#*rereads when im not sleepy* wtf how

[nereidprinc3ss]

I'm literally going insane I had a whole conversation with another spencer account on twitter about dybmn it was such a good experience

and part 7 was out for 8 HOURS I DIDNT EVEN KNOW ABOUT IR COMING OUT I FOUND OUT FROM A FUCKING TWEET ABOUT THIS GYAL GOING ON A DATE AT THE SAME TIME DYBMN CAMEOUT OH MY GODDDDDD like you don't understand how good of timing you released this at

1. freshly shaved just out of the shower cause im going fully blonde tomorrow

2. tucked comfortably in my sheets

3. Its gently raining outside

4. I go on twitter and find out my favorite writer released PART 7

Dude I'm not even joking when I say I screamed like I've been talking to my sister about this series for a week now and part 7 being edged and she was like why are you screaming did it come out yet

IR DIDNT DISAPPOINT AT ALL EITHER OMGGG YOU WRITE SPENCER SO BEAUTIFULLY AND SO TRUE TO HIS CHARACTER HES SO GENTLE AND SOFT AND PERFECT AND KIND AND I LOOVVEEE HIM! Like wtf do u mean he bit my shoulder to ground himself after he came that's literally the cutest thing fucking ever what the fucking hell oh my fucking god i fucking love him I think we need to put spencer Reid in my bed right now I think we need to tuck him into my sheets and lock the door what the hell

I'm going to shut up now because if I continue ill be babbling about each individual thing I love about how you write him and what he says like when he says angel girl JJFJDJSOSKKKKKKK FUCKKKKKKKKK LORD HAVE MERCYYYYYYYY its 1:32 i have a hair appointment tomorrow i can't be screaming like this

In other words I love you so so much please never die I love ur works your so cool to me and U r literally my favorite writer ever. Thank you so much for blessing us with the dybmn series & i will never stop thinking about it i literally have dreams about it everytime i read/reread a part of the series that's partly why im so excited to sleep right now lolololo ily thank u for listening to me ramble with no shame

im so jealous that you have dybmn dreams😭😭😭😭😭 idk if i’ve EVER had a spencer reid dream but i did dream once that rossi made me a sandwich LMFAO anyway….

me and u have like the same favorite parts cause when EYE wrote the angel girl part i was literally biting my fist and screaming i need that so bad

and babe if i figure out a way to get spencer reid in my bed i will quickly send him to yours as well!!!!! i would tuck him in so good i would make him sleepy time tea 😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏🙏 NEED THAT

thank you so much for reading and sending me this ily and i hope your hair turned out well beautiful!!! mwah

[bonesandthebees]

*slams door open*

OH MY FUCKING GOD-

STARS SANDDUO STARS SANDDUO STARS SANDDUO STARS SANDDUO [SCREAMS]

I woke up and I was debating going back to bed or not when i saw a notif of my friend yelling at me that youd posted sandduo and ohmugod i have never unlocked my phone faster in my life

I MISSED STARS SO MUCH OHMYGODDDD

THERE IS SO MUCH TO SAY BUT MY BRAIN HAS KINDA MALFUNCTIONED IN THE SHEER SANDDUONESS OF THE NEW ONESHOT

I reread the og chapter and mannnn i remember just how much fun the sandduo scenes were, all the power plays it was SO good, and goddd poor crimeboys bro, they were both struggling so much

THE FUCKING PHIL POV THO--

HOLYYY SHIT

THE FIRST TIME HE SAID LITTLE BIRD WAS AN ACCIDENT?!?@?#?$ THAT WHOLE INTERNAL MONOLOGUE... HE VIEWED HIM AS A CHICK, A SON, IM GOING TO SCREAMMM I MUST REREAD THE END OF STARS TO COPE WITH THIS OOOHMYGODDD

phil pov of stars is the greatest thing to ever happen to me what the fuck ohmygod, he was SO FOND... HE WAS SO PROUD OF WILBUR WTF... i was eating breakfast while reading and i feltnSICKLKK ooohhmygoddd

