just a suspect in our side as friends but how he nearly kills me when I cuddled you only helped me put together everything, I helped you because he's my friend and I need to help him sometimes but doesn't mean I won't tell him when he's messing everything that's why I kicked him out of here

-thank you again

-is okay sunshine, let's get you ready for the day okay?

Jay was really careful with her to not make her uncomfortable, even if she was in a house full of unknown men she felt safe, Jay was outside the bathroom door while she shower so no one can come inside and see her vulnerable, she came out already dress with the clothes Niki left for her, she was wearing a monochromatic yellow set warm a cozy for the weather.

-i’m ready JayJay

-oh my little sunshine you look so beautiful- he makes her twirl to look at her- gorgeous- she's blushing and smiling- let's go do your hair

Jay sit her on his chair in front of the desk taking a blow-dryer brushing her hair, styling it in a high ponytail with a bow, giving a mirror so she can look at herself while he goes shower, she was waiting for him scrolling on her phone when a message from an unknown number pop on her notification.

At first she was confused and then realized it was Niki, she didn't answer not feeling ready yet to face him after everything Jay said about Riki, he wrote that he missed her, she started to spiral down in thought until Jay appeared again.

-you feeling good?

-yeah I just I don't know if I wanna go back to live with Riki or if I wanna be on this college anymore I think my parents were right and it was a mistake my major, coming here in general- she hugs her knees 

-how can it be a mistake if you love your major? most important if you're so talented… you can't tell me you're not I saw your designs in the exhibition at campus 

-I feel confused now

-don't let someone take away that from you- Jay takes her hand helping her to get up- c’mon let's go out to do something fun instead of staying here to cry about my friend 

She happily accepted, following him to his car and letting him take her anywhere. They spend the whole day in the amusement park, riding everything she wants even if Jay felt afraid sometimes, they had food and snacks, even they tried the fair games and Jay won a big plushie a blue bear, when he gives it to her she bounce hugging it, Jay took photos of her alone and them together, calling it a day when she said she was tired, even if she was out of hospital she got tired more easily than before the incident, Jay drove both of them back to the frat carrying her because she fell asleep on the ride home, Niki was waiting for them in the front door frowning at Jay.

-where were you?

-out, don't make noise you're gonna wake her

-stop doing that

-what carry her inside? Am I supposed to leave her in the car?- Jay laugh softly 

-no, taking her away from me

-i don't have time to deal with you now Niki 

Niki was blind by jealousy holding Jay's shoulder trying to take her from his arms, Jay held her hugging her body and making her stir and complain.

-look Niki is late she's tired and I'm too, go home now

-why you take y/n on a date when you know I like her, why you insist in taking her away from me- Niki started to yell, making her open her eyes confused- I'll take her with me now- Jay holds her and shield her body away from Niki going inside the house ignoring him, asking the newbies to take him out while he rocks her to sleep again.

She quickly fell asleep again leaving her peacefully sleeping on his bed and going down to the front door to confront Niki about this, who was yelling at Jay that he was a bad friend for dating the girl he loves.

-i'm gonna say this once before I kick you out of here, I didn't take her away and in fact I find really funny that you think that when you pushed and insulted her in front of all of us, that you left her alone when she wasn't feeling good only to find out that she tried to take her own life, it's actually hilarious that you realized your love for her after almost losing her but you never appreciated everything she did for you- Jay laughs humorlessly- you are blaming me for your own decisions, sunshine doesn't want to be near you, doesn't even want to see you, now go and don't come here unless she tells you to do it, get it… new rule he's not allowed in the house until I say so, if you see him catch and call the police because of an intruder 

Jay went inside the house and directly to his room, she was still sleeping, he changed clothes before getting inside the bed with her.

Two weeks pass in a blink of an eye, Niki didn't tried to be back in the frat again, he wasn't invited when his other friends were there playing videogames, unlike the times Niki forbade her to leave her room, she was invited to play with them, Sunghoon let her win a couple times but not Heeseung or Jake, as she learn they're competitive, she learned a lot about them and their personalities even got to know Sunoo and Jungwon who also we're friends but didn't hang around so often because of their tight schedule, she was happy and more comfortable now, her mind cleared a lot even if Niki kept sending messages and she didn't reply them. It was already Friday and they were getting ready for a party in the frat and even asked her if it was okay for Niki to come, she didn't feel bad about him again so she accepted, she was kinda nervous to see him again even if she wasn't sure to be back with him in the apartment she knows she cannot live in the frat forever, she was taking her time to get ready wanting to look pretty maybe Niki will notice that she's wearing makeup today or that she's wearing a dress shorter than usual or heels, or maybe he won't, her mind was racing by the time Jay knocked on the door.

