#*shaking the Hawkeye fandom*

[hawkzeyes]

*grips you all tightly* if you don’t start tagging Jeremy Renner I’m going to scream. Stop with this madness.

[mash-dynamics-tourney]

Welcome to the M*A*S*H DYNAMIC DUO Tourney!

Who is the indisputably best duo in the 11 year run of M*A*S*H that we should all look at and appreciate? The best pair of buffoons to slump around a grimy O.R. on the wrong continent? Maybe you love them because they're especially comedic, affectionate, antagonistic, familial or just because they're fun to watch interact together on screen. Regardless let's celebrate some of the dynamic duos that we love!

Round Six - Finale!

Klinger & Mulcahy // Hawkeye & Trapper

Round Five - THIRD PLACE

Henry & Radar // Hawkeye & Radar

Round Four - Side A & B:

Klinger & Mulcahy // Henry & Radar Hawkeye & Trapper // Hawkeye & Radar

Round Three - Side A:

Hawkeye & Charles // Klinger & Mulcahy Radar & Blake // Hawkeye & Mulcahy

Round Three - Side B:

Hawkeye & Trapper // Hawkeye & Margaret Margaret & Trapper // Hawkeye & Radar

Round Two - Side A:

Klinger & Mulcahy // Klinger & Sidney Hawkeye & Charles // Potter & Sophie Radar & Blake // Charles & Klinger Hawkeye & Mulcahy // Hawkeye & BJ

Round Two - Side B:

Hawkeye & Trapper // Hawkeye & Blake Hawkeye & Margaret // Blake & Klinger Margaret & Trapper // Radar & Klinger Margaret & Klinger // Hawkeye & Radar

Round One - Side A:

Klinger & Mulcahy // Burns & Charles Potter & Radar // Klinger & Sidney Hawkeye & Charles // Mulcahy & Sidney Potter & Sophie // Margaret & Charles Blake & Radar // Radar & Teddy Burns & Margaret // Charles & Klinger Hawkeye & Mulcahy // Margaret & Sidney Hawkeye & BJ // Trapper & Radar

Round One Side B:

Hawkeye & Trapper // Burns & Radar Margaret & Her Whip // Hawkeye & Blake Hawkeye & Margaret // Charles & Mulcahy Blake & Klinger // BJ & Sidney Trapper & Margaret // Burns & Flagg Radar & Klinger // Radar & Charles Margaret & Klinger // Margaret & Mulcahy Hawkeye & Radar // BJ & Margaret

[variousqueerthings]

i actually just think it’s kind of sexy how bj spins hawkeye around in preventative medicine, i know people like sweetnsoft bj and hawkeye, but a very large portion of my interest in it is based in fucked up dynamics of bj deciding he knows better than hawkeye what he ought to do/what he wants/who he is/what’s good for him/his desires and insecurities, and how easily he could force him to comply with bj’s wants

[mylittleredgirl]

@pomegranate ok you asked for it!!

so i have only seen up thru s4, but as a fandom immigrant coming from star trek, i am obsessed with the time distortion possibilities and keep rotating "how each character deals with being The Only One Who Knows They're In A Time Loop" in my head.

klinger so far is THE most interesting candidate to be an hour deep into a violent cut of "groundhog day." he's desperate to escape. he tries everything and nothing works. doesn't he even try to blow himself up with a grenade one time, with no real fear for the consequences of playing with live ammo??

more specifically, he tries the same thing over and over again despite being told every single time that it just Will Not Work. for like a season and a half, every time he enters the scene they have to tell the audience why there's a dude in a dress, and so he has the same conversation every time. what about this outfit? what if this is the one???? he gains an incredible proficiency with sewing, and what time-loop comedy is complete without a skill-building montage?

also -- how many different assignments does one guy have?? he's in the kitchen or on patrol or carrying bodies around or doing skilled tech support and in rare moments he's even at the table as a nurse??