Too much ITS ALL TOO MUCH... ohmygODDDDD

Stars is genuinely such an impressive fic though, all the complicated layers you mustve been thinking about while writing it?? Impressive holyyy shittt. All the different characters and motivations, it blows me away everytime I think about it. Stars is so incredible man RAHSSS

Godddd, adds this one shot to the growing list of comfort chapters/oneshots (i have so many of ur fics on that list LMFAOOO number one being Dusty Tomb, god i love that fic)

This is so random but did u know that on android/through the firefox app you can add a widget on ur homescreen that takes u directly to the link? Well I have like 3 of ur fics just sitting on my homescreen LMFAOOO adding this on to it rn ohmygoddd

Anyways STARS SANDDUO R THE ONLY ONES EVER 👆 AMAZIGN FIC BEE, IF U EVER WRITE MORE PHIL POV KNOW THAT I WILL CONSUME IT FASTER THAN I CONSUME WATER

Does that even make sense LMFAOO-

okay icyfox lets take some deep breaths together ready on the count of three-

ok but seriously tysm I'm so glad you enjoyed it!! yes phil saying little bird for the first time was an accident :) he was very fond but fully did not realize it because that man is horrible at recognizing his own emotions

aaa thank you!! i'm so so proud of stars especially because of how complicated it was. one of the frustrating parts about writing it though was that because of how complex it was with the different characters and motivations and the prose I tried to establish I had to be fully awake and focused to write it. I couldn't write it if i was sleepy or just not in the right headspace or else the story would suffer, so that was very annoying to me. still, worth it in the end though because the story gained so much from that.

(dusty tomb!! love that one sm I have such a soft spot for it <3)

god that's wild that you have 3 of my fics just on your homescreen for easy access. makes me so happy to hear things like that

honestly I hope I come up with more things to write in phil's pov from stars because I really miss the world of stars!! we'll have to see though no promises

[flecks-of-stardust]

Our Fav Pillbug Quirrel: Dreamless AU

! Heavily Outdated! New post will be uploaded soon. !

Quirrel was born into the height of Hallownest, to a proud but frail pair of parents who quickly realized they were unequipped for taking care of their son. They wanted the best for him, something their meager savings and his mother’s fragile health could not provide. His father carried him, bundled up tightly as he slept, to Monomon the Teacher’s archives, and begged for her to take him in. She agreed after some hesitation; they both swore to protect him that day.

He grew up under Monomon’s somewhat careless, but always loving gaze, with his birth family visiting frequently over the years. As far as Quirrel was concerned, he had three parents: his father, his mother, and Monomon. Never quite realizing how his life was different from that of other bugs, his childhood was a happy and fruitful one, spent in near unwavering bliss between Monomon’s care and his parents’ doting. He sat in on Monomon’s lectures often, and grew to love them, finding a joy in learning about the world and exploring it.

When he was old enough to decide his own way, he chose to stay in the archives, becoming one of Monomon’s students. Always the avid learner, he devoured information about the world at an almost alarming rate, surpassing many of his peers and some of his seniors. He loved it all, loved the work and the process of learning, and he took great pride in his academic prowess. His parents and Monomon echoed it.

His proximity to Monomon, and his eventual promotion to her assistant, gave him ample opportunity to see the White Palace, exploring its glimmering interior with amazement and curiosity. A few times, he met the pale rulers, and he was forever in awe of their power, their love for their people, and their ability to just create. They were wonder personified, able to make miracles happen at the snap of their fingers, and it was an honor to be in their presence at all. He relished every opportunity he had to visit the palace, and recounted it to his parents and sister whenever he could.

When news of the errant god trying to slaughter the populace reached him, Quirrel wasn’t worried. The pale rulers would figure out a way to handle it. And with Monomon’s mind, they may as well be invincible. He did notice that as time wore on, Monomon seemed to get more and more angry about it all, but he shrugged it off; anyone would be angry at the senseless murder of innocent bugs. He gladly helped where he could, eagerly taking on whatever Monomon delegated to him, and cherished the extra time he spent in the palace. The Pale King was brilliant, bright splendor unlimited; the White Lady was beautiful, the picture of elegance and grace. And he was so lucky to be part of Hallownest.

