#*lived (it’s not a chia post w/out typos)

[dalkyeom]

I don’t remember if I said but hhhh just in case tysm for your kind words about my Chan studies chia 🥹✨💕💕💕 I’m glad you liked them and my notes hehe I’m finishing up studies on hanji too so I’ll hopefully have those up soon 😈💕 hope you’re well!!!

You did so well, Izzy moon! 🥺💖 also not me reading the texts bc it’s so fun to understand how artists processes their observations. I think you captured his likeness very well 😌💗 like you managed to capture his key features! You really did it 🥺 I’m excited to see more of your skz art when you drop him like definitely looking forward to the Chris art 💗

Good luck with Hanji!! He has the fluffiest cheeks ever 😭 I’m looking forward to it! I remember I used to struggle with him bc it’s been so long since I drew softer features after a good few years of bara men draws😂

[jiessicas]

some notes on girlblogging

deep appreciation of bell hooks as a girlblogger [in piecing together her spiritual practice, she writes that she takes bits and pieces from different practices]

caroline busta’s piece in document magazine from 2021 lives in my head rent free [Instead of attempting to dismantle the master’s house using the master’s tools, it’s more something like: Let’s pool crypto to book the master’s Airbnb and use the tools we find there to forge a forest utopia that the master could never survive.]

ace sparkly kat's / adrienne maree brown's / alina stefanscu's / chia amisola's / olivia mckayla ross' prolific archival practices

substack scares me / i don’t know how to write on substack though i enjoy reading others’ (i mustered one post from fall 2022/winter 2023 & summer 2022)........ & this piece by terry nguyen on girlblogging is so good (its limits, its situatedness)

it’s mother’s day; continually thinking of EEAAO- that reconciliation after estrangement because of relational shifts made between the mother daughter; also thinking of discourse & how people were split on how realistic and/or insufferable this relationship was - it made me think of a real sort of an illusory learned helplessness that (not exclusively but whose experience i am familiar with) asian american daughters carry from growing up

in a generous reading/workshop, dana suggested the futurity of girlhood in a line i wrote; elsewhere, i wonder about how we give our childhoods futures, as we live with our child selves, how the ways we care for our children indicate how a society stewards its future

anything bell hooks has written about girlhood and children and the meditative distance between her self and ideas via the pen name she adopted

kaitlin m chan on the stakes - on a predecessor to girlblogging, collaging the overlaps between lived experiences, embodied reality, social/political/structural/institutional power - developing curiosity around others’ realities and interior worlds - locating oneself in this personal canon thru this process - how one’s personal canon becomes a chorus

the personal, circuitous routes we take in locating ourselves / desire paths / the sylvia plath quote i used for my senior quote - to speak deeply with anyone

spent the last year essay texting, and addressing public groups in in-person settings [facilitating workshops, readings, speaking] -- this was very Character Building For Me [i'm chasing the humanities based, discussion-based learning communities i didn't let myself have in undergrad]

there are so many different registers i want to speak in, simultaneously, on the internet; i want it to feel as seamless as i feel when i move between different social spaces in a given day and find myself naturally shifting with where i am

girlblogging as a practice in making the weather… the conditions for precipitating … girlcondensation as a practice in raining down, decisively

thank u to kazumi w whom i find lots of welcomed condensation <3

(*douglas kearney*! i feel sheepish about this typo)

i forgot the tinyletter sunset date, sooooo i recompiled my subscriber list from old tinyletter notification emails, and sent out a lil email that was a precursor to the kernel launch 🫧

noticing the different kinds of centering that occur when i can take my time to speak (texting), and when i am placed in a time to speak (talking)