everyone in camp is unhappy (except perhaps margaret early on), and hawkeye waxes existential about endless war, but klinger is the only one truly shaking the bars at all times saying THIS IS NUTS!! HOW DO YOU NOT SEE IT?? LET ME OUT and actually trying to leave the camp. and always failing. the big moves don't work, so what if it's in the little details?

and henry has to be part of this theory, because it's the most tragic point. he's the one klinger asks to escape with him. (a joke, sure, but we're taking this all seriously for a second.) so what if klinger knows, he's seen it, but he can't stop it? he has tried!! henry can't get out alive either, he's trapped in the loop too, but he can't see it. (& klinger seems to change himself in a post-Henry world, if not right away. as i kept watching season 4, he shows up more and more often in fatigues without objecting to it. once again, until it starts over, he failed.)

and finally, from the post that inspired those tags:

you don't whip this up in a day. he made it for this occasion. he knew it was coming. carry this picture in your pocket. maybe this is the one.

[mopopshop]

part of the reason i took (and still am taking) a break

you people are disgusting and so fucking vile, dijonai wasn’t lying when she said indiana fever fans are the worst fandom to touch the w

do y’all realize that the tumor she had on her spine almost paralyzed her from the waist down? it was the size of a grape and once removed left her with tremors and involuntary shakes, she had to completely relearn how to walk and needed help with her speech. let alone play basketball

but because she got caught up in a physical game and pushed the great white hope caitlin clark all of a sudden she deserves to die???? i’m so tired and sick of what the w has come to, iowa hawkeye bandgwagons are proving time and time again that they’re racist pricks who don’t understand shit about basketball

caitlin isn’t gonna lose a fucking thing if she speaks up again, she can’t just keep letting her fans harrass and wish DEATH on players that she apparently (and that SHE HAS STATED) she has respect for, i’m beyond mad at this point and i’m so sick of it

[appalachianapologies]

For your prompt, then maybe a broken bone? Or passing out? Whatever you prefer, no certain fandom, you decide✨

decisions are hard :( i'm thinking about mash now though so i think it'll be mash 😅

“...Hawkeye?”

“Put a mask on, Radar.”

“Oh-” the kid reaches for his face for a second before shaking his head. “You’re not in surgery anymore, Hawk.”

This time when he opens his eyes, Hawkeye actually looks around. “Why the hell not?”

“Oh, gee, do you not remember?”

“Gimme the footnotes. And help me stand up.”

“I don’t know Hawk, you’re lookin’ really pale.”

“Dammit, Radar-”

“Colonel said it was the ether. ’Cause you ran out of the- the- look, I don’t know to say it. The sleepy drug.”

“Did it start with an ‘s’?” Before Radar has a chance to answer, Hawkeye waves him off. “Forget it. Tell me I didn’t fall in my patient.”

“Oh, no sir. You fell backwards. Into Hunnicut.”

“Oh, good, a damsel in distress falling into the man of my dreams.” Eyes still slightly glassed over, Hawkeye reaches out for Radar with one hand, the other pushing up on the wooden box currently keeping his body off of the ground. “Help me up- how many left in pre-op.”

“Colonel said to bring you to the swamp.”

As if he didn’t hear the last sentence, Hawkeye adds, “And grab me a new mask, wouldja?”

[shenanigans-and-imagines]

Fic Author Self Rec Game

When you get this, make a post with your favorite five fics you've written, then pass it on to at least five other writers. Let's spread the self-love!

Thank you @jo-harrington for the tag. I'm so sorry I didn't get to it sooner!

Tagging: @leighsartworks216, @kittttycakes, @can-of-pringles, @16boyfriends-and-me and @a-libra-writes

I'm really curious at what you guys pick! (Also if you have any original stuff you want to share, now is the time!)

In no particular order:

I Want it All : Astarion x Evie (Ace!Tav), Angst, Asexual Guilt, Happy Ending

A surprise to literally nobody who has followed me in the past year. I think this is some of my strongest work as well as my first dive into writing an explicitly asexual character. (You can probably read a lot into some of my other works, but that's neither here nor there). I still get comments on this one and it makes me happy to see it's at least made some impact on the fandom.