He knew about the sealing, that Monomon was going to dream forever. That he’d never talk to her, never hug her, never see her smile ever again. He knew it was for the greater good, and he was proud. He wore her mask with his head held high, honored to have her utmost trust and that she would choose him to be her additional source of protection. He bowed to his rulers once all was done, and returned to his chambers, Monomon’s last request to him.

There was a bandana, Monomon’s bandana, on his bed. There was a letter next to it, with instructions to put the bandana on scrawled across the top in Monomon’s hasty handwriting. He put it on, and felt the spell break.

There was no wonder. There was no savior. There were only lies, a populace blinded to the pale rulers’ atrocities, and pointless sacrifice. Pointless, bitter sacrifice, and he was never going to see Monomon again. Angry tears spilled forth as he read her letter, her pleas for him to leave and go somewhere that was not tainted by pale beings. To leave everything behind, because there was nothing left here for him. They were all too far gone.

So leave he did, crossing the borders of Hallownest and striking out across the wastelands. Nail in hand—another gift from Monomon, another souvenir of her existence—he made his way across the land, his heart heavy with grief. His parents had barely recognized him when he had tried to talk to them, tried to convince them to come with him. They’d all but chased him out, calling the guards on him. He didn’t know how he hadn’t seen this sooner.

As he pushed forth, his reasons for leaving his homeland and exploring became fuzzy. He was Quirrel, explorer of the land and avid lover of learning. His bandana had been gifted to him by someone whose name continually eluded him, and he had a strange letter that made little sense in his belongings that he felt compelled to keep. He wandered from civilization to civilization with the ever present sense that he was forgetting something, but it wasn’t important. If he didn’t remember it, surely it wasn’t important.

Years pass in his wandering. A strange urge leads him to a kingdom with a crumbled entry way and deep, buried secrets. It is glorious, beautiful, mysterious in its halting ruin. He explores it, marveling at the architecture and the people who all seem just a little off. But there is still that niggling sense that he’s forgetting something. Something important.

He’ll find it eventually, he figures. For now, he’ll keep exploring this kingdom.

(line breaker)

its a little weird to describe what exactly quirrel’s life has been because a lot of it has been twisted by something else (which i cant say yet). so i had to do a little bit of semi unreliable narration? i dont know how well i pulled that off lol. im also writing this while im fairly sleepy so f

ive always loved the monomom headcanons, but i also really love that quirrel canonically calls monomon ‘madam’ and i wanted to keep that. this was my solution sdkjkghkjs quirrel’s bio parents helped raise him too, they just didnt have the resources they really needed to give him the life they wanted him to have and a lot of bugs respect monomon.

anyway yeah. i did say that quirrel’s backstory is somewhat less angst heavy but ;;;;;; he forgot them,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[tangyss]

while I'm very happy that Shiro has been confirmed to be gay, it just makes me worry for klance on the long run... I know it may sound stupid, but I really wish for klance to be canon (even if in the end they're just holding hands staring at each other's eyes like korrasami) but I'm worried because, really, how many lgbt+ characters would they actually put in the show? specially if they're all protagonist. It would be awesome! but I don't know if they would do that...

im a rare optimistic klance shipper/canon bi lance supporter, so u might think im really dumb for being so sold on the fact that we’re getting at least a bi lance arc, but there’s a lot of things that seem so fuckin.. convincing about us getting bi lance....

anyway here’s an accidentally long as fuckie rant about my thoughts lol

okey, if we focus real quick on lauren’s ‘gender, race, lgbt’ art from 2016, it makes a lot of sense for this season to be the season lance starts questioning his sexuality.