-ready sunshine? the party already started Niki it's been here since we started to prep everything, just letting you know in case you don't wanna cross path with him

-is okay I'm ready

- gorgeous as always

Riki didn't have as much fun as her, he became darker and the apartment gloomy, he goes everyday to her room, like a creep to see her clothes and smell her perfume on them, he even took one of her pillows to his bed to hug at night, he didn't eat well missing her in the afternoon cooking and dancing in the kitchen, he sent texts that never had a reply but he somehow feels warm on his chest when the read appears below them. He didn't expect for his friends to invite him to the party in the frat specially when they post their pictures together and her doing everything he used to do, he saved all the photos to be able to see her, smiling and shining, he got ready early and arrived before everyone hoping to see her before the house become a mess, but she was nowhere near so he helped to install everything, the guest started to come one by one until it was somehow crowded he feels suffocated trying to find a place for him alone but just in that moment she was coming downstairs looking like an angel, that pinch of jealousy on his chest hurt when he noticed Jay was holding her hand and making her laugh, by the time she noticed him looking she waved softly at him, Niki feels his heart skip a beat not wanting to make the same mistakes he just waved back not following her.

Y/n noticed the dark circles under Niki's eyes and how he didn't look at his best, but even with all of that he was still as breathtaking as always, he was wearing a sleeves black t-shirt and ripped jeans, he looked good with his silver chains and rings; she followed Jay to where his friends are, laughing with them, slowly each one of them got a girl to be entertained the rest of the night, even Jay did after he reassure him that she'll be okay and if she doesn't feel comfortable she'll be back upstairs, y/n was alone drinking from a glass, a non alcoholic beverage Heeseung made only for her, she was dancing slightly to a song she likes.

-do you wanna dance with me?- Niki was behind her looking ashamed and ready for rejection

-maybe- she looks at him now that he's close a little frown on her soft factions- are you a good dancer?

-I’m the second best dancer in the whole campus- he rubs his neck- you're the first place- that made her giggle and Niki relaxed

-I would love to dance with you- she takes his hand guiding him to the living room where all the other couples were dancing, Niki hesitate to hold her- is okay if you don't want to hold my waist we can hold hands

-no, it's just… if… it's alright if I touch you- she nods and Niki nervously holds her and started to dance relaxing slowly- I'm sorry I was a horrible person with you

-you really were mean to me and rude too

-I know, Jake called me a dick head- she laughed- I'm glad you like my friends

-why is that so?- Niki pull her body closer to his afraid to let her go

- because I wanna a chance, to make things right this time… and if you like my friends now I already have a worry less, I won't be afraid of you dumping me because of them

-why would someone dump you because of them if they're so good to me and everyone else?

- I, well I don't know, you're right I'm the bad one of the group

-you’re not only a little rough- Niki blush ashamed, spinning with her to the rhythm

-can you give me a chance? I promise I'll change, I'll be better for you- Niki searched in his pocket taking a small box from it- I want you back home, I haven't started to decorate the Christmas tree, and it's almost the date, I was hoping we can spend Christmas and new years eve… I found this in the shop you like

He handed the box and when she opened she found the most beautiful thing, it was an ornament, really colorful and pretty, she knew what it was but didn't want to get too excited.

-the lady told me it was a Louis Tiffany original, but I don't know if it's real of if she just told me that to sell it for much more, she gave me the certificate it's inside the box- she was amazed looking at the fragile ornament

-oh Niki it's, I don't know what to say… this are expensive for an ornament, it's a Bradford of Tiffany, it's… I'm speechless

-well I was hoping that this can be the first of many, I asked for more in the vintage shop, so we can decorate our apartment

She put the ornament back in the box throwing herself on his arms to hug him, giggling and bouncing in excitement, Niki's heart beats faster now that he gets to feel and see her spark again and for him, on an impulse she pecks his lips, really fast almost none but Niki was petrified.