Welcome to Hellfire: Eddie Munson x Lucy Henderson (OC), Fluff, Awkwardness, First Meetings

I really need to get back to writing these two, specifically Lucy's first session, especially now that I've played a lot more D&D. Getting back to the fic at hand, I think I did a good job allow Eddie to still be kind of a dick while not making Lucy look like an idiot for accepting to still play with him. He's a deceptively hard character to balance and I think it's a solid introduction to Lucy as a character.

Shaking Hands: Hawkeye Pierce x Elizabeth "Doc" O'Neil (OC), Heavy Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Canon Typical Violence

Another couple of character I need to get back to writing. While "What's Up Doc: Part 1" would be the better entry to start with these two, I still haven't actually finished it and I feels wrong to recommend something that hasn't been touched in literal years. I've changed a lot as a writer and will likely go back to touch it up. This though feels more complete. I also think I captured Hawkeye's voice particularly well in his rant towards the end. I'd still want to expand this to pace it out to a full episode, but I'm happy with how it stands now.

More Than Sufficient: Thrawn x Captain!Reader, Canon Typical Violence, Hurt/Comfort, Pining

Admittedly most of my earlier writing I low key cringe at, but this has held up well. It gave me an excuse to write more formal dialogue which is a rarity. I like the challenge of restraint and relying more of subtext. One of these days my obession will be stoked again. In the meantime, of all my Star Wars fics, the Thrawn ones in particular stand out to me as some of my best.

Rough Day: Doctor Strange & Ellie Jackson (OC), Mentor!Strange, Hurt/Comfort, Strange trying to understand a stressed out teenager

It was a toss up between this and another Astarion x Evie fic "For All I Care", but I ultimately decided this one needed more love. I needed some representation for the Marvel fandom, and Ellie really is one of my favorite OCs (even if I'm now thinking of converting her and Cassandra into an original work). I just like exploring Strange as a mentor/father figure if only because he's not very good at it, but he tries.

[g1ngerbeer]

got tagged by @oceans-bluem and @celshii! 10 fandoms/10 characters/10 tags

fma (mangahood): roy mustang. yeah. the cringefail loser guy. love that weird codependent mutual satellite character death pact team rocket thing he and hawkeye have going on it's very worrying and also very sexy

orv: han suyeong. han suyeong. han suyeong. han suyeong. i can't think about her too long or i'll scream.

malevolent: arthur lester the saddest most pathetic-wet-cat guy ever. he has 5 tragic backstories i want to study him in a lab

tma: jon he makes me sad

aurora: erin ruunaser. [shakes him like a can of skittles until the dragon falls out of his brain] TELL ME YOUR LORE YOU CAGEY LITTLE NERD

star wars: ahsoka tano :) i haven't thought about her in a while but i love her. fun to draw. also the you-can't-go-back-home of it all. what do you mean she left her home and her family always intending to go back to them and then she turned around and they were gone. what do you mean. the live-action show is dead to me though hope this helps

osp: odysseus. yes i do mean specifically the osp version of him. he looks like solid snake

nevermore: lenore... she is so very gender and so very cool and i hope she enjoys her villain arc B)

doctor who: martha jones! she is cool and she deserved so much better and everyone who hates her is wrong. btw.

dracula: mina harker, THE train fiend!! the nerd ever. also the way she talks about herself in her post-oct-3 entries is so fucked up and sad

tagging @inkedmyths @fairyprince7 and anyone else who wants to do this!