pidge’s gender arc was concluded in s1, when she came out as a girl to the team and everyone instantly accepted her for who she was, helped a lot by allura… keith’s race arc was concluded in s6, after finding krolia and spending time bonding+talking to her on the space whale for two years - there’s nothing else there; his entire reason for leaving the team was to find (out about) his mother and to learn about being galra. he’s back now with krolia, who can reassure and explain everything about being part galran. he was helped the most by hunk. and if u’re catching where i’m going, with only two seasons left, we’re moving onto the last arc from lauren’s drawing - the lgbt arc. which fits in SO WELL with the season kicking off with the reveal of shiro and adam… bc i think that dws r gonna be going in depth on the little we know about shiro and adam’s relationship. and it coincidentally fits in perfectly with how lance has been acting throughout s7….. likeeeee……

(this is the only picture i got and im sleepy so i cba to find more) lance baby………….. u dont make that face and talk about a guy’s appearance and call him GRIZZLED when u see him for the first time in months. like im not a psychic but i can read his thoughts so clearly and his mind is sayin “OH NO HE’S HOT” lol. and the scene where hunk and pidge lowkey bully lance about his feelings for allura, and lance says smth like “im not thinking about u!” and gets this look like he fuckin revealed his life long secret, before slumping down on the table w a blush and hurriedly correctly himself… idk about u but it seems like he’s starting to think about boys in a way that he’s not used to, and he’s beginning to realise that ‘this isn’t how straight guys think about other guys’  and it’s scary and confusing to him.

also, with the adam and shiro reveal… why not just put that scene at the beginning? it would have worked really well - it would have given us viewers a reason to root for shiro more, making each tense scene 10x as intense knowing that we want shiro to get back to earth and reunite with adam and have the happy end that they both deserve. ik they were planning on having shiro die (wtf dws??) in s2 after revealing his sexuality, but i think it’s a lil telling that their reveal was now, just when lance is starting to act…. not so straight lmao. dws starts off the season revealing that shiro is comfortable with his sexuality, just as lance is beginning to question his. interesting huh.

last point: two seperate people (i cant remember who sorey!) said that both lance and shiro will be having emotional scenes this season. and with everything lining up the way it is, it feels like those scenes will be shiro reliving his coming out story + getting together w adam, alongside lance being helped come to terms w his sexuality! yay!

that’s all i got my energy is GONE but hopefully this helps make u feel a lil more positive about bi lance happening :) this will probably be really dumb once i reread this w my energy but yay

[shytiff]

Small Nov Wins

1 - cant bring myself to study, got out of bed 10:30-ish am. While lazing around i read royal servant and do random internet stuff and watched romee's vlogs. Ate breakfast and i somehow has no appetite?? This is rare. e, cicil kompre began at 15:30 pm (i know, i waste my time a lot). Pengumuman wahana mpi wow yay kalideres makara and budi asih

2 - the weather was pleasantly cloudy. poli anestesi anak, simul. went to what used to be calais, its called flavola now. at this point i quite need some calories because i only ate bubur ayam and its like 2-3 pm ish. Eventually the hunger is gone, arrived home at about 4-ish, drank protein to curb my hunger (nanggung dinner). dad said sumn that annoyed me so after maghrib i just lazed in bed, not feeling like doing anything (even though there’s lots of exams and hw lmao), fell asleep

3 - woke up at 2 am, prated, randomly searched for angel - chancellor and taeyeon’s lyrics and i basically wept at 4 am. i assumed the song was just like,,, a guy talking to a girl, his angel, you know. EXCEPT,,,,,,,,. the 2 MVs was also rly222 beautiful 🥺. Poli geriatri today, didnt even see patient because there was no more at that time (status salin nadia). ate ichiban salad (surprisingly quite good) at dm bcs i rly do be functioning better outdoors, made matcha latte with full cream milk ((powder)), cicil PT

4 - can finally wake up late. finished 1 sitasi pt, made ikk ppt, bujing lina called about diarrhea and nausea meds, laddered the leader for tomorrow’s exam and it,, was,,, me,, group call with shiko. frantically studied for EA

5 - PT (finished in 45 mins), simul as a leader, with STEMI, VF and hypoglycemia case. somehow made it through. i suck at dosages omggg. PP by car with mom (not rly that tired) but i SLEPT after i got home and had no mood to study helpppp