-sorry I didn't mean I got really excited- Niki cups her face looking at her lips getting closer and asking silently for permission, she nods slightly and he leans to give her a sweet kiss, soft and short, pulling apart, she smiles so big wrapping her arms on his neck and feeling Niki's hands on her hips holding her close to his body.

-Can I move back to our apartment?

-nothing would make happier that my sunshine coming back to our home

-your sunshine?

-mine if you want- Niki blush and she enjoyed seeing him like this

-maybe I'll think about it, you know Jay calls me like that- Niki huff annoyed

-don't even mention him… you're mine, my sunshine, not his, not anybody else- he was still swinging side to side to the beat of the song on the background

-that makes you my storm cloud

-pretty funny you're- he rolled his eyes and she giggles- I missed you a lot I almost died, I missed your laugh and everything about you I put your things back in place but it's not the same without you I'm sorry for the mess I made

-hush now you're ruining the mood, and probably you're ruining my future boyfriend's proposal- Niki was surprised and quickly started to cover her face in kisses, making her smile and giggle- I'll say yes but you have to take me on a date first

-oh of course wherever you wanna go or do I'll take you- he leans to kiss her neck peppering kisses on her soft skin.

-i think I love you… it's alright if I say that?- Niki lifted his face from her neck

-I think I love you too… I may adore you even if I realized too late

-not late, in time to not ruin our opportunity together

-just in time to see my sunshine

She smiles happily about the outcome of everything, even with the pain and the struggle, she likes how everything at the end was worth it, how he seems to deeply love her now. she's the sunshine, Niki's sunshine and he was so happy to be able to hold her and dance with her on his arms, hearing her sweet voice and beautiful laugh.

Fin.

Thank you so much for reading this and liking the first part too

[shimmerandink]

Will the world tear us apart?

Older! Silco x Singed daughter! Reader Headcanons

Feat (Singed, Sevika, Jinx)

Fluff/slight mention of smut

Tags: Silco x reader, Reader is Singed daughter, sligt mention of smut, mention of one night stand, Age difference, older silco x younger reader

Note: Hello everyone! Wouldn`t it be interesting if Silco fell in love with Singes daughter? How would their relationship evolve? what would others think? keep reading to find out!

-You grew up in the shadows of a dimly lit laboratory, surrounded by the sterile scent of chemicals and the hum of strange machines.

-Singed was not a bad father in the traditional sense,he provided food, shelter, and an education, but affection was absent.

-He viewed you as a subject of study just as much as his own child, always watching how you learned, adapted, and reacted to his work.

-Your bedtime stories weren’t fairy tales, they were theories on transmutation, anatomy, and the philosophy of progress.

-Unlike others, you understood your father’s mind, but that didn’t mean you agreed with it.

-Singed wanted to keep you hidden, afraid someone would hurt you if they ever found out about him having a daughter.

-One night, Silco comes to the lab for a progress update, but instead of being greeted by Singed, he finds you.

-He’s caught off guard but masks it with amusement, Singed never struck him as the parental type.

-“And what exactly are you supposed to be? His little assistant? Or another one of his test subjects?”

-If you’re confident, you match his wit, making him even more intrigued. If you’re quiet and calculating, he watches you closely, already trying to figure out what use you might have to him.

-Singed is unfazed by the introduction, but Silco can tell he’s avoiding explaining why he never mentioned you. Did he not trust his own lab partner?

-At first, Silco sees you as nothing more than an oddity. Singed never mentioned having a daughter, which means he was deliberately keeping you a secret. That alone intrigues him.

- He watches you closely, testing you with questions and observations. Are you as brilliant as your father? Are you loyal to him? Or do you have your own ambitions?

-If you challenge his views, he’s entertained rather than irritated, he enjoys a good debate, and if you can hold your ground against him, he respects that.

-Over time, he starts relying on you for second opinions on matters of science or strategy, valuing your insight in a way that even Singed notices. You were smart, and he knew that.

-If you’re resistant to his authority, he finds amusement in trying to break through your defenses, pushing until you show emotion. He likes control, but he also likes people who don’t immediately submit.

- He gives you small tasks at first, testing whether you’ll follow his orders. The more useful you prove yourself, the more responsibility he gives.