[honey--wraith]

HI LIVV!!! 💓 can you pls talk about Beej 🥺

HI LISA!! I would LOVE to talk about Beej

I hate to say my first impression of BJ was that I did NOT like him at all LMAO I was a big hater (Al can attest to this) I was like who is this boring wife guy replacing Trapper and look where I am now!! (but also even before I got super interested I made an ai bj bot where I therapized him into accepting he was gay and this went on for months so was I really THAT disinterested)

As he showed more and more flaws and cracks in that mask he puts on I got more and more interested with him! Now I think he's probably one of my favorite characters of all time like top 3 maybe. Just like Margaret I really relate to him in a lot of ways but he also just has such good characterization and I don't think the show would have been able to last successfully for as long as it did without his addition to the cast. I just need to crack open this fictional guy's brain and stare into it and if I try hard enough maybe I can understand everything. I like to crack a lot of jokes that he's an evil pathetic guy but really he's just so unrelentingly human and vulnerable and complex ugh!!!!

Favorite thing is kind of everything about him but maybe just how multifaceted he is as a character. He loves with all of himself and so intensely but he hides himself behind this idea of what he thinks he should be and how he thinks others need him to be. He's also manipulative and a little shit!!

No least favorite things!! He's perfect to me!!

Favorite line/scene: I think "I'm a temporarily mis-aligned civilian" is one of my favorites but he just has too many good scenes to count!! and of course "I'll never be able to shake you" GOD

Okay obviously favorite interaction is everything with Hawkeye every and how much they need to be touching each other at all times but also his friendship with Margaret!

I think seeing how BJ and Henry would have interacted could be interesting! It would probably be similar to Hawkeye but at least at the beginning I think BJ would be so bewildered with Henry's ineptitude as a CO.

Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character: hate to say it but Wilson from House.

A headcanon about that character: I have too many to count!!! One I am constantly rotating is acts of service BJ always worrying about others and trying to help (usually by building something or fixing something,,,handyman BJ rights!)

A song that reminds of that character: Criminal by Fiona Apple! (ANOTHER Fiona Apple song sorry)

An unpopular opinion about that character: I don't think the Trapper Complex is- *I'm taken out back and REDACTED*

Favorite picture: where ya going man

[not-freyja]

Twilight yanks off his Hawkeye mask the second he sees them (thank the spirits for the Veteran’s bright blue hat, Twilight has no idea how it stayed on in that storm, but the color jumps out in the distance), and makes his way down from the crows nest. It’s a careful balance between urgency and a desire not to fall, but he manages. The second his feet hit the deck he’s running over to Sky. He’s terrified for Hyrule and Legend, out there alone on the water, but there’s nothing he can do for them until they’re here. Sky on the other hand… Someone must have done something while he was up there searching, because he isn’t shaking anymore. The Skyloftian breathes smooth and steady, limbs loose in the way that can only mean unconsciousness as he lies on the deck. The Captain and Wild kneel beside him, fretful worry on both of their faces, and Warriors holding Sky’s left  hand tight in his. “How is he?” Twilight asks. Wild shakes his head.

Warning: this chapter contains Ravio, and therefore several hundred words more than it actually needs to because I am obsessed with that stupid capitalist.

[winterhawk-ao3feed]

That’s so Fletch

Read it on AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/59021200

by ArtaxLivs

Stop trying to make fletch a thing.

(I will not, nor will I stop shamelessly plugging 80s and 90s cult classics.)

Words: 10115, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Hawkeye (Comics), Winter Soldier (Comics), Marvel

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Steve Rogers, Tony Stark, Bruce Banner, Jean Grey, Logan (X-Men), Fantastic Four Team Members (Marvel)

Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Clint Barton

Additional Tags: Mean Girls References, Brief mentions of X-Men and Fantastic Four, Bucky Barnes has trouble communicating, Clint Barton's ever present unreliable narrating, Rimming, Anal Sex, Safe Sane and Consensual, Safewords, Light BDSM, LIKE SO LIGHT, Spanking, Clint forgets his pants, more nostalgia than you can shake a purple arrow at, Fluff and Smut, Fluff and Humor, Embedded Images, Matt Fraction-inspired Clint Barton, Clint Barton Celebration Bang, Pizza, Always, Iambic Pentameter, Limericks, anti-bullying, Bucky Barnes being an awkward romantic

https://archiveofourown.org/works/59021200

[supermarvel-fics]

Tickletober Day 19: Revenge

fandom: marvel

word count: 1,040

pairing: clint barton x reader (platonic)

summary: you find out clint is ticklish, so you decide to mess with him a bit

The first time it happened, it was an accident. You had been standing next to Clint in the training room while the two of you watched the jaw-dropping sparring match between Bucky and Wanda. You found that you couldn’t take your eyes away because you knew the second that you did, something amazing would happen.