6 - did my first swab test today. i pushed the doctors hand when she’s doing oropharyngeal swab im sorryyyy 😂. slept. matcha. cicil kompre

7 - still havent finished ikk (deadline: today), and still havent studied for geri and ikk AND i still managed to take a nap. why. Read a bit of kompre. Not sleepy after matcha, but insted i reread bj alex and tsubaki chou lonely planet until 2 am the next day #rippriorities

8 - im having matcha latte seven days in a row as of today :))))) woke up at 10:30 am, went to flavola with atikah and got strawberry yakult (tasted like es mony), arrived home at abt 7-ish am and there no dinner, so i drank protein and ate japota honey butter. My breakfast was chicken porridge, so my diet is sooo liquid today. Rip proper nutrition (ate buryam, lumpia, japota for the whole day and drank 3 beverage). Cicil kompre and studied geri

9 - suma geri, slept, cicil kompre, ny head kind of hurts

10 - my head still hurts, suma ikk with dr herqu and dr retno, didnt take swab result by car because the TRAFFIC in soetta so my brother took it. Thankfully negative.

11 - lulus kompre alhamdulillah, the examiner were Prof Saptawati and dr. Dani from THT. Dr dani still remembered me :"") they were very kind. Went to tamel for first wahana: klinik makara UI. Picked up masker first at mahmudas place, and then went to depok. On the way i was interviewed by maba 2020 wtf im so old. Cleaned up my room with the fam, printed sumn in barel (its quite empty there)

12 - first day at klinik makara ui. i WALKED. such wow. fixed my shoes in kutek. had breakfast in barel and bahari for lunch-dinner. somehow i felt very drained. bought Dapur Alya (nutella and regal) and 2 salads from Salad Point since there was 11.11 promo. Put all of them in the fridge. Read Fools and its sooo good omg

13 - had salad and left over bahari rice for brekkie. went to clinic by grabbike :)))), had my first teleconsultation experience today, a chemical trauma case. suma ea with the help of shiko

14 - woke up at 5:20 ish and i jogged a bit at ui lmaoo. fisip - ft - fisip. By 6:30 im already back at my room. 1 hour can be spent a lot of different ways, it turns out. Washed my clothes. Ate monstercheese pizza. Slept a bit. Went to blok m with ara (she was late as always, surprised her with koi milk tea), ate futago ya (greasy cheesy milky goodness, enak tapi eneg afterwards), bought red bean bread at la mouette, bought discounted onigiri bento box at papaya. We went to m bloc space, looked around, ate gelato at kebunide (blueberry: yum, fresh, kiiinda feels artificial, salted caramel: delicious but makes me thirsty) and did photobox at connectoon. Walked to mrt asean but turns out!! for weekends mrt is closed at 8pm. Took grabbike to sudirman, seeing the pretty city and people just hanging out, playing skateboards on the wide sidewalks.

15 - planned to go jogging with salemba frens but i woke up late (06:45), so i just lazed around. Ate onigiri bento (super worth it for 25k for the proteins), fell asleep again 10ish to 14:30 lmaoo. The doms from yesterday was present even on the right side of my lower back 🙂 the red bean bread made me feel full, and the red bean was not too sweet, which i love. Reviewed some meshwork materials i missed. Fianti called and we talked abt her and hari

16 - had mujigae for sahur and fish bite for iftar. The fish was not as soft as fish streat, but the flour was definitely better and crunchy. But it doesnt have the seasoning micin like fish streat do. The pasta was quite a lot im in food coma afterwards. Fell asleep, and my stomach was so gassy that i woke up in the middle with a headache that does not play around. Fortunately it dissapeared in the morning

17 - breakfast is rice kimchi and abon lmaoo just pretend it makes sense. The scrubs i ordered finally arrived. I fell asleep AGAIN, WHYYYY. Lost my streak in DL, i guess i can stop using it for now.

18 - finished reading blood link, girlll i thought the human died at the end. Did not buy food today wow. Took a nap and cicil kompre.

