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[stardustanddaffodils]

christmas brings up a few dilemmas that i prefer to just simply Not Think About

[the-gayest-tree-you-ever-did-see]

i feel the betraying culture thing so hard. like it hurts to keep parts of it away from me but it’s something that my ancestors fought so hard to protect i feel like a traitor if i don’t continue on with it. so much of our history has been stolen away it feels wrong to lose any more of it.

as for your new name i think it should be whatever you want it to be! i don’t think it’s fair to feel like you have to choose an indian name that has history you don’t want to be associated with. or even for the fact that it’s hard to pronounce- the way white people say indian names is horrifically painful. also lots of cis indian people still choose to shorten or even change their names to be easier- so you shouldn’t be the only person burdened by this!

you would so be cool enough to pull of arjuna or something from hindu mythology! my irl name is fairly rare-ish or at least it used to be and i’ve been lucky enough to end up likening it. I don’t know if this is particularly relevant but my name had to start with a specific letter based on the zodiac or something, so maybe that could give you a few suggestions :)

that being said i think a good consideration your name should be Ashwat just cause it literally translates to tree (of knowledge) and it’s where budha mediated (mythology plus points). but whatever you end up choosing will be lovely and often names grow to be more comfortable with time!

me too! it’s been over a year since i read chain of gold so i would definitely have to reread it first lol. also author besties!! 🥺🥺

much brain empty but i absolutely loved the fan interview and it made my heart so happy. tyler oakley was a perfect choice and abigail’s moment made me instantly cry like an insufferable twink. phil’s cameos were beautifully awkward and i don’t want to talk about teenage dan cause that literally broke me. 10/10 i loved it and kind of wished dan edited it himself.

i hope you know that every time we talk about tiny children i’m imagining little bean sprouts (and it’s slightly endearing and horrifying).

also i love you too to that anon sprout that knows who they are *blows kiss*...someone write that fic rn- i would guess the angst would be our first fight and me burning down our wedding venue (what can i say i like a bit of dramatic flair).

gives you the biggest hug ever tree because you always know what to say and i loved that you were upset too- it made me feel less insane cause nobody had any type of reaction to the above other than me. (also love how you knew it was me) alec lightwood described causal homophobia the best way possible- “it’s like a million paper cuts ever day.” i don’t have any queer friends irl and have been wanting to fit perfectly into one of those diverse friend groups but life’s not written by becky albertalli. but what i do have is so many wonderful queer and accepting online friends and i’m so thankful.

i love you so much and you know that <3

mwah!

- indi <3

no exactly, ive literally been raised surrounded by people telling me to hang on to my culture like my life depends on it and watching people i love scramble not to lose it so when i make a choice that takes me away from that, even slightly, i feel like such a fraud and a betrayer even though I Know that doesnt make Any Sense but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ unfortunately i have a brain

thats true, i didnt even think of that! its not even about the history for me, bc sooo many people have had literally every name i could think of, so i have all of those bits of people in me and that would balance out the bits of, say, Arjuna the Petty Forest-Burner Who Has Three (3) Friends. or something.

aw thank youuu <3 yeah my name is pretty rare too, and i did have to do the whole zodiac thing 😌 the letter it had to start with was saa, which has cool female names, but idk Sanjay and Sarath give off stupid-engineer-drunk-friend-in-movies vibes so

oooh Ashwat seems like a cool name, ive always loved names with sh sounds in them, so ill add it to the list! ive always like Mahesh as well (steal mahesh babu's gender bc he clearly doesnt know how to use it) and ofc Arjuna, but also Ajay seems cool. i have so many friends named Ajay though, that would probably not be fun. i also looove the name Chandra bc i love the moon <3 and hes literally so sexy in every depiction of him so like *greedy little grin* and i mean if youve got 27 wives you must be doing something right

lmao, the entire time i read chain of gold i was just *static* and have literally no recollection of it. no rereads we die like men

the fan interview was arguably the best part, they said everything that i wouldve wanted them to hear and it was so wonderful 🥺 we've come so far, im so glad we could all come together in some way to acknowledge each other's growth. and gods, abigail made it so peak, genuinely would not have worked the same without her 🥺 your hand in marriage? but yeah, the only way it wouldve been better is if dan edited it himself, and also they didnt use such white lights lol, phil was literally eyes and hair and dan had no features whatsoever

little tiny baby plants with googly eyes and TEETH. terrifying but theyre our children so yada yada unconditional love youre all beautiful in my eyes etc (i love you all)

im like 99% sure that was em! @curldisease 🔫 where is the fic?? 😤

omh i forgot about you burning down the venue 😭✋🏽 our photographer mustve had one hell of a time (and we'd get one hell of a photo album) lmaoo wait i threw your engagement ring at you bc i was gonna propose at the same time 😭 why are we such disasters??

😊🤗 *hugs you back* thank you 🥺 and yeah, thats exactly it i forgot about that line, but gods, it really does feel like that. i would rather be stabbed once than cut a thousand times, but i would MUCH rather not be hurt at all. the world sucks, but at least the majority of people in it dont. i love you too indi.

"lifes not written by becky albertalli" is somehow the funniest and also the most profound thing ive heard, like gods, i wish it was!! at least i'd know everything would be okay in the end! now im just floundering around hoping things go slightly along the lines of my plan. one day you'll find your people in real life and everything will be great, but at least for now you have online queer friends so hold you over <3 and me :)

i love you too, and you better know that <3

mwah! ily indi <3