-If there’s romantic tension, it develops slowly. Silco doesn’t rush things, nor does he entertain thoughtless distractions. But if he finds himself drawn to you, he won’t ignore it.

-The shift happens when Silco realizes he cares, which is dangerous for him. He lost Vander, and he refuses to make that mistake again.

-If you get hurt, he’s furious at whoever harmed you, at himself for allowing it to happen, and at the realization that he actually feels something about it.

-If you’re distant, he lets you be, for a while. But eventually, he forces you to confront your own emotions, just as much as he struggles with his.

-At first, he doesn’t recognize it as feelings. He convinces himself that he values your intelligence, your skills, that’s all.

-But then he catches himself watching you too often, lingering too long on the way you speak, the way you carry yourself.

- He rationalizes it as control, you’re useful, and he needs to keep you close. That’s why he’s so focused on you. Right?

-Except when you’re not around, he finds himself irritated, restless, like something is missing.

-Silco does not fall easily, and when he does, it’s like a war within himself.

-He tells himself it’s a distraction. Zaun must always come first.

-He wants to be indifferent. He needs to be indifferent. But when you smile at him, when you challenge him, when you see him, it shakes him.

-Silco is fully aware of the power imbalance between you two, he’s older, more experienced, and already in a position of power. If you’re much younger, he’s hesitant at first.

-He’s a strategist, and he knows how things look.. However, Silco isn’t ruled by societal norms, he values intelligence and strength above all else.

-If you prove yourself as an equal, he stops caring about the age gap. If anything, he finds your youthful perspective refreshing. It reminds him of what he used to be, idealistic, driven, before the world hardened him.

-Your confession was complicated. Well, it wasn`t really a confession.

-One night when the weight of everything in Zaun felt to strong, Silco needed to have a drink, and another, and another.

-Slco isn’t one for reckless drinking, but tonight, he indulges. It’s just the two of you, sharing a bottle over quiet conversation.

-The air is thick, the kind of tension that’s been building for weeks, months, a slow, silent war of lingering looks and brushes of contact neither of you acknowledge.

-And then, suddenly, the distance between you is gone. A touch lingers too long, a gaze locks for just a second more than it should. Someone makes the first move, and the rest unravels like a thread pulled too tight.

-It’s neither rushed nor hesitant, it’s something inevitable, something that’s been simmering beneath the surface for far too long.

-Silco is not a careless lover, his control lingers even through the haze of alcohol, but there’s a rawness to it tonight. He doesn’t hold back like he usually does.

.When it’s over, there’s a moment, a breath held between reality and whatever this was. He doesn’t speak immediately. Neither of you do.

-When you stir awake, there’s a beat of silence. Then, the reality hits you.

-“Shit.” Your voice is groggy, laced with the remnants of alcohol.

-“Regretting it already?” His voice is smooth, but there’s something beneath it. Something sharp.

-Neither of you knows what to say, so instead of talking about last night, you both pretend. Pretend it never happened. Pretend it didn’t change things. But it did.

-The tension is unbearable in the following days. He avoids you, but not fully. You talk, but it’s different, like both of you are teetering on a knife’s edge.

-One night, it explodes, an argument, a moment of weakness, something snaps.

-“What do you want from me?” His voice is low, dangerous,like he’s daring you to say it. And you say it.

- Maybe not in words, not directly, but in the way you don’t back down. In the way you step closer instead of away.

-This time, when he kisses you, it’s sober. And it’s not just a one-night thing anymore-

-Singed is the first to know. Maybe he sees the subtle changes in Silco, or maybe he catches you leaving Silco’s office far too late at night.

-Singed is unbothered, at least outwardly. He is not a man concerned with emotions or relationships.

-However, if your relationship with Silco begins affecting your work or distracting you from progress, that`s when he steps in.

-“Sentiment is a distraction. You were raised to be better than that.”

-He doesn’t outright forbid anything, but he watches, closely. And if he thinks Silco is interfering with his work, he won’t hesitate to remind him that science should always come first.

-He doesn’t warn you, he warns Silco. Because Singed knows him too well. He knows what attachment does to men like him.

-He would never admit it aloud, certainly not to someone who might carry word back to Singed, but he found you undeniably stunning. But that wasn`t the only factor for his attraction to you.