19 - brekkie at barel. Helped measuring antropometry today at clinic, and also measured my own. The fucked up thing was that i THOUGHT my body fat is still at 28% compared to the past (dr rina's research). So i looked at the old paper AND. I USED TO HAVE. 35% FAT 🙂 even my memories are in denial and are fooling me. All this time i thought i was at 28 🙂 did swab at rsui. The one swabbing was from fkui 2012 and we had small talk. It hurted more than lmk :( now this does feel like drowning in water (cause before i said "nah its not like water in nose"). Took angkot back to tamel, bought piscok lumer pocin and its soooo gooood ugh

20 - i feel like if i have breakfast with leftover rice and abon and sozzis i get hungry faster lmaoo. Ordered ken karaage from kukusan, yaa okela for 25k with ongkir. Did online posbindu education through wa. BTS BE COMEBACK 🥺 i maximized my wifi time (no wifi at tamel) so i listened to the whole album. My mobile data is at 200MB lol. Read a good longreads from the atlantic, about down synd and genetic screening. The writing is so so good im just blown away. And teary eyed.

21 - ran a bit, solid class (gastro, rheum, infection), embryo, webinar about sleep by dr Gita Anindyajati, SpKJ, bought ayam geprek gold chick (lotsss of oil since i ordered tempe, jamur, egg, bought pop cookies. matcha cheese was actually better than i expected (the combination somehow fits), dark chocolate and marshmallow is very chocolatey like mom’s brownies, and vegan strawberry cookie with a hint of mint. i wonder how they replace the egg. I wonder why after i run i dont feel hungry for a moment. bloating just gooes away

22 - joined kris' healthy weekly event (lmao) in tamsur. They went to epiwalk first. Its difficult for me to run w mask, ngl. Went back to tamel, embryo, ate leftover meal from gold and chick, felt somehow drained to the bone so i just laid in bed and lazed and lazed. Theres no soreness, but the weakness was generalized lmao. Ordered bbq chicken almond salad from salad point, it was actually quite fulfilling and delishhh (added chili sauce to the dressing). Literally laid in bed from 7 until i fell asleep and woke up at 6 the next day. Finished readin shame application lmao

23 - i still feel tired ckckck. No doms, but i feel like i just want to lay down. got DV patient today at clinic, its most likely derm numularis??? Ate salad and dark choco marshmallow cookies in the evening and that cookie. Is so damn sweet im just thinking about the increase in my blood sugar. And i like sweets so!!! Never thought id find sumn too sweet. Washed my clothes and cicil ukmppd (i put things about studying ukmppd in habitica now)

24 - ate tanoshi sushi and ufo ramen for bfast, ate the sushi again for lunch and after waking up from my sleep i tried kokku ramen (so so, but the egg yolk's good)

25 - bfast: superbubur, protein shake and cookies. (did not make me feel full long enough). Ordered burger from EATG (so so, burger bener is better) for lunch. Last day at makara ui. Ara arrived coz shes staying here in tamel. Waiting for mom to arrive from cibubur, she arrived at about 20:30. I passed out at home

26 - first day in pkm kalideres, i volunteered to be pj to avoid RSUD. my room is a mess, i feel tired after i go back. maybe its the physical withdrawal (?) because i dont walk like when im on klinik makara. came to pkm thinking i wont do anything (orientation only) but the 6 of us ended up going. i was at igd. i saw nail extraction and injected ats for another patient 

27 - talked for almost an hour with the doctor at poli lansia. went home, felt sooo tired, i slept and actually showered after maghrib. originally planned to go to sbux but i was just tired af. my mood was horrible at home. 

28 - turns out i started my period today. i havent studied at all during pkm kalideres era. embryo. slept again. read some manga by nishin something with the psychological and BL genre. 