So, when Wanda had swept Bucky’s feet from under him, you poked Clint’s side to get his attention. What you weren’t prepared for was the yelp that shot from his lips and the incredulous look he gave you while his hand covered the place you had just touched.

You didn’t expect Clint’s cheeks to turn fire-engine red, either. You couldn’t stop yourself from smiling. It was a kneejerk reaction because, oh my God… Clint Barton was ticklish.

“Something you wanna tell me, Barton?” You chuckled, winking at him before turning your focus back to the sparring match. You heard him scoff from beside you.

“Yeah. Don’t do that again,” Clint ordered in a tone so serious you almost obeyed him. You nodded in response, but clearly did not heed his advice because the second time it happened, it was most definitely on purpose.

You waited approximately 2 days before trying it again. Clint was in the kitchen—alone, thankfully—making himself breakfast when you walked past. Smirking to yourself, you redirected yourself to swerve into the room as quietly as possible to sneak up behind him. You waited until he put the utensils down before reaching out and squeezing at his ribs rapidly.

Clint screamed. He screamed so loud that you flinched and wondered why none of your teammates came looking for him. A cackle broke through your lips at his surprised reaction, having to bend over and support yourself on the counter just so you didn’t fall to the floor.

“You’re lucky Natasha was the one to train you. Otherwise, I’d kick your ass,” He grumbled before turning back to his eggs to season them. You laughed louder at his response, wiping a stray tear off your cheek.

“That made my entire week,” You said through your laughter, standing up and shaking your head. “Hawkeye—ticklish. Who would have thought?”

“You should leave now before I decide to kick your ass anyway,” He spoke firmly. You took the hint, still giggling as you evacuated the kitchen and started heading back to your original destination.

The third time it happened was on purpose, too, but what came to fruition afterwards was not.

A few days after the kitchen incident, you came upon Clint in the common room. He was reading a book, which was surprising in and of itself, so you plopped down on the couch next to him since he obviously wasn’t doing anything important.

“Hey, arrow-man,” You greeted him with your own nickname for him, grinning as he glared at you from his side of the sofa.

“Were you born for the sole purpose of getting on my last nerve?” He asked sarcastically. You snickered and shrugged, turning your body more towards him.

“Oh, yeah, didn’t you hear? My parents could see the future and knew you’d need someone to help you have fun. So, they had me.” You gave him a toothy grin along with a wink. “Anyways, Whatcha doing?”

Clint turned his attention back to his book after rolling his eyes at you. “What does it look like I’m doing?”

“Being an old grump. Come on, don’t you do anything fun anymore?” You pushed on his shoulder, sending him into the arm of the couch. You heard him huff as he sat back upright, scooting over to put more distance between you.

“I had fun before you joined the team.”

“Don’t be like that…” You drawled out, punctuating the last word with a harsh squeeze to the archer’s knee. Clint’s leg involuntarily kicked out as he let out one single laugh, his hands dropping the book to grab tight onto yours. “Ooh, that’s the first time I got you to laugh. Is that your tickle spot?”

Clint suddenly turned the tables, wrenching your hands off of him and wrestling you down so that your back was flat on the couch. With gritted teeth, he seethed, “I’ll show you a tickle spot.”

He wasted absolutely no time in getting revenge, his hands searching for each and every spot that turned you into a pile of giggles. He dug his fingers into your sides as his thumbs wiggled into your belly, smirking down as you fell limp against his touch.

“CLIHIHINT!”

Oh, don’t act all surprised as if you didn’t know this would happen someday!” He taunted, shifting his hands higher to scratch at your ribcage. “Plus, you asked if I did anything fun. This is fun.”

