#. tbt. > isms

[kotttagare]

[hcrctic]

she’s the girl that calls her dad and her boyfriend daddy, just to see the world burn.

[konkuuritobye]

the face jay makes when he has to get out of bed every morning

[zealctry]

memories of childhood

repost. don't reblog. bold what applies. italicize what sometimes applies.

scraped knees, silent tears in a locked room, slamming doors, pervasive loneliness, a dog barking, rain on a metal roof, flinching at movement, the creak of an old house, forced laughter, wandering in the dark woods, wondering how you made it through, sudden loss, trying to make sense of the noise, hiding what you love to protect it, trying to explain but your words falter, invaded privacy, confusion at the pain, running barefoot in the grass, wondering what you did wrong and coming up with nothing, realizing you aren’t a priority, grass stains on white clothing, trying to earn love you will never have, being threatened over the smallest mistake, secrets you are warned not to share, the feeling of never being good enough, the hope things might someday get better, grief that aches in your bones, childish dares and pranks, the sense that your body isn’t yours, shame and guilt that aren’t yours to carry, sledding down a frozen hill, absentmindedly following snakes through the grass, punching a tree until your knuckles bleed, tears over every dead creature you find, searching out small places you can hide… just in case, climbing the tallest tree so they can’t touch you, the feeling of something tainted under your skin, a curious child told to stop asking, floral dresses, body tensing at approaching footsteps, anger with nowhere to go, brief escapes from the chaos, the purr of a contented cat, taking the blame to keep the peace, being told you’re too sensitive, the creaking springs of a trampoline on a sunny day.

tagged by: @smallergcd 💜

tagging: steal this from me, then @ me so I can read it!

[gloireceleste]

falling hurt. physically. emotionally, less. a bit, of course. confusion, hurt, abandonment, anger, disbelief, even more confusion. but the physical pain... even hell's torture when they found out he... anyway, it just doesn't compare. being torn apart and torn from is not a pain any torture past or present can replicate. falling just hurt. a lot.

the giddiness in aziraphale's voice after his chit chat with him, however... the hope, the stubbornness, the sheer ignorance. the knowledge that he had to tell the angel what he needed to tell him now, even though he knew the answer already. knew by his tone. because crowley knew all the different intonations of his, all the itches in breathing, switch in tone and pitch.

so he knew. of course he knew aziraphale would say no, bristle, argue. he bloody knew. he tried anyway. because the year's been shit, hell's been shit, living in his car's been shit. but man if the unsaid 'no' didn't hurt.

falling hurt. he'd rather he'd fell again than think about the angel's expression with his three stupid little words.

"i forgive you."

[dawnsrose]

𝔞𝔲𝔯𝔬𝔯𝔞  𝔠𝔞𝔭𝔲𝔩𝔢𝔱 - 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔪𝔬𝔫𝔱 :  ch.  study

fauna ,  flora  &  merryweather

[konkuuritobye]

jay is like 97% gay so if you're looking for a mxf ship with him your muse is the exception not the rule

[gloireceleste]

while I’m suffering.

crowley’s fall didn’t hurt as much as aziraphale’s rejection good bye

[chirlanim]

charlie, taking alastor to the clinic after the battle at the hotel.

charlie: relax, alastor, everything is going to be okay!

alastor: alright, charlotte. but if i die during the operation will you do one thing for me?

charlie: of course! anything.

alastor: blow up the hospital.

charlie: mh... well, i said i'll do it... so i guess i'll have to...

alastor: that's my girl.

[gravesung-moving]

@harerazor

what the fuck is wrong with you i want you so bad

[winterslght]

hi hello daily reminder that i love u sm and ur entire existence makes my life so much better and i'm so grateful for u all the time always. i'm sorry for laughing at u for having nightmares over the ring, i promise it was out of love. u mean the world to me and i'm so lucky that ur my friend. ily ty ♡

goddamnit becky I made it a point not to cry today. But I appreciate you, so much, and I really, really needed this lil pick me up.