29 - embryo. cut my hair, showered, and felt better. fell asleep on dr gita's lecture. Drank cimory banana milk with a bit of matcha powder. I dont know if its the sleep, or a bit of caffeine, but my mood feels better and im more awake. Cicil ukmppd with a slow pace. Read itasaku ff. Slept at about 2 am

30 - surprisingly, i dont feel sleepy when i wake up. poli anak today, surprisingly i got perinatology case (jaundice). presented it on pleno. for bfast i ate 3 slice of bread (2 with meat and cheese, 1 choco and cheese) and protein shake, lunch: a slice of choco cheese bread and a banana, fell asleep, dinner: 1 bakwan, a banana and nextar. i can feel that the calories i got today is even less than what i usually got (and usually i already try to limit calories that i am counting the intake amout and made sure im not too far from my bmr lmaoo (~1100)

[shytiff]

Small Oct Wins

1 - DL, its bts week on fallon 🥰🥰also chuseok, which means content >>>, cicil dk ikk, rapat sponsor and talked and raged with regen abt mpi and manhwa lmao, group call shiko

2 - DL, finished 4 dk ikk wow!!, read dear door sampe ujung

3 - DL, symptoms ipd WHILE trying to losten to resus cairan fkdigital and i failed to listen to fkdigital lmao in the beginning they talked abt different fluids, my kompre is in Nov!! Can take a slight breath of air. Cicil kompre

4 - DL, symptoms, ordered krispy face (tasted so so), started reading sign, its so hilarious but the antagonist just doesnt make sense. too dysfunctional

5 - DL, ea simulation (got cushing syndrome, yay us for rosc!), forgot my scrub pants so i borrowed from indah, the way back homd (PP motor) was hooot, cicil banifidi, talked with ara for 1,5 hrs abt mental health and past traumas lmaoo

6 - DL, cicil geri, read raise ga wa tanin ii

7 - formatif geri, originally meant to go to puri with atikah to get seirockya, but its closed. So we walked to lippo, got genki sushi takeaway, walked to carrefour where we parked, and on the way back atikah had this sudden idea of eating @ taman 45. So we did. We reminisced old memories while eating rice bowls and sushi at park. Sounded pretty great except its taman 45 lmaoooo. Took a nap at atikahs place and then i went back. Tried matcha cookie by Chips Chat Lexley, its too crumbly :(( the taste was so so

8 - was sooo drained i dunno why. Slept and lazed around until 11-ish after i managed to shower and eat. Rip stamina. DL. Formatif with stella manda, dr asti and dr fuady. Digorenggg. the dark chocolate cookie tasted quite good. Finally a cookie that did not fail

9 - helped ical and ara for simul kompre, e, DL, played among us with candra and solid, paused the game to do formatif ea lmao. i need to studyy aaa

10 - DL, my body felt tooo drained from 1 (one) exercise lol. Symptoms. Ordered mujigae and janjiw caramel latte 1L because 10 10 promo. lazed all afternoon. planned to run because it’s cloudy but wacana is life. Watched MOTS On:E with racheel. Gladi resik nemo. Saw hakken cosplay’s IG live. among us. i was an impostor with cibe (participant: 10) and i somehow won lmaoo. edited 2 pld article so i finally caught up! just need to wait some more articles from reporter

11 - DL, symptoms, wasted my time rereading vampire knight for the n-th time

12 - DL, QA KMKP, read banifidi while drinking janjiw caramel latte and on god coffee rly helps me to focus and not get sleepy, talked with ara abt her session with dr jiemi (emotion vs cognition)

13 - DL, there’s no class today uye, drank caramel latte janjiw at 11am and yall i somehow became productive. finished reading banifidi, 2Padi. 

14 - Became captain at simul today, kasus HPP, i forgot to put O2 wtf :((((, bought 2 1-L package from sbux dm after school, and with +15k you get green tea frappe so i sat there for a bit for DT, felt a bit better (like im a normal functioning person???? like i dont feel sluggish). cicil IKK, passed lvl 4 DL

15 - DL, nemo as 2nd operator, vanilla latte nyom, thats all folks unfortunately

16 - DL, theres no schedule today, woke up at 10 am, vanilla latte and cicil PT, cicil IKK (only did a bit today), among us and i was the impostor 4 times lmaoo

17 - symptoms, in the soop 7, e, read on/off its too hilarious!! Finished 1 sitasi kompre

18 - last in the soop ep :(, e, DL, tugas kasus harian geri

19 - DL, the table i bought has arrived!, cicil IKK, joined ukmppd course, started at 18:30, its now 22:36,  still 14 questions to go... 