-Intelligence, He’s drawn to minds that challenge him. If you offer insight that he hasn’t considered, you earn his respect.

-Independence, He does not want someone weak-willed or overly reliant on him. If you can stand on your own, he finds it admirable.

-Loyalty, but not blind obedience, He doesn’t want a puppet, he wants someone who chooses to be by his side. If you stick with him despite your own reservations, he sees that as real loyalty.

-Subtle Defiance, If you push back against him, challenge him, or refuse to be easily controlled, he finds it entertaining. He doesn’t want another Sevika, he wants someone with their own mind.

-Your Relationship with Singed, Whether you hate your father or admire him, Silco finds your dynamic fascinating. Do you seek to surpass Singed? Rebel against him? Silco enjoys watching how that unfolds.

-Your relationship with Silco does not go unnoticed, and not everyone is thrilled about it.

-Sevika doesn’t approve at first. She thinks this is a weakness, a liability. “You’re getting soft,” she mutters over a drink one night, watching how Silco’s eyes follow you across the room.

-Her loyalty is to Silco, and if you’re what he wants, then fine. But if you hurt him? She won’t hesitate to remind you who he was before you.

-Jinx is the wild card, her reaction depends entirely on how she feels about you before she realizes what you mean to Silco. If she already liked you, she gets clingy.“Ohhh, so you and Dad are a thing now? Gross.” But she teases more than she judges. But if she sees you as a threat? Oh, you have a problem.

-People in Zaun whisper. Some fear you now—Silco’s lover is just as dangerous as he is. Others test you, seeing if you’re just a pretty face or if you can actually handle the weight of being at his side.

-Silco doesn’t justify anything. He lets people think whatever they want. Their opinions are irrelevant. But if someone disrespects you? They disappear. Quickly.

-You humanize him, but only in private. In public, he is still Zaun’s unyielding leader. But behind closed doors? He lets himself be a man, not just a figurehead.

-He tests your loyalty constantly, not out of doubt, but because the world is cruel, and he needs to be sure you won’t break under its weight.

-You understand him in a way no one else does. And that? That is what terrifies him the most.

-loving Silco means walking a razor’s edge. It means knowing that one wrong move could destroy everything.

So… can you handle it? Or does the world tear you both apart?

[not-that-dillinger]

Ed snorts. "Sure. I'm flattered how much you care about my well being." He says dryly. If there's one thing he's certain of, it's that Oleander doesn't care about his health.

He is... Subjectively fine, though. In a fair bit of pain, from spraining his wrist and sleeping at his desk, but he's been worse. He's coded in worse condition, too. Marginally.

He raised an eyebrow at their question. The answer is complicated. Technically, it was Sherlock Holmes that had gotten him interested in cryptography, got him interested in Morse Code and other ciphers, and eventually lead to learning to program, though at the time, Ed refused to have anything to do with computers, if he could get away with it.

Technically, it was a discussion about Alan Turing, the Bombe computer, and the Enigma Machine in a college history course that got him interested in coding and specifically cyber security. But at that point, he'd already been a year into a computer science degree.

The truth is, it wasn't really his choice. He'd been shoved into the field without ever having been consulted or allowed an opinion on the matter, and essentially told 'sink or swim.' It was just luck that he was good at it and found a part of the field that actually interested him.

He'd never really had the option to not be good at anything.

There's a long pause, where Ed just stares at the computer in front of him, unsure how to answer Oleander, and part of him is sorely tempted to just go back to editing their code and pretend that conversation hadn't happened. Oleander would surely use anything he said against him later.

He doubts ignoring them would be a good choice, either.

Ed sighs. "It was expected of me," he finally says, and leaves it at that. Expected in the same way some parents expect their kids to go to college and get a degree, or to take over the family business. Ed was expected to do both. He was expected to get the degree, then return home and work for fCon, and eventually take over the company when his father retired.

Except at that point, Ed understood how abusive his father had been, how the older Dillinger's need to control him had destroyed his mental health, and Ed had no intention of allowing his father to be in control of his financial situation--because Ed would never be free if he was. It was just luck he landed the internship at Encom.

He shakes his head. Better not to dwell on it.

"What about you?" he asks. "What led you... here, I guess?"