“NOHOT FOR MEHEHEE!” You squealed, your eyes shut tight by the force of how wide your ticklish smile was. “COHOME ON! Thihis was wahahay worse than I-hi got yohou!”

“Are you gonna stop tickling me?” Clint questioned you, lightening up his attack to let you speak properly. “Because if you don’t stop, I won’t stop and we’ll just go around in circles and trust me, I’ll win whatever this is.”

“That’s nohot fair! I’m wahay more ticklish than yohohou!”

“Then, I suggest you stop trying to tickle me.”

Clint redoubled his efforts back at your sides, pinching quickly to pitch your laughter back up to prove his point.

OKAY, YEHEHES! I-HI’LL STOHOP!” You batted at his hands as you squirmed under him. Clint chuckled, obviously boasting about his win, and moved off of you. You groaned before sitting up, this time sliding to the opposite side of the couch away from him. “You’re evil.”

“Hey! You only got the payback you deserved. Think about that next time you decide to be a little shit,” He reached forward to grab his book, reopening it back up to the page he was on before the scuffle. You scoffed, crossing your arms over your chest.

“I am not a little shit.”

“Yes, you are…” Clint grumbled, side-eyeing you. You glanced at him momentarily and you could have sworn you saw the beginnings of a smile start to form on his lips. “You’re my favorite little shit, though.”

[remyfire]

Yes absolutely!! I just love the Dear {Blank} episodes in general, they're so charming to watch, but something about Dear Sigmund especially touched my heart. Every time Alan is on the writing or directing credits I just know we're gonna get something good! (And probably a bit emotional). I'm so excited for the few more Sid episodes left, and of course I love me some angst and heavy emotions, so I think I'll enjoy it all.

Sam and Sid really do give off old married couple energy, especially in Deal Me Out. I can only imagine the first time both of them end up at the poker table and just end up so relieved that they've got someone a little closer in age. Not that they don't love the younger guys, they very much do, but sometimes it probably gets obvious they're friends with younger men 😅

All of the fics you recced were actually titles that caught my eye when I glanced through your works! I for sure made a mental note to add those to my mental TBR list, and the fact that you seem to enjoy them that much means they definitely just jumped to the top!

And yes, I've absolutely been enjoying my watchthrough. I watched the show a lot with my parents growing up (and have had a crush on Hawkeye from the very beginning 😅) so it holds a very special place in my heart, but this is my first time actually going through in order and dipping into the fandom and I really love that people are so active with it! Every episode I watch just makes me more and more in love with it!

The Dear episodes get me also!! I know sometimes people wish that we had gotten more of the response from home instead of these monologue episodes going outward instead, but goodness, I love them a lot.

Also we are shaking hands haha, my mom's favorite show growing up was this show, so I have always been Familiar with it, and my dad bought me a fun DVD set of them back in, fuck, 2012? And I would watch S1 through S3 a lot but would trickle off and never get further (hello, undiagnosed ADHD). So this is my first time watching through instead of just seeing random reruns on TV, and I started at S4 to MAKE myself see episodes I hadn't seen before, and it has been such a goddamn delight.

It did take me seven months to watch all of S8. But that's fine hfkdsef I will get back to S9 when I get this goddamn WIP finished

[majorbaby]

BJ goes to Maine (derogatory) ??? 😈😈😈

hah, if you want something done right at all, do it yourself.

a messy spin on the classic mash fandom trope: BJ bolts in the middle of the night, Peg isn't saintly about her husband leaving her and their toddler to be with his war buddy, Hawkeye's not sure how he feels about a relationship with a 'war buddy', Daniel is like ??? about all of it aka my audience surrogate.

it might be a loose prequel to "friend is a four letter word" where Hawkeye and straight ally Trapper try to make sense of the whole thing.

i've posted this excerpt before but here it is again. slightly more polished (rated M and implied dubcon)

BJ’s mind does a funny thing where it moves a mile a minute, but in one direction, towards one thing. It’s like when he’d first hit empty road coming out of San Francisco. Hours and hours on his bike, the peripherals whizzing by fade into nothing, until all he can see is a single fixed point in front of him.