20 - DL, qa discussion with group, bought some plastic shoe boxes online, its cheap and it is great, bcs my shoes used to sit there in plastic bags, organized some stuff in my room for a bit!! my metal rack looks less messy yay. dk ikk, les

21 - Started my day early (finished shower by 7:30), DL, finished 1 ltm ikk and 1 sitasi PT, JK went live in youtube with his long hair and undercut, and literally afterwards YG came on vlive playing guitar. Its a good day indeed :”) its cloudy today, just a perfect shared to listen to youtube’s lofi study playlist. Barely paid attention in today's les, i rly need to reread the forensic one

22 - DL, formatted qa docx, looong qa zoom, read the dops form, tidied up my stuff for tomorrow and while waiting for les the dumbass me didnt realize that the mic is on and i muttered "masker n95..." lmaoooo. Paid attention in les. Took a shower while leaving the zoom (q&a sesh) and turns out its finished at 22:45. Yalll the tutors dedication though

23 - simul, waited around a bit, bought halo bowl from grab since im at school all day, tried chicken pesto. made me feel full, tasted like a typical "healthy food", not too oily. OK in the afternoon, did not get dops (not surprised), was today years old when i found out you can park motorbike beside gedung putih. Went home while listening to kuliah guru besar. Passed out in the 2nd part of les (bedah). That adds more of my course debt lmao

24 - Im trying out habitica now so DL documentations will be moved theree, trying to add the habit of reading quran. watched in the soop behind and dalbang, watched the social dilemma halfway (message: careful of being the social media’s product), ate nayam, slept again and woke up at 5 pm, made status anes, les (the freshest ive been so far. maybe because its saturday night, there’s only about 25+ participating until the end from the usual 50+)

25 - woke up early and showered, slept again, ate breakfast at 12 pm with banana and 2 brownies i need sugaar, reviewed forensics (les), made half of ltm ikk wow im kind of proud, submitted asinkronus, eval nemo

26 - icu and simul, the way back home was pleasantly cloudy, slept and woke for les, read anti PT and oh my assisant since i cant sleep during the night

27 - did ikk ppt, read TO SOLID answers (i got 65 and i feel sooo stupid, but the grade somehow changed to 66 which means pass), slepttt during the afternoon, dk ikk was pending bcs dr Indri was still doing surgery at 18:00. Les

28 - Felt like doing nothing. Watched the latest dalbang, PT briefing, dk ikk, les. Thats it omgggg my time keeps flying away

29 - Started my day early (6:30am) since i slept all the time :):):)), finished 1 ltm ikk, tried truffle belly, the nanban one. good enough and the rice is not too much which is nice. i dont rly know how the truffle oil’s supposed to smell (ive tried tubo before but i still have no idea). chose wahana choice for MPI (bismillah!!), finished reviewing TO SOLID 1, les

30 - it took me a whole day to read 1 (one) sitasi PT but im still proud nonetheless, how did time flyyyy tf. You’d think that this 5 day “holiday” i would learn a lot for kompre (haven’t started) and quickly checked off my to do list. for les i pulled the table near my bed so i was half listening half reading Private Lesson while laying down lmao

31 - checked 2 acads to do (i feel like when i do things in advance there will be stuff that make me go "ah tau gt nanti aja"), bingeing romee strijd's YouTube and its miracle i dont feel like shit after watching it (they literally go do amsterdam from sg to put their bags and then theyll go to miami?!), afternoon nap coz i cqnt bring myself to study kompre, cicil kompre bismillah.docx, last day of les (im not strong enough to follow until the end, bailed halfway), read a bit of blood link lmao, WTF ITS NOV 15 MINS FROM NOW :((( (writing this after sheetmasking, its 23:42) still not prepared for ukmppd kompre God Help Me

And thats it for Oct! I feel like there were some terrible mood phases, some ok ones, and those rare days when im up and about and refreshed and feel like doing things (most days im a sloth). Hope to do (and feel) better in Nov