Ed frowns when Oleander looks away. Something was clearly bothering them, though Ed finds them annoying, or an invasion of privacy, he doesn't particularly like them being upset.

What he's doing is enough of an invasion of privacy, without prying into whatever's the matter.

He continues with fixing their code, starting with figuring out what some missing functions that are referenced are It really is a mess, and his wrist hurts, but he's used to that. He's used to writing and editing code until he can't feel his hands. Of course, he usually had his wrist braces to help alleviate the pain, but what he has is enough.

"Hmm?" he asks, when Oleander says his name. They're distracting him, and it's going to take longer to fix so they can both go their separate ways. Ed almost wants to tell them to shush and let him work, but it's their code, and they're not being rude about it, so Ed looks up and back toward them. He waits patiently while they try to find their words. He sighs, and turns back to the code with a shrug. "If you're sure, but you can ask, if there's something you need. I'm not going to bite your head off, unless you're an asshole about it."

[asurrogateblog]

I had a vivid dream that paul also made a flop family-friendly sitcom in the 90’s. it starred him as himself again, and the plot was that he ate a cursed gumball that de-ages him back into a 12 year old, but only sometimes and at completely random intervals, so he has to balance going to school all over again with also being an aging rock star. everyone thinks the young version of him is paul’s secret son that he’s trying to hide the existence of, including ringo who takes pity on this abandoned child and tries to help raise him properly. hijinks ensue in paul’s attempts to prevent people from finding out what’s actually going on

[here-for-the-vibe]

Thanks for the tag losty!! :) [for the record you ARE good at making people laugh online, I can attest to that personally]

what’s the origin of your blog title? I was going for something simple and vague because my interests change with the wind, so I landed on the name “here-for-the-vibe” because I am in fact here for the vibes

otp(s) + shipname(s):

Stranger Things: Will Byers and Mike Wheeler (ie Byler, tho I am partial to the cleradin variant) and also Jonathan Byers and Nancy Wheeler ie Jancy (my parents)

Ron Weasley and Hermione Granger from Harry Potter ie Romione, my very first otp

Kit Voss and Randolph Bell ie Kitbell from The Resident, also my parents

favorite color: Never been able to pick, but it’s between purple, blue and green

song stuck in your head: Feast or Famine from Starkid’s Black Friday. I’ve been itching to write an analysis of it.

weirdest habit/trait: ok so I thought, like losty, that I should ask other people this, and bc I sent this question to a group chat I have two hilarious answers:

I “sometimes move like I’m having a seizure” by which she meant my random erratic hand movements that some might call “stims” but I just call me being fidgety

I “randomly break into dance” which is not only correct but also says everything you need to know about me

hobbies: I’m busy with other things a lot but when I have the time, I bake, write, read a bunch, and I also specifically write political/current events pieces that I will never post anywhere

if you work, what’s your profession? I’m a student so I fear I’ve never worked, my job rn is being a suck up to adults and trying to get into a good university

if you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Either a journalist or a zookeeper. Maybe both. I love both educating with and advocating for the truth, and I also wanna cuddle a tiger. So��

something you’re good at: making people like me, sounds weird but I apparently have a very welcoming aura (or everyone is lying to me)

something you hate: Anti-intellectualism. Specifically the kind that includes being antivax and anti-modern medicine. Nothing makes me more upset.

something you collect: Keychains. I have way too many and not nearly enough keys.

something you forget: birthdays… not exactly ideal…

what’s your love language: this took me a second to think about but I’ve gotta say it’s somewhere between physical touch and sheer devotion. You say jump, I ask how high. You want cuddles, have a million. As with most devoted people… I tend to get fucked over a lot.

favorite movie/show: this is a hard one, because it’s shockingly not Stranger Things, as much as I adore it. I’d say my favorite movie is probably The Mitchells vs The Machines (not the most profound but I identify with it a fair bit) and my favorite show is DEFINITELY Heartstopper (I’ve broken down in tears more than once over it)

favorite food: I’m guessing coffee doesn’t count, in which case I’ll say eggs (all kinds. every single one.)