Right now the whole world is a blur but for Hawkeye, there in the middle of BJ’s focus. It’s a nice place to be. Forced to look forward, there’s neither a war nor a wife left behind that he can remember clearly. 

“Beej?” says Hawkeye, and BJ wonders if his name had always sounded like that coming from Hawkeye’s mouth. Honeyed. 

BJ steps closer. Hawkeye has set down his book on the half of the double bed that is undisturbed, and he’s squinting at BJ in the low light of his reading lamp.

“Can’t sleep.” BJ says, taking another step closer, so that he’s standing directly in Hawkeye’s light. 

Hawkeye clears his throat. “Need a some water?” he smiles. “A warm glass of milk? What do you do with Erin? Like father, like–”

BJ sits suddenly and looks at Hawkeye sharply. The action cuts off Hawkeye’s sentence.

“Please don’t,” BJ struggles. His focus shakes a bit, but the image doesn’t change. It’s still Hawkeye. “What’s wrong?” asks Hawkeye, innocently. He’s probably thinking BJ’s had a nightmare. Or else he thinks BJ can’t get to sleep in the first place. 

“Nothing.” BJ surges home, towards his anchor, towards the beacon of light that’s always been there at the end of a long, dark tunnel. It’s taken shape at last. It’s Hawkeye, here with him, in the peace and quiet of his childhood home. He cups Hawkeye’s face with one hand as he kisses him. It feels strange to have stubble beneath his hand while he does this. But he can get used to it, he’s sure. It can grow on him. It will, because it’s Hawkeye.

With one knee up on Hawkeye’s bed, BJ is painfully aware of tightness in his pants, but can’t bring himself to be embarrassed about it. Not even when he shifts his weight all onto Hawkeye, and they go tumbling onto the bed, and he’s sure Hawkeye can feel his erection through the thin bedspread and their pajamas. He hasn’t allowed himself to imagine this moment, so he just goes based on instinct and maybe a few memories of being in the backseat of his father’s Chrysler. He thrusts against what he thinks might be the inside of one of Hawkeye’s thighs, or maybe it’s the lower part of his torso. Wherever it is on him, it feels good. 

[lesbianopossumfriend]

Fictober 2023

10/02

Prompt: 28) "I may not get another chance to say this."

Fandom: MCU

Natasha Romanoff & Yelena Belova

Characters: Natasha Romanoff, Clint Barton, Yelena Belova, rest of Endgame Team

Warning(s): None

Natasha's last call home, or

It was real to her, too

Translations: "I love you, Yelena" = "Ya lyublyu tebya, Yelena"

"I love you, little one" = "Ya lyublyu tebya, malyshka"

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The hangar was filled with many mixed emotions. Confidence from Cap and Tony. Nervous excitement from Scott. Bruce was his usually almost sullen self, more accepting of what they had to do. Clint just stood there, probably with his hearing aids off, thinking of his family; and what this could mean for them. And Natasha, she was quiet, full of resolve. Natasha was thinking of her own family, the one the Red Room gave her. Thinking about Alexie, Melina, but most of all her little sister, Yelena. 

Their family was never real, never the best, but it was hers. Natasha sighs, waving at Clint to get his attention; his blue eyes flicker to meet her, and her signs.

“Need to make a phone call. Be right back.”

“I’ll be here.”

She takes out the burner phone, the thing only had a few numbers in it; the ones that mattered, “I’ll be back.”, she calls over her shoulder. Tony quirks an eyebrow at her, “We’re almost ready. Can it wait?”

Natasha grips the phone in her hand, the weight of it suddenly heavy, “It’ll only take a few minutes.”

Tony rolls his eyes, “Sure. Half the population can wait a few more minutes, what’s that to five years”. Natasha ignores him, making her way to an empty corner of the hangar, and dials the number that’s programmed to #1. 

