#*coughs* blade *coughs* says smth that sets u off and blergh all that hurt accumulated overtime just spills over leaving an

[baeshijima]

++ wdym i havent finished the high-cloud quintet reunion angsty fic which is kind of but not really a sequel bc it can be read as a standalone to the jing yuan longfic where its hurt/very little comfort with the confrontation and harsh reality check that no one is the same and things will not be able to go back to the way they were and watching blade and jingliu fight made you realise you held out hope for seven hundred years for nothing and go to leave but blade taunts you due to feeling unsatisfied by your lacklustre responses and so you lash out with all the pent up grief from over the centuries bubbles over and when jingliu asks if there is anything you want to say to her before she gets sent to the yaoqing you merely say "i wish i never got involved with all of you. at least then i wouldn't have waited like a fool for something that would never be" amongst other things and then walk off only to break down when you're a safe distance away and wonder why you couldn't say the things you really mean, say how you missed them and couldn't stop worrying over whether they were okay or not yet???

(set during the jingliu companion mission bc i hate the hcq and they make me sob whenever i just think about them :D)

going through all my old hsr and genshin concepts rn and omg i need to write/finish some of these like actually???

like?? wdym i havent started the fallen/banished god!blade x god!reader 20k slow burn pining hurt/comfort "i have never stopped thinking about you for the last millennia and now that you're finally here in front of me once more i won't let you go even if you try to flee" old friends to barely recognisable husk of former self (reader pov of blade) to lovers fic yet???

wdym i havent started the reverse transmigration into a murder mystery novel where ur a side character who gets killed off for cheap plot progression and served as the main character (diluc)'s reason for vengeance with aether and lumine having transmigrated into the novel before your death and save you only to not realise that things happen for a reason and now they are constantly trying to protect you from all forms of death alongside the growing ragtag group of the main cast as they vie for your attention fic yet????

wdym i havent started the kamisama kiss au fic for both genshin and hsr despite having so many brainrots about the possible dynamics between familiar!characters under your contract and fellow god!characters who you meet along the journey of being a god yet???

wdym i havent started the devoted-yet-dramatic knight!argenti x fed-up-but-secretly-loves-it heir!reader 10k comedy pining slight hurt/comfort fic yet???

wdym i havent started that one-sided rivals (character yet to be decided on) time travel into the future where you find yourself married to self-proclaimed rival and have a crisis over how you came to be wed and where this affection from them came to be while they're wondering why you're avoiding them and acting like you did when you were both still students fic yet???

wdym i havent finished the soulmate!blade or actor!blade fics yet despite having so much groundwork laid out for them???

wdym i havent finished the transmigration into a fodder side character and accidentally stealing all the male leads from the female lead and then some more despite it already being 8-9k words in fic yet???

wdym i havent started the hsr version equivalent of the prev wip fic yet???

wdym i havent finished the cat dad bass player previously renowned national fencer university student blade 10k pining fic yet???

wdym i havent finished the hsr celeb/actor!various au despite being 5k words in and constantly revising what characters im actually including in it fic yet???

WDYM I STILL HAVE MORE WIPS ASIDE FROM THESE??????