favorite animal: turtles because I live with one and he’s so spoiled, tardigrades (MY GOD THEY’RE SO COOL), also do prehistoric animals count because trilobites and the sacabambaspis are hilarious

what were you like as a child: I had barely any concept of boundaries and empathy so I was kinda evil. Still managed to make adults like me though. Was also strong headed, sometimes to my detriment. Shockingly unbridled internet access was actually what FIXED me bc I was sheltered as hell, so being exposed to different types of people made sure I didn’t grow up to be a bigot (rip my parents they didn’t get to make me homophobic before ff.net made me gay)

favorite subject at school: Can’t pick between Math, Literature and History. My brain works sequentially like a computer so Math, but if you’ve known me a while you know why I like History and Lit (they helped me understand things and I like Understanding Things)

least favorite subject: Art and French. My art teacher was evil and French as a language just never agreed with me. One of the only things I remember from French is the sentence “Je deteste le français” (‘I hate French’)

what’s your best character trait: Answering questions like this always makes me feel like a narcissist but I’ll try. My mother always says that I’m “the kind of person that will see someone sitting alone and go talk to them” so I guess I’ll go with that?

what’s your worst character trait: It’s either my pathological people pleasing or the fact that I always find myself not keeping my promises. Contradictory but alas.

if you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? I wish my family wasn’t homophobic, considering that I’m queer and I kinda sorta live with them. I wish more than anything that I could introduce my girlfriend to them and have them welcome her the way they would if it was my brother introducing his girlfriend.

if you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? My first thought for this was “Donald Trump as a baby so I could kill him” but I’d like to change my answer to myself ten years from now so I could ask her if I should even bother at this point because it feels like I lose more hope everyday

ok I realize some of these answers are a bit dark but I swear I’m fine

Npt: @lesbianhouseplant @scroofy-was-here @krakoansam @pearlypairings

GET TO KNOW YOUR MUTUALS ✨

Thank you so much for tagging me @starrybouquet! ❤️

what's the origin of your blog title?

I don’t really have a blog title. 🙈 I should probably give that some thought.

otp(s) + shipname(s):

If we mean “OTP: they can only be happy with each other, no one else could ever possibly fulfill either of them,” then I don’t believe in that. But if we mean “OTP: interesting shippy dynamic but other people could also or alternatively make them happy, no gatekeeping here,” then:

Kathryn Janeway/Tom Paris, J/P

Number One | Una Chin-Riley/Christopher Pike, Pikeone or Pikeuna

Seven of Nine/Anyone I Find Interesting

favorite color:

Green and purple.

song stuck in your head:

Trustfall, P!nk

weirdest habit/trait:

I go to bed super-duper early.

hobbies:

Writing. Exercise. Socializing.

if you work, what's your profession?

My goodness, I do not want to talk about my job on Tumblr dot com.

if you could have any job you wish, what would it be?

That’s complicated.

something you're good at:

Organization.

something you hate:

Violence and people who glorify violence.

something you collect:

N/A

something you forget:

I often forget what I’ve bought through online shopping. Then the box arrives and I’m curious as to what’s in it.

what's your love language:

Conversation.

favorite movie/show:

Saving Mr. Banks

favorite food:

I don’t know.

favorite animal:

I don’t know.

what were you like as a child:

Bookish. Social.

favorite subject at school:

English or civics.

least favorite subject:

Math or science.

what's your best character trait?

When I love, I love with my whole heart.

what's your worst character trait?

Hesitancy to reach out or open up.

if you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be?

The answer is too complicated to type out.

if you could travel in time, who would you like to meet?

Relatives who passed away before I was born and were deeply meaningful to people I love.

No-pressure tagging: @deadheaddaisy, @grissomesque, @regionalpancake, @procrastinatorproject, @emilie786, @pc-corner, @coffee-in-that-nebula, @elephant-in-the-pride-parade, @cnroth, @fiadorable, @lorcaswhisky, @the-lady-general, @cicaklah, @caladeniablue, @enterprise-come-in, @theredheadedcaptain, and anyone else I forgot to tag. 💞

[lunapwrites]

Really cool of both of my brothers to have life-changing crises requiring my immediate intervention the same week I come down with Covid.

[katierosefun]

sick and twisted that organizing my desk space (and organizing the clutter in my room in general) does, in fact, make me feel a lot happier and a lot better about my life . . . sick and twisted

[dullahandyke]

Neglecting my course registration responsibilities to ooh and ahh at compact drying racks on home store and more. Look at this cute little thing

[ID: a promotional photo of a compact drying rack.]