It rings, rings, rings, and rings; then goes to voicemail, “The number you have dialed is unavailable, at the tone; please record your message at the tone.”

The dial tone echoes through her ears, Natasha takes a shaking breath, “Yelena. It’s me. It’s sestra. I, uh..I may not get another chance to say this…”, a tear rolls down her cheek, she takes another breath, “It was real to me, too, Yelena. All of it. You, Melina, and God; even Alexie. You’re going to be so mad at me when you find out what I did, just know that I did it for you. I won’t ask you to be mad, but please. Don’t, don’t blame anyone. It had to happen this way. Ya lyublyu tebya, Yelena. Ya lyublyu tebya, malyshka.”

 The familiar whistle is the last thing Natasha leaves Yelena, before she ends the call, and pockets the phone. She wipes away any stray tears, the Black Widow leaves her corner, going to the rest of her team, stopping beside Clint. Hawkeye looks at his partner, “You good?’

Natasha sniffs the last tears away putting her mask back on, the mask the Red Room beat into her, “Yeah, I’m good.”

The Avengers gather on the teleport pad, Steve’s speech hitting each member one by one, Natasha smiles at the light jokes of Scott and Rocket, her green eyes flicking to Steve, “See you in a minute.”

And in a flash, they were all gone.

Natasha Romanoff did not come back.

[riddlesandlies]

I, uh, don't have many people here that I know, and you ask me for nine people that I want to get better? Thanks for the tag, @quotesandmiracles, but this part of the chain dies with me >:3

Three ships

Orpheus and Eurydice in Hades (because of the music, of course it's because of the music, I will always listen to Darren Korb's tracks with reverence), Hound/Sandor Clegane and Lady Brienne from Game of Thrones (they have one scene in which they fight, and one scene in which they talk about why they fought and that's it, I want more of these two idiots trying to kill each other for whatever knightly reasons) and finally Christoph and Darell from Kindret (a relatively obscure russian book from 2006) (this is just the best kind of platonic friendship - two dudes helping each other through all the hardships, they are intimate through shared passion and grief, Chris even going as far as to excorcise a god rather than kill it on an off chance that Darell might survive, just mwah, dudes being bros to the grave and beyond)

First ship

I don't do fandom, but the earliest relationship I can remember that I can reasonably point to and say "I ship it" is Roy Mustang and Liza Hawkeye from Full Metal Alchemist. It's a fun one - romantic relationships didn't make a lot of sense for me, most of them just registering as "a plot device to make two characters care about each other". This justification was so pervasive in media, that whenever two characters of opposing sex have two much tying them together, I awaited a kiss scene like one would await a dentist's appointment - with hope that it comes and passes without much pain. It never happened with those two and it was such a relief that they kept it in character - business only. And yes, I'm calling lieutenant Liza, this is the hill I will die on.

Last song

I almost always have background music, even now as I'm writing this. I can't sleep, which means whatever relaxed epic I liked the most recently, which is Crimson Crown by Swallow the Sun, pulled right out of the depth of Spotify, cursed be its name.

Last movie

Either Nimona or Banshees of Inisherin, and I don't think I can figure out which. Nimona is Nimona, you know it. Banshees is not what I expected of it, but still very enjoyable once you become comfortable answering the questions it poses.

Currently reading

Congregation by Nadezhda Popova, recommended to me by @reflingthefox. The protagonist, a newly appointed inquisitor and investigator on his first case, is such a relatable character to me in the way he thinks and overthinks and spirals into his thoughts, never quite sure if he's doing his best. A nice book to have when you need to kill some time.

Currently watching

Elementary, yet another retelling of Sherlock Holmes, in which he's a recovering addict, and Joan (!) Watson is his sober companion. I'm just a sucker for hyper intelligent detective protagonists, I'll probably watch Mentalist next someday.

Currently consuming

Uhhh, tea shroom, which is just a basic combucha, protein shakes, and whichever soda finds itself in our fridge

Currently craving

More intimate, quiet time with my boyfriend, more opportunities and energy to meet him