I love you, to the moon and back 🩷

[konkuuritobye]

useless jay facts for the uninitiated:

- jay has a lot of shoulder and back freckles. he has very faint face freckles and you would be forgiven for not even noticing those.

- jay runs warm and hates being hot, but will put up with it if his significant other runs cold.

- jay's love language is praise and gifting others with things they love.

- jay has only ever been in sexual relationships, very frequently until the two years he disappeared (at 21). he's never had a real romantic relationship.

- because of this, he has to deal with constant feelings of extreme jealousy to a toxic point, constantly feeling inadequate for the person.

[gloireceleste]

crowley fidgets. a lot. his worst bouts of it would be when he is stuck waiting - often nervously - for something to happen ( like displacing books, carrying them for no reason, sometimes even with the intention of putting them back where they belong ). these bouts of fidgeting are often cut short by an adrenaline phase triggered by a new variable in the equation ( a phone call for example ) that completely erases and replaces the former train of thoughts and action whether metaphorically or literally ( throwing books willy nilly ).

and then start the dance all over again until resolved.

[velvetvexations]

Hi! Black Velveteer here to give my thoughts on your question wrt your character casually using the n-word. Now I don't speak for all black people, and this is just my own opinion, so don't take it as fact and others might disagree, but tbt......basically, like, it depends? You definitely need to keep some things in mind when you're writing for that, like situational context, their age and personal background, present company etc. Like there is a strong class and generational divide with AAVE and other black dialects in general that effects that kinda thing.

For example, I know most older black folk and those who consider themselves educated or more upper class don't like or even won't use the n-word at all - not to family or friends, and especially not in "polite" company. You don't stand in God's house talking like that, for example lmao. If your black character was raised like this or by family like this, the chance of them using the n-word even casually is pretty much none. They would get smacked otherwise lmao. Like they miiiight, but def not around any of their folks, and probs only under the influence of close friends who do say it a lot or use it like that. You tend to pick up the verbal ticks of people you love or spend a lot of time around.

Now with younger folk, it can be different. If your character is younger and more influenced by their friends/pop culture, they would be more prone to using the n-word more casually. Using it to look and sound tough or cool - to fit in where older black folk just won't do that. Being raised in a city or in the hood or being part of or from other communities like that where AAVE is more prone to thrive would make them saying the n-word casually more likely. They would still get popped if they talked like that if front of their mommas tho, or at the family dinner table, but around friends it would be cool.

Also code switching. Think of it like putting on and talking off a verbal mask. Like I've been getting at above, you act different around family and friends than you do around your coworkers of teachers. It's the same wrt using the n-word. Mostly unless its posturing or a deeply ingrained verbal habit from how and where you were raised (or a combo of the two), black people aren't gonna talk that way around someone or a group of someones unless we trust you. Non-black folk tend to have negative or uncomfortable reactions to the use of AAVE around them, and especially the n-word. Also we tend to elevate our speech around non-black people (and sometimes even other black people, like in a work or college setting) because we don't want to come across as "uneducated" or stuff like that, both because of stereotyping, and because black dialects are very stigmatized - often even among our own. It's the classism, and maybe even some other internalized stuff - antiblackness, racism.

Personality is also a factor. Like, some people might "escape the hood" and start talking "bougie," but will return home and code switch back to old habits and speech patterns when seeing their friends, including casual use of the n-word. Others might insist on keep talking that way and look down on their old friends for speaking like that still. Again, it's the internalized -isms<3

But yeah. That's not everything, and a probs could have worded some things better or different; but just some things to consider when writing for your black character(s?). And again, I'm only one black girl and I don't speak for us all. Some might say don't do it at all; but I say sure, as long as you do your research, and maybe also consider having a black person beta read your dialogue. Look into AAVE and code switching especially. @/writingwithcolor is a good tumblr blog to look through or ask if you want a second opinion.

Sorry this got so long! Love you Velvet and good luck with your writing! <33

Thank you, anon! I have a Black friend who's offered to betaread but I'd also love more input on the matter so if anyone would like to DM me to do the same I'd love that. More perspectives are always good.