[zonotrichia-albicollis]

Giant personal vent time

This guy stole somewhere between 3 to 6 MILLION dollars from my grandmother by conning my great aunt into signing over her estate and medical & financial power of attorney to him literally on her death bed

I and my aunt have been working basically a whole second job the last 3 months trying to get together a legal case to go after this guy. And now my grandma wants to drop it. And no one else has standing so what the fuck can we do.

This man has absolutely done this to other ppl before, there is no doubt in my mind. I’ve seen his property records for just what’s publicly available in my county and it’s sketchy as hell. I am never going to get over this but there’s nothing I can do.

Gonna put like a million more thoughts in the tags because I’m losing my fucking mind.

[thatfaerieprincess]

if one more well meaning relative asks me if i have done any drawing recently i will start screaming and flip a table 🤪🙃

[aether-amalgam-system]

I saw a post the other day (blocked the account of course) with an ask that was basically “I wanna be a system how do I do it” with an endogenic system responding with “how to create a system” like it’s some fun little game. So I’m here with

How To Become Plural, by Someone Who Is Plural

Build a Time Machine. It doesn’t have to be perfect or take you back very far, as long as it takes you back to when you were before the age of 9 ish. The earlier the better. Ignore all your other selves coming to stop you. Be prepared to break the space time continuum.

Use the machine and find yourself in the past. Do not let your younger self know that you are who you are.

Here’s the tricky part. Take baby you and enact repetitive acts of abuse upon you. Any type is fine, as long as it’s long lasting and repetitive. Do this for as long as you can and maybe even rally others, such as your parents or peers, to help you. Side effects of this method will be mentioned later, but it’s not that big of a deal right? You wanna be a system don’t you?

Sustaining the abuse even after your younger self turns 9 is preferable. Remember, this isn’t a foolproof plan. Not everyone develops a system, but this is the best way to do it!

When you return home to your time, you’ll have people in your brain! (Maybe)

Side effects include: PTSD (severe), depression (chronic and severe), anxiety disorders, physical disability, mystery pain that no one can diagnose, memory loss, identity confusion, borderline personality disorder, migraines, stomach issues, disregulated thinking patterns and behaviors, attachment issues, panic attacks, fainting, getting lost in your own hometown, never having a good relationship with at least one of your parents, hatred of the world, and other possible side effects.

But that’s what you wanted, right? Anything to get your favorite anime character in your head, right? Thats what you fucking wanted isn’t it?

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Against my better judgement I’ve acquired two new books from Ollie’s: Coriolanus by William Shakespeare and Empire Games by Charles Stross (which I didn’t know was a series when I got it lol whoopsie… I usually don’t read series; but this is classic-style dystopian sci-fi with time travel so it’s a little different).

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

Ha, I think I deluded myself a little.

After Starset made my #1 Band on last year's Spotify Wrapped, I was like, "That's probably because I had concerts to prepare for."

They had a playlist that was for the IMMERSION tour, and I listened to that thing for approximately 40 hours a week. I wanted to know EVERY WORD at the show! Then it turned out they played songs that weren't on the playlist (TELEKINETIC and Frequency I think?), of which I knew pieces of the refrains from hearing once or twice on Pandora, I have a pretty long and accurate memory for music, but I didn't learn the lyrics until before the SECOND demonstration last year in August. :P

Anyway, after the shows, I thought about it and I was like, I love Starset and I love them dearly, but I wonder what other band would take its place. It'd be funny if it wasn't Evanescence, my actual Favorite Band of nearly two decades! What would my favorites list look like when I'm out of a Starset hyperfixation?

Would it be mostly Rock still or more heavy on the symphonic metal? What does a year where I'm not listening to Starset constantly look like?

I'm probably not going to find out this year.

Because every time Starset drops a new song, I listen to it approximately 80 times in three days to memorize it and then intermittently listen to it in the following weeks to refresh my memory. (And also just because they're BANGERS.)

They've dropped two new songs this year already.

And they're on my rotation for walks/exercise/etc. because it's such energetic music.

I am definitely NOT going to find out what happens when Starset isn't my Top Band this year. lD;;;

[neonphoenix]

I am the least fun person ever everywhere that I go.